LOOKN2FINDME's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LOOKN2FINDME LOOKN2FINDME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I am such a forgetful person http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282574 I can't believe that I forgot the picture of the greatest creature there today!! <BR> <BR> It was a huge tortoise! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1901422731.jpg"> <BR> It was so cool! Mon, 11 Mar 2013 13:10:55 EST My weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282383 I went to the pet store on Saturday to pick up some food for my cats. When I walked into the store, there was a lady up front talking to the manager about two Chihuahuas she was holding in a small carrying crate. She said that they needed homes. She had two pups in there, one was a three year old female teacup Chihuahua and the other was a standard size seven month old male. Both were not fixed. The teacup had bad teeth and is in desperate need of a dental cleaning.... Both of them....in that... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 11:00:05 EST Silence is golden http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5277563 This is the first quiet moment that I've had since leaving for work this morning. Today was the infamous 'playdate' day with the four year old's friend and her nanny. The girls always have so much fun, and of course it makes the day go faster, but it's chaos at it's best. I made the girls chicken tacos with guacamole again today and their favorite ABC soup. The guac wasn't screaming my name as much this time, but the chicken taco meat smelled phenomenal. I, of course, had my soup and sandwich... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 14:39:53 EST One more thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276120 Totally forgot to mention what happened last night. I went to bed at nine something or other because I was exhausted. That's the last thing I remember before being dragged out of a dead sleep by this extremely loud and insistent beeping. I jumped up and ran out into the living room, with a feeling of deja vu. You see, a couple of months ago, for no reason at all, my smoke alarm went off in the middle of the night. Three different times. Nothing wrong with the battery-it was brand new. Well, l... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 15:10:39 EST Strange Happenings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275681 A couple of weeks ago, my mom gave me a bunch of towels that they don't use anymore. They're big, soft, thick things that are pretty heavy. So when I used one for the first time, and wrapped it around me after getting out of the shower, I wasn't surprised when it kept falling off...because it was so heavy and thick. Yesterday, I was using a different towel-one that I've been using forever- and I went from the bathroom to the kitchen to feed the cats, and the stupid towel wouldn't stay on! I w... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 10:04:47 EST Warning! Rambling ahead.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272509 I'm sure I don't have to tell you that the last couple of weeks for me have been emotional/eventful. To recap: <BR> <BR> Week of 2/18 <BR> Last couple of days before vacation started. Should have been easy, right? Not so much. Had to say goodbye to Lobo. The only good thing to come out of that was that we were all out of the house the next day and for seven days following, which helped our hearts to heal without being faced with seeing what was missing everyday. <BR> Sunday weigh in: Lost 2... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 10:31:17 EST Emotional Journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269823 I'm sitting here in my Step Dad's hospital room feeling a ton of emotions. I'm just listening he and my mom talking, and they hit on something that sent a shot of sadness through me. I could feel the struggle to keep the tears at bay.... <BR> <BR> About nine months ago now, the doctors removed a melanoma from the top of his head. They needed to go back in about a month ago to clean it out surgically because it wasn't healing correctly. Now it seems to be on the mend, however, they've found h... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 13:37:55 EST Quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268751 I got home from work last night and took a bath while dinner cooked. Ten minutes after dinner the phone rang. It was my mom. All she said was "Can you come over right now? I need help! "B's" on the floor." So all I knew was that my step dad had a high fever and massive chills (from a text an hour before) and was now on the floor. He is a proud and stubborn man, and I knew that if he wasn't arguing with her calling me-it was bad. I raced over there and long story short insisted that she immedi... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 15:27:49 EST The new Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267053 Nine days ago, we said goodbye to a really great dog. Lobo was a big part of my life, and even though he wasn't physically mine, he was still in my everyday life, and I felt like he was mine. We will miss him so much, but having the last eight days off has helped in healing my broken heart. <BR> <BR> I spent my vacation time split between shopping with my mom and relaxing with my cuddly cats, and I enjoyed every minute of it. Yesterday was supposed to be my first day back, but with the amou... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 10:16:11 EST Dining out just plain sucks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262523 I'm getting a bit flustered. <BR> <BR> In my family, it has become somewhat of a tradition to take each other out to eat for Birthdays. This has always been the best (and only) option because we don't do gifts. My Step Dad's Birthday is on Saturday. He's turning 71, and he deserves the meal he wants. My mom just told me about a new place that recently opened that he's been wanting to try. I went online to search for a menu-which was incredibly difficult to find-but what I found before that ... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 20:10:53 EST I'm ready for vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260375 I just spent the THIRD day in a row running around with my mom-only today had the added bonus of a 7 and 9 year old. We took the kids that I used to nanny for out for the 9 year olds birthday. He actually turned 9 on the 16th, but we celebrated today. We picked them up and went out for lunch at a place that my mom and I decided on yesterday after I searched menus online. The place we chose had a salad bar-and that's what I ordered....and so did the nine year old. I was trying to embarrass him... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 19:13:37 EST 1st day of vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257597 Thank you so much to all of you that reached out to me yesterday after losing Lobo. That is definitely the most awful part about having pets in our lives.... But I'm glad that they started taking him to my awesome vet a couple of months ago. When they took him in yesterday to be euthanized, the staff there fawned all over him making his last moments special for him...even gave him two chocolate chip cookies. He thought that was the best! <BR> <BR> I had a vet appointment already scheduled f... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 13:59:50 EST Emotional Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255917 Today is not a good day at all. Today, Lobo, the dog at work, has to be put down. He fell yesterday multiple times and his legs are no longer supporting him. He's had to be carried outside to potty. It's not a good situation at all. We're all a wreck! Walking around trying to be happy for the girls sake, but failing miserably. Their mom was in tears before leaving.... after their dad made the appt for 1:30 today, he left with red watery eyes. I'm left to handle the girls and get in all the qu... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 09:15:14 EST Happy Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254736 I am beyond excited about tomorrow being my last day at work for a week. I can't wait. I have the girls friend coming tomorrow with her nanny so that the day will pass quicker. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> To recap the weekend: <BR> I don't have internet at home except on my phone, so my lack of blog yesterday is because there wasn't anything important enough to say that was worth spending the time typing out on my phone... Weigh in day was yesterday. As expected, nothing changed. This is when ... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 11:02:15 EST Still Grumpy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252900 Well, I figured out the reason for my moodiness. There are two reasons actually. The first is very simple...I am a female. 'nuff said. The second reason is that after two weeks of eating healthy, I have come to the point where I'm starting to 'feel my feelings' instead of 'eating my feelings.' I don't like it. I'll get USED to it, but I don't like it. It's horrible feeling....but not as horrible feeling as being bloated, sick to my stomach, nauseous, and all the other things that come from ov... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 18:43:32 EST Epic Fail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251762 I started the day off in a great mood. It's Friday, after all, so that alone makes it awesome! I got ready for work, put my food in my bag, and sang my heart out all the way to work. <BR> Then I walked in the door...................... and it all went downhill from there. The four year old was showing every ounce of her attitude that she usually reserves for her mom and not me. I'm guessing that they were butting heads this morning before I got here, and it just took off from there. Then the... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 14:50:07 EST Peace and Quiet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250515 Thursdays, in my nanny world, mean 'play-date' day. A friend of mine, another nanny, brings four year old Chloe over to play with the girls that I take care of who are twenty one months and four years old. This generally involves a ton of screaming, yelling, laughing, Disney songs, ballet, tap dancing, fighting, and melting down throughout the time that they're here, which is usually from 9:30 a.m. until almost 2p.m. which is nap-time. Since it's one time weekly, we like to get it all in ther... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 14:34:20 EST Spark Calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249190 As a rule, I am very consistent with tracking my food. Tracking food intake is so important to my success, that I am rather strict with it. I like for it to be as accurate as possible, don't you? If you track, you wouldn't want to track incorrectly and sabotage yourself. So imagine my surprise when I realized that a TON of food items have incorrect calorie amounts on the Spark tracker. I have a calorie book at home that is published by Calorie King.com and I also have downloaded the app on my... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 14:09:49 EST Rambling nothingness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247876 After going through an entire day yesterday of being in pain from my yoga meltdown workout, I decided to stretch with the girls after nap. They love yoga stretches, so while I was showing them the ones I did the day before, I realized which one it was that put me in so much pain. That would be the 'Camel Pose.' OUCH! Anyway, we were on the floor stretching one leg, and then the other, moving through different stretches that felt really good on my sore legs. We decided to end with their favori... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 14:18:47 EST Week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246467 The last week kinda flew by. I am happy to have lost 8 pounds in the first week- actually, happy is an understatement! I feel like I'm on "The Biggest Loser" with the amount lost quickly, only without all the drama and games. <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> I'm sure my numbers won't stay high though, so I'm hoping to at least lose a couple of pounds by Sunday...we'll see. <BR> So most of you know about my trouble with bread, and the trouble that I had last week with bagel thins at my house. I reme... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 13:34:20 EST Wanted: active spark friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243858 Is it just me, or do other people get added as friends and then ignored?? I really need some good spark friends to share this healthy lifestyle with. I've got two really good spark friends that are active-you know who you are, but I feel I need more, and I have a lot of support to offer. So if you are an active member of spark who also wants to share this experience, then please add me and I'll add ya back. Thank you! Sat, 9 Feb 2013 11:10:50 EST "Look at me, Mom, I'm doing it!" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242650 Let me start by saying, I'm not a religious person. I don't go to church or other services, but I don't begrudge the people who feel differently. That being said.... I DO sometimes feel the need to 'talk to God.' I've even given things that I have lost control of over to God. Anyway, when I was leaving work yesterday, my boss told me that if it snowed a lot overnight as predicted, we could assess this morning on whether or not I'd have to come to work. (Predictions of up to 8 inches of snow)... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 10:17:25 EST Cravings and weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241791 This has been a week to put in the record books of my life. On Sunday, I made the decision to (re) join Spark and start fresh. I weighed myself, 266, and started moving forward. <BR> Today is now Thursday, and imagine my surprise when I decided to step onto the scale this morning after only four full days of tracking and counting calories. I weighed 261 as of this morning! I know that a five pound loss isn't realistic every week, and that a lot of this is water weight, but boy does it feel g... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 15:35:16 EST Seriously? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240419 I'm at work and I've been sitting here for the last hour smelling pot roast cooking in the crock pot. (I'm a nanny) It's making me think I'm hungry, and the problem is that I have my calories all tracked for the day, and nothing to eat until dinner time. I'm working myself all up for no good reason, and starting to get a migraine....which is usually when I convince myself that I 'need' to eat to get rid of the headache. Do you see what kind of sabotage I inflict on myself? How I start talking... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 15:32:12 EST The long, long road full of emotions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238845 Today is the third day of this new chapter in my life. The first day, I thought to myself, 'This is unbelievably easy. I set my mind to do this and I'm doing it.' <BR> No problem, right? No cravings.... no issues with portioning and counting my calories. Life is perfect. I am finally doing it! <BR> <BR> Yesterday, day two, and the day soars by perfectly. I only ate what I packed and life was good. Then, after dinner, I got the thought in my head that since I was lower in calories for th... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 14:08:09 EST Goals and New Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237361 I was thinking earlier today that I would post a picture of me from when I was last on spark, which was before I gained 20ish pounds back that I had previously lost. I was going to post that along with new pictures of myself to show what I did to myself. Then I started thinking, that's a negative approach to this right off. I'm not going backwards, so why am I trying to focus on the past??? So here are a few from TODAY. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1600126617.jpg"... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 14:57:31 EST Just for starters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235854 I am beginning this new healthy lifestyle and have decided to ease the pressure on myself. In the past, I have set large goals that never get reached. This time, I'm taking the realistic approach and I'm making smaller goals, and then when I reach those, I can reassess. Yes, that's right, I said WHEN!! Not IF! <BR> <BR> Goal #1: get under 200 pounds- I set my tracker for 199lbs... <BR> I will follow up soon with a more in depth blog, but as of now I'm on my phone and its not as easy to do fr... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 14:58:03 EST