LILLIPUTIANNA's SparkPeople Blog LILLIPUTIANNA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Goals... The Oatmeal is a fountain of wisdom. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 23 Sep 2014 15:55:00 EST What's That Elephant Doing In Our Room? I see this so often. <BR> <BR> Don't be afraid of REAL food! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 12 Sep 2014 17:00:35 EST Playing Hooky Today I will be playing hooky from work. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to get in trouble or anything. <BR> <BR> I just can't handle people today. <BR> <BR> I've told you in previous posts about my coworkers, my "friends." They are difficult to handle when I'm in a good mood. Today, I have no ability at all to deal with their weirdness. <BR> <BR> Especially after yesterday, with the strangers and new workers asking me what I want to be when I grow up, as I was standing in front of them, knee d... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 10:28:44 EST A Butcher, A Baker, A Candlestick Maker... Today is the day when complete strangers give me the "what do you want to be when you grow up" speech. Never mind that I'm a grown adult, with a union job, who has to wear nice shoes to work, has to sit through meetings, or that I'm in a field that is in high demand. Apparently, something about me today is giving off the "unsure young adult" vibe. <BR> <BR> I figured by now that people would start treating me like a grown up. I have tons of white hairs. I have some wrinkles. I'm not a size ... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 15:56:12 EST The Case Of The Missing Data I'm starting to think it's strange that I can't find long-term success rate data regarding Spark People. I can find it for Weight Watchers. I can find it for AA. Heck, I can find it for Biggest Loser. <BR> <BR> Surely there's been a study done on this. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> (I ask this, because I'm not feeling so Sparky, and I'm think for all the talk of a lifestyle change/not a diet, that this is just one more diet, dress... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 11:24:58 EST More Fun With Mommy Dearest Today will not be a good day. <BR> <BR> You know how you wake up some mornings and you just KNOW it will be a bad day? <BR> <BR> That's today. <BR> <BR> I didn't lose any weight this week. <BR> <BR> I have to spend the day with my mother, for her birthday. If you have read any of my other blogs, you know that spending time with my mother is a bit like spending time in a nest of angry rattlesnakes...but less cuddly. She wants to go out to eat. It's an Italian place she wants to try. There... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 12:05:24 EST Lucky Level 13 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today, I hit Level 13 here on Spark People. <BR> <BR> I'm writing this blog to remind myself that in order to see progress, to "level up," all I have to do is show up, drink my water, enter my food, do a tiny bit of exercise. Pushing myself harder and going to extremes does not bring about progress faster. It only leads to a crash and burn. <BR> <BR> In one week I have... <BR> <BR> 1. Lost 2.5 pounds. (Y... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 12:28:59 EST Food For Thought I don't eat McDonalds fries. I don't eat McDonalds anything. However, this picture makes me wonder just how many strawberries I could eat before feeling sick and never wanting to eat another strawberry again. I'm fairly sure I wouldn't make it to 114. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 30 Jun 2014 12:11:46 EST Water Balloon Water weight is so weird. Losing three pounds in three days is deceiving. I usually carry about five pounds of water weight when I'm stressed. I understand biology and metabolisms...but that water weight thing is always baffling to me. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 25 May 2014 13:04:34 EST Pity Party Today's my birthday. It's been terrible. <BR> <BR> For months now, I've been pushed and prodded into doing more work, into promoting myself, into doing things that make me uncomfortable. I thought that maybe the people who have been demanding would at least show me a little appreciation on my birthday. Nope. Most of them forgot. In fact, today seemed like an after-thought to my husband. <BR> <BR> When it comes to everyone else's birthday, I have to be the super-party planner rock star. If ... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 17:59:39 EST Reality Check Twelve pounds. That’s it. Just twelve. That’s all I need to lose to reach my goal. I’ve been staring at that goal for years. <BR> <BR> When I log into Sparkpeople, I see articles about people who lost 50, 100, 250 pounds. I read about their horrifying health issues that prompted them to lose that weight. I recognize that my twelve pounds is pretty pathetic. I feel guilty for being so petty. Twelve pounds is nothing. <BR> <BR> There are people here on SP, who if all they had to lose was twe... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 12:44:09 EST The Sparker Without Spark Yes…I've been gone a while. Sorry. I promise not to wander away again! <BR> <BR> But that's not what this blog is about. <BR> <BR> Every once in a while, I run into a Sparker who seems to be filled with nothing but vitriol. They are angry. They know everything. You know nothing. AND they feel the need to yell at you about it. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I literally had a Sparker yell all in caps at me about something…and I jus... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 23:17:08 EST Straying From The Path I wandered away. I haven't recorded my food for days. I haven't officially exercised in I don't know how long...and I've paid the price for it. My jeans are a little more snug. My head's a little cloudy. My skin isn't glowing. I'm a mess really. <BR> <BR> You should have seen the food I was eating! I have a friend who is a Nutrition professor, and she says, "There are no GOOD foods or BAD foods," but I think she may be lying about that. I definitely ate some bad food. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img ... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 11:13:51 EST Arguments and the Uncomfortable Couch So, last night, my husband and I had an argument. We don't often have arguments. I am always amazed at how often I see other couples arguing. I figure their lives must be pretty miserable, with all that conflict and yelling and crap. <BR> <BR> At any rate, we had one of our rare arguments last night. There was NO way I was going to sleep in the same bed as him. Truly, I was furious. If he had stood closer to me, I would have kicked him in the shins. I was the kind of mad that my mom used to ... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 11:09:24 EST The Tide Turns Well, yesterday went well. <BR> <BR> It went better than expected, in fact. <BR> <BR> I wore my outfit, with my size 4 Banana Republic denim skirt, and my horizontally striped, brightly colored shirt. Nobody ran away, shrieking in terror. In fact, I received compliments on how lovely I looked. My hair seemed to be the subject of much brave I was to cut it all off and how flattering it was to my face. <BR> <BR> My coworkers were all chummy and in high spirits. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 15:24:18 EST Tomorrow's Battle Well Sparkers, I am trying to be brave. <BR> <BR> I am trying to do new things. I am trying to do things that I used to do every day, but I've forgotten how to do, because somehow I lost my sense of self. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, at work, we will have a big shindig. We do this twice a year. I have avoided it like the plague for the last seven years. THIS year, I want to force myself to go. It's ridiculous that I don't go. I started hiding to avoid certain people (see my last blog), and I got stu... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 23:01:43 EST Dispatch From My Dark Corner Well, Sparkers... <BR> <BR> ...I'm sitting here, hiding in my dark corner, at work. If you've read some of my other blogs, you might know that I have one former friend who always gives me crap about my weight, and a former best friend who gets a little creepy sometimes. They are both members of the same committee, and they will be attending a meeting in the room right next to my work area, just as soon as they've finished up with lunch. <BR> <BR> I've already run into the one who gives me c... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 15:36:11 EST My Fragile Little Knees Hey there Sparkers! <BR> <BR> I'm here to whine a bit about my current lack of progress. I have no doubt that if I could exercise more, my progress would kick back into gear, BUT I feel like I shouldn't exercise. <BR> <BR> Why? <BR> <BR> My knees have been aching all week. It's the strangest thing. I make sure to wear sensible shoes and I do low impact exercises. So, I'm sure I haven't damaged them in any way. Also, they both hurt and started doing so at exactly the same time. I decided I... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 11:42:53 EST Advice Column I hate it when people ask me for advice...and then ignore the heck out of it. I especially like it when they expect me to be all sorts of understanding about their choices, when I can see the huge train wreck that they have set up for themselves. Then when I tell them I'm not happy about their choice...they get hurt and want me to say sorry. <BR> <BR> I especially like it when it's my husband who does this. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="">... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 17:56:35 EST A Pair Of Fresh Eyes Okay...the last couple of days have been weird for me. <BR> <BR> My husband picked a fight with me...and told me I was "too thin for his tastes." <BR> <BR> My coworkers think I've lost "a lot of weight" since the last time they saw me. (That was back at the end of May, for the record.) <BR> <BR> BUT I've gained weight! <BR> <BR> Seriously! I have. I gained and my body absolutely doesn't want to lose any weight. <BR> <BR> So, I said to myself, "Hey, self...why don't you compare a photo ... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 20:18:58 EST Back At Work Today is my first day back at work, after my two month long break. <BR> <BR> My coworkers in my department have treated me with their usual disdain. One even said that she was sad to see me back *insert long pause* because it meant Summer was over. Now, that's one of those moments where you can choose to hear it as an insult, chose to believe that she was joking, or recognize that she's a bitter, petty little jerk, and know that you are better than that...and view her as someone who should ... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 15:01:53 EST Paradigm Shift Okay Sparkers, I am about to tale you a tale. It's one of those tales that we all really least when it's about ourselves. <BR> <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> So, I'm cleaning like a fiend today. I'm pulling things out of dark forgotten corners of my house, trying to decide if I'm going to keep them or not. That's when I found my striped wool dress. it's one of those sorts of dresses that you can wear with pants, and it looks cool. It has big, awesome red buttons on it. In fact..... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 21:08:55 EST Fetish My husband just pointed out to me that I have a strange fetish. Don't worry, this post is safe for work. No need to clear your browser history. <BR> <BR> He says I have an obsession with headphones and keyboards. No matter how new and shiny my new keyboard is or my new headphones are, I want newer and better ones. He finds himself following me into stores that sell such things, and I float over to them, like a moth to the flame. <BR> <BR> He's right of course. <BR> <BR> Do you know what I... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 16:56:20 EST Big, Stupid Mess Yesterday, I ran into one of the roadblocks that I had been expecting. I just figured it would come a lot later than it did. <BR> <BR> My husband and I got into a big fight (and we almost NEVER fight), because he says that I'm "getting a bit too thin for his tastes." <BR> <BR> My response was, "Seriously?!" <BR> <BR> That's how it all started. It snowballed from there. <BR> <BR> Let's be clear. I am not as thin as when he met me. In fact, I'm about 15 pounds heavier than when he met me. S... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 11:26:23 EST Me & My Plateau The good thing about the new nutrition tracker... <BR> <BR> It tells me that I can eat 2100 calories...IF I burn 500 calories in exercise. <BR> <BR> The bad thing about being able to eat 2100 calories... <BR> <BR> I have to burn 500 calories. <BR> <BR> <BR> My body wants all the extra yummies, but doesn't want to exercise anymore! It wants to sit and stare at the ceiling. But I've been stuck on this plateau for absolute AGES. I really need to push myself and get out of this rut! <BR> <... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 20:48:13 EST Magical Post-It Notes Are The Solution! So, I took the Spark People quiz "How Positive Is Your Body Image?" <BR> <BR> I knew what the outcome would be. Mostly I did it for laughs. <BR> <BR> My official results were: "You need to work on your body image." <BR> <BR> *Gigglesnort* <BR> <BR> REALLY Spark People? Do ya' think?! <BR> <BR> They then gave me some recommendations... <BR> <BR> <BR> Say something nice about yourself. For every negative thought, come back with a compliment. If you need to, write a few on post-its and st... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 12:50:07 EST Today's Trial Today, I have to help my little brother straighten out his application for college and financial aid. That means having to deal with my mother...perhaps for hours. <BR> <BR> Oh, Sparkers! I would really rather not have to deal with her. She's exhausting. <BR> <BR> My goal is to remain calm and in control of the situation. I'm not going to allow her to ruin this for my little brother. <BR> <BR> And now I leave you with this hilarious meme... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeop... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 12:13:29 EST More Food, You say? Well, I certainly like the new nutritional tracker. <BR> <BR> I activated it...and BLAMMO! <BR> <BR> It told me I needed to eat a crapton more food. <BR> <BR> I like more food. <BR> <BR> Food is delicious. <BR> <BR> And now I will share this hilarious vintage ad... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wed, 24 Jul 2013 18:25:38 EST Undeniable Progress So, I jumped on the scale this morning, after my stupid weigh-in yesterday afternoon (when I weighed 132). This morning, the scale said I weighed 130. I don't know where those two pounds came from, but I can't imagine that it's fat...because I just don't eat that much! <BR> <BR> Feeling defeated, I moped around for a bit. Then I ran my "weight loss report' here on SP. It started the report at September 1, 2012. At that time, I was 145 pounds. Since then, which was what? Nearly eleven months ... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 15:32:53 EST I Should Know Better! All day I've felt "thinner." I get this feeling sometimes, where my body just FEELS different, leaner, lighter. Usually when that happens, I have started losing weight again. <BR> <BR> So, silly me, I decide to hop on the 4:30 in the afternoon. <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I don't know what I expected to see, but of course I weighed 132...which sent me into a self pity routine. <BR> <BR> I have to weigh myself in the morning, before I've eaten, before I've drank ten gl... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 19:54:36 EST Today's Inspiration I don't know who this woman is, but she is amazing! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> These pictures were posted on a Facebook yoga page. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> If you know who she is, please tell me. <BR> <BR> She is inspiring. I never want to be old and broken. I want to take care of myself, so that even when I have aged, my body can still move. I never want to feel... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 16:47:30 EST The Sacred Unitard I want to wear this... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I want to wear it and I want it to fit. I don't want to look lumpy and bumpy. I want it to be smooth. I don't want to feel like people are giggling at me while I wear it. I want to do yoga in that thing and look awesome, like this... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's one of my secret goals, which isn't so secret now. <B... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 13:34:53 EST Eating Disorders Aren't Just For Girls As those of you who read my blog well know, my little brother was staying here at my house for a considerable stretch of time. While he is a bit of a mess maker, most of my anxiety came from my mother and the chaos she radiates, not my little bro. <BR> <BR> My brother is 26 years old. So, he's not a baby or anything, though he's considerably younger than I am. <BR> <BR> However when I say "little," that's truer than it used to be. <BR> <BR> He was always healthy. At one point he was traini... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 13:00:10 EST Back On Track Hello all you fabulously sparky Sparkers! <BR> <BR> I've been gone for a while. I was lost in the chaos of my family drama. Finally, they are all out, moved into their new place, and no longer wandering around my home like grouchy, messy gremlins. <BR> <BR> I haven't heard from my mother in nearly a week. The silence is amazing! <BR> <BR> As predicted, the three pounds that I gained was most likely all from stress. Even though I completely stopped tracking and checking in here at SP, I am ... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 13:24:36 EST Unpleasant Surprise I hopped on the scale this morning and found that I've gained three pounds in the last two weeks. I am absolutely positive that it's from stress. The sooner this family ordeal is over with, the better, Wed, 3 Jul 2013 13:17:10 EST It Just Keeps Getting Better And Better My husband: Did your brother talk to you yet? <BR> <BR> Me: About what? <BR> <BR> My husband: He says he needs to stay another week and a half, that the new house won't be ready until then. He said he's working up the courage to talk to you about it. <BR> <BR> Me: Is this a joke? Are you joking right now? <BR> <BR> My husband: Nope. Not joking. Is there anything I can do to help? <BR> <BR> Me: Bring me more wine. <BR> <BR> My husband: How much? <BR> <BR> Me: How much do we got? <BR> <... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 00:21:02 EST Unimpressed It's 10:15am and all the men in the house are still asleep. <BR> <BR> So far I've... <BR> <BR> Taken the dog to the dog park for an hour and a half. <BR> <BR> Done the laundry. <BR> <BR> Done yard work. <BR> <BR> Bathed the dog. <BR> <BR> Changed water in the fish tanks. <BR> <BR> And written a blog here on SP. <BR> <BR> So my face is looking kind of like this... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 1 Jul 2013 13:15:55 EST Praise The Energy! Yesterday, I posted someone else's blog. After that blog, in the comments section for that blog, was the most amazing comment! I have to share it with you... <BR> <BR> <BR> "I can eat 1000 calories in a matter of minutes. 2800 for the day is, ummm, a piece of cake, as it were. What is the secret? <BR> <BR> I have never been inculcated with the idea that energy is evil. Energy is what keeps me alive. Energy is what allows me to go places and do things. Obtaining energy is my prime directive... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 12:00:44 EST "How I Lost Weight" (A Blog By Someone Else) Lately I've been getting some emails from people here on SP about how I have lost my weight so far. I tell them. They usually don't believe me. This blog says pretty much the same thing that I tell everyone who messages me. It's a good read if you have the time and inclination. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ight/ </link> Sun, 30 Jun 2013 12:54:02 EST Counting The Hours. Four more days, Sparkers! <BR> <BR> Four more days, and I can have my quiet, clean, and peaceful house back. I won't have to worry about surprise visits from my mother. I will be able to focus on getting my Sparking done, and won't have to tend to my little brother's needs or deal with my husband's gruffness. I won't have to clean up after my little brother's un-potty trained dog either. <BR> <BR> I am literally staring at the clock. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 26 Jun 2013 16:24:31 EST Rainy Day Blues My basset hound is whining. He wants to go to the dog park. It's our morning ritual. He wakes me up at the crack of dawn. We go to Starbucks and then the dog park...BUT as some of you may have noticed, there's a bunch of rainstorms all over the country. We are having one of those storms here. So, the dog park is probably a big muddy puddle...and closed for the day. <BR> <BR> My basset is not pleased. He's flopped down next to me, whining. You would think he was neglected, starving, or regul... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 11:19:36 EST Besieged I've decided I need to write off the next week...or two. <BR> <BR> As I said before, my mother is moving, buying a new house and all that. While she waits for her new home purchase to go through, she's staying at her boyfriend's house. Meanwhile, my little brother, who lives with her is staying with me, because he doesn't get along with her boyfriend. <BR> <BR> I love my little brother, but he sort of sprung his visit on me in a way that gave me no real options. I had to take him in. My ho... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 12:48:06 EST ...And Then The Dam Broke. My mother is moving this weekend from a house she has lived in for more than 30 years. She has sold the family property that has belonged to my father's side of the family since the 1880's. While I am not at all pleased about this, I am not allowed to say a word against it, because apparently I just don't understand these complicated adult sorts of matters (I am 40 years old and I'm a home owner). <BR> <BR> Perhaps it wouldn't be so bad if my mother wasn't a hoarder. That's right she's a hoa... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 16:39:32 EST Sleep Tight, Sparkers. I just wrote out a big, ranty blog about my mother. Then after writing it, I realized if you Sparkers read it, then you would have the yucky, kaka feeling that I have inside right now. I don't want you to feel kaka inside, you marvelous Sparky people. So, I erased the whole ranty blog. Sleep tight, Sparky Sparkers. <BR> <BR> (If you see a selfish, vain, and totally irrational woman in your It just turned into a nightmare and it's probably my mother.) Fri, 14 Jun 2013 03:05:42 EST Something To Chew On... Hey Sparkers! <BR> <BR> Here's a little science to spice up your day! It's a study out of Harvard concerning your red meat consumption. <BR> <BR> “This study provides clear evidence that regular consumption of red meat, especially processed meat, contributes substantially to premature death,” said senior author Frank Hu, professor of nutrition and epidemiology at the Harvard School of Public Health." <BR> <BR> <link><BR>03/red-meat-raises-red-flags/ <... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 13:06:56 EST Snake Oil Smoothie I was thinking of going to Jamba Juice today, and see they have a "Lean Advantage Boost™." I tell you right now, I distrust any food that has a trademark symbol on it, especially a food with a name like "Lean Advantage Boost™." <BR> <BR> So, I decided to take a look at the fine print. Here's what it said... <BR> <BR> "Lean Advantage™ Boost is made with conjugated linoleic acid, or "CLA", which is derived from safflower oil. CLA is a naturally occurring fatty acid that is commonly found in f... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 17:56:35 EST Sunny California Well, it's finally here. The 100+ degree weather of the Central Valley is upon us. The chances of me going out to exercise are nearly zero percent. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> If you've ever experienced this sort of heat, you know that even if you're inside, the high pressure system outside sort of sucks all of your will to live out of you. So, I will be sitting, sipping iced tea, and avoiding the sun at all costs today. <BR> <BR... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 15:26:05 EST The Rains of Castamere Well Sparkers, if you watch Game of Thrones, you know last night was a tough episode to sit through. A friend of mine and I have spent the day enjoying the wails of horror that keep coming from Facebook and Twitter. Everyone seems really upset about the whole thing. <BR> <BR> Of course if you read the books you knew this was coming. For weeks, my friends and I have been speculating on when the Red Wedding would be. It was something that both excited us and filled us with dread. Now it's happ... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 19:55:29 EST Note to Self... Dear self, <BR> <BR> Stop doing stupid things that you know you shouldn't do. <BR> <BR> Sincerely, <BR> <BR> Me. Sat, 1 Jun 2013 18:51:49 EST Dog Day I just got done telling a random person here on SP that the lifestyle changes we successfully make when times are tough are the ones that will stick with us, and that we shouldn't try to make things too easy on ourselves. We should challenge ourselves. <BR> <BR> It's easier said than done. <BR> <BR> My little dog, she's a 15 year old rescue. She's helped me through all the tough times in my life, my miscarriage, messing up my hip, losing my grandmother...and now her health is failing. For t... Thu, 30 May 2013 11:50:08 EST