LISA929's SparkPeople Blog LISA929's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Having one of those days I'm writing in hopes that I'll feel better after I do. I'm hungry. Actually, I don't think I'm hungry. But I am having one of those days where I just want to eat. So far, I have tracked everything I've eaten and I'm doing OK. But mentally, I want to eat. I want to eat cookies and candy and chips and dip. I want pizza or fast food. I know I don't need it, and I'm pretty sure I don't really want it...but I feel like I do. I'm not particularly bored. I have things to do, but I keep thinking abou... Sat, 23 Apr 2011 12:23:05 EST I think I've hit rock bottom. I went to the doctor today. Of course, I knew they would want to weigh me. So what do I do? Dress in the lightest possible clothes I can find. As if that's going to change the inevitable. When I saw the 203 on the scale, my heart sank. As I've gained weight back over the past few months, I think I tried to rationalize with myself, thinking that I couldn't be gaining that much, that it couldn't be that bad. I'm pretty pissed off with myself right now. Mon, 18 Apr 2011 20:40:56 EST Starting over...again. This will probably be a rambling entry, as there are a million thoughts swirling around in my head... <BR> I was just looking at my blogs from this time last year when I was on Medical Weight Loss. I was doing so well. I was down to 170, which is lower than my current goal! Clearly, I fell off the wagon big time, as I am back up to approximately 195. I am so mad that I let myself do that. I spent $400 to lose about 17 pounds and then gain it back and more??? What am I doing to myself??? <BR>... Tue, 8 Feb 2011 10:46:10 EST Fourth week on Medical Weight Loss Well, today began my fourth week. It's been easy some days, and much more difficult on others. According to the scale at the clinic, I have lost 9.5 pounds so far, and my scale at home says 10. I'm happy. I'll be happier when I reach my goal, but I've never been able to drop weight like this and still be eating. However, I'm feeling a slump coming on. Even though I'm losing weight, some days I just want junk. It takes tremendous effort to not throw in the towel. Is it going to be like this fo... Mon, 15 Feb 2010 21:38:03 EST I'm done with the cleansing...but not done with losing! :o) My cleansing phase ended last night. We had teacher conferences yesterday, and they had subs and was hard, but I stayed away. Literally. I didn't even go in the room where dinner was being served. A small victory. I weighed in again last night at the clinic and I'm making some real progress. I weighed in at home this morning (they told me that I should check my "true" weight first thing in the morning), and was really excited to see a number that I've not seen in a while. I was ... Thu, 28 Jan 2010 08:43:03 EST Cleansing phase almost over!!! Today is the last day of the "cleansing" phase. Honestly, I do not want to have to choke down any more salad or red meat, but I will because it's working. It's only one more day and then I get to start eating somewhat normally again. During the first two weeks I have to get weighed in 5 times a week. I also get my blood pressure checked. I went to get weighed yesterday and had dropped 1 1/2 pounds. I know it's water because I've been drinking 64 ounces a day, but it was nice to see the number... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 07:33:53 EST Started over...Day 1 I finally realized that I can't do this weight loss thing by myself, and I decided to take the recommendation of people that have tried Medical Weight Loss. I went for my consultation last Friday, and according to them, I can meet my goal by the end of April. Yes, I have to buy some of their foods, but for the most part, it's grocery store food. I have to stick with this one because I paid too much money and my husband could lose his mind if I quit. <BR> It's the end of my first day. The fir... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 22:05:11 EST Craving... Yep. Day 5 and I'm having a rougher time. I caved last night and had 2 peanut butter cups. Not the minis either. On the plus side, after 2, I stopped myself, and for that I am proud since a frozen peanut butter cup is my weakness. Today, I'm seriously craving some Taco Bell. Some might say to go ahead and get a little something...they have some healthier versions. I don't want those. I want all the stuff that's bad for me. Of course. This is the point in the weght loss journey where I normall... Tue, 5 Jan 2010 11:49:17 EST Day far so good! So I've decided to keep track of this weight loss journey in the hopes that I will feel more accountable and actually follow through this time. I have been on SP for almost a year, and have only lost about 7 pounds. But this time, I am determined. Now, I realize that I always start out determined and ready to go, but I'm on day 4 of really paying attention to what I'm eating and tracking everything, and let me say...that's 3 days longer than I normally last! LOL! <BR> The first couple days ha... Mon, 4 Jan 2010 10:30:47 EST Enough is enough. So I do this all the time. I get all fired up to get in shape and start eating healthier, and then my motivation fizzles after a week or so. Normally I let my life get in the way. Work, school, family...and somewhere in there, I'd sure like to sleep! But I have no excuses now. I'm on break for the summer. I still have my family and I still have class, but I've arranged for a sitter for a few hours every day and I only have classes one weekend a month for the rest of the summer. I'm all out of... Mon, 8 Jun 2009 10:26:37 EST Vacation is tough... So I'm really trying to keep myself motivated by reminding myself that summer is just around the corner, and I have clothes that I would love to be able to wear. But I'm realizing that being on a break from school is actually making it harder for me. I'm home with Michael and when I'm just hanging out, it's really hard for me not to be snacking. At least when I'm at school, I'm on some sort of schedule, but home is hard. What am I going to do over the summer if I can't handle one week??? On a... Thu, 16 Apr 2009 11:53:12 EST