LILBLKDRESS09's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LILBLKDRESS09 LILBLKDRESS09's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ It's Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801530 Make it a good one. don't dwell on last week. you owe yourself to have to best week yet. Mon, 20 Oct 2014 12:47:47 EST Accepting your body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797543 It's easy to get in over your head when it comes to weight loss. by that I mean that our actions, thoughts, dreams, and meaning for which we live can become obscure. We tend to measure our values or happiness with x amount of weight. <BR> <BR> I have been on sparkpeople.com since Sept 2010. Since then I have lost and regained the same 30 lbs. I always told myself that this time it would be different. This time I was finally going to be beautiful. <BR> <BR> I put my life on hold. I held my... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 16:32:43 EST Day 137: Green smoothies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797386 I bought a Nutri-Bullet about 2 months ago. Since then I have been enjoying my smoothies every morning. <BR> <BR> The changes in my energy are awesome. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 13 Oct 2014 11:27:42 EST Day 136: Remove the unrealistic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795888 Whether it be unrealistic goals or unrealistic expectations... Let them go <BR> <BR> Enjoy the moment. You ate the doughnut. Let it go. <BR> <BR> I believe that weight loss begins in the mind. If you only have negative thoughts in your mind then you get negative results. <BR> <BR> Love you NOW.. Not 100 lbs later. <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Friday! Fri, 10 Oct 2014 14:21:59 EST Day 135: Love yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791711 No matter what size! You are beautiful, smart, and worth it. <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone! Fri, 3 Oct 2014 12:29:35 EST Day 135: Love yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791710 No matter what size! You are beautiful, smart, and worth it. <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone! Fri, 3 Oct 2014 12:29:32 EST Day 134: one year can make a big difference http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791137 The scale hasn't moved much ( if anything gone up a few pounds) but the weight is coming off. <BR> <BR> Oct/2013 Oct/2014 ( the sweaters are XXL left and XL Right) <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1726745107.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1379633699.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Don't give up, your body is changing. <BR> <BR> Thu, 2 Oct 2014 13:16:46 EST Day 133: Yes I can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790440 I have found that since I have taken the emphasis off of food and off of how much I hate myself and how much my life will change once I lose weight.. I haven't experienced a binge episode. I haven't over eaten and I haven't redistricted food either. I am starting to feel normal again.. <BR> <BR> I begun to love myself.. just as I am. Wed, 1 Oct 2014 12:55:41 EST Day 132: Can't hide from myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789071 Coming face to face with self hate can sometimes be hard. We tell ourselves that we are here to improve and to love our selves just as we are....but it this is not always the case.. at least not for me. <BR> <BR> I hid from the scale for well over 50 days and gained weight.. almost 10 lbs.. so this method didn't work for me. <BR> <BR> So onto another plan ( it doesn't have to end here) <BR> <BR> I am not a failure I will take it one day at a time.. I will succeed. <BR> <BR> October goal:... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 12:22:34 EST Day 131: Could I be married to an Alcoholic? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784873 It never dawned on me or perhaps I never allowed myself to accept it. But I believe that my husband is an alcoholic. <BR> <BR> Step One: Acceptance <BR> <BR> Mon, 22 Sep 2014 15:57:14 EST Day 130: Just go with it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777261 Life happens... change with it and go along with it. <BR> <BR> Happy Wednesday everyone! Wed, 10 Sep 2014 12:30:28 EST Day 129: Readjusting goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775846 The reason that I have failed so many times before.. <BR> <BR> 1. Unrealistic goals <BR> 2. No self love <BR> 3. Lack of motivation <BR> 4. Focusing on the Number instead of my body <BR> <BR> This year is almost over let's make the best of it! Mon, 8 Sep 2014 12:05:47 EST NS Victories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769538 Since I am still not using the scale. I am going to pick NS victories that I can use as markers to determine my progress. <BR> <BR> Running 2 miles <BR> <BR> <BR> Right now that is all I have. I let August.. get away from me. I got depressed. But I am over it. Fri, 29 Aug 2014 18:32:41 EST Day 128: September http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769355 Will be better then August! Fri, 29 Aug 2014 11:38:08 EST Day 127: Too Obsessive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764922 There is such a thing as too obsessive with weight loss and all things about and including it. There has to be a healthy balance. There is a fine line between trying to lose weight and maybe developing an eating disorder. <BR> <BR> I used to be obsessive with bite and licks I tracked everything. Food was always on my mind that I weighed myself multiple times a day. <BR> <BR> I wasn't living my life. I was obsessed with the perfect weight. <BR> <BR> It has almost been 1 month since my la... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 12:06:39 EST Day 126: Just push through http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762097 I am not feeling all that great today...but I am going to try and push through. Happy Monday everyone. Mon, 18 Aug 2014 11:51:08 EST Day 125: Happy Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760257 It's Friday Yay!!!! Another week gone. have a great one everyone. <BR> <BR> Fri, 15 Aug 2014 11:46:39 EST Day 124: Nail polish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758930 Sometimes the smallest of things can make you feel beautiful. <BR> <BR> I got new nail polish "black Momba" <BR> <BR> Have a great Hump Day everyone! Wed, 13 Aug 2014 11:44:43 EST Day 123: A whole year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757571 I have decided that I will go a whole year without weighing myself. I have made it past two weeks since my last weigh in and I know that I can keep going. <BR> <BR> I want to focus on other things. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 11 Aug 2014 12:48:21 EST Day 122: Hormones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755738 I hate hormones.... <BR> <BR> Happy Friday! Fri, 8 Aug 2014 11:54:28 EST Day 121: Two weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755097 This is the amount of time that it is said that it takes to break a habit... I sure hope so. Tomorrow marks 2 weeks since my last weigh in... and I am starting to notice a pattern. Whenever I am stressed I turn to my weight...and start picking away at it. The scale was only adding to my obsessive behavior. I am learning to cope with my stress in a healthier way. <BR> <BR> Happy Thursday Everyone! Thu, 7 Aug 2014 12:10:56 EST Day 120: Trust your body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754334 It's been almost two weeks since I last weighed myself.. and I am starting to regret the whole 50 days until weigh in... but I have to keep going. I am tracking, working out and getting my sleep. I have to trust my body and how I feel. I can't and need to stop focusing so much on my weight... the number on the scale. This journey is about so much more then that. Wed, 6 Aug 2014 11:35:04 EST Day 119: Money http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753590 Who doesn't have money problems right? It's all good.. don't stress. There will always be bills to pay and things to buy. <BR> <BR> It will all work out in the end. <BR> <BR> I wish that I would have taken the time not to stress about money when my husband couldn't work and I was only working part time. But it all worked out in the end. <BR> <BR> Have a great Tuesday Everyone! Tue, 5 Aug 2014 11:47:36 EST Day 118: Just go with it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752920 Sometimes your planned morning run turns into a fast paced walk because your legs are just way too sore to run... it's all good just go with it. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 4 Aug 2014 12:42:39 EST Day 117: Scale withdrawals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751031 Today marks one week of no weigh ins and it hasn't been easy. I didn't realize how dependent I had become on the scale. I needed to know how much I weighed everyday. I was weighing in 2-3 times a day. ( this is not healthy) <BR> <BR> I am proud of myself that I have made it a whole week.. this is a huge accomplishment. I need to focus on other things besides the scale. <BR> <BR> What's in a number anyway right? <BR> <BR> I have big plans for this August. I have posted my goals on my page... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 11:34:56 EST Day 116: July is gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750387 Today is the last day of July and I have big plans for August... a lot of non-scale goals. I am looking forward to moving forward in my journey. <BR> <BR> Have a great Thursday everyone! <em>334</em> Thu, 31 Jul 2014 12:52:47 EST Day 115: I wont ever be skinny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749680 I mean I will never be a model... and I am ok with that. I used to so badly want to look like someone else that was not me. I wanted a perfect body, flawless features. And I guess I could... but I would rather put my energy into my health. I love to eat, I love to run, and I love to just live. <BR> <BR> I don't want to have to restrict what I can or can't eat. I don't want to have to plan my days around my workouts. <BR> <BR> I need to lose weight....but I refuse to make my life revolve ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 12:58:36 EST Day 114: Running because it's fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748904 I find that exercising because you enjoy it is so much more encouraging then forcing yourself to exercise for the loss of calories. <BR> <BR> Find the exercise that is enjoyable for you and do it because you enjoy it. <BR> <BR> Happy Tuesday Everyone! Tue, 29 Jul 2014 11:39:53 EST Day 113: It's over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748252 Last week is over. Let it go..... <BR> <BR> Today is a new day. Start over...enjoy it <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 28 Jul 2014 12:43:01 EST Day 112: The change that I want http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746404 To see in the world needs to start with me. I would love to be in a world where a persons weight doesn't define who they are. I want to live a life free of judgment because I am not a size 2. <BR> <BR> My daughters are all beautiful each different and unique. My gift to them is self love <BR> <BR> I want to show them how to love themselves no matter what. For that I need to love myself. I am done with the scale.. I am done trying to mold into what I think I should look like. I do need and ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 13:12:46 EST Day 111: Goodbye scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745693 I have been giving too much power to my scale. So I am deciding to weigh in at the end of the month and depending on how that goes. Only weighing in Once a month. <BR> <BR> It can be both distracting and discouraging weighing yourself weekly and if you become a bit obsessed like me daily. <BR> <BR> This journey needs to be more then just a number. I want to focus on how I feel. <BR> <BR> Have a great Thursday Everyone! <BR> Thu, 24 Jul 2014 12:15:11 EST Day 110: Relax http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741518 Some thing's are out of your control.... relax. Everything will workout. <BR> <BR> Have a great Friday! Fri, 18 Jul 2014 12:45:55 EST Day 109: The scale is so funny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740779 You never really know what it is going to say. <BR> <BR> Some weeks it goes down <BR> <BR> Some it stays <BR> <BR> and some it actually goes up? <BR> <BR> But no fear... so glad there are so many other ways of measuring progress. :) <BR> <BR> I am able to run a mile without my knees hurting :) now that is progress that I can be proud of. Thu, 17 Jul 2014 12:11:56 EST Day 108: Do what feels right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740083 The same routine doesn't work for everyone. We are all unique... from how we dress, look, to how we workout. <BR> <BR> I have an elliptical and although I like it. I rather run outside. <BR> <BR> Fitness and diet are the one things that one size does not fit all. <BR> <BR> Happy Hump Day! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Wed, 16 Jul 2014 12:43:18 EST Day 107: If you make a mistake just move on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739317 Sometimes things don't end up the way that you planned. And sometimes as hard as you try you still fail... its ok. <BR> <BR> Get back up and move on. <BR> <BR> Life is messy... just go with it. Tue, 15 Jul 2014 11:37:39 EST Day 106: Chocolate cupcakes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738614 My breakfast was chocolate cupcakes.. and I don't feel guilty about it. I am not going to sit here and dwell on what is already done. I made my decision and that is that. <BR> <BR> I don't eat them everyday and I eat well 90% of the time. <BR> <BR> But sometimes you just have to have chocolate cupcakes for breakfast. <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 14 Jul 2014 12:02:16 EST Day 105: The little steps matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736692 I can't say how many times I have tried to lose weight. And when I do.. I like a lot of people out there go full force. I over workout and under eat. So I usually end up crashing. <BR> <BR> I am going on 4 months of consistency ( a first for me) and I am learning that even if I take a day off or just manage to get in 10 min of whatever. It is ok. I am still on track. <BR> <BR> I am learning to listen to my body, I am also learning to appreciate it at any size. <BR> <BR> Have a great Frida... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 11:44:52 EST Day 104: It's ok to just sleep sometimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736017 If you are tired beyond compare. Yet you still want to get your fitness minutes in. Give yourself a little lee way and just sleep. It is great that you want to stick to your plan. But don't forget to listen to your body along the way. <BR> <BR> Have a great Thursday everyone! <BR> <BR> Thu, 10 Jul 2014 11:22:18 EST Day 103: Sometimes it takes a little longer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735303 I always hear the same old " If you really wanted to lose weight you would" or the " Something has to be wrong.. your not losing weight fast enough" <BR> <BR> They can all suck it. Not everybody is the same. Not everybody loses weight the same. Nor do they gain the weight the same. <BR> <BR> Don't listen to people. People will always have an opinion. <BR> <BR> I have only lost 7 pounds since mid April. But I have lost about 10 inches and I am fine with these numbers. They show me that I a... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 11:31:09 EST Day 102: Take a different route http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734503 Sometimes it is good to mix things up and take a different route. Explore, try something new. <BR> <BR> Have a great Tuesday everyone! Tue, 8 Jul 2014 11:17:29 EST Day 101: Just keep going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733761 Sometimes it is going to feel as though you are going in the wrong direction. Or it is going to feel like you are stalling.. but keep pushing forward. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday! Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:29:15 EST Day 101: Just keep going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733760 Sometimes it is going to feel as though you are going in the wrong direction. Or it is going to feel like you are stalling.. but keep pushing forward. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday! Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:29:13 EST Day 100: I've had to slow it down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730534 I sprained my ankle in the beginning of may during a football game. I was doing good. But I slipped and fell two weeks ago and have not been able to exercise as hard as I was. So I am slowing getting back into it. So that I don't re injure it. <BR> <BR> Pilates, walking, and very low intensity on my elliptical. <BR> <BR> I am hoping that by next month I can rebuild my stamina so I can start jogging. <BR> <BR> Keep going. Never give up. <BR> <BR> Happy hump Day! Wed, 2 Jul 2014 11:36:24 EST Day 99: July goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729794 For July I want to... <BR> <BR> 1. Be under 215 <BR> 2. Continue doing morning workouts. <BR> 3. Have Fun. <BR> <BR> What are your goals? Tue, 1 Jul 2014 11:36:04 EST Day 98: Keep pushing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729055 July will mark my 3 months since starting to try to lose weight again. By this time I usually give up get tired or over whelmed. <BR> <BR> Getting through this month will be an accomplishment in its self. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> Mon, 30 Jun 2014 12:06:49 EST Day 97: It's non of your business http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727077 " It's non of my business what others think of me."- unknown. <BR> <BR> I don't know where I read this. But it is so true, It doesn't matter what another person thinks about my weight loss. <BR> <BR> The only think that matters is what I think. <BR> <BR> No one has the right to tell you how to live, what to eat, how to look, and how to feel. <BR> <BR> Happy Friday! Fri, 27 Jun 2014 11:26:45 EST Day 96: One day at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726364 That is all you can really do.. is take it one day at a time. <BR> <BR> Have a great Thursday everyone! Thu, 26 Jun 2014 12:17:58 EST My yearly exam http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5725000 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388010 <BR> <BR> I wrote this over a year ago. I may not be under 200 but I almost lost 10lbs in a year :) better then nothing :) <BR> <BR> Next years annual will definitely be better. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Tue, 24 Jun 2014 15:35:59 EST Day 95: Going through the Closet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724823 I used to hang onto clothes in hopes of one day. Or in fear that I would not be able to find something to wear that fits. But I am getting better at shopping for clothes, and getting rid of the old. <BR> <BR> If it doesn't fit then maybe throw it away. I mean don't get me wrong I have clothes in my closet that are target clothes.. but my whole closet is not full of them like it used to be. <BR> <BR> I used to get upset because I would try to get ready and nothing in my closet fit because I... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 11:37:46 EST Day 94: Not feeling well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724081 I have been sick all weekend.. but I am pushing through.. a lot of tea and rest. <BR> <BR> Have a great Monday everyone! Mon, 23 Jun 2014 11:44:23 EST