LUCKY8GAL's SparkPeople Blog LUCKY8GAL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Happy to be back on track! Weight loss/gain is a constant theme in my life and I am looking into having gastric bypass surgery before the year in out. But in the mean time I want to lose as much weight as possible. So far I am doing pretty good, I don't want to get too cocky though, LOL I think little goals and steps are what is helping me right now. It sure feels good to lose even a couple of pounds so far. I'm enjoying pulling all these nice clothes from the back of my closet to the front. Wish me luck! Fri, 29 Apr 2016 16:42:55 EST Love this artical Reflections on The SP Article on Addiction <BR> Overexposure to pleasurable foods causes an overload of dopamine in the brain. Over time the brain responds by decreasing the number of dopamine receptors. We feel pleasure rewards when dopamine bonds with its receptor. Fewer receptors means less perceived reward when we eat pleasure foods. <BR> That's why one cookie is never enough and portion sizes of comfort foods alway increase. After eating healthy for a while, I notice that a piece of ... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 16:05:22 EST New Goal & a new day! Okay, so I didn't meet my goal for the party. That's ok. One step back and two steps forward, right? I have a new goal. My daughter Brittnee turns 21 in February. She lives in Texas and wants to meet up in Vegas Feb 28 for the weekend. It would be awesome to see her and my oldest daughters face when I show up looking way different. Plus I could fly there and fit in a seat. I think the airplane thing will really push me to lose the weight. I am pretty good with breakfast. I stick with peanut b... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 13:01:55 EST Breast Cancer and comfort Last month my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. I have gained 12 pounds. I need to stay healthy, I have to care for my mom.. Being heavy makes everything I do considerably harder. I must get back on track now. I will need to be in the best shape I can in order to give mom. the care she will need.. The over eating only gives me a tempary reprive from the stress. The comfort I feel is just an illusion and fades very quickly. I need to get a new goal and a plan to excicute it ASAP. <BR> 1... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 13:35:35 EST The sabotage! I need to get back on track! I have not been tracking like I should be and I have been giving myself permission to eat the things I shouldn't. My goal is one I want and can reach easily so why am I hitting these road blocks and stumbling stones? Why do I try to sabotage myself? Do I feel that I am not worthy to look and feel good? I hate the feeling of being over weight. With every pound lost I can do more things comfortable. Being over weight is like a ball and chain around your ankle making... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 13:03:58 EST I'm making progress. I weighted in at 309ld this morning. I am so happy.........That leave me with 10lb to loose in 29 days! I can totally see that as a do able goal! I am having trouble with the exersize, I just well.........don't want to do it <em>198</em> I really need to push myself if I want to reach my goal. I am camping this weekend so I am sure that will count as exersize. Fri, 14 Jun 2013 15:58:02 EST Please Don't Quit ~ I copied this from a spark friends page (DANACHRISTINE) and I wanted to share the words of wisdom. <BR> <BR> Don't Quit ~ <BR> When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down, <BR> And you feel like the biggest failure in town. <BR> When you want to give up just because you gave in, <BR> and forget all about being healthy and thin. <BR> So What! You went over your calories a bit, <BR> It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit! <BR> It's a moment of truth, it's an atti... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 16:26:28 EST New Goal! I'm excited, I'm motivated, I'm full of hope! I have a new goal. My BFF is having a surprise 50th birthday party and I am coming. I want to look my best and feel my best. I have not seen her in a few years. I always make excuses not to go out or get together with friends because I am so ashamed of my appearance. This time I am not letting this be a factor. I know people love me for me and not my looks. I need to be a friend to myself. I would never " not want to associate" with a good frie... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 14:18:06 EST Hit the wall! But refuse to fall! I have hit that enviable wall that always pops up when I am at the thresh hold of success. I am at close to my 300 goal. Who let all the air out of my tires????? Where did my motivation run off to? I feel like the new dress in the closet that you have worn one to many times and now it just look so familiar, so you dont want to wear it! looking back I know when the air left my tires. I was at the store with my mom and hubby. We each went our separate ways and then they meet up wi... Thu, 9 May 2013 14:01:36 EST Finally the numbers move I weighted myself this morning and its 314. It won't really count until saturday as that is my official weight day, but it sure gave me encouragement to finally see the numbers change. I just came back from my thursday evening walk. I walk one mile every monday and thursday just as I committed to do 3 weeks ago. I am pretty darn proud of myself. I'm much stronger and determined that I ever thought I was. Thu, 25 Apr 2013 22:22:23 EST Slow going:( I haven't lost any more weight. I am stuck at 317........I need to kick up the exersize. To be honest I haven't really done much at all. I know if I want to reach my goal, I won't get there by diet alone. I need to start moving! I guess I will start out slow. I can commit to 2 days a week of walking. I will do Monday & Thursday. If I can keep it up for a month then I will add more days. Its all about baby steps right? Tue, 16 Apr 2013 16:58:58 EST Small victory I tried on a pair of pants I had never worn before beause they were to small. Well, they fit now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess I will have to start trying on some more clothes from the back of my closet! Wed, 3 Apr 2013 18:06:53 EST Lost 10lb while on vacation I had a wonderful time visiting my girls and sister. I did get sick while in Louisiana so that may account for some of the weight loss and also we did walk quite a bit. I did really well controlling my intake. Yesterday we had a little bbq for my mother in law and I did go a bit overboard food wise, but I am not perfect....far from it. I am working on consistency and today I am back in the saddle ready to make some more constantly smart choices. Mon, 25 Mar 2013 15:54:06 EST Officially 29lbs down as of 3/13/13 On 1/13/13 I weighed in at 354lb. I had planned in March to visit my 2 girls in Texas and on to Louisiana to see my big sister, whom I haven't seen in eight years. I didn't feel well. I hated the way I looked. None of my "nice" clothes fit and I was real concerned about being comfortable and "fitting" in the train seat. Instead of feeling sorry for myself I decided to make a change. I now have a bunch of "nice"clothes I haven't worn in years that now fit and a growing confidence in myself an... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 12:36:11 EST So far so good. Just checking in......I had a great day, no urges or major cravings. I am about to go out for a walk around the block. I know not far huh? It just gets so dark early now and I don't like to walk in the dark, but every little bit helps so here off I go. Tue, 26 Feb 2013 22:12:03 EST To private for my own good? I am very shy, no that's not true....I think the word is more like private. I never tell my business to anyone, friends, relatives ect.......It is hard for me to open up with anyone. I don't know why or when or how I became this way all I know is that's me in a nutshell "private". I want to change, I want a change........I know part of the plan to lose this weight is to have a support system . How can I have or make friends if I don't blog or comment? I am not a good friend. Its true! The f... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 17:52:34 EST To weight or not to weight? Today is officially 1 week of my clean eating program. I have consistantly stayed under 1200 calories for 7 days. I have had not sugar or "fake sugar" and no added salt. The first 2 days were really tough. I usually have 8 equal in my coffee, I know crazy huh! Well I now drink my coffee with 2% milk and nothing else! Its do able, I am getting used to it. But now to measure the results..........I feel like I've lost a hundred pounds lol. My clothes fit better, I look better (been wearing make ... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 11:47:15 EST 8/15/12 In the beginning........ I will approach difficult tasks as challenges to be mastered <BR> I will set myself up challenging goals and maintain a strong commitment to them <BR> I will heighten & sustain my efforts in the face of failure <BR> I will quickly recover from setbacks and disappointments <BR> I will attribute failure to insufficient effort or deficient knowledge & skills which are acquirable (i.e. they take personal responsibility and do not place blame on others) <BR> I will succeed! <BR> <BR> Wed, 15 Aug 2012 13:31:12 EST The countdown begins I only have 6 more days until I weight and measure for this new month. I know I really have to get my butt in gear. I have been doing great up till the end of the week. With my oldest daughters high school graduation and my twins jr.high graduation things have been crazy and along with the crazy comes the bad eating binges and choices. I have caught myself and made some really good choices and some crappy ones as well. But I am choosing not to dwell and just move on recognizing that I could h... Sat, 25 Jun 2011 23:52:02 EST Little Miss Perfect, goody two shoes and unrealistic goals....... Yes that's me. Always got to do the right thing and the right way too. Never allowed myself to error. If you can't do it right, then don't do it wrong. Perfect, perfect, and perfect. Nice, nice and nice. Why am I like this? Where is my backbone? Where is my pride and self respect? Why do I always have to be the good girl? Why can I see that if I don't do it right the first time try, try, try again is okay to do? Gee, where is this blog heading? <BR> I think I am so afraid of failure that ... Mon, 6 Jun 2011 17:16:00 EST Starting out strong. I'm back again for the -----time. Once again I have every intention of losing this ball and chain of 140 +/- pounds. Ya, I know its a huge number. I feel its restriction every day. It tries to prevent me from tying my shoes, sitting in restaurant booths and just living life as it should be lived. <BR> I'm logging in my food again, its been a whole week and already I am feeling better. I will continue to give it my all, what other option do I really have? To do nothing means certain prematu... Sat, 28 May 2011 15:55:33 EST A month to the day M.I.A. It is a month to the day I went missing in action. I lost a whole month of potential weight loss and walking miles on a great big month long binge. I don't know why it started or how, but I am back and present and ready to start again. What other choice do I really have? To do nothing is a guaranty of failure, so I will just try, try, and try again. I know I will succeed one day and all the practice is making me healthier,LOL. Thu, 16 Sep 2010 13:25:28 EST Sugar is my crack! I did so good yesterday and then I had the icecream. Not one bowl full, but I even went back for seconds. For a half hour in bed I argued with myself. <BR> <BR> Me"don't go there. You don't need it." <BR> B.M (Binge Monster) "I want it. I want it now. Your so fat what difference will it really make? <BR> Me "This will pass. Give it some time the craving will leave" <BR> B.M "You need it. You want it. You deserve it. Start your diet again tomorrow. Your fat, you'll always be fat why even try.... Tue, 17 Aug 2010 13:21:22 EST I went binging this week. I'm here to come clean. I need to purge this guilt from my soul. I eat everything and anything this passed week. I didn't walk, drink water or eat anything that was "good for me". It started out on monday with the all you can eat buffet at "China Buffet" and ended yesterday with the double burger from "Toms" and a box of icecream sandwiches. I hate myself for not being stronger and not valuing myself enough to not put all that junk into my body. Now I am back on a sugar high and I know the pa... Mon, 16 Aug 2010 13:25:21 EST You think its healthy, then you read the label. Sucker! Yesterday I went shopping for my work food. I usually have oatmeal for breakfast, but decided I wanted to change to cold cereal this week. The breakfast isle is so intimidating. So many cereals to choose from. After picking up and putting back the 22nd box I spotted (Ralphs Brand)" Low Fat Granola Crispy Whole Grain Cereal With Extra Raisins , Dates & Nuts". It was on sale. I looked at the calories and fat because those are what I usually am concerned with and decided it was a great buy. Boy ... Sat, 7 Aug 2010 14:12:27 EST Learning to live for the long hall. I've been really contemplating on how this weight loss is all going to work for me. Yes, I want to lose weight and yes, it is a huge amount, but I want this to be permanent solution and not a "lose some gain some" tug-a-war like usual. I want to learn a new behavior and make it permanent in my life so I don't fall back into that same on again, off again affair. I feel like the walking exercise has become second nature to me now. I love getting out and moving and I crave to do more. I was alw... Mon, 2 Aug 2010 13:19:54 EST Disappointed but expected. All is not a loss......... Well I decided to weight in today rather than tomorrow. -2LB loss for the month:( I know that this was a tough month. I had a lot going on. But when it comes down to it, I made the wrong choices. Me, I ! I can't let the binging and stress eating take the blame because then its like saying I didn't have any control. If I don't have any control then why even try to lose weight? If I have no control how can I be successful? <BR> I made those wrong choices, and yes the stress was a big contribu... Sat, 31 Jul 2010 13:46:59 EST Day 30 and the Cemetery walks I have added quite a bit more mileage to my lunch time walk. Now I walk through the cemetery that I used to just pass by. It is pretty awesome. It has two pyramids and a ton of 1800's old style headstones and statues. It is full of hills and winding roads. I find that I am walking 2 miles instead of one and don't even feel as tired, I guess because I am so engrossed in what I am seeing. It was a little spooky at first. The first time I walked through I was talking to my daughter on the cell p... Fri, 30 Jul 2010 17:43:26 EST Day 26 and I'm just letting it ride. What I mean by the just let it ride is.............. the binging that has all but consumed me these last couple of days and has become my latest obsession. I feel that I am giving this monster way to much of my attention. Well it is what it is. I'm doing my best and if it just follows the normal pattern it should be over in a day or two when Aunt Flow shows up. It has just been more severe do to the strain and worry I have been under lately. <BR> I am putting my foot down...... <BR> Mr Bing... Mon, 26 Jul 2010 17:48:28 EST Day 24 and I'm binging like crazy. Help! I'm trying everything and its not working. I am still walking every day and having a good healthy low calorie breakfast. Dinner has been okay, but its the after dinner/late night snack attack. When everyone else is in bed and I am awake staring at the ceiling and then whammo! I have to eat and eat and eat some more. I want off this roller coaster. I have had such a good month and I want my monthly weight in to reflect all my hard work, but I know it won't if I don't take control and turn thin... Sat, 24 Jul 2010 13:04:11 EST Day 22 and I still feel blue. Got word last night that the babies surgery has been post poned until monday due to an infection. Poor little guy already has enough to deal with and now an infection on top of it. We are praying every day for his health. <BR> Some good news though. My other half had interviews with 2 escrow companies for an escrow officer position yesterday. He is currently working at a grocery store as a night stock person making 8.90 an hour. Before he was layed off from escrow he was making 25.00 hr. So a... Thu, 22 Jul 2010 13:16:16 EST Day 20 and the binging has got to stop. Well yesterday I did okay until I went to lay down in my room to sleep. Then it hit..........So many emotions and voices and thoughts in my head. All those worries just bubbling to the surface like a juccuzzi. I want to forget. I don't want these thoughts in my head. So what did I do? Opened my mouth and put it in. I had second helping from dinner. Bowl of chicken and potatoes and carrots with some gravy thrown on for good measure. Then the topper........Approx two cups of icecream and two do... Tue, 20 Jul 2010 16:05:53 EST Day 19 and forgiving myself <img src=""> This is little Joseph my grandson. He was born on July 3rd. His daddy is my stepson Chris. He has to have heart surgery next week so all prayers would be very much appreciated. We left on friday morning to the Childrens Hospital just out side of Fresno Ca. It was about a 4 hour drive. The Hospital was wonderful and I know he is in good hands. His dad and mom get to stay at the Hospital in the Ronald Mcdonald house. I will for... Mon, 19 Jul 2010 14:25:21 EST Day 14 and almost half way thought the month. Wow, this month is flying by. I will be weighing in pretty soon. The countdown begins! <BR> Today was a wonderful day. It was my day off so our family of 7 all went to a park in Montebello about 25 minute away. It was a great park. It had a petting zoo and a little water park also. The kids all had a blast. Even my mom and my other half joined in on the fun and got wet. We packed a lunch and had a pick-nick. I can't remember the last time I have had such a happy relaxing day. <BR> I can beli... Wed, 14 Jul 2010 23:55:58 EST Day 12 and a lot of possibilities........... Things are still going good. Eating right, watching calories and getting exercise. <BR> Funny thing, I thought I was her just to lose weight, but this journey I have undertaken is really making me take a good look at my life and has me asking myself some very serious questions. I've been on auto pilot for so many years that I was rarely able to think past the moment. Now all I have is moments a head of me and I am beginning to ask myself how I want to spend them. I am working on my visual m... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 14:49:19 EST Day 9 and everything is fine, fine, fine. I'm doing pretty good in the calorie dept. Breakfast and lunch are no problem for me because I am at work and I don't carry money with me, so I am forced to eat what is in the cabinet here. I have oatmeal or cream of wheat, both of which I really like. I grew up with cold cereal so having something hot is a real treat for me. For lunch I keep the office kitchen cabinet stocked with different types of soup. From split pea to chunky vegetable beef. There is also a bigger variety, I used to eat ... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 13:42:27 EST Day 6 and I just woke up from my food coma. Actually the 2nd & 3rd were not bad. They had a lot of physical activity and I did pretty good on the eating side. The forth I knew was gonna be a struggle. Big party, great food and mixed drinks = not to healthy. But yesterday was the food coma. I just kind of blacked out and opened my mouth and inserted everything eatable with in reach. Its like this great blanket of numbness overcomes me and its so very comforting that I just can't stop. Well I woke up and now I am ready to move on. I don... Tue, 6 Jul 2010 16:51:12 EST Day 1 month of July, and I'm ready to bloom! Well I weighted in for the month and the results are as follows: <BR> Weight / Measurements <BR> MEASUREMENT <BR> Weigh 310-VS- Today 304LBS = 6lbs Total <BR> Waist 46.5 -VS- Today 45.5"= 1" Total <BR> Hips 54 -The Same <BR> Neck 15 -The Same <BR> Thigh 36.5 -VS- Today 36"=1/2"Total <BR> <BR> Well to be honest I have to say I am a little disappointed in the results as I really thought the number would be much lower. I started my monthly today of all days and I know I am retaining... Thu, 1 Jul 2010 12:50:09 EST Yoshinoya has a loyal customer! I don't know if you have ever eaten at one, but here in California they are very common. The offer beef and chicken teriyaki bowls. They are soooooo good. I haven't had one in about 2 years and my daughter invited me to eat and that was the choice. They offer a small bowl and a larger combo bowl and I was set on the combo when low and behold I glance at the menu above and the calories for each are shown in big bold numbers. Small bowl 610=combo bowl 1070! Of course I choose wisely and went wi... Tue, 29 Jun 2010 12:15:26 EST Day 28 and feeling great! A couple of more days until I weight in. I am so excited to see how much I have lost. <BR> My camping trip was a blast and I did a lot of walking, so even though the food choices were not that great I did get plenty of exercise. <BR> These last couple of days have been hard to get back into the swing of things. So today I am putting forth my best effort. <BR> The hungry monster has been making his appearance at night all week long. Some days I resist him others I haven't had the strength t... Mon, 28 Jun 2010 14:49:06 EST Day 22 and I am feeling blue..... 2 days of struggle and lousy calorie counting in the calorie dept. Yesterday I broke my Spark streak of exercise by not taking my afternoon walk with no good reason. I know where this is coming from, but its so hard to stop it. Fathers day the ex got in a fight with our daughter. To make a long story short "he's an idiot"! Plus its been 2 years since my dad passed and fathers day is kind of sad for me. I have to admit that my emotions tend to dictate my eating patterns. The exercise that rai... Tue, 22 Jun 2010 12:57:25 EST Day 19 and I'm feeling great. My daughter Brittnee just came back from visiting her sister in Texas. Her cousin's are on the way to LAX to pick her up now. My nieces are so very sweet. <BR> I didn't sleep well last night. I finally fell asleep about 4am just to wake up at 6am for work. I go through these bouts of insomnia every so often. I'm only 40 but I wonder if I am going through menopause already. I read some were that insomnia and anxiety were symptoms and I have plenty of both. <BR> 11 more days until I weight in... Sat, 19 Jun 2010 15:59:05 EST You've lost that lovin' feeling, Now it's gone...gone...gone...wooooooh. I believe I have officially lost my addition to sweats. So far I have passed up German Chocolate Cake, Cookie Dough Icecream and S'mores. Guess what? I am still here to tell about it. I didn't die, sink into oblivion or get the shakes because I didn't eat it. I am very, very, very happy to have passed it by. My reward, well this morning I put on a pair of pants I haven't worn in a year. Woo Hoo! And I am only half way through this month till my weight in date of july 1st! This once a month we... Thu, 17 Jun 2010 15:39:19 EST Not to good last, night but still going strong! Family stopped by last night to visit and I had a beer with them. Make that 3 :( It was just so nice to sit in the back yard with a bonfire and visit, and the occasion just called for ice cold beer ;( I knew it would put me over my calorie in take, but I made the decision that for today it was okay. I didn't go over by a hug number, but it did end my spark streak in that department. <BR> Today is a new day and I will streak again ;) <BR> In the walking department I have been doing awesome... Fri, 11 Jun 2010 15:32:57 EST Cravings I want to be sure I am on top of my game and part of that is to make sure I blog. I think its important to talk about my struggles and get feed back from everyone out there in Sparksland. This week end was a great weekend. I didn't struggle to much. I think I have finished withdraws from the sugar, so I am doing okay in that craving dept. <BR> My 17yr old is leaving tomorrow to Texas to spend 2 wks with her sister. Not to sure how to feel about it. I will miss her, but it will be a nice bre... Mon, 7 Jun 2010 13:44:54 EST I am streaking! (I don't mean running naked in a public place) I am on a Spark streak. 5 days of eating right, drinking water and 20 min walks and boy do I feel great. My mood has improved so much! My energy level is running on high and myself esteem as well! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> Yesterday when I came home from work I challenged my boy to a basket ball game. I won 10 to 8. <em>104</em> <BR> Then I was helping him make a swing in the tree and I told him he could do it on his own while I made diner and he looked at me and said "I like it better ... Sat, 5 Jun 2010 17:06:29 EST Just keep moving ;) Yesterday was a good day. I went a little over in my calories, but not by much. I took a 20 minute walk on my lunch that really left me energized and feeling cheerful all day. <BR> After work I tied a rope to a fence post in the back yard and proceeded to play jump rope with my 10 year old son Josh. Boy was he surprised. I only jumped a few times as it was pretty hard on my bones, but I did manage to skip the rope (first raise one foot the the other). After about 20 min of rope, we played ar... Fri, 4 Jun 2010 14:20:38 EST My 5 June Goals 1. Will log on to Spark People every day (if humanly possible) and do the following. <BR> a. Log food for the day <BR> b. read 3 motivational article's <BR> c. I will Up date my status <BR> 2. I will put on my tennis shoes before I eat lunch to encourage a lunch walk. <BR> 3. I will only weight myself at the end of this month and try to resist temptation to do other wise. <BR> 4. I will cut back to 1 diet coke a day. <BR> 5. I will do extra activities or games with my kids for a minimum of 2... Thu, 3 Jun 2010 16:29:23 EST No More June Gloom! So far so good today. Its a new month that holds alot of promise. I am going to give it my all this month to accomplish something, anything in the way of weightloss. I took a walk this afternoon at lunch and it was not easy to do. I remember when that same walk was no longer a challenge to me and now I can barely do it. That's okay because I will be there again with perseverance. I think the exercise really alters my mood, so I need to remember to keep it up in order to feel a little happier.... Tue, 1 Jun 2010 19:22:29 EST Up down up down...........Stop the ride, I wanna get off! It feels like I am climbing a big slide at the park. Not up the stairs, but the other way that your not suppose to. Slowly I place my feet and climb up the slick shinny metal. Struggling against gravity all the way to the top I begin to think I got it and I am almost to the top and then my shoe loses its grip I try to grasp the rails and regain my footing only to continue sliding so fast all the way to the bottom and land in the sand on my butt! This is truly the way I have been feeling late... Mon, 31 May 2010 14:01:42 EST