LILYBELLE8's SparkPeople Blog LILYBELLE8's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Celebrating together... Next week I'll be 'celebrating' my 4th anniversary with Spark People. Considering that I've watched the scale go down, then up, then down, then up, then down again, I will be 'celebrating' the modest success of weighing 'only' 5 pounds less than I weighed on my first day as a "Sparker". <BR> <BR> Among 'unintended consequences' that I will also be celebrating next week is the not-so-modest success of the 20 or so pounds that I would have surely gained had I not been SPARKING for the past 4 ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 14:31:24 EST Just for today ... O.k. friends, I'm going to tell you something that I never, ever dreamed would come out of my mouth: We are having a 'lovely' snowstorm in Idaho. Lovely? Snowstorm lovely? Who would have thought I could ever say such a thing - but it is true. It's been snowing all night, and continues even now at 10 a.m. The snowflakes are big and fluffy, and they are gently floating straight down - not blown sideways by a howling wind. It isn't just the vertical line of the flakes that makes this a lo... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 12:28:32 EST Blob or Blog...? Because I've wasted the entire morning with less than stellar activities, I feel like a Blob. Not only do I feel like a blob, I'm acting like a blob. The only thing I've done that could even remotely qualify for 'active' living is to walk aimlessly around the house, following the vacuum cleaner. I've exhausted every excuse I can think of to explain my 'blobby' behavior: <BR> 1. I don't feel well - but that isn't true, I really feel just fine! For that I should be thankful. <BR> 2. It's ... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 14:53:36 EST Be Strong - Fear Not... <BR> Here I sit by the fireplace which has been running constantly for the past 5 days, with an occasional blast of heat from the furnace. Our lows are in the low 20s and our highs are a terrific 48-52. And because I live in farm country where the farmers pray constantly to the Snow Gods because we really do need the moisture, we aren't allowed to complain about snowy, wintery weather out-loud - but I'm doing plenty of disgruntled murmuring/grumbling within the safety of my own house. <BR> ... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 15:36:49 EST Dare to do it ... Can anyone tell me why in the world I would make a batch of Macaroni and Cheese this afternoon then eat about 1/3 of the whole batch? It was a small batch, for sure - but really, what was I thinking?? There really isn't any logical answer for this question, but I know it has to do with some serious emotional needs I have today. This a.m. I attended the funeral of a very dear friend, who was also a dear, dear friend of my husband (departed now 26 years) - all 6 of his children participated in ... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 19:38:03 EST No Gold for me ... My calendar says today is Sunday, August 12 - the day the Olympics end and also the day my own Spark Olympic challenge ends. WE are very quiet on the boards today - does that mean that everyone is still watching Olympic Games, or we are discouraged because our own performance has not been what we had hoped for? In my case, it is my own disappointing finish that has me quiet, but I think I may as well confess right now and try to put it behind me, so here goes: <BR> <BR> I managed to end up w... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 14:13:25 EST Obsession vs Observation ... a journey! I'm agreeing with you Sparkers who lament about our obsession with food, weight, scales. However, I'm also agreeing that without some obsessive fear, who knows where it might end for us? I've been on Spark People for just over 2 years - and have managed to only lose about 8 pounds. Well now, that really isn't true if I count the pounds I've lost over and over and over again. But the general picture is I'm down 8 pounds from where I started. That isn't much, but I know in my heart-of-hear... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 11:46:53 EST Choices and consequences ... Today I'm sitting in a puddle of muddle - why? Because I've learned, once again, that choices have consequences. I had a great time making choices this past week and loved every minute of the 'freedom' that I had, but now today I am reaping the consequences of those choices, and am thinking that I may have sabotaged myself by failing to take responsibility for my choices before the consequences kicked in. The moment of truth about the consequences came when I stepped on the scale this morn... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 11:16:23 EST What??? I'm getting 'nuttin' for Christmas? That's not right! Christmas is just around the corner, and my visit with Santa yesterday didn't go well at all. He indicated that I may be looking at a lump of coal in my Christmas Stocking instead of the 'visions of sugar plums' and other delightful gifts I have had dancing in my head - all because of my procrastination this past year. And I think Santa may have a good point there! I also think my 'visit' with Santa may have been rigged, because he seemed to know an awful lot about me!!! <BR> <BR> Among o... Sun, 11 Dec 2011 13:53:14 EST The fire is so delightful ... Oh, the weather outside REALLY is frightful - we expect a high temp today of 6 degrees above zero. That isn't very warm, but the upside is that I'm sitting by the fireplace - with no pressing errands that need doing, I have plenty of wood (thanks to my big, strong, caring sons who take good care of their mom), I've got some vegetables roasting in the oven, and chicken in the crock pot. The Christmas music is in the background, and I'm enjoying being ME. <BR> <BR> The weather is a temporary... Wed, 7 Dec 2011 14:43:18 EST This day, and always ... I'm reminded today of Abraham Lincoln's "Gettysburg Address ... that we here resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain..." We will be better people, we will develop more understanding for others, we will reach out with compassion to those who suffer, we will share one others' burdens, because, as Lucy Mack Smith wrote many years ago, "we must cherish one another, watch over one another, comfort one another, and gain instruction - that we may all sit down in heaven together. " And w... Sun, 11 Sep 2011 21:32:02 EST Special Needs ... This week is national Special Needs Education Week, and August is Autism and ADHD awareness month. Do you know any Special Needs kids or families of Special Needs kids? Today is a good time to reach beyond our own comfort zone and offer a helping hand, or an encouraging word. And check our own level of awareness for these special ones. <BR> <BR> Kids with special needs aren't weird or odd. They only want what everyone wants ... to be accepted. We honor all those who are challenged, and/... Wed, 24 Aug 2011 22:36:14 EST Puddles of Trouble ... Wow! When trouble finds your address, it just keeps coming back again and again and again. Somehow, somewhere, someone let the cat out of the bag about where I live, and what my most vulnerable issues might be. Trouble moved right in - lock, stock, and barrel. My water heater had a major "come apart" (with no insurance coverage for such a thing), my blood pressure has gone through the roof, money problems are beating the door down, and it is as hot as "H- E- double toothpicks" to just na... Mon, 22 Aug 2011 22:24:36 EST I'm stunned ...! I'm stunned today - realizing that 33 years ago, I gave birth to a beautiful little baby boy and BEFORE delivery I weighed 8 pounds less than I do today! How is this possible? True, I was terribly sick the whole pregnancy - didn't keep one bit of food down the whole nine months, or so it seemed at the time. It is just very difficult to gain weight when you have your head in the toilet, barfing up your toenails every day. <BR> <BR> Oh sure - I can blame my weight gain - post pregnancy - ... Tue, 2 Aug 2011 23:38:21 EST Something's Fishy ... Of course, by now, I've learned not to trust the scale! But it does seem kind of 'fishy' that the silly scale (which I have named Ben - for Benedict Arnold, the turncoat!) is trying to tell me that I've lost 2 pounds this week. <BR> <BR> Alright - so I've had family visiting all week. I love family visiting, but it does have a way of throwing a kink into my regular daily routines, like: exercising, choosing to eat 'appropriately', reasonable bed time, tracking, drinking water, and the r... Sat, 30 Jul 2011 22:26:25 EST "There are those in the ranks ..." Do you recognize this as being part of a phrase from Dale Carnegie, the communication guru? While I haven't heard this phrase for a very long time, today it is on a continuous reel going round and round in my head: "There are those in the ranks who will stay in the ranks! Why? I'll tell you why: 'Simply because they haven't the ability to get things done!'" <BR> <BR> And that's where I find myself today - in the ranks, because I didn't get things done. Some weeks ago I set a goal for m... Sat, 23 Jul 2011 20:47:34 EST I've lost my blankie ... Oh, I am so not going to have a good report today! What is that old saying: "When it rains, it pours" ... that is what has happened to me this week (and last week, and the week before that ... and back and back). I am so down in the dumps and really hope that it is not contagious - hope you don't catch what I have!! <BR> <BR> If you have a personal aversion to "whining and complaining", then be forewarned that this blog isn't going to be your average 'motivational" composition. In fact, i... Sun, 3 Jul 2011 20:37:24 EST Forever grateful ... Many years ago, when I was a young, naive, fairly unsophisticated, 19-year old country girl - full of dreams, aspirations, pep and vinegar, and ready to charge into life full-speed ahead - I married my Prince Charming on May 30. We were blessed to have 28 years together, filled with adventure and love - along with a few days here and there of complications, misunderstandings, misgivings, and sometimes pure misery (but we got over it- usually before going to bed at night). This good husband... Fri, 27 May 2011 17:57:50 EST My challenge ... Being an Idaho "mountain girl" who feels very much at home living within the Rocky Mountain range, I freely admit that the ocean (any ocean) is very strange and totally awesome to me. The 'flatness' of the water goes on for eternity, or at least as far as my eyes can see - not so with the mountains of Idaho. The mountains in my backyard have a beginning, a peak, and an end. Then, as soon as one mountain ends, another begins throughout the entire range. To me, it seems that the ocean comes... Thu, 19 May 2011 23:35:20 EST Super Moon ... The big news for tonight is that we are supposed to see a "Super Moon" - which happens when the moon is closer to the earth than usual - making it appear much larger or "super". I won't be seeing the super moon tonight because we're having another snowstorm even right now. However, that doesn't mean that the super moon won't be seen by millions of other people - it just means that this is one night sky spectacle that I'll have to depend on others to describe and explain so I'll know what I'... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 22:33:11 EST Bill Cosby said ... Bill Cosby has long been one of my very favorite philosophers. Many years ago I heard him lecture on "How to Quit Smoking" - he had one very fool-proof method that he claimed works every time, on every one - no exceptions!! According to Bill, all you have to do is keep cigarettes (the bad stuff) away from your mouth. That's it - the magic bullet! <BR> <BR> Having never been a smoker, I don't know whether this is sound advice or not. But being a life-time dieter, I'm pretty sure this sam... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 00:23:03 EST If I won't do it for myself, maybe .... So today the Doc called with results from my latest blood work. Sugar is up a "tad"; cholesterol is down, but not enough; thyroid is improving SLOWLY. His suggestion "exercise, exercise, exercise - and limit the carbs and sugar". Somehow, coming from him it seems a lot more important that I get with the program than it does when I tell myself that - constantly tell my self that!. <BR> <BR> Why is it that we are so willing to follow someone else's advice when our own inner voice tells u... Fri, 11 Mar 2011 20:36:29 EST Off the Wagon - or Under the Bus? I've never really understood what it means to "fall off the wagon" - but am guessing that it suggests that someone might temporarily lose sight of their goals or focus and make some unwise choices, then they might have fallen off the wagon?? However, I think I know what it means to "throw someone under the Bus"! Again, I would have to guess that this phrase usually refers to making a scapegoat of someone else - or putting the blame for something on another person. <BR> <BR> But here's my ... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 22:41:45 EST Honest!! It wasn't me this time ... Now it would appear that my prayers have very little effect on the weather! At first I felt such a heady responsibility with my "all-powerful, direct access to heaven" skill - that was when I thought the persistent snowstorms might be a result of my prayers. Now - even with my mouth shut tight - the snow continues. Oh, what a disappointment to find that I'm not SuperWoman!! Well, back to the normal life of fussing about diet and exercise. Let the snow gods take care of their own business... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 13:27:18 EST OOPS ... To all of those near me who are sick of winter ... I'm sorry! I'm truly sorry, but I had no idea that my prayers were so powerful and that the Weather Gods would take anything I said in jest and covert it to reality. What am I talking about, you ask??? Well, I'm talking about snow. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I talked about Spring, saying that the Litmus Test for Spring is when you see a young mom pushing her bundled up baby around town in a stroller - and because I did see that unusual sight ye... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 20:12:08 EST The Litmus Test .... Sometimes we look to Phil the Groundhog for assurance that Spring is on the way - sometimes we sit and watch the snow melt, puddle by puddle, hoping that Spring is on the way. But today I witnessed the Litmus Test for Spring and wanted to shout "Hooray"! I didn't see the groundhog, or even his shadow - I didn't see puddles and puddles of melted show running every which way, although I did notice just a few tiny water riverlets trickling here and there. No - the big litmus test for Spring in... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 20:37:39 EST If you don't want it, don't feed it! I live out in the "country" - waaayyyy out in the "country". Neighbors are not close by. I don't see the glow from anyone else's yard-light, even on the clearest, darkest dark nights. I mean, I LIVE OUT IN THE COUNTRY. Now what could this have to do with "If you don't want it, don't feed it"? <BR> <BR> Well, "other" things live out in the country, too! Like rabbits, deer, fox, moose, bald eagles, skunks, porcupines, raccoons. All of those wild critters live out in the country with me, ... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 23:08:03 EST It isn't what I eat ... It isn't what I eat that causes my weight problem! Oh no, contrary to popular opinion, it is not what I do eat that gets me in trouble with the scale - it is what I DO NOT eat that ends up being my nemesis - day after day after day after day. You see, here's my confession: I am a snacker and hardly ever treat myself to a "sit-down" meal. That means that I really don't know when I'm actually hungry, and so I go for very long stretches at a time without offering my poor body any decent food... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 22:50:52 EST It's a mystery to me ... This past week I've tried to "talk" via Spark Comments to several members and have been sorely disappointed to learn that they have to add me as a friend before receiving any comments from me. This is what I don't understand: Why would someone join a social self-improvement network like Spark People, which is dedicated to "people helping people" and then put a "stop sign" at their own front door when people come to call? I just don't get it. It is a mystery to me. <BR> <BR> But that isn'... Sun, 26 Dec 2010 18:49:36 EST Appointment with destiny ... I've heard it said that one definition for "insanity" is to keep doing what you've always done and expect different results. Along that thought, every morning I've continued to do what I've always done - get out of bed, go to the bathroom, strip off as many clothes as I can, and hop on the scale. And, even though I always do the same thing, I continue to expect a different result - and it just doesn't happen! The scale usually doesn't move, and if it does move, it goes in the wrong direction!... Wed, 22 Dec 2010 20:58:29 EST ...I'm Dreaming ... Christmas is just around the corner - and while some of us might not celebrate Christmas as a religious holiday, it is likely that everyone joins in the thoughts of "Peace On Earth, Goodwill Toward Men (and women)". And it is also just as likely that Christmas music fills the air - even in all the stores and elevators we listen to Christmas music all day, and most of the night from Thanksgiving to Christmas. Personally, I like the activities that go along with Christmas, I like the idea o... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 18:15:18 EST Plan B ... Well, friends, it is beginning to look very much like I will not reach my goal of losing 4 more pounds by Thanksgiving - my calendar says there are only 4 days left until Thanksgiving. To achieve my goal of losing 4 pounds by then, I'll have to lose more than 1/2 pound a day until Thursday. I doubt very much, regardless of my good intentions, that I'll make that goal. However, they say that it isn't over until the "Fat Lady" sings - and so I'm going to try really hard to not start singing... Sun, 21 Nov 2010 21:13:26 EST Note to self ... This is the craziest thing! When I lose, I get all excited and think it might be because of something I'm doing - yet, when I do what I think is exactly the same thing the next day, I gain, and I just can't figure out why. Does this mean I'm willing to take credit for the good, and not the bad? <BR> <BR> The only thing I can even think of that I might have done,or failed to do, yesterday was have only one tsp of coconut oil (not the usual 2 TBSP daily) - oh, and yes, there is the little mat... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 10:39:56 EST S.O.S - 101 I'm one of those people who couldn't decide whether to just give up totally and quit Spark or try running off to join the circus! I struck a compromise and put myself into a sort of "witness protection program" - working by myself as best as I could, given my circumstances, "under the radar." Slowly, I'm coming out of my self-imposed exile, and when I recently sent out a "help - I've fallen and can't get up" plea, Sparkers have appeared on the scene to help me up and get me moving again. I... Mon, 2 Aug 2010 12:06:58 EST Could it be TRUE? I know that the scales DO, occasionally, lie! That is just one of the hazards of doing business with scales, which can be fickle at best, and liars at worst. But, my scales have consistently shown a weight loss - two days in a row? Could it be true that I've broken through a barrier and this is the beginning of new-found success for me? I'm not yet estatic, but very pleased with myself if the scales are not lying - if I have truly broken through. <BR> <BR> I'm not talking about the "gla... Sat, 29 May 2010 12:37:40 EST Dr. Zhivago ... When I first joined Spark People, I had great hopes that it would be sort of a "magic bullet" for me. I now believe that I didn't identify my target well enough and, if there is a magic bullet here, it has gone astray! I thought it was important to spend time on the site, and "earn" a lot of Spark Points - and have consistently increased my efforts to do just that! Now I'm questioning my own motives and beginning to re-set my priorities. <BR> <BR> I'm reminded of the scene where Lara list... Tue, 18 May 2010 19:19:42 EST "Grandma, did you find yourself? So, a stray cat has recently adopted us. Then she found her way into my '73 VW Super Beetle, which has been in storage for the past 5 "winter" months, and laid a batch of 5 kittens. We discovered the momma cat and her new family when we went to put the freshly charged battery into THE BUG in preparation for summer driving. Long story short, we moved her and her kittens to a new "nest" so in a way, we foreclosed on her digs. She quickly moved her kittens to another new home - and when we ... Sun, 16 May 2010 01:50:11 EST Question: "Am I the Problem?" Tonight during Mediation Training, the question was posed to mediators: "When the parties fail to reach a resolution or agreement, are you, as mediator, the problem?" Well, as we discussed the pros and cons of that issue, it occurred to me that I could well be part of the problem that I'm struggling so much right now with my "resolution/agreement" with myself about weight and fitness. <BR> <BR> Self seems to be on board for this gig; Heart is in the right place and seems to take the disapp... Wed, 12 May 2010 00:43:58 EST Unscathed??? So - Self and I had a sisterhood-pact: We would go to our mediation training with a firm plan. We thought it best that the plan be "firm," but not set in concrete! And off we went, into the Lions' Den of social eating. <BR> <BR> And, joy of joys, the caterers must have known we were coming because they had individually wrapped packets of veggies - limited to carrot and celery sticks, but hey - good enough - at the refreshment table. And, even though Self and I had agreed beforehand that ... Sun, 9 May 2010 20:29:54 EST Going into the Lions' Den ... So, Self - You and I are going to have a problem tomorrow unless we decide right now how we are going to handle the food challenges that will surely rear their ugly heads. You'll remember that we are going to an all-day training seminar for Conflict Resolution Mediators, right? This will, or rather could, be like throwing ourselves into the Lions' Den unless we establish some priorities here and now. You'll also remember that the last time we went, to this mediator training there were tons... Sat, 8 May 2010 00:48:09 EST When you are in a hole, STOP digging! Usually we dig the holes that we find ourselves in. Not usually can we put the blame anywhere except squarely on our own shoulders! This is true whether we say things that we know we shouldn't; we fill our homes with clutter (whether there is any 'value' in that clutter or not); we put things in our mouths that we know we shouldn't. When we find ourselves in these "holes," the first line of defense might well be to stop digging ourselves into a bigger problem than we already have. For ex... Fri, 7 May 2010 19:24:39 EST Giving Up on Teams??? So - today I got the "cleaning" bug and decided to declutter my Spark Page by eliminating some of the Teams I've joined. Seems like there are some that I've been unable, or unwilling, to search and keep current with, so as I've added new teams, it was time to downsize on teams. <BR> <BR> But, fortunately, before actually pressing the "delete" button, I took a few minutes to study the purposes and goals of the teams I had planned to leave - and also some of the team members' postings. O... Tue, 4 May 2010 22:43:10 EST Endure to the end! Some weeks I have thought that "enduring to the end" might be to make it until Friday. But today is Friday, and rather than let it be the "end" of my vigilence in the nutrition/exercise area, I think I'll continue to endure - and plan to do it well! No slacking off just because the week-end is just around the corner. No excuses for making poor choices. No saying to myself, "just this once won't hurt a thing". Just between me and me, I'm going to reward myself for doing well and sticking ... Fri, 30 Apr 2010 13:34:51 EST Time for me?? I've just spent some time cruising through some SparkPages and am pondering a common thread that seems to run through most of our pages: "I need/want to take time for me". Why do you think it is that we feel a need to make that declaration? Do we feel selfish when we claim "me" time? Do we somehow feel that we don't "deserve" to take time, energy, and other personal resources to take better care of ourselves? <BR> <BR> It reminds me of a cartoon I saw recently: The patient is in the D... Mon, 26 Apr 2010 22:45:51 EST An "ah-ha" moment Knowing that I have a difficult time separating myself from my "belongings" to the point that it sometimes becomes ridiculous and embarrasing - I think I've had an "ah-ha" moment today, while having lots of time to think about things during a bout of Stomach Flu. Here's my big idea: I'm not so sure it is the actual "things" that I'm attached to, or some more subtle reminder of a past experience that makes me want to hang on to things. So here's what I'm going to try: <BR> <BR> I like to... Thu, 15 Apr 2010 21:05:51 EST Weigh weekly or daily? I'd like some help from Sparkers who weigh weekly - does it help or hinder your progress? And what about daily weighers? Do you feel daily weighing is a help or a hinderance? I'm toying with the idea of NOT weighing every day - any suggestions? ~Lilybelle Mon, 5 Apr 2010 23:36:47 EST