LITTLERLINDA's SparkPeople Blog LITTLERLINDA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community To Do: 1. Walk 15 minutes every day. Preferably outside now that the weather is nice. <BR> 2. Eat no white potatoes this week. <BR> 3. Drink no more than 1 glass of soda per day. <BR> Sun, 19 Apr 2015 19:41:46 EST Monday Well, I did it. I enrolled and registered for classes to begin my 2nd bachelor's degree. This time I am going for a degree in communication disorders. At that point I will apply (and go) to earn my master's in speech-language pathology! I am so excited and so terrified. Since it is online, I am hoping to be able to watch my "classes" on the iPad while walking on my treadmill. <BR> <BR> I am also hoping to start a garden this summer, however if not I am hoping to make visiting our loca... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 21:17:19 EST I Split My Pants I sat down last night to fold towels and I split my pants. Now granted, these pants were getting older and have been through the wash MANY times. However, I think my thighs rubbing together so much created several worn spots that the poor fabric just couldn't take any more. Talk about depressing and slightly motivating. (Slightly only because I have been through this before...many times before.) I have really begun to become discouraged with myself on how many times I quit. However, I k... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 11:56:20 EST Continued I walked again tonight and actually did better than yesterday. I would grade myself about a C on my food choices today. I had 2 meatless meals, some veggies, and a smaller portion at lunch. There were a few upsets of course. I did drink some water. I'm not sure about how much because I had one water bottle and kept refilling it before it was empty. I'm not exactly sure how much it holds full anyway. Plus I keep a lot of ice in there. I do feel better about today. Right now I'm tired ... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 22:27:18 EST Long road back Well, I have been making some healthy changes this week. It's been a long while since I have tried thinking about healthy food, water or exercise. I have a horribly long way to go, but in some ways I have proven a little bit to myself with just trying to trim my portions and drink more water (less soda) and walk on the treadmill. I'm trying walking with incline instead of running. Hopefully I can work my way up. <BR> <BR> I am very extremely blessed. A lady from my church donated seve... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 22:10:19 EST Quitting...not quitting.... Not trying to be a drama queen.....I really am continuing to wrestle with this decision. I know that no one else can make the decision for me and I think that is what I want. I want someone else to say, "Yes, continue Biggest Loser!" or "No, you can quit." I mentioned to three people this week that I was thinking of dropping out of the "game." I know I threw a big fit last year and said that I wasn't going to participate this year. My reasons for joining was that I did do better when inv... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 20:30:43 EST Undeserving of Any Success Well, I lost 1.4 pounds this week. I didn't really try. In fact, I think I consciously and unconsciously sabotaged my efforts. I have been extremely tired this week, both physically and emotionally. My husband started a new job and while I think that will be nice. (The paycheck will be coming in handy since freelance work is so sporatic where payment is concerned.) He was super stressed and nervous this past weekend. He has OCD so the normal worrying about a new job is greatly intensif... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 09:46:33 EST Back At It Well, I went back to work today for the first time in two weeks. I was kinda glad to get out of the house (even though it was really cold!) and get back to work. I am so tired of all of the sickness that has hung around our house. I didn't like getting up early, but I was even willing to let that roll off my back simply for the chance to see other adults! <BR> <BR> Well, the weigh-in began for Biggest Loser at our school. I know I said last time that I would never do it again, but her... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 20:36:06 EST Part 2 (not)....but other stuff. I don't remember what else I had on my mind to write about. I was going to finish everything this morning, but a co-worker came in and we discussed kids for about an hour and a half. It was good to talk with her because I don't feel like we ever connect and I think I was able to get some thoughts across about being the parent of an autistic/Asperger's child. There is some major stuff going on with one that I work with and yes, the parents may have said some stupid stuff and I don't agree w... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 21:45:17 EST Daniel Plan and lots of other stuff.... (Part 1) First off, my husband came home the other night saying that he wants us to think about trying the Daniel plan. Our church did the Daniel fast last year (I did not participate.) and the pastor and a few others want to try this. I'm nervous. I'm not against eating healthy. I just want to be able to choose my own healthy food and cook it the way I like. I feel too constricted if I try to follow a "diet plan." I'm probably throwing this way out of proportion, but I like to do my own thing... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 07:45:59 EST It's been a while I'm stressed. I'm lazy. I'm addicted. I'm tired. I think that pretty much sums it up. I'm going to try again to do better this week. Of course, how many times have I said that in the past? I hate to say it again because it seems that each time I say it, I fail. However, I can't succeed if I don't say it/try it. I know what to do, I just don't do it. I allow small excuses to get in my way. My knees hurt, dishes aren't done, I'm too tired to get up in the morning, My husband doesn't ... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 20:28:34 EST I passed up a doughnut! I walked past the teachers' workroom today while picking up some kids. I saw a box holding some sweetly glazed pieces of fried goodness. I started to get kinda mad. I mean, people put food in there quite a bit and yet no one ever emails people to let us know that there is food up there. I am down in the "old town" section of the school and don't always make it up to the top. Then the next thought slammed into me: I don't WANT that doughnut! I know, really! I didn't want it. Okay, yes... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 19:30:14 EST I will make good choices....I will make good choices.... I keep having to repeat that to myself this morning. I sat down earlier this week and planned my meals. I mean, really planned my meals and my snacks. I tried to make breakfast and lunch very simple. My suppers aren't as healthy as I would like, but I'm also feeding my husband. I can be extra careful at night and really watch my portions. I'm also going to try and add extra veggies to the main meal. He isn't a big fan of vegetables so I can choose what I want and load up on that. <BR... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 09:24:57 EST My Shield and Armor I realized today that I use my fat clothes as armor to sheild myself against others. While I was standing and waiting for my group, I was taking a look at the other teachers of all different sizes. Then I got to thinking about my clothing. I wear very baggy jeans (they were given to me) and have a very baggy shirt. I believe though, that I use that clothing to 1) Hide how big I am (although wearing big and baggy doesn't really help you look that much smaller.) 2) And to help me hide in th... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 13:44:05 EST Um, Yeah, OK Well....I did horrible today with eating. I didn't get my breakfast because my supervisor came in. If she is going to do it a lot I will have to change my breakfast time. Scarfed a biscuit washed down with caramel creamer in between classes. Sad part is, I don't like coffee. I'm drinking it because of stress in my life. Not good and I am the one filling my cup so I should be the one NOT filling my cup. The salad at lunch wasn't bad except for my dressing. I plan on fixing that as soon as h... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 21:39:09 EST Monday-Go Me!! Well, I stayed in my calorie range...that was until I worked out. I didn't go as strong as I wanted, but... <BR> -1) I got my hiney off the couch and lifted some weights to work my arms and shoulders <BR> -2) I said no when my honey walked to the gas station for a snack. I got my arm workout in before he got back!!!! <BR> <BR> I am feeling really good about today. I did drink some water but didn't track that. I made some good food choices and made my lunch for tomorrow. Now, I ne... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 22:45:25 EST Thoughts in regards to others I realized something yesterday. I don't have to lose weight for other people. What?!?!? I know right? This is something that I should have been aware of a long time ago....or maybe I always have been but it is just in the forefront of my mind right now. I was looking around at the people in my church and thought, "Wow, they don't care if I lose weight or stay the same." This isn't to say they are uncaring...not by any means!!! They would be happy for me when I did, but honestly it prob... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 09:06:11 EST Benefit Dinner Well, my husband and I went to a benefit dinner last night focusing on orphanages in Ethiopia (for more information check out Out of the Ashes and Two Hearts for Hope). Well, there were a lot of our church members there and many of them complimented me (or told my husband. It was very strange for me. It wasn't just, "Hey, you look nice." It was, "Hey, you look hot...smoking hot!" I have NEVER thought about myself in those terms. I'm not saying that they just said that stuff to be nice...... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 11:25:36 EST Monday Well, I finished my first day of pulling kids. My Process Coordinator came down to discuss my caseload and her worry for me. (She NEVER comes down to my end of the building to talk with me, so I gather she is pretty worried.) It is one thing for me to be worried it's another if my supervisor comes and voices concerns. I don't know how I will get through it all, but I know that I will. Thankfully my kids seem to be doing okay in their classes, so maybe I can find my "groove" before things... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 23:08:34 EST Starting again? Redirecting? Off "fat"cation? I start and stop and start and stop. However, very wise a dear friend (Thanks Lisa!) <em>334</em> once told me that with each time you start something you are more likely to succeed. Well, yeah! I never really thought about it that way. I always felt bad because I had stopped before instead of focusing on the fact that I was starting again and that is always one step closer to success rather than sitting on my duff. I don't feel bad about starting again this time. I know that with my... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 14:23:24 EST Get it together girl! Dear Linda, <BR> Get your rear end out of bed! You have woke up the past 3 mornings (great job by the way), however, you are being extremely lazy!!! You owe it to yourself to get up and get downstairs and workout. You can do this! I k now you can. You have before! You aren't totally worn out when you wake up in the morning, so now is your chance to get up and get working. Then, time that would normally be worn out hopefully by then you will already be reaping the benefits of that morni... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 19:07:41 EST Tired Well, I'm tired of coughing! I haven't wanted to eat and haven't made the best choices when I did eat. However, when compared to a year ago, I am doing so much better. I wish my husband would remember to bring home our scale so that I could weigh. But then I think that maybe it's better not to. <BR> <BR> I had set myself some goals and the deadline of school starting. Those goals aren't going to be reached. I am happy that we made it to the pool once again. We've done so much better... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 22:50:12 EST Weekend Review Well, overall I think I did okay this week. Yes, I could have done a lot better, but I have also done a lot worse before. I did binge tonight on cheese dip and chips. We missed dinner and spent way too much time setting up my replacement computer. <BR> <BR> I did walk some this week and had a zumba workout at the beginning, but there is lots of room for improvement for next week. I'm glad that the scale isn't at home so that I can't weigh and get discouraged from one night of stupidity. ... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 22:37:04 EST Friday's Findings Overall, not a bad day. Always room for improvement however. <BR> <BR> I realized I didn't post yesterday. Much of the time, I run through what I want to say in my head and then when I finally have time to sit and write, it all flies out the window. <BR> <BR> Today's positives: <BR> -NO soda!!! :) (water and sparkling green tea) <BR> -healthy breakfast <BR> -healthy lunch <BR> -vegetarian pizza for supper (instead of my family's hamburger) <BR> -did not go overboard when taste testing m... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 20:04:04 EST Positive choices today <img src=""> <BR> Positives for today: <BR> -healthy breakfast <BR> -no soda (only water and sparkling green tea) <BR> -healthy snacks <BR> -passed up LOTS of peanut butter snacks at the grocery store <BR> -just slightly over calorie limit (90% good food though) <BR> -passed up Doritos <BR> -healthy lunch and dinner <BR> <BR> Another day in the plus column!! Wed, 17 Jul 2013 23:14:27 EST Wednesday Wonderings I am still pretty sore today, but I'm hoping to walk on the treadmill. I don't think that I will run or do any of the inclines, but I will be moving. <BR> <BR> I have learned a few things about myself. <BR> -I am lazier than previously thought. (can change) <BR> -I am not a fan of raw veggies (very few exclusions) <BR> -I get depressed/upset very easily (focus on the positive) <BR> <BR> I had a decent breakfast this morning. In fact, I was so full, I didn't eat my planned ... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 11:30:15 EST My Steamer <img src=""> <BR> I love my steamer. I bought a case of pre-cooked chicken breasts from the school where I work. I steamed it with broccoli and carrots. The asparagus I roasted in the oven. It was all yummy. I can't get over how moist the chicken was. That makes me very happy for many reasons (chicken salad, chicken fajitas, chicken pastas....the possibilities are endless because a case is a LOT of chicken!). I'm not sure I want to try a... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 18:36:34 EST Monday Reflections Positive Steps today... <BR> -got in all of my water today! <BR> -zumba AND walking on the treadmill <BR> -healthy snacks and lunch <BR> -said 'no' when hubby ran to the gas station for the kids <BR> -stopped bad snacking instead of going overboard and added healthier options <BR> -wrote comments on two stranger's blogs <BR> -got to eat anniversary dinner with husband <BR> -made egg patties for breakfasts this week <BR> <BR> Not a bad day if I do say so myself. Had some things pop up that I... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 22:42:44 EST Better....small steps Well, I did get my zumba in this morning. I am hoping to walk on the treadmill some tonight. We didn't make it to the Y, but I did get at least 20 minutes of exercise in. <em>236</em> <BR> <BR> I didn't really eat a breakfast. I did have a pre-workout snack, but I have had the feeling all day that I didn't eat breakfast. I had a sensible morning snack and lunch. I have drank 2 bottles of water and only have had two (small) cups of diet dr. pepper. I was afraid to cut it out totall... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 18:50:55 EST Where is Perfection? Texas? (shoot! I can't remember the movie where they use that name for a town...or the exact state the movie was set in) <BR> <BR> Oh well, I was still thinking about a previous post. Where is perfection? What a problem. 1) the fact that I am striving for the elusive perfection, 2) what is the definition of perfection and when do I know when I reach it? Why do I keep striving for something that don't know what exactly it is that I'm striving for? Yes, I see models and others and thi... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 22:07:58 EST Lots of thinking while driving on vacation I have spent a lot of time in the car this week. Granted, it's probably not as much as many others, but for someone whose grocery store is 4 blocks away, church is 5 or 6 blocks away and the in-laws are 2 blocks away, I feel a little travel worn. <BR> <BR> While driving I think a lot. There were no (or very very few) pictures taken of me when I lost 15-20 pounds the last time (about 7-8 years ago). Why? I do have several "before" pictures. I have taken different before pictures each t... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 00:12:51 EST Vegetarian meal <img src=""> <BR> Found a recipe in a vegetarian cookbook and we tried it. It was pretty good. It needs a few changes but overall a keeper. <BR> Tri-colored peppers <BR> Artichokes <BR> Cheese tortellini <BR> Tomatoes <BR> Evoo <BR> Sugar, salt. Pepper Fri, 28 Jun 2013 19:48:41 EST Lonely today I am feeling very lonely today. I slept in/stayed in bed way too long. I didn't eat breakfast because I wasn't getting around until almost lunchtime. I haven't really had lunch yet, but have snacked some. Thankfully I haven't gone overboard on the snacks, but I know I haven't done well. I am in the mood to really get in and clean. I even changed my clothes to ones that I can get bleach on. I am really wanting to talk with someone but there really isn't anyone to talk to here. (I know ... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 14:11:48 EST Flat Tire added to my Spare Tire Well, I finally went to the Y today and got my membership card. (painless) I'm still a little nervous about how the whole "watching kids" thing will work when I am working out. I should have asked questions, but I was nervous and I had both girls with me. The youngest was desperately trying to use her powers of negotiation to get herself a drink. They had some good equipment there. I wish they were open an hour earlier or an hour later. I will figure out how to get this to work. <BR>... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 14:39:18 EST I'm Back!! And finishing the day on a high note <img src=""> <BR> Woohoo! Got back on my treadmill after about a month! Now, if I can just keep getting on there. <BR> <BR> Something I have discovered about myself: even after 3 months of walk/running on the treadmill it has to be a conscious decision everyday. It hasn't become habit. This is the same with eating choices. It is a struggle everyday. Not that this decision won't get easier but I can overcome this and have more days in t... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 23:22:17 EST Things I did right today (because there is plenty that I didn't do right) I ate a small breakfast (two small pancakes) with a small handful of almonds later. <BR> <BR> I have almost finished 2 3/4 bottles of water. <BR> <BR> I have only had 3 swallows of soda. <BR> <BR> I ate a healthy lunch. <BR> <BR> I ate a healthy supper. <BR> <BR> I borrowed some healthy food cookbooks from the library. <BR> <BR> I took all three kids out in public and we made it through. <BR> <BR> I have only eaten about 3 of the chocolate wafers. I am letting my girls enjoy the rest.... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 19:12:48 EST Kicking off Monday My youngest helped me to not sleep in past 7 this morning. This was the morning I was going to allow myself to sleep in and then work at getting up the rest of the week. It was a lot later than what I usually do, so I should be thankful for that. <BR> <BR> I got up and ate a healthy breakfast!!! Yes, I have a little cup of diet Dr. Pepper here with me, but I am deciding to make sure I get my 8 glasses of water in today. I have two weeks before going to my parents and I want to make a d... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 08:59:30 EST Saturday and feeling good! Came home from the Farmers' Market this morning with turnips, radishes, zucchini and cabbage. I always thought of those foods as "old-people food." Food that only my grandparents would eat because they were cheap and easy to grow. Little did I know what secret they were hiding! <BR> <BR> I am trying to make a conscious effort to meal plan and stick to the meal plan this week. We will all be home this week, so there is no excuse why we can't have healthy meals. It's time to start this ... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 10:22:23 EST Rude people Grrrrr! So I was finally starting to feel better in my head and trying to get my brain to start thing about a healthier path. Then a fellow teacher passes by me today and makes a snide comment about all the calories on my plate. Yes, I realize it is a little high, but it is also meant for children and not adults. No, it probably isn't the most nutritional meal possible but haven't I seen a diet coke in your hand before? Do you always eat the most optimally nutritional meal possible? NO!!!! ... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 15:17:48 EST Get over it We finally made it to the pool. All of that worry and anxiety for nothing. My youngest had a blast!!! The pool wasn't over-crowded so that was a plus. I ran into a couple of people I knew. Yes, there were skinny people wearing super-cute suits but I was there playing with my kids, not sitting around the house. Isn't it with most things that we discover the worry and build up before the event is never as bad as what we anticipate. I would hope to learn this and be able to get out and do more,... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 20:38:32 EST No Competition Well here it is a month out of school and I am not eating like I should....or exercising....or really have any motivation to do so. In a lot of ways, the Biggest Loser competition was good for me because it kept me motivated to make good choices. I want to loose weight but my commitment to losing weight isn't there. I do make some good choices from time to time but I am not allowing it to be a lifestyle. Part of the problem is the fact that breakfast and lunch are free during summer school.... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 20:07:55 EST New Swim Suit <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My new swim suit. I'm going to start working on making sure it is too big by the end of summer. I realized this morning that with my in-laws now living on the street behind us I could sleep in an extra hour, workout, shower and then get the kids ready. Maybe when I don't have to get up at 4:30, I will be more motivated to workout in the mornings. Fri, 14 Jun 2013 20:58:26 EST Swimsuit Shopping AAAAAAaaahhhhhhh! Well, I did it. I went shopping for a swimming suit. My hubbie wants us all to go swimming at the local pool on Monday. I've been putting it off because my son and I don't have suits that fit. (Mine is actually from high school!!! That spandex isn't so stretchy anymore! HA!) I always dread that kind of shopping. I'm very conservative and don't like to show any kind of skin. I would love the suits from the 20's with the pantaloons, high neck and sleeves. However, ... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 17:36:46 EST Thursday ramblings Lots of thoughts are running through my head. Unfortunately I'm typing this on my phone so I can't type as fast as m brain is thinking. I've been thinking a lot about church/faith and weight loss....the fine lines between depression/mental illness and just bad thinking. I've gone to church my entire life. Sometimes I can feel my depression in my body like you would feel a cold or the flu. It's weird. I know I should be thankful for what I have and I really truly am, but then that dark side p... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 22:38:27 EST Sunday It's a rainy Sunday. We are back from church and I will start lunch in a little bit. I am hoping to plan our meals for the week and hopefully have some healthier meals. I'm praying that it won't be as crazy and that I won't have to help my in-laws move as much this week. I will go out and go through their give-aways, but I think I am just about finished moving them. I don't think my emotional status can take much more right now. I am also hoping to do some journaling later. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 11:49:05 EST So Tired I am absolutely worn out. In fact, it is taking all of my energy to hold my arms up to type this. That makes me want to run to soda. I will drink a little bit for the caffeine because my body is so used to receiving large amounts, but I will try to drink more water today. I have been teaching summer school for pre-k in the mornings, running home to do dishes/clean in the afternoon and then after dropping the kids off at VBS, I go and help my in-laws move for 2 hours. On Saturdays I get u... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 08:51:02 EST No Comments Needed Well, it's been a while since I've been on here. A long while. I've been going through some emotional stuff and stress. I'm still not ready to jump back into the healthy commitment but know that I need to. I don't know where to start or what to say. There has been a lot of yucky stuff running through my head that doesn't really need to be aired here. I don't want to be a negative Nelly but kinda felt like I needed to say that I'm still here and that I know I should be doing better. I t... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 22:57:38 EST Supper <img src=""> <BR> This was supper tonight. It needed a little seasoning but wasn't bad. I am very thankful that a friend of mine was giving away her brand new (never used) steamer. Time to prep my lunch for my son's field trip tomorrow. Tue, 30 Apr 2013 19:45:34 EST Proud and Yucky! I am so proud of my husband. He kept with his committment and went to the Y yesterday. He got up early (for him) and walked across town to work out. He did the weight room, something else and finished with the pool swimming 6 laps. He posted everything on facebook. He posted his weight and his routine. I am so proud of him getting out there and doing it. He even swam without a shirt. He and I both are very modest people. Part of that modesty is simply that we are embarrassed by how w... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 10:04:30 EST New opportunities for success! It felt so good to run last night. I really pushed myself on W2D2 of C25K training. I upped the speed during the running segments and set a good incline during the walking segments. I wasn't as sore or worn out as I thought I would be, so that was nice. I even ran to the grocery store up the street to get cherry tomatoes for my salad for today. That put my bedtime late, but I got everything prepped and ready for today. <BR> <BR> Okay, confession: I am drinking a diet Dr. Pepper and j... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 09:11:25 EST