LORIJAXON's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LORIJAXON LORIJAXON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What am I afraid of.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1782037 While watching biggest loser this past week, I heard Jillian ask," What are you afraid of? " I keep wondering if I am pushing myself hard enough while I am working out...or am I holding myself back for some reason? What am I afraid of...failure, not being good enough...what? <BR> How hard is hard enough? I usually feel like I am doing good, but is it hard enough? Sometimes, I give up on myself...I am not going to die, if I do 3 more squats or 15 more situps, or when doing cardio I feel like... Sun, 8 Feb 2009 22:22:51 EST Feeling stressed Friday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1754909 Yesterday was a tough day....Last night I just wanted to go work out for a while to help easy the stress and help me relax, but hubby wasn't real agreeable with helping with Jarod and it just didn't happen. I know it seems bad, but I need that time for me, I don't ask for much from anyone...so when I don't get my way it bothers me....boy am I sounding like a spoiled brat or what! It is just when you own your own company and you work a lot, and manage a household and all the things that go wit... Fri, 30 Jan 2009 18:28:09 EST Calenetics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1745723 Wow I did this Calenetics tape that I have had since the 80's and I was amazed at how relaxing it was. It not only works those inner muscles but it helps you relax too. The tape is so old that I was worried that it wouldn't work anymore...but it did. I am hoping my hubby can put it on a dvd so I don't wear it out. <BR> I haven't been that relaxed in ???? who knows how long. It was awesome and I am a bit sore from it too. So what a great workout! Plus it helped with my pinched sciatic nerve!!!... Tue, 27 Jan 2009 20:41:53 EST Feeling good Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1737427 Well I slept in this morning and it has been a while since I got to sleep in. It felt really good just to get up when I was ready to. Last week was a tough week of work and my toe didn't help. But I made it through and when I got up this morning I told my hubby, I am going to work out and I don't want to rush it...So he and Jarod let me do my workout and I did the whole 4 mile Walk Away the Pounds. It was 50 mins, plus a few for extra stretching afterwards. I put my mp3 player on and just boo... Sun, 25 Jan 2009 13:51:46 EST Broken toe?? or just badly bent!LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1733775 Jarod and I was playing soccer in the house, yes in the house the other night, and we collided pretty hard. When we did I was ready and in the process of going to kick the ball and whamoo, I kicked him instead! I felt horrible, he went down I went down and I think I broke one of my toes. I couldn't hardly walk. He was alright but I did leave a pretty good bruise on his shin. So I have been trying to work and hobble around, it is feeling better but I still have to be really careful with it. I ... Sat, 24 Jan 2009 08:24:36 EST No sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1705367 No sleep last night and I have a big job today. After I just fell back to sleep after laying awake and tossing and turning all night long. I started waking up before one and I never really went back to sleep until the alarm went off at 4:20. <BR> I only have a minute but I am going to try and get in 10-15 mins of exercise since I will be driving to and from my job for over 6 hours today. I will need the exercise to get my metabolism going.... Fri, 16 Jan 2009 06:56:12 EST Calorie Counting watch Correct????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1697396 Dani and I was out shopping last week and I found a Pilates tape for 2 dollars, I bought it because the instructor was Ellen. I love Ellen. She is encouraging and really does a great job reminding you to hold your tummy in and makes it fun. I did the tape today and I really liked it. Not too hard but enough to get your heart a pumping... according to my watch that counts calories I burned 451 calories... <BR> I have a question if anyone has one of those watches that tells you your heart rate ... Wed, 14 Jan 2009 07:57:01 EST The weather outside is frightful..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1688639 Good thing I have the WATP dvd. so this way I got my 2 miles done this morning without having to drag my poor dog out in the fridgid weather with me....You know it is cold when the dog refuses to go out. HA. Actually it is the wind and the snow looks like a blizzard out there. <BR> <BR> It feels good to get my exercising done in the morning...gets your metabolism up for the day too. I actually woke up at 4:20 ready to go....Wow! it has been a really long time since I got up at 4 and was re... Mon, 12 Jan 2009 08:37:21 EST Good feeling.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1684977 I got one of the Walk Away the Pounds dvd's and I was so excited about trying it out this morning and then I couldn't find the remote....the dvd played the introduction but without the remote it wouldn't go any further.....I got so mad!!!! I was so excited about trying it out. So I got the poor dog and put her on the leash she looked up at me like this early....but it is cold outside.....she wasn't at all excited, maybe it was the shock of the cold air that caused her to wince. But out the do... Sun, 11 Jan 2009 10:27:01 EST Chest test results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1681806 My chest stress test came back good. So we are not sure what was causing the pains in my chest....It could be that I had fluid around my heart again...and more than likely that was it. I am working on slowly getting back to life. It is amazing how badly I have been feeling. I am starting to feel better, not quite myself yet. But so much better, it encourages me to start taking much better care of myself. <BR> Dani and I are probably going to take a walk today, if the temps. get up higher than... Sat, 10 Jan 2009 12:01:17 EST Today is a new day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1670233 I have been at the hospital most of the morning today. Having a stress test done on my heart. While I was waiting I was looking back over the past few months and really noticed where I need to make some changes in my life style. <BR> <BR> ONE- I need to be exercising to get and stay healthy, not to see the scale move down, although that would be nice, it always discourages me when it doesn't budge then I give up. <BR> <BR> TWO- NO GIVING UP PERIOD!!! This is the time in my life I need ... Wed, 7 Jan 2009 18:04:40 EST Soccer with Jarod http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1363588 Yesterday I did 12 mins. of 30 day shred 2, I was trying to be careful with my back, then I did some yoga stretches and Jarod and I played soccer last night for about 20 mins. We had fun and laughed and it was good. <BR> Hubby has to leave early today and I over slept...plus I have a busy busy day ahead of me with work. Will try to squeeze in some exercise during the day and tonight.... Mon, 28 Jul 2008 07:33:43 EST Nerves a little better.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1360202 I think my pinched nerve is a little better, but still is there...I have only done some stretches since the pain was intense and I could hardly tie my shoes....work was not the most fun either. But it does feel a little better and I am hoping to get some exercising in again, but I will start off easy since I don't want to end up with it irritated. <BR> I had some blood work done this past week and my bad cholestrol is pretty high, which doesn't make any sense to me since I eat pretty good. I... Sat, 26 Jul 2008 09:22:37 EST Trying the Yoga http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1353374 I did some more yoga last night and then there was a tv show that had yoga stretches that I did this morning...it felt really good. What a wonderful way to add some change to your morning and evening rituals. <BR> I believe I have a sciatic nerve that might be pinched and it is causing some pretty bad pain in my lower back, buttuck and down my leg. Right side is the worst side, but I am also experiencing some pain in my left leg behind the knee when I kneel. I guess that wouldn't be too bad ... Wed, 23 Jul 2008 08:34:50 EST Yoga/Detoxing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1350773 Well I tried some of the yoga stretches that were recommended for detoxing your body. Then I found a link that gave yoga stretches for a good nights sleep. So I printed those and did them too....I was tired when I did them but I went right to bed and right to sleep. I slept all night long, but lately I have been sleeping pretty good. Thank God. I was very relaxed so I think I am going to keep doing them and see if I notice any difference. I did get out of bed a lot easier today...so we will ... Tue, 22 Jul 2008 07:51:22 EST DETOXING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1348229 I was reading an article on doing some yoga stretches to help detoxify your body...I thought that was interesting that by doing certain stretches it helps increase oxygen and blood flow to help your body rid it's toxins. I guess I have never really thought of doing exercises to rid your body of poison! Maybe this will be a good thing for my visual board that Dani wants me to make (personal challenge) and what a great way to get a positive view of exercising... Mon, 21 Jul 2008 08:42:32 EST MIA http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1346530 Well I have had a long week this past week. Dani and her hubby and little James is in Michigan on a vacation/family reunion. (This would be why I have been missing doing my Sparks. ) So while they have been gone I am taking care of two households/ gardens/and 5 dogs/ plus working my job. As long as we can get through two more days with no more of the furniture eaten and torn to bits...Well then I will be happy. I am sure the dogs will be grateful to have their peeps back! And I will be grate... Sun, 20 Jul 2008 11:55:06 EST (no title) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1329165 Oh I am so glad the weather has cooled off a little today. The past couple of days have been in the upper 90's and I just don't handle the heat that well. I was wiped out yesterday. So happy that it is the weekend and I have more time to focus on exercising--and not having to beat the heat sure helps! Sat, 12 Jul 2008 13:34:56 EST (no title) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1321652 Dani and I are going to run this morning and then I am helping Chad her husband fix their shed that blew over in the tornado...Then I have to get out there and make some job contacts. But at least we can get our run in before it gets too hot out. It is supposed to be in the mid 90's and I don't do too good when it is hot out. We did do a jog/but mostly a walk yesterday after work, because it was so hot. So I am all for the cooler temps! <BR> I have missed Dani and my runs lately. My work has... Wed, 9 Jul 2008 08:34:54 EST I'm BACK.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1320744 Well after several set backs I think -- actually I know that I am back. <BR> I feel energized and happy to be exercising....why do we all struggle at times when we know that the exercising is so so good for us? I don't know but I know I have really slipped and now it is time to re adjust and re focus and get 'r done!!!! <BR> Hope all of you are doing great and thanks for checking on me while I was going through stuff. <BR> Just like that country song goes -- If you're going through hell kee... Tue, 8 Jul 2008 19:51:16 EST Back from the mountains.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1302055 We went camping this weekend, and it was just so beautiful and a lot cooler there than down here. We enjoyed a hike and Dani Chad and Baby James enjoyed the trip with us. Baby James was a trooper and did absolutely awesome! It was the perfect place for a little guy; fresh air, lots of trees and dirt. What else could one want!!! <BR> We sure needed the break and Dani and I got in a small run in the afternoon on Saturday. <BR> We are truly blessed living here in Colorado and so close to God's... Sun, 29 Jun 2008 22:59:24 EST I won Spark Points..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1286949 WOW!!! I just won 1000 spark points. I was jumping up and down and I am so happy...you see I don't win things. I have never won even a lottery ticket, just a one dollar winner and I would be happy. But not me....so I am so happy that I won! <BR> <BR> Take pleasure and find happiness in the small things is my motto! Hope everyone has a great week! Sun, 22 Jun 2008 22:13:06 EST Missing for awhile...but hoping to be back on track.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1281786 Sorry all I have been out for a while. After my step mom's death and with family in, which was so good to see them!!! Now just trying to get back into the groove of things...Then I have had more work this week than I have had in several weeks. God is so good that I wasn't too busy while all the choas of the tornado and Betty's death were occuring...Now it is back to the grind and getting pretty busy. 12-14 hour days makes for a tired Mom, but it is a good tired. I just need to get into some ... Thu, 19 Jun 2008 23:24:57 EST Pearshape to hourglass..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1260897 I was thinking how happy I felt when I dropped a pant size. I have only lost around 5 pounds (est.?)since my old scale didn't work right...I am guessing that is about what it was.) I bought a pair of shorts at a garage sale and was hoping they would fit...and WALAAA they did, and they were one size smaller. <BR> Then the the day the tornado hit that morning my son and I were running across the street to get to school on time and Jarod looked back at me and said,"Mom, your losing weight!" Th... Tue, 10 Jun 2008 08:26:48 EST MIA http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1259322 I have taken a couple of days off from life...well, mostly. Maybe I will join PamiJane and take a holiday in my head. LOL. <BR> My step mom past away and her funeral will be this Friday. So there have been times of crying, and sadness and greiving. <BR> Dani and I ran today and I didn't do too good. We also ran on Saturday and I did okay. I have been reallly congested and have had some chest pains. Since I have a leaky heart valve I didn't want to push it too much...So I paced myself today ... Mon, 9 Jun 2008 13:40:51 EST (no title) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1250182 Life is weird at times. Too much emphasis on things that don't matter in the scheme of things. <BR> First the tornado that rips through our town and destroys peoples lives in a matter of minutes. I am praising God since only one person died, but then my dad called last night and his wife of over 30 years is in the hospital and things aren't looking good. They say if she doesn't improve by this weekend the family needs to make a decision whether to keep her alive! <BR> I know they say that ... Wed, 4 Jun 2008 20:41:17 EST MIA this weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1239359 Sorry gals but I won't be around this weekend, I have to work in Steamboat Springs and won't have access to a computer. <BR> Hope Dani can run with out me on Saturday :( It makes me sad we were just trying to get back in the groove of things and now I have to work for the next 2-3 weekends. It won't be too bad if we have a day off or two during the week, guess only time will tell. I don't want to be so busy that I miss out on summer again. That happened last year, and I don't want to repeat... Fri, 30 May 2008 22:14:54 EST (no title) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1237182 I appreciate all of your prayers and kindness!!!! YOU gals are the best support system <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> Well Dani and I ran this morning before work since the temps are to be up to 90 today and the humidity is really high (for me anyway :) ) It was so so good to run, although we couldn't go all the way around the lake due to the clean up crews had the last 1/3 of the lake prohibited. So we turned around and went back the way we started, actually it made it for a longer work out. We bo... Thu, 29 May 2008 18:51:35 EST Getting Back into the groove http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1235286 Well, I haven't been too good as of lately. With everything with the tornado and everything, I have just been a little off. We worked so hard for a few days that I didn't have any energy to work out. Now I am in a funk! I have no reason to be depressed, yet I feel kindof that way. Who knows maybe Post tramatic stress syndrome??? I returned to work today and I wasn't in the mood for it, but by the time the day was over I was glad that I had worked all day. So hopefully I am getting back to the... Wed, 28 May 2008 21:45:31 EST Tornado is gone and Power has returned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1228787 hello everyone, <BR> We live in Windsor CO, where the F-3 tornado hit last Thursday. My son was in his house when the tornado picked up his house and sat it back down, but not quite where it started off! It is Sunday pm and we just got our power back on--Whoo HOO I can do laundry <BR> I am so very thankful that all my family is okay. My son lost his house in the tornado, and several friends also have lost their houses, and like many of us some just have a lot of damage. <BR> I am thanking Go... Sun, 25 May 2008 18:38:55 EST (no title) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1222437 Today was a long work day for me and I did manage the bootcamp 10 min. exercise for the day and tonight I did this new dvd called bootcamp. <BR> Guess I'm in the army now. LOL <BR> Feels good and my calories that I have burned for the day so far is 3200! I can't believe that, but that is what my watch says. <BR> So whoo hoo!!! Wed, 21 May 2008 22:28:43 EST Trying again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1215947 I am hoping this post will post..I tried three times yesterday and not one of them would go through. That is frustrating. <BR> <BR> Dani and I ran for 11 mins, walked 5 then I ran for 10 (leg cramp) and Dani ran for 11, then we finished walking what was left of the lake and sprinted the last 100 yards to the truck. Whoo Hoo! <BR> <BR> We are definately going to have to start doing our running before the heat of the day...the weather went from the 40 's and a few 60's to 85-90 this week! ... Mon, 19 May 2008 08:00:18 EST OH Springtime in the Rockies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1212845 I am so blessed to have such a wonderful hubby! A couple of years ago we had a severe blizzard and we got over 3 feet of snow and it snowed and snowed, well it took months for the snow to leave the back yard, and by spring we had a mold that killed our grass. We tried pulling it back out but it just wouldn't. Then we got two new dogs and that was all she wrote. By, by grass. We have clumps. Well I loved my back yard I should send pictures of both the front yard and back yard, We had beautifu... Sat, 17 May 2008 08:30:41 EST Quickie... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1211081 I need to make this quick, I have to go to WinterPark today and it is over a 2 hour drive one way...Life got past me yesterday. Driving a lot for my job right now, and it takes so much time out of my schedule...I didn't exercise and my back/hip is really bothering me again. I will do some stretches before I shower and see if I can loosen up. <BR> Hope everyone has a great Friday. <BR> Blessings. Fri, 16 May 2008 08:17:21 EST Can we run.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1206785 Our weather here hasn't been good the past couple of days so Dani and I haven't ran...Yesterday my one dog was in the vets all day. So as soon as we got her home I took her for a quick walk then my other dog wanted to go. I have trouble walking both since they play and try and race each other...hum, maybe I could have gotten more running in...LOL. <BR> Anyway I did run and walk on the second dog, mostly because it was pretty cold and I thought it would keep me warmer. <BR> Hoping I don't ha... Wed, 14 May 2008 07:48:18 EST A New Scale.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1203510 Dani got me a new scale for Mother's Day (she knew I needed one as mine has been messing up and is old) I was happy to get the scale...until I stepped onto it. HUM, 10 pounds difference from mine. Of course I had all my clothes on and my shoes...but it just really hit me hard. Don't get me wrong I loved the fact that Dani got me the scale...But to be 10 pounds heavier than I thought I was, was like getting hit by a bowling ball. It floored me. Then after a few tears (poor Dani she cried too!... Mon, 12 May 2008 16:09:34 EST Blessings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1200772 Since it is Mother's Day I am just going to count my blessings that my mom is here with us as we have had a few scares this past year. <BR> And now I am a grandma this year, that is a blessing in itself... I am so so PROUD of Dani who is becoming a wonderful mother <BR> <BR> Blessings to all my SP friends on this day! Sun, 11 May 2008 09:57:07 EST My Friday blog didn't post.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1199184 I think my mind is playing games with me....I am having trouble getting some of my posts to post.... <BR> Anyway onward and upward....Dani and I ran for 5 mins, walked for 5, ran 5 walked 5 and ran 5 then walked back to the car.... We were only to walk for 3 but we had a pregnant friend with us and we didn't want to leave her behind too much. We would run out in front then walk back to her....It worked out pretty good. Then Dani informed me we go for 8 mins this Sunday, then 20! YIKES that sc... Sat, 10 May 2008 07:44:38 EST Thanks for the support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1192969 WOW!!! I feel great this morning. I slept well and I got up and did 50 mins. of the Firm....and I am starting to feel that excited feeling about exercising again....I was in a slump but perserverance is seeing me through...And Dani and ALL of you too of course. <BR> Thanks to all who help encourage me to tredge on when all I want to do is nothing.....NOTHING is where I have been for a long time....I AM NOT DOING it NO MORE! <BR> BLESSINGs to all of you for your support <em>100</em> Wed, 7 May 2008 09:22:14 EST (no title) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1192307 Oopps! I sent myself a comment....somedays you just have to laugh at yourself LOL <BR> I have been having trouble posting who knows it might have just been me! Tue, 6 May 2008 22:19:40 EST Strugglin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1179390 Man I have just been stuggling to get my strength workouts in...I haven't been staying focused. I feel kind of like I am letting Dani down and she is doing so so good!!! I am very proud of her, and then here I am struggling! Bear with me, I won't give up. Reinforcements are needed with a breath of fresh air and redirection of my thoughts....and bad habits are sneaking in and I don't want that to happen again! It is my cycle. I do good, then I slack off, enough that I don't want to go on beca... Thu, 1 May 2008 08:53:12 EST