LOFLLAMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LOFLLAMA LOFLLAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dancing with my skeletons! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783904 I told my friend Terry the other day that I should run for President. He asked, 'Aren't you worried about the skeletons in your closet?' I said, 'I don't have many left. I kicked most of them out & I took the others out to dance with!' I do leave that one that glows in the dark so I can see in there tho! <BR> <BR> When I was at the grocery store the other day I noticed the manager had new tattoos on his forearms. I said, 'Oh, my gosh. Are those gang tattoos?' In total seriousness he l... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 07:55:58 EST Me & My Family! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780766 Yesterday I went to get my hair trimmed & got the best compliment. Mikhail had gone over to the grocery store next door to the hair place while I was getting my hair cut. The beautician & I were talking about our kids. Mikhail came back in & when the girl saw him she said, 'That's your son?' When I said yes she said. 'Oh, you do have a great kid. I've cut his hair a couple of times. He is so polite. We all love him & really appreciate that.'!!! She said, 'We don't see that many great k... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 06:44:44 EST A Glimpse Inside.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780051 The other day I wrote on my status something like At any given moment you'd have to give me a $10 bill if you said 'A penny for your thoughts' to me. My friend Ramona asked if I was manic. No. It's how I think. I always have at least 3-4 thoughts going through my head at once...even when I'm talking or listening. It's very distracting...to say the least! <BR> <BR> When I'm depressed I tend to have catastrophic thinking. I can see a policeman in my rearview mirror and before one of us p... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 05:32:24 EST BS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779518 Bipolar Shenanigans!!! <BR> <BR> I'm sure some of you are very tired of hearing about me being Bipolar. Trust me when I tell you I am more tired of it than you are. It's very hard being me! Yes, I AM Bipolar! I know lots of people take exception to that phrase. I am Bipolar. I have Bipolar. Pshaw. Whatever. Some days I feel like I AM Bipolar! Some days I am the very meaning of Bipolar! <BR> <BR> I think the Cymbalta is starting to work. I took my first dose Tuesday morning & abou... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 07:49:01 EST Moving on UP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773057 I saw my Dr on Tuesday morning. I had a 2 hour speech prepared about why I needed to switch antidepressants. I said I think it's time to change my antidepressants. She said okay. I'm so happy to be back with Nancy. She knows I know myself well enough to know that I am not doing 'okay'. I'm starting on 60 mg of Cymbalta. I' l quit taking the Pristiq right away & then go off the Zoloft in a week. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm waiting on a prior authorization for the insurance to go through... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 04:41:32 EST But is it DEPRESSION??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769747 I don't know if I ever really have shared how horrible my depression was when I was younger...before I was medicated for Bipolar. My Bipolar cycled really close to the seasons. In the Spring I was AWESOME. In the Summer I was Great. In the Fall I was okay. In the Winter I was as close to dead as a person could get. For months I would think of ways to die, how best to die or fear death at a paralyzing level. <BR> <BR> When I woke up in the morning most days the very first thought would ... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 05:54:11 EST Don't look at me....I'm Hideous!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769135 I'd like a good manic about now so I could clean my house from top to bottom. Seriously, cobwebs on the ceiling to behind the stove to each & every closet in my house. I'd love to scrub the kitchen cupboards just because I have some extra energy. Maybe clean out my herb gardens to get them ready for next Spring because I did nothing extra with them since I weeded them in the Spring. I haven't used a fresh herb this Summer! <BR> <BR> I'd more like to have a good manic tho so I can remembe... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 05:33:20 EST I'm not trying to be racist, but.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765920 If you are starting ANY sentence with this phrase it is probably a sentence you should not finish!!! <BR> <BR> As long as we continue to pretend benign racism is acceptable we are part of the problem. I have been asking my father for years to quit using outdated terms for different groups of people. It has gotten to where it seems he does it as a direct insult to me. I am not going to tolerate it anymore! <BR> <BR> He used a racial slur ONE time in my house & my son immediately repeated ... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 09:16:08 EST Boooosh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764850 Today is a day I am so thankful. I just have so much greatness in my life. I commented on another blog about how Lenny says thank you, I love you & I am beautiful most days. Sometimes several times a day. How great is that? What's the best part is the way his blue eyes sparkle when he looks at me. To be able to SEE love in another person's eyes is something I hope everyone gets to experience. <BR> <BR> Mikhail is still carrying Skunk around like a baby every day. He loves that cat so ... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 10:39:21 EST Random Thoughts with Lisa G... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764090 You all know Robin Williams death really hit me hard, but this is where I am with it now. <BR> <BR> There comes a time when you just need to cry...let it out. We then need to go back to remembering the people we loved for the reasons we loved them...not for their death.~LisaGail <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, there are probably more contributing factors to Robin Williams' death than we will ever know. I've heard so many theories I had to quit listening. One that stands out is a medication he... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 08:17:23 EST My Gift of Bipolar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760142 Thank you everyone who responded to my post yesterday about Bipolar killing Robin Williams. I hope that I didn't worry you about my own mental health. I am not depressed per se. More sad & angry....'Regular emotions'. <BR> <BR> It probably is going to seem very strange, but I am having a hard time with the betrayal I feel. I know that Robin Williams had many issues, but I believe in my heart that the chemical imbalance of Bipolar is what ultimately killed him. <BR> <BR> I am NOT in an... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 08:45:28 EST Bipolar KILLED Robin Williams http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759611 I haven't been able to write because I am so emotionally devastated by my GIFT Of Bipolar! I have been struggling for awhile, but Robin Williams' death has knocked me down. How can the Gift I have grown to love be so mean??? OMG <BR> <BR> I always try to give you the good things about this rotten DISEASE I have, but right now I can't see past it killing people! For all the great things that Robin Williams was his death is just that DEATH...That Bipolar CAUSED! <BR> <BR> People keep ta... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 12:02:56 EST Taraxacum officinale AKA Dandelion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752204 If you've read my blogs for very long you probably remember me telling you that a Dandelion is part of the Daisy Genus.....Asteraceae to be exact. Daisy, Aster, Dandelion, etc. <BR> <BR> I personally do not consider a Dandelion a weed. It has many health benefits as an herb. If you look at it you will see it is actually a very pretty yellow daisy. Do you know that a dandelion reproduces asexually so it's babies are identical to the parent? How cool is that??? I have a huge patch of dan... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 11:28:58 EST You, me and a guy named Self-Control. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751531 My blog yesterday about self control wasn't about shame. It was about giving yourself credit. Sometimes I think we condition ourselves to be 'losers'. I can't.... <BR> <BR> There are days when I feel like my whole life has been a failure & I look at the things I have accomplished & almost say out loud to myself STOP IT! You are NOT a failure. <BR> <BR> I am an alcoholic. Destined to be. Born one. I've been sober over 8.5 years. <BR> <BR> I am bipolar. Born that way. I am medicate... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 07:49:45 EST So, you CLAIM to not have self-control??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751256 This has been bothering me. <BR> A few years ago on Dr. Phil a woman claimed to abuse & scream at her kids in a 'blind rage'. She said it just happened. She had no control over it. She was abused as a kid & just didn't know better or how to stop it. The kids would do something 'bad' & she would start calling them names & hitting them, but didn't realize it until it was over. <BR> <BR> Dr. Phil asked if she did these kinds of things to her co-workers. Her response was 'Of course not.' ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 19:00:36 EST It's August 1st. Do you know where your Spirit is??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750823 Some very strange dream woke me up a little after midnight. I have no idea what the dream was, but I wanted to go back as I was waking up. That's a GREAT sign to me. I remember thinking I'd go to the restroom & go back to my dream...in that moment in between sleeping and wakefulness. <BR> <BR> It's not even 2 & all my bills for the month are paid. I love debit cards & the new pay by phone systems!!! Skunk & Laila are getting flea & worm treatments today. It's already been a productiv... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 05:13:16 EST Do things like you HAVE to! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750120 I realized that I would only be 32 years old if I hadn't procrastinated so much of my life away! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I had this huge epiphany a couple of days ago: I need to do things like I HAVE to do them. I know that seems weird, but when I HAVE to do things they get done. I procrastinate everything that doesn't have a timeline (usually other people's) on it. <BR> <BR> Tuesday I took Skunk Key (YES, My cat has a middle name!) in to be neutered. He turned 12 weeks on Monday. I g... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 05:23:10 EST Stepping Up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749686 Have you ever been walking on uneven terrain & for a split second thought you were going to trip or fall and in the next instant you realize the next step was just a little higher ground than the last? You just stepped up hard? That's how I consider all this nonsense that I have been going through with Samantha & memories from my childhood again. A hard step up! <BR> <BR> I didn't fall. I didn't even really misstep...just stepped up a little harder than I had anticipated! <BR> <BR> The ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 13:05:27 EST Shockingly, It's about MY mom AGAIN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748077 I've known since all of Samantha's latest adventure began that my anger was too deep-seated to be just about her. She does stuff constantly that irritates me and sometimes just flat p!sses me off, but the anger I have been feeling was way too intense for just that stupid little girl. Don't get me wrong...of course, I'm protective of my grandsons. I'm protective of Gabe even if he doesn't want, need or deserve it. I love Samantha, but I don't trust her, believe her and more often than not ... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 09:12:15 EST Ya'll can't help me??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747345 Last Sunday I wrote 35 day to better habits talking about the first of September being on a Monday. That is true, but it's 35 days from Today...not Last Sunday! Good Grief! I'm such a goof! None of you noticed??? Or you didn't want to embarrass me??? WTH??? I would embarrass you!!! <BR> <BR> The great news is I feel like I gained a week!!! And since I was a horrible horrible person last week it's a good thing. After Monday & Tuesday my eating was just fine, but my idea of exercising... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 07:21:46 EST Here's what happened.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744670 You all know Monday I was to start my 35 days to better habits. Of course Monday I did not, BUT it is not my fault. I started the day horrible. I walked into the computer room & BOTH light bulbs blew out. Now you have to admit this in & of itself was reason enough for me to go eat everything in sight. Hell, I could have used it as an excuse to drink, but I did not. Instead I looked through all of my hiding places to find my light bulbs because I hide them from the family. I do this so ... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 05:02:19 EST Okay, so day 1 was a flop! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744010 I have no excuses. In fact, I don't even have reasons. Laziness? Lack of concern? Lack of??? I honestly don't know what is wrong with me. <BR> <BR> Sunday night Lenny prances into the house with a pizza, (I asked for it) cookies, & soda. I wanted the pizza as kind of a last meal. Whatever. BS. I wanted a pizza. Anyway, we all agreed no more soda & cookies. WTH I said to Lenny. He says I forgot! It turned into such an ordeal I'm sure he won't forget again. Mikhail is like a cr... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 08:22:39 EST Didn't the boy who cried wolf end up in it's belly??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743334 Lenny went to pick up Orion last night so he could spend the night. Samantha told Lenny the condensed story of how she got drugged & robbed. The 'thief' took her car back to the motel Wednesday & gave the keys to the clerk for her. Supposedly, she did file a police report on the money stolen out of hers & Gabe's bank accounts. She is waiting for a toxicology report from the hospital. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping real life is like 'Law & Order' & when they see video of HER taking money out of the... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 10:10:19 EST I'm all ajiggly with disgust!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742507 I have been on a junk food terror streak! For the last month or two I have been eating the worst of things. Chips, ice cream, soda, candy...you name it. Normally I don't keep this stuff in my house. For some reason I got super lax about it. So much so that Mikhail was calling his dad at work almost daily to ask him to bring home a 'treat'. Lenny finally brought it to my attention & we all had to have a family discussion about why we don't eat like that. <BR> <BR> I can give you a bunch... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 05:35:14 EST It's not me...It's YOU! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741960 Honestly, I have a great life. I have a smart, funny kid. I have a man who's love for me shows in his eyes when he looks at me. I have 2 wonderful grandsons that I get to help raise. I have an old fat dog that thinks I walk on water. I have a cat. LOL! <BR> <BR> BUT there is always somebody to come along & mess with my little piece of happiness. You all know my PITA...er, I mean DIL, Samantha 'went missing' Monday night. Well, she got home Tuesday night & Gabe STILL has not bothere... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 08:37:49 EST BEST! BIRTHDAY!! EVER!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741225 At 12:14 PM yesterday I officially became the parent of a teenager!...The greatest teenager in the history of teenagers! What a great kid I have! (BTW, He did pick out ALL those 5 pairs of shorts! He just chose to love the blue ones best AFTER we got them home!...sorry I had to clarify that I wasn't abusing my son by making him wear clothes I picked out! HA!) <BR> <BR> Yesterday, Lenny reminded me that LakeFair was in town....it's the biggest & the best of the fairs that come through here... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 05:07:58 EST It's Mikhail's Birthday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740535 13 years ago today the greatest thing in my life happened at 12:14 PM. Mikhail Samuel Leonard was born at 7 lbs. 3 oz. 21.5 inches long. Yes, he was a long skinny baby. To this day I cry every time I think about that day. I was 33 years old when I got pregnant with him. I had NEVER been pregnant before. In fact, I thought I couldn't have kids. Lenny's only other child was 22.5 years old. He thought he was done having babies. Needless to say, we considered (& still do) Mikhail a mirac... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 06:51:19 EST SO !@$%#&%$% ANGRY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739867 Yesterday was the BBQ for my son Mikhail's 13th birthday. Samantha (MY D-I-L) 'went missing'. She went out the light before because she got a last minute call from a friend to meet up at a bar. (1st LIE!) She left their house at 11:30 PM. By 1 the day of Mikhail's BBQ Gabe called to tell us Samantha still wasn't home. He spent most of the time we were supposed to be celebrating on the phone trying to find Samantha. He ended up leaving after less than 2 hours & left the grandsons here un... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 07:38:46 EST Speaking of picking your battles.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739084 At the beginning of summer I bought Mikhail 5 pairs of shorts. They were all exactly the same except in color. The reason I did this is because Mikhail is VERY picky about what he wears so I figured if he liked one he'd like them all. WRONG! Now, mind you, I let HIM pick these shorts out, had a conversation about wearing them, etc etc... He picked a blue pair & that is the only pair of the 5 he has ever worn. They 'fit better'. 'They are softer' he says. All 5 pairs are EXACTLY the sa... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 05:25:30 EST I cannot think of a good title. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738703 Good Morning, My Lovelies! I'm not sure I can force a blog. HA! It's too bad typing isn't as easy as talking. I'd write books in a day if I could type as fast as I talk! <BR> <BR> So, I told you about Skunk. What I didn't tell you is that Mikhail parades him around here like a KING! I'm sure the cat is thankful we don't have doll clothes around the house...it'd just be another humiliation for kitty. Not quite, but Mikhail carries Skunk around so much I told him he'd lose his ability to... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 14:24:00 EST Much Ado About Everything! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737672 I feel like it's been forever since I wrote a blog! Only a few weeks, but... <BR> <BR> Our weather has been SO wonderful. Tho now it's on the verge of getting too hot. I try not to complain (yea right!) because we get so much rain that I feel like a jerk when I complain about the warm weather! We've had so little rain this summer. It's going to be in the 90's all week I hear. Last week was 80's. That's HOT for us! <BR> <BR> Monday I went to a wedding. It was very sweet. JD (the gro... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 05:36:07 EST Would an autopsy prove he was snoring??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724625 You all know I sleep like $#!t. I haven't slept well for as long as I can remember. As a small child I had horrible nightmares. As a teenager either insomnia or days of sleeping. Lenny is a snorer. I have to admit I have considered killing him in his sleep. Could it be considered self-defense??? If I don't sleep I will die... <BR> <BR> NO! NO! NO! DON'T GO IN THERE! Lenny's sleeping!!! He often sleeps with his neck all kinked up like that!!! <BR> <BR> I started thinking about a 'j... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 06:30:42 EST Give your mind the credit it deserves! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724159 Yesterday I wrote 'You are always the same age inside' & for some reason it touched my friend Gail (love you!) enough for her to comment on it. <BR> <BR> I want you to really think about it: WE ARE ALWAYS THE SAME AGE INSIDE! Go look at your eyes in the mirror. NOT your face or the lines around your eyes...just your eyes! Your eyes never age either. They say your eyes are the windows to your soul. <BR> <BR> Today just be who you are. See the world like YOU see it...not the way you a... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 13:24:26 EST I'm a Hipster??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723318 Yesterday Mikhail (he'll be 13 in less than a month!!!) said to me, 'Mom, you're a Hipster.' 'Really? Why is that?', I asked. He said, 'Well, look at you. You are wearing red shorts, a gray top, blue necklace & pink ponytail holder. You don't care what society says you should do.' 'Also,' He said, 'You dance & sing to your own music.' 'You don't follow the rules.' <BR> <BR> HAHAHA!!! I don't follow the rules??? Where did he get that??? I dance to & sing my own music. *I am so beau... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 10:30:22 EST Alcoholism and (Not VS) Compulsive Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722551 Yesterday, I started my blog with a small lie. (Small lies don't REALLY count anyway, do they? Psh!) I said I'd been keeping my opinions to myself the last few weeks. I SHOULD have said (in my blogs!) I had been. A woman in a thread got my opinion rather harshly late last week. <BR> <BR> The post started something like this: I see ads for food & it must be like an alcoholic seeing their favorite bottle of booze. Okay, I'm down with that. Then she went on to say that withdrawal from fo... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 05:26:45 EST Atrophy to Death??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721985 You all may be surprised because I've been keeping my opinion to myself the last few weeks! It's been hard....oh, so hard. <BR> <BR> You know my mom had MS. She was diagnosed in her mid forties & was in a full care facility by the time she was my age. Yes! Before she was 50 she was in a wheel chair & NURSING HOME. Her body was completely atrophied. MS is mean. By the time she died at 61 she only had VERY limited use of her right arm. She could hold a sippy cup & sometimes a fork to f... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 09:30:32 EST There's no All or Nothing! It's all nothing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704217 I say that I am an all or nothing girl, but that's not true for ALL things. All of the bag of Oreos? Yep! I've been known to eat Oreos in my closet so I wouldn't have to share with my family....I KNOW, I KNOW! I have drank whiskey after I threw up so as to not have 'left overs'. I have put my last dollar in a keno machine. I have even dieted to the point of throwing up! <BR> <BR> People think that being a Perfectionist would be great, but it's not. What being a perfectionist actually ... Tue, 27 May 2014 09:32:07 EST Not everything has to be analyzed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5703542 Sometimes things just are! But I like to analyze things to DEATH! <BR> <BR> I HATE the color yellow. Bright yellow. School bus yellow. Pastel yellow. Baby poop yellow! I don't know why. Does it matter Why? Baby poop yellow is pretty obvious, I think. Well, it's baby poop colored...Duh! Does anyone like baby poop??? Hey, wait...when we were kids my older sister's favorite color was yellow. Is that why I hate yellow? OR is that why I hate her? HMMM???? This may be something to t... Mon, 26 May 2014 13:04:37 EST Being Different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701225 One great thing about having a short attention span is that I don't have to worry about any one thing for very long. The truth is I don't really dwell on stuff. Writing about (things like)my mom in my last blog is just how I process short lived concerns over things I can't control. <BR> <BR> My mom was who she was. You may think she was a bad mom, but she wasn't. I turned out pretty good so she obviously did MANY things right as a parent. She taught me honesty. I think that's a big dea... Fri, 23 May 2014 05:51:09 EST Oh, The Thoughts I Have... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699713 In case you've never realized it I usually write blogs in the middle of the night. Alone with my thoughts is sometimes scarier than being in a clown's warehouse after dark! Other times it is way funnier too! <BR> <BR> Does anyone like clowns? I have never know a person who did. I know people of my generation had 'Poltergeist' to contribute to a fear already established by the creepiness from the circus! I think my hatred of clowns is based on the fact that I hate facades & clowns repres... Wed, 21 May 2014 06:27:45 EST I don't see dead people! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698108 A couple of weeks ago I was at Barnes & Noble & this curious book caught my eye. Are you Psychic? It was $5.98 so I thought what the heck? Well, I had no real 'feeling' toward it so I should have known (or maybe not) that NO I am NOT psychic! I didn't know psychics saw dead people. I thought mediums saw dead people. I thought psychics just 'knew stuff'! <BR> <BR> This is very weird for me because I grew up in a VERY superstitious family. In case you aren't aware hillbillies are notori... Mon, 19 May 2014 06:08:59 EST Can it be true? Is ignorance bliss??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694623 I know it's not true if you aren't the one who is ignorant!!! Gawd, there is nothing worse than stupid! I wouldn't think it was true either if an ignorant person were aware of his own ignorance!!! *Things that make you go Hmmm* <BR> <BR> It's 2 AM so I am feeling all philosophical & $#@%! Why do I exist? What am I here for? Why doesn't the universe revolve around ME? <BR> <BR> We've been doing better financially this year than we had for a little while. (Lenny is a car salesman & with... Wed, 14 May 2014 06:01:53 EST Clowns to the left of me, Jokers to the right.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694068 Here I am, Stuck in the middle with you! <BR> <BR> I come from a horrible background, most of you know. I have hillbillies on one side of the family & rednecks on the other. I'm lucky to be alive, what with me being the extreme liberal I am! Needless to say, I left that mess when I was but a child & only looked back long enough to remember why I was running! <BR> <BR> A few days ago, I got curious & looked to see if my cousins were on FaceBook. I was particularly close with one set of c... Tue, 13 May 2014 10:21:16 EST When my underpants are too tight.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685495 ROFLMHO!!!! Underpants! Gawd, that's funny! Underpants. Go on...say it out loud! Seriously. Tell me that saying underpants doesn't make you giggle! Now, say it to the first person you see today. YES! Even your boss! I guarantee they'll give you at least a goofy grin. Probably a giggle! Underpants is THAT funny! <BR> <BR> It's weird because none of the other words for undergarments make me laugh. Just underpants. Teehee! Underwear, panties, bra...nope. Brassiere is kinda funny... Fri, 2 May 2014 06:44:10 EST As Luck Would Have It..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684675 Luck...Schmuck! As you probably know, I do not believe in luck. Do not wait for luck. MAKE yourself fortunate! Luck is random. Fortune comes to those who DO. <BR> <BR> They say that anything worth having takes hard work. Is it worth it to you? What will you do to get what you want? Are you willing to work for it? <BR> <BR> I AM! <BR> <BR> Bipolar Mania! <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=60148 </link> Thu, 1 May 2014 08:38:27 EST The Gay, The Bigoted, and The Uber Stupid (The good, the bad & the ugly!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683810 I quit watching the news years ago. I had to for my own well-being. Mentally & emotionally I can't take all the war, rape & murder humans perpetrate against one another! Once in awhile I read the news on the internet. As usual, I am horrified. I didn't read anything about war, rape or murder this time tho. No...WORSE! <BR> <BR> Bigotry it seems is in full swing yet again! A boy scout TROOP closed out because their leader is gay. The parents & the kids were fine with the man because h... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 09:14:52 EST No need to worry, Friends!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674816 After my 'TOO Honest' blog I got several responses saying not to stop telling it like it is. HA! You don't really think that will happen, do you? Yea, NO! One of the things I've learned to appreciate about growing older is my ability to stand up for myself & my beliefs! <BR> <BR> I grew up in Billings, MT. A VERY conservative area of the country! I was taught some very backwards ways of thinking. I didn't fit in...even as a child. The little bit of religious upbringing I had was base... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 05:44:15 EST TOO Honest??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670931 I've been told I was too honest. Really? I think that what the people who have said this to me meant to say was I am too opinionated. Too outspoken. Maybe too mean. & at times, even too rude. There is no such thing as too honest. It'd be like saying someone is too trustworthy. "I would never let him house sit for me, why, he's too trustworthy." WHAT??? <BR> <BR> The problem is that people don't always understand the difference between opinion, perception & fact. Perception & opini... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 06:49:59 EST What do you hear??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669568 Years ago I was watching Montel Williams & he had a young(er) married couple on. He wanted them to have a conversation & just LISTEN to each other. He asked the man to share his thoughts on the troubles in their marriage. It went something like this. <BR> <BR> "Honey, I work 12 hours a day & once in awhile I would like to come to a hot meal. I realize that you are taking care of the baby all day, but it would be nice if you could do some basic household chores in the 14 hours I am gone e... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 07:08:09 EST MI, ME, MYSELF & I, AYE? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668939 First, I want to thank those of you who shared your personal stories with me about 'feeling' emotions! I appreciate your honesty & trust in me. I know it's a hard subject because people who don't feel it don't get it either. I already scream 'NUTS!' so what the hell, right??? <BR> <BR> I am NOT paranoid. I do not think people are watching me. I do not think there is a conspiracy against me. What I was talking about in my last blog is called intuition. We ALL have it. Some of us are j... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 10:36:51 EST