LRKISNER's SparkPeople Blog LRKISNER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Floating Eyeballs I never drink. <BR> Anything...not water, not pop, not juice or milk...I do good to get one glass of any fluids in my boday a day! OMG Right?!? <BR> Well, as I take on this new journey (again) I have been really trying to increase my water intake...the first day I wasn't sure I'd get three glasses down. Yesterday, I forced 5 glasses down and went to the restroom about 1000x. Today isn't even over and I have 6 down! WOO HOOO! <BR> So by the time I go to bed my eyeballs may be floating but I'll... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 21:58:16 EST I Stink at Skinny So I am less than three months away from my wedding! That part is oober exciting! The whole getting motivated to lose some weight is not. I would like to say that the added stress of Bridal Day Bliss is contributing to my lack of "want to" but I don't think thats it. <BR> <BR> My fiance' has been doing awesome. Working hard and has lost oober inches. I am so proud of him! One would hope that this would encourage me to kick it in the keester and get to moving far, it hasn't. I know ... Mon, 15 Aug 2011 19:34:37 EST Talk about Fickle! Here I am again. Back in the Spark Saddle. I have been logging my food and exercise for a couple of weeks now but am just now finding the moment to blog. My relationship with Spark has been one of on again off again status, and I find it more entertaining most days to blog on my wedding blog...perhaps because along with this wonderful world of spark comes the harsh reality that I am not where I would like to be. It seems that I have been stuck in this place before! The scary gruesome world of... Mon, 30 May 2011 12:06:53 EST Why is this so hard?!? I wish that I could just give up on food and give up on exercise and fitness and being healthy. It is so hard! You would think that something that we are all to be doing wouldn't baffle me so. <BR> <BR> Today I have tried to be so cautious of what I am eating and I am still below my calorie intake. It just seems to be easier and less stressful to just weigh over 200 pounds and cranky about how clothes fit. <BR> <BR> I know in real life that it isn't easier, and it isn't a better life, but m... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 21:54:24 EST I've been a Stranger Not just to the world of Sparkpeople but to my goals as well. <BR> <BR> I know that most of my blogs are whining about how hard it is to stay on track, drink enough water, log foods eaten, and on and on and on. <BR> <BR> I can say that I have logged my food for over a week now and have drank more glasses of water than I had been, not as many as I should be by any means. I don't understand why it is so easy to fall off the wagon. Deryk and I will be married in seven months and I have lots o... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 16:52:26 EST She said...YES! Good Evening SparkFans! <BR> <BR> I first want to apologize for leaving you lingering for such a long period of time wondering what has been happening along my journey and even as this is NO EXCUSE I wanted to update you on a tiny little wonderful thing that happened... <BR> <BR> DERYK PROPOSED! (Ok so maybe it is a HUGE thing!) <BR> <BR> So this little moment in a life long journey leaves me with new motivation... <BR> ENGAGEMENT PICS and that WHITE DRESS! <BR> <em>336</em> <em>337</em... Mon, 18 Oct 2010 20:34:24 EST Inspired This is a short little entry but an important one. <BR> <BR> Today marks a day in the history of me and Gym that we have never had before. I have had some good cardio time, and I have had some great workouts. But tonight for the first time in my whole life I stayed on the treadmill for an hour. Non-stop, me and Mr Treadmill for 60 whole minutes. This may not sounds like a big deal but for me, I hit the wall that I always hit and broke through. Then I hit another I had never been t... Wed, 29 Sep 2010 00:12:28 EST I'm Blue Daba-dee daba-die I am having the most bummed out day. I don't know what the deal is part of it... <BR> <BR> My BF turns the big 3-0 today. It is the first birthday that we have had together and I can't be with him to celebrate. I think that is LAME. What is also lame is living an hour away from him. <BR> <BR> My self image SUCKS this week. One would think that a position like that would make me wanna bust some buns at the gym but really it makes me want to sit on them...with something delicious in... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 23:57:34 EST CAN I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION, PLEASE! Today it was brought to my attention that my boyfriend had read my last blog...several days ago. Yes, he was implying that I haven't been sparking like I should. I just wans't on the computer at all this weekend really and it was rather nice! Anyway, I have logged my food for the day so far and plan to be hitting up Gym in a couple of hours. <BR> I think that he is feeling deprived of my attention as well. With the weather getting so nice in the evenings I just love grabbing my miles outside ... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 19:01:40 EST Off to a GREAT START! So the weekend wasn't so scary once I got started. Deryk did a great job at helping me get it off to a great start with a nice walk like I mentioned in Sunday's blog. I didn't do the best at logging my food or drinking enough water but I did better than I thought that I would. I got at least 10 minutes of cardio in every day (usually much more) so YAY! <BR> <BR> Tonight, I doubled my time on the treadmill from my highest distance so far! Woo hoo! For that I am excited and I was able to get A... Tue, 7 Sep 2010 23:45:37 EST Weekend WHOAs Well, I am at my man's parents for the weekend. <BR> <BR> Friday I did pretty good. My food intake wasn't terrible but it wasn't the best. After the little one got tucked in (Pake and Beppe were home with her) I drug my man out on a little stroll...I think that is what he thought it was going to be...not the power walk I had planned! We got in 2 miles and much needed convo. I felt refreshed inside and out! <BR> <BR> Yesterday didn't go as well. Good food, good friends, bad calorie and fat ... Sun, 5 Sep 2010 11:42:49 EST Just a little PUSH I don't know where it came from but somewhere in the depths of my "wishing to be in tinier jeans" soul I found the umph to push myself a half of mile further on the treadmill (at a faster pace) AND three quarters of a mile further on the bike. I know an extra mile and a quarter isn't really that huge of a deal but I got to that place where I didn't think I could go a second longer and pushed thru. I usually have to stop. SO...GO ME! <BR> I'm still really struggling with drinking enough. I ha... Fri, 3 Sep 2010 00:06:27 EST Just call me Sparky! I'm on day two of my 8 glasses of water streak and day three of logging everything that entered my body AND I also went on a hot date with Gym today! I haven't been able to get the miles in that I was before I took my little break but I think that I am working up to it. I am REALLY nervous about the weekend. I am going to be out of town. Why is it always harder when you aren't at your own house? It may not sound like much, but since I am going to be so busy, my goal is at least 1 mile a day. ... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 23:38:11 EST ANNOUNCEMENT I Sparked today! <BR> <BR> I know seems silly but I actually thought about everything that entered my body (even the dark chocolate square, that, turns out, isn't such a bad deal) AND not only did I think about it, I logged it. Not only did I log it but I also noticed that I have room for a little protien snack after I hit the gym in about 15 minutes. <BR> <BR> I'm pretty stoked. I'm a little bit proud. I'm feeling a pinch less defeated. Tue, 31 Aug 2010 21:00:42 EST Excuses, Excuses, Excuses Excuse #1 <BR> My brother was home on R&R from Afghanistan. This results in yummy home cookin and lots of socializing. <BR> <BR> Excuse #2 <BR> My nephew was born. Who has time ti hit the gym when there is a baby to be held? <BR> <BR> Excuse #3 <BR> My give-a-damn was busted. This came along with some personal issues involving some sort of jacked up sibling envy, and an URI. Coughing my head off while I do cardio isn't one of my faves. <BR> <BR> So for every excuse that I have managed to c... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 22:34:52 EST Buddies Wanted I have decided that this is VERY HARD! <BR> Food is HARD. <BR> Working out is HARD. <BR> Not feeling defeated is HARD. <BR> Not getting many sparkbuddy comments is HARD. <BR> I don't know where my motivation lies, but it is hiding I think. <BR> Perhaps I am needy. <BR> <BR> In other news, on Friday I became and auntie again! I now have a beautiful niece AND a handsome nephew! Tue, 17 Aug 2010 20:56:25 EST Third Day is a Charm I have made it thru day three of my "work-out again" mission. It was hard to get to the gym today but before long I'll have a week under my belt, then two then a month and after that it is easy! I miss loving to work out. Right now. I HATE IT! <BR> <BR> Tried on my jeans today...lets just say that they all still button, but I felt more FAT than PHAT. That is NO BUENO! <BR> <BR> I got in almost 3.5 miles total today. Not bad for a fluffy chick! Thu, 12 Aug 2010 23:35:36 EST Tread-what? Uhg. Well, I made it back to see Gym for Day 2 (sounds lame but I'm proud of myself for making it twice in a row). I wasn't able to get as much in as I did yesterday. <BR> <BR> I have learned that I have a huge issue with the treadmill. That darn thing kicks my booty. I can go all night long on the elliptical with a mucho incline and super fast with my booty bouncin tunes but for some reason the treadmill has it in for me. What's the deal with that? <BR> <em>198</em> Wed, 11 Aug 2010 23:30:00 EST A Love Letter Dear Gym, <BR> <BR> I sit here in my workout clothes, wishing I were once again in your presence. I've realized that I've tried to replace you over and over(with shopping, cookies, warm gooey brownies, soda pop) since I made the foolish decision to leave you. But, no one can make me fit and sweaty like you do. You are the only one that ever made me so strong. No one could ever take your place. I feel as if my body has stolen my energy and left me to cry myself to sleep each and every night w... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 19:18:55 EST Where is my Motivation hiding? I don't know what I need to do but it seems that my motivation has gone missing. <BR> <BR> I was thinking today that maybe there is a tight relationship between my give-a-damn and Gym. I mean when I have my butt at the gym, I care how I eat, I care that I drink all my water. SO guess that means I need to get my hide back to Gym so that he can make me care. <BR> <BR> TODAY, I am going to measure. I have been trying to watch what I'm eating AND I'm going to log it! <BR> <BR> Here we go agai... Tue, 3 Aug 2010 19:49:07 EST There's No Place Like Home! I haven't been doing so hot about logging the past week. I have been out of town and house setting for a friend...who doesn't have internet access. Who does that these days, right? Anyway, so since I am assuming that it would be frowned upon for me to Spark at work I have been hopping on here and there as I visit my parents! <BR> This morning I went to Jimmy's Egg for breakfast as a friend of mine who lives HOURS away was in the area. Before hand I met up with my man so he could come with and... Wed, 30 Jun 2010 20:00:22 EST Blabit about the Habit I have been doing pretty well at getting my food logged which was a huge part of my first weight loss journey. It is taking more effort than it seemed to take the first time but then again, making a new habit usually does. I hate that part. It takes 30 days to really get in the swing of a new lifestyle but just days to fall out of it. YIKES! That is so scary! <BR> Water is HARD, like super hard for me...any liquid for that newest found trick, a straw. It still takes me forever to... Mon, 21 Jun 2010 21:40:00 EST Re-Learning I am re-learning just how "hard" food is. It is so strange how things that we were taught to be "good for you" aren't always so. I am also re-learning how food and time are not the best of friends! This seems to be apparent in so many ways! I am trying to eat 4 times a day (obviously not huge meals or anything, duh) because that seemed to work well for me before in my weightless journey. It seems I often run out of "TIME" either before I get breakfast or before I can get my mid morning snack ... Wed, 16 Jun 2010 12:43:19 EST Then the going gets rough... The TOUGH get GOING! <BR> <BR> I would just like to announce that I have logged into sparkpeople two days in a row! That is a big start considering I had about 150 emails I hadn't bothered to collect points on and hadn't changed my status in 97 days. Now of course my skinny jeans are getting a little snug! Boo to that! So, here I go! Ready to drop another! <BR> <em>464</em> Thu, 3 Jun 2010 15:58:43 EST I'm Baaaack! Well after my brother being home on leave and my momma's home cookin'...I'm chicken to get back on the scale! <BR> I am also having a hard time getting back in the swing of my gym routine. I realize it's Thursday, but I've got to start sometime! Why wait till Monday what can happen today! Me and Gym are going to re-commit our relationship today. I am going to make up with my spark nutrition log, and start drownin my guilt with more water! Thu, 25 Feb 2010 17:12:27 EST Blue Today, I have noticed that as much as I LOVE the winter, it is starting to take it's toll. I'm tired of shaking off the chills and scraping snow off of my truck and CRAVE to run in the sun! Soaking up those sweet warm rays. <BR> Although I haven't been good about logging on to SparkPeople other than to log my food and exercise, I've been doing ok. Not great mind you, but ok. <BR> <BR> My baby brother is home on leave. Although he is a fitness guru it seems that we have all been to busy to t... Tue, 9 Feb 2010 16:08:20 EST Do Run-Run I have never been an athletic girl, woman, NEVER in my whole life. <BR> <BR> But I have been thinking about this annual 2 mile run that my community hosts in October during its fall festival. I had hoped to do it last year and basically chickened out. So, I've been talking it up again these past few weeks and I've decided...out loud...that I WILL do the 2 miles. I don't care if I place, or even come close...I just want to finish, without walking. <BR> <BR> In the gym I can b... Thu, 4 Feb 2010 15:37:04 EST Take That! I did 5 miles yesterday! I only did 3.5 today but I added tons of jump rope! I'm super excited! <BR> I couldn't have done that a few weeks ago! Woot Woot! <BR> <em>318</em> Tue, 2 Feb 2010 23:04:25 EST Bare It & Share It! Today I have been thinking about what all I have accomplished through this "life changing journey" that I have been on and it took me back BEFORE I became a member of this wonderful SP community. I had decided that life needed to change (with mostly full commitment) in April of 2009. I remember stepping on the scale, with hesitation and gasping. I didn't feel like 247 pounds. OMG did I LOOK 247 pounds??? Does everyone know I'm 247, BUT ME? I was humiliated. <BR> When I signed on to SP seven m... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 16:29:05 EST Something Happened to My Closet So, the scale hasn't shown much of a change since I started this great adventure. Which I find VERY discouraging HOWEVER this week ALL of my clothes have started growing! Weird! All my jeans are baggy butt-ed. (Which never happens, this girl was blessed with some booty, let me tell ya.) So in this mysterious growth spurt that my clothes took on, I wondered if my "Step 1" goal jeans had joined in the phenomenon...THEY DID! <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I put on a pair of jeans that I haven't been able... Thu, 28 Jan 2010 10:36:14 EST Dear Skinny Cow... Dear Skinny Cow, <BR> Could you call Ben &/ or Jerry. I think that they would like to share a secret with you as to how to make your stuff as yummy as thiers. I thank you for your efforts but you just aren't quite there yet! <BR> THANKS! <em>76</em> Wed, 27 Jan 2010 16:55:06 EST Self Discovery I learned something new about myself this last week. <BR> <BR> Although I haven't touched one since the 5th grade, I have learned that I can STILL JUMP ROPE! I was so excited. Not only because I felt like I had accomplished something but that I can add something else to my cardio work out! YAY! Tue, 26 Jan 2010 11:12:17 EST Cardio Crazy! <em>15</em> So I did the fat know the one. The fancy scale that tells you what % of your body is more than likely FAT. Ewww. Gross. I know it isn't SUPER accurate...but it is enough for me to push a tad harder! YAY for that. I guess. Lol. <BR> SO, because of this unpleasent realization, (and after talking to my "trainer" I have decided that I need to up the cardio LOTS! <BR> There is another little factor in that uppage on the cardio as well, this little "Biggest Loser" pool that... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 18:02:54 EST Survival of the Not-fittest So the past three days i have been at a Conference for my business. You know the kind where you sit lots and have catered meals that are either WONDERFUL-ly full of bad for you stuff with no other options or terrible with few healthy options. The kind where you must pack snacks or hit up a vending machine in order to make it thru the day. I was terrified! <BR> I had been doing so well I was scared to test my will power so early in the game. But I am excited to tell you that, I pretty much ro... Mon, 18 Jan 2010 11:41:17 EST Like A MACHINE Last night I went to the gym actually excited about the lower body workout I was about to do and, I pretty much rocked the socks, or so I thought. I got home and I was pumped and in an AMAZING mood. I felt...well...awesome. For those of you who have good workouts often, you probably think that this is silly. I think that it was the first time EVER that I have felt that good, both physically and most importantly mentally. What a HUGE step for me. <BR> I was a little discouraged tonight that I ... Thu, 14 Jan 2010 00:06:05 EST Food is HARD! So after my near breakdown yesterday, I composed myself and decided to do some investigation as to why the heck Mr. Scale was so rude yesterday and here are a couple of my theories. <BR> <BR> Theory #1. I had chips AND a margarita this weekend...probably retaining some water. I can handle that. Solution: make sure to monotor my sodium intake at least 2 days before I weigh. That way I don't have to cry my way out of the gym on Weigh Day. <BR> <BR> Theory #2. Not ENOUGH Calories. WHAT!?! I we... Tue, 12 Jan 2010 10:22:09 EST I'm breaking up with Mr Scale So this weekend I saw a few people I hadn't seen in weeks. More than one of them commented on how I look great (which I SOOOO needed to hear!) and I noticed my jeans fitting differently. SO, I go to weigh this morning and it says I had gained 2 lbs. SHUT THE FRONT DOOR! It's a lie! I was next to tears. I mean good grief, I had been on 6 dates with Gym out of the 7 days last week! <BR> <BR> Then I took a deep breath and realized... <BR> "Hey went to the gym 6 out of the 7 days las... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 15:15:47 EST Back in the Saddle Again Hey Y'all! <BR> Here I am back on my happy little blog with not a ton to say. I would like to toot my own horn for just a moment! <BR> I have been consistently drinking at least 64 oz of the good ol' H2O a day for over a week now! This was a huge challenge as it seems that for a while, I wasn't drinking ANYTHING almost all day! Not pop, not juice, not water...just nothing! You'd think I'd be dying of thirst! <BR> My "hot dates" with Gym aren't AS consistent as my water intake has been howev... Mon, 4 Jan 2010 14:55:52 EST Lost in the Hustle Ta Da! I'm feeling AMAZING! Which is a huge improvemement to the last several weeks. My wonderful Aunt who is a Yoga Instructor and all around Master of all things lealthy got me a Neti Pot for my birthday. Freaked me out at first. Now, I'm sold! I use it every day! I've been sleeping like a baby and I think that I finally got rid of the all-night-long hacking! <BR> <BR> With that being said, I am finally starting to really enjoy the holiday season. All the warm fuzzies floating around amoun... Tue, 15 Dec 2009 20:54:02 EST Still Sick and VERY tired So, as of Monday I thought that I just might die. The sinus pressure was killing me. I was convinced that my ears would explode and my cheeks would rip open. I couldn't eat because my teeth were hurting so since I had been fighting this junk for 3 weeks I FINALLY decided to go to the Dr. (I hate meds and try to take care of it without first) so now I am on day 3 of my antibiotics and slowly feeling more and more like myself. Other than the random coughing fits I am feeling better. ... Thu, 3 Dec 2009 18:47:29 EST Sick and tired. I'm getting a little annoyed that I am fully motivated to be at the gym but the fact that I can't seem to get over this cough is killing me! The second I even think cardio, i start coughing my head off. I haven't been able to taste much therefore, I haven't been eating as much as I should be, so it seems that this cold really has it out for me! <em>39</em> Tue, 24 Nov 2009 11:06:42 EST