LOFLLAMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LOFLLAMA LOFLLAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Here's what happened.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744670 You all know Monday I was to start my 35 days to better habits. Of course Monday I did not, BUT it is not my fault. I started the day horrible. I walked into the computer room & BOTH light bulbs blew out. Now you have to admit this in & of itself was reason enough for me to go eat everything in sight. Hell, I could have used it as an excuse to drink, but I did not. Instead I looked through all of my hiding places to find my light bulbs because I hide them from the family. I do this so ... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 05:02:19 EST Okay, so day 1 was a flop! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744010 I have no excuses. In fact, I don't even have reasons. Laziness? Lack of concern? Lack of??? I honestly don't know what is wrong with me. <BR> <BR> Sunday night Lenny prances into the house with a pizza, (I asked for it) cookies, & soda. I wanted the pizza as kind of a last meal. Whatever. BS. I wanted a pizza. Anyway, we all agreed no more soda & cookies. WTH I said to Lenny. He says I forgot! It turned into such an ordeal I'm sure he won't forget again. Mikhail is like a cr... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 08:22:39 EST Didn't the boy who cried wolf end up in it's belly??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743334 Lenny went to pick up Orion last night so he could spend the night. Samantha told Lenny the condensed story of how she got drugged & robbed. The 'thief' took her car back to the motel Wednesday & gave the keys to the clerk for her. Supposedly, she did file a police report on the money stolen out of hers & Gabe's bank accounts. She is waiting for a toxicology report from the hospital. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping real life is like 'Law & Order' & when they see video of HER taking money out of the... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 10:10:19 EST I'm all ajiggly with disgust!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742507 I have been on a junk food terror streak! For the last month or two I have been eating the worst of things. Chips, ice cream, soda, candy...you name it. Normally I don't keep this stuff in my house. For some reason I got super lax about it. So much so that Mikhail was calling his dad at work almost daily to ask him to bring home a 'treat'. Lenny finally brought it to my attention & we all had to have a family discussion about why we don't eat like that. <BR> <BR> I can give you a bunch... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 05:35:14 EST It's not me...It's YOU! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741960 Honestly, I have a great life. I have a smart, funny kid. I have a man who's love for me shows in his eyes when he looks at me. I have 2 wonderful grandsons that I get to help raise. I have an old fat dog that thinks I walk on water. I have a cat. LOL! <BR> <BR> BUT there is always somebody to come along & mess with my little piece of happiness. You all know my PITA...er, I mean DIL, Samantha 'went missing' Monday night. Well, she got home Tuesday night & Gabe STILL has not bothere... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 08:37:49 EST BEST! BIRTHDAY!! EVER!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741225 At 12:14 PM yesterday I officially became the parent of a teenager!...The greatest teenager in the history of teenagers! What a great kid I have! (BTW, He did pick out ALL those 5 pairs of shorts! He just chose to love the blue ones best AFTER we got them home!...sorry I had to clarify that I wasn't abusing my son by making him wear clothes I picked out! HA!) <BR> <BR> Yesterday, Lenny reminded me that LakeFair was in town....it's the biggest & the best of the fairs that come through here... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 05:07:58 EST It's Mikhail's Birthday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740535 13 years ago today the greatest thing in my life happened at 12:14 PM. Mikhail Samuel Leonard was born at 7 lbs. 3 oz. 21.5 inches long. Yes, he was a long skinny baby. To this day I cry every time I think about that day. I was 33 years old when I got pregnant with him. I had NEVER been pregnant before. In fact, I thought I couldn't have kids. Lenny's only other child was 22.5 years old. He thought he was done having babies. Needless to say, we considered (& still do) Mikhail a mirac... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 06:51:19 EST SO !@$%#&%$% ANGRY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739867 Yesterday was the BBQ for my son Mikhail's 13th birthday. Samantha (MY D-I-L) 'went missing'. She went out the light before because she got a last minute call from a friend to meet up at a bar. (1st LIE!) She left their house at 11:30 PM. By 1 the day of Mikhail's BBQ Gabe called to tell us Samantha still wasn't home. He spent most of the time we were supposed to be celebrating on the phone trying to find Samantha. He ended up leaving after less than 2 hours & left the grandsons here un... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 07:38:46 EST Speaking of picking your battles.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739084 At the beginning of summer I bought Mikhail 5 pairs of shorts. They were all exactly the same except in color. The reason I did this is because Mikhail is VERY picky about what he wears so I figured if he liked one he'd like them all. WRONG! Now, mind you, I let HIM pick these shorts out, had a conversation about wearing them, etc etc... He picked a blue pair & that is the only pair of the 5 he has ever worn. They 'fit better'. 'They are softer' he says. All 5 pairs are EXACTLY the sa... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 05:25:30 EST I cannot think of a good title. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738703 Good Morning, My Lovelies! I'm not sure I can force a blog. HA! It's too bad typing isn't as easy as talking. I'd write books in a day if I could type as fast as I talk! <BR> <BR> So, I told you about Skunk. What I didn't tell you is that Mikhail parades him around here like a KING! I'm sure the cat is thankful we don't have doll clothes around the house...it'd just be another humiliation for kitty. Not quite, but Mikhail carries Skunk around so much I told him he'd lose his ability to... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 14:24:00 EST Much Ado About Everything! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737672 I feel like it's been forever since I wrote a blog! Only a few weeks, but... <BR> <BR> Our weather has been SO wonderful. Tho now it's on the verge of getting too hot. I try not to complain (yea right!) because we get so much rain that I feel like a jerk when I complain about the warm weather! We've had so little rain this summer. It's going to be in the 90's all week I hear. Last week was 80's. That's HOT for us! <BR> <BR> Monday I went to a wedding. It was very sweet. JD (the gro... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 05:36:07 EST Would an autopsy prove he was snoring??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724625 You all know I sleep like $#!t. I haven't slept well for as long as I can remember. As a small child I had horrible nightmares. As a teenager either insomnia or days of sleeping. Lenny is a snorer. I have to admit I have considered killing him in his sleep. Could it be considered self-defense??? If I don't sleep I will die... <BR> <BR> NO! NO! NO! DON'T GO IN THERE! Lenny's sleeping!!! He often sleeps with his neck all kinked up like that!!! <BR> <BR> I started thinking about a 'j... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 06:30:42 EST Give your mind the credit it deserves! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724159 Yesterday I wrote 'You are always the same age inside' & for some reason it touched my friend Gail (love you!) enough for her to comment on it. <BR> <BR> I want you to really think about it: WE ARE ALWAYS THE SAME AGE INSIDE! Go look at your eyes in the mirror. NOT your face or the lines around your eyes...just your eyes! Your eyes never age either. They say your eyes are the windows to your soul. <BR> <BR> Today just be who you are. See the world like YOU see it...not the way you a... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 13:24:26 EST I'm a Hipster??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723318 Yesterday Mikhail (he'll be 13 in less than a month!!!) said to me, 'Mom, you're a Hipster.' 'Really? Why is that?', I asked. He said, 'Well, look at you. You are wearing red shorts, a gray top, blue necklace & pink ponytail holder. You don't care what society says you should do.' 'Also,' He said, 'You dance & sing to your own music.' 'You don't follow the rules.' <BR> <BR> HAHAHA!!! I don't follow the rules??? Where did he get that??? I dance to & sing my own music. *I am so beau... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 10:30:22 EST Alcoholism and (Not VS) Compulsive Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722551 Yesterday, I started my blog with a small lie. (Small lies don't REALLY count anyway, do they? Psh!) I said I'd been keeping my opinions to myself the last few weeks. I SHOULD have said (in my blogs!) I had been. A woman in a thread got my opinion rather harshly late last week. <BR> <BR> The post started something like this: I see ads for food & it must be like an alcoholic seeing their favorite bottle of booze. Okay, I'm down with that. Then she went on to say that withdrawal from fo... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 05:26:45 EST Atrophy to Death??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721985 You all may be surprised because I've been keeping my opinion to myself the last few weeks! It's been hard....oh, so hard. <BR> <BR> You know my mom had MS. She was diagnosed in her mid forties & was in a full care facility by the time she was my age. Yes! Before she was 50 she was in a wheel chair & NURSING HOME. Her body was completely atrophied. MS is mean. By the time she died at 61 she only had VERY limited use of her right arm. She could hold a sippy cup & sometimes a fork to f... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 09:30:32 EST There's no All or Nothing! It's all nothing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704217 I say that I am an all or nothing girl, but that's not true for ALL things. All of the bag of Oreos? Yep! I've been known to eat Oreos in my closet so I wouldn't have to share with my family....I KNOW, I KNOW! I have drank whiskey after I threw up so as to not have 'left overs'. I have put my last dollar in a keno machine. I have even dieted to the point of throwing up! <BR> <BR> People think that being a Perfectionist would be great, but it's not. What being a perfectionist actually ... Tue, 27 May 2014 09:32:07 EST Not everything has to be analyzed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5703542 Sometimes things just are! But I like to analyze things to DEATH! <BR> <BR> I HATE the color yellow. Bright yellow. School bus yellow. Pastel yellow. Baby poop yellow! I don't know why. Does it matter Why? Baby poop yellow is pretty obvious, I think. Well, it's baby poop colored...Duh! Does anyone like baby poop??? Hey, wait...when we were kids my older sister's favorite color was yellow. Is that why I hate yellow? OR is that why I hate her? HMMM???? This may be something to t... Mon, 26 May 2014 13:04:37 EST Being Different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701225 One great thing about having a short attention span is that I don't have to worry about any one thing for very long. The truth is I don't really dwell on stuff. Writing about (things like)my mom in my last blog is just how I process short lived concerns over things I can't control. <BR> <BR> My mom was who she was. You may think she was a bad mom, but she wasn't. I turned out pretty good so she obviously did MANY things right as a parent. She taught me honesty. I think that's a big dea... Fri, 23 May 2014 05:51:09 EST Oh, The Thoughts I Have... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699713 In case you've never realized it I usually write blogs in the middle of the night. Alone with my thoughts is sometimes scarier than being in a clown's warehouse after dark! Other times it is way funnier too! <BR> <BR> Does anyone like clowns? I have never know a person who did. I know people of my generation had 'Poltergeist' to contribute to a fear already established by the creepiness from the circus! I think my hatred of clowns is based on the fact that I hate facades & clowns repres... Wed, 21 May 2014 06:27:45 EST I don't see dead people! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698108 A couple of weeks ago I was at Barnes & Noble & this curious book caught my eye. Are you Psychic? It was $5.98 so I thought what the heck? Well, I had no real 'feeling' toward it so I should have known (or maybe not) that NO I am NOT psychic! I didn't know psychics saw dead people. I thought mediums saw dead people. I thought psychics just 'knew stuff'! <BR> <BR> This is very weird for me because I grew up in a VERY superstitious family. In case you aren't aware hillbillies are notori... Mon, 19 May 2014 06:08:59 EST Can it be true? Is ignorance bliss??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694623 I know it's not true if you aren't the one who is ignorant!!! Gawd, there is nothing worse than stupid! I wouldn't think it was true either if an ignorant person were aware of his own ignorance!!! *Things that make you go Hmmm* <BR> <BR> It's 2 AM so I am feeling all philosophical & $#@%! Why do I exist? What am I here for? Why doesn't the universe revolve around ME? <BR> <BR> We've been doing better financially this year than we had for a little while. (Lenny is a car salesman & with... Wed, 14 May 2014 06:01:53 EST Clowns to the left of me, Jokers to the right.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694068 Here I am, Stuck in the middle with you! <BR> <BR> I come from a horrible background, most of you know. I have hillbillies on one side of the family & rednecks on the other. I'm lucky to be alive, what with me being the extreme liberal I am! Needless to say, I left that mess when I was but a child & only looked back long enough to remember why I was running! <BR> <BR> A few days ago, I got curious & looked to see if my cousins were on FaceBook. I was particularly close with one set of c... Tue, 13 May 2014 10:21:16 EST When my underpants are too tight.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685495 ROFLMHO!!!! Underpants! Gawd, that's funny! Underpants. Go on...say it out loud! Seriously. Tell me that saying underpants doesn't make you giggle! Now, say it to the first person you see today. YES! Even your boss! I guarantee they'll give you at least a goofy grin. Probably a giggle! Underpants is THAT funny! <BR> <BR> It's weird because none of the other words for undergarments make me laugh. Just underpants. Teehee! Underwear, panties, bra...nope. Brassiere is kinda funny... Fri, 2 May 2014 06:44:10 EST As Luck Would Have It..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684675 Luck...Schmuck! As you probably know, I do not believe in luck. Do not wait for luck. MAKE yourself fortunate! Luck is random. Fortune comes to those who DO. <BR> <BR> They say that anything worth having takes hard work. Is it worth it to you? What will you do to get what you want? Are you willing to work for it? <BR> <BR> I AM! <BR> <BR> Bipolar Mania! <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=60148 </link> Thu, 1 May 2014 08:38:27 EST The Gay, The Bigoted, and The Uber Stupid (The good, the bad & the ugly!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683810 I quit watching the news years ago. I had to for my own well-being. Mentally & emotionally I can't take all the war, rape & murder humans perpetrate against one another! Once in awhile I read the news on the internet. As usual, I am horrified. I didn't read anything about war, rape or murder this time tho. No...WORSE! <BR> <BR> Bigotry it seems is in full swing yet again! A boy scout TROOP closed out because their leader is gay. The parents & the kids were fine with the man because h... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 09:14:52 EST No need to worry, Friends!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674816 After my 'TOO Honest' blog I got several responses saying not to stop telling it like it is. HA! You don't really think that will happen, do you? Yea, NO! One of the things I've learned to appreciate about growing older is my ability to stand up for myself & my beliefs! <BR> <BR> I grew up in Billings, MT. A VERY conservative area of the country! I was taught some very backwards ways of thinking. I didn't fit in...even as a child. The little bit of religious upbringing I had was base... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 05:44:15 EST TOO Honest??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670931 I've been told I was too honest. Really? I think that what the people who have said this to me meant to say was I am too opinionated. Too outspoken. Maybe too mean. & at times, even too rude. There is no such thing as too honest. It'd be like saying someone is too trustworthy. "I would never let him house sit for me, why, he's too trustworthy." WHAT??? <BR> <BR> The problem is that people don't always understand the difference between opinion, perception & fact. Perception & opini... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 06:49:59 EST What do you hear??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669568 Years ago I was watching Montel Williams & he had a young(er) married couple on. He wanted them to have a conversation & just LISTEN to each other. He asked the man to share his thoughts on the troubles in their marriage. It went something like this. <BR> <BR> "Honey, I work 12 hours a day & once in awhile I would like to come to a hot meal. I realize that you are taking care of the baby all day, but it would be nice if you could do some basic household chores in the 14 hours I am gone e... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 07:08:09 EST MI, ME, MYSELF & I, AYE? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668939 First, I want to thank those of you who shared your personal stories with me about 'feeling' emotions! I appreciate your honesty & trust in me. I know it's a hard subject because people who don't feel it don't get it either. I already scream 'NUTS!' so what the hell, right??? <BR> <BR> I am NOT paranoid. I do not think people are watching me. I do not think there is a conspiracy against me. What I was talking about in my last blog is called intuition. We ALL have it. Some of us are j... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 10:36:51 EST Good Vibrations? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667075 Do you ever just 'know' something's not right by the 'vibe' in the air? I do A LOT! In fact, I probably feel more than I hear. It's weird. People think I am being judgmental, but it really isn't like that. I KNOW how things are. I'm NOT psychic. That's such a weird word. People put too much pressure on it. When will I die? Will I get married? I have no clue about stuff like that, BUT if you're not doing well, I know. I feel it. If you are doing great, I know that too. I can feel... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 05:55:32 EST Emotional, Mental &/or Physical Illness??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664832 Be warned: If you are sensitive about your 'mental illness' or defensive about how you got 'sick' I am about to make you mad. Actually, I cannot 'make' you mad, but my blog may bring up emotions of anger toward me for pointing out things you don't like to think about. <BR> <BR> Do you have somebody in your life that you think is 'mentally ill'? Have you talked to them about it? I don't mean like the time you screamed, 'You are messed up! You need help!' I mean sat them down & TALKED to... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 07:33:49 EST Blame? BAM! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664221 I want to be inspirational. I really do. My mind is so full (TOO full) of great ideas yet I sit here basking in my laziness day after day after day. I'm not much for blaming other people. Sure, my folks didn't do a great job raising me, but they did, so here I am. I haven't lived at home since I was 16. In September it'll be 31 years since I left my dad's house. I haven't lived with mom in 37 years. They messed up big time. I mean really...mom left when I was 10? Dad kicked me out ... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 10:58:26 EST What The Facade??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662457 As many of you know my father is the only member of my family of origin that I have any contact with. I have 2 sisters that I haven't seen in over 10 years & our relationships totally died the day our mom did over 8 years ago. <BR> <BR> I love my sisters because they are my sisters, but I don't especially like either one of them. My older sister is married to a minister who thinks HE is the way to Heaven. The last huge fight I had with that sister was because she told ME I had to submit... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 09:23:31 EST Stop comparing other people's outsides to your insides! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661491 I said this to my new BFF yesterday. (Hi E!) She had never heard it, but loved it as much as I did when I first heard it! You all know my insides because I blab them all right here on a regular basis so I know I probably don't come across as 'all put together'. <BR> <BR> We all know those people tho. The woman from work who always looks like she just stepped off a photo shoot. The man who drives a brand new Mercedes every time a new one rolls off the line. They walk in & we just stop... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 08:20:50 EST THAT'S Your Biggest Problem??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660767 So, your kid spilled milk all over the table again this morning? Was it worth jumping up & down, screaming like a fool??? They make these cool new things called dish clothes for that! Is your child's self-esteem less important than the time it took to clean up the mess? Did calling him names clean up the mess for you??? <BR> <BR> Your dog ran out the front door? So, what? You ran up & down the streets yelling like a maniac & then kicking the dog home? Obviously, that works well becaus... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 11:00:56 EST BI-CURIOUS??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659554 Yea. I thought so. Bipolar is a fascinating subject. I actually had a copy of 'Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders' from the library when I went to the hospital in February of 1997. I had my suspicions... <BR> <BR> If you want to learn about Bipolar, you are Bipolar or you love someone who is Bipolar (If you know me <em>43</em> <em>18</em> you do love one!) Check out my team Bipolar Mania! <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=60148 </lin... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 20:13:37 EST 20 Lbs. of Crazy in a 5 Lb. Bag http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659112 You know, despite all my joking around, I really don't consider myself 'crazier' than the next guy. Ironically, I'm not sure that I'm saner than a schizophrenic either tho! I know I have a skewed view of the world, but given my history I'm not sure that is so remarkable. We all have our baggage to carry. Most of the time we need to stop along the way & throw out some junk. <BR> <BR> That's what I do here....throw out junk. I don't think 'normal' people ALL act like fools ALL of the time... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 07:37:37 EST I Am NOT Normal!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658580 Have YOU ever met a normie??? Well, I have! They are odd...might I even say freakish! <BR> <BR> Normal people raise their kids to think it is okay to lie. Easter Bunny? Santa Clause? Mom's sick when really mom hates the person on the other end of the phone & rather than tell them to get lost she pretends she's sick until they go away? Dad wants to take you to a ball game so calls in 'sick' for you??? Yea, no! I'm not normal. <BR> <BR> Normal people drink beer after they mow the la... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 11:38:10 EST I haven't exactly GOTTEN self-centered.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657590 Nope! Dangit! I think maybe I always have been & I just started noticing it! Why do I always have to be the one with self-realization moments & have to fix it. Gads! That makes me mad. I hate change. <BR> <BR> First, I need to apologize for my last 2 blogs. (I took them down after I realized how self-centered I sounded) How embarrassing. I'm acting like I complain about others acting??? GR! 'Me! Me! Me! It's all about Me!'...It's my little recovery song! <BR> <BR> I still don't li... Thu, 27 Mar 2014 07:58:19 EST The Avocado in the Mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649317 This is not good! I was feeling all sexaaay & fit so I put on a pair of legging & a small strapped tank top (like a camisole) and then I saw myself in the full length mirror. Oh!My!Bob! I am thin right to the bottom of my ribs. Then I'm all lumpy & bumpy like an avocado. I swear I could even feel bruised mushy spots! I always figured myself to be an apple or pair, but I'm not at all smooth!!! <BR> <BR> I blame two things! I got my old lady glasses (bifocals) the other day. It's nice t... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 18:08:52 EST Spark Doesn't Work!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648215 YOU have to! <BR> <BR> Spark is full of educated staff, great recipes, insightful & informative articles, healthful & helpful exercises, more information than one could learn in a lifetime, and has a community full of the most encouraging & inspiring people on the planet, BUT.... <BR> <BR> Spark will not count calories for you. <BR> Spark does not hold you accountable for what you put in your pie hole. <BR> Spark cannot exercise for you. SO.... <BR> <BR> What will YOU do to be successful?... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 07:50:13 EST *I'm Just a Girl in This World* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646675 Like I told my friend Heather: The great thing about my 'Old Lady' moments is that they usually only last until my next skipping session. I imagine at some point I will become an antique kid rather than an old lady, but as for now I really am just a kid. (As so many of you Beauties pointed out to me yesterday!) <BR> <BR> I guess the fact that I question who I am, what I have accomplished, what I may still contribute is a good thing. In & of itself, it probably says that I am a decent perso... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 04:11:33 EST *Old Lady Who?* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646224 Knock Knock <BR> Who's there? <BR> Old Lady <BR> Old Lady Who? <BR> Why are you yodeling? <BR> <BR> Gee, I hope you aren't yodeling 'Old Lady Who?' in your head now! Teeheehee! I need to know somebody else is such a weirdo that they'd actually do this too! (Yea, YOU...ya weirdo!) For added enjoyment put a 'Swiss Miss' on the end of Old Lady Who & if you are from the USA & old enough you'll have an old hot cocoa commercial to remember. I'm a mean one sharing the junk in my head, aye? <BR... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 13:28:04 EST New Clothes!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640299 I did it! I know I said I was going to buy a new wardrobe for my birthday, but I couldn't wait! After wiping out 75% (it ended up about 90%) of the clothes in my closet I really didn't have any choice but to go buy clothes. <BR> <BR> I bought new blouses, all size medium. No matter what size my waist is I think medium is as small a blouse as I'll ever wear again. When I was sick & got down to 125 I could wear a small, but I couldn't maintain 125 even if I wanted to...which I don't becau... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 10:15:21 EST The Bum Look is out!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628116 Seriously!!! My favorite pair of sweats fit in the waist, but otherwise are huge! The crotch hits about 4 inches above my knee! WOW! What's really embarrassing is that I actually bought them like this! They aren't left overs from my fat girl days! When I lost the weight I got rid of ALL my clothes. So, why now would I be dressing like a fat girl still???? <BR> <BR> I would NEVER wear these out in public!! So, why then do I subject the people I love the most to see me like this??? (I... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 08:55:56 EST Time To Purge!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627053 Is it Spring yet??? Seriously, by the end of February I need Spring!!! GADS...why does winter last 3x as long as every other season??? <BR> <BR> I went into my closet last night & wiped out about 75% of it. I kept a couple of long sleeved blouses & sweaters to wear until I go buy new ones on CLEARANCE! Now I HAVE to! I know most people probably keep their clothes until after they buy new ones, but as you are aware I am not like most people! <BR> <BR> I am in the mood to purge. When ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 06:28:09 EST I AM RICH!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626145 & Not because it's Welfare Christmas Season! (That's what we Poor Folks call tax return season because we get to buy the stuff we wanted, but couldn't afford, in December!) Actually, I can't even really consider myself poor financially either. I have a house, car & food! Why, I even own a dog! I have so much to be thankful for! I have electricity, water & heat....& the bills are even paid! <BR> <BR> I am richer in love & family tho! Mikhail often wears a baseball cap and when we ar... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 07:12:32 EST It's a new day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622888 Thank you all on your feedback from yesterday's post about my D-I-L! I DO know I shouldn't let her get to me. If it were JUST the Super Bowl incident it would probably be easier, but it's a continual barrage of dysfunction I deal with from her! Today though I am 'letting it go'! <BR> <BR> Lenny loves me so much. His best feature is his sense of humor. Big surprise (I'm sure) that I would need a guy who can make me laugh. Yesterday after I wrote my blog I was continuing to complain to h... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 08:07:39 EST Just a Rant! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622026 I really do love being Bipolar, but sometimes I'm SO tired of thinking ALL THE TIME!! I swear I wake myself up from sleep with my thinking!!! Why....If I had... half the energy in my body as my brain I'd conquer the world! (You'd need to hear me say that for it to be as funny to you as it is to me!) <BR> <BR> The SEATTLE SEAHAWKS WON THE SUPER BOWL!!! Yes, I know that was over a week ago, but it leads into my rant. Lenny wanted to watch the Super Bowl with his older son, Gabe. The last... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 08:23:00 EST