LINAYASTEPHENS's SparkPeople Blog LINAYASTEPHENS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Just shaking my head........... Quit and started once again to lose this damn weight again. I've been talking about doing it for quite awhile now, but have been under SO much stress that the thought of getting up and working out was making me want to gag. I made myself get up and start once again today because I'm not happy where I'm at right now. I have lost some weight, but not a whole lot because I haven't been trying my hardest. Plus, it's been so hard finding the time lately what with dealing with all the unnecessary s... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 15:46:54 EST Day 4....Where in the world is my motivation?! Weekends are especially hard for me to get up and get moving with the workouts because I spend so much time on my feet during the week doing housework and taking care of 3 kids that all I want to do is rest. I need to get myself into the habit of making Sundays my rest day or something. <BR> I did great on my eating yesterday because I didn't feel that great and everything I ate upset my stomach so I just settled for drinking tea and water to make sure I stayed hydrated. I was able to eat a l... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 13:10:31 EST Day #2 of Diet Journey the Second...... I could have done a lot better with my eating today. I only went over my carbs by 1 point so I wasn't too hard on myself about it. I shouldn't have had that Papa John's pizza and chicken poppers for supper. It's way too early for me to be "treating" myself for a job well done. I could have passed and said no I will just have a salad or something. There is pizza left over, but I WILL NOT touch it. Got a lot of walking done around the house again today from doing housework. Would love to be abl... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 21:36:55 EST Offical Day #1 I did excellent on my eating today. I decided to start a weight loss journal in addition to doing everything I can on here to help motivate me even more. I wrote down every little thing I at and drank and what I did for exercise. I didn't get a chance to do any cardio today, but I figured it was ok because I was technically on my feet ALL day doing housework until about 4pm. I'm really hoping I can stick to it this time and lose the weight for good. I did it once before and I can do it again!... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 21:32:19 EST New Year=A New Me I'm really going to work my ass off to lose the weight I gained and maybe even lose even more than that <em>30</em> <BR> I started using the spark coach to see if maybe that will help me with the motivation I need to get started and stick with it. I gained about 35 pounds <em>46</em> So I'm hoping to lose 40-50 by this time next year. I did it once before so I should hopefully be able to do it again. Although the last time I lost most of the weight because I went through a bout of ba... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 21:10:18 EST I'm ridiculous So I had met my goal back in March of losing my minimum of 50 pounds. Well guess who gained 30 of it back?! *Insert eye roll now* This is what I get for having a boyfriend who likes to feed me and doesn't care if I'm big or not. I hate the fact that I've gained weight again. I tried so hard to start getting down to where I needed to be and I let that go down the toilet. I have been so stressed out lately and just haven't had the motivation to get off of my lazy ass and do something about it. ... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 20:45:20 EST Definitely going to get serious about the whole losing weight thing I have been pretty bad about doing what i need to do to lose the rest of the weight i want to lose for the moment. I just want to lose maybe 30 more pounds for right now and see how happy i am at that stage. I STILL have yet to replace my scale so i have no idea what my current weight is. I dont want to have to wait until i go to the doctor again next month to find out. Ive also been pretty bad about drinking water. I noticed that i have been breaking out a lot and i HATE it. Im letting mysel... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 20:58:13 EST Im the biggest slacker EVER I havent worked out in probably over a month now but my eating has been really healthy and in control. So thats a big plus :) I still have yet to replace my scale so I have no clue what weight Im at right now. Might get one this weekend if I remember. It will be really gret if im under 190. This is the lowest my weight has been in 9 years and it feels great to be getting myself healthy and back on track again. But I really sould get back into working out bc nowI have a really good reason to k... Wed, 23 May 2012 14:47:20 EST Im the biggest slacker EVER I havent worked out in probably over a month now but my eating has been really healthy and in control. So thats a big plus :) I still have yet to replace my scale so I have no clue what weight Im at right now. Might get one this weekend if I remember. It will be really gret if im under 190. This is the lowest my weight has been in 9 years and it feels great to be getting myself healthy and back on track again. But I really sould get back into working out bc nowI have a really good reason to k... Wed, 23 May 2012 14:39:12 EST Single again.....but at least im still losing weight Yeah so i basically get dumped not even 2 weeks after i start seeing someone. I should have known that it wouldnt work out but i was willing to give it a try and see what would happen. Personally i think he gave up to easily but its not my choice. I was pretty upset bc i really liked this guy but he said this was no chemistry between us. So i start from scratch all over again. Dating and losing weight have got to be 2 of the hardest things to do!! But i will put my best foot forward and look ... Fri, 4 May 2012 16:42:44 EST Day #2 Worked out for about an hour today :) 2nd day in a row...........obviously feeling it in my legs today and ive always loved the feeling that my muscles get when i get a good workout on them. I should have done some upper body exercises but i was pressed for time and i didnt get a chance to do it. hopefully tomorrow (well today now) i will do upper body and some cardio boxing. i LOVE to box. Then maybe sunday i will work on lower body and abs. Hopefully everything goes as planned :) <B... Sat, 28 Apr 2012 00:13:06 EST This is not the way i way i wanted to start things..... I didnt even get to sleep last til about 4am. i messed around playing games online til i felt like i was ready to fall asleep which was a few minutes before 1. i tossed and turned for about an hour and got back up and got back online. it was another 2 hors before i could finally fall asleep. then i had to be up at 6am to get A up and ready for school. Normally i go back to bed for a little bit after she gets on the bus but this morning i was WIDE AWAKE. so now its a little after noon and im s... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 12:13:29 EST Stop Slacking :/ I have got to stop putting my workouts off!! I have 2 really good reasons to get back into doing it and yet im not. 1). I want to be happy in own my own body and be healthy. 2). Im dating again and i dont want that person to think that i dont care about my health and all that. So im going to hopefully do a mild workout tonight since its already 9pm and i dont want the adrenaline to keep me up all night. I have enough problems sleeping as it is. Speaking of that I really need to take my melato... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 21:11:03 EST Life is good!! I'm finally getting my life completely back in order and it feels AMAZING!!i have lost 2 pants sizes in the last 7 months so I am down to a size 15. I now am wearing an XL in shirts and a L in yago pants and other comfy pants!! Not too sure how much weight i've lose so far bc i STILL have yet to get a new scale LOL! Im such a slacker :) But I have been feeling pretty good about myself lately which is definitely a first. I have finally started dating again. Only thing is that hes an hour away ... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 01:00:46 EST It's been a loooong time Well lets see.......3 months after i was last on here my boyfriend of 10 years and i split up :( i went into a deep deep depression and ended up losing 30 pounds bc i was just too depressed to eat. Not the way i wanted to go about losing weight, but it happened. It was a horrible horrible time for me and it took me nearly 5 months before i felt as though i was ready to start dating again. Still nobody for me though :( I am feeling pretty damn good about myself though. My goal was to lose 50 p... Sun, 11 Mar 2012 23:10:19 EST Doing better.....Anxious to get back on my feet I can finally put pressure on my bad foot!! I'm able to walk on the inside of my foot without the use of crutches today. So hopefully by Monday I will be good to go on my cardio again <em>30</em> I didn't go get it checked out or anything. I could move everything fine and my toes weren't cold. There isn't any pain at all unless I put weight down on the side that popped when it happened. The swelling is going down thanks to icing it and soaking it in my foot bath. J brought me some ibuprofen... Fri, 1 Jul 2011 14:21:11 EST No more cardio for this girl for awhile....... So last night i was carrying Little Man and i tripped over some of his toys that were on the floor. My foot twisted to the side and something popped really HARD in my foot. I fell had to swing Little Man to the side so his head wouldn't bash into the dining room floor. My four smallest toes slowly started to swell and eventually turned a wonderful shade of purple. I haven't been able to walk on it since then so my mom had to bring me some old crutches she still had stowed away in one of her c... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 15:58:02 EST Annoyed with myself.... My rest day turned into my rest WEEKEND which turned in a 3 day rest. I couldn't help the rest day yesterday because I woke up with an incredibly upset stomach, a headache and barely enough energy to move. I felt a little better by the evening and I should have done a small workout but I ended up doing some housework. So now I feel extremely guilty even though I couldn't help not being able to workout. so to make up for it I'm going to try to fit in at least 40 minutes in this week since I'm ... Tue, 28 Jun 2011 10:50:06 EST Days 5 and 6 I was planning on taking my rest day today since I figured J wouldn't go into work and we could actually plan a whoel day to do stuff. Well the the kids and I ended up going into town with my mom and then staying at her house the rest of the afternoon yesterday/ So my rest day was yesterday. Then later that night J decided oh I'm going into work tomorrow. He has barely seen his kids all week and all he can say is I can see them next Sunday. But we won't go into that here today. <BR> I kinda ... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 13:12:27 EST Day 4 of my 30 day challenge...... My energy is difinitely an issue today. It's basically nonexistent. I fell asleep a little after 10 last night and woke up and hour later when J finally came home from work. Then I couldn't falll back asleep until nearly 2am. I didn't even want to get out of bed this morning. I had to force myself to get up. I made the kids a quick breakfast of scarmbled eggs and toast. I had a 2 egg omelette with 1 slice of 98% fat free deli turkey breast, 1 cup of 1% milk and i cup of coffee. <BR> My workou... Fri, 24 Jun 2011 19:03:53 EST Day 2 of my 30 day challenge It's been a pretty good day so far. It's been a LONG time since i was able to say that! I am not under much stress at all which is a big change from the past few days. I have a decent amount of energy even though I didn't get a full nights sleep. Back on the Melatonin I go. I still have to take my iron and Biotin pills for the day. plus, I want to get back on a multivitamin. <BR> Day 2 of the 30 day challenge went well. I was able to work through the muscle pain in my thighs. They recommend w... Wed, 22 Jun 2011 16:32:25 EST YAY!!! So i went to put the leg strap on today to do my Wii Active Personal Trainer and I didn;t even have to use the extender!!! It went on great and i didn't even have to hold my breath and grunt to put it on LOL. And the icing on the cake was when I found a battery for my scale and weighed myself. I have lost 15 pounds in 17 months. I know I can do so much better than that and I'm going to make sure that it happens. So I'm in an amazing mood....right now. <BR> I forgot what the date was tomorrow ... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 23:19:27 EST Welcome Summer :) Starting the summer off right with a hot, sticky day <em>198</em> <BR> I also started my summer off right by restarting the Wii Active Personal Trainer 30 day challenge. I WILL finish it this time damn it!! I'm starting off with doing the low intensity for the first 30 days. I ended up working out for about 15 minutes and burned 148 calories. Two more calories than I was suppose to <em>224</em> <BR> So I'm feeling pretty good today besides some stress from the kiddos. Seriously, why must... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 18:29:10 EST I REALLY hate Mondays Everything that can go wrong today is. First the part of my vacuum where the belt goes around the brushes decided to melt to the point where my vacumm is unusable. so now I have to take it in and see how much it's going to cost to get it replaced. My mom has the same vacuum and the exact same thing happened to hers but of course I forgot to ask her how much it cost to replace it. So now I have to borrow her vacuum until I can get ours fixed. We have a backup vacuum but it's motor is blown lol... Mon, 20 Jun 2011 17:24:32 EST Ouch I really need to find some good core workouts that will help with my sciatica. It's annoying being in constant pain. I don't have a problem with working out through the pain. The only thing that get to me is when my sciatica, the severe tendonitis in my right knee, the ankle I sprained in HS and the cysts in my knuckles bother me all at the same time. I'm a MESS. I had shots of cortisone for the cycts years ago but it didn't do a darn thing. I probably should see about getting them removed bu... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 15:15:00 EST Enough is enough I have decided that I'm going to start my Wii Active Personal Trainer 30 day challenge....again. I'm also thinking of buying the Zumba "game" for the Wii. It's only $40 at Walmart and I've heard such good things about it so why not try it out <em>30</em> I also want to get a Wii Fit, but I can't find one under $100 and i never see them on Craigslist. BLAH! I'm just trying to figure out when the best time would be for me to do my workouts. I think in the morning before all the kiddos get up ... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 12:27:12 EST Took it easy today I took all the kids outside late in the morning because Little Man kept going to the door, saying " side side side" and crying. I took it upon myself to finally get the flowerbeds completely weeded finally. I found a bunch of oak tree saplings in one of the flowerbeds and have decided I'm going to transplant them at the edge of the yard by the bank of trees. J is suppose to be home at a decent hour so we can plant some stuff in the garden and get things done outside. Then I'm hoping to hop on... Tue, 14 Jun 2011 19:39:26 EST Had a decent weekend.....FINALLY Granted most of the weekend it was just me and the kids (not too different than other weekends) I was in a decent mood for once. Worked on the Gazelle for another 10 minutes Saturday and did pretty well on my eating. I didn't get a chance to go the Gazelle yesterday, but i made up for it by doing all kinds of stuff outside. I finished planting all my flowers and a couple bushes. I then cleaned all the white lawn furniture and set it up while the kids played in the mud puddles I made in the dr... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 14:30:00 EST Enough screwing around!! Got a little "sweat time" in this morning when i decided to rearrange the bedroom....again. I've been sitting here thinking that if I want to truly be happy about how I look then I really need to get my ass in gear. I've done pretty well on my eating even though I haven't been tracking it on here. I just feel so guilty eating anymore because money has been a little tight lately and I feel better if I know that the food I could be eating is going towards my kids instead. I just get so despress... Fri, 10 Jun 2011 16:17:48 EST Easy Day I took it upon myself to have an easy day today because it was SO hot out today. It ended up getting to 93 with heat indexes of 96-97. Yes, I do have air conditioning, but it was just plain old crappy. With the way the hosue is designed some of the rooms don't get touched by the cool air and even if I have fans trying to circulate it, it doesn't seem to work out all that well. I should have sat down today and got at least 3/4 of the laundry folded and put away, but that's one of the chores i ... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 22:07:42 EST Oh baby it's hot out there...... The girls made me set up their pool this morning and then why whined because the water was so cold. Well no duh you silly girls!! It's supposed to be about 90 today and 92 tomorrow. UGH! We had a severe t'storm warning this morning but all the rain and storms missed us by about 10 miles. Then it rained for about 5 minutes. It wasn't even enough to water the flowers I just planted. It's doesn't look like it will rain anymore today unless something pops up. <BR> I have no idea what to do about ... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 17:09:26 EST Welcome Summer Vacation A is officially on vacation. And it's going to be a hot one. 85 today, 88 tomorrow and 90 Wednesday. I don't want to have to turn the AC on but I should be able to figure something out. Our house is mostly hidden from the afternoon sun until about 5:00 by tons of trees so I can close the windows and blinds before then and turn fans on and it should be too bad in here. Our electric company likes to screw us over on their fees. I have us on a monthly plan where the bill is the same amount every... Mon, 6 Jun 2011 11:04:12 EST I'm so stressed I could cry Do you ever have one of those days where it seems like every single thing just sets you off? I'm definitely having one of those days. I just really don't know how much more I can take. I want to crawl into bed and throw the covers up over my head and sleep for the next 2 weeks. I try not to put anything to personal on here, but sometimes sharing it with people I don't even know and will most likely never meet kinda makes me feel a little better somehow. Got into a fight with the BoyF earlier... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 18:00:44 EST Negligence....... Yes, I have been negletting this lately. I've just been so busy wih end-of-the-school-year stuff with A and Little Man getting into even more crap than before. C has slowed down on her tantrums, but she's getting mouthy like her sister. I've been thinking more and more if accounting is what I want to go back to school for or if there is something else that would benefit me more. <BR> Everything that I wanted to accomplish with my weightloss has gone down the drain. Some things went on and I ... Tue, 24 May 2011 21:12:10 EST I'm alive....... I hadn't realized how long it had been since I was last on here. I've been so busy getting the house organized and with the kids thst I haven't had much time for myself. Plus A has had an abundance of reports and projects to do for school. J has been getting into stuff more and more lately so that's been keeping me busy. C has just been horrible but I wont really go into that right now. So yes that means that I haven't been working out. At all......But I'm really ok with because my eating hab... Wed, 11 May 2011 13:07:47 EST It's a new (and better) day <em>67</em> i woke up to the sun shining today. Finally!!! However, it's a tad bit chilly out. I'm hoping to get outside this weekend and get some flowers planted <em>126</em> As long as it isn't raining....... <BR> <em>326</em> I have decided that from now on I will do maybe a short workout of 10-20 during the day and then my long hour one after the kids go to bed at night. When i do my longer workouts in the early afternoon i tend to get pretty tired a couple hours later and have to f... Fri, 29 Apr 2011 13:58:54 EST This has just been an overall bad week..... I just need to make some changes in my life. Mostly small ones, but I just need to freaking do it already and stop being stupid about it. One bad Sunday turned into a bad Monday which turned into a bad Tuesday....and so on and so forth. I haven't work out. I haven't paid attention eating, but that changed today. If I don't do something about the whole working out thing then one of the goals I was really counting on is going to go down the drain and then I;m going to feel even worse than I do ... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 14:42:08 EST On hiatus..... Since Sunday I just haven't had the best days. I haven't worked out since Saturday and I'v kinda been doing the comfort food thing. I hasn't been too bad, but it's just the mood I've been in and I just want to lay around and do nothing. Who am I kidding anyway. I'm just going to fail at this like I do everything else so i don't even know why I'm bothering. Maybe if a certain somebody was more supportive and wasn't such a damn hypocrite. They go on and on about how they want to lose weight, bu... Tue, 26 Apr 2011 10:56:57 EST I'm in pain, but it's worth it I had the intention yesterday of doing some cardio and strength training for about an hour. Well that hour turned into an hour and 20 minutes <em>104</em> I'm not even regretting it today despite the fact that i can't squat down and it hurts to walk. It's worth it! I felt so much better about myself yesterday because I put in a great workout and burned 720 calories. I was fighting sleep all afternoon because I had to fit my workout in at noon. Then when I try to fall asleep last night it's ... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 10:53:08 EST Well it's about time..... The girls were finally able to go outside this week!! The sun is shining and It's giving me some motivation to get this house spotless and get a workout in. Little man is sleeping and the girls are outside so I should be able to fit in a decent workout without any interruptions <em>334</em> Plus little man is feeling a lot better and he's not clingy like he has been the past 3 days. So I can definitely get some things done today. I'm thinking I will get in maybe an hour of cardio(hopefully)... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 11:54:56 EST I love me some storms :) It had been awhile since we had a really really good thunderstorm here in good old north central ohio. Sure we've had heavy rain everytime it has rained this year, but nothing much in the thunder and lightning category. All we ended up getting was a severe thunderstorm watch early this morning. My 3 year old hates storms so she ended up sleeping with me last night. A LOUD crack of thunder woke us up at about 3AM and she FLIPPED OUT. She then fell asleep with her hands over her ears <em>250</... Wed, 20 Apr 2011 13:21:10 EST Long gone are the days of my kids rarely ever being sick....... Took the little man to his 15 month checkup this morning and it turns out that he has an ear infection. First one I've ever had to deal with in ANY of my kids. And the oldest has a mild case of this weekend wasn't bad enough. Couldn't get outside at all Saturday because it POURED on and off all day. Then Sunday was just something completely different that I really don't want to go into. Needless to say I was extremely stressed out and I didn't workout AT ALL. I just need to ge... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 10:10:21 EST So much to little time I swear if I go one day without doing the laundry or the dishes it seems like there's enough there from at least a week! There needs to be at least 48 hours in a day so I can actually get all the housework done, spend time with the kiddos, have a little "me time", and time to workout. Is that so hard to ask for?! Some days I think "well what would it be like if I only had 1 or 2 kids?" I'm tired of worrying day to day if we are going to have enough money for food or clothes or to pay the rent... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 12:12:44 EST Today is a new day Woke up with a horrible headache today. Doing everything I can to get rid of it because I vow not to be lazy today and do what I said I was going to do almost a month ago. I'm sick of looking the way I do. I'm going to do at least 30 minutes of a workout, maybe even go for an hour. That just all depends on which kid decides to be sick today. I had all 3 of them plus myself sick yesterday. It was NOT a fun day at all. It's decent out today and I would really like to get outside, but I highly d... Thu, 14 Apr 2011 11:35:38 EST Ugh....just go away already! I HATE being sick. I hate how weak I feel and the fact that I can't get anything accomplished. I ended up having my mom take the kids this morning because there was no way I would have been able to stand up long enough to make them something to eat. I napped from 9am until 1:15. I still feel kinda crappy. I'm hoping to feel better by tonight because I will want to get my ass into gear and workout using the Wii. Need to find some good core exeercises to strengthen my back muscles. Something t... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 16:12:57 EST uh oh........ so i get woken up this morning by my 3 year old throwing up......not a good start to the day. that turned into 8 hours of vomiting, not eating and just lying on the couch watching scooby doo. was an easy day dealing with the bc she slept all day and my 14 month old was unusually calm and non-fussy. Now that the kiddo is feeling like her usual get-into-trouble self, i have been sitting on my ass feeling nauseaous and just down right crappy. The smell of supper cooking earlier made me want to v... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 21:57:22 EST I need to get back on track! Haven't really had the best week so I've been stressed out and haven't been doing what I should be doing. To put it mildly.....I've been LAZY. Had a couple bouts of insomnia so my 8 hours of sleep goal definitely went out the window. However, some thngs have changed the past couple days and I feel as though things may start to look up for me <em>100</em> Boyfriend got a new job and we got rid of the crappy SUV so we will be set financially FINALLY! I still need to buy a freaking battery for... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 08:15:04 EST Not a good start... Ive already failed on the small goals I have set for myself. I wanted to get 8 hours of sleep every night(last night I got 5 1/2), drink 8 glasses of water a day(just starting #1), and doing cardio 10 minutes everyday(well, the day isn't over yet). If I can't even stick to my small goals how do I expect myself to stick to my big goal of losing at least 50 pounds to start with??!! I just keep making these excuses or I just think of something else that needs to be done.......I just kinda feel ... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 15:21:09 EST Finally!! I'm really happy to have found this site because I think it will give me the motivation to finally lose the weight I've been avoiding taking off. Three kids and 70 pounds later......I never should have let it get this bad. It's hard to try to live a healthy life when the people in my family aren;t really wanting to do this with me. I don't have any way to get to a gym or even pay for it if I could get to one. Today is the beginning of my new life <em>30</em> I'm SO excited! LOL! Now if only... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 20:14:05 EST