LIVIN2BEFIT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LIVIN2BEFIT LIVIN2BEFIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ WHAT is MY Problem.... UGGGHHH!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334189 I am stuck in a rut, funk, and whatever else you want to call it. The only comfort I found today was in some loaded tater tots, chipotle chicken tendercrip sandwich, and a large Sprite.... NOOOOW, I feel even worse. <BR> <BR> Why I did it? I don't know.... I packed my breakfast, lunch, and snacks with me. This is getting a little ridiculous... I AM SO STRESSED <BR> <BR> I can't get to the root of what is keeping me from being successful at losing this weight. <BR> <BR> WHAT IS MY PROBLEM..... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 13:24:23 EST I WON'T LET GO... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324125 I have a goal.... <BR> I am determined.... <BR> I am focused like never before.... <BR> I refuse to allow failure to over take me.... <BR> <BR> I will not give up.... <BR> I am going to work harder.... <BR> I will keep my eyes on the prize and push.... <BR> I won't continue to give in to the urge to quit.... <BR> <BR> This is my goal, This is my mission..... <BR> <BR> Food you will no longer have control over me.... <BR> <BR> I AM victorious, I will not accept defeat! <BR> <BR> Writing t... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 14:35:38 EST Crazy Emotional Eater http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313091 It's been almost 11 weeks since I had a beautiful little girl. I have so much on my plate from being a wife, a mother of two, employee, entrepreneur, student, and etc. that I feel like I am heading for a melt down in a matter of seconds. <BR> <BR> How do you physically keep up with cleaning, working, pumping milk, feedings, studying, changing pampers, going to church, potty training, grocery shopping, paying bills, cooking, playtime, building a business, wiping noses, combing hair, giving b... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 21:58:47 EST Nausea http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4927899 I am not feeling my best today. Everything I have tried to eat has not gone over to well. Although it has not come back up, it's just that yuckiness in my mouth. Not sure what this little baby likes just yet, but we surely did agree on a vanilla cone from McDonald's. <em>39</em> Fri, 15 Jun 2012 14:34:57 EST Day 1 - All over again, w/ a bun in the oven. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4926102 So... I took a few days off after finding out I was pregnant. I celebrated a little <BR> bit with some junk food. Picked up about 2 lbs just for fun to celebrate. I was so stunnedby the news, that I figured why not have a milk shake and a butter finger. I did get a piece of fried chicken too! Since, I've been eating so healthy lately.... it all tasted kind of gross to me, so it was definitely a waste of calories. <BR> So, I've got back into the groove of things as of today. I had 2 donut hol... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 10:27:54 EST Journey derailed... OMG I'm pregnant.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921251 So I've been MIA for a few days.... Well I got the shock of my life. I am pregnant!!!! This is so totally unexpected, but I am happy about this blessing. Although the weight-loss goal has come to a halt, my journey to healthy living does not. I am grateful for the few pounds I was able to get off before hand. I'll have to make some alterations to my workout plan, but exercise is still a MUST. I just can't kick butt in my TurboJam any more..... so sad, but it is all good!!!! <BR> <BR> So, I... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 08:51:27 EST Day 10 - Rocking out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4915169 I believe in myself. <BR> I know that I will be successful. <BR> I will not become discouraged. <BR> I will not dwell on the past failures <BR> I have faith in my unlimited potential. <BR> I have what I say...... and I'm saying that I am going to get this weight off. <BR> <BR> Just gotta keep it moving, YEAH! <em>244</em> Wed, 6 Jun 2012 18:04:13 EST Day 9- I am So F0cused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4912815 Last nights' re-cap: <BR> I went home and made dinner for my husband and daughter. I nibbled a little bit on his salmon, boy was it good.... I made some box mac n' cheese for my little one and as I was blowing the food to cool it off I took a few bites. <BR> I had to laugh at myself, because for some reason it tasted like a dessert. Since I am entitled to a day of a relaxed eating plan I opted for yesterday. I made sure to honestly make myself accountable for the calories in my nutrition tr... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 08:53:27 EST Day 8 - Weekend Success and it feels so good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4911121 Well, even with the hustle and bustle of the weekend I managed to <BR> stay focused and did not deviate from the plan. My meals were planned <BR> and I packed it with me. My weekend seem to be as successful as my <BR> week was. I feel a major difference in my body and in my mind. <BR> This is exciting!!! I managed to stay from the scale for 7 days... <em>244</em> Anybody who knows me, knows that it's something not easy for me to do, but I did. <BR> <BR> I am realizing more and more th... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 08:34:04 EST 1st week DONE... 3lbs Gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4909626 SO happy I could cry.... I'm singing and song and doing a dance... I am 3 lbs down. SP Friends thank you for your support, this has been a good week. I could not be more proud... Steady and slow, is the way to go.... Staying focus on this change and embracing new ways of doing things... Yeah, it's trying sometimes and yes I want bug out.... I just remind myself of what I am trying to accomplish. I am inspired byrejoicing with others on their success... It lights a fuel under me and I can't le... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 07:37:12 EST Day 7... Weekend State of Mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4909359 I woke up this morning and went running for about 35 minutes. Can you believe it!!! I feel like a mad woman running wild. I'm determined.... I have got to reach my goal.... I can't let nothing get in my way. I see my goal and I'm fighting to get to get there.... I will get there... I make time for everything else... I choose to take time to make time for me... I'm worth it, I deserve it, and I'm going to do it. <em>104</em> <em>244</em> Sat, 2 Jun 2012 22:35:49 EST DAY 6 ....Pep Talk to Self..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4907626 Self, you ARE strong.... Strong in heart, mind, body, and in spirit. You may <BR> be tired, but there's no sense in giving in today. You have to keep pushing, <BR> you have to keep fighting. There's no sense in being lazy on today. <BR> This is your moment, this is your year, this is your time... Only you can <BR> make this change, no one can do it for you.You are becoming a better version of yourself everyday that you wake up and give it everything you've got. <BR> <BR> Let's lock and lo... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 14:55:36 EST I Exercised my way out. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4906249 As the week progresses, I am feeling more empowered each day that goes by. From the planning my lunches to not allowing that voice in my head to tell me that I am too tired to exercise. Exercise is becoming my way out a way to kick back at things that can sometimes frustrate me. <BR> <BR> I know that today is only Day 5, but please believe me when I say that I am starting to feel different. I really do!!! Different in my mind and in my heart towards what I am really trying to accomplish. ... Thu, 31 May 2012 17:57:06 EST Day 5... Positive Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905154 Day 5, feeling good and extremely sore from my workouts. Getting ready for bed and I know that today is going to be a good day. Yesterday, I overcame much additional temptations like brownies and ice cream etc. I stood strong, though tempted.... I can only take it one day at a time and I will continue to push forward.... <em>43</em> Thu, 31 May 2012 00:21:03 EST Today's Success.... Super Proud http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4904408 Ok, so I've known for about a week that we were planning a luncheon <BR> for a co-worker on today to celebrate his birthday. Of course the food <BR> by the majority was pizza. I wanted to have some, so I carefully planned <BR> for it. I had a nice breakfast consisting of plain oatmeal w/ a tablespoon <BR> of peanut butter, 1 turkey bacon slice, and 1 large egg. (super good) <BR> <BR> When the pizza arrived I had 1 cheese square, 1 veggie/pep/sausage <BR> square, salad, 1 garlic wing, 2 ... Wed, 30 May 2012 13:43:03 EST Day 4 - Getting into the groove.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903915 Yesterday was a really good day! Taking each day one day at a time. <BR> Last night, I was feeling a little lazy and I almost didn't work out. However, <BR> I pulled some strength from somewhere. I made myself get dressed and I <BR> put the Turbo Jam in.... I gave those 45 minutes all that I had. I feel a little <BR> sore this morning, but I feel really good. <BR> <BR> Today we are celebrating a birthday at work, so we're having pizza. <BR> I have brought in my breakfast and snacks, so I... Wed, 30 May 2012 08:40:15 EST Short Term Goal 4 the next 2 Weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4902886 Workout at least 4x's a week <BR> Water 8 glasses a day (w/no days missed) <BR> Get out of the 170's <BR> <BR> Saying this to myself..... <BR> I will keep a positive attitude and do my best to stay focused on the goal. <BR> I will not talk myself out of doing what is best for my body. <BR> I will not avoid talking about any struggles I may have in accomplishing this goal. <BR> Should I feel weak...... <BR> I will pray and then solicite the support of those who are here to help me be succe... Tue, 29 May 2012 14:10:29 EST Day 3 - 1 pound down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4902170 Yesterday was such a busy day and I didn't get to do much on SP. Although I went to picnic on yeterday, I really ate in small portions. When I saw all that food, I honestly didn't have a desire to eat much of it. Maybe it was because I was tired, I don't know. I did have quite a bit of pop, which I don't usually do. I ate a burger, but with no bread. It felt kind of heavy of my tummy. I think I'll stay away from those... With all the get togethers over the weekend, I am down one pound and I ... Tue, 29 May 2012 06:46:27 EST Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4900162 Today has been a good day so far. I am keeping track of what I have had to eat and have been getting my water in. I still have a cook out to attend and I will behave. However, I will enjoy myself..... I feel strengthened and empowered.... Church was awesome and the message was right on time. It was called, " Get rid of the stinking thinking." It was right on time for me and therefore I am grateful. I will move forward with a positive attitude and work hard to see the manifestation of the goa... Sun, 27 May 2012 16:39:59 EST May 31 here we come http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895443 Instead of the typical beginning at the 1st of the month or the 1st of the week, I plan to begin my journey on May 31st. I'm using this time to get myself mentally prepared by writing out my short and long term goals. I am also preparing my grocery list and planning out the family meals for the next week or two. I am excited and I plan to really take advantage of the tools here in the Spark Community to help cultivate my success. I know obstacles will come, but I think I will be ready to fig... Wed, 23 May 2012 23:56:52 EST Cookies, cakes, and luncheons galore...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4634080 This is nuts.... I love the holidays..... But really??? Do we have to have lunch provided everyday at work.... To top it all off.... all of our customers are sending goodie baskets after goodie baskets.... I am trying to not find myself at the bottom of the peanut brittle.... uggggghhhhh Utter disgust... Wed, 21 Dec 2011 13:26:56 EST Made it.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4625132 Yesterday was a true test for me. I went to work and there the goodies awaited me. Every treat placed on my desk, I gave to someone else. The whole goodies table spread out right behind my desk, I completely ignored.... I have to stay focused on the greater goal before me, even if it's the holidays... Gotta keep pushing... Today is a new day, DAY 2 is now in progress.... <em>224</em> Wed, 14 Dec 2011 08:52:27 EST Goodbye to Failure and Hello to the Possibilities of Success..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4623915 Today is my new beginning.... I have tried countless of times to begin this journey and many times I have failed. I have decided to change my mind set and believe in the things that I am capable of doing. I will not be a slave to food any longer and I am standing up to put my foot down... I now say to myself, "That is enough." I must begin a new chapter in my life and the song dance of overeating must come to an end. I know that this will not be and easy journey, because I have allowed th... Tue, 13 Dec 2011 10:18:01 EST 17 Day Diet.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4622591 On my lunch today, I am purchasing the 17 day diet. I am determined to get this weight off and gain a better relationship with food in the process. I know that I can do this.... I have failed so many times, but I am ready for forward movement. I want to get into the groove of things before the new year, so I can start off the year making better choices. No more new years resolution, I just want to do it.... Mon, 12 Dec 2011 11:03:45 EST Day 1... Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4615025 I do not care how many times I have to start all over again. I am willing to keep starting until I finish what I began. This issue with my weight and has been a never ending battle. I am tired of the stuck feeling and I am tired of singing the same song over and over again. Year after year, this stinks..... So I am going to fight through it this time. I am making it much harder than it really is..... I have just got to do it!!!! and SO I WILL <em>9</em> <em> Tue, 6 Dec 2011 14:25:24 EST Don't Judge Me....... LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4573204 So I came to work today w/ a pair of pants on that I can not officially fasten. I can fasten the buttons and hold my stomach in to walk around, but I must immediately unfasten the buttons before I sit down at my desk or to drive. To add insult to injury, I twirled around in my chair at my desk to find that one of my buttons popped off my jacket I was wearing and was laying beside my chair. I politely picked it up before it was noticed and later proceeded to the bathroom. So, I began to prepa... Mon, 7 Nov 2011 16:20:03 EST Can't do it Alone.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4561013 I have tried to stay on track, but I keep falling off. I am tired of this weight and ready to move on to a new chapter in my life. The change starts with me, I have the power within me to accomplish my goals.... I have a hard time tapping into that inner God-given strength. I can not do this alone, so I will depend on the Lord to help me on my journey. And the great friends I have here on Spark People. Let's try this again.... Mon, 31 Oct 2011 09:07:57 EST Stuck No longer.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4174857 You know last week was rough, being diagnosed with Gallstones. I took it with strides and did what I could to embrace this little lesson to propel me forward. I am so excited to say that I have not taken pain medication in days and I really took the changes to my food seriously. I've been in no pain and I believe they have actually dissolved!!!!!!!!! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Because of that..... I am proud to announce that I am now out of the 170's..... I AM 168 LBS.. <em>192</em> <BR>... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 17:10:22 EST Stuck No longer.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4174856 You know last week was rough, being diagnosed with Gallstones. I took it with strides and did what I could to embrace this little lesson to propel me forward. I am so excited to say that I have not taken pain medication in days and I really took the changes to my food seriously. I've been in no pain and I belived they have actually dissolved!!!!!!!!! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Because of that..... I am proud to annouce that I am now out of the 170's..... I AM 168 LBS.. <em>192</em> <BR> ... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 17:10:17 EST Really Discouraged..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4162124 So what I thought was a stomach virus ended up being gallstones. I was in so much pain over the weekend and finally had to go to the hospital to see what was wrong. Thankfully it wasn't anything too serious, but serious enough. <BR> <BR> It's possible they can dissolve or I would have to have my gallbladder removed. It's amazing that now that I have been on the road to better health, then along comes something like this. Granted this situation now provides me with no excuse not to eat ... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 00:13:51 EST Oh no.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4154436 I got sick today..... My stomach is so messed up, I think I have a stomach virus... UGGHHH !!!! I am so in need of prayer.... Sat, 9 Apr 2011 21:04:51 EST Starting the Weekend with a BANG http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4152163 I am super excited about this weekend. I vow that this weekend will be filled with exercise, water, and the RIGHT foods. I have done so well today and I am still well within my calorie intake. Dinner is going to be baked Tilapia w/ a side Broccoli.... ummmm yummy! Looking forward to getting to the gym first thing tomorrow morning before I start my day. READY to kick some butt! Look out new body, HERE I COME.... <BR> <em>344</em> Fri, 8 Apr 2011 15:57:13 EST I didn't do it!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4150851 April 7, 2011 - I DECLARE I DIDN'T DO IT...... I made it through a whole day and I did not cheat on my meal plan. I worked out, drank my water, had my dinner before 8 and I feel great. WOW! This may not be big to some, but this is a big deal to me. I am one day closer to a better and healthy life. I've packed up my lunch for tomorrow and breakfast has already been prepared also.. I even went to the store and bought a scale so I can measure my food. What a day! I can't wait to hit the gym... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 01:22:16 EST Tragedy on Facebook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4142815 This weekend I slaked off on my exercise and eating. I went to a get together in honor of my husband and pictures where being snapped from everywhere. I had deactivated my account on facebook for a few weeks and today I decided to reactivate it. Much to my surprise I was greeted with pictures of myself from this weekend. I did not realize how much weight I had picked up. I was in shock and completely in awe. OK... so that was my motivation to continue on. Gotta love those reminders eve... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 22:29:16 EST Vengeance SHALL be MINE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4100426 Yesterday, as I drove from Taco Bell to KFC (purchasing something to eat from both) I realized something..... If I want to lose weight, nobody can do this for me BUT me. I have got to want a better me for myself. I have got to want a healthier body for myself. I have got to walk away from bad food choices for myself. There is NO ONE who can do it for me..... I want this bad enough for myself now. I know it's not going to always be peaches and cream, but if I stay focus on the greater goa... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 09:15:55 EST I HAVE LOST 6 LBS SO FAR.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4099141 I am so excited... I am doing it slow, but sure...... I refuse to give up on my goal!!!! Horay for me!!! <em>311</em> Thu, 17 Mar 2011 17:34:38 EST Soooo PUMMMMPPPPED http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4062724 I am feeling great today. I cheated and got on the scale a little earlier. I can't tell you HOW GOOD I am doing so far. I will say that I am encouraged to continue on. I got hungry late last night and my husband said, Baby you can do this!!!! And by golly G.... I SURE CAN.... <em>220</em> Thu, 3 Mar 2011 09:21:51 EST Summer Challenge Begins Today!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4056716 Today, I am so encouraged. I am FOCUSED... The goal is just to stay that way, Focused... This morning I woke up and measured everything for tracking purposes. My husband had a word of prayer with me, that I would make it today. That I would be successful and that I would resist temptations at work and see this challenge through. I am grateful for his support and though he loves me the way that I am, he knows how important this is for me. He's going to do this journey with me and I am thri... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 09:11:14 EST Really Discouraged Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4033855 I have tried so many times to start the path to a healthier lifestyle just so I can lose some weight and just feel better overall. It's the one thing I really want to do for myself. I always start off really great and some how I always end up falling off the train. It's so discouraging and I feel so all alone. I had a baby and didn't gain any weight during my pregnancy. After my daughter was born I lost an additional 25 lbs that I didn't have to work for. Once I went back to work to all t... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 23:06:38 EST Day 3 of Boot Camp (Friday's Results) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2171319 Drum Roll Please....... <BR> <BR> Total weight loss for my first week was...... 9 pounds.... <BR> <BR> Can you believe it? I know every week my results may not be as high, <BR> but it proves what hard work will get you to. Yeah!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> Well, I've got class today and I'm pumped. The only trouble I am having is <BR> getting all of my water intake in for the day, but I'm working on it. <BR> <BR> Thanks for all your support...... Devon Mon, 22 Jun 2009 12:56:14 EST Day 2 of Boot Camp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2160061 So today we had to meet at the park up the street from the facility....... <BR> Workout today....... drum roll please.... <BR> <BR> Run or walk a 4 mile trail....... GEEEEZZZZ Louise..... <BR> <BR> I have never done 4 miles at the same time..... <BR> I made it though...... I jogged and walked the whole 4 miles and I feel great..... <BR> <BR> However my legs and back feel it too!!!!!! LOL <BR> <BR> My instructor is quite the tough cookie, but I have much respect for her..... <BR> My first ... Wed, 17 Jun 2009 21:52:31 EST Boot Camp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2153842 Okay so forgive me for the crazy blog earlier.... bloggin at work isn't always the greatest, but it was sure funny reading it later with all the repeating.....lol <BR> <BR> Anywhoooooooo...... <BR> <BR> Today was the first day of boot camp and I made it through the whole 45 minutes w/out falling out. I'm estatic, but in much pain. I sweated.... sweated.... and then I sweated some more..... <BR> <BR> It was worth it!!!!! There were about 6 friends from my church there and it made it even... Mon, 15 Jun 2009 21:30:17 EST Oh.... Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2151625 So, today marks the first day that I will be going to my new boot camp training class. <BR> I am nervous , but pumped. I went to my orientation yesterday and the drill instructor "ain't" no joke. Forgive the incorrect grammar.... lol I am excited about this change, <BR> but the food that I am instructed to eat....hmmmmm Looks like I'll have to be responsible in every way, because we have to track everything we eat including the times we eat it....... <BR> <BR> Well the training is for 45... Mon, 15 Jun 2009 08:43:17 EST Overwhelmed....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2118621 Okay, so I haven't been able to blog. I've been too tired, but I haven't left. I finally got the play out of the way and this bridal shower event that I was planning is now done. I am in 2 weddings this month and 1 wedding next month. It's been consuming my life and I am extremely tired. I am trying to find time for me somewhere in the middle, but it is not working. <BR> That's okay some how I am going to work this out, so I can stay focused on the task at hand. <BR> " My Weight Loss Jour... Wed, 3 Jun 2009 07:18:46 EST Journal Entry - 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2080377 Today was a rough day. I barely got to eat because I had so much work on my hands I will balance this thing out tomorrow.... <BR> <BR> Starving yourself whether on purpose or like my case an accident is never the way.... <BR> <BR> Wed, 20 May 2009 23:22:37 EST Journal Entry 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2074608 It's a new day! Last night was a little shaky, but I survived it with much help. THANK YOU FAMILY 4 UR SUPPORT!!!!! I could not ask for a better support system. Yesterday's biggest accomplishment was not going into the fridge right after that zipper broke..... It wasn't easy, but I made it through. A victory that seemed so small was so huge for me!!!! <BR> <BR> My goal for today, is simply to stay positive. <BR> Get some workout time in. <BR> Water...Water...Water...Water...Water...<BR>W... Tue, 19 May 2009 08:49:09 EST Embarrassing Moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2073659 Okay, so I am in this play and it's a really nice size production so to speak. Tonight we had to try on wardrobe and the dress for one of my scenes could not fit and they were unable to get the zipper up. As a matter of fact part of the zipper broke off. The great part is that no one made me feel unconfortable, but I felt so sad within myself. The whole ride home I battled in my mind whether to go straight to the gym and work out until I couldn't or just go home and eat something just to ... Mon, 18 May 2009 21:49:27 EST Accountability - Journal Entry 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2072353 Yesterday, wasn't too bad and I'm excited. No, I didn't fully reach yesterday's goal but I did however accomplish some. <BR> <BR> Today's Goal: <BR> <BR> Drink water (8 glasses) <BR> 2 Veggies w/ dinner <BR> Stay within Caloric Intake <BR> <BR> Check out results later..... Love you all..... Thanks for your support. <BR> <BR> Okay so I have mid-day update, because I am so excited. <BR> I have had breakfast, lunch and 2 snacks so far today. Do you know I have only used a little over 500 ca... Mon, 18 May 2009 13:43:17 EST Accountability- Journal Entry 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2068694 Today marks the first day of my "focused" journey into my life change. I am without excuses from this point forward and I am making myself accountable. So I decided to use my blog as a public journal to make myself accountable for my own eating habits. I can talk all day long and receive the greatest of encouragement through the many faces I've met here, but the only thing is I have to muster up the will power to walk it out on a daily basis. Knowing that there will be days that are not a... Sun, 17 May 2009 09:11:19 EST Falling off and Feeling Sad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1598632 The worst experience ever. I am trying so hard to stay motivated to get this weight off and it seems like nothing is working. I have falling off the train and feeling unmotivated to pull myself out of the pit I've fell in. I went shopping yesterday due to the cold weather and I just wanted to grab a few pieces. Everything I tried on looked so bad and I became so disgusted and I still am. I don't know what kind of approach to take with losing this weight and it seems that all I've tried ... 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