LUVGOODMUZIK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LUVGOODMUZIK LUVGOODMUZIK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The Not So Bright Idea http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836941 My fiance and I decided to do the walking trail instead of the gym today and on the way we had what I think was one of the most ludicrous conversations anyone who is serious about losing and keeping weight off would have. It was the "how we are going to treat ourselves when we drop the next ten pounds" discussion. His treat... a two piece from Popeyes <em>40</em> .. I was no better, I dreamed of a honey bun from this bakery in Thibodaux, La that bakes the best donuts on this planet. The... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 18:14:56 EST It Just Got Real http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836392 On a whim.. I bought a new scale. I've been using my old school standby and was pretty satisfied with it...but I decided to go with a new digital one that shows your BMI and all that jazz. <BR> <BR> So.. last night we (my fiance and I) decided to try it out and enter our profiles. I was pretty confident that I lost at least a pound and a half this week so it was all good. Lies! The scale picked up right were the other one left off. I even tried it again this morning after my morning ritual ... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 15:04:22 EST The Friday Before Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835331 I went through a spell last night where I almost regretted starting my weight loss journey (again) during the holiday season. How am I going to sit there and watch everyone else eat all the cakes, cookies and pies and I look for piece of fruit or some nuts? And don't get me started on the egg nog with bourbon... oooh chile. <BR> <BR> But I had to remind myself ... self, you have enjoyed over 40 years of good sugary treats so I think you could skip a slice of cake or two this year. Now... I... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 09:31:19 EST Gym at my fingertips http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830395 Today was the first day at my new gig, the wellness center, and the young lady training me advised that I have free access to all of the facilities. I can come in during business hours whether on or off and have it. I thought maybe we would have a discount or something like the rest of the hospital staff but since we actually work in the center it's all complimentary. <BR> <BR> <BR> Here it is.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1473898911.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Two... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 16:23:58 EST Surviving the Road Trip http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829553 Ever since Hurricane Katrina back in '05 I have done quite a bit of roadtrippin'. I chose to stay in Dallas after the storm but majority of my family, my mama, decided to move back to New Orleans. Since everybody has to go home to see their mama and 'nem during the holidays or what have you, I found myself travelling back and forth on the highway at least twice or more a year. What I discovered along the way from Dallas to New Orleans was quite a few road stops that offered cajun meat pies,... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 09:11:08 EST Say what now? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827386 I know I need to lose weight. I can stay in denial as much as I want to but the bottom line is this weight has got to go. <BR> <BR> So... my my fella was trying to take advantage of a free flu shot at his job. The nurse took his blood pressure and stopped him in his tracks. She called his captain (he's in law enforcement) who made him go over to the urgent care to get checked out. Which then led to the ER (why, I'm not sure why..because he was already cleared by urgent care...but that's a... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 08:00:13 EST 42 at 42 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825960 I told myself I wasn't going to write another thing until I actually got serious again. I have been on Spark since 2009 and been talking the same smack for the past five going on six years. One minute I'm all in the next I'm like "bump this," I'm just going to stay fat. <BR> <BR> Well ... I don't know if it's divine intervention or what, but after moving back to my hometown in September without so much as a prospect on the career front, I done found myself with a gig at a fitness center (a... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 18:26:53 EST Letting Go. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756882 This is not so much about weight loss as it is about me facing a week of pure anxiousness. I really want to start retraining my brain to began this weight loss journey again, but this is the last week my oldest son will be home before heading off to college. What I thought was going to be a easy transition is leading to daily secret crying in my bedroom closet. Seriously. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Everybody that knows me knows that I'm a the complete Mother Hen. I am in save-the-day mode al... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 12:36:29 EST The whole package http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755058 Once again I had another wake up call or "moment of enlightment" if you will, and it came in the form of a package of Chips Deluxe. I know I've slacked off for the hundredth time (you see what had happened was... I had my step-daughter for the summer, my oldest is going away to school so I'm dealing with mother-son attachment issues, the "fella" was going through some serious homesicknessness, I was being plain ole lazy...did I cover everything? yea, it seems I did) <BR> <BR> Anyway, it app... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 11:16:57 EST Black Girls Run?! We Walk, Too! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5703626 As long as I've been part of the Spark Family (since 2009) I'm pretty sure I've posted many blogs about my becoming a runner. I wake up with these dreams of sprinting on trails and treadmills with ease. I tell myself everytime I start that I will not give up and this will no longer be a dream deferred. <BR> <BR> Well..I'm here to tell ya. I'm a walker and proud of it. <BR> <BR> It's always been my thing and I see no reason to change now. I can do it with ease (no foot pain, no serious c... Mon, 26 May 2014 15:04:27 EST Weekend Mantra http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701426 I've decided to attempt this "runner" thang again. My calves feel like they've been set a-fire, but no pain, no gain. <BR> <BR> Plus.. I was Googling "tips on becoming a better runner" last night and read that running is a natural human ability. Duh!! There is no physical reason why I should not be able to do this. I done let this whole "walking is better for you" theory allow me to be brainwashed for years. What the hell am I scared of? <BR> <BR> We'll see how this goes. (Lawd knows I do... Fri, 23 May 2014 11:21:57 EST Day 127 - Water http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672754 Besides my ability to guesstimate the amount of calories in a single item, drinking water was something I managed to hold onto during this process I call "the ongoing weight loss debacle." <BR> <BR> I have fallen so far into slacker mode, even my water consumption has decreased. I used to drink water before/during and in most cases after every meal but recently I'm only drinking a bottle maybe two a day. <BR> <BR> So... starting today (which I was supposed to restart everything yesterday ... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 11:15:29 EST Day 115 - My Oh My http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663666 Wow... 115 days in and it feels like Day 1 all over again. <BR> <BR> Anywho.. this last week or so has been filled with purging (I was one magazine away from my own Hoarders episode, I tell ya), moving and transitioning so my gym visits have fallen to the wayside. Now that it seems life is getting back to normal, I'm trying to get myself re-committed. I try not to think of what progress I would've made if I would have found the time to at least get a 30 minute walk in or leave the fast fo... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 17:03:53 EST Day 100 - Best not to Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651779 Here I am at day 100 of my "Finally Getting Serious" weight loss journey and I must admit I'm not where I thought I would be and discovered once again how hard it is to keep that beast mode momentum going. But... I did realize one thing (as if I didn't know this already), stressing about not achieving goals won't help you accomplish a thing but headaches and food splurges. <BR> <BR> I don't know why I put so much pressure on myself to achieve this magical size that I swear would change my ... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 17:29:36 EST Day 96 - The Power of 'dem Jeans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648561 I've managed to make it to the gym pretty consistently this week. Trying to get the eating habits back in check, but I still am indulging a little more than I should. <BR> <BR> However.... I managed to slip on an old pair of jeans today that I haven't worn in quite a while and I didn't have suck it in, jump up and down or button under the belly. It was the wake-up call I needed. I'm not as off track as I thought I was. <BR> <BR> Someone can hold their head up a little higher this weeken... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 17:04:33 EST Day 90 - Spring Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643612 I did make a big promise to myself that I was going to start the month of March off in "beast" mode (well, in my case "small monster" mode) but needless to say, things haven't exactly worked out as planned. Too many distractions. Too many excuses. Each have gotten in the way of progress. The only thing I have to hold on to is my dedication to the treadmill during lunch hour and my strawberry smoothies with chia seeds. The other food items I consume in between are just shameful. <em>198</em... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 13:21:08 EST Day 84 - Time to Regroup http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638410 February was not a good look so it's time to set some more mini goals to get myself back on track. <BR> <BR> 1. Gotta get my gallon of water in a day. (How I stopped doing this? I do not know) <BR> 2. Three days of strength training (no excuses) <BR> 3. Have at least two meatless days a week. <BR> 4. Remind myself again, this does not happen overnight. <BR> <BR> Hopefully by the end of March I can drop 5 pounds or at least get into a size 12. <BR> <BR> Mon, 3 Mar 2014 09:47:06 EST Day 76 - Uniquely You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631680 I saw this on Pinterest today and wanted to share. Enjoy being you! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l215000410.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l959599415.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Enjoy the week ahead! Sun, 23 Feb 2014 14:25:04 EST Day 75 - My "old" school "new" idea http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630972 I've been doing fairly well lately on the nutrition front besides the slip up here or there where I pick off someone else's plate or give in to an occasional slice of pizza. Who can forgo the pizza? I've juiced. Made sure to eat whole grains..all that jazz. <BR> <BR> Well.. last week I decided to buy some of those Special K protein breakfast shakes because I'm never hungry before starting work and thought those would be a good replacement. So far, so good. On one of my many trips to Wal-... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 15:39:00 EST Day 73 - New Fad or I'm just late? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629276 What is this Herbalife (?) bruhaha I've been seeing alot lately? Has anyone ever tried it? It appears as if it's the Mary Kay or Avon of weight loss. My gym has flyers all over the place promoting it and you can even buy a shake-on-the-go. Then I was approached by a woman in the produce section of Wal-Mart the other day who asked me to visit her new "weight loss" center and saw she was pushing the Herbalife also. <BR> <BR> (Then I got a little perturbed because out of all the people in th... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 13:35:55 EST Day 70 - Freestylin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626948 I've been a juicing freakazoid. <BR> <BR> At first I was all nervous about it so I downloaded a juicing recipe book but after trying to buy every type of vegetable I could get my hands on, I just decided to put my own combos together. There is a little trial and error going on and the taste of my concoctions are a little out of the box, but I just remind myself my body will thank me later. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l534311627.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 23:58:03 EST Day 65 - (Well takeaway three) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622211 These last few days went by like a whirlwind. <BR> <BR> I returned home yesterday after my maternal grandmother's Homegoing Celebration held Monday and I'm here to tell you I have done some nutritional damage these last three days. I don't know what it is about a road trip, but if you do not hit that highway with a plan (and still in the weaning stages of giving up fast food) it will get ugly. <BR> <BR> My grandmother passed Thursday night, Friday we were told the funeral would be held M... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 11:35:34 EST Day 57 - The "Leftover" Guilt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615010 Apparently I need to create a new rule of the household stating "No Leftover Pizza Shall Remain in This House." Now.. I usually am pretty good about leaving the "kid's meals" alone, but I'm a pizza fanatic. Last night was a fast food night, so we ate Chipotle (which is fairly healthy) and ordered the kids' Papa John's. Normally, there wouldn't be a slice left in the house, but this time we had an entire pizza. <BR> <BR> That pizza has taunted me the entire morning. I actually strategized h... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 13:22:30 EST Day 54 - The Squat Rack http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612365 I've been debating most of the day if should today should be a rest day or not and since I've spent most of the day debating and watching Lifetime Movie Network.. it's clear today will be a "lazy" day. (Besides the lunges, planks and squats I plan to do before settling in) <BR> <BR> So...since today will be pretty unproductive, I've decided to hit the gym tomorrow while everyone else is getting ready for their Superbowl parties. I figure there won't be many people (except the usual everyday... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 18:44:27 EST Day 53 - So...here we go. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611482 Well as we all know "New Year's Resolution" season has passed. Usually by this time, those that swore to lose all the weight this year and started out with all the gusto they could manage have gone back to the dark side. And we know it doesn't take much for that to happen. (one small bite of cookie..and all the hopes and dreams of being slim and trim are gone) <BR> <BR> I'm proud to say, I am no longer one of those folks. I don't know what's so different about this year, but I've finally ac... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 19:28:04 EST Day 46 - The Stressful Biscuit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604539 I ate a KFC biscuit last night. Should it really be a big deal? No.. it shouldn't, but I allowed myself to get my nerves all worked up in a tizzy behind one frickin' biscuit. (well along with the chicken wing and few potato wedges that I kept picking up). <BR> <BR> I then realized, I'm going about this food consumption thing all wrong. I count calories (which I claimed i was going to stop doing, but myfitnesspal keeps calling me) but because I'm so adamant about staying within my calorie ra... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 15:47:31 EST Day 45 - Am I Doing it Right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5603877 Since I've implemented more strength training into my exercise plan, I've been all over the place. When it was just all cardio, I would hop off the treadmill after about 30-45 minutes and call it a day. Now... I'm trying to fit in cardio and weight machines during an hour lunch break (well 45 really if I count getting there and coming back.) so I can't seem to get it together. <BR> <BR> Wednesday, I did 20 minutes cardio and about 20 minutes weights. Today it was 20 minutes cardio and 10... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 23:01:57 EST Day 41 - Flying Solo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599240 I mentioned some days back that I came up with a family competition to help everyone in my little circle stay motivated. The competitors are: my younger sister and her guy, my dude, my baby sister, my step-sister, my mom and my step-dad (who just recently dropped out after we told him he had to reveal his starting weight.) <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Well.. let's just say the momentum is dwindling down amongst the competitors. My dude is slowly but surely adding cookies and fried foods back ... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 18:09:37 EST Day 37 - The Calorie Counter Obsession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594800 The one thing I sort of pride myself on is the ability to "guesstimate" the amount of calories in a single food item. I'm talking from a tablespoon of barbecue sauce to an entire plate of food. Well.. I think my gift is standing in my way. <BR> <BR> I think it's one of the factors in my whole reluctance to push myself harder in the work-out arena. I am so obsessed with how many calories I intake compared to how many I burn, that once I figure I've burned enough calories while exercising..... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 13:37:59 EST Day 35 - Overcoming the Fear http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592427 Saturday I posted my acknowledgement of my "fear" to push myself. Well...I am proud to announce I managed to finish a segment of cardio beyond the normal walk. Saturday night I purchased the Jillian Michael's kickboxing dvd and had every intention of trying it out Sunday, but that fear kicked in and I left it alone. <BR> <BR> Today during my lunch break, I spent five minutes pumping myself up and managed to complete the first 20 minute session. I was surprised how much stamina I had. ... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 13:22:40 EST Day 33 - I'm a Slacker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590359 I just realized something over the past few days. I'm working out, but I'm not working -it-out. The family weight loss competition is still going strong and surprisingly everybody is in it to win it. However, there is something that's keeping me from pushing it even harder. <BR> <BR> Well.. Shaun T was on CNN last night and he said something that at first I didn't really agree with, but then realized maybe it is true. Most people are a "afraid" to work out. What the devil is there to be... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 14:39:12 EST Day 30 - Better Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587223 Yesterday was a doubtful day, but today I got the "spark" back. I have to admit I woke up this morning regretting having to start work this morning (which is a whole other animal in it's self). I'm suffering from job burnout big time, but I managed to stay motivated about my weight loss and I hustled to the gym during lunch. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure why it took me fiftyleven years to figure out that a good sweaty workout will change your mood.. I mean drastically. By the time I left the gy... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 18:47:59 EST Day 29 - That ole feelin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5586301 I almost felt that old feeling. It's that determining moment if I'm going to continue on this journey or kick rocks. Although I initiated the family challenge, got my fella started on his new healthy living obsession, have co-workers asking me if I'm going to start another Biggest Loser competition and have managed to stay within my 1200-1500 calorie goal for almost a month, I almost gave up today. <BR> <BR> It was a passing moment, but a moment that lasted 4 seconds too long. Not sure wh... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 23:25:26 EST Day 26 - I want Muscles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582318 I skipped cardio today and was really feeling guilty about it. Since the guilt was weighing so heavily on my mind, I knew I had to do something. <BR> <BR> I have to admit the only strength exercises I've done since restarting this journey was my picking up some 5lb dumbells and working my arms out for about two minutes. One really decent 5 minute ab session and a few leg lifts with ankle weights. I catch myself really considering, thinking about using the weight machines at the rec cent... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 20:53:22 EST Day 25 - Turnin' It Up on Friday Night! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581241 No..not really. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1802891919.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Throw in my Kindle and it's going down. <BR> <BR> Fri, 3 Jan 2014 21:14:40 EST Day 23 - The Family Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578843 First day of the new year and I'm still in this thing. <BR> <BR> Since the beginning of the year is the time everybody and their mammy jumps on the "healthy living" bandwagon, I thought it would be nice to add a little competitive spirit to our weight loss journey. My fella and I have already placed bets on who would meet their goal first so I decided to enlist some family members. <BR> <BR> I'm calling it the "Essence Fest 2014 Get Sexy Challenge." Since we usually attend the Essence M... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 00:42:24 EST Day 21 - I'm guilty of this.. every now and then. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5575992 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2048927748.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I rarely pay attention to the next person's treadmill speed, but today was not a good treadmill day due to my tiredness. The only thing that kept me going was the young lady working out next to me. She was running her little heart out and I could barely make it through at 3.5mph for 30 minutes. I knew I didn't get enough sleep last night, but I really felt it at the gym. <BR> <BR> I couldn't let her show me... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 20:18:58 EST Day 20 - The Couple that works out together stays together? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5575016 My fella decided to join me on the weight loss train. He is a big guy and from what he tells me, has been stocky for most of his adult life. I think my wearing him out with calorie intake talk and refusal to join him in the late night Reese's treats may have forced him to give in. <BR> <BR> Now don't get me wrong, I don't really care if he loses a pound, but if it helps him live a little longer..that's all that matters to me. It will also help me with my willpower since I will no longer... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 21:06:36 EST Day 18 - Is it considered cheating or a boost? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573082 I have a energy problem, well.. a lack thereof. As much as I would love to put in a good 45 minutes to an hour on the treadmill, I just can't seem to go past the 30-35 minute mark. I know it has alot to do with early morning work hours and less than 8 hours of sleep at night, but we have a lot of late nights, early mornings around here. Just last night it was like a carnival in here with the kids being out for the holiday break. I woke up in the middle of the night thinking I overslept. ... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 13:29:21 EST Day 17 - The Holiday Revelation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5572341 I had every intention on behaving these past couple of days. I even went so far as to make sure I had a healthy alternative to the normal holiday meal I prepare for my boys. Well.. all went down hill once I started cooking. My sampling eventually turned into a full-on plate of food. And I won't even get started on the eggnog debacle that occurred on Christmas Eve. <BR> <BR> Christmas day was a whole other animal by itself. From breakfast on down to wine and liquor consumed under the pres... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 14:36:10 EST Day 13 - Me vs. the Brunch Buffet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5569941 My sister decided to treat me to brunch this afternoon and immediately I got scared. Buffets are the true test to "weight loss seriousness." When there is a platter of bacon and a troth of cinnamon rolls all up in your face, how do you deal with that? <BR> <BR> Like a boss. <BR> <BR> I went in with a strategy and it was on. I skipped over the biscuits, danishes, rolls and loaded up on fruit, potatoes/veggies and requested an egg white omelet. I did have to snatch up a couple of slices o... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 15:43:38 EST Day 9 - Mindless Stress Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5567513 Mystery has been solved. <BR> <BR> I've gained approximately 15-20 pounds since I started working from home in June. Now, I admit I haven't been working out and I managed to super size a couple of meals a couple of times, but I've done that and managed to stay between 175 and 185 pounds in the past. Over these past couple of days I've been trying to figure out why this time it's different. How in the world did I manage to go over the 200 pound mark? <BR> <BR> Well... here's the reason. <... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 20:02:40 EST Day 8 - So the Doctor says... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566511 While on the job a couple of weeks ago, I experienced a rapid heart beat and dizziness out of the blue. I was the only one home and the only thing I could think was , "Lawd, please don't let me pass out in this house by myself." Enough for one of my children to be the first to find me sprawled out on the floor. <BR> <BR> Well... after a few seconds (which felt like minutes) and a couple of deep breaths, it passed. I was a few seconds from dialing 911 and it just went away. I scheduled a do... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 12:20:02 EST Day 7 - Abolishing "Fat Talk" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565546 A male friend of mine posted this on FB. Just thought I would share with everyone. <BR> <BR> <link>youtu.be/WEIFlSBodVM </link> <BR> <BR> I'm so guilty of Fat Talk until it starts to get on my own nerves. I don't go a day without examining at least one part of my body and find something "wrong" with it. Some things I have the power to change, some are just part of the package. Learn to love the "entire" you boo-boo. Mon, 16 Dec 2013 10:21:18 EST Day 6 - I've Got the Power http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565089 I have been on Spark since 2009 and I think I'm finally catching on to the fact that my weight is the one thing I have the power to change. I knew it but didn't really embrace it. <BR> <BR> Over the years, I have come up with every excuse to convince myself that being "a little overweight" is ok. I've used words like "big boned", "thick in all the right places" and my favorite phrase coined by my sister, " you have heavy bones" <em>40</em> (which I Googled by the way and found to be a... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 19:20:52 EST Day 5 - Day 1 of Cardio http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564426 I don't know what came over me this morning, well afternoon, but I suddenly had to urge to "move my body." For the past couple of months, my Saturdays have been HGTV marathons and or just "hanging out" (if people in their 40's still do that). <BR> <BR> Anywho, I was just laying around thinking about how I was going to start adding cardio to my plan again sometime soon, when it occured to me I was doing anything at that very moment. We have a family membership at the rec center and I've onl... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 18:54:48 EST Day 3 ended in Scandal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5563500 I haven't had the opportunity to really get down and dirty with my cardio yet, but was so proud of myself for staying within my calorie range. That was until after I watched last night's episode of Scandal. I was so flabbergasted and in shock, the only thing that could bring me back to a calm emotional state was an A1 burger from Whataburger. <BR> <BR> Ok.. that's not the reason. My fella decided to make a late night run and I couldn't resist. Did I enjoy it? yes. Do I regret the damage I... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 10:29:23 EST Day 2 - Inventory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562488 Surprise, surprise.. I managed to log in two days in a row. <BR> <BR> Today I decided to do a cabinet/fridge inventory. Although I haven't done anything related to weight loss, I always managed to have something close to healthy in the event I think about, consider or contemplate starting that journey again. The only items I found "healthy" were a half-empty jar of salsa, tilapia, whole wheat tortillas and a veggie hot pocket thingy. I managed to create a decent dinner for myself with the... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 22:55:29 EST Day 1: Just call it a comeback (again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561722 I'm not going to go on and on about how I fell off for the thousandth time. I'm not even going to begin to tell you all about the numbers on the doctor's scale pimp slapped me back into reality. And.. let's not even get into how I since I work from home, the only walks I make are from the kitchen back to my desk. (and that's usually with a snack in my hand) <BR> <BR> Now... I can come up with a thousand and one excuses as to how I've become the heaviest I've been in my lifetime, but why? F... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 23:58:56 EST Two Weeks... still going strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442365 I have managed to make my way to the gym for two weeks straight now... that's all <em>334</em> . <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1361864868.jpg"> Fri, 2 Aug 2013 13:44:56 EST