LNZLOU's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LNZLOU LNZLOU's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Trying to get back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5077775 I have been completely thrown off by all the changes in my life and I haven't been treating myself very well. I haven't really been eating good foods and my exercising has been cut down to a minimum. Now that we are all settled in at the new house I am really trying to get into a new routine. We went to the store today and I have a pretty good menu planned for the next couple days so that should be good. <BR> <BR> This week I finally started exercising again. I have been trying to find... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 23:06:06 EST What a great day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052397 For the first time since I started my little weight loss journey I actually gained weight this week. I'm pretty surprised with myself for not being upset, but with my situation the last couple weeks I really can't be mad at myself. For the last two weeks we have been eating out for every single meal and I will admit that I didn't always make the best choices since I was getting tired of eating the exact same things every day. It is really stressful having to move and living in a hotel, so ... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 11:05:28 EST So thankful for Whole Foods! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5046309 I found a great solution to my eating problem. Since I am living in a hotel at the moment and have no way to cook I have been eating fast food WAY too much. I actually really hate fast food, so I have been in hell the last week. I was driving around two days ago though and found a Whole Foods and I am so excited. We have been going there for things for dinner the past couple nights and I feel so much better. I never thought I would say this, but I have really missed veggies. They have a... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 22:29:51 EST The problem with fast food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5042986 The last couple days I have had to have a bunch of fast food which I am really not enjoying. You either eat way too many calories, or you just don't get full. It is really hard to find something healthy to eat and still be satisfied. I'm not enjoying the food I'm eating and I'm not getting full, so I'm not a happy camper. I think tonight I am going to just go to the store and find things that I don't have to cook, but that is still better then eating out. I can't wait till I can get back... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 20:32:42 EST So tired of not being able to cook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5041843 This is our second day in the hotel and I am so tired of eating out. I don't have any way to cook so I am getting all my food pre made. The hotel does have breakfast though and I found some healthy stuff this morning. I love cooking so much that it is hard to not be able to for so long. <BR> <BR> I did find a really nice park pretty close to the hotel so that is nice. I took the dogs for a pretty long walk this morning there and then again tonight. We didn't stay as long tonight becau... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 00:21:37 EST Not sure what to do now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5040681 Today was the final day with our old house we were renting. We finished getting things moved and cleaned. Luckily today we didn't have another 12 hour day. I am not sad to be out of that moldy house. My main problem is that now I am in a hotel. They don't have a gym here and I'm not really in a place where I can go walking either. For the next couple days I am going to have to find some ways to get some workouts in. I think I am going to have to go find a park or something and take my ... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 00:28:57 EST I'm pretty proud of myself today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5039562 I am pretty impressed with myself today. For about twelve hours today I have been moving things into storage, like all our beds, our couch, all our electronics, and a ton of boxes. I have also been deep cleaning the house that we are leaving. I am so tired, but I feel good that I was able to do all of this today. A couple months ago I don't think I would have had the stamina to do this. I also ate way more then I normally would, but I don't feel bad about it since I worked so hard today.... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 02:12:10 EST Well that has never happened before.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037577 So the movers are here getting all of the boxes out of this house and putting them in storage. I have been out there with them and packing up any lose ends that I find. They are all pretty nice guys and I have been talking and joking around with them, which is pretty huge for me since I am pretty darn shy. I was actually pretty surprised when one of the guys asked me out. I have been so stand offish and unsure of myself for so long that I haven't really been in a situation to be asked out... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 14:06:52 EST Just want this week to be over already.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5036894 So far this week has been just as stressful as I was worried that it would be. I have been super busy trying to find a house, pack up the house we are in, finding a moving company and a storage facility. I have been so busy I haven't been able to work out so far the last two days and it doesn't look like I will have time tomorrow either. I might be able to get some time in later at night if I am lucky tomorrow. They are coming to move all our stuff out of our house tomorrow and we will ha... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 02:25:53 EST Happy Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5034030 After losing four pounds last week I wasn't really expecting to lose anything this week so I was very happy with my two pound weight loss. I have been so stressed and haven't been eating as well as I know I should, so I was pretty surprised. It was a pretty nice way to start out the week. <em>224</em> Tue, 28 Aug 2012 00:02:17 EST I hate stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5032393 This week is going to be another ridiculously stressful week, but hopefully after that things will calm down. I have managed so far not to go binge eat like I use to in order to deal with stress. I keep having the thoughts, but I haven't let them effect me. I would really like things to just go back to normal! Sun, 26 Aug 2012 22:39:22 EST Finding Balance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031017 I have a huge problem with finding balance in my life. Everything I do tends to be in extremes. I use to gorge on food, normally the worse for you the better. I almost never ate normal sized meals, I was eating enough for two or three people each meal. Then when I decided to get healthy I only ate healthy. I have a hard time indulging and any time I do I feel really guilty about it and then want to eat more. I have so much trouble finding the balance between eating healthy and having tr... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 21:59:02 EST Fed up, if it's not one thing it's another... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029496 I haven't been sleeping very well the last couple of night because my puppy was sick, so now that he is feeling better I figured things would start looking up. Nope, not the case. One thing after another has gone wrong today and it is stressing me out. <BR> <BR> One of my other dogs has something called Addidson's Disease and she has a crash this morning, which is never fun. Her pills are starting to kick in and make her feel better, but she will be in pain for a while till they do. It... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 15:24:34 EST New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5028473 I feel much better after taking yesterday off from exercising. The world didn't stop, I didn't gain any weight, no one was struck by lightning. I don't know why I was so worried about taking a day off, but I am glad I did. My body felt much better doing my workouts this morning and I wasn't nearly as sore as I have been. Maybe now I can convince myself that a day off every once in a while is a good thing. <BR> My puppy is still feeling bad, but hopefully he will feel better tomorrow. M... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 21:22:36 EST Day Off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5027155 Last night my puppy was really sick, so no one really got any sleep last night. I was pretty grumpy and my body is really sore from all my working out, so I decided to take the day off. I have done some form of exercise everyday for the last couple months, so it was a little weird not doing anything today. My body seems to be happy with me for deciding to relax today and hopefully tomorrow my body will feel more up to working out again. Wed, 22 Aug 2012 23:33:45 EST New View http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5024917 I am starting to really see a change in how I view myself and the world around me. I have never liked myself and have always been painfully shy, but that is really changing. Now that I am starting to take good care of myself and I am feeling better all around I am really starting to like the person that I am becoming. Not just a smaller person, but a much more positive, happier person. I actually look into mirrors now and like who I see. I have been taking more care in picking what I wea... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 12:53:08 EST Relax http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5022710 After having such a hectic week it was nice to take today and relax. I got my workouts done this morning and even swam longer then usual just for fun. Just spent the day cuddling with my doggies and reading. What a wonderful day. Mon, 20 Aug 2012 02:19:35 EST Busy Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5021298 This week has been crazy busy trying to find a house while packing up the house I am in. I have been pretty proud of myself for still getting up early in the mornings and working out every day. I still haven't missed a day yet! I did find out though that I feel much better if I eat every couple hours as apposed to a few bigger meals a day. With all the running around I have been doing I have really only been having breakfast, lunch and dinner and I have really been missing my snacks! Now... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 00:41:55 EST Do you feel guilty when you eat bad? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5016865 I was out looking at houses with my family and they decided to stop and eat lunch between appointments. There wasn't a whole lot to chose from where we were and we stopped at Five Guys Burgers. Now I haven't had a burger that I haven't personally made in a very long time. I'm not all that fond of fast food, so I don't really go often to get it. I figured that eating one every once in a while isn't going to hurt me. I did load it up with a bunch of veggies though. It was a really good bu... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 15:52:05 EST New books and my dogs can always motivate me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015361 I was still feeling kind of cruddy when I got up this morning so I decided that I would just walk the dogs. I can't ever say no to them when they want to go in the morning. After we were done with our 30 min walk I decided I felt good enough to swim at least for a bit. I got through about half of my swim workout when a guy brought his two small children to the pool to teach them how to swim. It isn't all that big of a pool and I felt like I was getting in the way so I decided to cut my sw... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 15:38:55 EST This house is killing me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013748 Because of some weird circumstances my family and I have been renting a house. We have been in it for a year now and are trying to find a new place to live because this house is full of mold. Not just a little mold, but a bunch of mold. I am so tired of feeling sick all of the time because of this. I have pretty much had a constant headache since we moved in here and more often then not I have a runny nose and sore throat. The worst are days like this though. <BR> <BR> I got up at 5:30 ... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 14:59:16 EST Just one of those days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5012134 Today was one of those days that I just didn't even want to get out of bed. I was tired and cranky and my knee hurt. Since I am so graceful I managed to slam my knee into my door frame last night and now it is all bruised and swollen. Go me. <BR> <BR> My poor little puppies were just sitting there looking all sad, so of course I got up and got us all fed. Just because I didn't want to let my bad mood win I still went out and did my workouts this morning. I kind of did everything on auto... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 13:31:59 EST Crazy Busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5011515 The past couple days have been so busy for me. My family is looking for a new house since we want to be out of this one by the end of the month. The house we are in now is very nice, if you don't mind a ton of mold. It is making us all so sick and we can't wait to leave. I have been trying to find places to go see while still getting the house packed up and making food for the whole family. So basically I have been running around like a monkey with my head cut off. <BR> <BR> I am proud ... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:28:57 EST Very proud of myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5008517 Ever since I moved to Scottsdale and found out that one of the best ice cream shops in the US is pretty close to my house I really wanted to walk there. A year ago I probably would not have been able to do it, but with all the work I have been putting in I was able to today! <BR> <BR> I was originally going to go yesterday, but my dogs had something to say about that. One of my dogs is very sick and has to take a bunch of pills every day or she will go into shock and die. It is actually p... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 16:35:23 EST Day of Positive Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5006973 After being so unhappy and negative all yesterday I decided that today will be all about positive thoughts. As I was swimming this morning I started thinking about how far I have come in only a few months. I have already lost 16 pounds and when I think about it that really is a lot of weight. That is more then my dog weighs! At first when I started this change it almost seemed like it was an impossible dream. I have never really been skinny and it is hard to imagine myself any other way ... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 16:09:48 EST New Book Day and Bad Influences http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005180 First off I have to get this little rant off my chest. Don't get me wrong I love my mother, but she is the worst influence. She is a horrible food pusher, which is ironic since she doesn't eat much at all herself. On an average day she might have 500 calories a day, most of which comes from junk food. Even her doctor has told her she needs to eat more and has even given her a daily food list that she doesn't follow. Yet she is always trying to get me to eat cookies or cupcakes or fast foo... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 14:03:01 EST Weird Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5004368 Today was a very strange, busy day for me but I was very proud of myself for still getting my workouts in. Monday is my weigh in day so I actually had to get up really early in the morning to do it because I had to take my Dad to the airport. I was very pleased to see that I lost two pounds last week! I was having a very tough two weeks and just got back into the swing of things last Thursday, so I was very glad to see progress. All that time in the pool is really paying off. I spent most... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 23:52:45 EST Best Ice Cream Ever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5002382 So when I moved to Scottsdale I was so excited to see that one of the best ice cream shops in the US was right down the street. When we got here a year ago I probably went there at least a couple times a week. If I only could eat one kind of ice cream for the rest of my life, then this would be that ice cream. They have been featured on the Food Network, in Time Magazine, have won a bunch of awards, heck even the contestants from Master Chef were there to try it last week. It is just that... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 19:38:50 EST Much Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5001348 First I would really like to say thanks to everyone for all the well wishes this week when I was feeling so bad. I am finally feeling much better and am even in a much better mood. These last two weeks were pretty hard on me, but I think I am back on track now. I have gotten back into my exercise routine and that is going great. I have even been doing more the past two days then normal. I have been swimming everyday since it is so hot out and it is such a great way to work out. Now that... Sat, 4 Aug 2012 23:06:12 EST Self Sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4999624 I took a really long walk this morning and while I was out I thought over the last two weeks. I had been doing so good on all my goals up until then. Looking back over my behavior I realized that I have a huge problem with self sabotage. As soon as I start to do something good for myself and start seeing results I find any excuse that I can and mess up my progress. <BR> <BR> Over the last two months I have lost 13 lbs. I have majorly changed my eating habits from processed, fried, unhe... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 13:49:38 EST Sick and tired of being sick and tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4997155 I got up this morning and I felt so sick today. I haven't been able to keep down any food and have just been so tired all day. I went for my walk and did some strength training this morning to see if that would help me feel any better, but that didn't work, so I have taken it easy the rest of the day. I really think I might just go to bed early and just count this day as a waste. I really just want the day to be over..... <em>24</em> Wed, 1 Aug 2012 22:20:27 EST Don't want to grow up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4994844 I actually had a blast working out today. I will be the first to admit that I am not a very good swimmer, but I am an enthusiastic swimmer. Back in high school I had friends on the swim and dive teams and even they could not help me be more graceful in the water. I am more then OK with not being graceful (in the water and out), that is why I quit ballet and played softball instead! <BR> <BR> I have been having so much fun watching the Olympics that today in the pool I pretended to race ag... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 13:52:23 EST Could have been worse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4993086 This morning I had to get up at the butt crack of dawn to take my Dad to the airport. More then anything I wanted to go back to bed when I got back home. My poor little puppies were waiting so patiently when I got back though and I decided they would like it much better if we went walking instead of going back to bed. After having such a bad week last week I wanted to start this one out better. <BR> <BR> Mondays are actually the days I weigh and measure myself. I wasn't expecting it to... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 12:16:41 EST Bad week to binge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4991652 When I was younger I suffered from bulimia. I was in a very bad place in my life and I tended to eat through my feelings. I didn't just eat though, I ate so much, so quickly that is was physically painful. I wasn't enjoying food, I was punishing myself with it. I surrounded myself with people who were very bad for me, who treated me even worse then I treated myself. I wasn't nice to myself, so why would I have expected other people to be nice to me. <BR> <BR> This went on for a few ye... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 12:07:29 EST Sneaky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4991014 Both of my parents are overweight and they want to lose weight, but they don't want to put any effort into it. Since I am a chef they have been having me cook dinners for them most nights. It isn't something I mind because I love to cook for people. The tricky thing is that I have to sneak veggies and other healthy items into their food. Some nights I feel like I am feeding small children! <BR> <BR> I think that now that they are getting use to eating healthier it is going to be much ea... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 22:20:11 EST Unexpected Benefits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989336 When I started this healthy change in my life I was mainly trying to lose weight. I like being active and I miss doing some of the activities that I haven't been able to do since I got so big. There are some changes in myself though that I just didn't expect, but am really loving. Since I changed my diet and started exercising I have been noticing changes in my body that have nothing to do with weight loss. My skin is much clearer and softer. I have always had trouble with breakouts and ... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 13:23:29 EST Eating out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4988136 I sometimes tend to be a bit of a food snob so for the most part I cook for myself at home. This works well for me while I am teaching myself to eat healthier since I am in complete control of what is going into all my dishes. It is also much easier to control my portion size since one of my biggest problems is that I tend to eat everything I am served. <BR> <BR> Today my Dad wanted some company for lunch, so I met him near his work to eat. This is only the second time that I have been ... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 16:39:06 EST Grumpy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4984880 I didn't sleep well last night and I woke up in a horrible mood. I had to pretty much force myself to get out of bed. Today is just one of those days I just want to cuddle up with my dogs and read all day. I do have responsibilities though, so I made myself go work out. After walking my doggies I made myself go swim, even though it sounded like torture this morning. Turns out it made me start to feel better, kind of like I knew it would. I actually did six more laps then I normally do s... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 13:03:49 EST Not eating enough? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4983410 I changed my eating habits a couple months before I found Spark. I started eating very healthy and was very excited that I was losing weight. When I joined Spark I had never counted calories and was very interested in the meal tracker. Once I started putting in my daily meals I was shocked to learn how few calories I was actually eating a day. I wasn't hungry after my meals, but still I was consuming such a low calorie count. <BR> <BR> It is kind of scary to decide to add more calories... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 14:48:14 EST Struggle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4982376 For as long as I remember I was always the big girl. I was almost always the biggest person in the room. I was very active throughout my childhood and teens, yet I never understood why I was always so big. I played softball for 13 years on very competitive teams and I was almost always doing some sort of exercise. The difference between me and the other girls though was that after practice or games they would go have nutritious meals while my family would go get fast food. I grew up in ... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 22:34:28 EST