LUXITTA's SparkPeople Blog LUXITTA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community No gain challenge... So I didn't gain over this challenge but I didn't lose either... <BR> <BR> I find weekends difficult. I have no routine generally... where as throughout the week I'm pretty consistent. I'm either bored, and can eat randomly (I am definitely a bored eater) or I don't have time, or things are just being decided on a whim and I don't properly organize myself. <BR> <BR> This weekend would have been a bored weekend, however I did not over indulge or snack randomly. I was conscious of every bite ... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 18:24:19 EST Food tracker - Update So I must admit I am very proud of myself... <BR> <BR> Tracking all my food is a pain the butt, however you will not learn by avoiding the items you are eating by not tracking. You are still consuming wheather or not you choose to admit it or choose to ignore it. <BR> <BR> I think this is the first time I have consistently tracked going on 5 weeks I think. Everyday, every morsel, every taste... <BR> <BR> My choices are not always the best, but I do what I can and I plan to reach my goal... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 14:19:56 EST BLC Update... I often struggle during these bouts, but this time was a dozie... <BR> <BR> I partially blame my circumstances, moving to a new city - Joining a new gym etc. Change is hard for a lot of people and I was just not accustomed to anything. My good habits fell by the wayside and I felt like most days were upside down. <BR> <BR> I finally had a bit of a breakdown a couple weeks ago, not understanding how this happened... But with the help of my SP friends and team they have really uplifted me an... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 16:35:49 EST Mothers day resturaunt... So my brother and I took my mom out to a restaurant where she's from in Chatham, ON... She wanted to go to a rib/BBQ type place and I was a little Leary about the food selection. <BR> <BR> There was hardly anything to eat that I would consider healthy so I did the best I could with what I was given but man did her ribs ever look delicious! <BR> <BR> I ended up eating a chicken ceasar wrap with sweet potato fries... My mom and my brother went for the more un-healthy type of food but its th... Sun, 11 May 2014 19:35:47 EST My 12 week goal & how I feel about my fitness test... Alrighty, <BR> <BR> Hate blogging but here goes nothing. <BR> <BR> My goals for the next 12 weeks are going to be similar to what I've said and done before. <BR> <BR> Eat well - No dieting per say - I don't believe in cutting out foods out of your diet because they are bad. That being said moderation is definitely key. This will also need to be done by some excellent planning, however my life is becoming slightly hectic and I think I will need to be more of a planaholic then I ever have be... Sat, 3 May 2014 18:34:24 EST Smart goals for 2014 Good morning all, <BR> <BR> Smart goals for 2014 are as follows: <BR> <BR> 1. Not giving up on myself - This can be my biggest challenge. I tend to focus on the bad rather than the good and it can be my own worst enemy. When I start feeling negative feelings or thinking negative feelings it can impact everything from the way I eat to actually getting off my butt and exercising. Giving up entirely. <BR> <BR> I need to focus on the good weather or not my weight goes up or down. I need to re... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 05:31:48 EST Weekend plan Hello all, <BR> <BR> Haven't created a blog in sometime. <BR> <BR> Just posting how I will achieve my goal with my healthy eating choices this weekend. <BR> <BR> - I have all my meals planned out, breakfast, lunch and dinner. I find this the only way I can absolutely stick to my goals. <BR> <BR> - Due to real life occurrences... Its hard to say no when someone makes a snack for you, or puts some food out because they have company over etc. In my case this hasn't happened as of yet. Howeve... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 17:27:15 EST Goals My main goal is to be 160 - I am give or take 10lbs away and am actually having quite a difficult time getting there. <BR> <BR> I have no 'diet' per say that I follow - - I just don't believe in them. I believe my goal is attainable by eating anything I want, but the key is moderation. I know what foods are good for me, and I know what foods aren't so good for me, however this does not mean I have to avoid items like the plague... I've tried it - it doesn't work for me. <BR> <BR> This is th... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 17:48:29 EST Day one - BLC My titles are often quite boring... <BR> <BR> So I had a loss today, really great... I was expecting it because I have been trying really hard. A lot of people tend to slack when BLC is over but I think I just tried harder. Results are proving to be good as well... I'm at the lowest weight I've ever been and that to me is fantastic! <BR> <BR> My team seems pretty motivated which will keep my sprits high when I'm having a bad day and push me to do better! I like that... I look forward to g... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 18:12:16 EST Weigh in day 5 - Until next BLC Good morning all! <BR> <BR> So my spirits are higher since my last weigh in... Lost everything I gained plus some, so it seems my attempts to get back on track weren't worth nothing. Hoping when I go for my vacation in 10 days I don't lose out on that, but its a vacation right?? I don't plan on binging while I'm there *maybe with alcohol* which isn't helpful either, but we shall see... I'm not there yet but I do plan on taking advantage of the exercise that will be there before me. Hope ever... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 05:38:52 EST Weigh in day 4 - New Years realization Good morning, <BR> <BR> I don't have a new years resolution this year per say, I think a person should attain goals throughout an entirety of a year and not just at the very beginning. <BR> <BR> That being said my mind set is somewhat turning more negative. Probably because I keep saying I'm going to do better, and know that I'm not doing better, and continue to eat badly. My own fault yes... I went up this morning to 181.8 pretty much 2lbs from last week. I'm not impressed. <BR> <BR> So ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 05:55:38 EST Weigh in day 3 - Until next BLC Good morning all! <BR> <BR> Had to weigh myself today because I wasn't home yesterday. I gained 0.4 lbs and honestly I'm surprised. I haven't been doing well due to the holidays, and random goodness laying around everywhere. I didn't resist temptation at all. So I gained a bit, it could have been worse but I'm not upset about it. <BR> <BR> Today and going forward I am going to get back on the horse and keep going. It's the only way to go. I already got my work out in this morning, and hope ... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 05:26:47 EST Tis the season to be Jolly!!!!!!! Jolly in a fat kind of way! <BR> <BR> HAHA! I have not done so well in the last 2 days... No time for tracking, no time for exercise, no time for nada! This is must work on today. Today will be a test in itself cause its christmas with the in-laws, and I know there will be lots of goodies around everywhere and I'm going to try not to eat them. OR binge out... One or 2 might be okay depending on the circumstances. <BR> <BR> I did get my exercise on ... I did 45 mins of Zumba and regretted ev... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 09:55:44 EST Weigh in day 2 - Until next BLC Good morning all. <BR> <BR> Dropped only 0.2 lbs... Seems like small beans but I will take any little bit. I keep trying and trying and my clothes seem to fit differently, looser so I am still happy about the regimen I am keeping. Hope to lose a little more next week, though with Christmas coming up fast it may be difficult. <BR> <BR> See you all soon! Wed, 19 Dec 2012 05:26:56 EST Weigh in day 1 - Until next BLC Morning all! <BR> <BR> So the last 2 weeks of BLC I didn't drop any weight, only maintained which was slightly upsetting. This morning I dropped 0.4 lbs... Not a lot but I'll take it. I think I need to start being harder on myself when it comes to my diet. We'll see what next week brings. <BR> <BR> Yesterday after work I got my hair done (Looks fab) and bought 2 new bathing suits for my upcoming trip! So excited! Wed, 12 Dec 2012 05:53:15 EST Education Learning is very rewarding... <BR> <BR> This weekend I started learning to drive. All day on Saturday before my lesson I was dreading it. My instructor bless his soul is so patient, and thinks I'm doing very well. It's beginning to give my confidence back, which is really good. I also learned that parallel parking is soooooooo easy! <BR> <BR> Today I began learning the guitar! My friend Devin is a really good player, and we've decided every Sunday he is going to give me a lesson and then gi... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 17:40:57 EST Day 4 So the whole eating thing did not go as expected today. I started the day out really well, but my body began to feel terrible as the day went on. <BR> <BR> Instead of having something good for supper I ate grilled cheese and chicken noodle soup. Nothing to major but not enough fiber and too much sodium. Alas I didn't want to eat anything at all but I did and these are the choices that I make. <BR> <BR> I will continue to focus on these things as I always do, but they are hard items to over... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 18:31:26 EST Food eaten thus far... So yesterday I did well. I maintained all of my categories but 2 and it is the two I struggle with most. Fiber and sodium... <BR> <BR> Not enough Fiber and too much sodium. These things take time though and I will work through this more carefully each and everyday. <BR> <BR> Today it seems the foods I ate for breakfast are a little high in calories... It's 3P.M now so I should be good until dinner and I will eat well. The kicker will be going to my friends house for his birthday. My friend... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 15:12:41 EST Just because everyone else is doing it... I think sometimes we eat to fit in, not cause we're hungry or need it or feel the need to eat emotionally. <BR> <BR> I learned something yesterday. I went out for lunch and had a huge lunch, then planned on going with some friends for a late dinner thinking I would be hungry again. I also thought we would go somewhere healthy where I could buy a salad or something light. <BR> <BR> To tell you the truth, I didn't need to eat dinner. I still wasn't hungry and hardly wanted to. But I did eat,... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 07:55:24 EST Today... Yes I have no interesting title.. Meh. It's Monday right? <BR> <BR> So today it seems I ate within range of everything! I'm so proud of myself! I also burned off 245 cals... It seems like I'm getting a head start this week, but it seems I probably won't have much time Friday or Saturday as its Canada's thanksgiving... Must remind myself not to pig out! <BR> <BR> We are also having a potluck on Thursday at work... I must try my best to over indulge this weekend! Mon, 1 Oct 2012 18:52:58 EST Paintballing Why does SP not have an option for this on the tracker? <BR> <BR> This is a very very difficult game, and though it is a game it is still working out probably every muscle in your body. I know I hurt today... The game is very very scary because its a simulation of war tactics and I mean you don't wanna get shot though it is inevitable. I am not very good lol... <BR> <BR> It was fun though... I enjoyed myself wholeheartedly and I think I may try to do this again sometime. I'm definitely not... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 15:27:07 EST Weekend update... So its been a little tough to get through today... Perhaps emotions or boredom I'm not sure. <BR> <BR> I woke up to become angry with my boyfriend, I feel he leaves everything for me to do all the time cooking/cleaning etc. While he gets to go out and have fun. I kind of feel like his mother. So he's been out all day paintballing while I've been cleaning. I have calmed down a bit since then, I think I just need to talk to him in a calm manner... <BR> <BR> I haven't made the best eating cho... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 17:32:05 EST Weigh in day I have a bit of time before work so I thought I would quick blog... <BR> <BR> Weigh in this morning wasn't all I hoped it would be. I guess I knew I was going to go over, but didn't expect to go over by 3.4 lbs. I feel somewhat depressed, but at the same time its my own fault for consuming as much crap as I have over the last little while. I need to be more strict, when I go somewhere just because ppl put munchie food out doesn't mean I have to eat it, and just because I have munchie food in... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 06:12:59 EST Weekend Temptations... Are really hard to deal with... I really realized it this time around. <BR> <BR> All weekend I was busy with either family or friends and wasn't home until today. It is really difficult to get in the healthful options you want to get in, when they are ordering pizza or preparing your food. You can eat reasonably of course, but when you're drinking alcohol and socializing and there are snacks everywhere its hard not to munch out. <BR> <BR> I will admit eating wise and even exercise wise, I... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 16:00:47 EST Creative Writing 101 It is 4a.m. and I am tired, but I cannot sleep... I think I got the case of the excitement a little even though I don't start work till Monday I cannot stop thinking about stuff in general. <BR> <BR> So it's Friday and I thought I would get in my creative writing... Be productive and what not. <BR> <BR> My plan: Eating I'm going to plan on choosing healthier options for myself. We are on a bit of a budget due to me not working so this may prove difficult but it will allow for me not to ea... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 04:08:39 EST New Job :) So originally this morning I had decided on the lesser paying job. I felt I was better suited for it and could utilize my abilities there more. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately I didn't get it, and the guy almost called me back way to late. As soon as I got the news I called the higher paying job and I was offered it to start on Monday. <BR> <BR> I am so scared... I don't know why, I'm sure I will excel. I do well in most things I learn but I' still worried. I know I should be happy and I am a litt... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 17:29:11 EST Interviews... So as I have stated before, I've been having a hard time finding work and getting interviews... And at the interviews I haven't really had a lot of luck as I am so nervous all the time. <BR> <BR> This morning not only did I have 1 interview but I had 2.... I feel they both went over really well but the decisions are going to be hard to make. <BR> <BR> Job 1: So far away... I will be on the bus for at least 3 hours a day. (Not sure if its worth it) The money is good, the job sounds uber ch... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 12:24:10 EST This morning/Last night... I did zumba for 45 minutes on my wii and was wiped out, but that's a good feeling right? I am glad that this was the first thing I did when I woke up. I feel if I would have waited it wouldn't have gotten done, so for that I am proud! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I watched a few episodes of the biggest loser and wow... that show is somewhat annoying with everyone's drama but it also was really sad. To see people lose a dramatic amount of weight and see how they feel about it must be amazing. I know i... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 10:00:03 EST What's been up with me... Okay, so I haven't been as dedicated to myself as I would have liked but today that stops... no more excuses! <BR> <BR> I am still jobless, but I am still staying positive and looking for work everyday. I am hoping that during one of my interviews someone will see through my nervousness and take me on. <BR> <BR> My dad is taking me and my boyfriend to St. Lucia in January so I have a goal to aim towards. I would like to look fantastic in a bathing suit! If I do get a job I think I'm going ... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 09:41:11 EST Feeling great! So school is over as I mentioned before, and I actually have the time to plan, and eat well... Exercise to, weather it be actual exercise or just getting out and being active. <BR> <BR> I felt great this morning when I saw a 3lb loss so I must be doing something right. I hope this coming week is just as swell :) <BR> <BR> And maybe I will find a job :o *which I'm really hoping for* <BR> <BR> Ciao for now... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 14:42:10 EST Sorry This would be an apology to myself and my friends on Spark People... <BR> <BR> About 3 weeks ago I began having major stress... And pretty much decided to stop coming on here. Couldn't find the time at all. I also couldn't find the time to exercise or eat right. I have been steadily gaining weight over those last few weeks. My apology to my friends is not being as accessible as I would have liked to been. I know a lot of people sort of rely on me kicking their bums so to speak so here I am. ... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 06:23:01 EST eww sweat Okay so anyone who lives in the states or Canada must know that it is very hot out lately. Yes summer is here etc. <BR> <BR> The older I get the more I seem to perspire and when I say perspire I'm exaggerating. I feel like a disgusting man who can't make it stop lol... <BR> <BR> My question is does anyone else have this same problem? If so how do you go about hiding it when out in public? There's nothing like going out for lunch or a beer with a friend and then half your stomach is soaked ... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 06:26:24 EST Smoking... I can't tell you how terrible I feel about being almost a smoker again... Almost is the key word. I have had about 1 every day for the last week and I say almost because I haven't quite gone all the way and bought a pack. It has been almost 6 months total since I quit with the random one here and there, and I was quite proud of myself but now I feel I am falling into a pit that is beyond my control. I know its in my control but sometimes it doesn't feel that way. I feel like its every where I... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 15:44:12 EST We make bad choices when... Don't you just love how you/we always make bad choices when something goes horribly wrong, and we feel we can justify it due to the circumstances? I did this today. <BR> <BR> Yes I am depressed about how my midterm went, and still I want to cry because I think I failed. But I totally did not take into account the reason I was shoveling in the poutine at lunch time into my mouth. I know I wasn't even hungry, what possessed me to eat? I was feeling sick due to the test, and then afterwards I f... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 15:57:31 EST Overwhelmed... I know that I am not the only one who goes through these days/weeks/months but sometimes it helps to write about it, plan, organize ones thoughts... <BR> <BR> I used to blog every other day or so and I just realized I haven't done is in almost 2 weeks so that right there should show how busy I am. I am proud however, about how I am still attempting to eat well, exercise and still make it a daily ritual to come online every single day. 6 straight months now. I think that is the longest I've ... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 14:57:06 EST Dear Rockin Rangers... This blog is on behalf of Jenn, no she did not ask me to write but I feel that I should write because I understand how she feels. <BR> <BR> When you are part of a team you work together in order to achieve a common goal. What is our goal? To lose weight, be healthy etc. It does not matter if we win or lose, but participation is key. (I know I shouldn't really talk because I am not that open in the forums as of late, but if I could I would...) That does not mean I neglect my team members if ... Thu, 31 May 2012 16:12:08 EST Wow... I haven't written a blog since last Wednesday! <BR> <BR> I have about 10 minutes before I leave for my never ending day so I thought I would get on here and write. It's weird that I am hardly writing these days. I used to post a blog nearly every single day. Meh... Shows how busy I am I suppose. <BR> <BR> So last week disappointed, this week I'm ecstatic! I thought while being disappointed I should do something about it. I know It end to over eat and this is one of my largest issues. Battl... Wed, 30 May 2012 06:50:58 EST Disappointed I'm really disappointed in myself lately. <BR> <BR> I'm lying to myself about the things that I eat, or I don't track but I still know that I can't possibly be within my range. I am steadily gaining back all the weight I have lost. Only 2 more lbs to go before I'm back at my starting weight and this worries me because it took me almost 6 months to lose hardly anything and a month to gain it all back. <BR> <BR> Why do we do this to ourselves... Its shameful almost. So My goal from now unti... Wed, 23 May 2012 16:23:26 EST Weekend bad habits So I didn't track all my calories on Saturday because I couldn't remember everything but I'm 100% sure I went over my daily quota. We went to a bbq and there was so much food, and it was difficult not to munch out on all the wonderful items that were there. Most of them were healthy but the simple fact was that I over ate. <BR> <BR> Yesterday same thing... I was doing well then we went grocery shopping and its been so hot the last few days that I thought hey lets get some drumsticks (The nes... Mon, 21 May 2012 08:36:39 EST Thanks I'm feeling much better today, and I think a lot of it has to do with the people here on spark people who keep pushing me towards the feelings I NEED to have. <BR> <BR> Though I didn't know what was wrong before, and I really still haven't a clue... And those of you who helped me along *You know who you are* probably haven't a clue I just want to thank you all! <BR> <BR> It's time for me to shake off the negativity and grab a hold of the positivity that people express and ooze and join the... Sat, 19 May 2012 09:51:23 EST I don't know whats wrong with me... This whole week has been a cluster ____ (fill in the blank)for me. <BR> <BR> I don't know why it has been so terrible, and I know certain things have been setting me off but all in all OMG! <BR> <BR> I feel like I'm Pmsingx100 I feel overwhelmed, stressed out, sad, angry... All at one time. I am not pmsing, and I have no idea why I feel the way I do. My boyfriend seems to believe that it is because I have been busy constantly that I have no time for myself to sit and reflect for just a mo... Fri, 18 May 2012 06:43:05 EST Discouraged today... I think I'm just having a slum day, and only I can make matters worse... <BR> <BR> I weighed in this morning and saw that I gained 3lbs... Now before you all go telling me muscle weighs more than fat, and it could be water weight etc. It probably isn't. I'm not trying to be negative, just realistic. I'm not happy with this. <BR> <BR> I went to my longest day of school (9 hours) and during my last class I couldn't take it anymore! Our teacher gave us a break, and you know what I did? I went... Wed, 16 May 2012 19:05:01 EST Still here... To all my spark friends thanks for your support. I'm still kicking and I think finally last night I got a little ahead in my school work! Yay! This is why I am able to blog right now - though it is 6:17 a.m. Which shows that I am still quite busy. <BR> <BR> I'm still here and still trying - I regret that I haven't been able to participate as much as I would like to in my teams but I am still moving, still motivated and still here for all of you if you need it. <BR> <BR> Motivating fact - I... Fri, 11 May 2012 06:21:56 EST Its only tuesday... I want the week to be over... I mean I really really want it to be over. <BR> <BR> I try not to complain about my 'business' as I know other peoples lives are probably a bit more hectic then mine, but ideally I don't like feeling this overwhelmed. Its only my 2nd day of school and already the homework has been piled on and I don't know where to start. I tried getting some of it done on a break I had today but alas I only got through a small portion so I know I will be plugging away at it ton... Tue, 8 May 2012 16:38:46 EST Calorie goals How does one know what their calorie goal intake should be. I mean how does one know for sure? I changed some of my settings in SP and then my calorie intake changed as well. <BR> <BR> So what if I didn't change it would I be eating more calories then I should be? If I just left my regimen the same but changed it slightly out here in the real world would eating too many calories affect my weight loss progress. <BR> <BR> If anyone knows more about this and could share that would be awesome... Sun, 6 May 2012 11:07:02 EST breakfast OMG! <BR> <BR> I went for breakfast and thought I ate a relatively healthy breakfast. Man sometimes I surprise myself and what I think is an actually good meal can soon turn on me in a second. Lets just say that after I tracked everything in my breakfast (That is of course what I think was in it) I was over my sodium and fat intake. I am a little disappointed. I try very hard to be nutritionally conscious but sometimes especially when you go out you have no idea. <BR> <BR> I will take it e... Sat, 5 May 2012 14:10:34 EST Back I'm back from my mothers just in time for another weekend. I hope I do okay, I want tot do better as I have not been eating the best at my moms. With every good came a bad, and it was just an on going thing. I got home and exercised and I am going to try and be good! <BR> <BR> I'm a little miffed at my boyfriend as he did not try and keep the place clean but just added to the uncleanliness of the whole ordeal. I spent an hour and a half trying to clean up what he left me :/ Not impressed. I ... Fri, 4 May 2012 16:43:16 EST Weekend Oi - Weekends are still hard to manage it seems. With all the running around and visiting others and doing things when you wish you were doing other things it just all gets to be hectic. <BR> <BR> Then you stop eating right, and exercising and it leads you on this wild path to self destruction. I am not there yet. Close, and I'm worried about the upcoming week where I won't have these tools to help me. Thankfully my mom is quite food concious herself so I should be able to manage probably, ... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 16:30:22 EST The next 12 weeks... I feel I have done this already but as part of my weekend challenge I must speak about how I will set my goals the next 12 weeks. <BR> <BR> Planning is key, I try and plan most things. Though often it can be hard to plan for events like visiting family and getting exercise in. When it comes to situations like this I try to play with the kids to just be a little more active then just sitting around and lounging with family. I'm going to my moms next week and she doesn't drive (neither do I) ... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 12:05:16 EST Oi - With some excitement as well... My blog may be a little confusing to some. <BR> <BR> To start my day, I wrote my exam (which I'm not sure how I did on, I'm thinking 50/50) While writing my exam I got my aunt flo. I also gained a lb and 3 inches back. I'm feeling a little discouraged. <BR> <BR> On the upside... BLC starts today and I am pumped and excited and motivated to do this thing, even though I still don't understand it 100% I am glad that everyone is so dedicated. I hope this stays this way, as I have noticed in th... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 11:22:34 EST