LISSA1976's SparkPeople Blog LISSA1976's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Concussions, weightloss and allergies, oh my It has been a while since I blogged. Then again for two of those months, I had a concussion and still suffer from post concussion syndrome and wasn't allowed near any stimulation including technology of any kind. Bye bye spark. You can imagined how much this bummed me out. Just getting into a nice workout rhythm, just getting a handle on all the do's and don't's of food allergies and then BAM. I don't even have a good story to tell. Making lunch for the day, out something away, hit my head on... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 16:44:08 EST The Bikini Diet: Who's Bikini Are We Talking About? Yep, I'm sparking instead of working. I just read the article about the Bikini Diet. What could it hurt? I dream of it... I doubt it, but I imagine my head on someone else's long legs all the time...say, 5'8 and am actual tan, since I don't do that. :) In my dream there isn't a tummy issue in sight... <BR> <BR> Anyhow, in this spark article it talks about envisioning your bra cup, and then your bikini on a 9 inch plate. And then it mentions how the proper amount of food should fit in it. And... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:10:04 EST I Exceeded My Calories on Purpose Today Yep. You read that right. I exceeded them by 50. And I did it to try to stabilize my weight loss. I can hear it now, I must be crazy. Allow me to explain. <BR> <BR> I have been managing my allergies really well now for the last couple of weeks. When food allergies are under control, significant weight loss can result becuase the inflammation is gone, and your body regains balance. I love my balance. I have no rashes, my hair is better, I don't itch or get tired, and I don't have severe stom... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 23:45:43 EST The ABCs of Who I Am (Borrowed this from another poster) I saw this on the70snut blog, and I thought it was cute, so I borrowed it. :) so this is all about me. <BR> <BR> A - Available or married: somewhere in between...available sort of, though not technically married yet lol <BR> B - Book: Talking to Girls about Duran Duran, well most currently that is what I am reading <BR> C - Cake or pie: I don't like to discriminate. <BR> D - Drink of choice: mint tea <BR> E - Essential item: hydrocortisone cream... Yes, that's sad really. Next is my iPad. ... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 15:54:10 EST Why This Part of the Journey Has Started With a Bang... Or Rather a Rash It took me a while to get back to tracking, mostly because I wasn't sure where to start. My slight nickel intolence when I wore the metal had become a full blown allergy, leading to me not being able to enjoy certain healthy foods anymore. It was a long road to figure out why I felt like crap all the time, had horrible stomach cramps after eating, facial break outs and rashes, terrible itching... You get the picture. My healthy lifestyle was poisoning me. Even my vitamin had nickel in it... M... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 16:16:23 EST Who has heard of nocturnal epilepsy? Not something I normally advertise, but I have had epilepsy on and off my whole life. By that I mean since I was 18 months old. It comes and then goes away. And then it comes back in different forms. Three years ago, a few months before I joined spark, it came back in the form of nocturnal epilepsy, meaning I only have them in my sleep. I had e second one this week. So why? <BR> <BR> Well, I have been very tired. My boyfriend has been very ill covering with shingles, work has been killer, a... Fri, 4 May 2012 14:24:21 EST The Quest for a Better Butt Here's the thing; the women in my family in general has no butt. While maintaining I had stopped doing the stair master because I moved and lost that gym and started oth exercise. As a result, my nice butt, the one that if you read any of my old blogs you know I worked very hard to build something of a butt, started to vanish. Boo. Granted no complaints from the boyfriend, but I noticed. And if I notice, that is all it takes for me to start being annoyed and start inspecting myself in every o... Wed, 2 May 2012 00:41:47 EST Hello New Friends! And Thank You Spark. Spark People Motivator of the Day- what an honor. Thanks Spark. <BR> <BR> As a result, I have some new friends. I love getting to know knew people, so thank you very much for friending me. :) I can't wait to hear about your progress so we can encourage each other. <BR> <BR> A funny thing about spark, sometimes when you are feeling exhausted, something like MOD happens to give you a kick in the butt to recenter yourself. That always seems to happen. My spark BFF knows just when to message ... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 15:43:22 EST Back at Spark Makes Me Feel Fantastic Can I just say I love being back online? My awareness level has raised. I haven't missed a vitamin. ( Incidently, doc says I am ok now as long as I keep up with my multivitamin if you read my last blog.) I am tracking my food. My new stepper was delivered yesterday. My new DVDs are on their way. I am so excited for a new stage of spark, my fitness plan, and all the new challenges I will meet and beat. I already take walks around LA but I know it's time to switch it up. I knew that when I was ... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 14:40:38 EST Oh Boy, Did I Mess Up... A Tracker Reminder So, here's the thing. You can be going great, have everything under control because you learned how to do it, and think that you are on the right path. But I have discovered I have lost my balance. I was too far in control in the past 2 weeks. Let me explain. <BR> <BR> It was my spring break. My boyfriend and I decided to paint his mom's kitchen and eating area, extending to the small bathroom as a late birthday present. I was also in the mindset that I needed to make sure I keep in check, s... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 19:31:17 EST No More Maintenance, I Want to Lose Again Yep. I declared it. I don't want to focus on maintenance any longer. I am ready for the next chapter of this weightloss saga. Sometimes the universe creates the perfect storm to give you a kick in the a$$. Did something terrible happen? No. Just alot of little random things that made me say "okay, it's time". <BR> <BR> So where have I been? Happily existing with my boyfriend of course, living life, giving him occasional hell for being dumb with girls, working hard and playing harder. In fac... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 14:44:22 EST Why I Don't Log On As Much... This week I met a sparkfriend in person. Such a nice thing to have an actual person to go with the online persona. She asked me a question that I have been thinking about ever since our meeting the other night... "How has your life changed since you lost weight?" At first I didn't know what to say, because I didn't really think it had that much. Well, that is to say, it had not changed only as a result of that. But the truth is it went hand in hand with many changes I decided to make in my li... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 16:46:59 EST 20 Days Since My Last Blog... And not a move on the scale, but my pants are looser... as always a strange occurrence I can never really explain except that my butt is disappearing. I will return to this later... <BR> <BR> As they say... in the last episode, you might recall that I called 3G dumb. Well since then, I called him many things, verbally to his person. Not mad, not in a fight, very rational in fact. What may have spawned this vocal opinion? Well let me fill you in on what a ginormous 6'5 jacka$$ he is. <BR> <... Tue, 23 Nov 2010 01:40:38 EST So, I (Me?!) Am MOD Well... oh my. Completely unexpected. All I have been doing is my own thing. I'm sorry I haven't even been that involved online lately. But I have just been committed offline, living life to the fullest, and managing it without any added pounds. I haven't really lost much in a bit. The body changes, but for whatever reason, its like maintenance lately. That's alright; I could have never dreamed of maintenance before. So I thank you. I thank Spark for my success, I think everyone for their wel... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 00:41:54 EST Kickboxing Bootcamp and other new things... Yep, kicking my own butt. And lost 4 lbs this week to prove it. I love that good hurt and that sweaty mess you get into when you know you worked hard. I can keep up for the most part, but there are some things that are just simply hard. Squat thrusts? WTH?! So why did I do it? Well, I miss spin, but I cannot manage to find a class time or location that works for me with my crazy commuting schedule. This does. And it is a total body work out. I feel it everywhere. My jeans already fit better. ... Sat, 2 Oct 2010 13:04:51 EST I Am a Semi-Dork with this Guy... with a 2 lb. add Yep I gained two pounds... a belated birthday with some ice cream, which always does it. So all the badness has been reigned in and I am back on track to lose that. I am setting a new goal. I want to see how close I can get to 20 pounds by New Years. I would actually like to lose 30, but I don't want to kill myself. ;) <BR> <BR> And why the dork comment you ask? Because I saw 3G last weekend. I went back up to LA (3G lives in the Hollywood area to be precise) and we had a low key date. He w... Fri, 10 Sep 2010 13:25:03 EST Blogging Is My Spark Life Line and New Developments In General Yeah, I know it isn't really health related lately. In actuality, I do alright. I haven't been losing, just maintaining, which considering the craziness of the summer, and the fact that I lost so much already, I am jazzed to think I haven't gained and wear a size 4. So yay for that, but I will be back on the loser train soon. ;) <BR> <BR> First up, another move. I know, didn't you just move you are saying. Yeah well, the commute to my new job in LA is killing me. somewhere between an hour an... Sat, 4 Sep 2010 10:27:21 EST Whats Going On and Your Wish to Live Vicariously ;) Yes, its been a while. Far too long. I am getting back into things since opening the new school, starting my art teaching job, and finishing the move. I'm here and haven't gained. <BR> <BR> So that great guy I met... freaked out. It's so great and so much blah blah everyone says I am making a mistake blah blah. I love how I am a magnet for cowards. So I guess we shall see if he reappears or not. But I was so good about it. He said to call him the next morning. I did, he didn't answer. I wai... Sun, 22 Aug 2010 20:48:43 EST You Are So Not Going To Believe This One... So I should not have dated or been scared of this Constructive Chef... he tells me on date one that he has hit kids. Seriously?! WTF?! <BR> <BR> But this other guy I had been talking to quite a bit had been asking me to go out with him, and I kept pushing it off. I liked him I thought a little too much for my own good... the talking just clicked without awkwardness. So I backed away. But after that date with CC, plus the fact that he kept popping in my head like a mind control experiment, I... Wed, 28 Jul 2010 17:17:10 EST The Busy Changes So the last couple of weeks have been so insane. First the interview, two days later followed by the offer, which I then found out means that I have new teacher orientation on Friday, training on Monday, staff retreat the following week, and then school starts August 11th. Not to mention all of the testing I've had to do (DOJ and TB) and mass amounts of paperwork. It all happened so fast! <BR> <BR> Add in the fact that I saw my sister for the last few days she was here, helping her move, he... Tue, 20 Jul 2010 11:05:12 EST Finally Things Are Happening... So, if you follow me, you know all the stuff that has gone on in the last month. The latest is Art Guy stopped ignoring me in public and had a conversation with me. It was kind of odd because he said he was going inside for a bit (we ran into each other outside a club) but then turned and made sure to say that he would be back out. He wasn't, which I expected... but not like I was waiting around, I had moved on to talk to my other friend the Nomad (kung fu & yoga teacher that travels around).... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 16:24:51 EST What I Have Been Up To... oh the drama -- Not Health Related and Super Long Not much of a motivator this month, and I deeply apologize. Between the moving, sorting and tossing, as well as the rearranging of the rest of my life, I have not logged in as much. I know. I suck. My move got pushed, then someone said they might want to buy my house, which meant I couldn't use it as storage as I thought, which meant a heck of a lot more to pack. ( A great thing, really, but a lot more work than I thought. lol) Plus, a little drama with the finances, a freelance art job I am ... Mon, 28 Jun 2010 02:56:19 EST This No Gym, Can't Do Much While Packing and Moving Thing Bites So, my eating is not horrible, but I feel the muscle going away. I feel myself getting squishy. Not good! After weeks of searching, I did finally purchase a swimsuit yesterday. Oh, the horror. It literally was weeks. (You try fitting a swimsuit to a 34D top and a size 4 bottom half. It's not that easy, when you don't want a bikini.) I ended up with a tankini that has a low back, but a tie also in the back (think like a wide tie where the bra would be on your back) as well as halter strings fr... Thu, 17 Jun 2010 13:03:55 EST And I Haven't Slept Yet Okay, so maybe I had a little too much fun. This whole being responsible for only yourself (being relieved of all care-taking duties of others) while regaining a sense of self is very freeing. It resulted in some weirdness because the crowds were not out last night (speculation says due to university graduation the next day)...and my chosen company. <BR> <BR> Lets review the cast of characters. We have The Flux (dj friend), Beauty School Knockout, Guatemala Girl, and The Film Student. New p... Sat, 12 Jun 2010 14:07:43 EST And God Gave Women Retail Therapy ;) Because...He's not the only man worth having! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> In fact, here is what I have concluded. (Wait, you are going to be really surprised at this little revelation.) I should actually thank him in some ways. True, the ending was crap...especially the email. We can all agree on that, right? BUT...Art Guy raised the bar. No other loser type will ever do. In fact, no other guy without manners will do. So he bailed. Oh well. The search continues for the one that WILL talk to me fo... Wed, 9 Jun 2010 18:03:19 EST The Big Picture So I am sure you are all wondering on the flip side of things how I am doing by now...other than the complete emotional wreck I am at times. Food wise okay. True, there were days when I couldn't keep much down, but that has gotten better. Exercise wise, I suck, because I can barely get out of bed. And when I do get out, I tend not to stay out long. (My m.o. when I am depressed. Sleep. Even if I can't figure it out, I know something is wrong when I sleep this much...of course this time, I know... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 00:32:08 EST And He Won't Even Look At Me So, I made a pact with a fellow Sparker to get out and do things alone...especially hard at the moment. But, I went out Friday night by myself to see a band play (my friend of over a decade is the singer). I knew that we wouldn't hang out, but the thing was to actually go somewhere by myself, and just get out. Mission accomplished. Oh, and I made sure to rock a slightly new top with a denim mini skirt and red flats. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, met a cool girl, a friend of a friend and hung out with h... Sun, 6 Jun 2010 16:34:11 EST The Irrationality of the Rational So, the shaking like a leaf has stopped, as well as the constant nausea for the most part. I know the 'he's not worth it' line. I know it all. I know it was crappy of him. I know it was classless to talk via email. And yet still, it hurts. Because it is hard for me to understand how you go from talking to someone for hours a day, almost every day, having great times with them when we are out, building an amazing friendship, to dead stop, knowing full well I did nothing wrong. <BR> <BR> So l... Wed, 2 Jun 2010 21:33:04 EST So I Don't Fit Into His Plans. The End. Yep. Close the book. Art Guy doesn't want to see me anymore. I don't fit into his plans. There's no other girl or anything (for the record, he says) he just needs to be alone and figure things out and work on himself. And I didn't even get it in person. I got an email letter. And then we went back and forth a couple of times. He likes me too much and I don't fit into his plans at the moment. So we went nowhere. I don't understand why we can't be grown ups and friends since we get along so wel... Wed, 2 Jun 2010 04:16:19 EST I Don't Even Know Where to Start You all know by now that I rather enjoy the company of a certain individual. (If you don't, look at a couple of previous blogs. You are missing out. LOL) Well, Friday was once again date night, which equaled a very excited me. <BR> <BR> It started off well, and only got better. Big event going on so we attended, saw a friend play, looked at some art, saw more people, lots of introductions. Then during one introduction, a slip. "This is my girlfriend..." Did I hear that right, I thought. I l... Mon, 31 May 2010 15:39:32 EST One Step Beyond Okay, so I ripped the title off from a Madness song. But that's what it feels like. I have decided to take the next step beyond the goal that had been put in writing on my ticker for so long. Time to move the ticker down. I just can't see 10 more lbs. as being done weight wise. Deep breaths as I prepare to leap... <BR> <BR> I have to say, I am pretty impressed with myself. I am about 1 month away from my 1 year Sparkversary. Not like me to have managed to change every aspect of my existence ... Tue, 25 May 2010 20:09:54 EST Sunday Lovely Sunday--Date 2 Okay, so since you all asked for it, I will now tell you a bit about date 2. I actually wasn't expecting date 2 to happen because Art Guy had to have some dental work done on Saturday. He wasn't sure if that would keep him down or not. I had to go pick up my sis and roommate's paintings from a show that had closed since I was heading towards her place anyhow, and I knew I would be in the area. (He lives a bit of a ways away.) I hoped to see him, but I certainly wasn't going to be mad at him i... Mon, 24 May 2010 06:01:38 EST My First Date As A Thin Person--Really Girly and Long So I ended up with the Art Guy, last night. You remember, I met him at Prom, with the long conversations and the rescues from the creepy guy that would not leave me alone. And pretty much for the last two weeks, there have been more long phone conversations, emails and FB chats. Anyhow, I finally got to see him again last night. No small feat considering we live an hour plus away from each other, but pretty standard for Cali sometimes <BR> <BR> Art Guy took me to some of his favorite spots i... Sat, 22 May 2010 12:31:55 EST Stupidity To Learn From If you know me and my blogs, you know that I am a good sparker. I stay on track and on task. Calorie ranges in check, the occasional plateau, but I beat them. Well, last night I had a bit of a scary moment. <BR> <BR> I did a lot of freelance work yesterday. I ate throughout the day, but my roommate was having a jam session, so I went into my bedroom to work in the evening. I came out later when they were done. I finished up my work at around 1AM, and closed up for the night. I went to bed a... Tue, 18 May 2010 12:21:15 EST Some Costume Pics from Prom in Space and Other Stuff First I will address my weigh in or this week. 4.5 lbs. I have no idea! Seriously, the only thing I can think of is that I have to repeat, happier does make you thinner. Okay so I always lose more the week after mother nature's monthly visit, and there was some serious yard work this weekend. But still, 4.5 lbs?! I weighed myself twice to make sure. <BR> <BR> Secondly, I got some pics of the costume I created from "Prom" back. I ended up with two photogs from that night because one stepped ... Mon, 17 May 2010 13:15:23 EST The Choice to Be Happy Had Many Rewards As I said before, keeping your spirit up and making a choice to look at the better, brighter side of life can have great benefits. And now I am here to say, staying positive led to an even happier me. <BR> <BR> In short, I am lighter, friendlier, and have a brighter smile. I chose to keep thinking of the best things and then I threw myself into the things I love after some darker moments in the beginning of last week. I am fortunate to have work for a while, in an autism classroom with some... Mon, 10 May 2010 22:34:22 EST You Can Let the World Beat You Up, Or You Can Beat Your Attitude So I started reading blogs this afternoon. Every so often, I just browse. I understand people use them to well, blog and vent. I totally get that. Blogging is one of the tools I used to stop emotional eating. But here is the difference I am seeing between my blogs and some of the ones I am reading, the difference that I see as a trigger for disaster. I may vent and work out my thoughts and emotions in my blog, but I am always trying to find the brighter side and how to turn it into a positive... Mon, 3 May 2010 20:50:32 EST New Goals and I'm Putting Them in Writing Do you believe in astrology? I read horoscopes for fun, and enjoy them, but don't live by them. I am amused when the are "on" and laugh when they are so "off". Imagine my amusement when I read recently that this past year has been a year in transition. Yeah, ya think? Let's tally. Graduation, but no job. New job opp opportunity presents itself in completely unrelated field I have never been involved in. Boyfriend isn't so much of a boyfriend anymore. I completely changed my exercise habits, a... Thu, 29 Apr 2010 22:18:20 EST Clarity Is Surprising To be blunt, I have been a mess. If you have been reading my last few blogs, they have been less "me" than normal. Full of self doubt, re-evaluation, and a sense of worry. I think everything just got overwhelming. With R. being sick, the lack of work, and R. slipping back and forth through mental illness, I was drowning. The only control I was feeling was over my body, my weight, and my health. But then I got the mix of comments regarding my current weight status and I got even more overwhelm... Mon, 19 Apr 2010 04:10:15 EST A Letter 2 My Spark Friends Dear Spark Friends, <BR> <BR> If you are one of the kind people who commented on my last blog, or sent me a personal message (you know who you are), I thank you from the bottom of my heart. And no, I have not surrendered. I picked myself up, and will not be giving into anyone's wishes but my own on this health quest. <BR> <BR> That last blog made me realize how much I depend on Spark. Many of you said that I, the reformed couch potato and work in progress, inspire you. (hugz) But it is yo... Fri, 9 Apr 2010 17:18:24 EST Losing Momentum and a Bit of Sanity Sometimes we hit walls. Sometimes they are seemingly every time we turn around. One moment we are flying high, and the next, someone has taken their kite and wrapped it around our wings, dragging us to the dirt. I keep trying to look on the brighter side, but it just keeps happening. So I thought the best way to deal with it all might be a blog since I can feel my steam dissipating. <BR> <BR> If you read my blogs, you know that my b.f, R., had a mental/psychotic breakdown most likely result... Wed, 7 Apr 2010 22:25:53 EST Sorry To The Boys, But You Really Can Suck Sometimes That time is approaching in So. Cal. It's spring, and with spring comes the inevitable thoughts of swimsuit shopping. Yes, I know, some of you are dealing with 35 degree weather, but it is 80 here today, and by late April, many of us will be lounging around pools and trekking to the beach. <BR> <BR> Now, I am a girl, and regardless of any weight loss, I have bathing suit shopping anxiety. I am not going near a bikini yet. I am just looking for something cute, since I have nothing that fits ... Tue, 30 Mar 2010 14:52:24 EST The Ticker and Me For the last week or so I have been seriously thinking about changing my scale goal. Docs always said "Get to 145 and I think you will be slim and healthy and look great." Liars. Large frame by butt. There is no way that all that is left is going to go away in 15 pounds. In fact, I don't even think 140, the goal I had set would do it. So where does that leave me? <BR> <BR> Well, after serious thought and review of my measurements and the issues at hand, or rather the ones I can still grab lo... Sat, 27 Mar 2010 16:22:52 EST Turning A Moment of Depression Into Exhilaration So I was feeling a little blue. I didn't lose anything this week, although I am not shocked because I lost so much (almost 4 lbs) last week. But it also gets hard when things get difficult financially, even though I know this is the real last month that will be like this with the new job starting next month. Still, I had some unexpected costs come my way this month that drained me. Down to the last few dollars, that ever makes me feel good. I ration everything at this point just waiting for n... Fri, 26 Mar 2010 19:20:39 EST My Dellusional Clothing Moment Two days ago I blogged about being able to get into size 6 jeans. Well this morning I had to go to a meeting at the vet's office where I will start work next month. I don't have a lot of clothes, so I pulled out something old, a pair of dressy shorts, the kind that come mid knee and used to fit close. I held them up to me. They seemed like they would fit and I rationalized that if they were a little large, that would be okay and a belt would solve the problem. Plus, really cute with flats an... Sat, 20 Mar 2010 16:26:51 EST Hello Size 6 Jeans! I happened to walk by a bag on the floor and picked it up. Discovering that it was the pair of the size 6 jeans I got on clearance ages ago, I held them up. They look really tiny, I thought to myself, frowning. But I put them on anyway to see how far I was from a comfortable zip up. <BR> <BR> Last time I attempted this, there was a near pass out situation of stuffing and sucking. It wasn't pretty. So, step one was getting them on my legs which in my head and in real life are larger thanks t... Thu, 18 Mar 2010 23:36:34 EST Healthy Habit Survery I stole this from JENFIT, who stole this from someone else. :) I found it interesting to see what she did, and kinda fun, so here goes... <BR> <BR> 1. What did you eat for breakfast? <BR> ** 1 egg, a piece of toast <BR> <BR> 2. How much water do you drink a day? <BR> ** It varies because I interchange it with fresh brewed, unsweetened tea. Some days though, it feels like I am floating. :) <BR> <BR> 3. What is your favorite workout? <BR> ** Spin and Spice It Up, the strip tease dance class.... Wed, 17 Mar 2010 15:24:57 EST I'm Too Important To Shove It All Aside Now! With R's illness, and all the craziness that goes with it, it is so easy to get trapped by old habits of taking care of everyone else but me. Fortunately I caught myself before it happened. But it did remind me of my "work in progress" status, not that I needed that much reminding. Kind of remember that every time I look in the mirror. ;) <BR> <BR> What happened was that we discovered R's interferon treatment is changing the way that he metabolizes his other meds...his psych meds. Woohoo. H... Thu, 11 Mar 2010 13:07:49 EST "She's A Man, Man!" Or at least that was the Austin Powers line that sprang to mind when I read "While only 10 percent of women are Cones, the same body type describes 30 percent of all men." Where am I going with this? Well I have just discovered that there is more than apple and pear body types. Yes, I am slow, I know. But I came across something online, then found a quiz at ( <link><BR>/bodytype.cgi </link> ) and found that I am a conehead....err, cone. Then I... Sat, 27 Feb 2010 15:10:55 EST Are those mine? Normally I do not see myself as I am. I have no idea what size I really appear to be (even though I know what size my clothes are). I even had a weird moment a week ago the other day when I ran into a friend in the store who said "oh my gosh, look at your waist" and then proceeded to touch it like I was pregnant. Odd moment to say the least. And still, I don't see it. I will say that I do love those slightly tinted windows outside of stores and buildings that make me look a little longer and ... 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