LILMAC79's SparkPeople Blog LILMAC79's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Wow. My last entry was written in June. I cannot help but shake my head... at that time I was complaining about hurting my ankle and gaining 1.5lbs... <BR> here I am.. almost gaining the whole 16 that I had lost... <BR> 1 turns into 2.. 2 turns into 4.. 4 turns into 8... <BR> Yes, the dr said that I couldn't run with my ankle.. nor do p90x.. but I could have walked.. <BR> woulda. coulda. shoulda... <BR> I have learned.. I feel like sht about it.. and I should have been at my goal in a week. Inst... Thu, 24 Sep 2009 12:31:38 EST update... so i am still injured.. <BR> my ankle feels better but once in a while it will be very tender and sore.. when i rotate it, it cracks like crazy. doctor didnt see a break in the xray.. so i dont know. chiro says it's sprained... <BR> i've gained 1.5lbs which isn't anything seeing as i havent been able to workout for approx 6 weeks or so now. im going to try to get back on the treadmill this week and keep icing it.. <BR> i really want to do p90x!! <BR> i feel jiggly and soft but i obviously ... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 17:47:04 EST Afraid So here is my story as to why I'm disappointed.. and scared.. let's be honest.. <BR> In Feb. my ankle almost felt like it had to crack.. it was really stiff.. then from that point on it would periodically give out.. like I would try to walk on it and I'd step and my ankle would almost feel like it was twisting and give out. it was a couple times a day initially.. then spread out to almost once a day. i didnt want to go to the doctor because i wasnt in PAIN.. it was just annoying.. <BR> <BR>... Thu, 30 Apr 2009 19:42:54 EST when will i learn.... to just weigh myself once a week!?!??!? my weight has slowed down A LOT the past 2 weeks... so of course i hop on the scale again and im up 2.8 and haven't cheated... <BR> it does frustrate me that people will go and binge drink or eat chips or ice cream and still lose.. and im being hardcore and gain.. UGHHHHHHHHHH <BR> <BR> a part of me wants to just avoid the scale.. and maybe go on once a month.. and another part of me knows that i cannot do that as i need to keep on top of it all... <BR... Sat, 25 Apr 2009 09:35:40 EST How I've changed.. I've been trying to change my lifestyle since March 16th.. it hasn't been that long.. however I have realized that I need to workout to keep myself sane. I am going through the most stressful time that I ever have gone through.. I thought that time was 3-4 years ago.. <BR> at that time, stress took over my body.. I'd break out into hives once in a while, feel like I had a ball of negativity in my chest, and was super emotional.. probably from the lack of sleep.. <BR> <BR> Sure, I want to lo... Fri, 24 Apr 2009 12:39:18 EST thoughts for today.. I was in london tuesday and wednesday.. one thing that I have learned is to pack a cooler.. sure, people may think it's nerdy and funny.. but i will be the one smiling as I get closer to goal. I am used to eating every 2-3hrs now.. so it was killer.. I didn't drink enough water.. and my meals were spread out and weren't even good.. tuesday was ok.. protein shake before I left etc. almond butter and an apple... and I made some pesto spaghetti from the eating clean magazine.. <BR> dinner was... Thu, 23 Apr 2009 13:05:23 EST Thoughts/Venting/Where I am now...... Lately I have been studying for 2 exams which I don't feel that I am going to pass.. honestly. So I am spending every moment trying to cram. Usually this cramming time isn't productive as I will zone out, doze off etc. What would I rather be doing? Having extra workout time.. splitting my workouts into 2.. maybe 30min morning.. 30min evening.. or doing more weights. <BR> <BR> Currently, I am doing 30min 5-6x a week on the treadmill and weights with dumbbells (not even gym machines) 3x. I... Fri, 17 Apr 2009 10:28:59 EST The little things I've noticed... I have called myself a healthy eater for the past year... <BR> then I think about all of the little danger zones around me that I have ignored.. and those danger zones can ADD UPPPP. For example, we have cupcakes in the back lunch room here at work. A client also brought me a hot chocolate. I had a headache today and left to go to the pharmacy and asked some of my coworkers if there was anything they wanted.. I ended up buying a women's health magazine (mine), ibprophen (mine), 2 bags of c... Mon, 23 Mar 2009 19:24:35 EST Where I'm at... I haven't lost anything in a good little while.. my body seems to go down and then right back up. Needless to say, it is frustrating. <BR> My doctor said that my sodium and cholesterol levels are low.. which is good. <BR> I know that I have been a stresscase the last few years... my naturopath is making me go on a 30 day cleanse which has 0 sugar in the plan. . this will be difficult.. no more morning shakes/strawberries? :( He thinks my body is converting sugar due to the stress etc. etc. ... Mon, 9 Mar 2009 14:43:06 EST I have fears with the new life change... I gained gained a substantial amount of weight in a matter of 1.5-2yrs.. <BR> I haven't been able to lose it... and what really freaks me out is I don't know how this came upon me.. I don't grab fast food... Some of my friends will make McDonald's runs etc. I don't do things like that.. I bring my lunch to work (and when I didn't, I'd pick up Subway (veggie, turkey, or chicken)).. I did have A LOT of stress with my job.. and still do... but I don't think I'd pack that much on.. maybe it's t... Fri, 6 Feb 2009 00:09:25 EST