LILLY_78's SparkPeople Blog LILLY_78's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Super Hero Powers and Secret Identities So I was asked the question about a time that I exhibited a super hero strength and I didn't know it until I had to use it. <BR> <BR> I would have to say when I had to have surgery on my knee and come back from that. I kind of feel like getting through that point and to it was my trial by fire. It took a lot to get through that. I didn't always go through it with grace but what super hero does? I was changed by it though. I'm not the same girl I was then. I've been through a lot to get to th... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 10:42:11 EST Meal Plan and Getting Back on Track So I made a meal plan for the weekend <BR> <BR> Breakfast - Eggs and mushrooms or Eggs or tomatoes with turkey sausage <BR> Lunch - low carb wrap with turkey or tuna, veggies and water to drink <BR> Snacks - trail mix, apples, bananas <BR> Dinner - one night out, roast beef and veggies or roast beef and a salad <BR> <BR> Getting back on track after time off or making a few days of bad choices can be difficult. I usually try and get back on track with one thing at a time but that doesn't alw... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 20:31:30 EST A long weekend and new expectations So it was my first weekend back home. It's not entirely what I expected or hoped it would be. My place was a complete and utter mess with six months of dust bunnies hiding everywhere. I spent most of the first two days running errands, get groceries and trying to clean. <BR> <BR> I was hoping to get to hang out with my friends. I had a birthday party for a three year old to go to. It was fun and I allowed myself a small piece of cake and ice cream. Unfortunately that was about it though. No... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 21:17:38 EST I finally get to go home!! I can't wait! I finally get to go home after six months gone. I'm hoping that once I'm home I can get back into my routine and hopefully it will help. I have four more days of work and then I get to go home. YAY!! Sat, 13 Sep 2014 18:54:08 EST Cleaning up my diet once and for all I think when people start trying to be healthy they try and hold onto their favorite foods as long as possible. Good knows I did. I tried to justify having my favorite foods because I went to the gym today or it was okay because it was just this one meal and I ate okay for the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> The problem becomes that I'm not seeing all the changes I should be seeing. There are little changes here and there but for how much I'm working out I should have seen more changes than this.... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 19:58:47 EST Goodwill Shopping Haul Yesterday and today are actually my days off so I've been trying to enjoy them. Saturday after work I went to a local goodwill store in an attempt to find some books to keep me busy while I'm away for work. I'm happy to report I found some craft books and even a new James Patterson book which I'm really excited about. I also found some new clothes for summer which I was also excited about. <BR> <BR> When I was younger I always had this aversion to buying clothes at Goodwill. I guess I thoug... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 10:35:00 EST Kind of like coming home So it's been awhile since I've blogged or even kept track of my food or fitness. Which isn't to say that I haven't been trying I just haven't been diligently keeping track. It shows... I've gotten off course and I really don't know where to begin to fix it. <BR> <BR> So I'm starting here at Spark people again... <BR> <BR> I'm doing this for myself. I can't assume that people are going to read my thoughts or any of that. There are so many people and that on here that it's easy to get lost. ... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 21:48:47 EST No, I'm not pregnant. I'm just fat but thanks for asking! So I'm currently out of town for work. My schedule has been really hectic but I've been doing pretty good about eating right and making it to the gym. This plus the fact that I'm walking every where and I think I'm doing really great. <BR> <BR> This morning I got up, got dressed and went to the gym here in the hotel where they have a scale. When I get there a woman is already there doing squats and that in the middle of the floor. I say good morning and we proceed to get into a conversation... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 13:06:39 EST Another long day with a 5k added in Today was another difficult day for me. I woke up and ran in another 5k race which makes the third race so far for me this year. I also managed to loose another pound making me the lightest I've been in a very long time. <BR> <BR> The race was incredibly difficult though. I don't know what it was but I just wasn't having any fun. My hip hurt like crazy and it made me frustrated. I ended up having to walk a large portion of it. The weird thing is that the race I did a few weeks ago had my be... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 23:14:44 EST Valentine's Day for Singles... Rant Today was a really long day. I'm sure you all know that it was Valentine's day today. Work was busy but okay. I had a good day for the most part. Right up until I started joking with my boss about leaving early tonight. She said that the others would be gone and it would be just us covering everything. I joked about putting in leave and having big plans tonight. She didn't believe me and then asked, "oh getting a cat?" Ummmm..... what?! I told her that was pretty mean. She tried to play it of... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 22:31:10 EST What's in your food? I was invited to go out for dinner last night for a congratulatory dinner party at a restaurant. The weather was kind of crappy so I just wanted to stay home. I decided to go out though and be social with friends and coworkers. I always get nervous when deciding to dine out though. I worry about picking the wrong item. When I cook at home I at least have some control over what goes into my food. <BR> <BR> I did my best to research the food before I left and feel like I did pretty well. I got... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 16:24:45 EST Foxy Fox! I joined the BLC #24! I really enjoyed it last time so I wanted to join it again. <BR> <BR> My pledge: <BR> <BR> FOX PLEDGE <BR> <BR> I commit to participate fully over the next 12 weeks in the Biggest Loser Challenge-24. <BR> <BR> I am a Fabulous Feisty Fox and will run and play in the den to get to know my teammates as we have fun on this journey. Even though the rules state that I must post in the chat thread 3 times per week, I know my team counts on my support and encouragement and ... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 21:35:20 EST Back up plan for Santa! Merry Christmas everyone! I hope however you're spending the holiday season you're having a wonderful time. <BR> <BR> I decided to go home and see my family for the holidays. I went from 70 degree weather down to 1 degree weather, lol. I really don't mind it too much since I grew up with it but it still is a shock to the system. We had a snow storm on Saturday when I came in and we're expecting more snow for Christmas so I definitely will get my white Christmas. <BR> <BR> Things here have ... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 22:35:12 EST Swim like a fish! It's only Tuesday and I'm super tired. I had swimming class tonight so I had fun with that. I'm actually really enjoying this class and I'm glad I signed up for it. I'm still not the greatest but I'm getting better than what I was. <BR> <BR> I've been trying to keep busy with everything and keep my mind off of recent events. It's not going so well. I signed up for a 2.014 walk/run on January 1st though so I'm really looking forward to that. I've also been looking at this charity bike event... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 22:44:19 EST Stress of the Week This week has been an incredibly long week. I'm going on working ten days straight. I've also been worried about a family member who is sick back home. One good thing was that I was seeing this guy who I really was enjoying seeing. We had gone on three dates and then he informs me that we need to take a break... Ummm... ok? <BR> <BR> Whatever... I guess if that's what he needs so be it. I just feel really dumb about the whole thing. Yet again it doesn't work out for whatever reason. There is... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 22:03:03 EST How far I've made it... I tried to go running the other night and it didn't really go so well. It had been awhile since I had been running but I didn't expect it to go so bad. It was pretty frustrating to say the least. I feel like I'm always starting over with it. Well, yesterday I was talking to one of my family members yesterday and tried explaining how it felt to them. It didn't go over well. <BR> <BR> I don't think they meant it but it kind of came across as I don't really know what I'm doing with working out... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 22:09:57 EST Halloween Spinning Class and a Reward So my weekend was pretty good. I went on a haunted tour Friday night and then last night I signed up for a Halloween themed spinning class. It was a lot of fun, torture, but fun. Part of me couldn't help but think of the differences between this year and last year. I also thought it was funny that while I was out a spinning class most of the people my age were dressing up for a Halloween party and a night out on the town. I've never been a big one on the bar scene but I do enjoy it. I think ... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 19:46:09 EST New Ideas to Keep Busy Evening fellow Sparkers! <BR> <BR> One of the challenges for the Biggest Loser Challenge I'm doing is trying something new to do. I've been racking my braining trying to come up with some new ideas that I can try. I've been trying to keep busy lately. <BR> <BR> I've come up with some ideas including swimming lessons, signing up for a bowling league, or volunteering more. I've been volunteering a lot due to wanting to get out there and well volunteer. I've also been volunteering to try and ... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 21:47:26 EST BLC Fox Pledge! BLC is almost here and I'm super excited. To kick things off I'm posting my pledge for all to see and help hold myself accountable. <BR> <BR> <BR> FOX PLEDGE <BR> <BR> I commit to participate fully over the next 12 weeks in the Biggest Loser Challenge-23. <BR> <BR> I am a Fabulous Feisty Fox and will run and play in the den to get to know my teammates as we have fun on this journey. Even though the rules state that I must post in the chat thread 3 times per week, I know my team counts o... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 20:51:55 EST Silent Prayer About Jeans If you're like me you love your jeans. You love how the feel and how they make you feel when you're wearing them. You wear them from everything to a night out on the town to a day of lounging at home. They're you're favorite because they fit you perfectly. <BR> <BR> That's where the problem comes in. You wear them for everything but you don't really wash them. They don't really need it, do they? I mean they're jeans. They can go without washing time after time. Besides you know what happens... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 22:14:52 EST Bored and trying not to eat I am utterly BORED.... I have been bored all day even though I have had plenty of stuff to do. I got up early, made breakfast, went to a health expo for a bit, went grocery shopping and to the library. I even went to the gym and busted out 2 miles on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> I feel like something is missing. It's a holiday weekend and I feel like I should be doing something fun. Do you know I haven't talked to anyone today besides the checkout clerks at the store and library? Everyone I kno... Sat, 31 Aug 2013 19:59:00 EST First, semi official 5k Results!! Earlier in the week I had a friend who asked if I wanted to do one of those night color 5k'swith her, her family and some other friends. If you don't know what it is it is a 5k at night where you get dye thrown on you that lights up under black lights. Throw in some glow sticks and you're good to go, right? <BR> <BR> I wasn't planning on running the 5k at all. Another one of their friends was supposed to go and I was thinking I could walk with them. Well, something came up and they couldn't ... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 19:37:59 EST Fancy Workout Clothes and a Difficult Week This week has been incredibly difficult for me. Workout wise I've been doing pretty good. I went to a spinning class the other night. I've been before and loved it. It was difficult when I went though. I've only been a few times and it had been awhile since my last class. I kind of felt out of place. It was a really difficult workout but I enjoyed it none the less. It was really hard to keep up the pace with everyone else. I know that's a given and with practice I'll get better. <BR> <BR> Th... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 21:34:00 EST Another birthday means a new year This past weekend was my birthday. I celebrated Friday night with friends and Saturday I took an art class to celebrate my birthday. I had wanted to do something new for it so I picked that. I was actually super excited for it. I took a glass blowing class which I had never done before and really enjoyed it. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping this year brings new, exciting things. Even though the scale hasn't moved in awhile I know that I have made changes in this past year which have made me healthier. I... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 21:28:02 EST And the streak continues!! I managed to make it to the gym again today for some cardio. That's four days in a row!! Whohoo!! :) Sun, 7 Jul 2013 21:24:53 EST A Long Week My emotions have been all over this week. It has been so crazy that I'm glad it's finally over. I got back from a long weekend with friends to a start an even longer week of work. Work is just stressful at the moment but I'm trying not to let it get to me. We had a cookout on Wednesday for the 4th and I was put in charge of it. I had to coordinate the whole thing and even made a few of dishes in order to save money. On top of it I had a date Tuesday night. <BR> <BR> I'm happy to report the ... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 22:33:30 EST A runner?! So I went to a park the other week that had a bunch of students on the trail out on a nature walk with their parents. I was out running my intervals when I came up on them. I heard them yell, "runner!" to get everyone over to one side. At first I didn't know who they were talking about and then I realized they meant me. They were calling me a runner! <BR> <BR> I couldn't believe it. I've never thought of myself as a runner at all so to have someone call me that even briefly was a huge boost... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 20:51:39 EST Finally!! 20 pounds gone!! :) I weighed myself this morning and the most wonderful, amazing thing happened.... I officially lost 20 pounds! WHOHOOO!!!! :) <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>345</em> <em>224</em> Mon, 6 May 2013 21:18:18 EST The good and the bad Last month I posted a bunch of goals. I'm happy to report that I'm doing pretty good with them so far. My list was: <BR> <BR> Goals: <BR> Eight glasses of water a day <BR> Try and be more active in general <BR> Workout at least three times a week <BR> Eat more fruits, vegetables and lean meats <BR> Eat less processed food <BR> Only have one cheat day a week <BR> Plan meals in advance <BR> Pack lunches <BR> Have snacks on hand so I make better choices <BR> <BR> I need to work on ea... Sun, 5 May 2013 20:41:54 EST New Goals I've been slacking lately. I was away for two weeks for training for work. While I tried to eat healthy it was a cafeteria style for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Without knowing what dircetly went into my food and over eating I didn't do so well. I came home and had gained two pounds. Not terrible but not where I want to be either. So I've redevoted myself to doing better. I saw on this on another blog and was inspired to come up with a list of my own. I'm hoping that maybe if I see a list of... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 19:17:30 EST Slow and steady wins the race? I'm frustrated beyond belief with my weight. I was doing so good and now I can't seem to do anything right. My eating has been way off that I can't seem to stay within my calorie range. I either over eat because I'm still so hungry, miscalculate or lately it's also been out of boredom. This plus the fact that I didn't go to the gym that much makes the reason the scale hasn't gone down but rather up very disheartening. <BR> <BR> Each day is a new day to try again though. Yesterday I miscalcul... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 06:51:00 EST Canceled plans lead to the gym Last night I was supposed to go out for dinner and dancing with a group of friends from work. I decided that would be my treat and I wouldn't go the gym with everything else going on that day. Well, I got all the way out to the bar only to realize that I had been stood up. Everyone had cancelled and the news never made it out to me. I was beyond frustrated. Luckily another friend who didn't get the news either showed up. We ended up having dinner but left before the dancing. <BR> <BR> Since... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 18:35:41 EST Skewed Body Image? I have been wondering if I have a skewed body image. I know sometimes what I see when I look in the mirror is. lot worse then what it actually is. I've been wondering though if it can be the other way around. Can I imagine I look a lot better then what I actually do? <BR> <BR> Tonight I went to the gym wearing an outfit I've worn numerous times before. Lately though I've been thinking that I can really notice the difference and am looking better. However, when I was at the gym I caught a ... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 19:14:18 EST Hotel Living So I've been living in a hotel for the past couple of weeks. It's been difficult but I've gotten a routine down to where for the most part I eat breakfast in my room, and I pack my lunch for work. For dinner I've been going out so I can at least have one hot meal a day. <BR> <BR> It's been difficult. I'm trying not to feel like I'm bored and snacking just because. So far that's been ok. My biggest problem has been when I get home from work I'm starving so I have a snack but then we go out f... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 07:13:31 EST Extended Hotel Stay For the next month I'll be out of town and staying at a hotel for my job. The hotel is really nice but the problems with it are quickly adding up with it. <BR> <BR> First, the hotel is not an extended stay hotel. The room does not have a kitchen or stove so cooking for myself is limited. <BR> <BR> Second, there is a fridge in the room but there is no microwave. <BR> <BR> Third, in a lot of regards I'm limited in what I can do. Due to my work schedule, availability to a car and some other... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 22:36:43 EST Needing a change During the last week I feel better about my choices that I've made but I feel like my workouts could have been better. I feel like I've had good workouts but I feel like they could be better and challenge me more. Which isn't to say that I don't have challenging workouts but I Feel the need for more. As a result, I've found a 2 week cross fit challenge that I'm really excited about. A co-worker of mine is huge into crossfit. He invited me to try his gym one time and I loved it. It was the har... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 22:16:41 EST All over the place The last week or so I feel like I've been all over the place. Friday was sort of my splurge day. I went over my calories by 400. I suppose it isn't too bad. Before that though I've been on the high end of my calories for awhile now and have been struggling with still being hungry. <BR> <BR> I've been fairly good on working out though so I've still managed to lose about 5 pounds. Then again who knows. It could just be the daily fluctuations that occur anyways. I'm trying to stay positive and ... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 20:42:21 EST Starving! I have no idea what my problem is lately but I'm constantly hungry. I can't seem to get full. Ever since Sunday I've just been hungry. I've been making sure I'm eating breakfast and trying to stay within my calories but it's not working. <BR> <BR> So today for example I had a breakfast casserole for breakfast, a banana and low fat popcorn for a snack, a turkey sandwich with left over veggies for lunch, and an orange for another afternoon snack. For dinner I had a tossed salad with italian d... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 18:33:42 EST A way to spend Thanksgiving So as of last week I didn't have anywhere to spend Thanksgiving. I live far away from home and don't have any family out here. On Monday, I was lucky enough to be invited to three Thanksgiving dinners. I was completely surprised by it. It was all very nice of them to do this. As of now, I'm happy to report that I will be going to lunch at a friend's place and then another friend is coming over for pie. <BR> <BR> It's always hard to live so far away from home during the holidays. People ofte... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 07:57:16 EST Out of Commission... After running on Saturday I woke up to my knee being sore. IT hurt anytime I straightened my leg. I took the day off and didn't go to the park like I had planned. Well Monday I woke up and it was worse. I made it into work and then came home to rest my leg for the rest of the night. <BR> <BR> My leg is better today. I went to see the doctor and he basically said it was a bad sprain. I pretty much knew that but I panicked over it being my knee. Two years ago I had knee surgery and immediatel... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 19:28:59 EST No junk food for a week... well sort of.... So last Friday I had a horrible schedule at work and basically worked from 2am until 5pm. As a result, I ended up eating out for all three meals. I didn't want to do this again so I made a commitment not to eat out again for a week. I planned out my meals and made sure I didn't buy anything out of convenience. <BR> <BR> It was really hard though. I think I've gotten so used to eating out that it's become normal for me. I did really good the whole week and was really proud of myself. That is... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 22:04:53 EST Popular in High School? The other night I was watching NBC's Nightly News when they did a segment about how if you were popular and "learned how to play the game" you will ultimately do better in life. It got me thinking about how my actions in high school have affected my life. It doesn't stop there though. What about my actions in grade school? <BR> <BR> I was painfully shy in grade school and high school. Part of this was due to my weight. I never felt like I deserved the spotlight. The more negative attention ... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 21:10:31 EST And the first date was a... Bust? Winning success?? No clue! <BR> <BR> As some of you may know I was asked out for drinks and an afternoon out. I showed up today, looking exceptionally cute if I do say so myself, and had what I thought was a pretty good time. We had the normal, awkward pauses but nothing major. <BR> <BR> There were however a few hiccups. I thought we were eating lunch since we were meeting at 1:00. Apparently, he had eaten a late breakfast and didn't want to eat so I decided to go without too. No pro... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 22:09:25 EST A date?! It's true... I have a date for this coming Sunday. We're heading out for drinks and sightseeing around his neighborhood since I'm not familar with it. <BR> <BR> I admit I'm nervous for it. I haven't been on a date in awhile and even that one was absolutely horrible. It's a semi blind date too... did I mention that?? Yup, we both know what each other looks like and have talked a bit but that's it. I guess I'm just afraid he won't like the whole package when he sees it. Regardless though a mi... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 18:18:26 EST Pumpkin Ice Cream, Running and all the Rest Ok, so a lot has happened since my last blog posting. <BR> <BR> I went home for a mini vacation and had a great time. I was so proud of myself because while I did slip up on my diet for the wedding and other parties I still managed to workout. Working out on a vacation was never something I would have done before. The concept was foreign to me. This time though I made a point of it. I had my clothes, found a gym and got my butt there. <BR> <BR> Coming back I went shopping and on a whim dec... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 20:40:03 EST Love It or Hate It So yesterday I had an amazing workout. I ran for 28 minutes straight on the treadmill, without stopping! I couldn't believe it. I've struggled with my running for so long. I had knee problems two years ago and could barely run 2 minutes. I've struggled with everything from learning to just bending my knee again, piercing knee pain, and even shin splints during that time. Even with all of that I've finally gotten to a point where I ran for almost two miles. I couldn't have been happier. <BR> ... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 19:40:50 EST Working out, Ice cream and the Biggest Loser So I had a really great, three day weekend. I was proud of myself because I actually tried to make it a priority to work out since I didn't have too much luck last week. I only worked out three days last week I think. I had every intention of working out Saturday evening but I was called into work and didn't back home until after 8pm. After working all evening, and still needing to eat dinner I decided to not work out. Ugh.... I hate that. I think my biggest problem is making time. So I wante... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 20:39:42 EST Possibly a smaller me?? While I enjoy shopping in general, dress shopping has never been one of my favorite things to do. I would cringe every time I needed a dress for something because nothing ever fit. I knew going into the store that it was going to be a battle and I would have to find something not necessarily that I liked but something that would fit and I could tolerate. I always remember seeing rows and rows of this beautiful dresses and knowing that I had to pass each one up. I might have felt brave once or... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 14:05:12 EST Eating healthy at 2am?? So Sunday I was called into work from 5:30 until 5am. After I was finished I rushed home got ready, drove to work and then slept in my car from 6:30-8am because I didn't trust myself to sleep in my bed fearing I wouldn't want to get out. I ended up going home early yesterday after finally throwing in the towel where I proceeded to sleep the evening away. Hence why I'm now up at 5. <BR> <BR> To say I didn't have a normal schedule this weekend would be an understatement. I tried to eat health... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 04:58:58 EST Thought I fell off the wagon... This past week has been very difficult for me. I've struggled with boredom the entire week and not just your run of the mill boredom but the fact of truly being bored, almost despondent. <BR> <BR> I tried my best to still eat healthy and even choose going to the gym over everything else. For the most part I did alright. It was the days I didn't go to the gym that I had my biggest problems. I think it really started last weekend when I didn't have any plans for the weekend. I moved to this a... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 21:29:12 EST