LILSHINE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LILSHINE LILSHINE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Is accepting change harder than making a change? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947609 I really believe both are a struggle for me. Had I been asked prior to seeing the results I posted a few days ago...I would have said I see neither as a problem for me. But boy was I incorrect. <BR> <BR> My focus has solely been on seeing results in certain areas that I was missing the evidence of change. My focus: belly fat...da rolls, back rolls, arm rolls and jiggle...oh let me not forget the scale!! <BR> <BR> While I was praying and focusing on these things my body (with Gods help) ... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 07:45:41 EST Photo comparison that opened my eyes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946513 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6ce39414-9d1a-4474-8b5a-1533110bf724.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The photo in the red skirt was taken last Sunday. I sent it to my daughter as she gave me the skirt for my birthday. I wasn't expecting the response I got from her "wow mom you're looking slim" keep up the great work. It took a while for me to get it. When I was at work last week people continued to comment about my weight loss. I'm still like really?? The pic on the left was in 2013 the st... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 07:51:00 EST June 10th almost mid point and what have I accomplished http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942805 Self check up is a good thing...examining what's happening during the journey is just as important as at the end of the month. I'm still lingering or teetering right at the brink of the next goal of 250s. I'm determined to roll over this month. <BR> <BR> I am setting a 21 day goal of working out starting tomorrow. I may start today but have a dentist appointment after work today. I have been slacking in my workouts but I'm feeling pretty good these past two days so I'm going to try to get ... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 08:54:56 EST Happy to be... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941614 It's Monday and I'm happy to be alive to live through it. You should be too! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I loss an uncle and I also saw a post that a young cancer fighter went home to be with the Lord as well. Death has been around my friends and yesterday it hit my family. So be grateful you're still here. I'm sure one that loss their life would trade with you today! <BR> <BR> Anyway...my weekend was blah! Still not exercising. Feeling a lil better but not 100%! Stats are returning to normal bu... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 08:24:37 EST June and my weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940114 Good morning <BR> <BR> It's June and I'm posting my official weigh in as of this morning. I'm 261.0 today. I'm officially 30#s down from my highes weight of my life! My goal was to be in the 250s by the beginning of this month. I didn't quite make it but I'm close. <BR> <BR> Focusing now on getting there and breaking the mental cycle that I face each time I get this close. I haven't worked out this week as I've had some weird health challenges. Hopefully they will pass and I can get wit... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 09:03:06 EST Late weigh in post but I'm here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932425 Good day....I'm excited today which must mean my weigh in was positive! Yep...yesterday was my official weigh in and I'm down to 261.6. On Wednesday I was 259.4 and I looked at the scale with no understanding it was not registering to me. I was trying to understand and I literally couldn't comprehend those numbers. After I thought about it I saw my blockage appearing to me and made me ask some questions of myself. Is this why my body freezes at the 260s?? Mentally I haven't been able to see... Fri, 22 May 2015 09:01:56 EST No weigh in today but updating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927929 Thursday is typically my weigh in day but...I ran out of my diuretic and BP meds but finally got them last night. I know without the water pill for a few days I would show water weight gain. So I'll weigh probably Saturday morning. <BR> <BR> I did get a weigh in at my doctors on Tuesday. I weighed at home first and I was 264.0. Got to doc scale and I was 258.0. I lost 6#s driving to doctors office lol!! Me and honey go at it because he swears my home scale is broken or wrong. I had to let... Thu, 14 May 2015 08:16:28 EST Weigh in day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924116 Getting it out the way....I'm at 264.8 today!!! I'm under 265.0 again and I'm praying for breakthrough. I've been eating well below my calories lately which can hurt me also. My appetite I can't say is low but I'm not seeing food as an interest lately. I eat but only because I need to. My breakfast has been the same two boiled eggs and either bacon or sausage. I may drink my morning smoothie as mid morning snack and most days I do. My lunch is small as I explained before I go to lunch late ... Thu, 7 May 2015 08:06:48 EST May 5 -Journey to discover why I crash/sabotage my journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922889 I could only think of that title today...lol <BR> <BR> Just making sure I check in and blog. Yesterday was a strange day to me! Wasn't quite sure how I was feeling but it was weird. I had some obstacles at work and lately I've found myself engaged in conversations that are not me. I spent my evening before God because I know that was part of the strange feeling I was having. <BR> <BR> I started my journey and my journaling to enter into a space of self awareness. My focus this month is to... Tue, 5 May 2015 07:52:49 EST May goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922277 Good morning <BR> <BR> I'm not out of the fight just yet. I know that this is a lifetime battle and when it gets easy I have to buckle down a lot more. As long as I'm in the struggle I know I'm right at the door of my breakthrough! So I continue to press forward. <BR> <BR> May goals: <BR> Don't quit, don't give in <BR> Keep guzzling my water ...aim for a gallon but no less than 80 oz <BR> Get moving at least 2-3 times a week <BR> Stay with my smoothies and push for full days periodically... Mon, 4 May 2015 08:41:43 EST I've been neglecting my Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920076 Good morning!! <BR> <BR> I've been such a dedicated employee that I've come in and went to straight to working. How dare I?! Lol. Well I made a conscious decision today to blog since it is the last day of the month <BR> <BR> Unfortunately I didn't meet my April goals 😡. I'm disappointed but I can't quite figure out why I can't break this weight of 265. Today my official end of the month weight is 265.2. I've bounced between that and 267 all month. Even with drinking my smoothies once t... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 07:47:19 EST It's my birthday!! End of a challenge, weigh in & NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912786 Wishing me a very blessed birthday. I am truly honored that God has giving me another year. Today I am 51 years old and I must say I'm feeling fabulous!! <BR> <BR> I'm at the quarter mark of my 60 day smoothie challenge. It was a rough start but this week I must say I've been doing pretty good. Yesterday was the only day this week I didn't have any smoothies. I was out of the office distributing food all day so I didn't have time for food. I am more focused with it now and will continue on t... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 07:54:15 EST 22 of 27 and 8 of 11 how am I doing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910348 Good day! I'm hanging in there and refreshing my journey as of yesterday! <BR> <BR> I've been struggling to stay on track while life has been happening. I didn't work out at all last week. I did improve with my water consumption. I was a lot more focused. I added an app that scares me sometimes because it sounds like water going down the drain. It reminds me to chug. Which is really great on days I forget. <BR> <BR> Work has been busy so I stay engaged all day, which is a good thing. I w... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 07:48:14 EST Day #15 of 27 (day 1 of 11) - proving him wrong and losing too :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906224 Happy Monday!!! <BR> <BR> Yeah I've been M.I.A. The Easter weekend has been busy. I haven't lost my mojo but it was a bit side tracked while I handle my Lords business. I'm back right now and hopefully no more distractions. <BR> <BR> Okay I got 11 more days until my birthday! And until my next weigh in. I ate a lot yesterday or should I say we had a lot of food. I tried but I had to quit. No force eating just because it's there. Well today I'm ready and will be on point always. <BR>... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 07:50:52 EST Day #11 of 27 breaking barriers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904048 Today's recap marks 3 days of working out! On top of my workout yesterday I completed my gallon of water!!! <BR> <BR> My workout yesterday was longer and a bit more intense. I rode the bike for 10 minute warm up. Hit weights for legs and chest. Finished my gym workout with a 10 minutes elliptical challenge. It was a challenge to make the full ten minutes. When I got home I worked on my back, and shoulders, did some stretches for my leg and a few crunches. Let's just say I was tired by din... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 08:16:19 EST Day #10 of 27 Starting to feel a spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903395 Finally!!! I didn't go to the gym yesterday I had a mild headache and I really didn't feel like driving that way. I was dressed for a workout when I left work (key to my motivation) and I was determined to do something. I pulled into my driveway, pulled out my ear plugs, launched my iHeart radio app, my digifit app to track my workout and I hit the sidewalk for a brief walk. I walked about 10 minutes and those were a hard ten minutes. My aches were telling me to turn around so I listened. ... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 08:19:47 EST Day 9 of 27 weigh in day for March http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902836 Oh well....I might as well get it in early 268.4 a gain of one pound!! The entire month I gained a pound and loss nothing. Well I went up and down but my lowest this month was 267. Oh well I keep pressing forward. I won't let the scale be my final result. I will trust the process <BR> <BR> So yesterday I said I wouldn't post my plan of action daily, I would post what I get accomplished. Yesterday I really talked myself into going to the gym. I debated between stopping to a park and doing ... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 09:23:56 EST Day 8 of 27 new week...what shall I accomplish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902130 Good Monday to you: <BR> <BR> Yeah I'm trying to convince myself that I'm full of energy and ready to get going! I'm not and I really can't quite figure out what's up with that!! I have very little energy. I could go right back to sleep. I sometimes take sleep aids to fall asleep. Lately I haven't had to and I fall off to sleep like bam! Even last night I was aware of my sleep pattern. I got up to go bathroom and went right back to sleep. I woke up when my alarm went off and dozed off ag... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 08:11:27 EST 5 of 27 ....I'm feeling some sort of way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900484 I guess in due time whatever it is will come forth. I feel tired and sleepy today. I went to bed at 8 because I was so sleepy and I'm still feeling that way today. But I feel like something GREAT is about to happen and I'm not even sure what it could be....I wait patiently on The Lord. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did somewhat better in my eating journey. I only had one smoothie yesterday. I completed a little over half jug of water which is an improvement. My day was busy and I drank my first sm... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 07:45:49 EST Day #4 of 27 what a week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899885 I've been MIA for a few days, but I'm still here. As of my last post I was returning from visiting my daughter. The very day I left she returned to work. That night she missed a step while carrying a table down some stairs and she fell. As of now she may have fractured her ankle and tore or dislocated something in her knee on the same leg. She has an appointment with orthopedist tomorrow and my prayer is that there will be no surgery. She's been a trooper but of course mom wants to run to... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 07:47:50 EST Who goes on vacation and lose weight? Day #2 of 27 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898644 Me! me! Me! Yeah I'm shocked too...lol <BR> <BR> Well I weighed in this morning. Today is my second day on my birthday/60 day challenge. My starting weight 267.4...I'm down 2.8 from my pre vacay weigh in. <BR> <BR> I had a great visit with my girls. Ate real fancy like lol...basically ate like once a day. Typically the meals were huge and lasted all day, munched off the leftovers. Some meals I finished others I ended up sharing or tossing. I walked a lot on Sunday when we went to the ... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 08:19:42 EST Semi leave of absence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896122 I'm still around but took a little trip to visit my baby girl at the last minute. I'll be back soon but may also stop in while I'm away. I'm hanging out in big ole Fort Worth Texas and of course it's a bit chilly here for me. <BR> <BR> My daughter has a bad cold, which I'm trying not to partake in. It's in the 60s this week. Was suppose to rain but I haven't seen any yet. But their apartment is colder than outdoors. These ladies must have hot flashes. I think they keep the thermostat at 6... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 20:32:03 EST My post a blog feature...I'm shocked but thankful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891574 I was wondering why I got all of these new spark friend request in one day?!! Now I know...lol wow I happy my blog resonated with so many people! <BR> <BR> By no means will I give up on me!! That's not an option. I appreciate all the advice and I truly believe in guarding my tongue. It's a practice that never stops being perfected. Taming the tongue is not an easy task but I keep striving to get better at it! <BR> <BR> My days have been busy and I have not made a workout yet this week.... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 07:51:36 EST What we speak...does it really happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890319 Hmmmm I thought about that for the past two days. It's seems that everything I say I've learned on this journey and almost everything I've said lately is showing up right in front of me. Problem is...it's the negative stuff I don't want to happen that's happening. Makes me think what if I said the opposite?? <BR> <BR> My point is yesterday I was like start the week off right by getting in your workout. Did I get in a workout? No. I spent a lot of time reading during work and I also went... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 07:48:29 EST Monday...start it off right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889659 Why is it so many of us dread or hate Mondays? It's just like any other day of the week isn't it? I mean it carries 24 hours just like any other day. So I say why not look at the positives in it instead of the negatives. Hey I'm grateful to have another day, a job to go to and the ability to see this day and make something good out of it. So happy Monday to you!! <BR> <BR> My weekend was 50% positive and 50% not so positive. I worked out Friday. Did a little better with my water intake. ... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 07:44:19 EST Aftermath...heading into the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887948 The day after weigh in day or the day of weigh in day is the aftermath. Here is where I splurge and go crazy eating until Sunday or Monday. Then I try to undo damage by the next weigh in. I clearly see that and this time around I'm not self sabotaging!! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was busy for me at work. It's hard dealing with people who don't want to work or don't care about their work product. I can't deal with it! <BR> <BR> I was running around a lot so I didn't drink my water as I should ha... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 07:35:54 EST Weigh in day...the true experience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887345 Good morning Sparkers or good evening.... <BR> <BR> Jumping right into it today. Today is my official weigh in day and I'm at 264.8!! I'm excited even though that's .04 loss this week I'm finally under 265 and further away from 270. Now last week I stated that I gained a lot of water weight due to not taking my water pill for my HBP. I was up to 270...I went away for a week with all the good southern cooking available and I'm proud to say I didn't do damage. My efforts are paying off and I ... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 07:48:20 EST Reason #13 blood pressure cuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886711 Okay yesterday I went to the dentist for my cleaning. They take your blood pressure just in case they have to give you antibiotics. I have big arms so the normal cuff doesn't fit. It seems that no matter how many times I tried to tell this assistant she has to lower it she kept saying no, no right here. So I let her squeeze my flab three times while the cuff slowly came apart and the machine said error. So she's going for the fourth try and I'm like NOPE we're going to try it my way this tim... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 07:46:14 EST Off to a good start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886040 I've seen it posted that you should never miss a Monday workout! Why? Because it sets the tone for your week! So did I miss my Monday workout ? No I most surely didn't! I did better than I thought I would. I road the bike for 15 minutes clocked in a little over 4 miles! Did my leg curls using 55#s 4 sets of 12; followed by leg extensions using 16# weight 4 sets of 10 these are sort of hard for me still with the knee but I'll get there. Afterwards I did the elliptical for 15 minutes and ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 07:52:18 EST Mega March Motivation ....just keep pushing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885338 Good Monday morning!! So beautiful outside this morning. Fortunately for me I'm in Miami where we're enjoying 72 degree weather. I'm praying for those going through these mega snow storms and shut ins. Hang in there! <BR> <BR> It's already March and we're 3 months into the new year. I'm happy to be back home and to life as I know it. I devoured some water when I got home Saturday. It was good to be able to guzzle as needed. I thought I'd see some great numbers when I got on the scale Saturd... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 08:05:17 EST Reason #12 oh what a feeling!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882966 That's the first thought/song that popped in my head today. Oh what a feeling it will be to see just how far I can push myself. I can't even imagine what losing 30, 40, 50... more pounds will feel like. I mean in addition to the 30 pounds I've already lost. I've been at my current weight as an adult before. At 30 more pounds not even at 20 more pounds can I even remember being 245 or 235 pounds. I'm just excited to see what my body looks like and what my state of mind will be when I hit those... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 08:16:49 EST Reason #11 My belly rolls http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882560 Well I noticed that my main focus lately has been on my belly rolls. I don't know why this has become such a focal point for me. I can't even tell you why the change has come. I even noticed that I'm self conscious about it sitting in the car with honey. It's like it's waving at me or something. I never been this obsessed with my tummy. I don't know it seems to have dropped or changed in some way. I find myself looking at it often. Well I guess my point of losing weight is to get rid of thi... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 14:52:48 EST Reason #10 airplane seats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881629 Anxiety over not having to sit in the middle seat. Especially when you don't know the person on either side. I fortunately had an aisle and a window seat coming over. Now the aisle is not my preference either. One thing about this trip the airline attendant was quite chunky and his hips showed no mercy each time he passed by me. And that cart they push oh my. But other than that the seatbelt hasn't been an issue for me. But the discomfort of trying to make sure all of me stays on my side of... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 07:56:39 EST Reason #9 stop the medical world from assuming it's because I'm overweight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879216 Ever been to the doctor and everything that you're there for is weight related or so they say. I think back on a recent visit to a doctor who seemed overly obsessed with asking me if I was sure I wasn't diabetic. He came at me a few different ways like he was a detective trying to get me to "slip up". Like are you diabetic...no. What do you take for your diabetes....I'm not diabetic so nothing....your toes maybe numbing because of your diabetic neuropathy....again I'm not diabetic so what ... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 07:36:44 EST Reason #8 my day is coming soon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877914 I truly believe that my wedding day is on the horizon! When that time comes I want to be at the point where I'm at goal, near goal or just need to tone and tighten. I don't want to have 50 plus pounds to go or I won't feel right. I'm confident at whatever size I'm in...but am I happy on the inside or just a face for the masses? I want my confidence to be real when that day comes and everyday! Loving me has never been an issue. But loving what I see undressed changes daily. I know I can do... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 08:03:28 EST Reason #7 so I can go shopping again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877248 Lol!! I promised myself I would not indulge in clothes shopping again until I lose more weight. I was an addict. I realized after replacing the bar in my closet twice in a week that I had waaayyyy too many clothes. Of course it was pointed out to me by honey who replaced the bars both times. But it was an eye opening moment. To further prove that point...today I have on an outfit that I wore to my 50th birthday last year. This is the second time I've worn it and it's almost been a year. Sham... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 08:15:33 EST Reason #6 prove to myself that I can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876714 No one else but me. That's the only one I have to prove something to. I know this journey will make me push myself past what I think I'm capable of doing. So I'm eager to see just how far I can push myself to see exactly what lies underneath. <BR> <BR> This weekend has been pretty decent. My weight has returned to normal range. Now to break the plateau of bouncing back and forth and get over to the 250s. I have not worked out for a set workout. I have been doing bathroom workouts even at h... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 11:34:15 EST Reason #5 In hopes of inspiring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874945 I hope that my efforts and future success at this battle will encourage others to lay aside every weight. I hope that one day I can tell my story and help someone else reach that point of healthier lifestyle <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a not so on point day. It started off poorly. I was unprepared for breakfast. I stopped to McD's bad choice and had a big breakfast. Usually I get the egg mcmuffin. Don't know what I was thinking! Then I had cuban toast later that morning for my mid morning snac... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 07:58:55 EST Question: why do people ask or say http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874400 Things like: <BR> <BR> Oh you losing weight or something? <BR> <BR> Why you losing so much weight? <BR> <BR> Who you losing weight for? <BR> <BR> These are comments I've gotten this week alone. Personally I guess they see something I'm not seeing. Yeah I've loss a lil bit but didn't think it was noticeable to me at least. I take compliments well but I just was thinking about the approach. I'm not upset or offended just thought it was funny when I sit and think about. What you say? Thu, 12 Feb 2015 09:52:46 EST Reason #4 feeling accomplished http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874394 I'm a big procrastinator. I like the pressure of doing it at the last minute. Funny thing...I produce a better product at least when I was in school. On top of that consistency is my other foe. <BR> <BR> So to win at losing weight means I win at both of these flaws. In procrastinating as it is related to my weight loss, I keep putting off what I need to do to get to my goals. Now the only deadline I could think of for this is a mega event, a health scare or a bet that I just have to get the... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 09:45:31 EST Reason #3 because it's the right thing for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873680 Good Wednesday to you <BR> <BR> Yes, losing the excess is a good thing for me to do. Funny thing about the weight baggage that I've carried around for years is ....it clutters my life, body and atmosphere. One thing I hate in a house is clutter. I like open space and order. I dislike having stuff everywhere just because there is space for it. I guess growing up in the era that I did...black folks loved figurines and fish tanks!! As least my family of women did. And who got to clean the fis... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 07:44:06 EST Reason #2 tired of being tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873107 Hey there! I know, I know I've been missing. I had my injection on Thursday and when they said take it easy I did! I'm doing great today. But it's the last day of my muscle relaxers and the injection won't kick in for 4-6 weeks. <BR> <BR> Now as for today's reason: I'm tired of battling the same issue over and over, year after year. It's time to make progress and to finally reach a point where I'm just working on keep the weight off and staying healthy. The focal point for too long has b... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 10:03:26 EST Reason: #1 my knee and leg problem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869886 Okay yesterday I mentioned that I could blog daily about my reasons to lose weight. So I'm going to attempt to do that the remainder of this month. So today: <BR> <BR> Last year July I tore my meniscus and had surgery. I've had problems with my recovery every since. I have arthritis in the knee and almost bone on bone. Per the medical community I'll need knee replacement surgery in the next 10 years. According to how my God IS set up....I'm praying and believing for the supernatural knee rep... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 08:23:47 EST Step by step and day by day...I strive to do better...but am I? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869215 I most certainly am!! Even the smallest change and action is better than none. I've been drinking my water. Getting in more each day. Working my way to my gallon a day. With my leg being in the shape it's in...those bathroom trips can be tiring. But I will endure. <BR> <BR> I lifted weights last nite at home and did some ab work. I focused on wall push ups yesterday with every bathroom trip. So I got in about 80 yesterday. I was doing 12 per trip. Today my focus will be on squats 10-12 per... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 08:41:18 EST Happy February...love month naaawwww I don't believe in that foolishness... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867689 Okay I don't know what happened to my first partial blog. But I'm starting over here. <BR> <BR> It's a new month and some would say the LOVE month. I quite frankly don't get into the hype of valentines day. Love me every day like its special. Why do we need one day of commercialism to remind us that we need to let others know we love them and care about them? Heck half the time it's out of tradition and not out of love anyway. Why fake it? Be real....I'm just saying <BR> <BR> Okay back t... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 08:13:19 EST Weigh in a day early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865872 Okay I made it almost a month without weighing in. I must admit I was a little scared of not knowing. Especially since I wasn't really on my program 100% not even 76% but I'm happy. I didn't make it to the 250s but I still in the 260s at 265.6. Now it's funny I was struggling a few months ago to hit my goal of 265 and now I'm there. <BR> <BR> So as I push forward I'm aiming for 250s in February. <BR> <BR> I'm off today trying to rest my leg. Got heat pad on it. I was doing better and as I... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 11:20:57 EST Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864298 I tried something new yesterday. After I took my family member for a test at the hospital I went home and put heat on my knee. <BR> <BR> I decided to use a heating pad on my calf and also on the knee and back part of my knee. I changed the position of the heating pad every 20 minutes and continued for a few hours. Afterwards I rub my leg down with icy hot, took muscle relaxer and went to bed. This morning it's feeling a bit better. I plan to do the same tonight. <BR> <BR> My liquid inject... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 08:09:34 EST I'm so .... Ughhh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863535 Okay so it seems every post I make these days something is wrong with me. It's time to change my confessions and put the obstacles to a test. What do you mean by that Vanessa? So glad you asked... <BR> <BR> Well first it was the knee that put my workouts on hold. Then it was the knee recovery. Now that I'm done with therapy I'm still not 80% yet. So I'm waiting for these injections to help me get through without knee replacement surgery. Not having that! Then here comes the calf sorenes... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 07:35:44 EST So yeah I worked out alright http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860807 Like I said in my last post...I worked out. Walked a mile an a half, lifted some weights. Did some stretching as recommended by therapist for my knee. And after I put in the work....I fell across my bed exhausted....but I had to make a run to walgreens. Well when I stood up I felt a lil tinge of discomfort in my leg. I got to walgreens and ouch my calf was hurting. I hobbled in and out of walgreens. Went home iced my calf and knee as instructed after a workout. Rub the calf down with icy ho... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 07:59:45 EST Oh my getting back to regular blogging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859327 I'm tired today. I could have slept a little while longer. Oh well I'm at work now might as well be productive. <BR> <BR> I drank water yesterday!! I think I managed about 3-4 bottles. You really don't know how much you miss drinking water until you start again. My body was like ahhhh finally water, water, water! Although I forgot my bottles today I have a few left to get me through the day. I'm planning to get in a workout today as well. I've got to get my routine back in swing. <BR> <... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 08:26:54 EST