LILBLKDRESS09's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LILBLKDRESS09 LILBLKDRESS09's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ We all struggle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899426 let it go and move on. <BR> <BR> Have a great day everyone! Wed, 25 Mar 2015 12:06:01 EST Believing in yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891723 You posses the power to make a difference.. not only in your life but in the lives of others. I know that it can get discouraging at times.. and sometimes it seems unlikely that your actions or the goals that you have for yourself can and or will affect those around you. But they do! <BR> <BR> You need to rise above it all and make a difference. This life is too short to live on the sidelines. <BR> <BR> Happy Thursday Everyone! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> Thu, 12 Mar 2015 12:21:24 EST Celebrate the small things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891085 I have a long way to go to reach any of my physical or personal goals. Although sometimes the realization of how far I have to go dawns on me and I start to get overwhelmed. I try to remain positive and cut myself some slack. I haven't been working out like I would like to. But I am getting over a cold and I just have no energy. <BR> <BR> Normally I would beat myself up about it and eventually self medicate with food. I am finally in a place in my life where food is no longer the answer or ... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 11:51:43 EST Not always as planned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889833 It's funny how when it comes to weight loss everyone has an opinion. Everyone has the secret to losing it fast... but when you mention that your not in a hurry or that you don't mind losing 1lb at a time.. people don't always get it. But news flash I am doing this for me and only me. <BR> <BR> I don't deprive myself.. there are days that I eat nothing but junk and there are weeks that I don't exercise. But I never give up on myself.. I never stop believing. <BR> <BR> Things don't always ... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 11:39:31 EST Progress Picutres http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888138 I have gotten into the habit of taking progress pictures... I think that you can really see the changes in pictures, even if the scale doesn't show. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Jan/2015 <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2002066566.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> March/2015 <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1811122703.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> * Slowly but surely there will progress. Happ... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 12:43:23 EST Balance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886282 It's easy to get caught up in the game of losing weight. You become obsessed with the numbers, calories in and calories out. how much the scale says you weigh. How many ounces of water you drank that day. <BR> <BR> It is very easy and it happens very quickly. You go from trying to lose weight to all of a sudden starting to develop a eating disorder. <BR> <BR> There has to be balance. You have to make changes that you can sustain while living a normal life. Not all days are perfect. You wil... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 13:54:44 EST Not always productive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885536 Sometimes as work I find myself surfing the net or day dreaming... and then I get side tracked and don't get all of my work done.. I really need to not do this and stay focused. This is my goal for March. What are you goals? <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Monday! Mon, 2 Mar 2015 12:06:07 EST 30 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882443 I am starting another round of the whole 30. :) Wed, 25 Feb 2015 11:24:10 EST Goal's ( Before 30th Birthday) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879427 Run a Marathon <BR> Compete in Iron Man Triathlon <BR> Get accepted In Nursing Program <BR> Buy Home <BR> Have a savings account (with money in it) <BR> Lose all the baby weight ( I have 35 pounds to go!) <BR> Read 30 books ( 1 for every year of my life) <BR> Continue to write in my Journal everyday <BR> Continue to play Football ( I want to play a tight end) <BR> <BR> These next two years are going to be awesome!!!! <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone! <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 20 Feb 2015 13:35:20 EST So emotional http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878911 I am super emotional today. I have eaten 3 girl scout cookies.. and 1/2 a chocolate frosty. I am trying to keep the emotions under control. ( I hate the time of the month) I am going to go home and get on my elliptical and watch friends. Thu, 19 Feb 2015 17:41:22 EST I am 28 today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878049 I am excited and blessed to celebrate another year in my life. I have 2 years till I am 30 and I have so much that I want to accomplish before then. 30 is the new 20 <BR> <BR> Happy Hump Day everyone! Wed, 18 Feb 2015 11:02:45 EST Don't be so quick to judge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877414 Just because I want to lose weight and change my body. It doesn't mean that I hate my body or that I don't like myself. On the contrary I am doing this because I love myself. I love being able to run a mile and not run out of breath. I love the way my body aches after a workout. I love knowing that I am getting stronger and that I feel better. <BR> <BR> We all have our own reasons for deciding to lose weight. The many times before that I was not able to maintain the weight loss.. I did it fo... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 12:09:51 EST Just keep going...just keep going... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876767 No matter how long the journey seems... just keep going. I have to remind myself daily of this as I am still stuck in this Plateau... I am sure that I will get past it soon enough. I am trying not to focus so much on the number on the scale and focus on how mush stronger I am becoming. <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 16 Feb 2015 12:54:45 EST Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875150 We all do it.. and there is no shame over here, though I do have to stop myself sometimes when I find that I am stuffing my face with Cheetos out of nervousness. <BR> <BR> Some days on this journey will be text book and others will be a train wreck. Embrace the ride and don't worry so much about how fast you are losing the weight. <BR> <BR> Put in the work and the rest will fall into place. <BR> <BR> I have been at a plateau since Feb 2, 2015 it's driving me nuts.. but I am pushing past ... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 13:38:06 EST Back at the gym today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874480 I can tell that I am starting to become addicted to my morning workouts! <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Thursday everyone! Thu, 12 Feb 2015 11:27:05 EST You need a day off (really) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873941 As much as I enjoy going to the gym and sweating it out. I do and we all do need a day to let our bodies rest. <BR> <BR> So I am enjoying my day off. Can't wait to get home and watch me some Friends. <BR> <BR> Happy Hump Day!!! Wed, 11 Feb 2015 14:28:44 EST Sometimes you have to work past it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873182 The pain can sometimes lead to success.. at least in the gym :) <BR> <BR> Happy Tuesday Everyone! Tue, 10 Feb 2015 11:55:25 EST Starting to plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872617 I am not going to give up. My body maybe resisting the change but I will push forward. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 9 Feb 2015 15:35:48 EST I am ready http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870714 I am ready to live my life. I am ready to stop giving up. I am ready to became who I have always known I could be. I am ready to thrive <BR> <BR> <BR> It is never too late to start over and it's never to late to correct past mistakes. Fri, 6 Feb 2015 13:45:54 EST Even if changes are small keep going (pictures) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870119 Progress sometimes is small. I don't rely only on the scale so I take pictures. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Jan/2015 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2089520130.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Feb/2015 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1338983333.jpg"> Thu, 5 Feb 2015 14:24:57 EST Taking it one day a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869564 Sometimes I have to remind myself of this. I have to slow down and realize that everything is going to be ok. <BR> <BR> I may have not lost all the weight yet or I may have not accomplished everything that I want to yet. But I am getting there. <BR> <BR> Have a great Hump Day everyone! Wed, 4 Feb 2015 18:45:01 EST February is here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867804 I am hoping to get under 210 this month and I am also hoping to keep my gym stride going. I met with my personal trainer this morning.. I am excited about all the new exercises she has shown me. <BR> <BR> Make today a good one :) Mon, 2 Feb 2015 10:52:48 EST I am looking forward to the future http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865926 I have spent the past 2 1/2 years wallowing in self hate because I couldn't lose the weight I would do so well and then throw it all away with a binge followed by another because I was ashamed and disgusted with myself. <BR> <BR> But I am no longer the same girl. I am done hating myself and done blaming food for all that is wrong in my life. Food and the scale only have the power if you give it to them. It has taken me this long to realize that food it not the enemy and that the scale is not... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 12:37:54 EST You need to only compare yourself to yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864463 Sometimes it's hard to remember that you shouldn't compare yourself to anyone but yourself. I find it especially hard when people start comparing your progress with theirs and making rude comments. <BR> <BR> I skipped all last week at the gym I was sick with the flu and had no energy. There are some people in my life that can't seem to let that go. <BR> <BR> Trying to remain positive and motivated today. <BR> <BR> Wed, 28 Jan 2015 11:37:24 EST Janurary is almost over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863755 I am so ready to get February started! I am hoping that it will be the month that I am finally under 210lbs in over 2 years... :) I know I can and I know that you can achieve your goals too. Tue, 27 Jan 2015 12:29:33 EST Happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860443 Today is a good day. It is good to have a peaceful none stressful day once in awhile. I woke up with more energy today and I made it to my morning workout. Now I am planning on going home cooking dinner and relaxing with my children. <BR> <BR> Have a great rest of your day everyone! Thu, 22 Jan 2015 17:35:09 EST So tired! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859479 I didn't go the gym yesterday morning or today, I am so tired I can hardly function right now...must be due to my monthly friend... Any suggestions for more energy? Wed, 21 Jan 2015 11:50:43 EST Not giving up this time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858648 So many times before I give up on myself and as I near my 2 month of eating clean and working out I have to wonder why it's so different this time? <BR> <BR> The answer: I am done <BR> <BR> done feeling sorry for myself <BR> done caring what others think of me <BR> done of hating myself <BR> <BR> Have a great Tuesday everyone! <em>30</em> <em>320</em> <em>482</em> <BR> <BR> * January is almost over.. are you where you want to be with your goals? Tue, 20 Jan 2015 10:57:12 EST Mind over body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855091 Sometimes I get cravings, like today I want to stick my head in a bucket of fudge.. but then I realize that I ate my breakfast had my snacks drank my water.... I am just stressed out and want fudge.. Thu, 15 Jan 2015 13:41:21 EST Hump Day ( leg day) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854267 I never imagined that I would sweat more from a 30min weights session then I would 30 min cardio session. <BR> <BR> My legs feel like jelly and I am loving it :) <BR> <BR> p.s. I think I am starting to get addicted to my morning gym sessions. Wed, 14 Jan 2015 11:42:29 EST 2015 the year of the new! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853419 New me! I am on week two of gym and I got a personal trainer! Tue, 13 Jan 2015 10:54:38 EST Moving Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852694 It took me a long time to forgive myself for allowing myself to fall so deep into self hate. But I am finally in a place where I am no longer in self loathing. I am ready to take charge of my life I am ready for positive changes in my life. Both physically and spiritually. <BR> <BR> We have to be brave enough to face our inner demons. We have to be smart enough to know that food is not the enemy. And above all we have to have the courage to change. <BR> <BR> I am done hating myself <BR> d... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 12:52:13 EST Moderation is key http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848581 I ate a burger from carl's jr yesterday. I am not ashamed and I don't regret it. I am moving on it was just another meal. I am learning that food had no control over me. <BR> <BR> Happy Hump Day! Wed, 7 Jan 2015 12:30:44 EST It's the first Monday of 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846541 Make it a good one! Mon, 5 Jan 2015 10:53:42 EST Going out and enjoying life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843764 I know that losing weight can be hard, It can be painful. And sometimes it can be scary. But what I have come to learn...is that life is not on hold while you lose weight. You have to do best with what is handed to you and move on. <BR> <BR> My husband surprised me yesterday with dinner and a movie. So I ate pasta and popcorn we split everything and I have no regrets I am not going to beat myself up about it. I am back to it today. <BR> <BR> One night out with my husband will not ruin my we... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 10:53:35 EST New Years Resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841933 This is the last day of 2014 and I am going to make the best of it. I am going to bring in the new year with family and friends at home tonight :) <BR> <BR> Here are my New Years Resolutions ( I have more the one) <BR> <BR> 1. Save Money <BR> 2. Pay off Credit Card debt <BR> 3. Get to pre-pregnancy weight 180 <BR> 4. Continue to eat a diet based mostly on Whole 30 <BR> 5. Exercise ( Start running and do a few races) <BR> 6. continue to go to school and get 4.0 GPA <BR> 7. Log into Spark Peo... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 11:48:29 EST The New Year is Around the Corner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840600 What are your resolutions? <BR> <BR> I am still working on mine. I will post later. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! <BR> <em>334</em> Mon, 29 Dec 2014 13:09:40 EST Going to Continue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838022 I was really tempted to eat a cookie this morning since I ended my whole 30 yesterday but I got some 85% Cocoa and ate a piece and was satisfied with it. Now that I am now officially done with the whole 30 the real journey begins. I am going to continue to eat the way that I was and maybe gradually begin to add things back into my diet. Not really sure what yet. But I am happy with my experience. I just have to keep it up. My goal for 2015 is to finally lose all of the baby weight... I want ... Wed, 24 Dec 2014 15:12:58 EST Made it!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837478 Today is day 30.. I am so excited and proud. Can't wait to continue down this path and see what else I can accomplish. Tue, 23 Dec 2014 11:53:27 EST Well Tomorrow is day 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836802 I am almost done with my whole 30 experience... this is what I have learned. <BR> <BR> Food Prep ( is essential and can be fun): I was able to do this whole 30 by simply prepping and cooking enough to store in my fridge so that I had quick go to snacks and meals so that I wouldn't derail. <BR> <BR> Water is good: drinking only water (mostly) except for unsweetened tea and coffee. <BR> <BR> Reading labels is key: I had to read everything before I ate it or bought it. <BR> <BR> all in all I... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 11:14:54 EST The jeans fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835403 Sometimes the smallest of things.. like jeans fitting just right and not too snug are the best feelings in the world... <BR> <BR> I am thankful for another day and the ability to work towards my goals. Happy Friday Everyone! Keep up the hard work.. <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>362</em> Fri, 19 Dec 2014 11:18:21 EST I have the power... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834963 No one else does... I alone can change my life. I alone am in charge of how I feel and how I perceive situations to be. <BR> <BR> I alone hold the power to make a great and meaningful future. I used to complain that I was not losing weight. Or that I was always feeling sick. But who is really to blame? <BR> <BR> I was... <BR> <BR> and I was not willing to admit that I had a problem. <BR> <BR> I am done feeling sorry for myself.. I am done allowing others to allow me to feel horrible ab... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 13:30:55 EST Feeling stronger everyday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834421 Everyday is a chance to start over.. forget about yesterday let it go and start over today. I am on my last week of the whole 30 and I don't think that I will stop there I am feeling really good and optimistic. <BR> <BR> I am excited for the new year and I am excited for the holidays... Happy Hump Day everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>447</em> Wed, 17 Dec 2014 12:32:16 EST Enjoy Everyday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833964 You never know when it will be your last. Tue, 16 Dec 2014 14:37:19 EST This year is almost over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833380 I can't believe how quickly this year has gone by. It feels like I was just celebrating the New Year for 2014 yesterday. <BR> <BR> I am excited for 2015. How about you guys? <BR> <BR> I have a lot of plans and goals for 2015. I will share them with a New years Resolution Post on 12/31/14 <BR> <BR> Have a great Monday Everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> Mon, 15 Dec 2014 11:58:02 EST Learning to live http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831379 After turning 18 I thought that I had it all down. I knew it all.. and then came motherhood and I realized that I was completely clueless. I often find myself stressing out about bills, and things to do. <BR> <BR> All this makes me cranky, and not very pleasant to be around. If only there was more money. But this is not the case.. it is not always the answer. What I have found is that although I stress about bills and other things... It all gets resolved at the end. All is not lost. <BR> <... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 12:02:04 EST My Whole 30 experience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830865 I didn't really believe that changing my diet would eliminate the emotional problems that I have struggled with most of my life. But in the past 3 weeks that I have been on the whole 30 plan. I have less mood swings, I don't get depressed like I used to. I am not easily irritated by little annoyances. <BR> <BR> My mind is clear and I am once again optimistic about the future. It is hard to tell how much processed food is affecting you until you make the effort to eliminate it from your life... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 12:44:46 EST Sometimes it takes pain to wake up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830315 The week before Thanksgiving.. I was ill. I couldn't get out of bed, my stomach was in knots, cramping, bloated and I had no energy. <BR> <BR> I couldn't pin point what had made me sick since all I eat is crap. So I decided the Sunday before Thanksgiving that I was tired of feeling like crap. I was tired of being tired. I am not getting any younger. <BR> <BR> I went on a juice cleanse for three days to clear my system of whatever was making me sick. And immediately after started the Whole ... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 12:51:14 EST Saying things without thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829680 I have a problem.. I sometimes tend to say things without thinking.. I just told my sister in law " Wow that's really white, why did you do that?" She put highlights in her hair. <BR> <BR> My husband has always been sarcastic and a bit rude. I feel like he is robbing off on me.. it's no wonder that my sister in law doesn't like me. <BR> <BR> How do I fix this? Mon, 8 Dec 2014 12:18:20 EST Running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818299 Has proven to distress me I will try to keep it up. 1 mile walk or run everyday for the rest of November. <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 17 Nov 2014 11:34:43 EST