LILBLKDRESS09's SparkPeople Blog LILBLKDRESS09's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Out of your control There are many things that are sometimes out of your control. Recently I have had to learn to let things go and learn to allow them to run their course. Learn to appreciate the small things and live your life to the fullest. <BR> <BR> I am so done with stressing out and allowing the stress to consume my life. I am letting go and washing my hands of al the things that I can not control. Wed, 4 May 2016 17:55:57 EST Just go with it I am taking each day as it comes... Nothing will keep me down. I am on a good path right now and I am plan on keep on keeping. I am going to see 200 by my son's 4th birthday! Just believe in yourself. That is all that matters! Tue, 3 May 2016 19:24:24 EST Day 1: Starting over Sometimes in life you just have to start over. This doesn't mean that you are a failure or that you are less then worth it. It just means that life happens and you just have to get back up and try again.! Thu, 31 Mar 2016 11:47:44 EST Day 60: life happens February proved to be a difficult month for me. I didn't eat or workout the way that I would have wanted. But with starting the spring semester at school and having not only my birthday but my husbands birthday we also celebrated our wedding anniversary. So I decided to not take a month off, but more or less not stress the process of losing weight for the sake of focusing on other things, I haven't weighed in, in about 2 weeks. I will have my first weigh in this Friday 03/04/2016. I am hoping... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 13:33:24 EST Day 40: Don't give up Some weeks will show progress and others wont. Just keep going. Don't stop eventually the scale will catch up with you. Tue, 9 Feb 2016 11:31:42 EST Day: 34 Stress This last week has been hard for me. With starting school and having month end at work I have found myself wanting to do nothing but sleep. All of last week I had a huge headache with prevented me from sticking in my running schedule and I feel like I have been failing. But I am back at it today. I will not fall back into my old habits.. I think maybe my body just needed a small break. <BR> <BR> Happy Wednesday Everyone! Wed, 3 Feb 2016 12:51:17 EST Day 29: Keep pushing This weeks weigh in only showed a loss of .2lbs but before I allowed myself to get upset. I told myself. It is progress, I didn't gain. <BR> <BR> A loss is still a loss no matter how small. <BR> <BR> Happy Friday! Fri, 29 Jan 2016 11:58:39 EST Day 25: First day of school I am looking forward to this semester. It is the first semester that I have enrolled into more then one class. I am nervous but excited as well. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 25 Jan 2016 12:53:08 EST Day 20: Month One is almost over The first month of 2016 is almost over. I have 2 more weigh in's before we are officially in February. I can't believe how far that I have come. At this point I am now just dreaming about getting under 200 lbs. I don't want to lose motivation and I don't want to lose momentum. I am taking it day by day and trying to focus on changes that I know I can manage. <BR> As I am approaching my 30's ( Next year will be the big year) I am no longer interested in having a perfect body, I am more int... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 19:24:09 EST Day 19: This is not about Perfection ( MS has changed how I view life) So many times before when I would start to try and change my lifestyle (because that is what this is, this is not a diet) I would go in with the all or nothing mentality. But this time it is different, I have different things motivating me this time. My families health is on the top of my list. Since my husbands diagnoses of MS it has been hard to swallow. It made me realize that I was stressed over things that were out of my control. I hate that my husband getting sick finally made the light... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 12:26:57 EST Day 12: Believe in yourself No Matter what believe in what you are capable of doing. No one has the right to make you feel like you can't achieve something. You are your only hurtle. <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> * Don't know where I found this? But I love it! Fri, 15 Jan 2016 14:09:18 EST Day 11: Plan Your biggest weapon is to plan, plan and plan. Plan your meals, plan your sleep, and plan your workouts. <BR> <BR> It sounds silly to have to plan sleep, but the truth is that most of us don't get enough sleep. <BR> <BR> Don't get discouraged, just keep pushing towards your goals. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> ( Not sure where I found this) <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! Mon, 11 Jan 2016 11:45:44 EST Day 9: push yourself <img src=""> <BR> Today I ran for 24 min on the treadmill and 1.25 miles so much further than I have in a long time. Sat, 9 Jan 2016 20:17:59 EST Day:7 do it anyway <img src=""> <BR> I didn't feel like working out today, but I decided to anyway. Sometimes you just have to put one foot in front of the other and fake it until you make it. Fri, 8 Jan 2016 02:39:36 EST Day 6: Small steps It is only the first week into 2016 but I am proud of myself for not eating out and for keeping up with the workouts. I can't wait to be writing about how 6 months into 2016 I am still doing keeping up with it. <BR> <BR> In order to succeed you have to envision. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I don't remember where I found this. But it is so true. <BR> <BR> Happy Hump Day everyone! Wed, 6 Jan 2016 17:21:34 EST Day 5: Standing naked I read an article on yahoo today that talked about boosting your self-esteem <BR> here it is: <BR><BR>-you-should-do-1332515371655222.html <BR> <BR> It basically talked about giving yourself time to admire your naked body in front of the mirror after you shower. Admire your beauties and your flaws. I have to say that I started doing this about a year ago. I started to actually stare at myself in the mirror, at first it was hard. But I no longer shy ... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 17:26:57 EST Day 4: This girl is not lost This past week I managed to lose 1.4 lbs and it was not hard at all. I am done going into this with the all or nothing mentality. I am going to do this right this time. I turn 30 in 14 months and I refuse to turn 30 obese. <BR> <BR> This is when I was my happiest with my body <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am still her. I have not gone anywhere. The number on the scale will no longer determine how much I love mys... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 11:42:10 EST Day 3: still running <img src=""> <BR> I began my mile a day on the treadmill on 12/31, so today was day number 4 and my legs were stiff. I need to hydrate more threw out the day, and stretch. I am going to start adding a minute a day to my work out on the treadmill. Right now I am currently doing 20 min. Today I added 1 minute. Sun, 3 Jan 2016 22:28:03 EST Day 2 <img src=""> <BR> I ran on the treadmill this morning even though I was very tired and had zero motivation. But I fought through it. After wards I spent an hour cleaning my house. I am going to take a nap and then go shopping with my oldest daughter, we are having a girls day. Happy Saturday everyone. Sat, 2 Jan 2016 16:26:08 EST Day 1: the new year <img src=""> <BR> My husband actually took a picture with me for the new year. That in itself is a great way to start the new year. I ran on my treadmill this morning, day one is already a success! Happy new year everyone. Fri, 1 Jan 2016 14:22:00 EST One resolution for 2016 is to write about something good that happens everyday with maybe a picture? I will start tomorrow! <BR> <BR> Happy New Year Everyone! <BR> <BR> Here is a complete list of my goals for 2016 <BR> <BR> 1. Lose .5-1.0 lb a week. <BR> 2. at least 20 min on treadmill everyday/ <BR> 3. put $100.00 in savings every month. <BR> 4. Pay 2 credit cards off. <BR> 5. Finish all of my pre-reg's for the Nursing Program. <BR> 6. Take more pictures of my children ( They are growing too fast) <BR> 7. Spend... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 15:03:10 EST It is never too late Just keep going, and never give up. Mon, 28 Dec 2015 14:40:36 EST Forgiving yourself I don't always eat the right foods and there are days that I don't plan as well as others. I used to dwell on my slip ups and then allow the slip ups to become bigger than they needed to be. The slip up would go from one meal to a month or even a year. <BR> <BR> I used to look in the mirror and only focus on my flaws or the things that I wanted to change. But I am starting to realize that I am so much more then what my body looks like. <BR> <BR> I am forgiving myself and accepting myself ... Thu, 17 Dec 2015 11:31:22 EST Accept Yourself no matter what I think a mistake that we often make is wanting things to happen over night or for things to happen with little to no effort. <BR> <BR> I can drive myself crazy if I think about all the weight that I want to lose or how much longer I have to finish nursing school. If I think about these things too much then I could easily fall into a depression and not try at all. <BR> <BR> But I am choosing to enjoy the journey and to take my time. Before I know it time would have passed by so fast and I ... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 11:48:54 EST I am counting down I will be 30 in about 14 months. I have goals that I want to accomplish by then. <BR> <BR> I am not waiting for the New Year to start working on my goals. I am starting now. Mon, 14 Dec 2015 18:59:32 EST Too Many Things I have way too many things on my plate right now. And I am starting to fixate on the scale again, which does me more harm then good. I have decided to run a 10k at the end of April . I feel like I can accomplish this. I miss running and I am tired of waiting for the right time to get back into it. <BR> <BR> I am going to try and break my daily weigh in habit. I am hoping that I can stay off of it until 01/01/16. I tend to self sabotage if I don't see the results that I want. I am going to s... Wed, 25 Nov 2015 11:40:03 EST Under a lot of stress I am just trying to remain positive and not let my life get to me right now. Mon, 23 Nov 2015 11:50:21 EST Whole 30 Here is my third attempt this year. I will make it.. I don't have control over the other things in my life but I will have control over this! <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone! <BR> <BR> The goal for this whole 30 is to keep it simple. Fri, 20 Nov 2015 12:18:33 EST I will see Onderland Someday I will. I will never give up. Tue, 17 Nov 2015 12:33:50 EST Another week I am excited to get this week started and over with because next week is Thanksgiving! I am so excited for the holidays because I love to see my kids faces light up. <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone! <BR> Mon, 16 Nov 2015 17:05:09 EST YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND DON'T EVER FORGET IT! <BR> <BR> * JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. Fri, 13 Nov 2015 11:41:26 EST The scale doesn't tell the whole story I am starting to fit into clothes that were too tight before... all this without the scale moving too much. Sometimes your progress is not measured by the scale. <BR> <BR> Happy Thursday Everyone! Thu, 12 Nov 2015 14:21:20 EST Reality The reality of it all is that I am not going to lose the 70 plus pounds that I need to l lose over night. I am trying to find the balance that I need in my own life to make this a lifetime commitment and not just a phase. <BR> <BR> I am ok with not losing some weeks and sometimes seeing a gain. <BR> <BR> My clothes fit better and I have a lot more energy. I am also sleeping better. <BR> <BR> I am ok with how things are going right now. I am enjoying the process and I am focused on health ... Wed, 11 Nov 2015 11:33:16 EST Snow It snowed last night, and I have to say that I am extremely excited for this years holidays. <BR> Happy Tuesday Everyone! Tue, 10 Nov 2015 14:40:40 EST The light at the end of the tunnel Since my husbands diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis, we threw all the junk away in the house and we have been trying to eat a more plant based diet.. less processes food and cut the caffeine out ( I still drink my cup of coffee at work every morning, I need it!) <BR> <BR> He told me this morning that he is starting to feel better. I think that this flare up is getting ready to go away. I am hoping that it does because we are trying our best to change our families habits to healthier ones. The... Thu, 5 Nov 2015 11:36:45 EST I am thankful For being able to provide a warm roof over my babies head and I am thankful for being able to put warm food in their bellies. <BR> <BR> Sometimes you just have to stop and give thanks for the things that you sometimes take for granted during your hectic lives. <BR> <BR> Happy Wednesday Everyone! <BR> <em>41</em> Wed, 4 Nov 2015 13:56:01 EST Just get through it Some day's will be easier then others and some meals will be healthier then others. Just keep going and never give up. <BR> <BR> Happy Tuesday Everyone! Tue, 3 Nov 2015 11:25:54 EST Another week Here are this week's goals; <BR> 1. Stay Positive <BR> 2. Drink My water. <BR> 3. Track all my food. <BR> 4. Get enough sleep. <BR> 5. Exercise 30 min at least 3x this week. Mon, 2 Nov 2015 11:27:00 EST I want to skip but I wont I really want to skip my gym appointment with my trainer tomorrow morning but I am not going to. I really need to focus on getting healthy for both me and my husband. <BR> <BR> I want to skip counting my calories with all the parties that are planned for this weekend, but I am not going to. I really need to be conscious of what I am eating and how much. <BR> <BR> I want to skip today all together and fast-forward to the time that I am at my goal weight. But I am going to enjoy the process o... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 12:46:58 EST Remaining Positive and Strong With my husbands diagnoses I will try my best to remain positive and strong. I will not fill my house with junk, we both want to change our diets drastically ( which will take time) he wants to do all he can to help with his symptoms naturally. <BR> <BR> There will be adjustments in our lives, but all that matters is that we are a family and we will come out stronger because of this. <BR> <BR> I am still getting over a cold but I am trying to eat. Between the stress and sickness I have alm... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 11:36:28 EST MRI Results are in My husband had an MRI done last week, we got the call last night from the neurologist. He has MS. <BR> <BR> We are still trying to process this information, he is not doing so well. We are setting up an appointment with the neurologist so that they can discuss his options for pain management. <BR> <BR> I need to more then ever get a hold of my health, so that I can be strong enough to help him through this. <BR> <BR> Happy Wednesday Everyone. <BR> <BR> Wed, 28 Oct 2015 11:40:05 EST I know that I shouldn't I know I shouldn't weigh myself everyday..but I find that I am more accountable to myself that way. I feel like right now it is helping me be mindful of my food and exercise. I am trying really hard to keep my eye on the prize. <BR> <BR> I have to believe that someday I will get to the finish line. I have to be kinder to myself . I have to love myself no matter what size. <BR> <BR> I am done hating myself and I am done wishing that I had a different body. I am going to treat this one the be... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 11:26:18 EST Staying Busy Sometimes when things are out of your control, staying busy seems like the best and better thing to do in order to stay distracted and not eating your feelings. <BR> <BR> So that is what I am doing today. I am staying busy and then when I get home I am taking nap and then I will do a workout video and then relax. <BR> <BR> I am hoping that Tomorrow I will hear about the results of my husbands MRI. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday Everyone. Mon, 26 Oct 2015 16:48:58 EST This week will be different I will make things change this week. I will not have a binge episode, and I will not go over my calorie range. With all that said. I am very proud of myself for tracking everything that I have been eating even with the small binges. <BR> <BR> It is very hard to be honest, especially harder to be honest with yourself. This past weigh in was the hardest one that I have ever posted. In the past even when there was a gain I didn't record hopes that next week I would make up for it and mor... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 12:46:04 EST Small bump I just had a binge episode, it was a small one but it was one nonetheless. I am so hungry or at least feel like I am hungry or maybe I am just upset. My husband has gone out drinking with the buddies again..just like every weekend. I need to stop allowing his actions to control mine. I am better then this! <BR> <BR> Either way it happened. I will not let it deter me from where I want to be. I know that someday I will no longer be considered plus size or bigger. But I need to stay focused. <B... Sat, 24 Oct 2015 22:16:57 EST Just keep at it I have to remind myself that it will take time. I also have to remind myself that just because I have so far to go doesn't mean that I will never see the finish line. <BR> <BR> I can do this!... I have to believe in myself and in the abilities to achieve this. <BR> <BR> Yes I can! Yes I can! <BR> <BR> Happy Friday Everyone. <BR> <em>334</em> Fri, 23 Oct 2015 12:18:55 EST Keeping my goals in mind I stepped on the scale this morning and I saw a gain. I was half expecting to see a gain and half hoping to see a slight loss. I have been really stressed this past week not to mention that I am about to start my monthly party. So I am extremely bloated. I already knew that I would be disappointed because I have been weighing myself daily for years. ( a habit that I really need to change) <BR> <BR> I tracked all my food this week ( I did really well) I worked out more then I have recently an... Thu, 22 Oct 2015 11:54:24 EST Thoughts/reflections I always start out wanting to lose all this weight..and then when things don't go my way I give up. This week has been especially stressful because my husband is going in for an MRI on Saturday to see if the doctors can figure out what is going on with his eye. I am just trying not to the let the unknowns keep me down. <BR> <BR> Working out has helped a lot this week. I am hoping to continue this next week. <BR> <em>362</em> <BR> Thu, 22 Oct 2015 00:22:38 EST Not Perfect I am not perfect.. I sometimes eat too much. I sometimes eat just for eating. I go days without a workout, and I don't always get enough sleep at night. I have exercise equipment that is collecting dust, and furthermore I go days sometimes without logging into sparkpeople or logging my food. <BR> <BR> But I am ok with all of this. I can't control everything, and I am finding that this new way of life is a matter of balancing. <BR> <BR> I am doing my best, and I am learning from my mistakes... Wed, 21 Oct 2015 11:45:38 EST Frustration It can be very frustrating when you feel as though your efforts are just kind of keeping you in a stand still. <BR> <BR> I am trying to push past this stress and depression that seems to be grabbing onto me. <BR> <BR> I can and will overcome this. <BR> <BR> Happy Tuesday Everyone! Tue, 20 Oct 2015 11:30:35 EST