LORIVIOLA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LORIVIOLA LORIVIOLA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ happy, tired and grateful. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673940 DH's test results came back negative. Which is <em>250</em> !!!!! <BR> <BR> (The only thing that is frustrating <em>234</em> is not knowing why any of it happened, or what caused it. ) <BR> <BR> I am happy and grateful, nonetheless. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> It's been a long few days— <em>102</em> i'm tired. <BR> <BR> now, it's time to resume life. just in time for a busy Easter <em>449</em> weekend. <BR> <BR> Goodnight, Sparklers. Wed, 16 Apr 2014 22:53:59 EST gratitude, inspiration and being our own super hero! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673142 <em>252</em> <BR> it has been so helpful to hear <em>244</em> 's and <em>243</em> 's. <BR> especially when i feel down about a back slide. <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <BR> to all who have been kind, supportive, funny and just plain honest. it's been very inspirational. <BR> <BR> we can fight <em>530</em> for ourselves, our health and well being. <BR> <BR> we can be our own <em>531</em> <BR> <B... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 22:20:00 EST on babysitting bruised egos- and when would YOU make phone calls??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672382 DH is home from the hospital. Thank Goodness. <BR> <BR> Stress tests tomorrow. It will be good to get test results. To know what the heck happened. <BR> <BR> I am doing OK. Got a walk in, ate pretty well. Dealing with the stress of it all moderately well, but it is amazing how many people you need to <BR> "babysit" <BR> when something happens. <BR> <BR> All these people are annoyed that we didn't contact them sooner - <BR> LOOK, we are the ones in this problem and we will deal ... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 22:09:08 EST did well for the majority of a very very stressful day— proud of myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671618 DH went by ambulance to the hospital today with chest pains. he will be there overnight. for tests and observation. <BR> <BR> while all of this was happening i was very aware of taking good care of myself today. decent food (no junk under stress), lots of water, 4 different walks (totaling 4 miles). tried to remain calm and present and not go into all the what if's and stuff like that….. <BR> <BR> but, then, once i was on my way home. stressed, alone, worried… i went to the store and b... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 23:39:13 EST day #3 of totally honest tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670827 this is the first time i have had 3 consecutive days of tracking ALL of my food. <BR> <BR> i consider this a <em>244</em> thing! <BR> <BR> i feel like a <em>531</em> <BR> <BR> <em>530</em> <BR> <BR> good night, sparklers Sat, 12 Apr 2014 23:37:55 EST See things as they REALLY ARE. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669394 i am going to SEE THINGS AS THEY REALLY ARE. <BR> <BR> last night i ate movie theatre sized Junior Mints AND a small bag of fritos - while at the (recorded) opera (met at the movies). this was after we already went to dinner before the show. <BR> <BR> when i got home i was upset with myself because i did that. started to get down on myself. <BR> <BR> THEN— I GOT REAL. <BR> <BR> i remembered my fitness for the day: i walked for 3 miles, did 2 short exercise videos, hooped for 25 minute... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 22:35:04 EST minor setback, plugging along and great fun and a personal REVELATION???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668630 Minor setback: didn't do too badly earlier in the day- i did get 5 freggies in……. but, had fried food for dinner (put half away though) and ate candy and fritos tonight. <BR> <BR> Personal Revelation: I CHANGED MY ORIGINAL THINKING ABOUT THIS— AT FIRST I WAS THINKING "I TOTALLY SCREWED UP TONIGHT EATING WHAT I DID — but after taking stock, in the grand scheme of things IT'S NOT THAT BIG A DEAL …. SO LONG AS I DONT MAKE IT A HABIT!!! <BR> <BR> Plugging along: Walked 3+miles, did 7 min ... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 23:20:54 EST i couldn't resist. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666959 the setting: <BR> A Lenten study on Prayer <BR> the location: <BR> A lovely living room <BR> nemesis: <BR> the goodies that are on the table. <em>495</em> <BR> the goal: <BR> to be sensible about my choices regarding the nemesis….. <BR> <BR> the outcome: <BR> sigh. the cookies bested me. i couldn't resist. and i ate a lot of them. feeling (and probably looking) like a glutton. well, at least this is the last meeting, so this particular temptation will not be taunting me every week. ... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 22:42:56 EST ….. Hmmmmm ….. bitten off more than I can chew??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666050 when it rains it pours- but, in a good way! <BR> <BR> I am involved in several community theatre groups and two choirs ( one for church, one community choir ). <em>335</em> <BR> <BR> I haven't been on stage since June 2013. It was a concert gala with a local Opera company. <BR> <BR> Well, in the last week, I have: <BR> ~had a solo in the church choir (just learning to solo in church), <em>339</em> <BR> ~been assigned a few solo lines in the community choir (never had a solo with ... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 22:20:06 EST Sing sing sing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663903 Singing just always makes me feel better. <BR> So glad it was a good rehearsal tonight. <BR> <BR> <em>335</em> <em>339</em> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> Goodnight, sparklers Thu, 3 Apr 2014 23:18:24 EST Birds and Guitars http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663052 Today we went to the Peabody Essex Museum. It's a great museum, but i especially wanted to see the exhibit "From Here to Ear". It was SO SO SO SO SO SO FUN. <BR> <BR> I was so excited i got teary eyed. They were so cute, and the concept was so fun. If you get a chance to go, i HIGHLY recommend it. <BR> <BR> <em>448</em> <BR> <BR> http://www.pem.org/exhibitions/164-freep<BR>ort_no_007_celeste_boursier-mougenot <BR> <BR> Goodnight, Sparklers! <em>26</em> Wed, 2 Apr 2014 23:09:19 EST climbing out of a large attack of the GLUMS. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662194 <em>334</em> <BR> pretty good day today. although i had a rather large attack of the GLUMS. I was sad, stressed, overwhelmed and blue. Also, feeling very insecure and put upon. <BR> i don't even really know why. <BR> <BR> all of it may have been manufactured? i don't know. it was weird because when it hit i felt like "don't dwell on the bummer stuff. there are many good things about today. " the <em>67</em> was out, for one thing! i walked for 3 miles , felt a bit bett... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 23:17:20 EST lagging motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658218 i've been dragging the last few days. majorly crabby too. ugh. i have been walking- and doing all the things i have to do, but, i "don't wanna". i think i am overextended. i am looking forward to sunday afternoon. after choir rehearsal, church and walking — i am going to put sweats on and take a nap on the couch. <BR> <BR> in the meantime, i just have to push on. lots to do and not much time off in between. <BR> <BR> and so, with that, i am going to bed. maybe i will wake up refre... Thu, 27 Mar 2014 23:22:27 EST frustrations, puppy love and powering through. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657415 Today i was frustrated outwardly and inwardly. <em>46</em> You know those days, when little things keep going wrong. And you just cannot seem to get ahead? Yeah, it was one of those. <BR> <BR> Then, i met my brother's new pup. Jethro. <em>338</em> Very cute and sweet and energetic. How can you stay upset when a puppy is licking your face and trying to sit on you like a lap dog, but, he's bigger than that??? It was a blessing to meet Jethro today. <BR> <BR> The walk today? I ga... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 23:11:43 EST WOO-DOOODLE-DEE-HOOOOOOO! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656632 Tonight, while on my way home from choir rehearsal, i thought of 5Guys and their french fries (i've only been there once and they were very tasty). I talked myself into and out of it a few times while driving. I pulled into the parking lot, walked in, asked what size the smallest fry was - she showed me the cup and said it would be filled almost double— i said <BR> "Thank you, but I don't think i will have any of these right now." <BR> And i left!!!!! <BR> <BR> Then, i got in the car,... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 23:38:39 EST who'da thunk? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655764 I went to a meeting tonight and overindulged in the snacks. when i got home i tracked all i could remember- and made sure to add more than i thought i ate- just to be safe. better to overestimate than underestimate, right? <BR> <BR> well, it was over 500 calories tonight, <em>495</em> <em>494</em> <BR> <BR> and, surprise! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> i still came in within calorie range and under my carb range. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> i guess since i had done pretty well all day, th... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 22:28:31 EST heading off the craving. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654969 I had big mood swings today. woke up ok. snapped at DH because he put me on the defensive. went to church and got SO frustrated in choir rehearsal that i started to tear up. and i didn't have the best voice or attention today. i know i am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but i do like to do well for the sake of the other choir members, the congregation and for myself. it just wasn't my day. so, I was just overwhelmed by so many things in so many ways today. ugh. <BR> ... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 23:38:25 EST Good day, and solved the typo mystery!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654259 I walked 5 miles today (two separate walks). <BR> Hooped for 15 minutes. <BR> <BR> Got a lot done at work. <BR> <BR> Went to see a local performance of "The Secret Garden". It was great. <BR> <BR> Not bad on food either. <BR> <BR> And, I discovered a typo in the nutritional info of one of my foods. Calcium was 204%. No wonder i was over on that every day! Glad i finally figured that out, because it was making me crazy. <BR> <BR> Now, <em>102</em> . <BR> <BR> Good night, Sparkl... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 23:57:10 EST must resist…. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653603 While out running errands tonight i was hit with an ATTACK of several simultaneous cravings. Everything looked good, even stuff i don't usually want or eat. On the way home i drove past several fast food places. I don't usually go there either,,, but it was a struggle to drive by and not stop for french fries. <BR> <BR> Eventually, after what seemed to be AGES AND AGES, but was actually only about 10 minutes, i made it home, without caving in. WHEW!!! <BR> <BR> I had some Nut-Thins and... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 23:59:09 EST in a pretty good mood…. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652799 the day started out kinda frustrating— my blender splurged my breakfast all over the place— <BR> then work was hectic. <BR> <BR> choir rehearsal was okay, but overwhelming. difficult music that i am having a hard time with. <BR> <BR> but, ultimately, i did well today with food/exercise. And i actually logged everything. <BR> <BR> now, it's time for rest. <BR> <BR> goodnight, Sparklers. Thu, 20 Mar 2014 23:03:34 EST Music http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651987 Last week we went to see MAMMA MIA and loved it. <BR> <BR> I proceded to get a bunch of CD's from the library (YAY, LIBRARIES! GO TO THEM, THEY WILL ENRICH YOUR LIFE!——— YES, SHAMELESS PLUG FROM A LIBRARIAN, but, i digress) <BR> <BR> Anyhoo- today i played one particular album (ABBA GOLD) over and over again while doing house work, making lunch, hooping, etc. It made me so happy. I broke out into <BR> ENTHUSIASTIC DANCING. That hasn't happened in a while. <BR> <BR> another bonus. ... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 23:09:24 EST Non-Scale WOOOHOOO Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651174 Today, at work, i was surrounded by temptation. Cupcakes, other goodies and Irish Soda bread. In a room i go through all day long, AND in the break room. <BR> <BR> It was driving me crazy. In fact at 9 minutes before leaving i was saying to myself: I only have to wait 9 more minutes to get away from this! <BR> <BR> I DID IT! I MADE IT THROUGH THE DAY WITHOUT EATING ANY OF THAT STUFF. <BR> <BR> Hopefully it will be all gone by my next shift. <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>244</em>... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 23:14:50 EST Glad that's over... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648791 Today I had something happen that has not happened before. <BR> <BR> I have Type II diabetes. Sometimes my blood sugar gets too low. Sometimes I don't even notice (which can be scary, later) and sometimes I do notice. I get crabby or confused, mostly. Like i know i need to eat, but can't get myself to decide what to eat so i walk in circles in the kitchen…. but, most of the time the symptoms don't change. <BR> <BR> Today, they did. I was walking. I had been out for a while. (I test... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 23:45:53 EST Alls well that ends well. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648082 When i got home from work i was BEAT. <BR> <BR> But i promised myself i would walk 1 mile because now that Daylight savings time has happened, it's light enough to do so. I did it, and i was glad. (and it was topping off the 3.5 miles i did this morning.) <BR> <BR> But, it didn't energize me like it sometimes does. I was drained. Ate dinner, and vegged in front of the computer for a long time. I needed to get moving and make muffins for the church coffee hour we are hosting on Sund... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 23:41:28 EST I can do this. I can handle this. I am strong. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647331 really. that's all. i am crabby. feeling negative. trying not to beat myself up for no reason at all. i haven't even done anything bad, and yet, i feel bad right now. <BR> <BR> so, i need to turn it around. <BR> <BR> i can do this. i can handle this. i am strong. Thu, 13 Mar 2014 22:50:08 EST Strong, graceful performers/dancers. Upper body - WOW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646579 We went to see MAMMA MIA. It was a FABULOUS, WONDERFUL, FANTASTIC show. I was inspired to see the Lead character, Donna's arms/shoulders. She is older than I am. I know i cannot get back something i have lost many years ago (or may never have had….), but, i can get better. And the dancing? it was PHENOMENAL. <BR> <BR> So, I will try to remember this inspiration…. and start working on my upper body. Other parts too, of course, but that was the inspiration. <BR> <BR> Good night,... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 23:38:33 EST Doing things differently, and the same… and I WILL DO IT AGAIN. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644858 Different: <BR> <BR> Today I did Day 3 of the Bootcamp workout. Upper body work. 7 minutes. I've gotta work up to more. I'm glad I did it!!! Maybe I will be able to make myself do it again. NO!! I need to rephrase that…. I WILL DO IT AGAIN... <BR> <BR> <em>362</em> <BR> <BR> Same: Today I walked for 67 minutes. Did a pretty big hill. And, did the 15 minute Qi Gong routine. I really love that one, and would like to do it more often but haven't been consistent with that yet... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 22:00:06 EST Planning ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642483 I planned ahead several times over the last two days. <BR> While this may not seem like a big deal, for me, it is. <BR> I have ADD and sometimes can't even get out of my own way. <BR> Time management is often an issue, too. <BR> <BR> ~Last night I got gas for my car before i came home from my choir rehearsal knowing it would just stress me out to try to do it in the morning. (it was late, wicked cold and all i wanted to do was go home, but i am SO GLAD i got the gas then and not today). <BR... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 21:56:10 EST A serious case of CRABBY. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641727 EGADS! <BR> <BR> I am CRABBY. CRABBY CRABBY CRABBY. <BR> I think sometimes you just have to <BR> <BR> OWN THE CRABBY. BE ONE WITH THE CRABBY. INHABIT THE CRABBY. <BR> <BR> If it's not ignored or denied, it may get bored and leave sooner…. who knows? <BR> <BR> Good Night, Sparkers. <BR> <BR> Signed, <BR> Crabby McCrabby Pants. <BR> <BR> (HAHAHA! i already feel better just typing this all out…) <BR> <BR> Thu, 6 Mar 2014 22:50:13 EST paying attention and not overdo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640831 over the last few days i have had hip trouble. arthritis. usually, if i have anything at all, it is a bit of stiffness. this time it was PAIN. Swelling. It is dissipating now, thankfully. But not completely gone. I walked a lot today. Twice. Used ice. and rested. but now, it's starting to feel a little less good…. so, i need to listen to that. pay attention and not overdo. I really cannot be sidelined (who can?) by this. <BR> <BR> Getting older has brought things i haven't expec... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 21:57:24 EST Going the (2) Extra Mile(s) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633905 I didn't have time this morning to walk my usual 2.5 miles. i went for 1.5. I promised myself i'd go for the rest in the afternoon. well, afternoon came and i was exhausted. i talked myself into going to walk— i said i only needed to go ONE mile, and then realized i was finally FINALLY warm. It's been so cold. i continued on…. and on…. until i went 3 miles. so the total for the two walks: 4.5 miles! <BR> yay me!~ <BR> <BR> night sparksters! Tue, 25 Feb 2014 23:59:56 EST Time spent. Blessings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632923 Spent some time today with my Mom. We made her recipe for meatballs with LOTS of garlic. Not quite the same as usual - we tried to use the crockpot, but they didn't cook as well. Tomorrow, she will cook them more. But, they were YUMMY. just what i needed. I decided to have Garlic bread too. (We didn't have spaghetti). I do not regret it at all. Sometimes it's okay to just enjoy and not feel guilty. <BR> <BR> It was a blessing to be able to cook today with my mom. We didn't do much ... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 21:50:30 EST Meltdown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631214 I had a pretty big meltdown today. I hadn't eaten in about 7 hours. When that happens i get agitated and confused. Got into a shouting match with my guy. It was awful. I need to not let myself get to that point. Often if it is going to happen, he heads it off at the pass-- because sometimes i am muddled enough to not be able to do it myself... but this time he had his own issues and stress going on. needless to say, it was a mess. i did feel much better after i ate. going to bed now... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 22:42:29 EST A simple woohoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629703 Tonight, I really wanted something "bad" (pizza, chips, cookies, whatever). <BR> Instead, I ate hummus with raw broccoli (the only way i can eat broccoli - and it's still not a favorite)... <BR> Also, some honey roasted almonds. And a small banana chocolate chip gluten free muffin (the recipe i found here on Spark People.) With lots of water. I am satisfied and going to bed. <BR> <BR> Nite Sparklers! Thu, 20 Feb 2014 23:48:06 EST Holy Moly! I did it! From 7.6 to 6.4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626542 I was diagnosed in September of 2007 with Type II Diabetes. Over the years I have had many struggles and fluctuations with my blood sugar levels. <BR> <BR> 4 times a year i get a test called A1C. It measures my average blood sugar levels for the past 3 months. The goal is to be as close to 6.0 as possible. Below that is what the non-diabetic person will have. <BR> <BR> At the beginning of 2013 my numbers spiked up to 8.1 and that was WITH medication. I was freaked out. I had been ... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 14:41:00 EST Consistency?? Not quite. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622694 Some days are so weird. Today i started out with a good breakfast. So far so good..... <BR> <BR> Then i got caught up in the computer (not a good thing, and i was "escaping" ). i am sad because addiction has claimed a cousin of mine. What a heartbreak. <BR> <BR> And eating Nutella straight from the jar........ <BR> <BR> After a few hours, i needed to shake it off and do SOMETHING. i started to clean, rearranged the living room, scrubbed floors, shoveled to the bird feeders, etc.... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 23:04:42 EST Laughter, Positivity, and Putting stuff "out there". http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619608 Spending time with old friends is always interesting. This time around there was game playing and much laughter. I am always appreciative of that. Once i am home again, i want to keep good feelings going. Trying to stay positive, or GET POSITIVE if i am not "feeling it". And being reminded that we grow and change when we put our stuff "out there". When we share something that we have never shared, or try something we have never tried... it's a good and growing thing. Spending time with... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 16:49:13 EST Getting back into the swing of things. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616773 I am now logging on to FB daily again. <BR> Logging breakfast daily, but struggling with other times of day-- <BR> Walking daily. <BR> Last night i did the 15 minute Qi Gong workout. Liked it a lot. <BR> This morning i stretched. <BR> this afternoon i will walk again. <BR> <BR> All good things. <BR> <BR> now to KEEP IT UP. <BR> Thu, 6 Feb 2014 10:26:32 EST Trying to come back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610145 Fell off the wagon in so many ways. <BR> Also not wanting to spent "too" much time on the computer.... makes it difficult to be here. <BR> Doing the best I can, most of the time is all i can expect of myself today. <BR> Thu, 30 Jan 2014 11:26:19 EST OK it's a New Year. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579815 I've been away from SP for quite a while. For many reasons. And now, i've gained weight, and had many different health issues, including depression to contend with. It's time to get focused and do the things that need doing. <BR> <BR> Old way of thinking: I'm depressed that I have had complications/struggles with Type II Diabetes. <BR> <BR> New way of thinking: Don't be depressed, just DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. <BR> <BR> I forgot for a while that I DO HAVE SOME CONTROL OVER THINGS. I... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 18:08:15 EST 2 months of change? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395002 Two months from yesterday is my 48th birthday. I wonder how much i can turn things around in that time. If i will be able to focus long enough to really get it done. I've been active, but not enough. Not hard enough, not long enough. Consistently, yes, but not enough. Maybe i'll make a poster and make it like a calendar. Write all the things i'd like to accomplish on it, on the days i'd like to do them... not sure if that will work... but, it's worth a try. <BR> <BR> I want to lower ... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 09:53:06 EST relaxing moments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388542 after all the stress i decided to eat (portion controlled) ice cream, and chips (not so portion controlled). it felt so good to indulge. time in bed, a rainy day outside. an enjoyable book. and comfort food. i even took a nap. i know this is not something i can do regularly, or often. but, it sure felt good to do it today. <BR> <BR> no guilt. no remorse. i was present in the moment and enjoyed every bite. <BR> <BR> then, later, i was able to do things that i just havent had the d... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 23:34:44 EST ZZZzzzzz..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387491 really tired. to tired to even track tonight. didnt do so well today anyway. really glad tomorrow is a new day. although, it's gonna be a stressful one. Surgical consultation. Sigh. <BR> <BR> good night, Sparklers! Wed, 12 Jun 2013 23:07:09 EST overages... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386403 went OVER on water - 11 glasses! <BR> went OVER on veggies and fruits - 8 servings! <BR> went (on) OVER to the gym for the first time in 25 days! <BR> <BR> <BR> went OVER on calories, fat, & carbs. <BR> <BR> Oh well. Today is OVER & Tomorrow is another day. <BR> <BR> Goodnight, Sparklers! Tue, 11 Jun 2013 23:20:12 EST a monday woohoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385163 today is the first time i have met almost all of my nutritional goals in a long time. (i was slightly over on protein, but, i can live with that.) <BR> <BR> YAY YAY YAY! <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <em>224</em> Mon, 10 Jun 2013 22:27:06 EST 10 reasons to get healthier. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383807 10 Reasons I Want to Get Healthier (In no particular order) <BR> <BR> 1) To get my A1C numbers to a lower level (6.0) <BR> 2) To decrease the amount of Dr visits, and perhaps medications. <BR> 3) To increase my confidence and self esteem. <BR> 4) To be able to help and support others. <BR> 5) To be a positive force in the world. <BR> 6) To feel like I am being the best that I can be! <BR> 7) To have a long and healthy life! <BR> 8) To prove to myself that I CAN DO IT. <BR> 9) To meet goa... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 21:28:33 EST SERENDIPITY. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382898 long story-- a woman came into the library where i work. she had a hat she made from weaving pine needles while she was undergoing cancer treatment. she now brings it with her wherever she goes, tells her story, and asks if the person would like to have a photo take while wearing the hat. "put good thoughts into it, take good things from it if that's what you need". it warmed my heart... as i really needed something, and could offer something. (This is where the serendipity comes in. I ... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 22:51:46 EST still no news, but, will try to relax over the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381987 no news. but, i wont be as stressed waiting for a call because i know i wont get one on saturday or sunday, so, i can relax a little and not be waiting for the phone to ring. <BR> <BR> looking forward to a good night of sleep and a weekend without lots of plans. work for 4 hours saturday, and church/picnic on sunday. otherwise, my time is my own. <BR> <BR> so glad about that. ahhh. Fri, 7 Jun 2013 23:24:16 EST Hanging in there. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380830 Dealing with a stressful situation with lots of waiting... it is so difficult. <BR> I did not turn to food earlier in the day. then i went out to eat with a friend and was faced with bad food choices that i made. oh well. <BR> <BR> tomorrow is another day. hopefully i will be able to behave better and find out the information i want in order to move forward. <BR> <BR> good night, sparklers! Thu, 6 Jun 2013 22:28:12 EST Life is Art. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379052 Your life is what you make it. <BR> <BR> Make a masterpiece, or make a finger paint... or a carving (unearthing the NEW you underneath, perhaps?) Whatever your "medium" is. Or, try something new. You never know where that might lead. <BR> <BR> Any way you choose to do it, it is up to you. <BR> YOU can create a life you want and love. <BR> <BR> Love and light, Sparkly-ones! Wed, 5 Jun 2013 11:24:27 EST