LOTUSFLOWER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LOTUSFLOWER LOTUSFLOWER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I'm Still Here (Again)... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6260351 It's been almost a year since my last blog entry. <BR> <BR> I'm still here... <BR> <BR> I'm reposting the same entry as I did last December, except I have a bit more to lose. And that's OK. <BR> <BR> I am working to release the 45 lbs. I gained previously, and then continuing on to my goal, and working through depression also. I am not giving up. I never will give up on having the healthy life I know I (we all) deserve. Right now I'm focusing on loving the body I'm in, moving the bod... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 13:06:01 EST I'm still here... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6053332 I am working to release the 30 lbs. I gained previously, and working through depression also. I am not giving up. I never will give up on having the healthy life I know I (we all) deserve. Right now I'm focusing on loving the body I'm in, moving the body I'm in, and moving forward and not dwelling on the past. <BR> <BR> I can do this. With God on my side I can do anything. <BR> <BR> Peace and love to all who might be struggling. You can do it, too. Sun, 27 Dec 2015 10:34:35 EST New Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5971513 So after a regain of almost 30 lbs., it's time to set some new goals. <BR> <BR> First, I want to focus on the GOOD. I maintained my 100 lb. weight loss for THREE years. That is an accomplishment, and I can't lose sight of that. <BR> <BR> After a couple of running injuries, and then depression that set in, I gained almost 30 lbs. of that back. As of now, my weight loss total is at 70 lbs., not 100. And that's OK. BUT. I want to get back to ME again. To get back to healthy. These ... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 16:04:18 EST June Goals! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937875 Lose 1~2 lbs per wk <BR> <BR> Under 1500 cals/day <BR> <BR> Box 2x wk/run 2x wk <BR> <BR> 10,000 steps/day <BR> <BR> Drink 10 glasses water/day <BR> <BR> Refrain from overeating <BR> <BR> Spend more time with kids outside/less time on electronics <BR> <BR> I also want to try yoga 1x/wk...I think for me, stress is a big part of me holding onto this weight. <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> Mon, 1 Jun 2015 12:14:19 EST Under Construction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934776 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/42795af9-f41b-41b6-a07f-012e8e908d30.jpeg"> <BR> (I'm on the right) <BR> <BR> This weekend I felt so uncomfortable in my own skin. I have been feeling that way, lately, ever since getting depressed after I injured myself in July, and being unable to run...(that weight came on so quick, too, that's what a steady diet of popcorn and wine will do to a body) and it's affecting my self esteem...my quality time with loved ones...my interactions...I'... Tue, 26 May 2015 20:58:24 EST My Own Restart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839299 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l322038229.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So I have been seeing so much about 21 Day Detox, 21 Day Change Your Life, 21 day miracles. I have friends who sell expensive packages that include shakes and workouts, and portioned cups to measure your food out in. I'm sure that these things can help someone "restart". In fact, I'd be lying if I didn't say I was tempted to buy into this. And, in fact, if I had money, I would buy one of these packages. Why? ... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 12:09:47 EST My Inspiration and Workout Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827634 My inspiration is.... <BR> <BR> Me! <BR> <BR> I've gained 15 lbs since July, and I want this girl back. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1275431976.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l41490274.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here's my plan: <BR> <BR> Monday rest day <BR> <BR> Tuesday boxing <BR> <BR> Wednesday walk 3-5 miles + core <BR> <BR> Thursday boxing <BR> <BR> Friday walk 3-5 miles + core <BR> <BR> Saturday boxing <BR> <BR> Sunda... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 14:44:19 EST Time to Be My Own Super Hero http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819503 On Sunday, 11/16 I started the 100 day challenge, I saw the video on Spark of the mother and daughter, and it inspired me. So for the next 100 days (I'm on Day 4), I will try to stay in my calorie range, workout for at least 10 minutes, get my freggies and water in. And I know I won't be perfect, but my goal is to be healthy. <BR> <BR> (Ready to be inspired? Video of mother/daughter team here) <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/dailysp<BR>ark-videos-detail.asp?video=79 </link>... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 12:01:45 EST Holiday Recipe Makeover: Egg Nog Latte http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819048 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1307118119.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I LOVE this day of the year. The day that Starbucks releases it's Egg Nog Latte. It is SO good. But also SO bad for you. <BR> <BR> Did you know that Eggnog lattes that have more calories, fat and sugar than a food court cinnamon roll!! <BR> <BR> Here's the "skinny" from www.blisstree.com: <BR> <BR> "Other seasonal latte flavors like peppermint mocha and gingerbread are named after candy and dessert; you sh... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 16:39:20 EST Recipe: Make Ahead Breakfast Sandwiches http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818292 I've been wanting to try these, as I typically am running out of the house in the mornings, no time for a hot breakfast. These came out wonderful! I made spinach for me and my husband, and plain for my daughters. A success, and better for you than McDs! <BR> <BR> I did the scrambled option, as she said they came out better. I had it open face with a mini bagel and a smear of cream cheese vs. adding a slice of cheese. You could also do on an English muffin, toast, etc. I recommend it. <BR>... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 11:30:19 EST Meet Nate, my new Walking Partner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813592 I blogged last February about losing our dog Sam to cancer. It devastated me. Shortly after, I knew my heart needed healing, and there was room there for a new member of the family. <BR> <BR> We were blessed to find Nate at the shelter. He's the most loving dog, and he LOVES walks. As my back heals, I've started running with him a bit, too. Meet my new personal trainer. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/5/l25859939.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkp... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 12:28:38 EST Don't Let Your Weight Hold You Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805708 I've been wanting to be Silk Spectre (Sally Jupiter), from the graphic novel and movie The Watchmen for the past three years, but I was waiting. I was waiting to reach my goal weight. I put it off. I wanted to look as "best" as I possibly could in this costume. And I felt my body wasn't ready for this costume, as it is fairly revealing. <BR> <BR> And this year I decided to start embracing the body I have, after a few yrs. of maintaining my 100 lb. wt. loss, and the scale not budging. ... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 13:12:50 EST What Success Looks Like http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802780 So I have gained 20 lbs. from my lowest weight, since July. Since my back has been hurting, I am struggling to not be depressed about this. I received the following information from my health coach that I wanted to share. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started walking again, recommitting to trying to get 10,000 steps in a day. I can do this. My husband and I are also going to go on walks together and are both going to try to lose 20 lbs. <BR> <BR> "Remember, THIS is what success looks like: <BR>... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 11:49:43 EST Love Your Body...Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802090 I am working on loving my body as it is NOW. I was inspired by an ad for"Love Your Body" Week that showed a real body with words that showed how our weight, and bodies, don't define us. <BR> <BR> Here is mine: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2119428480.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am a mother, a wife, a marathoner, a running coach, a walk leader, and I have overcome so much, with the help of God. I know I will reach my goals, and in the meantime I'm gonna love myself. J... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 11:05:09 EST Landslide http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799755 I've been afraid of changing because I built my life around you." Stevie Nicks <BR> <BR> I'm beginning the process of intuitive eating, and was journaling about my feelings and wanted to share here. <BR> <BR> I've always used food. To comfort, to be my friend when no one else would, to numb, to satisfy, to celebrate, to mourn. It's scary to place less importance on it. To release it, to let it go. To honor myself, instead. To shift the importance. <BR> <BR> I've been hungry for: love, fami... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 09:36:56 EST 40(ish) AMAZING things I have accomplished in my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774469 So if you read my earlier blog, you will see that I need to get my "mojo" back. And while friends help, coaches help, really the only person that can INSPIRE YOU is YOU. I've found this to be true throughout my journey. I am my own cheerleader. I need to believe that I can do it. <BR> <BR> Since turning the BIG 4-0 I've been wanting to write a blog about 40 amazing things I've accomplished in my life so far so that I can look back, see how far I've come, and KEEP GOING. This race is not ... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 09:32:04 EST Motivation - or How to Get My Mojo Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774460 I weigh 10 lbs. more than I did before summer started. I feel a general lack of motivation. My goal was to reach my goal weight by my 40th birthday a few wks ago, and well, that didn't happen. <BR> <BR> And honestly? I am just not motivated. I KNOW I am eating too much, I KNOW I'm eating past the point of being full. I KNOW I'm drinking too much wine. I KNOW I'm not being active enough. <BR> <BR> So the question is, am I going to let these 10 lbs. derail me? Have me go further towa... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 09:19:03 EST What I'm going to do about it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765471 Main: Blog or share with the team on this question: What are 2 things you know you could be doing differently for your health and wellness? <BR> <BR> Bonus: Create a plan for eating better or working out more and implement it this week. <BR> <BR> I'm up 10 lbs. The Sunny challenge this week is to blog about what you can change. <BR> <BR> I know I can be eating healthier and working out more consistently. Lately I've let work consume everything...my time, my health, my life. Late hours... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 11:47:23 EST When your size 14s are getting tight, embrace kale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744903 I'm still in post marathon bliss. And it's 9 months later. My body still wants to eat at the higher calorie range. That, paired with a big milestone birthday sound the corner...the big 4-0...well my body just wants to get fluffier. <BR> <BR> I have gained a good 10 lbs, and I had wanted to reach goal weight by my birthday at the end of August....that's not going to happen...and that's ok. But I want to get my eating under control....and the first step is this: I will embrace kale, spinach, r... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 11:11:43 EST I am More Than a Number http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710420 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1383962403.jpg"> <BR> <BR> After losing 100 lbs., I've maintained for over two years. That's the "glass is <BR> half full" outlook. The negative side is that I've been in a plateau for over two years. But the first one is more empowering, so I'm going with that. <BR> <BR> See I have 25 more lbs. to goal weight, and I wanted to reach that by my 40th birthday, which is at the end of August... <BR> <BR> And since over indulging say the hol... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 10:18:38 EST After The Rain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705033 Our yard is a terrible sight. After this long Chicago winter, and then the rain, we took a look at our mud pool of a yard and closely assessed. There were piles of old leaves that I raked, expecting to find more mud underneath. Mud I did find, but I also found life! There underneath everything dead, was one of my hastas, springing up from the ground. It was green and strong. I've find that hastas are virtually impossible to kill, they persevere, every year, even in our shady lawn. <BR> <B... Wed, 28 May 2014 09:13:12 EST My Strength Training Blog for Sunny Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702664 Workout <BR> <BR> complete circuit 2 times doing 15-20 reps each exercise <BR> <BR> Upper Body <BR> Bicep Curls <BR> Overhead tricep extension <BR> Lateral Raises <BR> Push Ups <BR> Dumbell Row <BR> <BR> Lower Body <BR> Squats <BR> Plie Squat <BR> Lunges <BR> Side Lunge <BR> Wall Sit (30 seconds) <BR> <BR> Ab Circuit <BR> Crunches <BR> Plank (30 seconds) <BR> Toe Reaches <BR> Oblique Raises <BR> Bicycle Crunches <BR> <BR> While Traveling: <BR... Sun, 25 May 2014 09:42:58 EST Quieting that Voice Inside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640879 Main Challenge (30 Points): The psychological Challenge. A huge part of losing weight involves the psychological challenges we face. For example what we say to ourselves makes a huge difference. Many times we find ourselves saying these negative things to ourselves despite our best attempts to stay positive.We may say things such as <BR> "I don't have enough time to......." <BR> or <BR> "I can't keep motivated due to...." <BR> or <BR> "I have tried everything to lose weight and it never works... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 22:50:23 EST Losing my running and walking partner...and friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626578 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1947575560.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Yesterday my Sammy went to doggie heaven. He had an aggressive tumor in his nose that spread and surgery wasn't an option, and radiation is iffy (only 10-20% success and his life would have been full of appointments we couldn't afford, and I did my research, the best success story the dog lived 6 mo. Longer and then passed.) Sammy lived a total of 14 wonderful years, and lasted 6 mo. after his diagnosis. <BR> <... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 15:27:45 EST So...I was in a Fitness DVD....Dream Come True #5? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613282 I haven't blogged about it. I still feel a little strange about it. I don't like to brag, and sometimes talking about blessings in our lives can feel that way. I know it's silly. But I do feel like I need to tell others how God has worked in amazing ways in my life. He has brought me out of my pit...he has blessed me with an 100+ lb. weight loss. He has given me the strength to become a Leslie Sansone Walk Leader.....then a Walk Star...then a fitness instructor at my dream gym....to be ... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 18:10:13 EST Things I love about my body...#s 5, 6 and 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611554 <BR> I love... <BR> <BR> My hair... <BR> <BR> My smile... <BR> <BR> And my rear ain't bad either : <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l502592204.jpg"> Fri, 31 Jan 2014 21:13:05 EST Things I Love About My Body....#4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609751 I love my collarbones. I didn't used to be able to see them...I remember the day when my hand was scratching my neck, and I was so surprised that I could feel a bone there! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1330554149.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l177876956.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And I came across some old family pictures....compared to a recent picture after the marathon... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/n... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 00:30:00 EST Things I Love About My Body...#3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608667 I love my eyes. <BR> <BR> Without makeup... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1404725410.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Or with makeup... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1879287052.jpg"> <BR> <BR> After a workout... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2046977540.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Or with glasses... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l34171362.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ...or shades.... <BR> <BR> <img ... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 22:15:54 EST Things I love about my body...#2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607439 I love my arms. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1891011083.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l953045815.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Do I have flab? <BR> <BR> Heck yes. <BR> <BR> Some call them bat wings. <BR> <BR> I really don't like that term... <BR> <BR> But you know what? <BR> <BR> I like them. No, I LOVE them. <BR> <BR> I see a definition. I am getting stronger. <BR> <BR> And I remember a time when they were ALL flab. <BR> <BR... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 17:55:53 EST Things I love about my Body....#1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607334 In my sunny gals group the main challenge this week is to fall in love with yourself again! This week, every day write a blog about one thing you love and admire about yourself. We tend to be hard on ourselves. We are our own critics and worst enemy. It can be a physical or character trait. It could be something you've accomplished or something you're proud of. Brag about how wonderful you are! <BR> <BR> I'm focusing on my body as its one of my resolutions to love my body...no matter what s... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 15:46:02 EST My Favorite Workouts (picture blog) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582515 For the sunny gal challenge this week we need to blog about our favorite workouts: <BR> <BR> Here are mine (and I love the workout "dice" I got as a goodie when placing an order with Sparkpeople!) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1675571093.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2037966340.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l68020705.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 00:21:04 EST I Choose Joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578586 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1172563501.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ok, so I resisted it. I didn't want to pick just one word to define my 2014. But ever since I wrote my resolutions down, one word stuck with me and wouldn't let go. Joy. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1869817868.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Various things happened that I saw as signs that this word was to be mine for 2014: <BR> <BR> I changed my cover photo on Facebook to a quote that I f... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 21:22:02 EST My New Year's Revolution and Prayer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578111 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/7/l778659391.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I love the New Year. I love setting goals and then looking back at the year and seeing how far you've come. I believe in the freshness of a clean slate, like the snow that is falling outside my window right now. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l138457053.jpg"> <BR> <BR> SARK, an artist and author, said that we should look at instead of making "resolutions", to start a revolution ins... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 15:07:27 EST My Big, Fat, Healthy Year in Review (pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576971 In 2013 I didn't lose any weight. Not one single pound. For that matter, I also did not lose weight in 2012. Since my 100+ lb. weight loss achieved in October 2011 I have successfully maintained my weight loss for 2 yrs (that sounds a lot better than "I've been stuck in a plateau for 2 yrs., doesn't it?"). <BR> <BR> No, in 2013 I'm ending the year a few lbs heavier (thanks Christmas!) but a whole lot STRONGER. in 2013 I achieved so many things I honestly never thought I could. <BR> <BR... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 17:43:43 EST The 5 lb. Christmas Gain will not defeat me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573721 I felt it, these past few days. The extra giggle of my stomach, the ache in my bones. I knew that it had happened. The dreaded holiday weight gain. I had managed to maintain over Thanksgiving, which was my goal, however I know that I slipped and fell off my plan during Christmas. I have time off of work,and that means wonderful family time with my husband and kids, but also more eating,more time lounging, and less time focusing on reaching my goal. <BR> <BR> I stepped on the scale this ... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 11:08:13 EST My Sunny Secret Santa Gift! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571608 I love my sunny gals, they are like family to me. I met one of my best friends through this group, Blaize. When I saw where my secret sunny was from, I knew that Blaize was my secret santa! We were supposed to wait until Christmas to open gifts, and I did. <BR> <BR> I got a beautiful handmade card and a super cute scripture mug, it says: "Be strong and courageous...for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." (Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be af... Wed, 25 Dec 2013 11:41:45 EST It's Good To Be Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527483 Ran for the first time this morning since the marathon -- I took a week off as prescribed by many, and I was plain depressed -- had the post marathon blues BIG TIME. Next time (and yes, there will be a next time!) I'm going to run anyway after a few days post marathon. It was difficult to get into it this week. <BR> <BR> But this morning I went for a mile run and I feel great! This weekend is the Hot Chocolate 5K and I'm running it with my Dad, who said he really wanted to run a 5K with... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 13:50:36 EST I Am A Marathoner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517431 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1925245065.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l847196092.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As I say that to myself, 48 hours after the Chicago Marathon, I am still in disbelief. Me, a marathoner? Even the hours leading up to the marathon felt surreal. There I was, getting my picture taken with my bib, among thousands of others at the expo that would soon be marathoners, too. Perhaps more then once over. <BR> <BR> <img src... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 00:34:02 EST Marathon Training: The Final Countdown! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5505837 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1899835275.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Two weeks ago I ran the farthest I've ever run. 20 miles. It was the hardest thing I've ever done next to childbirth. At one point I cried. My running partner cried. It wasn't so much the mileage that got us down, it was all of the circumstances that surrounded the run. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1976166791.jpg"> <BR> Look at that line of orange! TWV representing! <BR> <B... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 09:45:04 EST Marathon Training Weeks 19 and 20: It Is Not About Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479682 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l112715999.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This blog is not about me. <BR> <BR> Actually this journey, this marathon, is not about me. Not really. <BR> <BR> I'm running for Team World Vision to raise money for clean water projects in Africa so that those in need can have clean water. If you would like to support me or read more of my blogs you can visit <link>team.worldvision.org/goto/kathykubik </link> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpe... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 16:39:39 EST Marathon Training Week 18: Arriving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464996 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1055600562.jpg"> <BR> <BR> In church last week the pastor spoke about how we never "arrive", this is a journey that we are always on because we are never going to be perfect. Ever. But it's nice to day dream about, the day where we have everything we need and want. But, through Jesus, we already do. <BR> <BR> There isn't a secret recipe to arriving. No map, coordinates, instructions. You simply continue on the straight path, put one fo... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 15:19:34 EST Marathon Training Weeks 16 and 17: Saying Goodbye http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458198 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l5433572.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I found an old letter today written to myself, from myself. It was written 10 yrs ago about releasing a relationship in my life that wasn't healthy that I needed to release. But at the time I was coming from a place of fear. Fear of moving forward in my life, fear of starting a family. Fear of making mistakes. I was paralyzed with it. <BR> <BR> In the note I talk about how I never fully feel "complete" and so... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 16:03:49 EST Marathon Training Weeks 13-15 - Celebrating The Light http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449472 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l998527797.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Light cannot exist with darkness. It will cast a shadow over the light and block it out, much like a solar eclipse. I tried taking a picture of a rock my daughter made with scripture on it and my bible was casting a shadow over it. I had to keep inching the rock away from that shadow so I could get the picture I wanted, so that the rock could be seen in the best light. As I moved that rock, little bit by little... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 00:51:40 EST Marathon Training Weeks 9-12: God's Got This? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5418803 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1921700618.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Week 9 marked the first official week of marathon training. Before this we were in "pre-training". So now everyone who is running the Chicago marathon, or a marathon on the same date, is in training. There's excitement in the air about it. <BR> <BR> Through my fundraising I won two free tickets to see the Spirit of the Marathon 2 movie. I went to see it with my husband, and some members of the team. This m... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 10:51:54 EST Weeks 7 & 8 Marathon Training: Losing Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389615 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1343219237.jpg"> <BR> I am realizing that my blogs are less about running and more about God. And I think that is how it should be, when one goes on a journey with the sole intent to become closer to Him, that the result is exactly that. I just honestly didn't expect it. When I answered that voice that said I should run a marathon, secretly I didn't think it was God talking to me. Maybe it was my secret wish, to run a marathon. That was... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 01:39:33 EST Week 6 Marathon Training: Running From God http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5374132 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l168519260.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well, after the promises from last week, about returning to God and He will return to me, you would think I had a stellar week, right? A week full of certainty in my faith. It was like I had been given the all knowing “nod” from God that I was on the right track! Everything should have been great. Until, it wasn’t. <BR> <BR> One thing I am learning in my journey is to surrender. To let things go, to let God d... Fri, 31 May 2013 23:26:17 EST Weeks 4 and 5: Marathon Training: Recalibrating Route http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360209 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1239279146.jpg"> <BR> "The crooked roads shall become straight, the rough ways smooth" (Luke 3:5). <BR> <BR> In this blog I'm combining the 4th and 5th week of marathon training (woo hoo week 5!) because week 4 was a crazy/ busy week for me at work and I didn't have time to write. <BR> <BR> Along with the physical aspect of training is the spiritual. I'm on a journey and I can't have one without the other. When God gave me this God-sized... Sat, 18 May 2013 12:47:02 EST Week 3 Marathon Training: The Perfect Pace http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348078 This week went great, I usually don't run two days in a row to avoid injury but the training plan had me running on Friday and Saturday, and I followed my plan and felt good about it. I have been feeling a pain in my right hip, so I've started incorporating stretches before running to extend my hips and encourage my running gait to be correct, I may not be extending my leg all the way back. <BR> <BR> My 6 yr old daughter came on my run Monday with me on her bike. it was really rewarding t... Tue, 7 May 2013 00:00:03 EST Week 2 Marathon Training: Honoring and Celebrating Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340081 To start off this week of training, I packed my running gear Monday so that I could meet up with my amazing friend Jenn (KITHKINCAID) to honor those who lost their lives in the Boston marathon tragedy. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l233877465.jpg"> <BR> Martin Richard, the 8 yr old boy killed in the Boston bombing <BR> <BR> Lots of running stores around the country were having group fun runs to stand in solidarity, this one was through Ram Racing. I had the m... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 22:27:10 EST Week 1 Marathon Training: First Team Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5329995 My good friend Jenn (KITHKINCAID) did an amazing thing when she trained for the 2012 Chicago Marathon, she wrote a weekly blog that summarized her training runs, nutrition, everything. If you are also training to run a marathon, I HIGHLY recommend reading her blogs (which I intend to re-read throughout my training). The link to her first weekly blog is below: <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4838051 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> I decided ... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 20:13:16 EST