LILBLKDRESS09's SparkPeople Blog LILBLKDRESS09's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 112: The change that I want To see in the world needs to start with me. I would love to be in a world where a persons weight doesn't define who they are. I want to live a life free of judgment because I am not a size 2. <BR> <BR> My daughters are all beautiful each different and unique. My gift to them is self love <BR> <BR> I want to show them how to love themselves no matter what. For that I need to love myself. I am done with the scale.. I am done trying to mold into what I think I should look like. I do need and ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 13:12:46 EST Day 111: Goodbye scale I have been giving too much power to my scale. So I am deciding to weigh in at the end of the month and depending on how that goes. Only weighing in Once a month. <BR> <BR> It can be both distracting and discouraging weighing yourself weekly and if you become a bit obsessed like me daily. <BR> <BR> This journey needs to be more then just a number. I want to focus on how I feel. <BR> <BR> Have a great Thursday Everyone! <BR> Thu, 24 Jul 2014 12:15:11 EST Day 110: Relax Some thing's are out of your control.... relax. Everything will workout. <BR> <BR> Have a great Friday! Fri, 18 Jul 2014 12:45:55 EST Day 109: The scale is so funny You never really know what it is going to say. <BR> <BR> Some weeks it goes down <BR> <BR> Some it stays <BR> <BR> and some it actually goes up? <BR> <BR> But no fear... so glad there are so many other ways of measuring progress. :) <BR> <BR> I am able to run a mile without my knees hurting :) now that is progress that I can be proud of. Thu, 17 Jul 2014 12:11:56 EST Day 108: Do what feels right The same routine doesn't work for everyone. We are all unique... from how we dress, look, to how we workout. <BR> <BR> I have an elliptical and although I like it. I rather run outside. <BR> <BR> Fitness and diet are the one things that one size does not fit all. <BR> <BR> Happy Hump Day! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Wed, 16 Jul 2014 12:43:18 EST Day 107: If you make a mistake just move on Sometimes things don't end up the way that you planned. And sometimes as hard as you try you still fail... its ok. <BR> <BR> Get back up and move on. <BR> <BR> Life is messy... just go with it. Tue, 15 Jul 2014 11:37:39 EST Day 106: Chocolate cupcakes My breakfast was chocolate cupcakes.. and I don't feel guilty about it. I am not going to sit here and dwell on what is already done. I made my decision and that is that. <BR> <BR> I don't eat them everyday and I eat well 90% of the time. <BR> <BR> But sometimes you just have to have chocolate cupcakes for breakfast. <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 14 Jul 2014 12:02:16 EST Day 105: The little steps matter I can't say how many times I have tried to lose weight. And when I do.. I like a lot of people out there go full force. I over workout and under eat. So I usually end up crashing. <BR> <BR> I am going on 4 months of consistency ( a first for me) and I am learning that even if I take a day off or just manage to get in 10 min of whatever. It is ok. I am still on track. <BR> <BR> I am learning to listen to my body, I am also learning to appreciate it at any size. <BR> <BR> Have a great Frida... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 11:44:52 EST Day 104: It's ok to just sleep sometimes If you are tired beyond compare. Yet you still want to get your fitness minutes in. Give yourself a little lee way and just sleep. It is great that you want to stick to your plan. But don't forget to listen to your body along the way. <BR> <BR> Have a great Thursday everyone! <BR> <BR> Thu, 10 Jul 2014 11:22:18 EST Day 103: Sometimes it takes a little longer I always hear the same old " If you really wanted to lose weight you would" or the " Something has to be wrong.. your not losing weight fast enough" <BR> <BR> They can all suck it. Not everybody is the same. Not everybody loses weight the same. Nor do they gain the weight the same. <BR> <BR> Don't listen to people. People will always have an opinion. <BR> <BR> I have only lost 7 pounds since mid April. But I have lost about 10 inches and I am fine with these numbers. They show me that I a... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 11:31:09 EST Day 102: Take a different route Sometimes it is good to mix things up and take a different route. Explore, try something new. <BR> <BR> Have a great Tuesday everyone! Tue, 8 Jul 2014 11:17:29 EST Day 101: Just keep going Sometimes it is going to feel as though you are going in the wrong direction. Or it is going to feel like you are stalling.. but keep pushing forward. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday! Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:29:15 EST Day 101: Just keep going Sometimes it is going to feel as though you are going in the wrong direction. Or it is going to feel like you are stalling.. but keep pushing forward. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday! Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:29:13 EST Day 100: I've had to slow it down I sprained my ankle in the beginning of may during a football game. I was doing good. But I slipped and fell two weeks ago and have not been able to exercise as hard as I was. So I am slowing getting back into it. So that I don't re injure it. <BR> <BR> Pilates, walking, and very low intensity on my elliptical. <BR> <BR> I am hoping that by next month I can rebuild my stamina so I can start jogging. <BR> <BR> Keep going. Never give up. <BR> <BR> Happy hump Day! Wed, 2 Jul 2014 11:36:24 EST Day 99: July goals For July I want to... <BR> <BR> 1. Be under 215 <BR> 2. Continue doing morning workouts. <BR> 3. Have Fun. <BR> <BR> What are your goals? Tue, 1 Jul 2014 11:36:04 EST Day 98: Keep pushing July will mark my 3 months since starting to try to lose weight again. By this time I usually give up get tired or over whelmed. <BR> <BR> Getting through this month will be an accomplishment in its self. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> Mon, 30 Jun 2014 12:06:49 EST Day 97: It's non of your business " It's non of my business what others think of me."- unknown. <BR> <BR> I don't know where I read this. But it is so true, It doesn't matter what another person thinks about my weight loss. <BR> <BR> The only think that matters is what I think. <BR> <BR> No one has the right to tell you how to live, what to eat, how to look, and how to feel. <BR> <BR> Happy Friday! Fri, 27 Jun 2014 11:26:45 EST Day 96: One day at a time That is all you can really do.. is take it one day at a time. <BR> <BR> Have a great Thursday everyone! Thu, 26 Jun 2014 12:17:58 EST My yearly exam<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388010 <BR> <BR> I wrote this over a year ago. I may not be under 200 but I almost lost 10lbs in a year :) better then nothing :) <BR> <BR> Next years annual will definitely be better. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Tue, 24 Jun 2014 15:35:59 EST Day 95: Going through the Closet I used to hang onto clothes in hopes of one day. Or in fear that I would not be able to find something to wear that fits. But I am getting better at shopping for clothes, and getting rid of the old. <BR> <BR> If it doesn't fit then maybe throw it away. I mean don't get me wrong I have clothes in my closet that are target clothes.. but my whole closet is not full of them like it used to be. <BR> <BR> I used to get upset because I would try to get ready and nothing in my closet fit because I... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 11:37:46 EST Day 94: Not feeling well I have been sick all weekend.. but I am pushing through.. a lot of tea and rest. <BR> <BR> Have a great Monday everyone! Mon, 23 Jun 2014 11:44:23 EST Day 93: Taking days off I used to beat myself up, when I would miss a planned day of workouts. I would beat myself up for days and would end up indulging on food. <BR> <BR> It is not like that anymore. I can plan and plan my days out. in regards to food and exercise. But things don't always go the way that you plan. <BR> <BR> Maybe the Hubby stops by for lunch to surprise you and he takes you out. Do you dwell on well I already had my calories planned.. but thanks. No you go out and enjoy your lunch with your hu... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 14:05:12 EST Day 92: Not always how you planned sometimes you can plan your whole day out and nothing turns out like you thought it would. It's ok embrace the chaos and adjust to the best of your abilities. <BR> <BR> have a great Thursday Everyone :) <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> <em>474</em> <em>319</em> <em>298</em> <em>346</em> Thu, 19 Jun 2014 11:31:26 EST Day 91: Hump Day! We are in the half way point for this week... are you closer to your goals then you were yesterday? <BR> <BR> Let's finish this week out strong together :) <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> Wed, 18 Jun 2014 13:29:12 EST Day 90: You are awesome yes you reading this. You are awesome! Keep pushing forward... <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Tuesday! <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> <em>190</em> <em>185</em> <em>375</em> <em>240</em> Tue, 17 Jun 2014 12:08:17 EST Day 89: Slow and steady I have only lost 6 pounds in the last month and a half... but I am more then okay with this. Because I am losing at a rate that I can maintain. <BR> <BR> Don't be in such a rush that you forget to smell the roses. <BR> <BR> Have a great Monday everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>277</em> <em>135</em> <em>125</em> <em>134</em> Mon, 16 Jun 2014 12:27:51 EST Day 88: Don't be afraid... To try new things... this world is full of beautiful things. <BR> <BR> Go out and explore <BR> <BR> Go out and try <BR> <BR> Go out and be fearless <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>261</em> <em>256</em> <em>374</em> <em>88</em> Fri, 13 Jun 2014 11:22:11 EST Day 87: What are your reasons? My reasons for change are so much different then they used to be. I used to want to be skinny.. I wanted so badly to no longer be fat. I wanted to be envied by all the people that had once put me down in one way or another because of my weight. <BR> <BR> My motivation was fueled by hate. <BR> <BR> And not just hate for everyone around me.. but hate for myself. <BR> <BR> I hated my body and could never see any beauty in it. <BR> <BR> I hated how I felt. <BR> <BR> I hated.... hating mys... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 11:45:46 EST Day 86: Motherhood is not for wimps Before I became a mother I thought that it was all rainbows and I was so wrong. <BR> <BR> But non the less I am loving it. <BR> <BR> Yes somedays I I am pulling my hair out. <BR> I sometimes break down and yell at my babies. <BR> <BR> I even have days that I want to run away..... <BR> <BR> But then there are moments that occur that make all those others feeling disappear. <BR> <BR> I am just glad that I have started using exercise as an outlet instead of eating. <BR> <... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 11:37:43 EST Day 85: Can't always be perfect No matter how hard you try you can't live up to everyones standards... You wont always be everyones favorite person. You are going to say things that you wish you hadn't. You are going to not make the best of choices some days in regards to your food and exercise. <BR> <BR> It's ok to break down once in a while, we all need a good cry. <BR> <BR> We can't be perfect all the time.. and I am here to tell you that it's ok. Be yourself... take your time, and learn to love the bad a long with al... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 11:40:17 EST Day 84: The first week of June Is almost over.. Have you accomplished everything that you wanted to? <BR> <BR> No worries...Next week is right around the corner. <BR> <BR> <BR> Keep Going! <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> <em>491</em> <em>319</em> <em>26</em> <em>204</em> Fri, 6 Jun 2014 11:17:35 EST Day 83: Just keep going Come on the week is almost over.... Just keep pushing through! <BR> <BR> <em>386</em> Thu, 5 Jun 2014 11:29:55 EST Day 82: Live and Learn Sometimes we try to make change with the best intentions at heart.. but find our selves exactly where we started... do we give up? NO! <BR> <BR> <BR> We pick ourselves up and try again...... The best thing about failure is learning. <BR> <BR> Live, Learn, and Move Forward! <BR> <BR> Happy Hump Day! <BR> <BR> <em>36</em> <em>470</em> <em>319</em> <em>298</em> <em>346</em> Wed, 4 Jun 2014 11:27:58 EST Day 81: No matter what Never ever give up. <BR> <BR> You ate to much last night.. its ok. <BR> <BR> You had a piece of cake...its ok. <BR> <BR> You didn't do your workout...its ok. <BR> <BR> The important thing is to know that you are not a bad person for your mistakes. This is a journey that is going to take your whole life to finish. Enjoy yourself once in awhile, its ok to pick up where you left off tomorrow. <BR> <BR> One day at meal at a time. <BR> <BR> Happy Tuesday everyone! <BR> <BR> <... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 11:47:34 EST Day 80: June! It's June...whatever happened in may let it go and look forward to June! <BR> <BR> We got this! <BR> <BR> <em>9</em> Mon, 2 Jun 2014 12:16:45 EST Day 79: The type of food matters I have been making better choices and find it hard to believe that calorie wise I am eating a lot less then I think. And on days that I splurge on something that I want it takes up so many of my calories.. <BR> <BR> <BR> Have a great day everyone.. Finish May strong! <em>334</em> Thu, 29 May 2014 11:51:46 EST Day 78: Finish this month strong! Only 5 days left of May let's finish strong! <BR> <BR> <em>381</em> <em>311</em> <em>550</em> <em>464</em> Tue, 27 May 2014 11:50:39 EST Day 77: If you can't beat them join them There have been some recent changes at work that I might not personally agree with. But instead of allowing the disappointment consume me. I am going with it and looking for the good in it all. <BR> <BR> I am going back to school after 4 years to finally finish my RN <BR> <BR> <BR> I am excited! <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone :) <BR> <BR> It's never to late to finish what you once started. <BR> <BR> <em>58</em> Fri, 23 May 2014 11:40:32 EST Day 76: Cheat days are not what you think I used to be good all week and resist all the good food.. and as soon as my "Cheat" day would come around I would over indulge and blow all the hard work that I had already achieved. <BR> <BR> Now I don't have a standard cheat day.. I indulge sometimes.. in small quantities and I make sure I fit it into my daily count.. and I move a little more. <BR> <BR> <BR> So do yourself a favor and not super restrict or super indulge. Life is all about balance. <BR> <BR> Happy almost Friday everyone... Thu, 15 May 2014 11:39:19 EST Day 75: Make it count It's Hump day...let's make it count! <BR> <BR> <em>9</em> Wed, 14 May 2014 11:19:33 EST Day 74: Mindful eating It's easy to be overwhelmed and hungry... and then you find that you ate the whole bag of potato chips.. and then guess what your still hungry! <BR> <BR> As much as I have wanted to over indulge in sweets these past few nights.. I have resisted and watched what I have put in my mouth. <BR> <BR> I serve myself my plate try to eat slowly and if I am still hungry as myself " Am I hungry or does this just tasted good?" <BR> <BR> So far it is working just hope that the rest of the month goes by... Tue, 13 May 2014 11:17:29 EST Day 73: This weeks results So I have decided to make Mondays my weigh in day so that I would not over indulge on the weekends. So far it has helped. <BR> <BR> Today's weigh in.....222.2 <BR> <BR> a loss of 2oz <BR> <BR> Not a big loss but still a big gain for me. I didn't gain weight in the week before my period. <BR> <BR> This week will be better. <BR> <BR> There is only going forward from here. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday everyone! <em>334</em> <BR> Mon, 12 May 2014 11:22:59 EST Day 72: The cake is gone! My kids and hubby finished the cake yesterday and I didn't have any :) yay the temptation is gone! Happy Friday everyone Fri, 9 May 2014 11:07:55 EST Day 71: Fighting through it I continue to have cravings for sweets and greasy food... I can fight through this! I will not give into the cravings.. <BR> <BR> They will pass <BR> <BR> Happy Thursday everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>108</em> Thu, 8 May 2014 11:18:34 EST Day 70: the cravings Last night it took all I had not to eat the left over cake from my daughters birthday party. I didn't eat any on her birthday but yesterday was really hard. <BR> <BR> I managed not to eat any cake instead I drank some cinnamon tea. <BR> <BR> My period is around the corner and I usually overload on the sweets during this time. <BR> <BR> <BR> I can do this!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Hump day everyone! Wed, 7 May 2014 11:34:07 EST Day 70: the cravings Last night it took all I had not to eat the left over cake from my daughters birthday party. I didn't eat any on her birthday but yesterday was really hard. <BR> <BR> I managed not to eat any cake instead I drank some cinnamon tea. <BR> <BR> My period is around the corner and I usually overload on the sweets during this time. <BR> <BR> <BR> I can do this!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Hump day everyone! Wed, 7 May 2014 11:34:03 EST Day 69: sleep I am going to get on my elliptical tonight and go to bed early. I am going to take advantage for no football practice tonight. <BR> <BR> Maybe I will splurge and watch a chick flick :) Tue, 6 May 2014 11:40:32 EST Day 68: My first week back on track I spent last week getting back on track and making better choices. And I am glad that it paid off I lost 2.4 lbs I am so excited I am planning on making this week just as successful! Let's do this, make this week count. Mon, 5 May 2014 11:17:00 EST Day 67: It is getting easier I have noticed that since I have joined football I am able to turn down unhealthy food a lot easier then I would have when I wasn't active. <BR> <BR> I can't wait to train all summer long so I can get stronger for football. <BR> <BR> Have a great Friday everyone! Fri, 2 May 2014 13:46:48 EST Day 66: The cake There was a birthday party at the office yesterday....and I did not eat the cake. :) <BR> <BR> Yay me! Thu, 1 May 2014 11:48:43 EST