LISALI's SparkPeople Blog LISALI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Pressing on Feeling down about having worked out 5x/week for 5.5 weeks and not lost an ounce. Weight actually went up and down twice in that time. Meanwhile, following great eating plan that worked in 2007. But: have not been logging food b/c I HATE it, it's time consuming and makes me OCD and I just want to BE, to LIVE, and not track everything. I know I may be going over calories by having more than 1 square of dark chocolate each day, and having juice, and adding sugar instead of sweetener to coffee. ... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 01:34:39 EST Friday gratitude 1. Another pledge to my fundraising campaign <BR> 2. 2 venues available for me to rent for workshop <BR> 3. Husband washed dishes b/c I cooked--tradition of fairness <BR> 4. "Overfunded" campaign means we might not lose $ on project <BR> 5. Friends <BR> <BR> Achievements <BR> 1. Did social media marketing the way my guru taught me <BR> 2. 5th workout in 5 days! <BR> 3. Finally began process of planning my new schedule and passion-career-related tasks <BR> 4. Didn't overdo it with dark chocol... Sat, 31 May 2014 01:08:57 EST Thursday gratitude 1. SparkPeople is still here and seems better designed <BR> 2. Numerous paid opportunities for heart project this year <BR> 3. 2 fun jobs from late last year have made it possible to quit survival jobs <BR> 4. Kickstarter campaign successful! People's generosity has been incredible. <BR> 5. So many congrats for #4. People very kind. <BR> <BR> Achievements <BR> 1. 4th workout in 4 days <BR> 2. Applied for used car loan <BR> 4. Put away heart project items so office tidier <BR> 5. Did neck the... Fri, 30 May 2014 03:06:14 EST Monday gratitude 1. Two different bloggers generously volunteered to promote my heart project--one in London! I feel like I'm meeting people via social media (?!?) who "get" my work and am so grateful. <BR> 2. My husband coming to my workplace to have lunch w/ me, making me feel better about current vulnerable emotions I've been having for weeks, helping me to understand how natural they are <BR> 3. Person I am awed by asked me to have coffee a couple of months ago and we were finally able to schedule it and ... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 02:06:54 EST gratitude Aug 1-8 1. Hired to do the kind of survival work I prefer for a couple of days--much more my cup of tea than regular day job <BR> 2. Unexpected, kind email from peer re: my talent :) <BR> 3. Support from mom and friends for my latest work on heart project <BR> 4. Making friends with peer <BR> 5. Seeing movies we've been wanting to see--for free! <BR> 6. Former colleague was unexpectedly at event last night, came up & chatted with us--nice to be approached :) <BR> 7. Can still get into clothes <BR> 8.... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 18:30:06 EST gratitude & achievements Sunday Gratitude <BR> 1. Slept 9ish hours <BR> 2. Saw friends & colleagues at callback who were happy to see me <BR> 3. Husband took us to delicious, generous dinner <BR> 4. 3 friends' kind email messages, unrelated to one another <BR> 5. Fewer work hours this coming week = more time for heart project <BR> <BR> Achievements <BR> 1. Asked to read different /starring role at callback, so must have impressed director <BR> 2. Vacuumed office 1st thing in morning, thoroughly <BR> 3. Washed face, flossed... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 04:27:25 EST Gratitude I reached my goal of 130 lbs and stayed there for months. Only in late May did it start to climb, but I worked out 2x last week and 3x this week and have been more mindful with food so I know I'll lose the 5 lbs steadily and surely. I can wear my clothes and even if they're not as flattering I CAN WEAR THEM. So it's the great truth as always: practice self kindness and love and forgiveness and acceptance, and know I am worthy of love and belonging because I am here. It helps me to live a h... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 22:09:08 EST gratitude Jan-Feb-now 1. Kind leaders at fave 2-month job that ended on Sunday <BR> 2. New friend(s?) made on the job <BR> 3. Fave boss at other job is back <BR> 4. Husband employed! <BR> 5. Parents & brother's astonishing support <BR> 6. Kind feedback from friends <BR> 7. My friend Scott, for having been my friend <BR> 8. My health <BR> 9. Finally got paid for work I did in December <BR> 10. Friends' support in general Thu, 14 Mar 2013 02:24:46 EST Happy New Year! Gratitude: <BR> 1. My parents, and the wonderful Christmas holidays they host <BR> 2. My brother for being himself <BR> 3. My aunt for her generosity and listening skills <BR> 4. My husband for all that he is and had given me <BR> 5. Myself for being saner about body nurturing than I've been since childhood. Weight gain over holidays hasn't gotten me down. I know it's not as dramatic as the scale says, probably b/c the last time the # dipped was so dramatic, too--I know it's actually a happ... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 01:13:52 EST another bonus My weight maintained. We'll see what the holidays bring, but meanwhile, hooray! Sat, 22 Dec 2012 03:38:15 EST gratitude Fri-Fri 1. Able to deposit check at credit union nearby--didn't have to drive 30 min! <BR> 2. Helen Hunt's performance in THE SESSIONS <BR> 3. Working all day Sunday meant I was earning income that will help compensate for 1.5 weeks off for holidays <BR> 4. Project is now funded thanks to amazing donors, and one in particular! Strangers can be very kind and generous!!! <BR> 5. Walking to/from work means I'm in good health <BR> 6. Lab results came out negative, yay! <BR> 7. Dinner with friends last n... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 03:37:31 EST gratitude Sat-Thurs 1. Kind & generous responses from 2 strangers to my fundraising email <BR> 2. Unexpected plug for my project on alumni website <BR> 3. Husband and friend listening to my long, rambling reaction to LES MIZ movie <BR> 4. Delicious risotto served at Eclectic restaurant <BR> 5. Employment! <BR> 6. Client paid 3 of my invoices at once yesterday! SO needed yet unexpected! <BR> 7. Scale says I dropped 7 lbs in one week, so I'm below my goal, which is ridiculous--but I'll take the temporary insanity... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 03:44:56 EST gratitude Fri 1. A bad experience today was immediately followed by the exact opposite--I ended up feeling validated and in a good mood <BR> 2. Gym membership paid by my folks (an old ongoing birthday present)--so wonderful <BR> 3. Deposited a residual check today <BR> 4. So many kind email messages in response to my announcement re: publication <BR> 5. Very kind, supportive, funny responses on phone from friends and husband when I told them about bad experience earlier in day. Sat, 8 Dec 2012 05:03:30 EST gratitude Wed-Thurs 1. Able to deposit paycheck <BR> 2. Husband listened to me vent about client <BR> 3. Free movie screening with funny Q&A afterward <BR> 4. Quiet office today <BR> 5. Free healthy delicious lunch <BR> 6. Another donation made to my project <BR> 7. Husband made dinner :) <BR> 8. Lovely email reply from colleague <BR> 9. Friend reached out via phone, so much better than email <BR> 10. Going thru old email last night, I saw how many people had been kind and helpful to me, and supportive of me--ev... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 01:15:20 EST gratitude Tues 1. More hours than usual at client's today--needed them <BR> 2. Free yummy healthy lunch <BR> 3. Warm, courteous staff <BR> 4. Husband's generous listening ear <BR> 5. Getting to announce that another essay was published Wed, 5 Dec 2012 04:37:59 EST gratitude Mon 1. Had more than enough work at client's today--good b/c I need hours <BR> 2. Able to carve out my own exercise space with everything I needed at gym tonight <BR> 3. Husband made delicious, healthy dinner <BR> 4. Feeling pretty good--not stressed about weight gain--I know it'll drop again <BR> 5. Free internet-streamed seminars at SAG Fndn Tue, 4 Dec 2012 02:27:28 EST gratitude Sun 1. Old friendly colleagues greeting me warmly <BR> 2. Met nice older couple at another former colleague's event--good conversation <BR> 3. Found shoes I wanted on sale <BR> 4. Husband bought us the head massaging doohickey that feels great <BR> 5. We're warm and dry indoors on a rainy, chilly night Mon, 3 Dec 2012 03:20:27 EST gratitude Tues-Sat 1. Free film screenings all over town for guilds <BR> 2. Beautiful performances in AMOUR <BR> 3. Taco trucks <BR> 4. Overdue paycheck from client--finally paid <BR> 5. Very nice conversation on phone w/ classmate <BR> 6. Great boxing instructor <BR> 7. Booked commercial gig--easy day of reading--lovely temp colleagues <BR> 8. Fave boss in good mood on Fri <BR> 9. Funny phone conversation w/ friend on Fri <BR> 10. Good workout at Pop Physique--first time--thanks to Groupon! <BR> 11. Time to gr... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 03:39:02 EST gratitude Sat 11/17 thru Mon 11/26 1. Screening of film was wonderfully received--people were very enthusiastic to director and me <BR> 2. Husband took me out for celebratory dinner after screening <BR> 3. 4 & 1/2 days off from work was just what the doctor ordered! Realizing I need to take a day of rest/relaxation every week for my own sanity. <BR> 4. Enjoyed what-may-be-a-tradition-now of seeing Globe's Shakespeare at Santa Monica College <BR> 5. Brother and brother-in-law joined us for holiday <BR> 6. The homemade food and ... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 01:08:41 EST gratitude Tues-Fri 1. Friends called & emailed me to support me when I shared tactless message from agent <BR> 2. Friend took me out to big delicious probably expensive dinner and gave me a bracelet for my b-day--nice to celebrate again a month later :) <BR> 3. Had an audition first thing today :) <BR> 4. Husband met me at mechanic's so he could drive me home :) <BR> 5. Am not anxious about huge meal I had--feeling sanguine and peaceful, fine about it <BR> 6. Another donation to my campaign today! They're comi... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 04:26:28 EST gratitude Mon 1. Boss in good mood <BR> 2. Friend indulgent of my orneriness <BR> 3. 5 new donations to my project today! <BR> 4. Former instructor sent helpful info <BR> 5. Didn't have to wait for machines at gym--smooth <BR> BONUS: Strangers smiling as passed me Tue, 13 Nov 2012 03:38:51 EST gratitude Sun 1. Dinner & movie again--enjoyable :) <BR> 2. Had the impetus to vacuum and run errands, etc.--but took it easy, not too much <BR> 3. Husband came along to karaoke--singing is always a good release <BR> 4. Feeling good about my looks today--fairly rare <BR> 5. Warm & safe in our home on a chilly, windy weekend Mon, 12 Nov 2012 04:53:22 EST gratitude Sat 1. Husband helped me label 250+ postcards and accompanied me on personal errands <BR> 2. Gym was peaceful <BR> 3. Movie & dinner--my fave type of evening out :) <BR> 4. Slow dancing and salsa dancing at home afterward <BR> 5. Mom's support of my various projects <BR> Sun, 11 Nov 2012 04:00:58 EST gratitude for past 7 days 1. Lovely time w/ cousin-in-law at dinner & theatre, good to catch up <BR> 2. Delicious healthy dinner she treated us to <BR> 3. Good performances in play tonight <BR> 4. Donations have been coming in every day since I launched my online fundraising campaign! <BR> 5. Have been published again :) <BR> 6. Boss I like was in good mood Thurs <BR> 7. Good books <BR> 8. Have an audition next week <BR> 9. Fellow authors writing me back kind messages after I reached out <BR> 10. Was accepted as prese... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 04:03:03 EST gratitude Fri 1. Free website, fun to develop <BR> 2. Good boxing instructor, gets class to work hard <BR> 3. People congratulating me on upcoming screening <BR> 4. Staff at commercial agency was happy to get coffee/tea I dropped off <BR> 5. Lovely sky & temperature today Sat, 3 Nov 2012 02:59:38 EST gratitude Tues-Thurs 1. Actually feeling slender <BR> 2. Living on the west coast <BR> 3. Free events/panels at SAG Foundation that can be viewed online <BR> 4. Husband's sweetness when I come home grouchy <BR> 5. Seeing light at end of tunnel for career project <BR> 6. Able to sleep in Wed <BR> 7. Couple of people following up, reaching out via email or internet--nice <BR> 8. Writing/storytelling group inspires/encourages me <BR> 9. Friends making plans to see tween movie :) <BR> 10. Being asked to join staged r... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 02:22:05 EST gratitude Sat-Mon 1. Simple healthy homemade meals <BR> 2. Free delicious lunch at work <BR> 3. Big boss wasn't a total jerk today <BR> 4. Great spinning class <BR> 5. Wonderful essays in Writing Out of Limbo <BR> 6. Getting closer to finishing huge project for career <BR> 7. Friends inviting me to lunches for late b-day celebrations <BR> 8. I'm on the west coast while Hurricane Sandy wreaks havoc--may everyone on the east coast find safety! <BR> 9. World Market dark chocolates <BR> 10. Ibuprofen worked on Sat... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 00:30:27 EST gratitude Fri 1. Slept <BR> 2. Didn't have to work at client's office today <BR> 3. Husband's patience when I'm ornery <BR> 4. Great boxing workout <BR> 5. Scotchmallows Sat, 27 Oct 2012 00:43:24 EST gratitude Thurs 1. "This American Life"--episode I'm listening to right now makes me so grateful to not live in Iraq, so glad I live in the states <BR> 2. Healthy, delicious free lunch <BR> 3. Work more peaceful than expected after lunch <BR> 4. 2 DVDs I got for birthday, love them <BR> 5. My husband listening to me when I call to vent about work Thu, 25 Oct 2012 23:09:12 EST gratitude Wed 1. Lovely people in new storytelling class/group I'm in <BR> 2. Good boot camp class <BR> 3. Stressful, problematic task I'm working on for client might be getting easier soon <BR> 4. Slept 9 hours <BR> 5. Friends <BR> BONUS: Husband Thu, 25 Oct 2012 02:21:40 EST gratitude for last 9 days 1. Husband baked me a Devil's Food cake, poured me pink champagne, and wished me a happy birthday at midnight on my birthday <BR> 2. Scotchmallows under my pillow <BR> 3. Birthday bouquet from my parents <BR> 4. gift card from my brother <BR> 5. Delicious, fancy dinner at Lucques <BR> 6. Friends celebrating with me at "afternoon high tea" <BR> 7. Free screenings of movies for guild members <BR> 8. Company director responding very kindly to my submission <BR> 9. Husband helping me e... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 03:21:48 EST gratitude Wed-Mon 1. Class instructor made exciting, generous offer to help me career-wise <BR> 2. Had a nice back-and-forth on LinkedIn w/ someone whose work I admire <BR> 3. Saw ARGO for free and really liked it <BR> 4. Hubby took us out for yummy dinner Sat night <BR> 5. Father's cataract surgery was successful <BR> 6. Former colleagues happy to see me at event--and I was glad to see them, too <BR> 7. Good time catching up w/ friend over lunch <BR> 8. The sandwiches and tomato basil soup at Chado Tea Room <... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 01:14:26 EST gratitude Tues 1. I was able to get to work earlier than I'd expected, so I'm grateful for my efficient morning routine <BR> 2. Big boss was actually nice/fine about smth that was bothering him--not a bully <BR> 3. Got a good cheap hair trim at salon very close to home <BR> 4. Had time to really work on assignment for tomorrow's class <BR> 5. Husband helped a lot! Wed, 10 Oct 2012 02:58:14 EST gratitude Mon 1. Boss didn't chastise me for being an hour (!) late <BR> 2. Free healthy tasty lunch <BR> 3. Gym membership is an old birthday present from parents--the gift that keeps on giving! <BR> 4. Dinner was easy to make, and healthy and tasty <BR> 5. Friends and I planning to see last TWILIGHT movie together next month--the glorious horror of it all :D <BR> Tue, 9 Oct 2012 01:19:49 EST gratitude weekend 1. Slept in Saturday <BR> 2. Deposited another paycheck <BR> 3. Used coupon to buy office supplies at discount <BR> 4. FELT slender-er than usual :) <BR> 5. Enjoyed colleague's excellent and courageous performance <BR> 6. Slept well last night <BR> 7. Saw interesting documentary and Q&A with Keanu Reeves :) <BR> 8. Enjoyed a day of indulgence re: delicious, not necessarily nutritious food <BR> 9. Washer & dryer in the home, no coin slots, and the landlord pays for water! <BR> 10. Husband help... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 01:49:23 EST gratitude Fri 1. Good Guatemalan dinner w/ coupon <BR> 2. Paycheck finally arrived in mail <BR> 3. Pants that should be loose are finally comfy <BR> 4. Didn't have to do dreaded tasks for client today <BR> 5. Deposited other client's paycheck :) Sat, 6 Oct 2012 02:16:17 EST gratitude Wed-Thurs 1. Unexpected day off from clients on Wed--slept in! <BR> 2. Friend recommending my work to her friend who's the head of a company <BR> 3. Great feedback in class--feel like instructor likes my work <BR> 4. Had audition today <BR> 5. Another head of prestigious co willing to look at my work <BR> 6. Bosses both nice today <BR> 7. Gym offers different classes so I don't get bored <BR> 8. Husband made dinner <BR> 9. Enjoyed "Elementary"on TV <BR> 10. Feeling hope re: career Fri, 5 Oct 2012 03:00:14 EST gratitude Tues 1. Spontaneous moviegoing! :) <BR> 2. Nice feedback at callback <BR> 3. Boss nice as usual <BR> 4. Got home in time to lie down and do nothing for 10 min this afternoon--luxury! <BR> 5. Friends doing well Wed, 3 Oct 2012 03:16:02 EST gratitude Mon 1. Boss nice as usual and big boss wasn't a jerk :) <BR> 2. Good workout <BR> 3. Good TJ's dinner <BR> 4. Callback tomorrow <BR> 5. Getting published again very soon Tue, 2 Oct 2012 02:04:57 EST gratitude Wed-Sun 1. Getting to see and enjoy free screening of LOOPER <BR> 2. Receiving tremendously positive reaction to project I worked on--so good to get kind feedback <BR> 3. Feeling like a star on Saturday night--a rare and wonderful occurrence <BR> 4. Friends coming out during Carmageddon II to support me <BR> 5. Finishing an enormous task for one of my clients on Fri--phew! <BR> 6. Great feedback at audition <BR> 7. Big boss's rude and immature behavior on Thurs galvanized me to find better survival ... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 03:34:20 EST gratitude Sat thru Tues 1. Great time seeing friends over dumplings & noodles <BR> 2. Good to see former colleague in show <BR> 3. Friend has helped me so much with new-ish client <BR> 4. Many kind replies to my announcement re: project <BR> 5. Weighed in at 1.6 lbs less than last week! <BR> 6. Had an audition today <BR> 7. Boss being nice as usual <BR> 8. Cousin, my mom, and mom's friend all helping with possible project next year <BR> 9. Am feeling hopeful re: career and getting more interesting/fulfilling day jo... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 01:33:38 EST anxieties I've done different workouts this week, so hopefully that's helping my metabolism to speed up. And I've logged meals as usual and have done okay, calories-wise. And I thought I wasn't going to worry about it this week...but I've been worrying about it. I just so don't want to gain or plateau. And of course there's no reason I would, except this journey has so many detours we didn't even take, but that took us (inexplicable gains and plateaus), and I'm...I'm itching to be done with this. ... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 03:28:53 EST gratitude Fri 1. Slept <BR> 2. Killer boxing class--fantastic workout <BR> 3. Working for client at home = income <BR> 4. Cheap tix to play that had excellent acting <BR> 5. Discovered that the new taco truck in our 'hood serves yummy food indeed--and we saved money <BR> <em>334</em> Sat, 22 Sep 2012 03:18:34 EST gratitude Thurs 1. Boss nice despite his mood <BR> 2. Deposited paycheck and residual checks <BR> 3. Husband listened to my sad venting, and I felt better afterward <BR> 4. Friend made me laugh <BR> 5. Good cardio class tonight Fri, 21 Sep 2012 03:23:08 EST gratitude Wed 1. Great feedback at workshop tonight--I was the first person to not be given an adjustment :) <BR> 2. Client's boss is making sure I get paid in good time by labyrinthian university system <BR> 3. Free Thai lunch, unexpected treat <BR> 4. Cousin's incredible offer to help me w/ my career <BR> 5. That good feeling of a day well lived Thu, 20 Sep 2012 03:18:50 EST a thought & gratitude Tues You know what's funny? Last year when I was reading Martha Beck's 4-Day Win (HIGHLY recommend) and really tuning into my body...I discovered that I have a small appetite. (?!?!) Which I've never had, or thought I had, since, like, the 2nd grade. And when I was pursuing a hugely ambitious goal that gave me the greatest sense of purpose in 2005...I lost my appetite for food. And both times...I lost weight without trying. I just ate when I was hungry until I wasn't hungry, not full. <BR> <... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 01:39:12 EST blog & gratitude Mon So after a week of being very mindful with calories, averaging lower than usual, and working out harder than usual...I gained 0.4 lb. And I think it's this: I was anxious about it all week. WANTING to lose weight, WANTING it to work, WORRYING about it, trying NOT to worry about it. And I think my body is SO USED to starvation mode from my adolescence and even in my 20s sometimes, that if it hears my mind's anxiety, it ASSUMES I'm starving it or going to (even if I'm not--I'm definitely eati... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 03:31:59 EST gratitude Sun 1. Slept in <BR> 2. Free movie in a/c'd theater <BR> 3. Bathroom, kitchen floor, and carpet are all clean now thanks to hubby and me :) <BR> 4. Cousin is creating my website, looks great so far <BR> 5. Almost finished with latest draft of script Mon, 17 Sep 2012 01:24:03 EST gratitude Sat 1. My car has a/c <BR> 2. My husband's patience, being game to drive around doing research with me on a hot day <BR> 3. Discovered great place for lunch--delicious sandwiches, salads, pot pies: SimpleThings <BR> 4. Got excellent customer service at one store <BR> 5. Residual check arrived, another coming soon Sun, 16 Sep 2012 01:15:14 EST gratitude Fri 1. Friend's generous help on a project for one of my clients <BR> 2. Worked at home today <BR> 3. Nice guy at Coffee Bean served me an iced drink not on menu when I asked <BR> 4. Won a little grant! <BR> 5. SparkPeople has helped me lose fat and gain muscle slowly, steadily, sanely, so now my clothes fit again :) Sat, 15 Sep 2012 02:05:00 EST