LIVE_AMAZINGLY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LIVE%5FAMAZINGLY LIVE_AMAZINGLY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Time to Pull Myself Together And Change Things... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668233 It's always an intense struggle trying to get up the energy to do most anything with all my various health issues and the EXHAUSTION they bring. But, lately it has even been harder. I have been deep in depression from the issues going on with my health, and the issues going on with Chuck's health (his: atrial and ventricular tachycardia, as well as paroxismal tachycardia (basically meaning short lived spells of severe tachycardia), as well as his diagnosis in December of an abdominal aortic a... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 12:35:05 EST Going to God Someday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667581 As per my recent dream, I think a LOT about what I seen in my dream. And, I think about the wonder waiting ‘out there’ when I pass away. I truly believe we aren’t going to be ‘sitting on some cloud’ somewhere. No. With all the wonders in this universe, and others, I do believe the life after this one will be wondrous! <BR> <BR> Here’s some pics I picked up today that express the wonder I think I will feel when I ‘go to the other side’. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/n... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 17:45:26 EST Why A Person Sleeps So Much Better When They Eat A High-Carb Meal for Their Last Meal of the Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663752 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1429062561.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Eating protein anywhere near bedtime causes an awakening/energizing effect. But, as Dr. Oz has explained, eating straight carbs 2-4 hours before bedtime raises serotonin, which then raises melatonin, and off you are to lullaby land. But, if you eat ANY protein with those carbs the protein stops the serotonin from getting across the blood/brain barrier, and instead of going to the brain to make the melatonin it jus... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 19:37:07 EST Gotta Love North Dakota!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661176 This morning I stepped out my door expecting a couple of inches of snow. But the snow was 15 inches up on the door, and the drifts were several feet high. Course our total amount of snowfall was 11 inches, but it does tend to pile up. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> Around the house, around the cars etc. So, yeah, just when we thought winter was gone, it came back with a vengeance! I cannot get the car out. But, I am happy as a clam in my nice, warm, cosy house. <BR> <BR> I've never let Mocha ou... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 20:46:32 EST What Is Going On?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660172 The Life-Flight helicopter has made more runs to our small town this month than ever in the history of the town that I know of. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1167988525.jpg"> <BR> <BR> These are the approximate dates it arrived: <BR> <BR> March 4th <BR> March 5th <BR> March 6th <BR> March 12th <BR> March 26th <BR> March 28th - in the morning. <BR> March 28th - in the afternoon. <BR> March 30th - in the afternoon. <BR> March 30th - another one at 5:15 pm! (The 9t... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 17:11:08 EST A Good Day After All http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659552 I woke up at 6 am this morning with my heart feeling all weak and a'flutter, as though it might give out on me. Laying on my left side I could feel it fluttering against my ribs. I experience this feeling quite often, and it is a very disconcerting feeling. Always wondering, "if these are my final moments?". (Mocha must sense when my heart is funky too, as he was clingy again this morning... But, it only lasted a few minutes, unlike Thursday, when he wouldn't let me out of his sight all day.)... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 20:07:48 EST Was It A Dream? Or Was It A ‘Near-Death’ Experience? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658795 Wednesday night I had what I thought was a dream, but then yesterday after I got up I wasn’t so sure. During my ‘dream’ I had the utmost fantastically wonderful experience, but after I got up I felt absolutely rotton. My lungs were rattling with fluid, my heart felt terrible, I felt like vomiting, and just overall I totally felt wretched. And, from the time I woke up, and all day long, my little dog Mocha stuck to me like glue. I literally could not leave his sight. He gets like this if I hav... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 17:26:55 EST Can’t Trust My ‘Picker’ (you probably don’t want to read this…) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657053 {You probably don‘t want to read this. It is long. And it is just me working through my feelings so I can go forward without carrying this stuff… And, yet so I don‘t ‘forget‘ and make the same mistake over again.} <BR> <BR> This morning I was grumpy with my dogs. Nothing extreme. Just grumpy. But, this is unlike me. Normally I am very patient with my dogs. After my 2nd grouch, my 11 year old dog jumped up and slapped the side of my leg with his paw in chastisement, as if to say, “What the h... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 13:22:52 EST OMG! Chuck's Ears Should Be Burn'n!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655748 I went to an event tonight, and what was said to me tonight - and then what I had to say - Chuck's ears should'a been burn'n!!! Like on fire! <BR> <BR> Holy cr@polla, did I learn some things! I am shocked! (But really shouldn't have been, cause after all, know Chuck...) I am really surprised Chuck has held his job all these years! <BR> <BR> I am on my kindle right now, but tomorrow I will be on my computer. And, I need to get a bunch of stuff 'off my chest'. I'll keep it tactful, but this... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 22:05:15 EST Taking The Easy Way… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654755 All these past 14 years since I was ‘sent home to die’, I have been constantly studying and searching for information about my illnesses, and ways to manage them and stay alive. <BR> <BR> Well, that has been kinda changing since I got my Kindle. I have become rather obsessed with it. I love, love, LOVE it! <BR> <BR> But, the thing with most of the FREE Kindle books, is that they are lighter material. Even the heavier material isn’t usually the kind of ‘heavy study’ that I have been used to... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 17:52:43 EST Doctors Euthanize Patients at Katrina - And, Local Medical Stories… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652519 This is a follow-up blog. In my previous blog I spoke about Ann, who died of hyperthyroidism because she was poor and could not obtain the necessary medical care for it. And, so this vibrant, personable woman died young. Almost nobody now days dies of this; there is no excuse for dying of this disease in America! She died because the poor, the mentally ill, and others on the lower rungs of our society are considered ‘disposable’ by our society, and certainly from medical professionals! I am r... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 14:38:38 EST March Has Been A Real Killer! - Chuck Ain't Doing So Good Either. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652495 The first week of March the air ambulance helicopter came into our little town 3 days in a row, and then several days ago it was here again. Every time I hear it, and feel the winds it kicks up as it passes over in its slow decline towards the helipad, I get the heebie-jeebies. I wonder whose life hangs in the balance, or who is losing their life. And I also think about the fragility of my own life. <BR> <BR> &#9734;´¯) ¸.&#9734;´¯) <BR> (¸&#9734;´ (¸.&#9829;´´¯`•.¸¸.&#9734; <BR> <BR> A ... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 14:15:01 EST And My World Almost Shifted On It’s Axis… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648604 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2096919169.jpg"> <BR> <BR> CAUTION: Heavy reading. Do not read if you are sensitive or easily triggered. <BR> <BR> Last night there was a terrible storm (in this house) that almost changed lives forever. <BR> <BR> Yesterday Chuck and I were to go to the city for shopping for supplies for the house. Right away in the morning - before we even left - I was discussing something with him, and he started yelling at me. I asked him a couple of ... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 18:30:45 EST Today Has Been A Day From... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647236 Today has been a day from H#LL! <BR> <BR> It all started last night. Not being able to go to sleep because after I went to bed I couldn't shut off my brain, and I laid there with all my inner hurts and pain going through my head and heart. Then I ended up reaching up too high when I went to move my CPAP hose out of the way, and instead I smacked my wrist HARD into to steel pole my CPAP hose hangs from. OW! OW! OW! I almost thought I fractured my wrist. But, thankfully I didn't. I debated ... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 20:34:01 EST Not Losing My Marbles!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646200 My scale was going to show a (gain) this week due to a few too many times misbehavin' the past week and a half. But, the last couple of days I have 'shaped up'. Still though, it looked like the scale was going to show a one-pound gain. <BR> <BR> Then yesterday I did 2.5 hours housework, and then went straight into a 35 minute workout that had me drenched in sweat by the end of it. <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed in, and actually show a loss of 4/10th of a pound! I am HAPPY! Sure, if I'd ... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 12:56:16 EST Procrastination - Sugar Binge Sets Heart Pounding! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644935 I procrastinated paying my bills later than usual this month. I just hate figuring out what the charges are for on my credit cards, and I won’t pay until I know what they are for. On rare occasion I have gotton over-charged. <BR> <BR> This month everything fell into place pretty smoothly. But, to help me out for future months I have put together a smoother system for keeping tally of what I charge, where, and what amounts. So, I can just run down the tally, and all should go smooth, except ... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 23:33:40 EST A Really Wonderful Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643202 I was going to exercise today, but instead I spent the day reading a really good book on my Kindle, then giving a review for it, then buying more books for my Kindle (after first obsessively reading reviews for the books I was interested in… LOL). So, in all of this I spent 5 hours laying on my backside. It felt like a wonderful vacation!!! <BR> <BR> I never just lay back. Oh, I do spend a lot of time in my recliner, but even then I am working on something ‘meaningful’ or studying something... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 22:01:07 EST Looking Forward to Seeing My Wrinkles Again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642392 The swellings over my eyes increased more yesterday, but I know now that the swelling is starting to go down, even though my eyes are still very swollen (above my eyes). Cause at the outer corners of my eyes I am starting to see my wrinkles again for the first time in awhile. So, I am sure that with THIS reduction in swelling, the other swelling will soon go down also (BUT WILL PROBABLY HAVE WAY MORE WRINKLES DUE TO THE STRETCHING THE SKIN WENT THROUGH). I never had many wrinkles due to never... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 19:05:30 EST Some Days The World Ain't Nice! LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641423 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l273838807.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l418738896.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l677999300.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l635741510.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l716384322.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1683188117.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://phot... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 13:32:39 EST Looked Like I Had Done 2 Rounds With Ali http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640892 Well, I got up this morning, and seen my face, and seen I looked like I had ‘a serious allergic reaction‘, though I hadn’t. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l751694529.jpg"> <BR> Mine is actually much more swollen than this woman's. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2070377091.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I knew what I needed to change the way my face is, but I wanted the doctor to SEE it first, and document it in their files, so that never... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 23:05:13 EST Life Is CrAzY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639895 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l524347851.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am going from 63, to 90 years old in a hurry! Well, maybe from 63 to 70, but really fast. First all those wrinkles I had been avoiding (due to rapid skin cell turnover from being ‘supposedly’ hyperthyroid - very suppressed TSH but normal FT3, with abnormally low FT4, which by the way indicates hypothyroid, not hyperthyroid), well, those wrinkles are coming on fast. My face muscles are rapidly getting lax, parts o... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 21:34:45 EST (Temporarily) Lost My Way - 5 Days Was Enough! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638993 With what has been going on over at Amazon, all the stress from it, and a week of not sleeping well due to it; well, I fell off course, and have been dealing with it with quite a bit of dark chocolate (500-600 calories a day of it) (but thankfully I did NOT head back to the Pepsi, or other sweets). I have though, for the last two days, had a liverwurst sandwich each day (something that is NOT on my plan). <BR> <BR> I have seen my weight stall out, and slightly inch upward the last couple of ... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 21:42:17 EST Amazon Also “The Wild, Wild Web” - Not Just Facebook! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638031 Seventeen days ago I posted a negative review on a book over at Amazon.com. Well, the author wants me to retract my negative review, and since I refused, for the past 14 days I have gotten 1-2 nasty, dirty name calling commentaries a day from her, demanding I retract my review (a total of 18 nasty messages as of this evening). And, apparently determined to keep up her vicious attacks until I retract my review, which I am not going to be harassed into doing. But, she has used every low-down ta... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 21:02:04 EST Acidosis: Types, Symptoms, & Information. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635615 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l728114498.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Picture shows symptoms as: <BR> * Central: Headache, Sleepiness, Confusion, Loss of Consciousness, Coma. <BR> * Muscular: Seizures, Weakness. <BR> * Intestinal: Diarrhea. <BR> * Respiratory: Shortness of Breath, Coughing. <BR> * Heart: Arrythmia, Increased Heart Rate. <BR> * Gastric: Nausea, Vomiting. <BR> <BR> <link>www.lookfordiagnosis.com/faq.php?ter<BR>m=Acidosis%2C+Lactic&lang=1 </link> <BR> <BR> * Symp... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 22:12:25 EST Changes, Progress & Updates: A Month In Review. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635614 During this last few weeks I have been trying to stay inside (out of the bitterly cold temps), and use the ‘opportunity’ to work on making changes in my life where I can. <BR> <BR> In the past 7 days I have not left the house AT ALL! I am having a bit of cabin fever over it, but whenever I think I will give into the desire to go out and about, I think about the pain I experience for hours and hours after being exposed to the bitterly cold temps (due to neuropathy). And, so I then get very ha... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 22:10:37 EST The Grim Reaper Is Knocking Loudly On My Door! I’m NOT Ready! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630199 In November 1999 - 14 years ago - I developed Congestive Heart Failure (CHF), and wasn’t expected to live long. I fought for life. Many times over these years I thought I would lose that fight, but I kept fighting. <BR> <BR> Statistically, 50% of persons diagnosed with CHF die within 5 years; only 20% live beyond 10 years. I really like being in that special group! Duh! <BR> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Well, 14 years ago the doctors lied to me about the facts, and I had to get my medical reco... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 14:49:37 EST Train On The Tracks… Train Wreck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625939 When I learned my bad news January 22nd, in my weak moment I leaned on Chuck for emotional support. And, since then I am sorry did. If he thinks I am ‘vulnerable’ to his shenanigan’s again, he is dead wrong. I will still stand up vigorously against his cr@p! <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> In the (4) days since (Febuary 12th) when I found that Chuck had the open gas can back in the garage (again), and insisted he remove it from the garage, I hav... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 22:36:04 EST OMG! My Mouth Got Totally Away From Me! --- Thyroidectomy In My Near Future. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5624892 First let me explain… I have very HYPERthyroid the past 7 years due to having to have my TSH very suppressed with medication, to try to avoid thyroid cancer. With that level of TSH suppression, my heart beats VERY HARD, even though my BP is normal, and usually my pulse is normal too. BUT, add any stress - or caffeine - and my heart pumps so extremely hard that it feels like a vise around my heart, to the point I am left rather breathless. <BR> <BR> Another thing that being HYPERthyroid doe... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 15:42:29 EST 5 Issues; Mostly Good... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623471 1) I have literally been being 'gassed' all winter. To explain... 2 winters ago I was feeling ill for a long time, and then I started smelling gasoline. I discovered that Chuck had an uncapped can of gasoline in the garage (because he had lost the cap). <BR> <BR> Any fumes that are in the garage, come into my bedroom that is next to the garage, and into the kitchen, which is also next to the garage. From what I have learned, the pressure difference between the house and the garage causes the... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 21:26:27 EST Butchered AGAIN By A Local Hairdresser! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622531 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l342566228.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have been upset the last few days after *another* bad haircut - after I had explained thoroughly to her about how I wanted my hair. I told her not to take any off the top, cause getting it short causes my cowlicks to take over, and it then looks like I have a toupe on top my head. It literally looks like I have 2 or 3 different haircuts going on at once. They are doing some really freeky haircuts on me: the top i... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 18:52:45 EST Adrenal Testing /// Reasonable Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619592 I forgot about this when I blogged yesterday: the first 10 days of my reduced carb diet, my ALS-Like Syndrome *really* intensified. My muscles constantly felt like I had just ran a marathon with my legs, and had just done 3 rounds of weight lifting with my arms. Even at rest my muscles just constantly felt completely depleted and exhausted. Doing my hair or makeup was almost more than my arm muscles could cope with, so I only did my hair a couple of times in those 10 days, and my makeup once.... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 16:27:06 EST It’s Been Total H#LL Since I Have Been On My Diet! ----- Weigh-Ins. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5618872 It’s Been Total H#LL Since I Have Been On My Diet <BR> <BR> I have been going through hell pretty much since I started my diet. I certainly have blamed the diet for the near continuous *massive* headaches I have had almost every day since I started the diet. <BR> <BR> From about the 15th of January I had given up eating my usual supply of sweets and 2 cans of Pepsi every day, but was still going out twice a week and having several Pepsi + either an ice cream sundae or a package of 2 marshma... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 18:47:19 EST Normal vs. Ideal Blood Sugars http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613289 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/7/l374303186.jpg"> <BR> If your sugar is high you may end up seeing things as blurry as the gal shows in the background. <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> Normal vs. Ideal Postprandial Blood Sugars <BR> <BR> <link>www.phlaunt.com/diabetes/16422495.ph<BR>p </link> <BR> <BR> (part of article) <BR> Fasting blood sugar (FBS) measures blood glucose after you have not eaten for at least 8 hour... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 18:17:08 EST ALS Caused From Statins! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612267 ALS Caused From Statins: Also As a Cause of: Neuropathy, Myopathy, Multiple Sclerosis (MS), Muscular Dystrophy, Parkinson's Disease, Huntington's Chorea, & Alzheimer's Disease. {Imagine ONE class of drugs causing ALL these diseases!}. It's documented on Medwatch when they put the figures together (which doctors don't do). But, the FDA, doctors, and the whole medical system prefers to live in denial! And, they continue to 'push' the very financially lucrative drugs! <BR> <BR> Also statins are... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 16:10:40 EST Success Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610348 Last night I went to bed at 10 pm and instantly fell asleep (being I only had 4 hours sleep the night before). And, I slept until 8:30 this morning, when I got up to get ready to go to Red Hats. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1250486697.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Before I went to Red Hats I ate about 2 ounces of turkey, a whole package of broccoli (steamed), 2 tsp of olive oil, a banana, and ONE piece of dark chocolate. And, ya know what? I wasn’t even tempted to eat all... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 15:27:03 EST I Hope Today Was The First Day of An Extended Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609595 Today I was determined to get on a path to really seriously knocking down the inflammation in my body, so I can stay on this side of terra 'ferma. Only problem was that I was going to the city, would be eating on the run, getting food from fast food places, and tempted by sodas & ice cream sundaes. <BR> <BR> But, I was determined... So, I ate a healthy breakfast. Then late afternoon I got a grilled chicken sub on wheat at Subway; with lots of vege's, and NO mayo or dressings. No soda or any ... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 20:34:28 EST Analytical Artist ----- More Bad Medical News. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608436 I have two very different and distinct sides to me. One I am a very analytical thinker and problem solver. Two, I am an artistic type and often sort through my issues with artistic means or pictures. The pictures below are my way of sorting through my feelings of the past 6 days, and coming to term with things. The pictures symbolize where I have been, and what I am trying to pull out of. And, I have been starting to pull out of it. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l68... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 17:19:23 EST A Visual http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606324 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l441381583.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2038408452.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1319151654.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l188065115.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1372809635.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1269540904.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://p... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 16:11:52 EST Depression http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605963 I got that bad medical news on January 22nd, and ever since then I have not been sleeping well. The first night I had intense anxiety - really terrible. Then nightmares when I did get to sleep. The nightmares went on Wednesday and Thursday night, then dissappaited; then went into all-out depression. The depression makes it hard for me to go to sleep; hard for me to stay asleep; and then I wake after just a few hours sleep and just lie there depressed. So, this morning I decided not to stay in... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 09:22:22 EST Still Not Really Up to Talking… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605520 I appreciate the support I have been getting since I announced I got bad medical news. Regrettably the timing of that news also came at a time of a lot of negative stuff going on here, so it doubly made it difficult for me to cope with my medical news… <BR> <BR> I am still not coping well with the news. I am kinda getting over the anger phase (I had been really enraged), but I’m still in the shock phase, and the emotional pain phase. I just don’t even want to deal with it, yet my way of hand... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 18:09:05 EST Bullies Behind Keyboards http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601701 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1017129012.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2025712005.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Most people are nice. Some are bullies. Bullies are actually cowards who really don't think very well of themselves. That's why they try to bring others down - to try to build themselves up; so... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 21:32:04 EST He *IS* A Stubborn, Willful, Dominant Dog! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601630 First… I went back up on my Armour Thyroid, and feel much better today than yesterday. Almost like night and day… <BR> <BR> Second: I just got home from uptown. It is *bitterly* cold out there! <BR> <BR> Third: In July I returned a bunch of bottles of supplements to Life Extension .org. They said they would apply part of the credit back onto my credit card, and carry almost $92 as a credit at their site (as product refund) plus $25 as membership credit. I was a bit concerned about that as... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 20:27:21 EST Hypo/Hyper - Thyroid / Doctor’s of NO Help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600526 :~*~:. .:~*~: ..:~*~: <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2002807174.jpg"> :~*~:. .:~*~: ..:~*~: <BR> <BR> I started on Armour Thyroid in May of 2008. And, for the first time since I developed thyroid disease (in the early 80's) and was on Synthroid (garbage) all those years (and felt like cr#p), well Armour made me feel alive. My muscle pains even went away! <BR> <BR> One thing I did notice pretty quickly with having my TSH (so) suppressed is that my exhaustion levels g... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 19:58:06 EST Mistakes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600329 If we learn by our mistakes, I am working on one hell of an education. <BR> <em>246</em> Mon, 20 Jan 2014 16:21:45 EST Names. A Facination of Mine. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599214 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l306080214.jpg"> <BR> <BR> GUILTY! Of spending a whole lot of my day playing with this. <BR> <BR> I like names. Always have. They fascinate me. So, I googled for the most popular names of men and women. Well, to be honest, I first started out to see how high the ranking of the name I chose to use for my husband in my blogs. I figured it would be WAY up there. And it is kinda UP THERE; just not quite as high as I thought it’d be. So, I went ... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 17:38:11 EST Carylic Acid - Stress REALLY Flairs Candida! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598940 Yesterday, with the stress here, I learned how intensely that stress causes candida to take even a stronger hold. I thought I had noticed it before, but had attributed it to ‘coincidence’. Well, it isn’t just coincidence; stress DOES cause it to flair up bad. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l240625753.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Late in the afternoon I took my first capsule of Caprylic Acid. And not long after was feeling rather topsy-turby in my stomach. And then also got ... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 12:28:54 EST Malingering vs. Munchausen vs. Munchausen by Proxy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598162 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l285648215.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <link>en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Factitious_dis<BR>order </link> <BR> <BR> A factitious disorder is a condition in which a person acts as if they have an illness by deliberately producing, feigning, or exaggerating symptoms. Münchausen syndrome, is a severe form of factitious disorder. They might be motivated to perpetrate factitious ... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 15:56:15 EST He (Maybe) Behaved All of 15 Days (but covertly acting out in that time too)… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597972 ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> Last night I only got 6 hours sleep again. This time cause I was so ever-loving mad at Chuck. Cause the fight ensued right at bedtime. Course he really, REALLY likes when he can cause a ruckus at bedtime, cause his number one goal in life is to ‘submarine’ my quality of life, and me, in any and all ways that he can. <BR> <BR> His whole purpose in life all these years has been to so undermine me, undermine ... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 12:29:44 EST Candida: Zylitol, Olive Leaf Extract, Caprylic Acid - Rhodiola - Curcumin - Acidic Destroys Kidneys http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597366 The past 6 or 8 months in particular, my candida problem has REALLY taken over: with various rashes and athletes foot that NOTHING will control. Not even Tinactin; not even Tea Tree Oil. <BR> <BR> Well, about 10 days ago I started using one tsp of Zylitol on strawberries in the evening. And soon my candida rashes and athletes foot were going away. EVEN THOUGH I was still eating way too much sugar. <BR> <BR> Previously things did not go away even when I cut sugar for a few days, say up to 5... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 19:35:23 EST A Cowardly Dog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597021 Some people are like a cowardly dog; one who has to sneak up behind you and ‘bite’ you, because they are too cowardly to say anything straight to your face. <BR> <BR> They even twist what you have said into something else entirely. But, do they say anything directly to you? No. They sneak behind your back to say something. Cause they are just a cowardly dog. <BR> <BR> I have encountered such a man lately, though I wouldn’t call him much of a man. Bullies are cowards. And, I think he is a ... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 13:00:50 EST