LOREN009's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LOREN009 LOREN009's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Plan to stay on track... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566086 So for the holiday season, a time when I (and half the planet) have a tendency to go off the deep end on sugary sweets consumption, I will remember that a picture is worth a thousand words: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1460770207.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Whenever I think about cheating on my meal plans (no wheat or dairy, minimal sugar, moderate fat), that's what I should think of. Even if I don't have a doctor's notification or an exact link between specific symptoms and ... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 22:45:34 EST BLC22 Week 1-2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389449 Week 1 goals: <BR> 1 Follow marathon training plan <BR> 1 Log all meals. Avoid allergens (wheat, dairy) without excuse. <BR> 1 Participate in the BLC chat <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Week 2 goals: <BR> 1 Follow marathon training plan <BR> 2 (Re)Start the 100 push-up challenge <BR> 1 Log all meals. Avoid allergens (wheat, dairy) without excuse. <BR> 2 In range at least 5 days <BR> 1 Participate in the BLC chat <BR> 2 Learn one new thing per day and record it <BR> <BR> What did I l... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 21:25:15 EST BLC22 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385048 It's time for a new challenge! In my efforts to improve my lifestyle for the long run, my goals need to be progressive and build upon each other so that I am not shocked and they are more likely to stick. <BR> <BR> Fitness Goals: (each one continues into the following weeks) <BR> 1 Follow marathon training plan <BR> 2 (Re)Start the 100 push-up challenge <BR> 3 Do at least 2 yoga sessions. <BR> 4 Do at least 3 yoga sessions. <BR> 5 Do one yoga session over 20 minutes long. <BR> 6 Use the Stic... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 21:03:23 EST Back to the Future Blog (BLC) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226118 First question: Forgive yourself for one thing in the past… <BR> <BR> Response: I don’t believe in regret, so I don’t have any sad stories about dying relatives or not taking chances. However, I can think of thousands of times I’ve screwed up, and those times remain on the forefront of my memory bank. Whenever I have a moment of doubt about my abilities, I pull one or two or a hundred of these screw-up memories out of the vault and use them to prove that I’m not capable, not worthy, or just ... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 20:25:54 EST Fit Test http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205726 At the beginning of BLC 21, my team was challenged to do a fitness test. Exercises to exhaustion plus a timed run. <BR> <BR> I was nervous! I thought of this quote: <BR> ‘Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so?’ <BR> - Marianne Williamson <BR> <BR... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 21:25:41 EST The internet ate my blog entry. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201597 Inspired by LE7_1234, I wrote a blog that was the positive version of my previous blog. I wrote about remembering the feelings of fitness and the actions required to get there, and I felt more hopeful when I read through it. <BR> <BR> Then I clicked "Post Blog Entry." <BR> <BR> My hotel internet access had expired, and I had to retype in my passkey. <BR> <BR> The blog was lost. <BR> <BR> [Groan] <BR> <BR> I will try to re-create it, but I was too drained last night. <BR> <BR> Maybe tomo... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 05:59:54 EST Do you ever forget? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199621 I've forgotten. <BR> <BR> First, I forgot that I was going to eat healthier. <BR> I forgot that I was going to eat less. <BR> Multiple times. <BR> <BR> Then, I forgot why I want to lose weight. <BR> I forgot the feelings that I wanted to have. <BR> I forgot what it was like to care. <BR> <BR> Most recently, I forgot that I was capable. <BR> I forgot that I once lost weight. <BR> I forgot that I knew how to do it. <BR> <BR> I've lost it. <BR> Lost motivation. <BR> Lost hope. <BR> Lost visi... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 22:19:52 EST The end of a challenge is the beginning of a new one! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155251 So this week is the last week of the Biggest Loser Challenge (Spark Team). My overall weight loss was not impressive, but I did gain a lot of strength: mentally and physically. <BR> <BR> One tool that I created to help me track my progress is a color-coded calendar (using MS PowerPoint). Every month since August, I have picked an inspiring picture for the backdrop. Then, I evaluate each day as Red, Yellow, or Green and fill in that date's square with the appropriate color. Red is when my eat... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 21:36:10 EST Disecting a Travel Slip http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5117414 Per my last blog, I am trying to learn from my screw ups. Today was a screw up. What can I learn? <BR> [Warning: Long post ahead! Rambling thoughts! Deep babbling! Turn back now!] <BR> <BR> The set up: Traveling to my normal factory, but this time with the boss and some of the other big guys in the company. <BR> <BR> Woke up at the normal time but skipped my run to get on the road early. <BR> <BR> Morning drive, ate almost perfectly: saved my breakfast bar for a little bit until my stomac... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 23:53:17 EST Time to Re-assess http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109135 In the last 6 weeks, I've lost 2 pounds... and this past week is not going to add any. I can do better! <BR> <BR> Here's how: <BR> - Look at my schedule, daily. What do I want to get done? <BR> - Add in more meditation and journaling, especially when I'm feeling anxious. <BR> - Cut back on sugar. <BR> - Plan food daily, stick to the plan. Plan treats for when I need them, but none spur-of-the-moment. It can wait until tomorrow. <BR> - If I mess up (or when?), really use it as a learning exp... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 21:56:04 EST BLC20 Week 5 (as of Monday) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094552 Week 5 Fitness Goals: 5 hours incl. 3 strength train <BR> Wednesday: 55 minute run <BR> Thursday: 35 strength and 35 yoga <BR> Friday: 55 minute run <BR> Saturday: 9 mile run (Treadmill) <BR> Sunday: 30 minute ST <BR> Monday: 55 minute run <BR> Tuesday: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Week 5 Personal Improvement Goals: Get at least 7 hours of sleep per night <BR> Wednesday: 7 <BR> Thursday: 7 <BR> Friday: 7 <BR> Saturday: 11 <BR> Sunday: 11 <BR> Monday: 7 <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Week 5 Nutrition ... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 21:33:08 EST BLC20 Week 4 (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087125 Week 4 Fitness Goals: 5 hours incl. 3 strength train <BR> Wednesday: 55 minute run <BR> Thursday: 20 min ST /20 min cardio <BR> Friday: 55 minute run <BR> Saturday: 80 minute run <BR> Sunday: 55 minute ST <BR> Monday: 55 minute run <BR> Tuesday: 60 ST/cardio + 10 min walk/stairs <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Week 4 Personal Improvement Goals: Make a point to learn something new every day, and record it <BR> Wednesday: did computer language lesson <BR> Thursday: read about backgro... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 21:41:46 EST I must be allergic to something... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081350 Off and on for the past two years, I have had issues with my stomach blowing up like a balloon. Like this: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l983281257.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It looks like I'm pregnant, but I'm not. See the flatter stomach from a week ago a few blog posts earlier... This just comes and goes. It's quite embarrassing. <BR> <BR> I have tried to give up various items (dairy, gluten, sweets) as best I can, but I haven't found exactly what causes it, and it's too d... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 22:54:17 EST I'm Grateful For... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078875 Friday 10 things: <BR> 1. BLC20 weekend challenges! (why I'm doing these lists) <BR> 2. Being able to run <BR> 3. Friends at work <BR> 4. A warm house when it's cold outside <BR> 5. A new coat when I lost my old one <BR> 6. Fast typing fingers! <BR> 7. A computer <BR> 8. The internet <BR> 9. The ability to read <BR> 10. My education <BR> -- that was easy! 10 more to come tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Saturday 10 things: <BR> 1. My friends from college! <BR> 2. That some of my friends from college stil... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 21:16:51 EST BLC20 Week 3 (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075069 Week 3 Fitness Goals: 5 hours incl. 2 strength train <BR> Wednesday: 55 minute run <BR> Thursday: 60 min ST /cardio <BR> Friday: 55 min run + 10 min walk + 50 pushups <BR> Saturday: 5.5 mile race! + 50 pushups <BR> Sunday: 30 min ST + 30 minute run + 5 minute walk <BR> Monday: 55 min run <BR> Tuesday: 65 minute ST/cardio <BR> *Total: 425 minutes (7 hours 5 minutes!) <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Week 3 Personal Improvement Goals: Design a weight loss reward system <BR> Mmmm not so much... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 22:30:40 EST BLC20 Week 2 (Tuesday final stats) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5065631 Now posting weekly to plan and track my progress against my goals!! <BR> <BR> Week 2 Fitness Goals: 5 hours incl. 2 strength train <BR> Wednesday: 55 minute run <BR> Thursday: 60 min ST <BR> Friday: 20 minute hike <BR> Saturday: 120 minute hike <BR> Sunday: 90 minute hike <BR> Monday: 55 minute run <BR> Tuesday: 60 minute (ST + cardio) <BR> *Total: 460 minutes <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Week 2 Personal Improvement Goals: Do at least 10 exercises from my career book (Do More Great Work... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 23:18:04 EST Biggest Loser Challenge 20! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5064185 We're through the first week of BLC20, so it's about time for a plan! <BR> If the challenge wasn't enough motivation, here are some "before" pictures: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l534978079.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l692341478.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Focus areas: upper thighs, upper arms, love (hate) handles, lower abs <BR> <BR> <BR> Here are some goals, week by week. They're progressive, so hopefully I can pick up steam. I'll create a wee... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 23:52:12 EST Summer Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4973600 I'm planning to do a challenge more formally, but it was so helpful to lay out week-by-week goals that I figured I'd do that again now and then work it into a team challenge. <BR> <BR> Fitness Goals -- <BR> I got into a nice rhythm with this, so I won't change my plan unless I have some issue. <BR> Run 6 days/week, one day > 6 miles <BR> Strength 3 days/week (2 minimum + pushups on the third) <BR> Yoga at least 4 days per week <BR> <BR> Personal Interest Goals -- <BR> I'll write these up we... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 22:09:24 EST BLC Week 12 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4970259 Fitness Goal for Week 12: 7 hours (420 minutes), including 3 strength train; daily yoga; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run <BR> Thursday: 30 minute run <BR> Friday: 50 minute run <BR> Saturday: rest <BR> Sunday: 50 minute run + 25 minute strength + 20 minute yoga <BR> Monday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run + 25 strength + yoga <BR> --Total: 350 minutes; 5 days with 20 min+ ; 2 strength ; 4 yoga <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Personal Improvement Goa... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 16:59:59 EST BLC Week 11 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955628 Fitness Goal for Week 10: 7 hours (420 minutes), including 3 strength train; daily yoga; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run + 30 minute walk + yoga <BR> Thursday: 50 minute run + 30 minute strength + yoga <BR> Friday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Saturday: 100 minute run + 10 minute bike + yoga <BR> Sunday: 55 minute strength + yoga <BR> Monday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run <BR> --Total: 475 minutes; 7 days with 20 min+ ; 2 strength ; 6 yoga <BR> ... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 21:43:39 EST BLC Week 10 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4952771 Fitness Goal for Week 10: 5 hours (300 minutes), including 3 strength train; daily yoga; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run +yoga <BR> Thursday: 50 minute run + 25 strength + yoga <BR> Friday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Saturday: 100 minute run + yoga <BR> Sunday: 50 minute strength + yoga <BR> Monday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run + 35 strength + yoga <BR> --Total: 485 minutes; 7 days with 20 min+ ; 3 strength ; 7 yoga <BR> <em>248</em> <BR>... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 22:52:53 EST BLC Week 9 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4935382 Fitness Goal for Week 9: 5 hours (300 minutes), any type; 6 days x 20 min; 3 ST, daily yoga <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run, yoga <BR> Thursday: 50 minute run, yoga <BR> Friday: 50 minute run, yoga <BR> Saturday: 100 minute run, walk, yoga <BR> Sunday: 50 minute ST, yoga <BR> Monday: 50 minute run <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run, 25 minute ST, yoga <BR> --Total: 325 minutes; 7 days 20+min; 2 ST; 6 yoga <BR> Grade: B <BR> <BR> <BR> Personal Improvement Goal for Week 9: Write journals from at l... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 21:39:47 EST BLC Week 8 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4928851 Fitness Goal for Week 8: 5 hours (300 minutes), including 3 strength train; 3 yoga; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run <BR> Thursday: 50 minute run <BR> Friday: 50 minute run <BR> Saturday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Sunday: 100 minute run + 55 minute strength + yoga <BR> Monday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run + 30 minute strength + yoga <BR> --Total: 490 minutes; 7 days with 20 min+ ; 2 strength DONE ; 3 yoga DONE <BR> Grade: B+ <BR> <BR> <BR>... Sat, 16 Jun 2012 11:07:04 EST BLC Week 7 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4915491 Fitness Goal for Week 7: 5 hours (300 minutes), including 3 strength train; 3 yoga; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Thursday: 30 minute run + yoga <BR> Friday: 50 minute run + 20 minutes strength + yoga <BR> Saturday: 100 minute run + yoga <BR> Sunday: 50 minute circuit train + yoga <BR> Monday: 50 minute run + yoga <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run + 25 minute strength circuit + 10 minute cardio <BR> --Total: 410 minutes; 5 days with 20 min+ ; 3 strength DO... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 22:21:34 EST BLC Halfway Commentary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4915488 6 weeks in to a 12 week challenge... how time flies! <BR> <BR> I am down 6 pounds, which is GREAT. I admit that I was up a couple for the first weigh in due to some overeating and travel, but there is some actual weight loss in there. I'm lower than I have been in at least 6 months. I'm feeling more energetic, healthier, and happier. <BR> <BR> I can't say it's just the challenge, though. I got a semi-promotion (or at least, a new job) at work. I'm much more engaged. It also involves less tr... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 22:17:57 EST BLC Week 6 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905035 Fitness Goal for Week 6: 5 hours (300 minutes), including 3 strength train; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run <BR> Thursday: 50 minute run + 25 minute strength <BR> Friday: 50 minute run <BR> Saturday: 100 minute run <BR> Sunday: 50 minute circuit DVD (strength / cardio) <BR> Monday: 50 minute run <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run + 25 minute strength circuit <BR> --Total: 450 minutes; 6 days with 20 min+ ; 3 strength DONE <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Person... Wed, 30 May 2012 22:30:22 EST BLC Week 5 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895325 Fitness Goal for Week 5: 5 hours (300 minutes), including 3 strength train; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run <BR> Thursday: 25 minute strength (30Day Shred L2) <BR> Friday: 50 minute run <BR> Saturday: 100 minute run <BR> Sunday: 50 minute strength DVD + 30 minute walk <BR> Monday: 50 minute run <BR> Tuesday: 30 minute run + 25 minute strength DVD + 20 min cardio <BR> --Total: 405 minutes; 7 days with 20 min+ ; 3 strength DONE <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> <... Wed, 23 May 2012 22:17:11 EST BLC Week 4 Stats (Final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884856 Already 4 weeks into the challenge! I'm still feeling motivated. <BR> <BR> <BR> Fitness Goal for Week 4: 5 hours (300 minutes), including 2 strength train; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run <BR> Thursday: 50 minute run <BR> Friday: 50 minute run <BR> Saturday: 50 minute run <BR> Sunday: 50 minute strength DVD <BR> Monday: 50 minute run <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run + 25 minute strength DVD <BR> --Total: 375 minutes; 7 days with 20 min+ ; 2 strength DONE <BR> <e... Wed, 16 May 2012 21:50:43 EST BLC Week 3 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4874566 Fitness Goal for Week 3: 5 hours (300 minutes), including 2 strength train; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run <BR> Thursday: 25 min strength DVD + 10 minute arms <BR> Friday: 50 minute run <BR> Saturday: 80 minute run <BR> Sunday: 50 minute strength DVD + 10 min yoga <BR> Monday: 50 minute run <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run <BR> --Total: 375 minutes; 7 days with 20 min+ ; 2 strength DONE <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Personal Improvement Goal for Week 3: N... Wed, 9 May 2012 20:51:59 EST BLC Week 2 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4863920 I met my goals last week! I am ready to do it again this week. <BR> <BR> Fitness Goal for Week 2: 5 hours (300 minutes), any type; at least 20 minutes on 6 days <BR> Wednesday: 50 minute run <BR> Thursday: 65 minute run + 8 min abs <BR> Friday: 30 minute workout DVD <BR> Saturday: 60 minute run <BR> Sunday: 50 minute DVD + 10 minute yoga <BR> Monday: 50 minute run + 10 minute yoga <BR> Tuesday: 50 minute run + 10 minute yoga <BR> --Total: 383 minutes; 7 days with 20 min+ <BR> <em>248</em... Wed, 2 May 2012 23:11:41 EST BLC Week 1 Stats (final) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855630 Here's to keeping up with all the stuff to do! What you don't measure, you can't change. <BR> <BR> Although I have specific goals that I think are reasonable for this week, I won't short change myself if I can do better! <BR> <BR> Fitness Goal for Week 1: 5 hours (300 minutes), any type; 6 days x 20 min <BR> Wednesday: 30 minute run, 15 minute swim <BR> Thursday: 50 minute run <BR> Friday: 50 minute run <BR> Saturday: 50 minute run <BR> Sunday: 30 minute Jillian Michaels DVD <BR> Monday: 50... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 23:20:50 EST Biggest Loser Challenge - Goals! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4854160 Fitness Goals by week:* <BR> 1. 5 hours, any type <BR> 2. 5 hours, any type <BR> 3. 5 hours incl. 2 strength train <BR> 4. 5 hours incl. 2 strength train <BR> 5. 5 hours incl. 3 strength train <BR> 6. 5 hours incl. 3 strength train <BR> 7. 5 hours, 3 strength, 3 yoga <BR> 8. 5 hours, 3 strength, 3 yoga <BR> 9. 5 hours, 3 strength, daily yoga <BR> 10. 5 hours, 3 strength, daily yoga <BR> 11. 7 hours, 3 strength, daily yoga <BR> 12. 7 hours, 3 strength, daily yoga <BR> *Each week, also have the... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 23:48:05 EST I don't know if I can do it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4578778 So this is the third time I've had to write this blog, since the hotel internet connection keeps timing out before I hit Post. Each time I've written it, I am more annoyed with my whininess, but I am going to try a shortened version. <BR> <BR> I need help. <BR> <BR> I almost reached my goal weight three and a half years ago. Since then, I keep digging myself deeper holes and creating more bad habits and bad feelings. <BR> <BR> I'm tired. I'm unhappy. <BR> <BR> Although food/weight is not ... Thu, 10 Nov 2011 23:13:40 EST Comparison: Boston vs. Cleveland spectators http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4232526 Boston was my fourth marathon, so the distance wasn't new to me. The atmosphere, however, was very new. <BR> <BR> Bostonites treat their marathoners like rock stars. <BR> <BR> I have never run a race that was so packed with spectators. There were little kids lining the course that wanted to slap our hands, even though we were all sweaty. College kids came out to chear at several different schools along the way. Other people cheered for everyone, not just the person whose name was on the sig... Sat, 14 May 2011 16:55:17 EST Check one off the bucket list... (Full blog series to come) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4216765 So three weeks ago, I ran the Boston marathon. It was one of the most amazing things I've ever done. <BR> <BR> And yet, I've been hesitant to share about it. Since the race filled in 8 hours this year, and so many people were shut out of the sign-up, part of me felt like I didn't deserve to have done it. I knew there were faster runners who didn't get to do it just because they didn't have time or didn't remember to sign up the day it opened. <BR> <BR> Part of me also felt like, even thoug... Sat, 7 May 2011 17:02:36 EST Tomorrow will be great. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3890371 Tomorrow, I will be satisfied with my food plan. <BR> Tomorrow, I will meditate on what I REALLY want. <BR> Tomorrow, I will be proud of everything I have accomplished. <BR> Tomorrow, I will DESERVE to reach my goals. <BR> Tomorrow, I will start to gain momentum. <BR> Tomorrow, I will take charge of my path. <BR> Tomorrow, I will start to conquer my fears. <BR> Tomorrow, I will not need to binge anymore. <BR> Tomorrow, I will be grateful for my emotions. <BR> Tomorrow, I will love just being ... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 21:20:21 EST Another Learning Experience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3856798 I've been slightly overeating most days in the past week. Today was bigger. I am grateful for the experience as another opportunity to learn. <BR> <BR> I am stressed about work. Three of my closest friends in the department have left in the past year, and I am struggling with perspective on long term options. At this time of year, we all have to write our own reviews, including a section on career goals and action plans. This is hard for me, because I've received a lot of praise but not... Tue, 21 Dec 2010 23:24:45 EST Fear - and Focusing on the Actions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3815580 Being home with no work travel the last month has given me the opportunity to calm down with my eating. My mind has gotten better at seeing things in perspective and not getting the "crazed" feelings. As a result, I'm starting to see changes in my body. It feels better. My skin in clearer. My pants fit better. My fingers feel less puffy. All great things!! <BR> <BR> Then why does this give me so much anxiety? Am I afraid of success? Maybe I'm afraid of change. Or am I genetically a... Tue, 30 Nov 2010 22:06:34 EST A reasonable Thanksgiving =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3806218 So one of the big things that I am learning is that healthy eating is NOT a black and white issue. I overeate at family parties yesterday and today, but not a crazy amount. I also didn't eat much before or after. I didn't want to! <BR> <BR> I am allowing myself a wider range of foods as well. I had leftover pumpkin bars, and I'm eating them for breakfast. When I'm trying to get in shape, it's easy to lose sight of the calories trying to eat well balanced meals. I find that if I want a... Fri, 26 Nov 2010 00:05:05 EST A better day and a plan... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3800693 I logged calories today and stayed in control. Success! I want to remember to focus on the good things instead of beating myself up for the mistakes. Even though I ate a bit too much of the cupcakes I was baking, I was satisfied at this point and did not binge. <BR> <BR> Another success - staying productive at work even though so many people are on vacation this week! <BR> <BR> Now, I'll do a bit of a re-do with the cupcake situation. Baking is very hard for me. I feel compelled to eat... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 22:12:48 EST Blogging Worthiness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3797894 One of my teams (leaving 130 Ville) has a weekly challenge, and this week's is to do 3 blog entries. I did my first challenge last week, and I was excited to do this week's until I saw what it was. Why was I so hesitant? I realized that I was feeling "unworthy", asking myself who would care to read it. <BR> <BR> This is a feeling that I am noticing more frequently. I don't necessarily think the feeling is new, just that I am more conscious of it as a hinderance to my efforts. This is a... Sun, 21 Nov 2010 17:32:06 EST Here's the Marathon Post! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3240844 So it's a little bit of a challenge for me to write this. I'm still so excited, a little in disbelief, and generally not clear thinking about runs. I'm the type that runs a race and can't remember anywhere I went. But I'll try. <BR> <BR> I laid out my clothes the night before, so I had no trouble getting ready and remembering everything. My friend got to my house right on time, and we found a parking spot easily and found my running buddy right away where we said we were meeting. <BR> ... Mon, 17 May 2010 23:00:22 EST Worst weekend ever... Marathon lead-up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3237406 The quick summary: After just about the worst start to the weekend EVER, I pulled it together and ran a new PR! <BR> <BR> It all started Thursday. I reached down at lunch to pat my back pocket and realized I didn't have my coin purse. I remembered some funniness with the pockets that morning, so I dismissed it, figuring it was in my hotel room. Well, it wasn't. When I went into the factory on Friday, I mentioned it to some of the people there. One of the girls said she saw it in the lad... Mon, 17 May 2010 07:18:04 EST 10-Miler Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3160238 OK, so this is my first race report. Not my first race, but the first time I decided to write about it. I think part of me just feels awkward putting it out there. Some people are faster, and some people are slower. I guess I've always been worried about the faster people thinking I was getting excited about nothing and the slower people feeling bad about themselves. But here's the great thing about Sparkpeople - they're at all stages and (most) are totally non-judgemental. Just like e... Sun, 25 Apr 2010 21:53:42 EST Woohoo Track and Haircut http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3013054 So the track workout yesterday was awesome. I still got up and did my easy morning run, a 5 mile neighborhood loop. I've done it every day more more than a year, and I need it to wake up. Then the practice started at 6:15 after work. Mile warmup, mile cool down. In between, we did two downward ladders: 800-600-400-200 (repeat), with either 400m or 200m jog in between. It's been a long time since I've even tried to run fast, and my arms were sore at the end! My form was terrible, but t... Wed, 17 Mar 2010 22:07:13 EST Face Your Fears! - OR - Jumping into the Deep End - OR - Joining a Track Team for Practice & Dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3004179 My dad always used to tell us to "face your fears!" when we were little. He did it as a joke usually, like when my brother wouldn't eat onions. He had a false super-hero type voice he'd use. <BR> <BR> The phrase came back around the other day in something I read about aniety-related overeating. It suggested a multi-phase approach that started with determining the anxiety triggers, then progressed to taking baby steps to expose yourself to the trigger. It gave an example about a woman wh... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 21:41:25 EST Aim a Little Higher! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2989484 I realized today that I give myself very little credit in terms of my health choices. I baby myself! After binging yesterday, I said that I didn't want to be too restrictive. My only goal was to be "reasonable" and not make myself uncomfortable. And that's all I did. I still had a 500+ calorie surplus. How very Renee Stephens... Dream! Be precise with intentions! <BR> <BR> I was listening to podcasts this evening, and one of the interviewees was describing how she decided to eat bette... Thu, 11 Mar 2010 22:48:14 EST One Month Later - Progress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2975772 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l364418273.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So the experiment is working! There must be a bit of confounding with the fact that I didn't travel at all in the last 30 days, but it feels good to have some momentum. <BR> <BR> The system is also proving the old calories in/calories out equation. It has calculated my actual daily expenditure (not including the running) at ~1650, based on weight loss vs food eaten and input exercise calories burned. <BR> ... Mon, 8 Mar 2010 22:38:32 EST What a difference a couple years makes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2915346 Maybe not on the scale anyway, but... <BR> <BR> I read my Sparkpage Profile, written more than two years ago, and realized how much I've learned! It's time for an update soon! <BR> <BR> For starters, "controlling my sweet tooth" is a terrible phrase. It personifies my cravings like some wild animal. The only way to really lose weight for good is to achieve INNER ALIGNMENT, as my favorite podcaster Renee Stephens would put it. When I get into a mood where I start feeling forced to act a... Mon, 22 Feb 2010 21:35:17 EST Back to the Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2830691 I weighed myself yesterday and almost let it get me down (2.5 pounds UP from last Monday). Instead, I rationalized that it might be a blip and weighed myself again today. It was back around where it was last week. I also have been thinking that maybe these last few weeks have not been for nothing. Even though my weight when I first got back from Mexico was not up much, I really really ate a lot there. The one weigh-in may have been influenced by dehydration, and I've actually lost some o... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 12:32:08 EST