LINDYPOWER's SparkPeople Blog LINDYPOWER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community What day is it? I'm a hot mess Falling asleep on sofa in clothes, waking up 3:45 AM. Making warm pears for 4 AM breakfast. I'm a hot mess <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 30 Jan 2018 08:03:32 EST What day is it, anymore - drifting unsupervised Scale still at 200.5 lbs. <BR> <BR> Drifting through winter indoors doing a small task and then back on sofa to stop swaying and wobbling. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Monday BRUNCH <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Egg, fresh, whole, r... Mon, 29 Jan 2018 11:40:46 EST Day 22 - Rainy Monday in New York Didn't stand on scale as the heat is shut off to conserve tiny bit of fuel left and to address leaking oil filter canister. I slept in heavy clothes and a wool vest and no way going to strip in a cold house to weigh myself. I've been inching up a few ounces a day. i rn out of salt and will not buy any more. My cell phone - a very old phone - barely works, but it works, and today it allowed an upload of today's early meal. I chopped up fresh turmeric rhizome, onion, garlic, jalapeno an... Mon, 22 Jan 2018 08:26:42 EST Day 21 - help arrived & we fixed the locked out oven in 3 hours I have been wearing a very old red and white button down sweatshirt with pockets my Mom bought me. She died 20 years ago soI don't remember when she bought it. I found it packed away, and washed it. I've worn it for days - never changed my clothes because the house is chilly. The 2 layer sweatshirt kept me warm. Finally I changed out of my outfit when I got the call from my legal spouse he would come by and take a look. we watched a you tube video 5 times. The cabinet had to be pulle... Sun, 21 Jan 2018 23:33:12 EST Day 19 - never felt so alone like I do now I was 200.0 lbs the other day <BR> <BR> today I made a big pot of organic chicken soup with lots of veggies and dried garden herbs. <BR> <BR> Made a pot of air popped pop corn yesterday and had a big bowl with a glass of water. It filled me up. I actually went outdoors for 30 minutes and picked up street garbage that blew onto my property over the past few weeks, and hosed off my filthy south windows and the handicapped ramp that is a dog run now. Cleaned up dog poop. <BR> <BR> Yest... Sat, 20 Jan 2018 22:48:47 EST Day 17 - struggling, working at staying calm What did I expect? scale read 200.0 this morning <BR> <BR> I am not getting the help promised for the brain concussion. I continue to feel wobbly, off balance, dizzy, needles and pins, nervous, confused, organizational skills way off, hard to focus, blurred vision, need to sit down and steady myself after a short time working on a small pile of clutter.....I can't tolerate bright lights and loud noises. My sleeping patterns are crazy I will speak and forget my thought train. Som... Wed, 17 Jan 2018 10:25:15 EST Day 16 - Mailed 2 letters to Neurologists. I didn't weigh myself. <BR> <BR> I went on an eating binge today <BR> <BR> 2700 calories <BR> <BR> good night. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Tue, 16 Jan 2018 23:46:20 EST Day 14 2018 198.1 lb. <BR> <BR> Camera is taking pictures of all my meals but I have no way to upload any pictures with the USB port broken on a dropped la top. I am so upset over this. <BR> <BR> Sunday morning brakfast <BR> <BR> <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Friendly Farms Vitamin D Milk, 0.5 cup ⊗ 75 6 4 4 0 <BR> Egg, fresh, whole, raw, 1 large ⊗ 72 0 5 6 0 <BR> Cinnamon, ground, 1 tsp ⊗ 6 2 0 0 1 <BR> Cloves, ground, 0.1 tsp ⊗ 1 0 0 0 0 <BR> Nutme... Sun, 14 Jan 2018 10:07:26 EST Day 12 rainy Friday weight 197.0 <BR> <BR> I am so upset I tripped on charging cord, knocked laptop off coffee table and it crashed 12 inches onto a hardwood floor and now my USB is damaged. I cannot upload pictures, or use flash drive, or the external hard drive for back up storage. <BR> <BR> <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Friendly Farms Vitamin D Milk, 0.5 cup ⊗ 75 6 4 4 0 <BR> Aldi heat & serve original fully cooked sausage links, 0.66 serving ⊗ 40 0 4 2 0... Fri, 12 Jan 2018 10:25:11 EST Day 10 Feeling terrible with symptoms of brain concussion. I overdid it yesterday and attended a village meeting in a packed auditorium. Fighting city hall, driving in the dark at 10 PM and in the ice, not good forme <BR> <BR> I dropped my lap top, and now the USB port for my camera is broken. at least I still have a lap top. Very upset over this. <BR> <BR> I've been taking pics of my meals but unable to upload. <BR> <BR> Today was lost. splitting head ache but with all the piles of messes ... Wed, 10 Jan 2018 22:57:50 EST Day 8 - still housebound - in my robe - freezing outside <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Cheerios Cereal, original , 1 cup (1 serving) ⊗ 100 20 2 3 3 <BR> Banana, fresh, 1 extra small (less than 6" long) ⊗ 72 19 0 1 2 <BR> Friendly Farms Organic Vitamin D Whole Milk, 0.5 cup ⊗ 75 6 4 4 0 <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Friendly Farms V... Mon, 8 Jan 2018 16:26:02 EST Day 7 - 1 degree F on the Island, today. I'm still indoors since snowstorm. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Friendly Farms Vitamin D Milk, 0.5 cup ⊗ 75 6 4 4 0 <BR> Egg Large, Omelette 1 egg nutrition facts, 1 serving ⊗ 96 0 7 7 0 <BR> Pears, fresh, 1 pear, small (approx 3 per lb) ⊗ 67 18 0 0 4 <BR> Blackberries fresh - 3 calor... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 10:51:35 EST Day 6 - and have been home bound - temps single digits <img src=""> <BR> My weight is 196.5 for January 6, and yesterday itas 198. I added sea salt to 3 bowls of homemade chicken soup. That will do it. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This morning I slept until 9 AM, and the room was chilly. I made hot grits with water,added flaxseed and chia seeds ground up, and had a whole mango an... Sat, 6 Jan 2018 10:39:21 EST Day 5 - and so happy my daughter shoveled me out late last night. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> with my brain concussion, I make many mistakes. I tried to clean the oven and ended up locking the oven door and now it won't open. Then I forgot it was locked and prepared Gluten Free bread dough and then could not cook the bread. So I decided to steam it over a pot for 2 ... Fri, 5 Jan 2018 21:18:07 EST Day 4 - Snowed in & Tackling this Brain Concussion <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Thu, 4 Jan 2018 21:43:02 EST Yes I weigh, everyday! <img src=""> <BR> January 1 2018 <BR> <img src=""> <BR> January 2 & 3 2018 <BR> <BR> <BR> Yes I weigh myself every single day. I didn't do it after uterine surgery and a head concussion from Oct 28 until Jan 1 and I gained 7.1 lbs. FOR ME, I have to weigh every single morning. This way I can make the small changes necessary to keep... Wed, 3 Jan 2018 07:43:21 EST Day 3 - I've got to keep doing this <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 7 AM and I've already eaten a gluten free breakfast and it was so delicious. <BR> <BR> After my surgery and head concussion I was in survival mode, alone. When there is no delegation of work chores, and all you have is you, and you don't feel good, it changes everything.Being self relian... Wed, 3 Jan 2018 07:08:10 EST Day 2 - Yes I need Spark People <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Regular Coffee, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Friendly Farms Vitamin D Milk, 0.5 cup ⊗ 75 6 4 4 0 <BR> Cinnamon Rice Pancakes (3), ⊗ 216 37 6 5 3 <BR> Persimmon (1 fruit 2-1/2" dia x 3-1/2" high), 1 serving ⊗ 118 31 0 1 6 <BR> Blackberries fresh - 27 ⊗ 81 0 0 0 0 <BR> 1/4 of cantaloup... Tue, 2 Jan 2018 13:09:00 EST why we shouldn't compare ourselves to others Here are three reasons why we should stop comparing ourselves to others. <BR> <BR> 1) It’s Damaging To Your Sense Of Self <BR> <BR> Mark Twain said that “comparison is the death of joy,” and the science agrees. Research has found that comparing breeds feelings of envy, low-self confidence, and depression, as well as compromises our ability to trust others. While downward comparison, comparing ourselves to those less fortunate, can provide some benefit to one’s sense of self, even this form ... Mon, 1 Jan 2018 16:29:33 EST Day 1 - 66 days since surgery & head concussion So here I am. 7.1 lbs heavier since uterine surgery and head concussion - both took place on October 27th 2017. Head concussion happened leaving O.R. in a wheel chair being pushed by a Nurse. The ordeal was horrible. I was told REST for 6 months was the only treatment for a blunt force trauma to the head. <BR> <BR> My body has weakened due to slowing down. And with the painstaking efforts to lose almost 30 lbs. in 7 months from March 1 - October 26th 2017, and going gluten-free at ... Mon, 1 Jan 2018 15:21:07 EST Day 8 - on Gluten - free after a 6 day hiatus during a funeral in Florida <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I feared I would fall back into the 190's. Yet until my surgery is over tomorrow, I am going to stick to my current plan without starvation BECAUSE STARVATION AND SWEAT are the only 2 things that bring weight loss, <BR> <BR> a huge day of endless chores before tomorrow at the hospital.... Thu, 26 Oct 2017 10:51:55 EST Day 7- Back to Gluten - Free <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Friendly Farms Vitamin D Milk, 0.5 cup ⊗ 75 6 4 4 0 <BR> Fried Egg, 2 large ⊗ 180 1 14 13 0 <BR> Garlic, 1 clove ⊗ 4 1 0 0 0 <BR> Onions, raw, 1 slice, medium (1/8" thick) ⊗ 5 1 0 0 0 <BR> Bacon, Applegate Farms Sunday Ba... Tue, 24 Oct 2017 22:40:13 EST Day 6 - Gluten Free - after the funeral - starting all over again. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I was 191.1 yesterday. Id forgotten to take water pill. And I ate gluten free pretzels - SALT. <BR> <BR> So this morning I was 1 lb less because I did take water pill. But I still ate G-F pretzels. <BR> <BR> My appetite is strong. I need to return to eating fewer calories <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> ... Mon, 23 Oct 2017 10:09:19 EST Day 5 - Gluten-free I had been gluten-free 225 days since the first day of Lent, March 1 2017, but when there was a death in the family on October 9th, I had to immediately get on a plane on October 11th, and fly to Florida and stay at a hotel for a week. I ate restaurant food, and always ate with other people. I decided to chance eating non gluten foods and pray it didn't make me sick. I returned home October 18th and got on the scale. <BR> <BR> It made me 7.4 lbs. heavier and not just the gluten - ... Sun, 22 Oct 2017 10:30:18 EST Day 4 - back on gluten - FREE and weight is going down, again <img src=""> <BR> <BR> came back from funeral after 7 days in Florida eating restaurant food and was 193.4 lbs. When I left I was 186.5 lb. Resuming my gluten free lifestyle and measuring everything. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> ... Sat, 21 Oct 2017 14:32:49 EST Day 1 - Off Gluten Free for 8 days and gained 7.4 lbs while in Florida for Funeral after 223 days being gluten free and going from 209.1 to 186.5 and losing 22.6 lbs., I had to fly to Florida with 2 days notice for a sister in law's funeral. Our family is small. <BR> <BR> My assistance was needed to begin emptying a huge house filled with stuff - all good stuff. <BR> <BR> I worked til my fingers bled. <BR> <BR> I was under stressed out pressure and time constraints. And another controlling sister in law, P, who is executor of the deceased estate. The only family... Wed, 18 Oct 2017 21:40:16 EST Day 221 - a dark day <img src=""> <BR> <BR> weight came down 2 pounds <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> bacon 1 egg and 1 large just picked tomato <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR>... Mon, 9 Oct 2017 20:44:51 EST Day 219 - A beautiful day weatherise <img src=""> <BR> <BR> scale the same 188.7 lbs. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> cheese omelette bacon and a garden tomato. under 400 calories <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> working up a sweat as I begin breaking down the 2017 organic garden. <BR> ... Sat, 7 Oct 2017 16:00:55 EST Day 218 - Gluten - Free - feeling hopeful <img src=""> <BR> 188.7 lbs. I lost a few OUNCES because I mowed the property yesterday and was perspiring/dehydrated. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Nature's Bounty Sublingual Vitamin B-12 1,500 mcg (2.5 mg) 0 0 0 0 0 <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Rite Aid Cod Liver Oil, 1 serving ⊗ 15... Fri, 6 Oct 2017 09:11:18 EST Day 217 -up early - planning breakfast <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Up early - fell asleep with tv on in bed. Feeling hopeful. I've been so stressed out the past week over the damage to my roof. <BR> <BR> The scale remains at 189.6. 2 days in a row. My goal is to get it below 185 this month. This is way too close to 190. I promised myself I'd never go back to the 190's. <BR> <BR> It IS time consuming, but upon awakening,I got right on SP and to NUTRIT... Thu, 5 Oct 2017 07:45:09 EST Day 216 - breathing...STRESS MESSES EVERYTHING October 1 2017 <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> October 2 2017 <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> October 3 2017 <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> October 4 2017 <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I m... Wed, 4 Oct 2017 10:47:44 EST Day 215 - Miserable I am so upset with the damage done to my home by a local tree trimmer. <BR> <BR> He is a bully. Won't put it through his insurance. Demanding his sales person do the work on structural damage. <BR> He has been knocking on the door for 15 minutes, calling calling calling me. <BR> <BR> Like a madman. <BR> <BR> I am waiting for my pro bono attorney to send him a letter. <BR> <BR> I have OB GYN surgery on Oct. 27. I can't even get my new Primary Care doctor to see me - he keeps stay... Tue, 3 Oct 2017 12:20:07 EST Day 213 - Gluten-Free - Breathing. Attempting to calm myself <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Stress is so bad from the pressures on only me to do 100's of heavy chores that I want to crash and sleep at 10:30 AM <BR> <BR> more tonight Sun, 1 Oct 2017 10:38:36 EST Day 212 - Gluten-Free - so stressed my jaw is locked <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> enriched grits cooked with banana, chia, flax seeds, cinnamon, water, milk, topped with almonds <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 30 Sep 2017 23:39:00 EST REDEEMing my health, body, and spirit1 Day at a Time <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today is the most glorious day of the year with cool breezes and plenty of sunshine. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> more work to do than I can even write because I feel nauseous in my gut and beyond stress... Thu, 28 Sep 2017 11:33:32 EST Day 209 - Just way too much to do around here <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My body has settled for 188 lbs. hmmmmm it is sure better than 215- 218 from last year. <BR> <BR> But I want more weight loss. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Made from scratch. sorghum flour and rice flour pancakes Wed, 27 Sep 2017 12:30:47 EST Day 208 - Gluten-Free Has Helped me lose 23 lbs. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Gluten-Free does not have to deprive you of having delicious breakfast meals. <BR> <BR> Breakfast <BR> <BR> Nature's Bounty Sublingual Vitamin B-12 1,500 mcg 0 0 0 0 0 <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Egg, fresh, whole, raw, 1 large ⊗ 72 0 5 6 0... Tue, 26 Sep 2017 08:46:58 EST Day 205 - Tree trim Guys Came & I got 3 holes in my new roof. ei yi yi Breakfast <BR> <BR> Regular Coffee, brewed from grounds, 2 cup (8 fl oz) ⊗ 4 0 0 1 0 <BR> Nature's Bounty Sublingual Vitamin B-12 1,500 mcg 1 serving ⊗ 0 0 0 0 0 <BR> Celeste Pizza with Sausage, Green & Red Peppers & Mushrooms, 370 39 18 11 2 <BR> Friendly Farms Vitamin D Milk, 0.5 cup ⊗ 75 6 4 4 0 <BR> Nature Made Vitamin D3 - 1000 IU, 1 serving ⊗ 0 0 0 0 0 <BR> <BR> BREAKFAST TOTALS: 449 45 22 16 2 <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 23 Sep 2017 21:52:19 EST The Gift Within ~ Impartiality To be impartial is to be independent and uninfluenced, to remain the master, true to the higher self and my qualities of peace, love and joy. I am unaffected by changing circumstances and other people's negativity. Chaos always subsides, bad moods pass. With a loving and positive attitude, I align myself with that which is true and eternal and then all problems can be resolved. <BR> <BR> Application <BR> I practice Impartiality when I ... <BR> - Go beyond temptations and desires for tempo... Fri, 22 Sep 2017 20:59:44 EST Beginning nextphase of weight loss including FAT FREEZING <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Day 205 of measuring and tracking food intake. I will be easing up on this because I can eye ball portion size by now. I know by seeing the plate what amount to serve myself. And I am satisfied with healthier portion sizes. No need to glut myself on overeating. It is a waste of money and food to eat in excess. Having 1 egg, 1 slice Gluten-free bread is enough. Tracking it, it totals 381 calo... Fri, 22 Sep 2017 12:21:02 EST Stepping Up My Fat Loss Game <img src=""> <BR> <BR> FAT FREEZING <BR> <BR> 30 minutes every night I will be applying 3 frozen water bottles across my abdomen, and left & right sides where there are love handles. <BR> <BR> I will measure my waist every week or every 7 days for 3 months. <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<BR>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> I will be sipping a very hot tea every night : <BR> <BR> 1... Thu, 21 Sep 2017 22:41:30 EST Day 203 - working to keep on track & get tons of chores done <link> </link> <BR> <BR> with the last 10 lbs = 12 lbs to go I will be doing exercises. It's the only way to reduce the fatty deposits all over my body <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> morning supplements <BR> <BR> <BR> Overwhelmed with piles of chores. <BR> <BR> Going... Thu, 21 Sep 2017 09:21:16 EST Day 201 - Back on Water Pill Since Returning from Solo Camping Monday, September 17 2017 I weighed 188.2 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I ate very good yesterday, but took my first water pill in 2 weeks, last night. By ths morning I weighed 185.3: I awoke in the middle of the night to use the bathroom. The scale had dropped to 186.8 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Now that I am not ta... Tue, 19 Sep 2017 08:41:27 EST Day 200 - on this Journey to Reach an Optimum Health <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Homemade Ranch Dressing with homemade buttermilk, Greek yogurt, and mayonnaise and freshly picked garden herbs of dill, parsley, and chives.. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> AND THEN I made this lunch platt... Mon, 18 Sep 2017 21:11:40 EST Day 198 <link><BR>dgBC3Q0& </link><BR>0& <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> out of the garden for 13 days between my wilderness ocean solo camping for 7 days, and surgical testing, and my uncle's funeral, and the garden is a real mess. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 187.3 lbs. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sp... Sat, 16 Sep 2017 20:31:50 EST Day 196 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ] <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Doctor appt at noon. Biopsy results. <BR> <BR> feeling so exhausted. <BR> <BR> more tonight Tue, 12 Sep 2017 06:21:46 EST Day 195 - Back From Solo Camping. Lost 1.6 lbs. in 8 days. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Weight on September 1 2017 <BR> <BR> <BR> I took photos of every meal I ate while camping on the ocean by myself for 7 days. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I lost very little weight and was very active the entire week. <BR> <BR> But my upper thighs are thinner and so is my waist by .25 inch. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 11 Sep 2017 23:22:19 EST Day 187 - Gluten - Free - weight 187.9 <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well the yellow dishes were bought for September when I'd hoped to reach the 170's. My body is overworked and fed brilliantly, yet it is clinging to the 180's so I''m still using blue dishes. In a... Sun, 3 Sep 2017 07:03:40 EST The Gift Within ~ Gentleness Gentleness in a person is a great power. The power that sees, understands, but never interferes. Like the branch of the tree, just touching the earth but never taking root in it. Never to take root in someone else’s mind but to encourage, that’s gentleness. <BR> <BR> Application <BR> I practice Gentleness when I … <BR> · Fill myself with God’s love and use it selflessly in my interactions with others. <BR> · I see the specialties of others and encourage them to move forward.... Sat, 2 Sep 2017 23:18:14 EST Day 186 - Gluten Free - Putting measuring tools & scale away for 7 days <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yesterday's weight. Today was 187.7. All that back breaking non stop work - grueling work that I hated doing - and my caloric intake was 1200 calories and I lost 1 OUNCE. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And my sn... Sat, 2 Sep 2017 10:01:12 EST