LIGHTHEART09's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LIGHTHEART09 LIGHTHEART09's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ AUGUST RUSH IN TULSA OKLAHOMA!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449173 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1901613835.jpg"> <BR> Nightingale and me... <BR> Wow I have been telling everyone how I am pregnant in the Lord, and I am in a state of expectancy and birthing a new destiny and being promoted! Wow little did I know I was prophetically speaking that out! <BR> <BR> Myself and my friend Celebrate arrived safely in Tulsa and was picked up at the airport by Surrender and Flutter (we all get covenant names of how Papa sees us...I am Lightheart)... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 19:47:59 EST I love Being Pregnant in the Lord!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432579 Man being Pregnant in the Lord is so amazing...He is blessing me with such favor and finances! <BR> <BR> After Richard left I had a freak out...no insurance, under water $600....BUT GOD! <BR> I cried out to the Lord and said ok Lord you are now my Husband, since mine went AWAL and you are my provider...Well God is good ALL the Time...He provided.... <BR> <BR> 4 Art Shows...no fee and I am selling my work, promoting my kids art camp and offering private lessons <BR> <BR> Art Camp Sub for my... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 00:27:30 EST I am Pregnant! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420377 I am so pregnant with new life in me...I am getting ready to birth my new purpose and destiny and I feel so full of the Holy Spirit it has to be the most amazing happy time in my life! <BR> Yes! Can you believe it after the drama last month...that this month is all about the Joy of the Lord! Who has time to be sad...when Life is so full of possibilities. <BR> <BR> I have been so busy painting and the Lord is opening doors left and right...I am amazed at the flood gates of blessings. <BR> ... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 01:54:06 EST The Door To My Heart is Finally Shut http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412915 So today July 6th is our 1 year wedding anniversary...what a joke...Our meet up today got cancelled because coward was still working and in eastern Washington...it' s all good. I had stuff in my car of his and dropped it off at his Aunt Hazel's house...she look stunned when she answered the door...not friendly at all???? I told her Richard and I were to meet but he texted me he was out of town and is it ok to drop his stuff off at her place? She said ok...I asked her about her health and sh... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 02:19:27 EST Seriously LORD....let down to break thru....What a Rollercoaster http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411131 Happy 4th of July!!!! <em>283</em> <BR> Had a serious melt down....My roommate decided she was NOT going to move in...omg! But I think the LORD saved me from her...she I saw when I went to get some of her stuff she is a full on HOARDER! Yup crap all over her floor, papers, clothes...rug filthy....so what I thought was a great match was not...now $650 in the red....Jesus help me! <BR> <BR> This Sat will be our 1 year Anniversary....yippy...NOT...I need closure....I don't want a divorce... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 02:08:10 EST Spiritual Battle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402868 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l744384961.jpg">Some days seems so dark and sad and overwhelming....I have to force myself out of bed and into the pool for my aqua aerobics class. It is good that I have that to go to....Coming home feels heavy....alone....all day....all night...I need more distractions.... <BR> <BR> I have in my deep cleaning been finding many things still of Richards as I get my guest room and bathroom ready for my roommate to move in this weekend. I ju... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 21:24:30 EST Breakthru http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399071 I hate cruel silence...it is passive aggressive and that is what I have gotten from Richard since June 2nd...but finally he returned my keys....I got a text 3am Sat. morning to check my porch. <BR> I opened the door and there was some of my things returned. I texted back to thank him and tell him how much I appreciated the return...Of course I never heard back and will probably not hear from him until I get Divorce papers served...lovely. The sad part is his family is of course in his camp an... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 11:50:53 EST Thrown Under the Bus...Wow Never Saw that Coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5394004 I am so much in shock by the actions and behaviors of Richard Gorman! <BR> He abandoned me June 2nd and punished me with silence not calling or texting or responding to my calls and texts. He did finally call me Fri. June 14th to ask me what time would I be home so he could get his stuff! I tried to reason with him for 28 mins...with Let's sit down and work things out....No ....Let's reduce your rent for a bit if you are too much in debt....No...Let's get help...No....everytime I suggested a... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 22:52:38 EST Divorce ...really...wow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387247 Richard finally called to let me know he does not love me and wants a divorce!??? Seriously!!! <BR> This is the man who professed we could work out every issue thru communication...ok did I miss something??? This is the man who attends weekly family Bible Study???? Did he take this decision to the LORD????? I guess I am a bit confused to say the least and I feel so humiliated, and kicked in the stomach....He doesn't want to discuss, compromise, case closed...wow <BR> This like my retireme... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 19:09:47 EST Day 7 And No Richard!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384030 Been a rough week...my emotions go up and down....I have to remember to not look at my circumstances or overthink what the Hell Richard is doing or thinking, because when I go down that road the enemy sees my fear and pounces and torments me...When I fix my eyes on Jesus I have my peace...my Shalom because he is the Prince of Peace...my Sar Shalom. <BR> <BR> So Friday I had a blast at the Art Walk hosting the painting collection...see blog Color Riot...and <BR> my son, his wife, my grandson ... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 01:53:50 EST COLOR RIOT ART SHOW http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384016 <img src <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l684845252.jpg">="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1359046820.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1675225237.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l891605818.jpg"> <BR> <BR> These were the paintings kids did in 2008 in my Drawing and Painting class for a collection of Abstract Art for the Library. <BR> They hung in our Maywood Library until last Summer when Maywood had a remodel...When ... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 01:19:39 EST HELP!!!! PRAYER NEEDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381632 OK I was not going to do this, but I am in such a state of shock.... <BR> Richard left Sunday and said "I am Done??????!!!!!! " Reason, I transferred May 31st rent $125.00 and Food money $200 for the week, and then Transferred for June 1 $125.00 rent and $100 food <BR> that flipped him out back to back transfers...so he called me a Liar and a Thief!!???????????? <BR> I have not seen him since Sunday!!! I talked to him Monday and he said he was done he couldn't trust me...????????? <BR> So he... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 15:41:32 EST Whaaaaat???? Blogged and poof gone....grrrr http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5378054 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l748966721.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1649627926.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l694506307.jpg"> <BR> A few of my watercolors...I will post more another day... <BR> <BR> Wow I spent the entire hour updating, pouring out my heart, and went to upload my pix and poof gone....grrrrr <BR> <BR> So here is the condensed version.... <BR> Love my nutri bullet and green shakes... <BR> Love my aqu... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 14:12:46 EST Update from MIA Nan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5374219 Gosh I have been MIA awhile...life just got so busy...but it has been on my heart to get back so here I am... <BR> I spend most of my free time on Facebook... <BR> What has Nan been up to since California which was awesome... <BR> hmmmmm <BR> Well April 8th my granddaughter Miral Noa was born !!!! Lots of hair and looks like her brother Jaren...He says shes MY BABY....lol <BR> Doing lots of painting, taking a watercolor class, continuing with the Healing room and Terraforming....Daughter Dio... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 01:26:27 EST The Big Move....Baby Girl Hits the Big City of Seattle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276822 Finally it is done....I get my house back and Richard gets his room back...Yippie... <BR> Dionna's stuff and Cats have taken over Richards room where is closet and dresser is...so it has been a challenge.... <BR> Today Baby girl and her friends Hannah, Chris and Rock helped her move...thank you kiddos! <BR> The UHaul was stuffed and she left a bunch of stuff to sort for later...so my garage is still crowded, but I can get my car in atleast! <BR> Ahhhhhhhh peace..... <BR> Here are a few pix f... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 00:50:56 EST Painting, Moving, Terraforming For Australia and Other tidbits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275286 Can you say....happy.... <BR> Well baby girl will be officially moving tomorrow.....Richard has prepaid for the UHaul...more points for Richard in Dionna's bank account....He has been so sweet to her....So my girl will be facing the Big City of Seattle come Friday morn in her very own teeny tiny studio apartment. <BR> Put her in your prayers she has friends lined up to help her and to drive the truck. <BR> <BR> I have been doing lots of paintings...Finished 3 this past week, and have had ra... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 01:29:15 EST Transition Ouch....And a New Painting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267934 My baby girl is in the process of dismantling her life of 5 years with her boyfriend she has lived with...3 bedroom home, 4 chickens, 2 dogs, 4 cats, fish and a ton of plants....So much drama <BR> I am being surrounded in with her crying and packing and moving stuff into our garage to hold until her tiny studio apartment is ready March 6th next week! <BR> The good news is Richard and I have been moving her and she is now getting closer to Richard after our rough start with the kids....My so... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 00:25:08 EST Sewing and Other Fun Topics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249207 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l277845463.jpg"> <BR> Bunny and her new doggie couture <BR> Well Nan is bored to say the least...my day is sleep in till 7 or 8ish...get up make Richards breakfast/lunch and when he is gone...well I have the entire day to do what I want...well would like to be doing my aqua fit class but that is not gonna happen until my wound and stitches are healed...hopefully this next week I can get the ok to go back and jump in the pool...In the meantim... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 14:17:19 EST His Banner of Love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241487 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1102681520.jpg"> <BR> I love the LORD so much! He made me a painter...And I am so grateful, because even when I was a small child I would scribble on the family photos, walls, eat my paste and love to draw and paint. My first experience in school as far back as I can remember is me sitting in kindergarten turned around in my seat and not paying attention to anything else but the people in the back of the room painting and wondering when I wo... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 11:35:00 EST 8 lb Loss Wow I am Back on Track!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237266 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2015401349.jpg">I really blew it when I started the whole dating deal beginning in 2012...Lunches out dinners wine...dessert....I was still eating healthy at home salads juicing, but when I met Richard slowly by slowly I stopped weighing myself every day, tracking, and slowly eating the things that make me blow up...Gluten! Yup I married the Bread Man... <BR> <BR> Richard works for Sarah Lee Bakery and delivers BREAD....Nan's Arch enemy...... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 13:54:21 EST On the Mend...Thank You Lord For Richard!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225820 God is so good I give Him all the Glory!!! He knew I would need a help mate and sent me such a great man of faith! I love you Richard! <BR> Who knew I would be retired??? But God... <BR> Who knew I would need help for the cancer surgery??? But God <BR> Who knew my finances would take a turn??? But God <BR> <BR> Well after the most amazing conference on Terraforming I came back so excited to see what God has for me now that I am released from my time box...and Bingo...Just what Nan neede... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 16:01:10 EST Life Changing Terraforming Conference! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217323 Wow God is so good...I was singing the blues when I layed down my job and retired and layed down my position on the ministry team...God said wait when I was thinking of volunteering and going off and doing my thing...so I did...I heard go to the Healing Rooms...so I did Terry at the Healing Room said , "Hey Nan you should go to this Terraforming Conference..." I thought why not...not sure what I will learn... <BR> <BR> Well little did I know Papa wanted to blow my socks off on this New and ... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 16:15:48 EST Surgery for Skin Cancer on Jan 22nd...Need Your Prayers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199829 Well I went in to the Doctor yesterday...with butterflies in my tummy dreading to know the outcome...It was the best of the worst news I could get...It is a basal carcinoma which is the slowest growing skin cancer and rarely metastases so whew... <em>198</em> that was a relief thank you Jesus!!! I go in for surgery Tues. at 2:00pm Jan. 22nd...I would love your prayers covering me...Richard will be there for me...Man Am I so glad I have a husband to take care of me!!! <BR> Meanwhile I am ch... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 02:30:58 EST Warrior Alert!!!!! Calling All Prayer Partners!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195280 On Dec. 24th I went into the Skin Doctor to have a skin check up...The nurse said she didn't like what she saw on my back...my heart sank...I had had a pre cancerous mole removed in June of 2011 after putting down my dog Woofie to Liver Cancer...and in the thick of grieving for Joel who I had lost 7 months earlier to Skin Cancer...so I cringed....They had to reschedule me Dec. 28th for a biopsy...the Doctor was on vacation...so I would know when he returned...When I went in the room for the b... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 15:21:22 EST The Healing Room And the Power of GOD! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189324 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l971767478.jpg">Wow day 2 on Spark Avenue and my faithful friends are there cheering me on like I never missed a beat...I feel so blessed to have you all as my friends!!!!!! <em>220</em> My Daughter Dionna in the Photo <BR> <BR> Today was so powerful at the Northshore Healing Room...I got to pray for so many people, and the Lord put so many words of knowledge and visions in my mind to be able to minister to them in an amazing way that it m... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 01:31:15 EST Life is about constant change...I am now retired!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187416 2012 was big changes for Nan....I started dating...omg what a nightmare...but that is behind me... <BR> I met Richard fell in love and got married....wow...My dil is pregnant with a baby girl in May...I turned 60! And I am retired! <BR> <BR> Not really my choice to retire, but let's just say since the little blog incident back in 2010 the Admin has been itching to get rid of me...so this year was a total witch hunt...I got written up for stupid things like signing twice on my contract...lett... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 02:07:39 EST 4 months Married to Richard Wonderful Hubby Gorman...Big G http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5128599 So a quick update to how Nan is doing in the married life realm...Awesome...God is so good! <BR> <BR> What the enemy stole from me with Joel God made sure I got my 7x back and better! <BR> <BR> Praise Report on Richard... <BR> He is attentive <BR> He is an awesome listener <BR> He is a great cook <BR> He loves to volunteer in the Cooking lab at school <BR> My doggos love him...and Bunny is a full time Daddy's girl again she has Richard wrapped around her little white paw <BR> He loves to ... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 15:13:13 EST 60 NO WAY!!!! Wow Epic Birthday....10/10/2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094390 I still can't believe I turned 60 today!?!? <em>40</em> YIKES <BR> God is good....I am alive happy and very happily married! My guy is so wonderful, sweet and spoils me....What can I say....life is good....Thank you LORD!!! <BR> <BR> Today I wore my homemade Birthday Crown and my students brought in treats and sang to me...and one gal even played on her Cello Happy Birthday to me..awwww so sweet!!!! So it was fun...but mega calories...and the day is still young...my daughter Dionna and... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 18:52:47 EST UPDATE ON NAN...AKA MRS. GORMAN :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5059492 Wow where do I start....? <BR> God is Good and in His word he says "He gives us beauty for ashes" Well after this Jan. I was crying out..."God I don't want to do this assignment alone...send me a partner/husband to lock shield with...a man with the fire of God...I even wrote a prophetic blog declaring and decreeing what I wanted the LORD to send me...His BEST... <BR> <BR> Well I met Richard Gorman on May 26th, 2012...we were instantly and divinely drawn to each other...we were engaged on Ju... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 18:38:28 EST Nan is Engaged To Richard Gorman!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955275 Wow God is so good! Richard and I are inseparable and are so darn in love it is amazing! I thought when I met Joel that NO MAN could ever win my heart, but Richard did in such a huge way! <BR> <BR> We have been pure, and in this day and age...almost impossible...I did not want to live with him first...been there done that ...we wanted to do it right unto the LORD. Well our wedding date is set Aug 26th next month...at the Church where I am on the ministry core team, and Angela Greenig is... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 15:29:34 EST THE FAVOR OF GOD! MY BABY GOT AN OFFER TO BE LOCAL!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4940307 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l979252938.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l816806395.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l577735646.jpg">God is soooo good. My baby works so hard driving long hours. This past week he worked Wed-Friday and made 5 runs from Eugene Oregon South Central Oregon about a 6 or 7 hour drive from Kent, Washington...It was brutal...He drives long hours, eats crap, sleeps in his truck on the road and gets to... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 15:39:52 EST Summer and Love and Life Is Sweet Again!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4937023 My life feels so wonderful and sweet. Richard my Prince Charming is such a lovely man. We are inseparable...like Joel and I were. The only down side is his job...He delivers bread for Sara Lee...so he leaves the Kent, Washington bakery and drives to Eugene, Oregon and back to Kent and then back to Eugene and back to Kent...it is insane...He is on the road two days off 1 (Tues) <BR> on Wed/Thurs back Friday off Friday when he finishes to Sunday and he is back on the road... <BR> What a brutal ... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 00:01:17 EST DATING PRINCE RICHARD IS DATING BLISS!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4912132 I am so thrilled to be dating one man, and the fact he adores and cherishes me and I him...and we have CHEMISTRY! Sparks are flying....lol... <BR> <BR> So we have had so far 4 dates... <BR> 1. Our meet up at the Red Lobster... <BR> 2. Folk life Festival and Daniels Broiler, Dinner on Lake Washington <BR> 3. Movie, Avengers, Dinner at Ivars on Lake Washington, Wine Bar... <BR> <BR> And drum roll #4.... <BR> After my services Sat. I met Richard at his 2 bdrm apt...nice place, clean, nice th... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 20:15:29 EST AVery Nice Guy Showed Up in My Life!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4906633 So as you know I lost the love of my life 18 months ago, and life has been let's say in the wilderness for some time.... <BR> <BR> After I felt a shift in my spirit to start dating awhile back...well I did just that...but really...I was NOT READY! So I did Meet ups...that was great until my money ran out...so had to pick and choose only a few choice meet ups...stir there was a dissatisfaction in my spirit. <BR> <BR> I am all about a relationship/companion/partner...so when I met Richard it... Thu, 31 May 2012 23:00:35 EST 17 more GET UPS TILL SUMMER! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895990 I know, I know I have been not been on Spark Ave for a couple of months...and gosh...so many distractions...lol. <BR> <BR> A quick update, I am maintaining my weight loss...wish I could loose more...but seem to be at a plateau for now...it is all good...at least not gaining my weight back! My daughter has lost over 50 lbs on HCG and looks awesome...She was thrilled to go to Jamaica and feel great! <BR> <BR> School is almost over...17 more get ups...Yippy...hoping the this summer is a lot m... Thu, 24 May 2012 10:56:28 EST Life Goes On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4778650 Boy this past 16 months have been such a life changer for me, the passing of Joel, the year of the dark night of the soul, loneliness, starting to eat healthy, loosing 40 lbs, the online dating joke, and now meet up... <BR> <BR> It's all good life goes on.... <BR> <BR> Life is a series of tests, paths, discoveries that let us know that we need each other to survive this world and all that life has for us. That the love from a sister, brother, friend, spouse,student, mom, dad, grandparent, c... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 07:51:23 EST Meet Up An Answer to Prayer and Divine Appointments! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4733793 I love our God so much...He heard my cries and prayers...God send me friends to do fun things with...Well online dating...was not what God had in mind...my prayers with online dating...God CLOSE ALL THE DOORS YOU DON'T WANT ME TO BE WITH, AND OPEN "THE" DOOR TO THE PERSON YOU WANT ME TO BE WITH...Well after 6 weeks I closed that door myself...and God introduced me to meet ups! <BR> <BR> Last week was Comedy, and three divine appointments...Michelle, Artist/ Teacher, Jennifer and friends live... Sat, 11 Feb 2012 13:02:59 EST MY FIRST MEET UP ADVENTURE...WHAT A BLAST! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4723291 I am so thankful one of my last online dinner dates told me all about meet up! It is really what I have been praying for...single friends! Who wants to sit home alone 24/7 while there is fun and excitement out there...but who to go with since the world is all married, in a relationship, families...but no 50+ single women...well until I discovered meet up!!! <BR> <BR> I signed up for over 10 meet up groups, and wow it is like spark people on steroids, but you get to meet them face to face!!!!... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 11:08:24 EST Good Bye Dating Hello Meet UPS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4710144 Well my dating chapter is at a close very soon. After an intense round of coffee dates, lunch dates, dinner dates, art dates, texts, phone calls, skype conversations, guys disappearing into thin air with no contact...guys wanting my body....I am done with all of that! YUCK! <BR> <BR> One lovely man I had a dinner date with was a great help when he mentioned he does tons of meet ups???? Someone on my blog wrote about meet ups...Well I asked him to explain how meet ups worked. I told him tha... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 11:41:33 EST DATING MADNESS AND MERRY GO ROUND http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4681938 It has been awhile since I posted a blog or even got on Spark Avenue...It's weird I go in spurts and shifts here... <BR> <BR> Well Nan has been busy dating...and let me tell you it is NOT pretty...lol. Serial dating blows... <BR> I would much prefer Jesus to bring me the "ONE" but I know I do have to put myself out there for that person to find me. <BR> <BR> So I have been on Match.com where I met Joel...Not a great place to meet men with the Fire of God on them...lol. I see lots of Spirit... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 11:52:25 EST To the Future Nan...a Prophetic Declaration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4615732 Dear Future Nan, <BR> You have had an intense difficult year in the wilderness, alone, in your grief and sorrow...so much loss...your beloved partner Joel...aka Sugar Bear...your beloved Schnauzer, Woofie Boy....your home across the street from the lake you loved to swim across in the summers, your finances and good credit... <BR> <BR> Well I am here, I will never leave you nor forsake you....In My Word I say whatever the enemy has stolen I will restore 7x...Get ready to be blessed Nan.... <... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 23:59:49 EST Turned the Corner on Grief...In a New Season! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4597811 I gotta say this one year of grief has put me in the most lonely wilderness I can ever recall being in...But after last Wed. I started to feel a shift in my spirit!? I was driving to Eagle's Nest where I am on the core team, singing praising along with Jesus Culture, and the song said "All things work together for my good" and it repeated that 3x...and as I sang those precious promises of God I began to declare outloud saying ..."God you said in your word when the enemy steals from you you w... Thu, 24 Nov 2011 10:38:08 EST Nov. 16th I Miss You Sugar Bear...A tribute to my Joel Raff...The love of my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4587574 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l41620708.jpg"> <BR> I miss you honey, my heart aches...You were my Rock, My Hero, my Knight in Shining amour. <BR> This picture was taken right after Joel was diagnosed with Skin Cancer stage 3...little did we know the battle we would fight on our knees contending and speaking life into him with our fervent prayers. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l348081952.jpg"> <BR> My Sugar Bear loved the water...he loved taking the Fer... Wed, 16 Nov 2011 18:58:47 EST TAPESTRY OF MY LIFE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4554269 Warmspringday sent me a poem that inspired me to write this poem...I was going to title it <BR> Tapestry of Broken Threads because that is where my life is in this season grieving Joel, but I am only in the season of the dark night of the soul and that isn't what my life is about...My life is about purpose and vision and creativity and teaching and bringing in the light and exposing the darkness...Atleast that is what the Lord is bringing to me as of late...so here goes...it is a <BR> ROUGH... Wed, 26 Oct 2011 13:01:44 EST I am only cheating myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4539251 This 2nd round of HCG I have been playing games with myself...I add my own little extras...peanut butter, more cheese, more this, more that and as a result my weight loss has been pretty miserable only 5.2 lbs since the 1st of Oct...that is 17 days I could have had some good results. I notice on this round I am not hungry, but now I am eating out of BOREDOM! Yup I am doing my old dumb tricks eating because I am bored! <em>198</em> I have been around this mountain so many times...I need to ... Mon, 17 Oct 2011 08:14:22 EST HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAN 10-10-11 - 27.6 LBS LESS THAN LAST YEAR 10-10-10! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4526568 Well tomorrow I will be 59 years old...pushing the ole 60....Yikes and this year my goal is to get my weight off before 60! I started my journey the end of July and I gotta say this has been the best and easiest time loosing ever since I discovered HCG! <BR> <BR> I am only 2.4 lbs from a total loss of 30lbs!!!! <em>9</em> <BR> I haven't really exercised too much...although I was doing aqua fit up umtil I got a nasty cold, and I stopped...but I will be back to the pool...And I did get the ... Sun, 9 Oct 2011 10:09:01 EST ROUND #2 ON HCG....Loading Days....gross http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4508023 Well I finally finished a full 30 days of maintenance and I was very successful in maintaining my weight in fact I had NO CORRECTION DAYS!!! Those are days when you are over +2 lbs for more than 2 days in a row! <em>104</em> <BR> My results after 30 days eating good food and off HCG was gone 25.4 lbs and I held it there for the most part!!!! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started my 2nd round of HCG...So you begin with 2 loading days...code for load in the crap...ya know I used to enjoy my crap an... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 07:48:26 EST From summer rest zero to school busy 60... Back on the Frenetic Pace! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4490878 Whewwwww it's been an intense 3 weeks since school has started! Going from a restful summer zero to a crazy busy 60 school time is insane! But I am managing...but I have noticed this last week a little running nose, a little tickle in my throat, and a deep cough...hmmm the kids are now starting to ask to see the nurse and kids are starting to stay home due to the flu and colds...Yup school is in full swing. I felt it Friday when I sat in my recliner and fell asleep at 4pm until 6ish missing... Sun, 18 Sep 2011 10:50:57 EST Be WARNED About Coming Destruction in the Heavens! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4463974 It is so good to have a 3 day weekend after the frenetic paced week of school...Yeah! <BR> <BR> Done the first week of school and now the honeymoon time is over and the real kids show up and the work begins... <BR> <BR> Last night I went back to my Prophecy Meeting, it has been a month since I was there on that nightmare night when my car window was smashed in and my cell phone and stuff stolen from my car. I was missing going and hearing what is going on in the world. Everyone was happy to... Sat, 3 Sep 2011 10:42:27 EST GONE 24 LBS...GRIEF GROUP AND MOVING AT A FRENETIC PACE!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4462093 Whew I know school is back when I go from 0-60 in one day <em>198</em> exhausting living from bell to bell and trying to squeeze in so much in so little time...and rolling with construction and all the class changes on a daily basis... <BR> <BR> So I made it thru this first week...well almost got today...but Hey it's TGIF!!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started my grief support group! Wow intense...the bad news is it all the way across town at the top of rush hour....the good news... Fri, 2 Sep 2011 08:19:11 EST