LILLITH32's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LILLITH32 LILLITH32's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ After all my whining about weight gain the other day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522725 ... I lost half an inch off my waist and and an inch off my butt. I taped myself this morning after I realized the pants I bought three weeks ago are sagging on me. I had a job fair to go to, and if y'all remember three weeks ago I bought a few new pairs of pants. New, smaller pants for the fair, right? Apparently, not anymore! I felt those things sliding down my butt right as I got out the car. While walking to the building I saw a young man with his pants barely hanging on his butt cheeks, ... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 23:07:53 EST A setback? I hate setbacks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521519 "Where did the 6 extra lb come from?" I moaned yesterday morning as I stared at my scale. I was expecting 2 or 3 lb gain - I had a really fun weekend, after all, but 6? Really? I wasn't that bad over the weekend. Granted, I drank way more then I was supposed to on Friday, but on Saturday I barely touched alcoholic beverages. I may have not worked out Friday or Sunday, but Saturday I went for a run and hiked in the hills for a few hours during the afternoon. I had one real 'cheat' meal, on Sun... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 17:16:54 EST Less than three lb left until goal for October! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514773 I weigh in at 161.8 lb today! That's less than 3 lb from my goal for October, which is to get into 150's. I am hoping that the next two weeks will be enough to drop the pounds, so I can look fabulous in my superhero costume on Halloween. To that end, I spend the day not only cooking, but pre-portioning my munchies. I got baked chicken quarters, lots of greenery and freggies in the fridge. I also made my own trail mix, with raw almonds, two other kinds of nuts, dried cranberries, dried mangoes... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 00:16:41 EST The best problem ever, and I need some good advice. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512761 I have a problem. It's called, lack of clothing. The brand new jeans I got three weeks ago can be taken off without unbuttoning them, and threaten to slide down my behind when I move. I tried size 8 pants at the mall today, and realized... I'm not size 8. I'm size 6. Wow. It feels great to be able to say that, but therein lies my problem... I was a size 8 only three weeks ago. I am deathly afraid of buying new clothing just to have to buy new ones in a few weeks. I don't have enough money for... Sun, 13 Oct 2013 23:44:42 EST All the small things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511617 I love being on vacation. Being on vacation means I can cook my own food, work out twice a day, get my 8 hours of sleep. This is reflecting well in the fact that I am losing a bit more weight and feeling good. Now if I can only find a new job and not have to return to my old stress-filled HR job! <BR> Also, let me tell you... its great to have a Saturday off to do whatever I want to do. A day off is super AMAZING. Have a good weekend! Sat, 12 Oct 2013 15:14:27 EST ... and I'm back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507291 I made it back home. While 'in transit' these last four weeks, I let my diet and workouts lapse by nessesity. More diet then workout - I managed to get in a 5 mile run in a tiny little country called Kyrgyzstan, walk all over the beautiful city of Philadelphia and run through the New Jersey countryside. However, my diet has been.. Yeah. Nasty, deep fried and tasteless food at the local chow hall plus delicious but nutritiously poor bar and carryout food - my choices were poor at best. In addi... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 19:12:11 EST In flux. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484256 It is the best description for my life right now. A change is occurring, with all the hectic rush and confusion that usually accompanies a major move. For a while, things will be unpredictable, busy, and continuously changing. During this time, I cannot lose sight of my goals. It is easy to say, well, I am busy, I better eat what I can. Or, I haven't had a doughnut for a while, and Chinese food, and I haven't seen the inside of my favorite restaurant for a year, so maybe I should indulge. Tha... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 05:19:26 EST "Fat" Girls night out, and guilt guilt guilt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479307 "It's our Girl's Night Out! We should pig out if we want to!" Said my (well-meaning) best friend to me yesterday as I listlessly picked at french fries on my plate at the local restaurant. There was a huge platter of nachos in the middle of the table, and there was excited talk of going to the ice cream parlor across the street later in the evening. <BR> That statement about ruined my night, for some strange reason. I had about 10 french fries, a bite of the ice cream (literally just a spoo... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 09:29:35 EST Happy New Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475792 Today is New Year's Eve according to the Jewish tradition. As I sat in the service and listened to the Rabbi reflect on why last year was bad and next year will hopefully be better, I thought about how far I came this year from last year. I am almost 30lb thinner, I am finally figuring out my dietary sensitivities and allergies which is having a huge impact on my lifestyle and my health. My back is not killing me, and I can work out again. It's been a long, frustrating year with a lot of setb... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 14:06:09 EST Been away for a while...(New goals) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474318 And the scale finally moved, down to 164 (woohoo!!!!!!!!!) In honor of this, I set up a new system of goals based on the stuff I'd like to accomplish within the next year (13-14). <BR> I would like to reach the 150's by Halloween. That means a loss of 5- 14lb in about a month and a half - should be doable. At that point I will squeeze myself into the American Dream outfit and celebrate losing 30-40lb. <BR> During the holiday season (November-December), maintenance will be the name of the gam... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 08:37:47 EST The scale... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462661 Is stuck. I think it is broken (both of them, in my room and in my gym). It won't move past 168, and I really want to move past 168. Because of my ever-present math homework, I haven't been able to do as much working out as I'd like, and I binged on chocolate at least twice last week. So... it is time to 'tighten up my shot group'. I need to concentrate on putting more nutrition and less sugar into my body, and work out a bit harder. Although I am happy with my results so far (woohoo, out of ... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 03:34:55 EST The fainting goat... I mean... girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459517 Thank God for the lack of privacy. I never thought I'd say that, but today the fact that we have a shower trailer instead of private showers saved me a headache, literally. The morning started out good - I got up right on time (0500) and went out for a run in the nice cool semi-darkness. The intent was easy 2 miles, which turned into a tempo run about half way through. I hit the finish line, hit my watch, and was doing the happy dance due to coming in under my passing time for the physical fi... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 06:45:23 EST Superhero and a new goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454117 I picked American Dream as my superhero avatar. She... Suits me, outside of the blond hair anyway. I think I'd really like to wear the American Dream outfit for Halloween. If I continue on my weightloss path, and manage to lose 5-8 lb a month, I will make it to about 150 lb by the end of October. While it's still a bit too hefty for my 5'5 frame, with a bit of heavy duty shaping undies I don't think it's too unreasonable. What do you think, Spark Friends? Should I do it? Tue, 13 Aug 2013 14:54:03 EST The cycle of stress in nature http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452396 I haven't been blogging for the past few days. This was a result of a complete freak-out I had over my physical fitness test that I took today. I am prone to freaking out - I tend to do it on a small scale (MATH HOMEWORK NOT DONE A WEEK PRIOR AAAAAAAAGGGH) and on the big scale (IF I FAIL MY TEST THERE GOES MY CAREER, LIFE RUINED AAAAAAAGGGHHHH). Of course, I passed the test, with only a minimal amount of pain (that would be the 19 minutes and 32 seconds that I was running... let me tell ya, t... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 03:41:03 EST The too few calories "problem" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438377 I just checked my daily nutrition numbers. I am under calories - yet again. You'd think it would be the other way around, I'd be running over, but that is not the case. I try to eat well, however due to my myriads of food issues my consumption is limited. Lunch and dinner look uniformly like chunks of meat next to half a plate piled with veggies, and while it's very healthy (and pretty filling), its also low in calories. My snacks lately consisted of water and almonds, which, while high in fa... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 09:53:15 EST A new week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436846 Yesterday was my day off. I had plans, really. Clean my room, have a great early morning run, go hang out with friends. Instead, I ended up reading the night away, reading the day away, and spending the evening doing my math homework. I didn't leave the bed. I did not eat the whole day, up until about 10 pm when I had a cup of Ramen, which is probably the reason why I feel like crud today (stupid food allergies). I did get a lot of math out of the way, which is always a plus - my first test i... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 01:14:36 EST Lies the scale tells us http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433837 My evil, evil roommate bought a scale, which is rather unfortunate for my mental health. Now I want to get on it, all the time. Every morning I fight the compulsion to strip nekkid after the roomie leaves and jump on the scale. This is mainly due to the fact that the scale lies. It shamelessly flatters me, by constantly going down. It is electronic, unlike the industrial type scale I use in the gym for my Sunday morning weight-ins, so it tells me a smaller weight with ounces attached to the e... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 02:16:29 EST The big running party - photos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432604 Ladies and gentlemen... the most fun you can have at midnight! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l994108981.jpg"> <BR> Yep, this is a 5K <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l103251679.jpg"> <BR> Fun costumes and all... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l650280645.jpg"> <BR> And more fun costumes... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1761685393.jpg"> <BR> I love these races! Thu, 25 Jul 2013 01:27:47 EST The big running party (and pictures to follow!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430167 I ran the monthly Full Moon 5K yesterday. Let me tell you a little about what it is, because this is the coolest 5K I ever ran! It is a 5K run around a helicopter landing pad, starting at midnight, and it is a giant running PARTY. People come dressed in outrageous costumes, there is a DJ, and there are some kind of shenaningans before the start of the race: this morning the crowd played volleyball with ginormous beach balls, last month there was a water balloon fight. I cannot wait to post th... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 04:49:52 EST Things that make you beautiful are on the inside (of your clothes) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427940 Yesterday was a bit of an emotional turmoil kind of day for me. I am rather conflicted about certain developments, and it bothered me the whole day. Thankfully, I managed to sort out my emotional distress by the end of the day, averting an-almost disastrous food binge by sticking to a handful of caramel corn (and NOT the whole bag). Miraculously I stayed within my calorie limits, and with the evening workout ended up a little under! <BR> Today I woke up at my regular zero-dark-thirty time an... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 05:16:40 EST Just another day in Paradise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426502 Today was rather uneventful, but a particularly amazing day as far as staying away from temptation go. I find that the longer I am on a gluten free, dairy free and sugar free kick the less I want those things. We had popcorn in the office today - caramel corn and white chocolate corn. I didnt touch them. At the restaurant in the evening I did not take a single French fry or try a bite of my friend's pasta. I bought Tiramisu for my best friend, and didn't eat a piece. The scent of fresh-baked ... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 13:31:21 EST It's the small things in life - motivation of the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425417 While I was refreshing my iPod with the music from my computer, I stumbled upon a playlist of old favorites from 2001-2003. Wow, talk about a blast from the past! Those songs reminded me of my halcyon college gym junkie days, back when I had the time, energy and motivation to work out three times a day and party all night long. Ah, memories! During my today's workout, my last excercise of the day was the plank. I was having issues with it, and was about to call it a day without doing the las... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 13:39:34 EST The giant underthings of doom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423735 This morning, while changing for work I realized I had a problem. The problem is of ginornous proportions. It is huge, saggy, and made out of fabric. It hangs out in my underwear drawer and is a direct result of weight loss. <BR> ~MY UNDERWEAR IS HUGE ON ME!!!~ <BR> Now, normally, it wouldn't be a problem. Most likely I wouldn't even notice this occurrence in the real world. I would stroll over to the mall, local sports store or Wal-Mart and pick up some new underthings, most likely before t... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 03:37:48 EST Wrong, bad and probably completely inappropriate thoughts of the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422623 All of us say that we want to lose weight for, first and foremost, health reasons, maybe for our families or for ourselves. Wanting to lose weight to be more attractive to opposite gender seems to be almost...wrong? It goes against everything I've been telling my friends for these last years, "oh, if he is the right man for you, he will love you for yourself" and some such truism. However, the longer I am here, the more I feel like my desire to get in shape is, at least in part, motivated by... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 05:16:58 EST Of carbs, weight loss and the evil bloat. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420684 DAY OFF!!!!! Since I only get one every two weeks, the ability to do whatever I want for the day is infinitely precious. I woke at the crack of dawn, ran/crawled about 2.5 miles (I'm ashamed to say that's my "long run" for the week), had breakfast, then sat down to do my math homework. I took a nice long lunch break at the local café, and treated myself to a yummy beef shish kabob/grilled eggplant sandwich (minus the bread, of course), a fresh fruit cup and a non-alcoholic beer. Then it was b... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 12:03:09 EST Other people's holidays and my diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5419564 I love having co-workers of different cultures, religions and ethnicity. I love learning new languages, talking with people who have a different point of view, and celebrating new holidays... maybe. This month, some of my coworkers are celebrating the Holy Month of Ramadan. This means they are not eating or drinking during the daylight hours. I give them kudos - I wouldn't be able to do that. I also try to be respectful and not eat or drink in front of them. That creates issues for me. I am s... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 07:55:59 EST This is what happends when I don't get a workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416209 Paranoia. Definately paranoia. When my bran is not busy with other things, like work, math homework. or a nice long workout, I get scared and depressed. There are a multitude of reasons I can have an anxiety attack, starting from the latest stupid thing I did at work to my weight, health and future. Future is the general boogey man in my closet. After my job here is done, I will be unemployed. I have a degree, but I've never been able to find work in my field. The field I am currently working... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 01:27:15 EST Motivation is a b... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415064 After all my complaining about being tired, I went running yesterday night. As I was meandring home from work, I was thinking, well, I am meeting my friend at 8:30... I have a few errands to run... if I sit down to do my homework, I won't get too far before I have to do something else, so I might as well just get my 2 miles in. Out the door I went, down the dark and dusty road. By the time I was done with the first block, my energy was coming back. About half way through the run, I was tellin... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 02:18:55 EST Not... Enough... Sleep... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413894 My name is Julia and I chronically under-sleep. There, I said it! It is my own fault, most of the time. I realize that, however I am having a hard time changing it. My job revolves around a computer. I spend about 40% of the day with my nose in my monitor, doing my best to block out the world around me. Another 10-20% of my day I spend working out, ears plugged up with my headphones, again, trying to block out the world. Another 10% I spend studying... you get the drift. By the end of the nig... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 04:57:19 EST Weight loss, Boys and Mental Mindfork http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412230 As I am starting to lose a bit of weight, I am starting to recieve a bit more male attention. Nothing harrassing, of course, just... a bit more attention. More men smile and say hi. More doors being held open. More friendly comments aimed my way at the local hangout spots. For some reason, I feel distinctly uncomfortable with that. I've been fat most of my life (the period when I wasn't fat was so brief I can no longer recall the feeling). In my experience, when you are a bit chubby, you are ... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 09:51:45 EST How hot is it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411360 Had a great conversation with a gentleman on my way to work today (I walk). <BR> Him: Whew! Its hot out here! How hot do you think it is? <BR> Me: It's not that hot... it's only around 115 or so. When it gets up to 130, it's going to get hot! <BR> Him: 130? That's crazy! Is that kind of temperature even possible? <BR> Me: Yeah, actually I think the meteorologists predicted 130 for the high in two-three days. <BR> Him: Yikes. <BR> Me: Eh. <BR> The lesson of the day is, hot is in the eye of t... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 09:49:35 EST Peachtree 5K and happy Independence Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5410286 Ran a 5K today (in 100 degree heat). Made it in 34 minutes, which is the same time it took me to run the last one. Due to the heat I kept telling myself the whole race, slow down, slow down! So, does that mean I am faster then a few weeks ago? I sincerely hope so! <BR> On the down side, I havent had much sleep lately. The extreme heat makes me get up at 4am if I want to get a run in while the weather is somewhat cool (usually, 80+ degrees! and 80 tends to feel cold! I'm going to be suffering... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 05:33:21 EST 5 reasons why I should run early in the mornings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406949 This morning I jumped out of bed and went running. Almost literally - it took me all of 5 minutes to put on some workout gear and grab my keys. At about 0515 I was out pounding the pavement and enjoying a beauiful morning. While running, I came up with some reasons why I should run in the mornings forever more: <BR> 1. It's not blazing hot out. Of course, it's 90 degrees, but for this place, especially compared to 120+, that is a nice, cool morning. <BR> 2. It's not dusty. There are less vehi... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 02:30:31 EST My first ever blog! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5405340 Everyone has to start somewhere, and I am starting right here. Today is day 4 of my get-in-shape for APFT (Army Physical Fitness Test for you non-military types). I am good with the pushups and situps, but my run time sucks. So, I am running, slowly and painfully. Tonight I am running 2-3 miles after doing some weights at the gym. The big problem is - 100+ degree temps, even at night, and the never-ending omnipresent sand. Oh well - still have to run! On that note, good night ya'll. I am off ... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 09:51:17 EST