LIVE_AMAZINGLY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LIVE%5FAMAZINGLY LIVE_AMAZINGLY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ In Serious Kidney Disease, & Maybe Cancer, Caused By Medication http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6143661 I was supposed to get an MRI scan of my kidneys done with Gadolinium contrast, but they were unable to use the contrast because of the seriousness of my health conditions, so they were unable to tell if the mass in my kidney is cancer. So, for that it will be "wait & watch / rescan later to see if it has grown. They did find that both kidneys are peppered with tiny cysts, which also thus puts me at much greater risk of kidney cancer, even if that mass isn't already cancer. <BR> <BR> It is up... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 15:56:12 EST Kidney Cancer? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6137237 For the past 3 years I have been in CKD. Recent tests showed significant worsening, so was sent for an ultrasound, which shows a mass on my left kidney. Doctor thinks it's cancer, especially since I have been having severe night sweats for about 6 weeks now. <BR> <BR> Being I have been facing death continually since November 1999 with my heart failure, I am pretty 'experienced' at dealing with it. Still, this has been hard. I am not ready to die yet, nor be instantly thrown into dialysis if ... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 15:08:54 EST Finally Learned How... Too Late. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6123136 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/1695821c-e6a7-44e7-93a9-460ebd5d1aef.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I finally found a diet that I can stick to and easily lose my excess weight. But, it is too late. I am going to die despite the changes I have made. Too little, too late. How many people have I seen here pass away after success? Because it is too little, too late... <BR> <BR> I wish I could have a "do-over" and put into practice much earlier the many things I've learned in life - not just a... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 20:42:59 EST Do Or Die - Stop 'Escaping' Into Obsessions (Written Thursday August 13, 2015) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978116 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Each night I can't go to sleep 'cause my hear... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 23:19:47 EST Translation of 'Psychopath Speech'... Funny if it weren't so true. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977447 WHEN A PSYCHOPATH SAYS, "I CAN SEE SOMETHING VERY SPECIAL IN YOU". <BR> Translation: "...that I can totally exploit for my needs." <BR> <BR> WHEN A PSYCHOPATH SAYS, "YOU ARE THE ONE I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE". <BR> Translation: "I'm lining you up as my next victim." <BR> <BR> WHEN A PSYCHOPATH SAYS, "YOU NEED ME". <BR> Translation: “I want you to feel so completely dependent and incompetent you have to ask my permission to take your next breath.” <BR> <BR> WHEN A PSYCHOPA... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 19:52:16 EST Heart A Mess: I Have Threatened to Sue Senior Center If Director Doesn't Put A Stop to The Abuse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969389 Since 1987 Chuck has done a smear campaign about me. The last 3 months a woman at Senior Center has spread it. I have been emotionally battered & physically threatened @ the center. I have threatened suit if director doesn’t put stop to it. Thu, 30 Jul 2015 20:41:26 EST Fantastic 5-Day Vacation Thanks to Compartmentalizing /// Boundary Violations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5959265 Chuck rented a cabin at the Bay starting Monday at noon July 6 through Friday noon July 10th. <BR> <BR> The ‘vacation’ was really fantastic baring a few bad times that I had to ‘compartmentalize’ (shut off from my mind / sweep things under the rug) in order to not have his behaviors ruin the vacation. (incidents described below…) <BR> <BR> PRIVATE Sat, 11 Jul 2015 21:26:22 EST Over-Reaction, Or Expected for 42 Yrs of Bad Water Under the Bridge? (I should have known better...) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946179 I need to write of this because I went from feeling really happy and really enjoying life, to depressed and having trouble sleeping due to this. So, I need to put it on paper to sort it out in my mind and make improvements to prevent this scenario again. <BR> <BR> But, first I will talk about the other aspects of my life… <BR> <BR> PRIVATE Tue, 16 Jun 2015 15:15:05 EST Love & Dedication. No Doggie Divorce or Euthanasia; Gotta Deal With This to The End http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938588 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last week Shatzi started breaking my slee... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 16:35:46 EST Last Nights Dream! (a real stunner) ---- A Fantastic Day Today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934801 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night (early this morning actually) I had... Tue, 26 May 2015 21:52:13 EST Weight GAIN! --- Chuck’s Sabotage… WHY? What’s He Up To? --- Journal Is GONE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934082 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Stats: <BR> <BR> ~~ I started LDN (at .75 mg)... Mon, 25 May 2015 16:43:54 EST It’s THAT Time of Year Again….. : - ( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927609 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I found the aluminum strainer & my good s... Wed, 13 May 2015 16:16:34 EST Looking At The Whole Picture http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5925122 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I can't keep going on the way I am. <BR> ... Sat, 9 May 2015 00:47:37 EST “You’re taking it all over town!” (Uh-huh) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924826 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I still am not doing so well today. I only go... Fri, 8 May 2015 12:39:42 EST Trying To Cope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924453 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Joyce was so insensitive about Mother's D... Thu, 7 May 2015 20:13:14 EST Something (Definitely) Doesn’t Smell Right… A lot has changed, yet NOTHING has. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923836 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> It has been 17 days since I wrote. A lot h... Wed, 6 May 2015 18:21:30 EST Chuck's Crazy-Making / Mocha Ate Paper AGAIN / Armand Part of Don's 'Stunt'… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914157 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Subjects Today: <BR> ~~ Crazy-Making convers... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 21:14:49 EST Things Were Going Fantastic & Then 5 Days Out of My Life Due to FOOD POISONING! Thanks Chuck! (NOT) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902460 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Sunday March 22 Chuck cooked a turkey from the... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 16:40:15 EST FEELING GOOD Ain't Easy! (LDN + Diet + Exercise + Other Lifestyle Changes) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885850 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I know for a fact that my life has dramatical... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 21:27:49 EST Finally Figuring Out My Burning Skin Causes (NOT Just One Thing) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885827 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Figuring Out My Burning Skin Causes <BR> <BR... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 20:44:49 EST My Life Has Keeps Getting Better & BETTER Since LDN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880729 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> *** I started LDN on Wednesday January 28, 20... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 19:48:23 EST Shatzi's Feb. 7th CURE Continues! Mocha Greatly Improved /// 5 Wks SLEEP Schedules (Too Little!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880689 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I am still allowing Shatzi access to coming i... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 18:27:08 EST Plastics Allergy (& Other Toxicity) /// Vege's Unfrozen & Put Back Into Freezer by "P" /// New Car http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880644 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I am sure now that my being so terribly sick ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 16:53:58 EST Eating Bad Feels Really, REALLY Bad On LDN (Severe Hangover Feeling If Eat Gluten) /// Mocha Issues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875809 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Yesterday at noon I had a 6 inch sub with che... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 19:45:54 EST Found "The Cure" For My Little Dog (Cured Since Sat. Feb. 7th !) /// Got Script Increase for LDN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875233 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Saterday Febuary 7 Chuck and I went to Bi... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 16:49:57 EST I Thought LDN Had Quit Working… Till I Missed ONE Night! /// 5000 K 1600 Lumen Natural Daylight Bulb http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874712 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I was getting tired’r and tired’r every day ... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 20:03:15 EST Talked To Pet Rescue Lady Again Today / Can’t Keep Going On Like This! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868232 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> SLEEP: <BR> <BR> Sunday Feb. 1, 2015 <BR> ... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 22:01:18 EST Results From LDN Increase --- Sleep --- Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867450 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night - January 31, 2015 - I increase... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 21:17:17 EST Success With LDN --- Shazti (is always good for a couple of days when ‘the hammer comes down') http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866124 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I got my package of Low-Dose Naltrexone 3... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 19:38:29 EST Will Probably Put Shatzi Down Before Too Long --- He's On 'Last Chance' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864757 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Round & round I have gone with Shatzi - fo... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 20:12:21 EST Woman in area with NO snow pooh-pooh's seriousness of E. coast storm. CRAZY huh?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864497 A woman who lives in an area with NO snow, & where the temps are nice, is ridiculing the seriousness being given to the East coast storm system. Has she ' lost touch with reality'?! Lives were at stake. But, I guess since hers is not at risk she can lob ridiculous statements. <BR> Wed, 28 Jan 2015 12:26:26 EST Progress w Exercise / Still Keeping New Sleep Hours / A Woman Isn’t Safe In A World Full of Men http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863180 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> The past couple of days I have finally st... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 18:35:19 EST Contacted Another Abuse Survivor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863177 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Today I wrote to another abuse survivor, ... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 18:33:10 EST LDN Should Be On It's Way! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861098 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Yesterday I got approved for 1.5 mg of Lo... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 16:46:32 EST Doctor's Appt. Went Good - Later Rage at Chuck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860596 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I convinced my GP to prescribe me LDN. But... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 22:09:55 EST Doctor's Appointment Tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859873 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. I h... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 21:54:32 EST Bad Night, Bad News Today, Really Bummed... Gotta Learn How to Change Things to 'Buy More Time' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858970 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Less than 5 hours sleep last night. Did pr... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 19:20:36 EST Exhaustion Is Taking Almost All Quality of Life! --- Out of the Blue, Chuck Suddely Yelling at Me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858306 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.c... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 22:08:48 EST Some Really Bizarre Dreams Lately! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857360 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night I took (1 mg Melatonin) at 10:5... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 19:33:53 EST Progress & Pitfalls --- What My Instincts Tell Me I Need to Do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856617 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/n... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 18:58:25 EST Step By Step, By Step; Making Positive Changes in My Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856017 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/n... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 20:12:00 EST Fasting Has Put My Body Into “Starvation Mode”. Changing Up A LOT of Things! --- Night-TimeTinnitis? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855145 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night I took (1 mg Melatonin) at 11 pm. ... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 15:28:37 EST When You Tell A Psychopath Anything You Are Only Helping Him ‘Sharpen His Game’ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854678 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Chuck and I aren’t having “THE ICE AGE” as we... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 22:58:12 EST Stats for January 13th Bedtime / Sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854606 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night I took (MELATONIN ONLY) at 11:45 p... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 21:27:57 EST Stats for January 12th Bedtime / Sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853897 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night I took a sleeping pill at 9:30 pm.... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 23:00:37 EST Stats for January 11th Bedtime / Sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852862 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night I took a sleeping pill at 9 pm. <... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 17:11:13 EST He Can’t Stand That I Am Sticking to My Diet! --- My Plans Going Forward. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851975 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night I took a sleeping pill at 10 pm... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 16:57:25 EST Sunday January 10, 2015 ---- I Must Go to Al-Anon to Learn How to Disengage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851245 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> * Last night: lights out at 12:15 am <BR... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 18:36:15 EST Really Pooped Today --- Gotta Turn Thermostat Up When Doing Low-Carb http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850446 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night: lights out at 1:30 am (I AM GOING ... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 15:36:21 EST ‘Fur Baby‘ Kisses --- Getting Full-Spectrum Lighting for Mood & Health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849871 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Last night: lights out at 1:20 am. <BR> To... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 22:46:34 EST