LOLLIE62's SparkPeople Blog LOLLIE62's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My poor dog is getting wider! I just came home from the vet where I dropped $58.00 for allergy pills. Basically, they are Bendryl with steroids. The steroids are making her huge! The vet told me that the weight goes on fast and comes off slowly. Really? I didn't know that! Wow, what a revelation! <BR> And I thought it was just the way I hold on to weight, only to find out the dog is a victim of slow loss too! <BR> <BR> I wish she didn't have to be fat to stop itching, but it's worth it not to be miserable. I itch ... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 18:19:43 EST Are you going to wear that? OK, I'll be the first to admit that I've never been a slave to fashion, but there are a few things about style that I just don't get. Watching Project Runway hasn't helped; in fact, I'm even more confused when I see the models parading down the runway. <BR> <BR> First of all, why in the world do designers let the zipper show at the back of a dress? Is it gauche to cover the zipper tracks? Who wants to see a zipper anyway? Not me. <BR> <BR> Then, when did women quit wearing hosiery? I k... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 00:07:40 EST Are you going to wear that? OK, I'll be the first to admit that I've never been a slave to fashion, but there are a few things about style that I just don't get. Watching Project Runway hasn't helped; in fact, I'm even more confused when I see the models parading down the runway. <BR> <BR> First of all, why in the world do designers let the zipper show at the back of a dress? Is it gauche to cover the zipper tracks? Who wants to see a zipper anyway? Not me. <BR> <BR> Then, when did women quit wearing hosiery? I k... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 00:07:40 EST Many thanks for the comfort of your friendship. My brother got through the graveside service, but I'm sure it was hard. I was unable to go because I still can't fly or even go on a long road trip (8 hours in this case.) My daughter and her husband did go, and they said it was very meaningful. Since my brother and his family had moved from the town where the cemetery is, they really didn't have a place for meeting friends and family. The bank there knew my brother well and the president opened up a room and had a nice reception there. ... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 00:10:54 EST It hit us close to home... My brother let me know on Monday that his wife had taken ill and died. They are in their eighties and still very active. She became very ill on Labor Day, and when her illness didn't let up, they called for an ambulance. She was admitted to ICU immediately, and he said she never regained consciousness after that. They tried every test they could think of, but her vital functions were failing. Finally, they found that she had complete kidney failure and the West Nile virus. <BR> <BR> I... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 16:27:41 EST Physical therapy that measures success Physical therapy for my knee is extremely painful, but the benefits are enormous. I like that changes can be measured to show how I'm doing. I have home health coming three days a week, and I've been pleased so far. My bend measurement has increased from 110 to 114 since I've been home. The therapists all tell me that I'm way ahead, and I don't know why. I think it's because I've had to strengthen my upper body in order to get up and down the past several years, and I was already using a... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 12:55:11 EST Freedom! I've learned one thing in my lengthy life: If you go overboard with possessions, your possessions will own you. I mean collections, magazines, clothes, shoes, technology--the list goes on. My weaknesses have been scrapbooking stuff and my Dept. 56 collections. Both of these are in the process of taking over the house. Maybe you think, like I do, that you've spent a fortune on your stuff and you'll never be able to recover much of it. I know all about eBay sales. I've bought and sold D5... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 16:09:28 EST A new knee for the fall season! Finally, after the stress test, a UTI, and some little hoops to jump through, I got my new knee on August 19th. It went well, and although it hurt afterwards, it would get better. I was slated to go home on the third day, but for some reason, the doctor wanted me to stay in. I visited with my pastor that evening, and I felt fine. Then, something happened. I don't remember any of it, but the next day, our other pastor came by and he said I was sitting in the bed just staring straight ahea... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 22:03:50 EST A Good Heart Before I can have my knee surgery, my doctor had me get a nuclear stress test. I don't mind telling you that I have avoided getting one for a long time, because I was afraid that it would make my heart beat really fast and make me out of breath. I steeled myself for it because I knew that I wouldn't get new knees unless I did. <BR> <BR> I could have set my fears aside a long time ago! It was nothing like I envisioned--no huffing and puffing and no heart attack during the tests. The wor... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 01:31:16 EST Leave a trail to help you remember where you've been. I was going through some old photos tonight, and I was mad at myself for not labeling the pictures with the events or dates. One was actually funny to me. I was at a parade with my 18 month old grandson in the picture, and I noticed that I had on the same blouse today that I was wearing in that picture. The only trouble is that he's 8 years old now! Hey, it still has some life in it! <BR> <BR> Looking at all the pictures made me realize that I really need to document everything when I ge... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 02:43:12 EST I have to let go of some frustration! Ok. My husband has ADD to the nth degree, and even though his medication helps a lot, he's driving me crazy losing things. It's the same thing every day. He loses his keys or his billfold EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!! He just doesn't think about what he's doing, so he sets down this things anywhere and then it takes half an hour to find them when he needs to go out. This morning at 3:30 a.m., it was his keys, or I should say my keys since his car is in the shop. So that was about 20 minutes wait... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 17:22:51 EST How is a diet like doing a crossword puzzle? Since I've been retired, I've acquired the habit of doing the crossword puzzles in the Dallas Morning News. They have a commuter puzzle that's easy and they also run the New York Times puzzle daily. I am thinking about crossword puzzles in general and wonder if future generations will still enjoy them. I've noticed that a lot of the clues would be difficult for younger people to comprehend. A few days ago, the clue was about Kate Smith. Now who in their 20s and 30s would even know who sh... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 15:34:24 EST Angel on one shoulder, devil on the other Lately, I've been reading and watching a lot of documentaries about the American diet and how it affects our health. Over and over, these books and films tout vegetarian or vegan diets to sustain good health. One doctor who has researched extensively on this topic has found that people who eat 5% animal protein seem to be OK, but when the percentage gets up to 20%, it turns on cancer and other illnesses. When I look at my usual diet, it's far more than 20% and more like 80% meat. <BR> <... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 18:02:40 EST High Maintenance Ever since I retired, I have had lots of time to do what I want, but my body isn't paying a whole lot of attention to my want list. I look forward to days when I'm not required to go anywhere. In short, I've become almost reclusive! I don't know if that's bad for me or not, but I tend to think it's about being comfortable in my own skin. Getting out is taxing for me, but afterwards I'm usually glad I did, and thankful I'm not on the hook to get out again for a while. <BR> <BR> The past t... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 21:31:24 EST Audio-hallucinations! I may have blogged about this a couple of years ago, but it bears repeating. I thought I was going out of my mind when I began to hear radio transmissions coming out of my bedroom fan. I looked all over to see if my husband had left a radio on, but no, he hadn't. It came to the point that I knew I was hearing it when the fan was running. <BR> <BR> Just to see if anybody else had ever heard the radio around an electric motor, I googled it. Over and over, people admitted that they had hear... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 01:16:13 EST A blood pressure small victory! When I have to fill out a health survey, I can't ignore that I have nearly every problem that obese people can have: diabetes, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, high triglycerides--the list goes on and on. It always irks me to be reminded that I live in a sick body, but I continue to persevere in my quest to lose this weight. Yesterday, I had a small victory. <BR> <BR> First, I want to say that this might not work for everyone, and I always encourage people to check with their doctors and/... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 16:31:49 EST Could I quit eating meat? My life changed when we traded our Netflix DVD plan to streaming. Now I get to watch the many tv series I've missed and some great movies too. I think it's wonderful! <BR> <BR> Now, you don't get much really current content unless it is produced by Netflix, but the number of offerings they do have is immense. I've also noted that there are several documentaries on the American diet and healthy alternatives. I watched one today about becoming vegan. In other words, no meat, no fish, no e... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 19:22:48 EST I can really get into smaller sizes.... Well, not smaller sized clothing yet, but I can "get into" using smaller things, smaller amounts of food, and smaller ways to feel satisfied with my life. For today, I'm thinking about how far I've come with my acceptance of reading on a Kindle. I was one of the die-hard book readers who liked the feel of a book in my hands, the smell of a library, etc. I bought a Kindle, but I still wasn't sold on reading a book off of a screen instead of a page. It's taken me a good while to get into it,... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 00:28:42 EST Airline baggage fees are too expensive! I'm surprised that somebody hasn't made a mint on this idea since the airlines have started charging for baggage. In the crazy 60s, there was a fad for a while--paper clothing. I actually bought a paper dress and wore it twice. The fad was short-lived, but not without some historical economic backing. Along time ago, I forget what years he lived, there was an economist/sociologist by the name of Thorsten Veblen. He was a practical man with many good theories and ideas, and some that were... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 15:07:56 EST Being in control of our lives! While reading my home page today, I learned that Angelina Jolie made an announcement about her recent double mastectomy. She has a genetic predisposition for breast and ovarian cancer, so she chose to have the surgeries as a preventative measure. She will undergo surgery to remove her ovaries before long. I know that must be a difficult choice to make, especially for a movie star. Not that it's less difficult for anyone, but I'm thinking about how looks matter to movie producers who emplo... Tue, 14 May 2013 16:07:35 EST Thinking about motivation What really motivates you toward your weight loss goal? I know we all have certain concerns like an upcoming wedding, reunion, or to improve health. Those are motives that move us toward the goal of weight loss, but what motivates us day to day? <BR> <BR> It's hard to get immediate feedback when we're dieting. We can eat perfectly on our diets, but it will take a lot of those days strung together to see progress. We know it's not healthy to be overweight, but the consequences seem so f... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 17:38:57 EST BFF The Internet has given us so many opportunities to make new friends and to communicate with our family and friends online. I love FaceBook for just that reason. I am in a group of my classmates from high school, and it's so nice to be able to catch up with them. I know more about my kids because of FB too. Between that and cell phone calls, we are in touch all the time. It's fun to see the pictures they post. <BR> <BR> That leads me to ponder on friendship. I had a best friend througho... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 16:28:22 EST Sometimes older is better! Do you have cable TV or something similar? We rented DVDs for 2 or 3 years, and it was a hassle to ship them back to Netflix. One of my friends got Netflix streaming, so I decided to stop the rentals and try it. I was misinformed about streaming when it was introduced. I thought I would have to have a basic membership and then pay for streaming on top of that. Much to my surprise, I found out that I could cancel the DVD rentals altogether and just get streaming. So I gave it a try. <BR>... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 14:36:27 EST Go-withs Lately, I've come to realize how much I've become conditioned to eat sides and to pair foods and calorie-dense snacks. I found myself taking in a sandwich, but along with that, I had chips, a drink, and a pickle. Part of the thrill for me about eating a sub from this place was that I could also have these extras to go-with it. A lot of fast food places offer a lot of add-ons that I find hard to refuse. <BR> <BR> There are a lot of these go-with "foods." Hamburger, fries; movies, popcor... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 18:10:21 EST Courage to be seen I have to admit that I go to great lengths to keep old friends and classmates from seeing me at my current size. Although I see others going to reunions, etc. with all those extra pounds on them, it hasn't been enough for me to face it. I think they are lucky that it doesn't matter to them. It seems I just can't divorce myself from my self-image as an obese woman and I get mad at myself when I throw away opportunities to be with old friends, in person. <BR> <BR> That brings me to think ab... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 23:56:40 EST Trust in the process Sometimes I forget that there's a process that goes on between my wanting something and my getting it. I think a lot of backsliders have forgotten that wanting to lose weight isn't enough. We also have to take the steps to get to our goals, and sometimes the process is long and difficult. As a college teacher, I knew there were many students who wanted to get their degrees, but in order to get them, they needed to come to class, take exams, and do term projects on the road to graduation. ... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 19:03:03 EST Sometimes weird things happen! I read everything I can about weight loss and nutrition, etc. I do this because I'm looking for something that clicks for me. I don't think there's one diet plan that meets everyone's needs. We are all different, and sometimes one person's nutritional needs are different from those of others. I'm not looking for magic, but I do think it's neat when something unexpected correlates with weight loss. <BR> <BR> An example, though unrelated to weight, happened to me a few years ago. I had ... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 21:11:38 EST Plus size???? To see me, you'd never know that I'm a fan of Project Runway or Design Star. I'm certainly no fashion maven, but I like to see what the designers do in such a small amount of time. Sometimes I don't get what the judges are thinking, but I do pick winners some of the time. <BR> <BR> This brings me to the last episode of Design Star. The challenge was to design clothing that would look nice on a slim model, but equally nice on a plus size man or woman. Each of the designers made their item... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 15:57:45 EST Turning the table on a relationship. In 1986, my husband had a massive heart attack and died at age 42. I can tell you that grieving his death took a long time and didn't follow the stages of grief I expected. One of those stages was anger, and I never felt angry about it. Then, one night I had a dream that he walked into the kitchen, not dead at all, and told me that he had faked his death as part of a midlife crisis! In my dream I was furious at him! I guess this was my unconscious mind dealing with the anger I wouldn't ... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 16:27:03 EST It doesn't take long to change courses! Today I've been thinking about my hair. When I was a little girl, I had curly blond hair. I don't know what happened to that, but I lost my curls until I got a perm in the 70's and had ringlets all over my head. My young daughter has always had curly hair, and people often said we looked alike --as long as I kept a perm in mine. <BR> <BR> Now I'm past 60 and all I want is a basic short haircut with no hair sticking out anywhere. I finally found a cutter who is great, but now she teache... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 00:39:04 EST Getting the right mindset about food... Maybe you can relate to what I've witnessed. I go out with friends or family for a meal, and I order what I want and so does my husband. Then I notice one of the other couples sharing a plate. Or we go to a buffet, and we see people who have just little dabs of a few foods on their plates, and if they go back, it's only for some sliced melon, etc. You'll also see a disproportionate number of obese people heading back to the buffet several times. I just blend in with them. Still, I don't... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 17:37:26 EST Winning the Lottery I'm watching Dateline, and the program tonight is about Lottery winners. Many lose everything by giving it all to relatives and friends, others blow it on luxuries, and some lose on shaky investments. It's a shame that becoming wealthy could end up so badly. Donald Trump is helping some of the winners to use their winnings wisely. <BR> <BR> Some of us may believe that gambling is wrong, while others would love to win. Sometimes I play a little mind game by thinking how I would spend my m... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 21:29:04 EST Dependable Calories Eating at home on a diet requires us to know about portion control, calories, carbs, etc. That's a little daunting for me, because I'm into easy food. Even when we eat at home instead of drive-throughs, I'm all about getting it into my mouth asap. I can't get around very well, so my husband does most of the food prep. He's gone for easy the past few weeks because he has so little time between getting home from work and going to bed. He gets up at 3:00 a.m. so you can imagine that he's no... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 22:39:16 EST An Oscar worthy performance. Like many folks, I love to watch the Academy Awards to see if my favorite movies win the coveted Oscar. My invitation must have been lost in the mail again this year! I do love the movies, and I think it's in my genes. A hint: My great grandmother's maiden name was Ebert. <BR> 'Nuff said about that. <BR> <BR> What I don't like about the Oscars is all the hype before and after the ceremony. I enjoy rating the dresses on the day after, but then I wish all the entertainment shows would let... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 20:45:54 EST Call the men in little white coats: They need to pick me up. I'm a nut about paying my bills on time, and it's a relief when I put them all on BillPay and check them off in my book. This time, however, I made a mess of it. The last few days of January were different. First of all, my property taxes were due, so I made sure to pay those. Then my electric bill was $468.00 and my phone bill was $359.00 (combined phone, cell, internet, and TV.) So at least the electric and the taxes were upping the payout. I thought I had input all of my accts. payab... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 16:37:45 EST Warning: Contents may be indelicate! Not everyone feels this way, but I am clearly not a person who can pass for having it all together. I remember from high school, there were several girls I knew who always looked great: beautiful hair, stylish outfits, clear skin, you name it. They were the popular types. Now, I do not have the nature to pull this off. I've tried to look perfect a few times in my life, but it was like work, work, work. No matter how I try, something gives me away or I feel like a fraud because I know how ... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 16:30:50 EST If I could change one thing... OK, I'll try with this blog again, hoping it won't end up in cyber space. Today I'm thinking about what I would change about myself if I could. Now, since we're all on a weight-loss site, you might think I would want to have never had a wt. problem. That would have been an easier life in some respects, because I've run into a lot of problems due to my weight: wanting cute clothes and finding none in my size, having my first husband feel disgusted with me because of my weight, being dissed... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 15:44:41 EST Disappeared! I just spent about 20 minutes working on a blog entry and it just disappeared! I couldn't find it anywhere, so, oh well. I'm too tired to start over, so I'll say it all another day. Fri, 15 Feb 2013 15:18:20 EST The Mouse House has moved! For a good while, I have been positive that there is a mouse in our mattress! I can feel something moving in there, and something chewed a couple of big holes in the fitted sheet when I taped over a hole in the mattress wall from a spring breaking and poking out. I gripe about it every night because I have worried one would get on me, and several times I think it did. Now my husband thinks I've finally gone over the edge because he doesn't hear them or see signs of them. I don't know what... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 18:56:32 EST Favorite Reality Shows OK, I hate to admit it, but I love reality shows. I watch: The Biggest Loser, The Bachelor, The Apprentice, Project Runway, and Dance Moms. I usually watch Toddlers and Tiaras because I can't believe what extremes these parents will go to so their little girl can win a pageant. I wasn't too aware of pageants for little kids until the Jon Benet Ramsey murder. At the time, I thought that her mother was awful for dressing her up like a little adult. Then, when Toddlers and Tiaras started a... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 14:44:29 EST Sticks and stones may break my bones, but..... One segment of The Biggest Loser tonight showed one of the kids talking to her classmates about bullying. It's been part of the school experience as far back as I can remember, but it has recently drawn a lot of attention due to the mass shootings we've seen in the last few years plus untold numbers of suicides. <BR> <BR> It seems to me that overweight children get picked on a lot by their classmates. It hits them at their most impressionable times and often scars them for life. It seem... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 01:29:21 EST Six Things I Know About Losing Weight Sometimes I see a book or a magazine article that makes weight loss look possible and even easy. Invariably, I buy it, both literally and figuratively, but I quickly discourage myself because I know that I probably won't stick with the plan that's outlined. That's why my bookcase is full of diet books. When I have been moderately successful with my weight loss, it's because I've taken what I do know to heart and I've used proven tools every day. By proven, I mean they've worked for me. I... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 15:20:28 EST Paper clutter--what's a woman to do??? One of my colleagues where I worked always had a clear desk, and no books, no papers, no staplers, etc., ANYWHERE! How is that possible? Did she throw her incoming mail away? Did she have a little elf that shredded all day long? Where is that notebook we got at the last conference? Mine is in my bookcase with the three others I was given at the last three conferences. I think she pitched stuff like that. Basically, they are give-aways that are slightly better than a cheapo pen with the... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 00:02:19 EST Winter Bugs First of all, I have to admit that I still haven't had my flu shot. I'm going for it tomorrow for sure. In Texas, the flu is really taking its toll. We've had numerous deaths from it, including a strapping 17 yr. old and a 38 yr. old woman in my town. They were suddenly hit with it, with no inkling that they were getting sick. With a cold, I can usually feel one coming on, but this flu is different. I caught my cold from my husband. I tried to prevent it, but I got it anyway. <BR> <BR... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 18:11:44 EST Back to everyday life after the eat-fest we call holidays! I don't know about you, but I am glad to have the holidays behind me. We stayed home for Christmas Day, but we drove to Springdale, Arkansas for our family get-together. I've been looking forward to having all my grandkids under the same roof for a good while, and we had a great time. I have to admit, though, that I wasn't dieting. Everywhere we went, there was candy, cookies, chex mix, ice cream, and of course, a holiday meal. It was a genuine eat-fest! <BR> <BR> Ever since Dr. Oz talk... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 02:15:36 EST The adult inside the child As a student, I learned a lot of theory, my favorite being the theories of Sigmund Freud. I think there were many flaws in his reasoning, but a lot of what he wrote was spot on. Back in the 70's, something called Transactional Analysis came around, but it was just Freud wrapped up in a way that anyone could understand. Instead of the Id, the Ego, and the Superego, TA called these parts of us the Child, the Adult, and the Parent. I won't go into a lot of claptrap about it except to say tha... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 22:23:26 EST Life and death still go on even though it's Christmas. <BR> Tonight I'm thinking of my pastor's wife, who lost her dear father this morning. She just lost her mother earlier in the year too. This has been a hard year for her, but rich with blessings--a daughter married off, a son ordained, and a new grandson born just recently. I hope the feelings of loss won't rob her of the wonderful joy of Christmas. I think the grandkids will help. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a difficult day with arthritis and a lot of kidney pain. I feel sure it was a k... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 02:22:12 EST Going into battle: Assault of the Black Friday Deals I'm still basking in the glow of a really nice Thanksgiving with my son's in-laws. I think there were about 19 of us in all, and the buffet table really was a "groaning board" of wonderful dishes along with turkey and ham. The desserts had a table of their own. Out of many different kinds of desserts and chocolates, I noticed something missing--there was no pumpkin pie! Now I'm going to have to go buy a single slice, Mrs. Smith's, I guess, and some Cool Whip. I'd had my mouth all set for... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 19:46:17 EST Time to hibernate...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz When fall finally arrives, I feel the need to hibernate. I think it's because there's a chill in the air (and in my house) and I slow down considerably even though I'm already pretty slow. I'm not a night owl per se, but I generally read until I get sleepy. Sometimes it's before midnight an sometimes way after. My husband gets up at 3:00, so I know I'll probably wake up then. I'll even read a chapter or two at 3:00 until I'm drowsy again. I just bought a book for my Kindle last night, s... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 14:53:32 EST Television on Thursday night... I've been retired a few years now, but every day when I wake up, I thank God that I have the freedom to do what I want to do with no deadlines and no night classes. For several years, I never watched TV except on Friday nights and the weekends, and there were some shows I really wanted to see. At the time, we didn't have a DVR to record my favorites. When I retired, I could watch TV at night and I still look forward to certain shows. <BR> <BR> On Thursday nights, my favorites are Project ... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 23:44:05 EST