LITTLEIM's SparkPeople Blog LITTLEIM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Doing this for me I've re-started my weight loss journey and I'm just taking it one day at a time so far. I'm having trouble falling beneath my calorie limit, but I'm pretty certain I'm still eating less and I've managed to lose a little bit of weight over this week. I have to watch out for the weekend in particular! My biggest downfall is cake and chocolate, but I'm going to try and keep these as special treats. <BR> <BR> I've restarted a few times over the last year or so, but this time feels different. I ... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 14:23:43 EST 07.04.17 I managed to lose 2kg, but then I went on holiday and so the 2kg are back. However, whilst away I had a good chat with a friend about losing weight and I have decided to adopt the following (based on her advice): <BR> <BR> I am going to use my cross-trainer 3 or 4 times a week, starting on the lowest setting to make it more achievable and then working my way up. Today I did 20 mins, with one break. Eventually I'd like to do 30mins without needing a break at all. <BR> <BR> I'm going to get b... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 09:24:56 EST 15.03.17 Week 2 of the 5 and 2 diet and I'm generally doing fine. I'm managing to keep mainly to the 500 limit on my fasting days and I'm still finding my feet so I'm ok if I occasionally slip up a bit. I've only gone over the recommended 2000 on one day and most days I'm well below and nearer the limit that SP has set for me. I've lost 2kg so far so I'm pleased with this. I imagine it will fluctuate a bit anyway so I will just keep weighing myself once a week and see how I go. <BR> <BR> Its going to... Wed, 15 Mar 2017 15:20:50 EST 07.03.17 It's been so long since I last wrote. So long since I was last on Sparkpeople in fact. I gave up for a while, I'll be honest. I got bored. I was distracted by Life (in a good way). I was frustrated about my weight, but not motivated enough to change. <BR> <BR> That has come to an end recently, however. I'm back here and I'm ready to make changes. I can feel a new sense of purpose, a new positivity. I think I reached my 'tipping point' when I tipped the scales (ha ha) at my heaviest weight ev... Tue, 7 Mar 2017 13:24:07 EST A return to SparkPeople Its been a long time since I was on here. There have been a lot of changes in my life. When I first started my weight loss journey here I was married. I am now divorced and very happy with someone new. My weight has fluctuated a lot over the period since I last was on here. I have finally decided to come back and try this again. Mainly because it actually works and I like the philosophy and all the lovely people who support you. I feel ready to commit to this again, ready to make a change in ... Wed, 23 Nov 2016 14:04:05 EST The Show Must Go On! Had a massive wake up call this week when I tried on my costume for a performance I've been working towards for a couple of months and COULDN'T GET THE ZIPPER DONE UP! <BR> <BR> In the end I managed, but it was a struggle. I realised I can't keep saying I want to lose weight - I have to actually do something about it. A revelation, right? <BR> <BR> So I have been working really hard since I realised this. I've cut my calorie intake (don't worry - its still following SP guidelines) and was a... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 14:21:45 EST New goals I'm back again after a long absence. Trying to figure out a new way to make this work for me. I've got a fitbit and that's getting me moving more and I have synced up that with this so I can track how I'm doing more easily. I'm gradually getting back into the routine of recording what I eat and keeping within my calorie limits. <BR> My life has been through some major changes in the last year - some good, some bad. Let's hope this year is the one to see me turn many things around, not least o... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 13:41:43 EST Reclaiming my goals I've been off the radar for a bit, but I'm back. I've been busy meeting someone amazing and this rather knocked everything else out of my thoughts. We've been going out for 2 weeks but both agree it feels like so much longer. He's told his Mum about me, I've told mine. You know telling Mums is a big step! However, I've put a little weight back on - dating does that to you, all the eating out and having shared treats. I didn't worry at first because he is a big guy, built like a Viking and lo... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 02:04:14 EST Feeling Happy My SparkPeople journey has been through a lot with me over the last year. Now, I'm very happy to say that I am in a much more secure place emotionally and have even begun to date a lovely man, who's patience and kindness have just been amazing. It's a big thing to start dating again after the marriage you thought was forever fell apart. It is all very new and may not last, but it is fun and scary and wonderful all at once. <BR> <BR> Somehow, in the midst of this, I have kept recording all my... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 03:49:13 EST Snap out of it, silly! I'm sure many of you have had a 'light-bulb' moment during your Spark-People journey. Well I just had one, right here sat at my kitchen table drinking my morning cup of tea: <BR> <BR> Having broken up with my husband earlier this year has dented my confidence hugely. I lived for 5 months with my lovely kind parents and welcomed the support. However, living in their home again had its restrictions and I began to think that when I finally moved back to Edinburgh that this was when I'd be able ... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 04:35:13 EST DIY Fun Not blogged in a while and so not sure where to start. This means the following will probably be a stream of consciousness, but that's ok. <BR> <BR> Had a run of 10 days on SP, but this got broken by a trip to London for my cousin's 40th. Now I'm back on, but am finding the calorie limit a bit tricky. I think I should re-start my 'bad snack avoidance'. I have just eaten some cheese and crackers, but this was my lunch and not a snack so I think today should be ok if I avoid all chocolate, cak... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 08:38:39 EST Seeking balance I'm back here, which is a positive step. I have re-gained weight, however, I plan to start tracking and exercising again so I will not dwell on the negative. I stalled my 'danger snack' avoidance at 41 days - just shy of 42, which would have been 6 weeks. However, I nearly managed 6 weeks! I will also restart this as I think it helped me see the foods I love as a treat rather than something I have to have. <BR> <BR> I've been working hard on moving back in and reorganising the flat. There wa... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 02:42:05 EST 1000 miles In my life I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment - there are just so many things to sort out! I'm in the process of re-mortgaging my flat so I can buy out my ex-husband. This also involves solicitor letters and legal documents - bleugh! At least we are keeping it all very fair and civil and have even begun to be more normal and friendly in our emails to each other - big steps forward. <BR> <BR> I will then be moving out of my parents and back into my flat in July. I have to make an ins... Tue, 23 Jun 2015 04:16:57 EST Choices Made it to 35 days without eating my danger snacks. So far there have been the odd day I can't count as part of this but not many - about 5 or 6. I have turned down several cakes and biscuits at work and not had any chocolate or cheese as snacks for all those days. I am a bit reluctant to weigh myself as I was a bit indulgent over the weekend (Sunday was a day I could not count for example!) and I don't want to put myself off doing something that I think is actually really good for me. I know... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 16:36:24 EST Accountability and Other things I haven't blogged for a while but then I have been pretty busy and also away from home. I was asked to do marking of senior art work this year and so spent 3 days in a B&B in Dalkeith. The marking was fun and I learned loads from doing it that will be great for teaching my own seniors. However, 3 days in a B&B with laid on breakfasts and dinners as well as buffet lunches did take their toll on my weight. However, since being back I've been swimming and for walks with my Mum so I'm pretty conf... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 14:29:16 EST Accountability Day 9 Thought a more thorough check-in was due. After 9 days I have managed a total of 8 avoiding the snacks I have identified as my weaknesses. I decided not to count the day where I had a bit of cake at my friend's because although it was out of politeness it is one of my target foods and also I don't HAVE to have cake to be polite. I need to think differently about things like that. <BR> <BR> I'm proud of my progress so far and excited to see how long I can keep this up for. I think a big chang... Thu, 14 May 2015 16:52:48 EST Accountability - Day 2 (and a request for opinion) So today I have a wee conundrum for anyone who would like to help. I'd arranged to visit a colleague with some of my other ones as she's recently had a new baby and we needed a good catch up. I knew she would probably offer us cake or biscuits so I deliberately avoided any snacks at work - even though another colleague had brought in some home baking. <BR> <BR> Round at my friend's house she offered us biscuits AND cake. I decided to take one small piece of cake to be polite. Now, is this a ... Thu, 7 May 2015 13:36:16 EST Accountabilty - day 1 I did it! No snacks today apart from some healthy almonds. No chocolate, no cake, no cheese, no biscuits! Ok, let's see if I can do it tomorrow too. <BR> <BR> Thanks for all the helpful advice I got on my last blog. The only difficulty in not having any treat foods in the kitchen is that it's not my kitchen. Due to personal circumstances I'm living with my parents for a few months. However, I spoke to my Mum about what I am trying to do and she was very supportive. She even went to a lot of ... Wed, 6 May 2015 16:06:06 EST Making myself accountable Ok, I've got myself into a self-destructive cycle and I need to break out of it. I have put weight on again, which makes me feel bad about myself and so I comfort eat and put more weight on, etc... <BR> <BR> I need to take control of my eating. I need to admit to myself that I am choosing to eat things I know are not helping me to lose weight: chocolate, biscuits, cake, cheese. It's ok to have these things occasionally but NOT every day. <BR> <BR> I am setting myself a new challenge. Every... Tue, 5 May 2015 16:29:06 EST Here's to a happier tomorrow! I'm currently off work for the second day running. Its a nasty fluey/cold bug that I feel like I've had about 4 times now. Hopefully I'll be back at work tomorrow. I can't help but think that all the emotional turmoil I've been through lately has had a knock-on affect on my health! Never mind, I feel like I'm getting stronger every day and that should be good for my physical fitness eventually too. Incidentally, when I picked stuff up from our old flat last weekend I also found my trainers, j... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 11:26:56 EST Progress Been snacking a bit on chocolate and cake this week, but only a bit and I've got PMS so sue me. Still managing to stay in my calorie range most days thanks to taking turns to do lunch with my colleague who is also trying to eat healthily. We usually have salad and something like salmon or humus. No carbs and very little if any dairy - doing wonders for my figure! <BR> <BR> I haven't weighed in for a bit as the scales in my parents attic (where I am currently living - very comfortably, thanks... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 14:30:22 EST Feeling more positive So its been about 2 and a half weeks since I made the big, life-changing decision to end my marriage. I have recently been giving myself daily pep talks (in written form) to get all my fears and thoughts out and try to come up with positive ways to view things. On the whole I think I'm doing a lot better. It was a long time coming, I wasn't happy anymore and I think making a choice was actually something I needed to do. I often felt like everything I wanted was on hold because I was waiting f... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 13:49:33 EST Persistance in the face of adversity I have done my calories for the first time in a while. Not as accurate as before but at least I have entered them. I am not living at my flat in Edinburgh so I don't have access to my scales but I will see if I can use my Mum's. I have kept up my dairy avoidance a lot, but not entirely over the last few weeks. However, circumstances have made that a bit difficult at times. <BR> <BR> I had lost more weight before Wednesday of this week and then went to visit family in England. I ate more than... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 14:30:28 EST Ups and Downs I'm dealing with some major upheaval in my personal life right now so I haven't felt much like blogging and may not do so much over the next few weeks. That said, although I have sometimes reached for the chocolate I have tried very hard to stay within my range and not let my emotions get the better of my goals for losing weight. It is hard but it actually makes me feel stronger and I think that can only help me right now. <BR> <BR> Life was a lot simpler when I was a little girl... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 14:19:31 EST Big dinner, small steps We had guests for dinner last night so for one night I broke my avoiding dairy plans. My husband had made a delicious orange mousse in a brandy snap basket - they were so beautiful it would have been a shame not to appreciate his efforts. I also had some cheese straws before the main course. This means I have decided to add a further day in March to my low-dairy plan. In fact I am thinking about trying to maintain avoiding a lot of dairy during the working week and then allowing myself dairy ... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 05:27:27 EST Success and Caution Avoiding lots of dairy is going well. Apart from occasionally forgetting about milk in things like tea and either having to pour a cup down the sink or returning the milk to the carton if caught in time! My illness is much better (thanks to all the lovely kind people who sent me get well soon messages) but has left me with a horrible cough. My dear husband thinks I should take the day off tomorrow but really I am feeling absolutely fine apart from that so I would feel a total fraud if I did. ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 07:29:45 EST New Year's Day I am starting afresh from today. I have re-set all my sparkgoals to help me shed the post-Christmas weight and have decided to cut down on the dairy fats I consume. As an asthmatic, I often find that things like cheese can make my condition worse - especially when I'm ill. I was fine at Christmas but then developed a nasty bug in the run up to New Year's Eve (or Hogmanay where I come from). I have spent the last 2 days in bed and am still there now. I didn't get to celebrate New Year at all b... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 07:01:26 EST HEART-FELT THANKS The response to my blog called 'Restart Revelations' has been huge and I wanted to thank everyone who responded. I did reply to a few personally and accepted lots of very kind friend requests but it got to a point where it was difficult to reply because of numbers. So, I have opted for an easier way and am writing a blog response. I hope some of the same people see this. <BR> <BR> So, without further ado: Thank you so much. It made me feel so supported and that my journey is one that many pe... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 13:42:00 EST Writer's Blog What happens when you write a blog that gets a 'Popular blog post' award? Firstly, you get lots of lovely comments from other Sparkers. Secondly, you (or I really) feel a bit embarrassed and self conscious - as if you went looking for people to say nice things when in fact you just wrote how you felt. And thirdly, you feel a bit pressured. As if EVERY blog from now on until eternity has to get 'Popular' status or you are somehow failing. <BR> <BR> Lastly (phew, I hear you say), you get over ... Sat, 22 Nov 2014 07:55:53 EST Restart Revelations I haven't been on SparkPeople for a while. I let things slide and have gone back to my heaviest weight for a long time. However, I'm back and ready to shift the weight once more and this time I have had a good think about why I gave up before. <BR> <BR> One of my main problems had become motivation. I felt like I worked really hard but the weight didn't shift. However, I wasn't really being honest with myself about how hard I was really trying. I often went over my calories and pretended to ... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 14:51:35 EST Autumn Goal Inspired by a fellow sparker, I have decided to set myself some goals for Autumn: <BR> <BR> 1. to stay in calorie range for 6 days a week <BR> <BR> This is to encourage myself to avoid being too bad at weekends and undoing all my good work during the working week. If I let myself have 1 day a week I think I'll find it easier to be good on the other 6. Will try it anyway and see. <BR> <BR> 2. to drink water at work every day <BR> <BR> I know I never drink enough water so I'm going to carr... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 11:49:52 EST Little break throughs Day Two and I am really pleased that I have managed to stay well within my calorie range! This is very good as I have not been really doing well at this for a while. Lying to myself has become a skill instead - no more! I am also very proud that although I really wanted a wee bit of cake at work today and was thinking of all the reasons why this should be allowed, when instead I stopped and thought about why it was a bad idea. This is a great break through! I thought about the knock-on affect... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 14:27:32 EST A change in thinking Haven't blogged in ages. I was feeling very disheartened with the whole weight-loss thing. However, I am feeling like I will never lose weight if I just give up. So I have just revamped my page with an image that is not of me at all, but meant to inspire me. I'd love to lose the flab around my middle and I KNOW that I CAN. <BR> <BR> I have adjusted my calorie and nutrition goals a little to see if this helps and am determined to stay in calorie range all week. Even on Sunday when we take my ... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 15:40:08 EST Public Enemy No. 1: Spare tyre Back from my holiday and back up to one of my heaviest weights BUT very determined to get it off again. I think you know you have to do something when even your underwear is getting tight! I also have a roll of fat around my middle that I dislike very much and which HAS TO GO! <BR> <BR> I order to achieve this I am going to: <BR> 1. Stick to my recommended calorie range <BR> 2. Keep going to my Zumba class <BR> 3. Walk whenever possible <BR> 4. Use the stairs NOT the lift (unless carrying st... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 12:15:01 EST My Salad Life #25 My last 'official' salad day, 25 salads later. We leave for the airport and our holiday in 2 hours - very excited! <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> My last salad was a version of a Greek salad (different to the one I had earlier in my salad challenge in that it also had avocado and black olives in it and chopped feta instead of grilled halloumi) that I shared with my husband for lunch. We had it with crusty bread (great for mopping up the juices), some tzatziki and roast vegetables from last ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 08:44:28 EST My Salad Life #24 I had a tropical fruit salad for breakfast this morning: chunks of mango, pineapple and raw coconut with a little lime juice for added zing. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In spite of this refreshing salad I am feeling tired and a bit washed out this afternoon. Think I may head over to the park to lie in the sun for a bit. Wed, 23 Jul 2014 10:44:55 EST My Salad Life #23 I had lunch out with my Mum today so chose to have a slice of focaccia pizza with a '3 salad' bowl in a very nice vegetarian restaurant in town. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My 3 salads were a potato salad with French style vinaigrette, a grated broccoli and cauliflower salad and a very yummy apple and raisin coleslaw. I'd like to try making something like that myself some time. <BR> <BR> I've decided to call a halt to my Salad-a-... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 11:35:22 EST My Salad Life #22 I had an early salad lunch today because I was meeting my friend Karen at the blood donor centre during her lunch break. I call my salad 'Green Couscous salad' and it is 1 portion of couscous (60g dry weight) cooked and then with lemon juice, fresh coriander, avocado, raw courgette and some green pepper added with seasoning. I ate it with a spoonful of tzatziki as well as I was worried it might be a bit plain and dry otherwise. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 21 Jul 2014 10:51:25 EST My Salad Life #20, 21 It's a catch up today as I was at my parents at the weekend and I can't upload the photos I take of the salads I eat unless I have my laptop with me. I wanted a technology-free weekend so I left it at home. <BR> <BR> My Mum is very supportive so she made a lovely salad for us on the Saturday: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It used fig, salad leaves, cherry tomatoes and a delicious blue cheese call Basajo from Italy. Her vinaigrette w... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 05:27:12 EST My Salad Life #19 We're about to go and visit my parents for the weekend as it was my Dad's 70th on Wednesday. I'm really looking forward to seeing them - especially as he's not been very well lately. As such, I did a lot of last minute rushing about today as well as packing. <BR> <BR> Lunch was my daily salad and today I made one up using left-overs that worked really well. I laid a base with little gem lettuce and some tiny bits of an avocado that had mostly gone nasty - I just added what I could salvage! ... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 11:09:15 EST My Salad Life #18 I have had a really lovely day today and spent it in the company of my best friend, Hanna. I have known Hanna since we were in High School and we've been best friends since 1993. That's over 20 years friendship! <BR> <BR> We love to explore second hand, charity and vintage shops. Hanna has always had a great eye for fashion and we both love a bargain. We've started to meet up every so often and explore a new part of the city we live in (Edinburgh) and have coffee or lunch out and hunt for v... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 12:51:59 EST My Salad Life #17 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today's salad was 'Ribboned courgette with hot smoked salmon and pearl barley'. I have never had ribboned courgette before and was a bit doubtful but actually it was very tasty. You just cut very thin slices of raw courgette with a vegetable peeler and arrange them in the bottom of your bowl. The pearl barley added an interesting texture and all in all I enjoyed this recipe. It was one of the new ones from my 'Sala... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 11:40:08 EST My Salad Life #16 I have begun today with a fruit salad for breakfast: Galia melon, pomegranate seeds and strawberries. A refreshing bowl of fruit and only 90 calories according to my nutrition tracker. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 15 Jul 2014 04:29:14 EST My Salad Life #15 I made up a salad for my lunch today based on what I had in the fridge and some recipes I'd seen on-line. It call it 'Halloumi, Orange and Pomegranate salad' and it is very good. I cooked the halloumi with some cumin seeds before adding it to the other ingredients but purposely didn't use any oil or fat to cook it as the cheese is high in fat anyway. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I used SparkPeople's recipe tracker to work out the ca... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 09:13:23 EST My Salad Life #14 It was one of my best friend's birthdays today and we all went for Afternoon Tea at the very fancy and lovely Scotsman Hotel. Since I knew we'd be doing this I skipped lunch and therefore am having my salad for dinner. It is a combination I have invented myself and I'm calling it 'Humus and Tarator Salad'. It also has little gem lettuce, avocado, carrot and radishes in it. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 'Tarator' is a dish sauce they... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 15:32:38 EST My Salad Life #13 Good Morning Everyone! My salad was a breakfast fruit salad today as I will be going to a friend's house later today for an afternoon of learning how to make my own ricotta cheese with friends. This will also involve a buffet lunch that we all contribute too so I will try to have mainly salad if possible, but this way I know I have had my salad for today already. <BR> <BR> The fruit salad this morning was honeydew melon, orange, fat free Greek yogurt with honey and some of my stewed rhubarb.... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 04:22:43 EST My Salad Life #12 12 days already? It seems hardly possible. I have been enjoying the salads so much! I'm actually thinking of continuing this project for far longer than I originally planned. We go on holiday for about 2 weeks soon - from 24th July to 7th August. I planned to ditch the salad a day thing at that point. However, I'm beginning to think I might try to keep going for as long as I can. I won't be doing SP while I'm away but maybe I can keep the salads going? <BR> <BR> To this end, I bought a book ... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 09:46:31 EST My Salad Life #11 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> A refreshing Summer salad today with prawn, avocado and orange - yum yum. 352 calories in a serving. 42 of those are carbs, 14 are fat and 5 protein. Pretty good for you I'd say and definitely another one to make again. <BR> <BR> It's another gorgeously sunny day in Edinburgh. I spent an hour lying in the sunshine yesterday and plan to do the same again today. Being a teacher means I can take advantage of the glo... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 07:41:57 EST My Salad Life #10 I decided to have my salad for breakfast this morning as at this time of year we have a positive glut of delicious Summery fruits. Today's salad was therefore a very simple 'Melon and Lime Fruit salad' made from half a Galia and half a honeydew melon, chopped and with the juice of a whole lime and a dessert spoon of brown sugar. I shared it with my husband before giving him a lift to work. It was yummy. <em>4</em> <em>491</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 9 Jul 2014 06:08:08 EST My Salad Life #9 For lunch today I made 'Hot smoked salmon, brown rice and flageolet bean salad': <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It was so tasty I went back for more. There around just over 300 calories per serving and it is a filling and really flavoursome salad. Definitely one I would make again. Tue, 8 Jul 2014 10:05:04 EST