LILSHINE's SparkPeople Blog LILSHINE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community weigh in day and Accupuncture visit So for my weigh in...I'm at 265.0 this morning. I remember when 265.0 was my goal and I was struggling big time to hit it. I battled to get out of the 270s. When I arrived at 269, i struggled to get to 265. My most recent struggles have been to reach 250s. But what remains consistent...I'm still battling and not giving up. <BR> <BR> I was teetering at 261 for a while and then I had the surgery. I managed to gain some weight but I think it was more inflammation in my body. I've been having... Thu, 8 Oct 2015 07:58:47 EST Really...yes I'm working on getting back to this blogging Happy Tuesday... <BR> <BR> I had every intention to blog yesterday but I didn't. So in an effort to make it happen I grabbed my iPad and began right after my morning journal input <BR> <BR> So far so good on getting in a lil workout. I've been going to the mall and walking every day for the past week. I walked all last week. The first few days I could barely make half the mall before my back started screaming. Yesterday I walked the entire mall at a very good pace. I was able to walk the ... Tue, 6 Oct 2015 09:08:45 EST It's been a while But I'm here today. I made it thankfully through my lil armpit surgery <BR> I gained 6#s since I had it three weeks ago. <BR> I'm still in the 260s but on the other side of 265 @267.4. Not happy about that. I began working on moving back to the other aside all week. <BR> I live in sunny Miami or lately rainy Miami...and I'm suppose to minimize sweating!! <BR> So no working out. But I finally decided this week to go walk in the mall where it's air conditioner. Well so I thought. It was a b... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 13:18:05 EST Day 6 of 24 off to a crappy start but I'm not giving up on my goals. This week started off great. Being prepared is quite important. Monday was good, drank my smoothie, water consumption, got DRESSED for the workout but allowed excuses to keep me away. I went to target for items I needed instead. I could say as huge as this Super Target is...I got in some walking. But really...I'm not <BR> <BR> The next day decided to wing a smoothie recipe and instead of water added almond milk...definitely will not do that again!! Nasty nast... Sat, 22 Aug 2015 09:35:11 EST Finding resources...doing the homework day 1 of 24 day challenge Happy blessed Monday <BR> <BR> I spent my weekend being quite lazy or relaxed. I did a lot of research online regarding different health issues I've recently been diagnosed with. I will not be moved my what they say but knowledge is power and the beginning of overcoming. You can't fight what you dont know. No one smart enters into battle against the enemy without finding out what they're up against. That would be insane. <BR> <BR> I'm really against flooding my body with all types of pres... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 08:15:54 EST Happy Thrusday weigh-in day Okay I forgot to post this week. I was a bit confused this week. Had a doctors appt yesterday but for some reason I went on Tuesday I can't even explain that saga...but I did go back yesterday only to be told surgery. Nothing major...if you ever had armpit boils you know what it's like. NASTY!! Well this time they're going all in and dig it out from the inside and surrounding area. No let it drain, pluck out culprit and keep it moving. This sucker keeps moving alright...over a... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 07:54:47 EST Been a minute but here today happens....habits or desires are side tracked...but I'm here today! <BR> <BR> Quick update...I'm currently weighing 261.0!!! Have bounced between that and 258.0 for the past month. <BR> <BR> I'm still not working out on a regular basis. Dealing with herniated disc and toe numbness that prevents me from obtaining a good nights rest. But that too shall pass. Otherwise I'm doing well. Still trying to follow my goals and activities to get me to goal weight. I may b... Wed, 5 Aug 2015 07:56:35 EST Happy July...I made it ...weigh in day Good morning!! <BR> Yes I've been missing for a lil bit but you know how life is. <BR> <BR> I'm still on the journey though. Today is weigh in day and I'm happy to report I'm at 259.6!!!! I made it into the 250s by a thread but I'm there. I've pretty much maintained that weight for the past week or so. Im down 3.6 pounds for the month of June. <BR> <BR> I don't think I worked out one day in June. I just haven't gotten the get up and go yet. I'm struggling in that area. June was a rough... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 08:22:52 EST Is accepting change harder than making a change? I really believe both are a struggle for me. Had I been asked prior to seeing the results I posted a few days ago...I would have said I see neither as a problem for me. But boy was I incorrect. <BR> <BR> My focus has solely been on seeing results in certain areas that I was missing the evidence of change. My focus: belly fat...da rolls, back rolls, arm rolls and jiggle...oh let me not forget the scale!! <BR> <BR> While I was praying and focusing on these things my body (with Gods help) ... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 07:45:41 EST Photo comparison that opened my eyes <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The photo in the red skirt was taken last Sunday. I sent it to my daughter as she gave me the skirt for my birthday. I wasn't expecting the response I got from her "wow mom you're looking slim" keep up the great work. It took a while for me to get it. When I was at work last week people continued to comment about my weight loss. I'm still like really?? The pic on the left was in 2013 the st... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 07:51:00 EST June 10th almost mid point and what have I accomplished Self check up is a good thing...examining what's happening during the journey is just as important as at the end of the month. I'm still lingering or teetering right at the brink of the next goal of 250s. I'm determined to roll over this month. <BR> <BR> I am setting a 21 day goal of working out starting tomorrow. I may start today but have a dentist appointment after work today. I have been slacking in my workouts but I'm feeling pretty good these past two days so I'm going to try to get ... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 08:54:56 EST Happy to be... It's Monday and I'm happy to be alive to live through it. You should be too! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I loss an uncle and I also saw a post that a young cancer fighter went home to be with the Lord as well. Death has been around my friends and yesterday it hit my family. So be grateful you're still here. I'm sure one that loss their life would trade with you today! <BR> <BR> weekend was blah! Still not exercising. Feeling a lil better but not 100%! Stats are returning to normal bu... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 08:24:37 EST June and my weigh in Good morning <BR> <BR> It's June and I'm posting my official weigh in as of this morning. I'm 261.0 today. I'm officially 30#s down from my highes weight of my life! My goal was to be in the 250s by the beginning of this month. I didn't quite make it but I'm close. <BR> <BR> Focusing now on getting there and breaking the mental cycle that I face each time I get this close. I haven't worked out this week as I've had some weird health challenges. Hopefully they will pass and I can get wit... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 09:03:06 EST Late weigh in post but I'm here Good day....I'm excited today which must mean my weigh in was positive! Yep...yesterday was my official weigh in and I'm down to 261.6. On Wednesday I was 259.4 and I looked at the scale with no understanding it was not registering to me. I was trying to understand and I literally couldn't comprehend those numbers. After I thought about it I saw my blockage appearing to me and made me ask some questions of myself. Is this why my body freezes at the 260s?? Mentally I haven't been able to see... Fri, 22 May 2015 09:01:56 EST No weigh in today but updating Thursday is typically my weigh in day but...I ran out of my diuretic and BP meds but finally got them last night. I know without the water pill for a few days I would show water weight gain. So I'll weigh probably Saturday morning. <BR> <BR> I did get a weigh in at my doctors on Tuesday. I weighed at home first and I was 264.0. Got to doc scale and I was 258.0. I lost 6#s driving to doctors office lol!! Me and honey go at it because he swears my home scale is broken or wrong. I had to let... Thu, 14 May 2015 08:16:28 EST Weigh in day Getting it out the way....I'm at 264.8 today!!! I'm under 265.0 again and I'm praying for breakthrough. I've been eating well below my calories lately which can hurt me also. My appetite I can't say is low but I'm not seeing food as an interest lately. I eat but only because I need to. My breakfast has been the same two boiled eggs and either bacon or sausage. I may drink my morning smoothie as mid morning snack and most days I do. My lunch is small as I explained before I go to lunch late ... Thu, 7 May 2015 08:06:48 EST May 5 -Journey to discover why I crash/sabotage my journey I could only think of that title <BR> <BR> Just making sure I check in and blog. Yesterday was a strange day to me! Wasn't quite sure how I was feeling but it was weird. I had some obstacles at work and lately I've found myself engaged in conversations that are not me. I spent my evening before God because I know that was part of the strange feeling I was having. <BR> <BR> I started my journey and my journaling to enter into a space of self awareness. My focus this month is to... Tue, 5 May 2015 07:52:49 EST May goals Good morning <BR> <BR> I'm not out of the fight just yet. I know that this is a lifetime battle and when it gets easy I have to buckle down a lot more. As long as I'm in the struggle I know I'm right at the door of my breakthrough! So I continue to press forward. <BR> <BR> May goals: <BR> Don't quit, don't give in <BR> Keep guzzling my water ...aim for a gallon but no less than 80 oz <BR> Get moving at least 2-3 times a week <BR> Stay with my smoothies and push for full days periodically... Mon, 4 May 2015 08:41:43 EST I've been neglecting my Spark Good morning!! <BR> <BR> I've been such a dedicated employee that I've come in and went to straight to working. How dare I?! Lol. Well I made a conscious decision today to blog since it is the last day of the month <BR> <BR> Unfortunately I didn't meet my April goals 😡. I'm disappointed but I can't quite figure out why I can't break this weight of 265. Today my official end of the month weight is 265.2. I've bounced between that and 267 all month. Even with drinking my smoothies once t... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 07:47:19 EST It's my birthday!! End of a challenge, weigh in & NSV Wishing me a very blessed birthday. I am truly honored that God has giving me another year. Today I am 51 years old and I must say I'm feeling fabulous!! <BR> <BR> I'm at the quarter mark of my 60 day smoothie challenge. It was a rough start but this week I must say I've been doing pretty good. Yesterday was the only day this week I didn't have any smoothies. I was out of the office distributing food all day so I didn't have time for food. I am more focused with it now and will continue on t... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 07:54:15 EST 22 of 27 and 8 of 11 how am I doing Good day! I'm hanging in there and refreshing my journey as of yesterday! <BR> <BR> I've been struggling to stay on track while life has been happening. I didn't work out at all last week. I did improve with my water consumption. I was a lot more focused. I added an app that scares me sometimes because it sounds like water going down the drain. It reminds me to chug. Which is really great on days I forget. <BR> <BR> Work has been busy so I stay engaged all day, which is a good thing. I w... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 07:48:14 EST Day #15 of 27 (day 1 of 11) - proving him wrong and losing too :) Happy Monday!!! <BR> <BR> Yeah I've been M.I.A. The Easter weekend has been busy. I haven't lost my mojo but it was a bit side tracked while I handle my Lords business. I'm back right now and hopefully no more distractions. <BR> <BR> Okay I got 11 more days until my birthday! And until my next weigh in. I ate a lot yesterday or should I say we had a lot of food. I tried but I had to quit. No force eating just because it's there. Well today I'm ready and will be on point always. <BR>... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 07:50:52 EST Day #11 of 27 breaking barriers Today's recap marks 3 days of working out! On top of my workout yesterday I completed my gallon of water!!! <BR> <BR> My workout yesterday was longer and a bit more intense. I rode the bike for 10 minute warm up. Hit weights for legs and chest. Finished my gym workout with a 10 minutes elliptical challenge. It was a challenge to make the full ten minutes. When I got home I worked on my back, and shoulders, did some stretches for my leg and a few crunches. Let's just say I was tired by din... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 08:16:19 EST Day #10 of 27 Starting to feel a spark Finally!!! I didn't go to the gym yesterday I had a mild headache and I really didn't feel like driving that way. I was dressed for a workout when I left work (key to my motivation) and I was determined to do something. I pulled into my driveway, pulled out my ear plugs, launched my iHeart radio app, my digifit app to track my workout and I hit the sidewalk for a brief walk. I walked about 10 minutes and those were a hard ten minutes. My aches were telling me to turn around so I listened. ... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 08:19:47 EST Day 9 of 27 weigh in day for March Oh well....I might as well get it in early 268.4 a gain of one pound!! The entire month I gained a pound and loss nothing. Well I went up and down but my lowest this month was 267. Oh well I keep pressing forward. I won't let the scale be my final result. I will trust the process <BR> <BR> So yesterday I said I wouldn't post my plan of action daily, I would post what I get accomplished. Yesterday I really talked myself into going to the gym. I debated between stopping to a park and doing ... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 09:23:56 EST Day 8 of 27 new week...what shall I accomplish Good Monday to you: <BR> <BR> Yeah I'm trying to convince myself that I'm full of energy and ready to get going! I'm not and I really can't quite figure out what's up with that!! I have very little energy. I could go right back to sleep. I sometimes take sleep aids to fall asleep. Lately I haven't had to and I fall off to sleep like bam! Even last night I was aware of my sleep pattern. I got up to go bathroom and went right back to sleep. I woke up when my alarm went off and dozed off ag... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 08:11:27 EST 5 of 27 ....I'm feeling some sort of way I guess in due time whatever it is will come forth. I feel tired and sleepy today. I went to bed at 8 because I was so sleepy and I'm still feeling that way today. But I feel like something GREAT is about to happen and I'm not even sure what it could be....I wait patiently on The Lord. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did somewhat better in my eating journey. I only had one smoothie yesterday. I completed a little over half jug of water which is an improvement. My day was busy and I drank my first sm... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 07:45:49 EST Day #4 of 27 what a week I've been MIA for a few days, but I'm still here. As of my last post I was returning from visiting my daughter. The very day I left she returned to work. That night she missed a step while carrying a table down some stairs and she fell. As of now she may have fractured her ankle and tore or dislocated something in her knee on the same leg. She has an appointment with orthopedist tomorrow and my prayer is that there will be no surgery. She's been a trooper but of course mom wants to run to... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 07:47:50 EST Who goes on vacation and lose weight? Day #2 of 27 Me! me! Me! Yeah I'm shocked <BR> <BR> Well I weighed in this morning. Today is my second day on my birthday/60 day challenge. My starting weight 267.4...I'm down 2.8 from my pre vacay weigh in. <BR> <BR> I had a great visit with my girls. Ate real fancy like lol...basically ate like once a day. Typically the meals were huge and lasted all day, munched off the leftovers. Some meals I finished others I ended up sharing or tossing. I walked a lot on Sunday when we went to the ... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 08:19:42 EST Semi leave of absence I'm still around but took a little trip to visit my baby girl at the last minute. I'll be back soon but may also stop in while I'm away. I'm hanging out in big ole Fort Worth Texas and of course it's a bit chilly here for me. <BR> <BR> My daughter has a bad cold, which I'm trying not to partake in. It's in the 60s this week. Was suppose to rain but I haven't seen any yet. But their apartment is colder than outdoors. These ladies must have hot flashes. I think they keep the thermostat at 6... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 20:32:03 EST My post a blog feature...I'm shocked but thankful I was wondering why I got all of these new spark friend request in one day?!! Now I wow I happy my blog resonated with so many people! <BR> <BR> By no means will I give up on me!! That's not an option. I appreciate all the advice and I truly believe in guarding my tongue. It's a practice that never stops being perfected. Taming the tongue is not an easy task but I keep striving to get better at it! <BR> <BR> My days have been busy and I have not made a workout yet this week.... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 07:51:36 EST What we speak...does it really happen Hmmmm I thought about that for the past two days. It's seems that everything I say I've learned on this journey and almost everything I've said lately is showing up right in front of me. Problem's the negative stuff I don't want to happen that's happening. Makes me think what if I said the opposite?? <BR> <BR> My point is yesterday I was like start the week off right by getting in your workout. Did I get in a workout? No. I spent a lot of time reading during work and I also went... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 07:48:29 EST Monday...start it off right Why is it so many of us dread or hate Mondays? It's just like any other day of the week isn't it? I mean it carries 24 hours just like any other day. So I say why not look at the positives in it instead of the negatives. Hey I'm grateful to have another day, a job to go to and the ability to see this day and make something good out of it. So happy Monday to you!! <BR> <BR> My weekend was 50% positive and 50% not so positive. I worked out Friday. Did a little better with my water intake. ... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 07:44:19 EST Aftermath...heading into the weekend The day after weigh in day or the day of weigh in day is the aftermath. Here is where I splurge and go crazy eating until Sunday or Monday. Then I try to undo damage by the next weigh in. I clearly see that and this time around I'm not self sabotaging!! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was busy for me at work. It's hard dealing with people who don't want to work or don't care about their work product. I can't deal with it! <BR> <BR> I was running around a lot so I didn't drink my water as I should ha... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 07:35:54 EST Weigh in day...the true experience Good morning Sparkers or good evening.... <BR> <BR> Jumping right into it today. Today is my official weigh in day and I'm at 264.8!! I'm excited even though that's .04 loss this week I'm finally under 265 and further away from 270. Now last week I stated that I gained a lot of water weight due to not taking my water pill for my HBP. I was up to 270...I went away for a week with all the good southern cooking available and I'm proud to say I didn't do damage. My efforts are paying off and I ... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 07:48:20 EST Reason #13 blood pressure cuff Okay yesterday I went to the dentist for my cleaning. They take your blood pressure just in case they have to give you antibiotics. I have big arms so the normal cuff doesn't fit. It seems that no matter how many times I tried to tell this assistant she has to lower it she kept saying no, no right here. So I let her squeeze my flab three times while the cuff slowly came apart and the machine said error. So she's going for the fourth try and I'm like NOPE we're going to try it my way this tim... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 07:46:14 EST Off to a good start I've seen it posted that you should never miss a Monday workout! Why? Because it sets the tone for your week! So did I miss my Monday workout ? No I most surely didn't! I did better than I thought I would. I road the bike for 15 minutes clocked in a little over 4 miles! Did my leg curls using 55#s 4 sets of 12; followed by leg extensions using 16# weight 4 sets of 10 these are sort of hard for me still with the knee but I'll get there. Afterwards I did the elliptical for 15 minutes and ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 07:52:18 EST Mega March Motivation ....just keep pushing Good Monday morning!! So beautiful outside this morning. Fortunately for me I'm in Miami where we're enjoying 72 degree weather. I'm praying for those going through these mega snow storms and shut ins. Hang in there! <BR> <BR> It's already March and we're 3 months into the new year. I'm happy to be back home and to life as I know it. I devoured some water when I got home Saturday. It was good to be able to guzzle as needed. I thought I'd see some great numbers when I got on the scale Saturd... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 08:05:17 EST Reason #12 oh what a feeling!! That's the first thought/song that popped in my head today. Oh what a feeling it will be to see just how far I can push myself. I can't even imagine what losing 30, 40, 50... more pounds will feel like. I mean in addition to the 30 pounds I've already lost. I've been at my current weight as an adult before. At 30 more pounds not even at 20 more pounds can I even remember being 245 or 235 pounds. I'm just excited to see what my body looks like and what my state of mind will be when I hit those... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 08:16:49 EST Reason #11 My belly rolls Well I noticed that my main focus lately has been on my belly rolls. I don't know why this has become such a focal point for me. I can't even tell you why the change has come. I even noticed that I'm self conscious about it sitting in the car with honey. It's like it's waving at me or something. I never been this obsessed with my tummy. I don't know it seems to have dropped or changed in some way. I find myself looking at it often. Well I guess my point of losing weight is to get rid of thi... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 14:52:48 EST Reason #10 airplane seats Anxiety over not having to sit in the middle seat. Especially when you don't know the person on either side. I fortunately had an aisle and a window seat coming over. Now the aisle is not my preference either. One thing about this trip the airline attendant was quite chunky and his hips showed no mercy each time he passed by me. And that cart they push oh my. But other than that the seatbelt hasn't been an issue for me. But the discomfort of trying to make sure all of me stays on my side of... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 07:56:39 EST Reason #9 stop the medical world from assuming it's because I'm overweight Ever been to the doctor and everything that you're there for is weight related or so they say. I think back on a recent visit to a doctor who seemed overly obsessed with asking me if I was sure I wasn't diabetic. He came at me a few different ways like he was a detective trying to get me to "slip up". Like are you What do you take for your diabetes....I'm not diabetic so nothing....your toes maybe numbing because of your diabetic neuropathy....again I'm not diabetic so what ... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 07:36:44 EST Reason #8 my day is coming soon I truly believe that my wedding day is on the horizon! When that time comes I want to be at the point where I'm at goal, near goal or just need to tone and tighten. I don't want to have 50 plus pounds to go or I won't feel right. I'm confident at whatever size I'm in...but am I happy on the inside or just a face for the masses? I want my confidence to be real when that day comes and everyday! Loving me has never been an issue. But loving what I see undressed changes daily. I know I can do... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 08:03:28 EST Reason #7 so I can go shopping again Lol!! I promised myself I would not indulge in clothes shopping again until I lose more weight. I was an addict. I realized after replacing the bar in my closet twice in a week that I had waaayyyy too many clothes. Of course it was pointed out to me by honey who replaced the bars both times. But it was an eye opening moment. To further prove that I have on an outfit that I wore to my 50th birthday last year. This is the second time I've worn it and it's almost been a year. Sham... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 08:15:33 EST Reason #6 prove to myself that I can No one else but me. That's the only one I have to prove something to. I know this journey will make me push myself past what I think I'm capable of doing. So I'm eager to see just how far I can push myself to see exactly what lies underneath. <BR> <BR> This weekend has been pretty decent. My weight has returned to normal range. Now to break the plateau of bouncing back and forth and get over to the 250s. I have not worked out for a set workout. I have been doing bathroom workouts even at h... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 11:34:15 EST Reason #5 In hopes of inspiring I hope that my efforts and future success at this battle will encourage others to lay aside every weight. I hope that one day I can tell my story and help someone else reach that point of healthier lifestyle <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a not so on point day. It started off poorly. I was unprepared for breakfast. I stopped to McD's bad choice and had a big breakfast. Usually I get the egg mcmuffin. Don't know what I was thinking! Then I had cuban toast later that morning for my mid morning snac... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 07:58:55 EST Question: why do people ask or say Things like: <BR> <BR> Oh you losing weight or something? <BR> <BR> Why you losing so much weight? <BR> <BR> Who you losing weight for? <BR> <BR> These are comments I've gotten this week alone. Personally I guess they see something I'm not seeing. Yeah I've loss a lil bit but didn't think it was noticeable to me at least. I take compliments well but I just was thinking about the approach. I'm not upset or offended just thought it was funny when I sit and think about. What you say? Thu, 12 Feb 2015 09:52:46 EST Reason #4 feeling accomplished I'm a big procrastinator. I like the pressure of doing it at the last minute. Funny thing...I produce a better product at least when I was in school. On top of that consistency is my other foe. <BR> <BR> So to win at losing weight means I win at both of these flaws. In procrastinating as it is related to my weight loss, I keep putting off what I need to do to get to my goals. Now the only deadline I could think of for this is a mega event, a health scare or a bet that I just have to get the... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 09:45:31 EST Reason #3 because it's the right thing for me Good Wednesday to you <BR> <BR> Yes, losing the excess is a good thing for me to do. Funny thing about the weight baggage that I've carried around for years is clutters my life, body and atmosphere. One thing I hate in a house is clutter. I like open space and order. I dislike having stuff everywhere just because there is space for it. I guess growing up in the era that I folks loved figurines and fish tanks!! As least my family of women did. And who got to clean the fis... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 07:44:06 EST Reason #2 tired of being tired Hey there! I know, I know I've been missing. I had my injection on Thursday and when they said take it easy I did! I'm doing great today. But it's the last day of my muscle relaxers and the injection won't kick in for 4-6 weeks. <BR> <BR> Now as for today's reason: I'm tired of battling the same issue over and over, year after year. It's time to make progress and to finally reach a point where I'm just working on keep the weight off and staying healthy. The focal point for too long has b... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 10:03:26 EST