LIVE_AMAZINGLY's SparkPeople Blog LIVE_AMAZINGLY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My Depression --- Surprisingly Chuck's Mother Aged VERY Rapidly After Her Mean Husband Died... Why? QUOTE: Change The Way You Look At Things And The Things You Look At Change <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> I wonder if it is possible to really bring myself into looking at things differently when I am married to a ‘monster’? Can someone see the sun when their face is in the dirt? How much really can an abused woman really change her mental status when she is still being abused? <BR> <BR> I try, but I spend so much time in de... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 21:09:52 EST 5-HTP --- Nightmare From H#LL!!! --- Dog P** Everywhere --- Chuck on Vacation : - ( To start knocking the sugar cravings, and to lessen my depression, Sunday evening I took my first dose of 5-HTP. Well, I know that 5-HTP acts like a mild antidepressant, but I forgot that antidepressants really negatively affect my sleep, making my sleep really light, and more like ‘dosing’. And also, later in my sleep cycles I then have lots of nightmares. Well, ONE 50 mg capsule seemed to have that effect on me. I went to bed so dragged out exhausted (another effect of antidepressants or an... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 20:03:45 EST I Joined Him In My Destruction of Me! THIS *IS* GONNA STOP!!! For the past week I have joined Chuck in the destruction of my health! How have I done that? Well, it is summer ‘h#ll’ with him around a lot more, and summer is the time that it is really hard to bear him. And, he is now starting his vacation, which just makes things worse. Like, usually his vacations mean I really, REALLY go through H#LL! <BR> <BR> And so, I have been ‘eating my stress’ for awhile now. But, up till the past week I was actually trying to control how much damage I did. But, t... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 22:42:03 EST Woman Homeless For 8 Years Becomes Nanny From H#LL --- Husband Pushes Wife Off Cliff! <link><BR>eacher-goes-on-trial-in-wifes-cliff-push </link> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This link just goes to show the ridiculousness of people. First off, what couple in their right minds would hire someone who has been homeless for 8 years? Cause someone homeless that long either has serious mental or physical issues that have kept them from working. It was learned - after the fact - that sh... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 18:50:30 EST It’s War Time - With You-Know-Who! Quote: <BR> <BR> The fact of the matter is, when we look in the mirror, the person that looks back at you holds the key to your beginning and to your demise. <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Well, last evening I went for a 45 minute bike ride. The evening was really beautiful. Chuck had gone to some event, so I really felt safe leaving. And so, I really enjoyed the bike ride. <BR> <BR> I guess I should have paid attenti... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 14:03:42 EST Botox for Relief of Depression! --- When You Bully & Hurt Others, You Lessen Who YOU Are. Quote for Today: <BR> Don’t expect anything from anybody, and you won’t be disappointed. <BR> <BR> Get it? <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> There is a certain freedom from ‘disconnecting’. No more time spent encouraging others as I have done for years. No more expecting some support back myself (which I haven’t had for a very long time), no more of those meaningless little icons with no words attac... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 20:28:09 EST Quotes From Abused Women --- Depressed & Sleep Deprived --- New Gaslighting Quotes From Battered Women: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ~ I leave the house. I don’t look at anyone. I keep my head down, tail between my legs. He has scored another victory. <BR> <BR> ~ My head throbbed. I wanted someone to care, but nobody else was there, so I wanted him. He inflicted the wound, yet I wanted him. <BR> <BR> ~ I'm a chained soul. But when you’ve been chained for so long, you fear being free. You find comfort in ... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 17:18:08 EST Obit: Life Full of Schemes - No Funeral for HIM! <link><BR>schemes-scams-sends-canadian-1D79902562 </link> <BR> <BR> This was funny. I think if my husband dies before me, that I will do something like this. And boy, would I have a LOT to say! <BR> <BR> I actually want to arrange to have his body donated to science, so there would not be the expense of a funeral. Still, most people that do that, have a service and luncheon (reception). But, I don’t think I would do even that. I don’t think I would eve... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 20:20:42 EST Emergency Vet for My Dog --- Remembering 'HIS' Past Evil Deeds! Quote: <BR> How do you get to be that person who is just completely indifferent to what everyone around you is saying? You get to be that person if you have been through the absolute worst the world could throw at you, and you come out fine. <BR> by Malcolm Gladwell <BR> <BR> Quote: <BR> CAGED: The cage shakes violently. Seed and water split. The bird is singing, was singing, is dead. Fragments of claw. A broken body. Soul. The cage is placed on the wooden table. I am the bird. <BR> by a Bat... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 16:12:51 EST War of the Bacteria: Shatzi Feeling Better... My Candida Quote for Today: <BR> To succeed… You need to find something to hold on to, something to motivate you, something to inspire you. <BR> by Tony Dorsett <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Thankfully, my little dog seems to be over his illness. Which means I should have gotton a good nights sleep last night, but over the last few days I have fallen into such a deep depression, and now sleep evades me. Yes, severe depression can make ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 15:36:22 EST Something Stinks! My Health Deterioration Last Winter & Now Shatzi Sick Since July 3 Quote for Today: The only way around is through. <BR> By Robert Frost <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> I was up twice again last night to clean up the mess in the laundry room from my dog having diarrhea. Yes, it broke my sleep up twice, and left me still extremely sleep deprived - especially after 3 nights of this. But, I am thankful that the past 2 nights have not been even close to as bad as the first night (which was OMG horribl... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 20:48:13 EST I Have Been SUMMONED By Mr. 4-Paws! Today’s Quote: <BR> <BR> Winning is not a sometime thing; it’s an all time thing. You don’t win once in a while, you don’t do things right once in a while, you do them right all the time. Winning is a habit. Unfortunately, so is losing. <BR> By Vince Lombardi <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Last night nothing tuned out the noise from the huge amount of fireworks, but my dogs seem to be adjusting better to it. My old dog is st... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 18:52:02 EST Fireworks & My Dogs My young dog gets 'depressed' and very tremble each evening when the fireworks are going off. I have been sending him downstairs during the worst of it because he gets so stressed out that it sets off some mild seizure activity in him. <BR> <BR> My older dog usually gets diarrhea at least one night during this time of year. Well, last night he had diarrhea, was vomiting, and peed all over my laundry room. I was up at 3 am cleaning my whole laundry room (washed it down 3 times). Then at 5 am ... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 13:50:34 EST Lost 10 lb!!! --- In Training for Long Bike Ride & Hill ~ ~ ~ TRY ~ AGAIN ~ THIS ~ IS ~ YOUR ~ MOMENT ~ OWN ~ IT ~ ~ ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Woo! Hoo! I have reached 10 pounds off. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This time I plan on keeping it off. I need to learn to look at this as ‘a life-style’ and not something I can go on and off of. I realize I will need a change of mind-set, and learn that I need to live within reasonable mea... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 12:57:09 EST Lucid Dreams Every Night! --- Exercise etc. ~ SUCCESS ~ TO ~ SPEND ~ YOUR ~ LIFE ~ IN ~ YOUR ~ OWN ~ WAY ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> I really surprised myself yesterday. With the 45 minutes gardening before breakfast, then a 23 minute (aerobic) walk with the dogs, and then a 48 minute (aerobic) bike ride, well, I did 1 hour, 56 minutes exercise yesterday!!! Yep, I went from almost no exercise, to that! <BR> <BR> Surprisingly, my muscles handled the exercise quite well.... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 13:04:22 EST Mountain Air… in North Dakota? ~ YOU ~ CAN’T ~ BEAT ~ THE ~ PERSON ~ WHO ~ DOESN’T ~ GIVE ~ UP ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> The last 2 days the air has had a very ‘green’ odor, as though the smell of grass clippings or from LOTS of pollen in the air. I suspect it was from pollen, as yesterday it was making me ‘sneezy’, so I had to close my windows in the afternoon. Our days lately have been (quite) breezy, so I guess it is blowing a lot of stuff around. In fa... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 18:42:31 EST Reading Fantastic Book! - My General Life ~ SHOW ~ UP ~ IN ~ YOUR ~ OWN ~ LIFE ~ EVERY ~ SINGLE ~ DAY ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Ahhh, yesterday. I had great plans to do a bunch of housework, but oh, I was reading a really good murder mystery, and couldn’t put it down. I did get on my exercise bike for 35 minutes while I read. I would have done more, but my body doesn’t cooperate with a lot of physical activity. So, I had to be happy with what little I did. <BR> <... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 17:54:13 EST My Boring Days... But, Intense Dreams at Night! ~ IF ~ YOU ~ FELL ~ DOWN ~ YESTERDAY ~ STAND UP ~ TODAY ~ <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Picture of Peonies, Hostas, & Daylillies in my flower garden. <BR> <BR> I started this morning with 25 minutes weeding the garden - after, of course, taking care of the dogs. I have been leaving the dogs loose in the house when I go out in the yard, and ‘hoping’ they b... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 15:01:33 EST I Could Be A Tiny Little Thing! *~:.IF .:~*~:. YOU.:~*~:. WANT IT .:~*~:. MAKE .:~*~:.IT .:~*~:.HAPPEN :~* <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Yesterday evening I stretched out on my (wonderful) new sofa, with my dogs at my feet, and read a new book on my kindle (oh, how I love my kindle!). <BR> <BR> It feels like Heaven to finally have a sofa! And, having a sofa also makes my living room look more streamlined. Course with all the bookcases, a desk, and 2 pieces ... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 16:19:12 EST Finally Got A Sofa! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> *~:.WOO .:~*~:. HOO.:~*~:. I .:~*~:. GOT .:~*~:.ONE .:~*~:.HAPPY :~*~:. ME.:~* <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> I have been 11 years without a sofa. <BR> <BR> I have always had a hard time finding a sofa that is firm enough to be supportive to my back. If I buy new ones, the only ones I can afford are too soft and definitely not supportive. And r... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 21:19:24 EST Picking Myself Up Yesterday I was in such a depression, mainly I am sure from the heavy eating of sweets I have been doing. Sweets ALWAYS tanks my mood. I was so depressed I would have liked to crawl into bed and stay there. But… <BR> <BR> I decided I was NOT going to give into it. And, I got up, and took first one doggie for a walk, and then alternated, taking the other doggie for a walk. I was still a bit depressed, but it was considerably lifted. <BR> <BR> Then this morning - even before breakfast (as I h... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 18:56:38 EST A Storm Is Brewing: With 'Him' Again! Depression, Neurological Damage I was doing so danged good. Then I started bingeing again when I went to the city. And, since I went to the food pantry Thursday, I have continued binging on the foods I brought home from there. I refused most of the ‘goodies’ but I did bring home a package of Oreos, and a mint pie with a chocolate crust. In ONE day I ate half that pie and have the package of Oreos. So, last night I busted up the other half package of Oreos and threw them in the garbage. I can’t bring myself to throw out the ... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 18:07:54 EST Feeling Bad About Impulsively Giving Away My Cane Today I was in the city, and standing on one corner was a guy with a 'foam collar' on his neck, and he had a custom medical knee brace (the kind with the moving joint that has to be custom made for you at an orthotics supply company. They cost upwards of $900-$1000. I know because Chuck had to have them made a couple of times for when his weight changed, and finally the insurance company said they wouldn't pay for another one.). And, he was holding up a cardboard sign that said, “I was mugged... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 21:40:52 EST Your Own Wings <img src=""> <BR> This is the symbol for strength. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> And, this second picture I really like. Very meaningful. Sun, 15 Jun 2014 18:59:57 EST Chuck's Mother's Funeral Today I am fasting (the 5:2 diet), to try to reset my appetite to healthier levels, after days of eating horribly. I have regained some weight, but not near what I expected - thankfully. I ate about 300 calories for breakfast this morning (sardines and greens) with a tsp of olive oil (cause without a little oil ‘ya really don’t get the nutrition out of those greens). <BR> <BR> I have been starving all day! My body has been used to eating double the amount of calories my body actually needs,... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 19:10:57 EST Saw Palmetto & Bigger Boobs <img src=""> <BR> <BR> *~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * ~~~ * <BR> <BR> Just several weeks ago my naturopathic NP told me to start taking Saw Palmetto for my acne that is caused from hormone imbalance. The Saw Palmetto would direct the androgen hormones to safer hormones. She said the correct word for it but I can’t remember it. <BR> <BR> Well, I have been noticing a distinct clearing of my acne while taking... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 20:53:33 EST Good Things Yesterday Yesterday I went to the city for another (useless) appointment, but enjoyed the day shopping otherwise. <BR> <BR> It was supposed to be a really hot, humid day, and since the air conditioning isn’t working in my car I really dreaded the day. It did turn out to be 93 degrees, but the humidity waited to show up until AFTER I got home. During the day I didn’t even suffer from the heat cause it was a quite breezy day that kept the 93 degree temps bearable. Also, I think I am bearing those temps... Fri, 30 May 2014 16:33:02 EST I’m The Turtle! Well, yesterday I dyed my hair. Only instead of turning out deep bright red, it turned out deep red brown. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I wanted about this color. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> But, with the darker tone of my hair I got a little bit darker version of this color; more along the lines of the lower long parts of her hair. <BR> <BR> Still, it looks great against my skin, so I a... Wed, 28 May 2014 21:42:33 EST The Dog Chronicles… Both dogs spent a fair amount of time in their crates yesterday, but especially Mocha. Both dogs did NOT get the usual amount of attention that they are used to. So, I guess they decided to tell me, “P#ss on you!” Literally! Usually their p#ssing in the wrong place is done sneakily, but last night Mocha decided to p#ss on the floor in front of the potty station, right in front of me. So he ended up in the crate again. Then all seemed good for the rest of the evening. Course Mocha was in his c... Mon, 26 May 2014 16:01:12 EST Figuring Things Out w My Dogs, Health, & Diet I woke up this morning and took my thyroid meds. Then I usually (try) to go back to sleep for several more hours. Only the dang thyroid meds acts like speed and wakes me up. Even if I get back to sleep, its usually not quality sleep. And, sometimes I can’t even go back to sleep, so end up getting up (usually with only about 6 hour sleep). That’s what happened this morning. I couldn’t go back to sleep, and so I got up even though I’d only had 6 hours sleep. So, utterly no energy today. And, an... Sun, 25 May 2014 20:51:06 EST Results After A Higher Carb Day &#9829; `*•.¸ LIVE &#9829; ¸.•*´¨ LIFE &#9829;¨`*•.¸ LIKE &#9829; `*•.¸ YOU &#9829; ¸.•*´¨WANT &#9829;¨`*•.¸ IT &#9829; <BR> <BR> Yesterday I seemed to eat all day, but mostly healthy stuff. I ate more cruciferous vegetables instead of greens (there ARE carbs in them), and I had berries at my meals, as well as 2 squares of dark chocolate at 3 meals. And, I had some fantastic lean pork chops basted with packaged BBQ spice. OMG, that was fantastic. And, then I ate about 200 calories worth of ... Sat, 24 May 2014 20:17:36 EST Today Is to Be A High'er-Carb Day /// Food Poisoning Well, my intestinal issues yesterday was not due to my high-fat meal, but from food poisoning. I can thank our local grocer who has gotten so he greedy that he holds rotisserie chickens for a couple of days on the warmer if they don't sell, and he doesn't rotate shelf goods, and so it is easy to end up buying expired goods. Like last month I bought bread and butter pickles that expired in late 2012. And, this month I need up buying expired Mayo. That is what made me sick yesterday. After I go... Fri, 23 May 2014 13:53:45 EST Lovin’ Paleo! -- OTHER Plans I've Tried --- Mitochondrial Disease In 2000 I lost 56 pounds over a longgggg, slow course; losing an average of only .82# per week. I got to 11 pounds from goal and hit a plateau that wouldn’t budge. So, I went to a pharmacy nutritionist consultant who put me on the standard food pyramid plan (7 ounces of meat, chicken, or fish each day; 1 eight oz glass of milk each day; 6 servings of starch a day; 4 servings of fruit each day; 4 servings of vegetables; 3 tsp of fat each day; all to total 1500 calories a day). Well, I did the ... Thu, 22 May 2014 21:10:52 EST Yeah, I Caved w Shatzi! --- To Put Pics In Hall I ‘caved’ with my little old dog, and he is now sleeping in my bedroom in a crate, with the door open so that he can go to the laundry room to the potty tray if he needs to. The first night I put a crate in my bedroom he didn’t get the message, and he went to the crate in the laundry room. He just seemed content - and didn’t do his usual crying - cause that night I removed the gate from the laundry room, and put a long board to block off so he couldn’t go out into the main part of the house, ... Tue, 20 May 2014 21:48:43 EST Ninety Year Olds and Sex Recently some “over 90” year old folks were being interviewed. A number of “over 90” year olds were in some long-term study to determine what may have helped them reach such a ripe old age. One old guy said, “Well, none of you asked about sex.” And, so the interviewer asked, “Well, you brought it up, so how is sex at 94 years old?” The old guy blushed, and so his 92 year old companion answered for him, coyly, “We’re very affectionate.” <BR> <img src=" Sun, 18 May 2014 18:04:39 EST A Long Rant: Dog Troubles, Vet Bills, Lack of Sleep, AND Chuck! My little dog Shatzi spent about a day and a half at the vet being tested for what is wrong with his ears, and being treated. It turns out he has cocci infection; a rather unusual type of bacterial infection. I didn’t quite understand what the vet was saying, whether this IS or ISN’T caused by his allergies. But he is on (more) expensive treatment. Yesterday alone cost me well over a quarter of my monthly income, and last month also cost me over a quarter of my monthly income. <BR> <BR> I ... Sat, 17 May 2014 19:45:07 EST Lots of Blood In Both Shatzi's Ears Two days ago I talked about my dog ‘acting deaf’ after I sent him downstairs with Chuck for the night so I could get some sleep, so I could safely drive to the city (cause lately Shatzi has once again begun demanding that I wake up with the sun, which only was giving me about 5 hours sleep a night). I figured Shatzi would sleep the night good in the basement cause he would be in total dark, and, he would get to sleep in the same room with Chuck (I’m not allowed to let my dogs sleep in my bedr... Thu, 15 May 2014 12:35:59 EST MY &#10084; LIFE &#10084; HAS &#10084; GONE &#10084; TO &#10084; THE &#10084; DOGS! &#9734; ¸.•*´¨ &#10084; MY &#10084; LIFE &#10084; HAS &#10084; GONE &#10084; TO &#10084; THE &#10084; DOGS! &#10084; *`*•.¸ &#9734; <BR> <BR> Yesterday was EXTREMELY stressful. My older dog has really “climbed the ladder”, and once again thinks he runs the house and me. And, when he is like that he thinks 5 hours sleep for me is enough, and then from that point on he makes danged sure I don’t sleep. So, yesterday the last 3 hours of me being in bed was hearing him, and trying to shut... Tue, 13 May 2014 21:08:01 EST Just Living & Loving Life A Day At A Time I have been trying to get on the Paleo diet. Only I haven’t read enough about it to really know what I’m doing. And, being poor, I accept food from the food pantry that I know darned well isn’t Paleo. Like this morning I ate a bowl of chili. I looked, and in that ONE bowel of chili there were FOUR servings of carbs. To say nothing of the fact that legumes are definitely not on the Paleo food plan. <BR> <BR> For my second meal of the day I had turkey from the food pantry. Only 2 ounces had 5... Sun, 11 May 2014 22:30:56 EST Like A Kid In A Candy Store: FREE Kindle Books Just imagine a poor child who has seldom had candy. And, then take her to a giant candy store and tell her she can have ANY and ALL candies she wants. Just pick and choose. ANYTHING! She would be so overwhelmed as to what to pick, that she would load her cart with everything, even though there wasn’t a chance in the world that she could or ever would eat all that candy. <BR> <BR> Now, imagine an avid reader given the keys to all the FREE books she ever could want. Yeh, me! I got the key to a... Sat, 10 May 2014 14:53:13 EST Money Lost, Pleasure Gained! I bought a book at the thrift store for $1.00. And, of course, as with most all books I buy, I highlighted in it, and wrote in the margins. Then after I was done with it I went to do a review of it on AND, I was shocked to find that it is now a “hard to find” book that is selling used for $112.00! <BR> <BR> If I had known the value of the book, I would have set it aside, with the plans to list it for sale at Amazon, and make a good profit on it. But, knowing me - with my serious ... Fri, 9 May 2014 15:51:54 EST What's Harder on Your Knees? What's harder on your knees: two hours of sitting in a straight back chair, or forty-five minutes riding a bike? Wed, 7 May 2014 12:14:52 EST Various Diets & Vision Problems / The Diet War / My Diet Choice ~ I have been reading a book that has a very interesting paragraph. It said, “People on strict vegetarian diets - no animal products at all - are especially vulnerable to permanent vision loss, unless they supplement with B1, B12, A, C, D, E, zinc, and selenium.” <BR> <BR> ~ Then this article online shows that diets high in animal content, especially dairy, causes vision problems, as well as MANY other problems. {This is an excellent article.} <BR> <link> <... Tue, 6 May 2014 19:02:15 EST My Beliefs About Weight Loss What I am about to say is my 'personal belief' and I am not insisting that anyone else believe that way at all. But, I will share with you what I think. <BR> <BR> I believe that most people who are counting calories will regain all or most of their weight back, for several reasons. <BR> <BR> 1) All it takes is an excess of 50 calories a day to end up with a 5 lb weight gain each and every year. <BR> <BR> 2) It is impossible to count calories so accurately that you do not eat exactly the ... Sun, 4 May 2014 19:06:20 EST A Tree Will Break If It Can't Bend... The stress today has been horrific. I feel ready to break under the strain of it. I wish I'd just break down and cry. It would 'release' a lot of the pressure. But. I'm so stressed up that it is all bottled up like a pressure cooker ready to explode. When I get in this state - if I can't find a release - I can end up turning it really destructively inward, which is not what I want at all. I just wish I could sit and sob my heart out, so I wouldn't feel this bad. <BR> <BR> My blood pressure h... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 22:59:48 EST Cancer Scare Costing Me Sleep Last night I went to bed early so that I’d get enough sleep to go to the city for my doctors appointment today. But, I couldn’t get to sleep until about 2, and then I woke at 4:30 and couldn’t shut my mind off. I finally got back to sleep about 5:30, and slept fitfully until I got up at 6:45. <BR> <BR> Then I went and got my labs done, and was just about ready to walk out the door to drive to the city when my phone rang. My doctor called to cancel because she was sick. Thankfully she got me ... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 21:24:46 EST Updates, On EVERYTHING! I have been eating really good since I found that hard lump in my breast. And, my skin is looking wonderful. And, my mood is better, and I have a ‘tish’ more energy. I am always surprised how wonderful my skin looks when I eat a lot of greens. Why do I forget that and return to bad eating? It seems the cravings of the body triggering that little switch in our brains, makes one ‘forget’ all the wonderful benefits of healthy eating. That 'switch' gets flipped after I eat the first bite of somet... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 16:45:56 EST No Aging Allowed! I was looking at a link about Hollywood stars who have aged the worst. Well, some haven't aged so well, but geez, are people supposed to stay young and beautiful forever?! Isn't aging allowed? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Macaulay Culkin, 34 years old. Yeah, he hasn't aged so well, looking far older than 34 years. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Brigitte Bardot, 80 years old. I think s... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 18:36:32 EST Drew The Losing Hand Well, I played ‘The Game of Life”, but apparently I drew the losing hand. It looks like I most likely do have breast cancer. I get tests this week, and my doctor already has set up the appointment with the surgeon, cause he is pretty sure it is breast cancer. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Then the surgeon will discuss with me, first what the surgical options are: minor surgery or double mastectomy. And, a cardiologist will have to clear me... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 19:43:05 EST Life's Updates --- In God's Hands. I went through a rough time after that dream/near-death experience I had the night of March 26th. I just had a rough time being accepting of still being here, fighting the same old battles. I really went into a depression over it, and didn’t care if I got out of bed even. Pretty much the only reason I kept getting out of bed, and making an effort in life, was for my dogs. <BR> <BR> I finally came to the realization that God has a reason for my still being here, and I need to actually “live ... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 22:01:42 EST