LIVE_AMAZINGLY's SparkPeople Blog LIVE_AMAZINGLY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Accomplishments, Misdeeds & Other Stuff #2 (¯`v´¯) &#9829;` One Step At A Time '&#9829; <BR> .`•.¸.•´ &#9829; In The Right Direction *`*•.¸¸.•&#9829; <BR> ¸.•´¸.•´¨) ¸.•*¨).•*´. &#9829;¸¸.•¨ Love Your Heart .•&#9829; <BR> (¸.•´ (¸.•´ .• •&#9829;¸¸.•¨¯`•.&#9829; Keep Loving Life &#9829; <BR> •&#9829; (¸.•´ <BR> (¯`v´¯) <BR> .`•.¸.•´ <BR> <BR> This are stats for yesterday… <BR> <BR> Accomplishments: <BR> ~ NO Activity - Just survived the day due to last nights sleep deprivation, and rebound of bronchitis <BR> . <BR> . <BR> ~ 3.5 ... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 16:46:58 EST Accomplishments, Misdeeds & Other Stuff #1 (¯`v´¯) &#9829;` One Step At A Time '&#9829; <BR> .`•.¸.•´ &#9829; In The Right Direction *`*•.¸¸.•&#9829; <BR> ¸.•´¸.•´¨) ¸.•*¨).•*´. &#9829;¸¸.•¨ Love Your Heart .•&#9829; <BR> (¸.•´ (¸.•´ .• •&#9829;¸¸.•¨¯`•.&#9829; Keep Loving Life &#9829; <BR> •&#9829; (¸.•´ <BR> (¯`v´¯) <BR> .`•.¸.•´ <BR> <BR> This are stats for yesterday… <BR> <BR> Accomplishments: <BR> ~ 30 minutes sorting books for thrift store donations <BR> ~ 65 minutes cleaning in kitchen <BR> ~ <BR> ~ 2 1/2 servings green... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 15:48:17 EST Lichenoid Keratosis / Acanthosis Nigricans / Candida / Metabolic Syndrome / Gluten Sensitivity I received the diagnosis of my lesion. It is not Melanoma. It is Lichenoid Keratosis, which often does have the appearance of Melanoma. <BR> <BR> It is sually caused by an inflammatory disorder or an autoimmune disorder. But, it can also be caused by lupus. Other possible causes of a Lichenoid reaction pattern could also be considered, such as Lichen Striatus, Keratosis Lichenoides Chronica, Lupus Erythematosus, Lichenoid drug eruption, Erythema Multiforme, and Mycosis Fungoides. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 14:59:42 EST Yesterday - Statin Damage & Mitochondral Disease Yesterday, even though it was a beautiful day outside, I just couldn't get moving. I realise I waste my time and my life piddling around accomplishing pretty much nothing. And, this is due too to my continual low-grade depression due to the circumstances in my life, as well as my severe health issues. I want to change the way I feel, but feel trapped in this cycle of trying to change things while being unable to do so. I know if my physical body were better, and I was able to do more, it woul... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 14:52:36 EST Early Winter? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We haven’t had much of a spring or summer. Much cooler temps than normal. We had a stretch of warmer weather that got into the mid-eighties, but other than that our weather has been mainly cooler. Then just recently we had days of rain - so much that the creek swelled out of it’s banks. That’s very unusual for around here. We haven’t even seen that in the spring for a few years. <BR> <BR> The weather man the other... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 18:37:45 EST New to Grillin’ & Lovin’ It! Today I went around town and took care of some financials. Then took myself out for lunch, and sat there with my kindle doing the ‘free book list’. <BR> <BR> Then went to the grocery store, and brought home some pork chops. This year I starting grilling for the first time in my life. The first time I grilled, I did it the way Chuck told me, which I guess wasn’t too brainy of me, since Chuck typically puts the heat so high that the outside is burnt and the inside might still not be fully coo... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 21:40:36 EST Biopsy --- Chuck's Rage Attack! On August 13th I had that severe burning sensation of scalp, head, neck, and chest. And, at the same time my lymph nodes swelled up, and my throat became painful. Then when I went and looked at my chest because it was burning so bad. And, that is when I noticed a growth under my right collar bone, and a white line running from one side of my upper chest, to the other side. Definitely weird. <BR> <BR> So, Friday I got in with a local NP, and she looked at it. She said she didn’t know what it ... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 22:36:00 EST Sicker - Melanoma? - Oil of Oregano - Macha - Coconut Palm Sugar My bronchitis is worse. Taking this long to get over it is normal for me. I will usually show signs that I am recovering, and then will relapse worse than ever, and then it will be a long slow haul to get over it. Sometimes (as in, usually) it takes a couple of months. Just in time for my (usual) time to get bronchitis… Yea Haw! <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> This illness started in a very strange way on August 13th. I was sitting at my computer, and suddenly my head, face, and neck felt rea... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 16:42:53 EST A Better Day Today I deleted the blog I put up at 2 in the morning. It served it’s purpose of ‘getting it out’ so I could have a chance of actually going to sleep after that. And, it also was in a place that I could easily ‘cut & paste’ it this morning into my computer journal (cause last night I typed it in from my kindle). <BR> <BR> I got up earlier than I expected this morning due to a dog needing to do his ‘duty‘. So, I got up, got ready and went to the Food Pantry. <BR> <BR> And, immediately upon getting... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 19:18:28 EST Woman Without An Address… No More! &#9734;´.•´ <BR> .•´&#10038;`*. <BR> *.*&#9733; <BR> . &#10038;•´ &#9734;´,•*´¨&#9733; <BR> ¸&#10038;.•´¸.•*´&#10038; <BR> &#9734;´¸.•&#9733;´ ¸.•`&#10038;* &#9734;´¸&#9733; <BR> .&#9733;´*&#12290;.&#9734;¨¯`*&#9733;¸.• One Step In The Right Direction! <BR> <BR> I got out of the house today. Took my kindle and went to Subway. Hate it though that they now ‘time out’ internet users after one hour. <BR> <BR> I’ve made arrangements to get my mail at a box by the house. Eleven years ago th... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 23:20:46 EST Wrong Hair Color AGAIN! <img src=""> <BR> I got my hair done on May 27. I wanted this color. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I got this color (the color at the bottom of the hair, not the top). <BR> <BR> Not a bad color at all. In fact it looked fantastic with my skin tone. Except it was NOT the color I requested. Still, I lived very happily with it... And, I enjoyed the color even as the darker color washed o... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 15:04:19 EST PCOS / Menopause / Insulin Resistance & Male Pattern Hair Loss in Women Who knew all the problems that insulin resistance could cause? <BR> <BR> When I was in my twenties, I didn’t even know I had insulin resistance. I knew I kept having miscarriages, and I developed multiple ovarian cysts, and eventually had one rupture and bleed internally, which necessitated ‘the big surgery’ (getting a hysterectomy and oophorectomy). So, since then I’ve gotton my hormones from prescription. Nobody told me that I actually had PCOS… That’s doctors for ‘ya! They also never told... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 21:52:51 EST Money &#9734;´.•´ <BR> .•´&#10038;`*. <BR> *.*&#9733; <BR> . &#10038;•´ &#9734;´,•*´¨&#9733; <BR> ¸&#10038;.•´¸.•*´&#10038; <BR> &#9734;´¸.•&#9733;´ ¸.•`&#10038;* &#9734;´¸&#9733; <BR> .&#9733;´*&#12290;.&#9734;¨¯ <BR> `*&#9733;¸.• <BR> <BR> Money! <BR> <BR> Money can’t buy happiness, but neither can poverty. <BR> ... Leo Rosten Wed, 13 Aug 2014 16:44:00 EST Heart Changes During Menopause <link><BR>gns-of-heart-changes-during-menopause/<BR>?xid=aol_eh-cardio_3_20140804_&aolcat=<BR>ESR&icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl35%7C<BR>sec1_lnk2%26pLid%3D510651 </link> <BR> <BR> Heart Changes During Menopause <BR> <BR> (part of article) <BR> <BR> High blood pressure: When estrogen levels drop, your heart and blood vessels become stiff and less elastic. Because of these changes, your blood pressure tends to rise. Elevated blood pressure can place ad... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 15:43:04 EST Love This Pic! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Imagine taking a nice long day trip down this path, and seeing where it leads you... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 18:07:38 EST The Right Temperature for Productivity &#9734;´.•´ <BR> .•´&#10038;`*. <BR> *.*&#9733; <BR> . &#10038;•´ &#9734;´,•*´¨&#9733; <BR> ¸&#10038;.•´¸.•*´&#10038; <BR> &#9734;´¸.•&#9733;´ ¸.•`&#10038;* &#9734;´¸&#9733; <BR> .&#9733;´*&#12290;.&#9734;¨¯`*&#9733;¸.• <BR> <BR> The Right Temperature for Productivity <BR> <BR> The right temperature can actually increase or decrease your productivity. According to Cornell research, the magic number is 77 degrees Fahrenheit, allowing you to be perfectly comfortable and focused on the ... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 16:02:35 EST Relief! Chuck went back to work today after 2 weeks vacation (which made my life very stressful). It has been such a relief to have him back to work that I actually feel 'energized'. It takes a whole lot for me to feel 'energized', but his going back to work did it for me! <BR> <BR> What a total relief! <BR> <em>334</em> Mon, 28 Jul 2014 22:05:02 EST My Depression --- Surprisingly Chuck's Mother Aged VERY Rapidly After Her Mean Husband Died... Why? QUOTE: Change The Way You Look At Things And The Things You Look At Change <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> I wonder if it is possible to really bring myself into looking at things differently when I am married to a ‘monster’? Can someone see the sun when their face is in the dirt? How much really can an abused woman really change her mental status when she is still being abused? <BR> <BR> I try, but I spend so much time in de... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 21:09:52 EST 5-HTP --- Nightmare From H#LL!!! --- Dog P** Everywhere --- Chuck on Vacation : - ( To start knocking the sugar cravings, and to lessen my depression, Sunday evening I took my first dose of 5-HTP. Well, I know that 5-HTP acts like a mild antidepressant, but I forgot that antidepressants really negatively affect my sleep, making my sleep really light, and more like ‘dosing’. And also, later in my sleep cycles I then have lots of nightmares. Well, ONE 50 mg capsule seemed to have that effect on me. I went to bed so dragged out exhausted (another effect of antidepressants or an... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 20:03:45 EST I Joined Him In My Destruction of Me! THIS *IS* GONNA STOP!!! For the past week I have joined Chuck in the destruction of my health! How have I done that? Well, it is summer ‘h#ll’ with him around a lot more, and summer is the time that it is really hard to bear him. And, he is now starting his vacation, which just makes things worse. Like, usually his vacations mean I really, REALLY go through H#LL! <BR> <BR> And so, I have been ‘eating my stress’ for awhile now. But, up till the past week I was actually trying to control how much damage I did. But, t... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 22:42:03 EST Woman Homeless For 8 Years Becomes Nanny From H#LL --- Husband Pushes Wife Off Cliff! <link><BR>eacher-goes-on-trial-in-wifes-cliff-push </link> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This link just goes to show the ridiculousness of people. First off, what couple in their right minds would hire someone who has been homeless for 8 years? Cause someone homeless that long either has serious mental or physical issues that have kept them from working. It was learned - after the fact - that sh... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 18:50:30 EST It’s War Time - With You-Know-Who! Quote: <BR> <BR> The fact of the matter is, when we look in the mirror, the person that looks back at you holds the key to your beginning and to your demise. <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Well, last evening I went for a 45 minute bike ride. The evening was really beautiful. Chuck had gone to some event, so I really felt safe leaving. And so, I really enjoyed the bike ride. <BR> <BR> I guess I should have paid attenti... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 14:03:42 EST Botox for Relief of Depression! --- When You Bully & Hurt Others, You Lessen Who YOU Are. Quote for Today: <BR> Don’t expect anything from anybody, and you won’t be disappointed. <BR> <BR> Get it? <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> There is a certain freedom from ‘disconnecting’. No more time spent encouraging others as I have done for years. No more expecting some support back myself (which I haven’t had for a very long time), no more of those meaningless little icons with no words attac... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 20:28:09 EST Quotes From Abused Women --- Depressed & Sleep Deprived --- New Gaslighting Quotes From Battered Women: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ~ I leave the house. I don’t look at anyone. I keep my head down, tail between my legs. He has scored another victory. <BR> <BR> ~ My head throbbed. I wanted someone to care, but nobody else was there, so I wanted him. He inflicted the wound, yet I wanted him. <BR> <BR> ~ I'm a chained soul. But when you’ve been chained for so long, you fear being free. You find comfort in ... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 17:18:08 EST Obit: Life Full of Schemes - No Funeral for HIM! <link><BR>schemes-scams-sends-canadian-1D79902562 </link> <BR> <BR> This was funny. I think if my husband dies before me, that I will do something like this. And boy, would I have a LOT to say! <BR> <BR> I actually want to arrange to have his body donated to science, so there would not be the expense of a funeral. Still, most people that do that, have a service and luncheon (reception). But, I don’t think I would do even that. I don’t think I would eve... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 20:20:42 EST Emergency Vet for My Dog --- Remembering 'HIS' Past Evil Deeds! Quote: <BR> How do you get to be that person who is just completely indifferent to what everyone around you is saying? You get to be that person if you have been through the absolute worst the world could throw at you, and you come out fine. <BR> by Malcolm Gladwell <BR> <BR> Quote: <BR> CAGED: The cage shakes violently. Seed and water split. The bird is singing, was singing, is dead. Fragments of claw. A broken body. Soul. The cage is placed on the wooden table. I am the bird. <BR> by a Bat... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 16:12:51 EST War of the Bacteria: Shatzi Feeling Better... My Candida Quote for Today: <BR> To succeed… You need to find something to hold on to, something to motivate you, something to inspire you. <BR> by Tony Dorsett <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Thankfully, my little dog seems to be over his illness. Which means I should have gotton a good nights sleep last night, but over the last few days I have fallen into such a deep depression, and now sleep evades me. Yes, severe depression can make ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 15:36:22 EST Something Stinks! My Health Deterioration Last Winter & Now Shatzi Sick Since July 3 Quote for Today: The only way around is through. <BR> By Robert Frost <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> I was up twice again last night to clean up the mess in the laundry room from my dog having diarrhea. Yes, it broke my sleep up twice, and left me still extremely sleep deprived - especially after 3 nights of this. But, I am thankful that the past 2 nights have not been even close to as bad as the first night (which was OMG horribl... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 20:48:13 EST I Have Been SUMMONED By Mr. 4-Paws! Today’s Quote: <BR> <BR> Winning is not a sometime thing; it’s an all time thing. You don’t win once in a while, you don’t do things right once in a while, you do them right all the time. Winning is a habit. Unfortunately, so is losing. <BR> By Vince Lombardi <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Last night nothing tuned out the noise from the huge amount of fireworks, but my dogs seem to be adjusting better to it. My old dog is st... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 18:52:02 EST Fireworks & My Dogs My young dog gets 'depressed' and very tremble each evening when the fireworks are going off. I have been sending him downstairs during the worst of it because he gets so stressed out that it sets off some mild seizure activity in him. <BR> <BR> My older dog usually gets diarrhea at least one night during this time of year. Well, last night he had diarrhea, was vomiting, and peed all over my laundry room. I was up at 3 am cleaning my whole laundry room (washed it down 3 times). Then at 5 am ... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 13:50:34 EST Lost 10 lb!!! --- In Training for Long Bike Ride & Hill ~ ~ ~ TRY ~ AGAIN ~ THIS ~ IS ~ YOUR ~ MOMENT ~ OWN ~ IT ~ ~ ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Woo! Hoo! I have reached 10 pounds off. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This time I plan on keeping it off. I need to learn to look at this as ‘a life-style’ and not something I can go on and off of. I realize I will need a change of mind-set, and learn that I need to live within reasonable mea... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 12:57:09 EST Lucid Dreams Every Night! --- Exercise etc. ~ SUCCESS ~ TO ~ SPEND ~ YOUR ~ LIFE ~ IN ~ YOUR ~ OWN ~ WAY ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> I really surprised myself yesterday. With the 45 minutes gardening before breakfast, then a 23 minute (aerobic) walk with the dogs, and then a 48 minute (aerobic) bike ride, well, I did 1 hour, 56 minutes exercise yesterday!!! Yep, I went from almost no exercise, to that! <BR> <BR> Surprisingly, my muscles handled the exercise quite well.... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 13:04:22 EST Mountain Air… in North Dakota? ~ YOU ~ CAN’T ~ BEAT ~ THE ~ PERSON ~ WHO ~ DOESN’T ~ GIVE ~ UP ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> The last 2 days the air has had a very ‘green’ odor, as though the smell of grass clippings or from LOTS of pollen in the air. I suspect it was from pollen, as yesterday it was making me ‘sneezy’, so I had to close my windows in the afternoon. Our days lately have been (quite) breezy, so I guess it is blowing a lot of stuff around. In fa... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 18:42:31 EST Reading Fantastic Book! - My General Life ~ SHOW ~ UP ~ IN ~ YOUR ~ OWN ~ LIFE ~ EVERY ~ SINGLE ~ DAY ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Ahhh, yesterday. I had great plans to do a bunch of housework, but oh, I was reading a really good murder mystery, and couldn’t put it down. I did get on my exercise bike for 35 minutes while I read. I would have done more, but my body doesn’t cooperate with a lot of physical activity. So, I had to be happy with what little I did. <BR> <... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 17:54:13 EST My Boring Days... But, Intense Dreams at Night! ~ IF ~ YOU ~ FELL ~ DOWN ~ YESTERDAY ~ STAND UP ~ TODAY ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Picture of Peonies, Hostas, & Daylillies in my flower garden. <BR> <BR> I started this morning with 25 minutes weeding the garden - after, of course, taking care of the dogs. I have been leaving the dogs loose in the house when I go out in the yard, and ‘hoping’ they b... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 15:01:33 EST I Could Be A Tiny Little Thing! *~:.IF .:~*~:. YOU.:~*~:. WANT IT .:~*~:. MAKE .:~*~:.IT .:~*~:.HAPPEN :~* <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Yesterday evening I stretched out on my (wonderful) new sofa, with my dogs at my feet, and read a new book on my kindle (oh, how I love my kindle!). <BR> <BR> It feels like Heaven to finally have a sofa! And, having a sofa also makes my living room look more streamlined. Course with all the bookcases, a desk, and 2 pieces ... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 16:19:12 EST Finally Got A Sofa! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> *~:.WOO .:~*~:. HOO.:~*~:. I .:~*~:. GOT .:~*~:.ONE .:~*~:.HAPPY :~*~:. ME.:~* <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> I have been 11 years without a sofa. <BR> <BR> I have always had a hard time finding a sofa that is firm enough to be supportive to my back. If I buy new ones, the only ones I can afford are too soft and definitely not supportive. And r... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 21:19:24 EST Picking Myself Up Yesterday I was in such a depression, mainly I am sure from the heavy eating of sweets I have been doing. Sweets ALWAYS tanks my mood. I was so depressed I would have liked to crawl into bed and stay there. But… <BR> <BR> I decided I was NOT going to give into it. And, I got up, and took first one doggie for a walk, and then alternated, taking the other doggie for a walk. I was still a bit depressed, but it was considerably lifted. <BR> <BR> Then this morning - even before breakfast (as I h... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 18:56:38 EST A Storm Is Brewing: With 'Him' Again! Depression, Neurological Damage I was doing so danged good. Then I started bingeing again when I went to the city. And, since I went to the food pantry Thursday, I have continued binging on the foods I brought home from there. I refused most of the ‘goodies’ but I did bring home a package of Oreos, and a mint pie with a chocolate crust. In ONE day I ate half that pie and have the package of Oreos. So, last night I busted up the other half package of Oreos and threw them in the garbage. I can’t bring myself to throw out the ... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 18:07:54 EST Feeling Bad About Impulsively Giving Away My Cane Today I was in the city, and standing on one corner was a guy with a 'foam collar' on his neck, and he had a custom medical knee brace (the kind with the moving joint that has to be custom made for you at an orthotics supply company. They cost upwards of $900-$1000. I know because Chuck had to have them made a couple of times for when his weight changed, and finally the insurance company said they wouldn't pay for another one.). And, he was holding up a cardboard sign that said, “I was mugged... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 21:40:52 EST Your Own Wings <img src=""> <BR> This is the symbol for strength. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> And, this second picture I really like. Very meaningful. Sun, 15 Jun 2014 18:59:57 EST Chuck's Mother's Funeral Today I am fasting (the 5:2 diet), to try to reset my appetite to healthier levels, after days of eating horribly. I have regained some weight, but not near what I expected - thankfully. I ate about 300 calories for breakfast this morning (sardines and greens) with a tsp of olive oil (cause without a little oil ‘ya really don’t get the nutrition out of those greens). <BR> <BR> I have been starving all day! My body has been used to eating double the amount of calories my body actually needs,... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 19:10:57 EST Saw Palmetto & Bigger Boobs <img src=""> <BR> <BR> *~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * <BR> <BR> Just several weeks ago my naturopathic NP told me to start taking Saw Palmetto for my acne that is caused from hormone imbalance. The Saw Palmetto would direct the androgen hormones to safer hormones. She said the correct word for it but I can’t remember it. <BR> <BR> Well, I have been noticing a distinct clearing of my acne while taking... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 20:53:33 EST Good Things Yesterday Yesterday I went to the city for another (useless) appointment, but enjoyed the day shopping otherwise. <BR> <BR> It was supposed to be a really hot, humid day, and since the air conditioning isn’t working in my car I really dreaded the day. It did turn out to be 93 degrees, but the humidity waited to show up until AFTER I got home. During the day I didn’t even suffer from the heat cause it was a quite breezy day that kept the 93 degree temps bearable. Also, I think I am bearing those temps... Fri, 30 May 2014 16:33:02 EST I’m The Turtle! ---- New Hair Color Well, yesterday I dyed my hair. Only instead of turning out deep bright red, it turned out deep red brown. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I wanted about this color. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> But, with the darker tone of my hair I got a little bit darker version of this color; more along the lines of the lower long parts of her hair. <BR> <BR> Still, it looks great against my skin, so I a... Wed, 28 May 2014 21:42:33 EST The Dog Chronicles… Both dogs spent a fair amount of time in their crates yesterday, but especially Mocha. Both dogs did NOT get the usual amount of attention that they are used to. So, I guess they decided to tell me, “P#ss on you!” Literally! Usually their p#ssing in the wrong place is done sneakily, but last night Mocha decided to p#ss on the floor in front of the potty station, right in front of me. So he ended up in the crate again. Then all seemed good for the rest of the evening. Course Mocha was in his c... Mon, 26 May 2014 16:01:12 EST Figuring Things Out w My Dogs, Health, & Diet I woke up this morning and took my thyroid meds. Then I usually (try) to go back to sleep for several more hours. Only the dang thyroid meds acts like speed and wakes me up. Even if I get back to sleep, its usually not quality sleep. And, sometimes I can’t even go back to sleep, so end up getting up (usually with only about 6 hour sleep). That’s what happened this morning. I couldn’t go back to sleep, and so I got up even though I’d only had 6 hours sleep. So, utterly no energy today. And, an... Sun, 25 May 2014 20:51:06 EST Results After A Higher Carb Day &#9829; `*•.¸ LIVE &#9829; ¸.•*´¨ LIFE &#9829;¨`*•.¸ LIKE &#9829; `*•.¸ YOU &#9829; ¸.•*´¨WANT &#9829;¨`*•.¸ IT &#9829; <BR> <BR> Yesterday I seemed to eat all day, but mostly healthy stuff. I ate more cruciferous vegetables instead of greens (there ARE carbs in them), and I had berries at my meals, as well as 2 squares of dark chocolate at 3 meals. And, I had some fantastic lean pork chops basted with packaged BBQ spice. OMG, that was fantastic. And, then I ate about 200 calories worth of ... Sat, 24 May 2014 20:17:36 EST Today Is to Be A High'er-Carb Day /// Food Poisoning Well, my intestinal issues yesterday was not due to my high-fat meal, but from food poisoning. I can thank our local grocer who has gotten so he greedy that he holds rotisserie chickens for a couple of days on the warmer if they don't sell, and he doesn't rotate shelf goods, and so it is easy to end up buying expired goods. Like last month I bought bread and butter pickles that expired in late 2012. And, this month I need up buying expired Mayo. That is what made me sick yesterday. After I go... Fri, 23 May 2014 13:53:45 EST Lovin’ Paleo! -- OTHER Plans I've Tried --- Mitochondrial Disease In 2000 I lost 56 pounds over a longgggg, slow course; losing an average of only .82# per week. I got to 11 pounds from goal and hit a plateau that wouldn’t budge. So, I went to a pharmacy nutritionist consultant who put me on the standard food pyramid plan (7 ounces of meat, chicken, or fish each day; 1 eight oz glass of milk each day; 6 servings of starch a day; 4 servings of fruit each day; 4 servings of vegetables; 3 tsp of fat each day; all to total 1500 calories a day). Well, I did the ... Thu, 22 May 2014 21:10:52 EST