LESLIELENORE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LESLIELENORE LESLIELENORE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I am sick, sick, sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6415016 Not sure what it is yet, but my doctor is concerned about the possibility of acute pancreatitis. There is also the possibility of a lupus flare up. And I am running a nasty fever on one of the hottest days we have had this year. Can you tell I am miserable, grumpy, and feeling sorry for myself? I really miss mom. She didn't like doctors, or modern medicine, so she wouldn't really approve of the fact I am pursuing this, but she was... mom. And she would sit on the phone and talk to me fo... Mon, 25 Sep 2017 18:48:18 EST Expressing myself... Finding courage... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6411920 I read a great quote today about not making assumptions about what other people are thinking or feeling. It said to "find the courage" to ask the questions that you need to ask to find out what is really going on and to "express what you really want." <BR> <BR> After reading some friends' blogs that were really honest and courageous, I had to stop and think... what IS it that I really want? I can't express what I really want, if I don't know what I want! As some of you know this has bee... Sat, 16 Sep 2017 21:06:07 EST I do know what I am doing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6411328 So, the Diabetes Educator on Tuesday basically said I am pretty much doing already doing everything she would recommend as far as diet and exercise. Unfortunately, my glucose levels are not responding in a typical manner. So, I am focussed more on "management" for now. The doctor upped my testing schedule to 8x a day... partially to see if there is any true discernible pattern to the really low numbers, and partially to ease my anxiety. Since my blood glucose levels have dropped pretty lo... Thu, 14 Sep 2017 23:43:13 EST Holding pattern... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6410231 I am in a holding pattern on the medical stuff. So I am focused on walking the dog, and talking to my friends and family. I went for a short run today. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is another day. I am practicing denial about my own situation. <BR> <BR> I remember where I was on 9/11. I doubt I will ever forget. So many things changed because of that day. I remember waiting to hear from my cousin who was attending Graduate School in NYC. He was safe, but it was nerve-wracking for us... I c... Mon, 11 Sep 2017 21:55:59 EST Dog Days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6409557 I am still getting used to having the ability to take pictures again. So far most of my pictures are of my dog, Cooper. As it should be. He has been my constant companion for over 6 years now. He can alternate between sweet and consoling... and demanding and stubborn (yes, he really did wake me up for belly rubs at 4:30am last week!)... but every moment and mood is precious. He is my walking buddy, my room mate, my daily sounding board, and consoler. Best of all he is completely non-jud... Sun, 10 Sep 2017 06:06:29 EST Cooking fun... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6409456 My niece flew in last night. When we were chatting online last week we talked about how much more fun it is to cook in larger amounts and with someone else. And I have been posting recipes like crazy. Last night we decided to make an attempt at Bailey's spiked Tiramisu. First step was to buy the Bailey's... and other ingredients, but neither of us had access to the recipe on our phones, so we were trying to remember off the top of our heads how much of each thing we needed. We only bough... Sat, 9 Sep 2017 20:58:56 EST Before and after pictures of the new hair color http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6409087 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ac6d1115-31cf-4c07-ab35-126e50cded30.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I hope this works! This should be my old color... faded out with the grey growing in. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/90097bdc-bdc2-4a00-b146-2da1b8988b35.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This should be me and my Best friend, Jen, right after we got our hair done. She actually smiles... Fri, 8 Sep 2017 16:10:06 EST Well, that was barrels of fun... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6408912 I had the glucose tolerance test yesterday morning. Basically, they make you sick, and check to see how sick, and test your blood every hour to see how fast you recover or if you recover. My doctor had ordered some extra tests to be done... only if my glucose level dropped below a certain threshold... well, they did those tests. Ugh. My big accomplishment of the morning was not throwing up. They drew my blood each hour (plus the extra tests), until the test was over, then they had me dr... Fri, 8 Sep 2017 06:32:05 EST Testing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6408519 Today (very early this morning) I have to go for a 4 hour glucose tolerance test... plus other testing... but that is the big one. From what I gather, they force you into hypoglycemia (give you sugar water to spike and crash your glucose or something), then check your blood sugar... then proceed to feed you, to try and bring you out of hypoglycemia, and test your glucose... for four hours. Basically sounds like a miserable morning. One of the symptoms of hypoglycemia is irritability... I w... Thu, 7 Sep 2017 02:24:13 EST What we intend vs. results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6408180 I have been thinking a lot about intention vs results... primarily in relation to the spoken word, but it also relates to nutrition and exercise goals... just on a different slant... <BR> <BR> So, the idea started percolating in my brain when something vaguely inappropriate popped out of my mouth to a stranger. I had had a whole conversation in my head, and I was in a rush ( a huge rush, with a serious deadline to get where I needed to go), and what I intended to say was diplomatic and plea... Wed, 6 Sep 2017 06:35:07 EST Interesting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6407785 The responses I have gotten to yesterday's blog (whiny complaint) about my blood sugar were interesting. So maybe I need to give my Sparkfriends a bit more background on the situation? I am a Type 2 diabetic... I was diagnosed a bit over 10 years ago I think, and was on metformin for a while, but received no diabetes education, or training on proper use of a glucose monitor, or basically anything beyond the introductory information pamphlet that came with that first monitor when I bought it... Tue, 5 Sep 2017 04:20:36 EST The human body is curious... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6407440 I have been tracking my blood glucose readings and they seem to go down an hour after eat, and go up the longer I go without food. That seems so weird to me. It got down into the mid 60s the other night which got me anxious, because I have been consistently running good numbers for the last three weeks since I had that little jaunt to the hospital with hypoglycemia. Now I seem to be trending downward again, which is concerning. <BR> <BR> In all this, once again the pharmacist turned out t... Mon, 4 Sep 2017 07:07:14 EST "Before" picture... funny pup... a little evening anxiety... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6407005 Well, I added a "before" picture of my hair color to my photos on my Sparkpage... it isn't the best lighting and you can't really see the blue... only the purple. My salon appointment is next Friday, and I will post an "after" picture that day. Hopefully the lighting will be better. Maybe if I get my friend, Jen, to take the picture she can get a better angle or something. <BR> <BR> I had a pretty good day today. Walked the dog early this morning (of course I was all bundled up). Putter... Sat, 2 Sep 2017 21:55:16 EST Thinking of fun stuff... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6406652 The past couple of days have been busy and stressful, so tonight and tomorrow I am dedicating to fun things. Enjoyable time "wasters". The things that feed my soul, but have no real purpose otherwise. I have a hair appointment next week, and I am getting my hair completely re-colored and cut. I just have to think about the colors I want in my hair this go-round. I really like the purple and sapphire. I think I want to stick with those, but I think I want to use magenta as my base color ... Fri, 1 Sep 2017 22:10:39 EST So much space! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6405627 So, the elliptical is gone now, and with the love seat also gone the space is just so much more OPEN. I think I am going to save up and get a second recliner though so that I have somewhere comfortable for a guest to sit. I rarely get more than one visitor at a time so that makes sense. (Or maybe a wing chair?) Hmmm... something to ponder. <BR> <BR> I spent several hours yesterday sitting with my friend, Steph's, mother... who just got out of the hospital but is really weak, and probably... Wed, 30 Aug 2017 06:44:39 EST The Green Tomato experiment was a success! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6405202 So, I sliced the Green tomato a little thinner than I would if I were frying it, but not by a lot. I used cooking spray on the cookie sheet, laid out the slices of tomato, and sprinkled them with a little Parmesan, asiago, and mozzarella, then baked them in a 375F oven for about 45 minutes (it probably could have been 40 minutes). They turned out lovely. They were NOT fried green tomatoes, but they were crispy enough to pick up with my fingers and eat like crisps, but with some of that tar... Tue, 29 Aug 2017 06:37:50 EST Green tomato experiment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6405139 I love fried green tomatoes, but they really aren't very healthy the way I have always made them, so tonight I am trying something different and baking the sliced green tomatoes with a sprinkle of asiago, parmesan and mozzarella on top. I did grease the pan, but I am not "frying" them the way I usually do. I am skeptical, but hopeful. I like eggplant, sweet potato and zucchini cooked this way, so... <BR> <BR> I woke up with a visual disturbance going on this morning that evolved into an... Mon, 28 Aug 2017 23:14:31 EST Random morning musings... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6404434 I have a busy day planned for today... well, for me it is a busy day. I tend toward slow, relaxed days as part of my routine... so when I have a list of errands and an agenda for socializing, etc... I start to fret. I think it is the social anxiety rearing its anxious head. Of course the anticipation of social interactions is much more intense than the actual interactions. People are generally pleasant to me if I am friendly to them first. I take to heart the stricture: Be kind. If noth... Sun, 27 Aug 2017 06:18:56 EST Changing definitions and expectations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6404085 What is "enough" exercise for me? What will give me the most functional fitness and mobility over the longest time taking into consideration my diagnoses, and my desires, and my dog's requirements for physical activity? <BR> <BR> When I first got to goal weight I was all about endurance... how far can I walk in a day? How far can I run (well, usually intervals after the first half hour...)? How fast and far can I kayak? I was all about challenging my physical limits and pushing them ju... Sat, 26 Aug 2017 06:25:26 EST The love seat is gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6404001 My brothers came with the truck this evening and took away the unused love seat that has been just occupying space in my apartment. It is going in my Dad's back room for now. It is still in really good shape (I think it is a Lazy Boy), it just was in a bad spot in my apartment, and my apartment is small enough there really wasn't another place to put it. I moved almost all my furniture around yesterday by myself (I took lots of breaks, and used my legs a lot), taking about 3 hours to move ... Fri, 25 Aug 2017 21:14:14 EST Improving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6403218 Both Cooper and I are improving with our health... Two days of eye drops, and he is back to being pretty perky, and his eyes seem fairly clear. I will put the drops in for one ore day to be safe. <BR> <BR> As for me... I go back to see the doctor tomorrow morning. My numbers have been pretty spot on, so I think the rheumatologist's conclusion that it was the lupus med that caused the reaction is valid. (Since my numbers improved once I was off the med, and have barely wavered once they g... Wed, 23 Aug 2017 20:01:29 EST Sick pup http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6402868 Yesterday during the eclipse Cooper got quieter and quieter, and his eyes got squinty. He ended up sleeping through most of the afternoon and evening. I was concerned enough that I called the vet and made an appointment for this morning. Good thing. Turns out he has conjunctivitis. Yep, my dog has Pink Eye. He has slept most of the day, curled up beside me. I am keeping him away from other people and animals for a couple of days.... just to be safe. Poor pup! And he HATES the eye dro... Tue, 22 Aug 2017 21:12:53 EST Quiet Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6402021 Yesterday and today have been mostly quiet and primarily solitary, though I did go out and walk with my brother and father this morning. I talk on the phone with my BFF, Jen, at least once a day, but other than that I screen my calls and generally choose not to pick up unless it is family or an emergency. It is so nice to recharge after the chaos of the past week. I have had some nice walks with the dog in the cool of the morning, and after the sun has set. And I have made the time to fin... Sun, 20 Aug 2017 16:23:58 EST The power of language http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6401193 So, I have been thinking about the difference between "obsession" and being "vigilant". In my handy Merriam Webster's college dictionary "obsession is defined as "a persistent disturbing preoccupation with an often unreasonable idea or feeling..." While being vigilant is defined as "alertly watchful esp. to avoid danger..." (and the synonym for vigilant is listed as "watchful). <BR> <BR> I had someone ask about why I was "obsessed" with my healthy lifestyle and with my recent health cha... Fri, 18 Aug 2017 03:37:05 EST A little knowledge is scary... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6401059 I should never try to Google medical research to try and figure out stuff online by myself... especially late at night. LOL... I took the available information to a relative who is a medical professional, and she gave me her opinion on the information I had, which was important to know for future reference, but since I am already doing the recommended actions... and have been for the last 6 years or so, there is not much different my doctor would tell me I think. But I managed to get myself... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 18:50:13 EST Making modifications http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400737 My blood sugar seems to be returning to normal, but I am still feeling paranoid about it bottoming out unexpectedly... so I have made some modifications to my fitness patterns. I have shortened my walks and runs (and reduced my pace), and reduced the amount of ST I am doing. Going more for LISS. But breaking it up into slightly smaller chunks than I would normally do. Three to four miles at a time seems to be about my limit right now. I need to respect that limit. I can feel the potenti... Wed, 16 Aug 2017 21:56:00 EST Just one more thing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6399945 I had a critical reaction to the medication I am taking to treat the lupus. It was a one in a million thing. It could have been fatal. No thanks to my doctor's office I am okay now, I did all the research, and made all the phone calls to figure out what was going on... after I called their office and got an unsatisfactory response. I told them about the critical lab report, they blew me off completely, and never called me later in the day to check on me to see if I had died or something.... Mon, 14 Aug 2017 22:03:42 EST Cooper is going to get spoiled... (well, maybe he already is...) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398625 The other tenants in my apartment building tend to adore Cooper (with a few glaring exceptions), but he has always been a bit standoffish. He is quite a mama's boy, and sticks close to me, which I think is just about right. He would sniff fingers and walk away, but he wasn't much interested in other people petting him. One woman got the good idea of buying Pupperoni, and bribing him into affection... and it worked... he adores her, and runs after her power chair when he hears her voice. T... Fri, 11 Aug 2017 10:12:35 EST Dealing with insomnia http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398142 I have been having trouble with insomnia for the last three to four weeks. Every once in a while I get a good night's sleep, but more often I catnap (though my dog might take exception to that term)... until I get frustrated with the whole process and just get up. I know the root cause, and it should be resolved within the next two weeks, but in the meantime... Yep, I spend a lot of time fussing around on the computer. Thankfully, my brother, Jonathan, (my tech guru) came over yesterday an... Thu, 10 Aug 2017 05:33:05 EST Doing this out of a place of love... not to punish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6397612 Yes, I became morbidly obese because of my choices and decisions when it came to food and exercise, but there were reasons for those choices and decisions. Just changing the outward patterns feels like a punishment to me, because I am depriving myself of the comfort food that soothes my fear and sadness, or forcing myself to exercise when really I want to crawl into a cave and hide. <BR> <BR> So, in order to make these changes LASTING changes, I needed to learn the underlying motivations ... Tue, 8 Aug 2017 20:04:11 EST What is the key? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6397247 Sometimes friends cut you off with no explanation... just sudden silence. I try not to take offense. I know circumstances change. Expectations shift. Perceptions and assumptions get altered or re-formed. Our lives are not static. Life requires that we change and evolve... it is all part of the journey. <BR> <BR> For me... I know that I NEED the accountability and visual evidence involved in tracking food and exercise, and the support of this community. I have stopped blogging on a dai... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 22:11:32 EST Wet day... but I still got out there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6396102 I had errands to run with my BFF, and walks to take, and a short run to entertain myself with... and I only took a break when the thunder started rumbling. The rain actually felt good after the scorching weather we have been having the past couple of days. And I like the fact it was overcast. I get a sun exposure rash on my legs on sunny days, so it was actually a relief to see the clouds. I will put up with rain dripping in my eyes and water spots on my glasses. <BR> <BR> I got all my e... Fri, 4 Aug 2017 22:24:26 EST A change of pace for my poor Cooper... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394585 I know it isn't really nice to laugh at Cooper's traumatic experiences with plastic lawn ornaments... but they are so darn funny! Anyways, this morning we had a change of pace, and encountered a plethora of orange cats... who all seemed to choose THIS morning to sit in the middle of the sidewalk directly in our path. And since Cooper has been schooled in the physical superiority and dominance of the feline by the ninja kitty, he was skittish and wary. I decided to take him out and around e... Tue, 1 Aug 2017 08:57:32 EST Just one more thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394392 Had to have some more medical tests today. The tech was certain the doctor WOULD be following up with me, which makes me wonder what she saw in the results, but really, at this point, it is just one more thing. I think I have reached my threshold for bad news. It isn't really causing me stress, because I can't really absorb the potentiality of it. I am just cruising along this week, as much as possible. Walking my dog, reading, dancing, talking to my BFF, Jen... and of course, since it i... Mon, 31 Jul 2017 20:10:47 EST ...And there were the feral flamingos.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393880 Someone "flamingo bombed" the little park space down by the creek where Cooper and I walked this morning on our early walk. So, there were random plastic, pink, lawn flamingos just perched in the bushes... waiting to scare the stuffing out of my poor, silly pup. After yesterday morning's encounter with the Garden Gnomes I think he was just wary of anything abnormal. At first he didn't notice the flamingos looming over him (despite my snickering), but then a squirrel ran into the bushes und... Sun, 30 Jul 2017 15:14:09 EST Garden gnomes for the Win http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393715 I was walking Cooper out to my Dad's house yesterday morning about 6:30am, and we had made it about one mile, and he was lifting a leg against a tree in a nice, residential neighborhood (where people tend to be "lawn proud"), and as he is relieving himself on the tree--with his leg still in the air--- he looks over into this one yard and sees... GARDEN GNOMES! I am guessing that somehow he has never seen an actual Garden Gnome before, because he kind of freaked. With that leg still lifted, ... Sun, 30 Jul 2017 05:56:26 EST Blessing in disguise... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6392419 So, the car I share with my brother just feels really unsafe to me... the fact that it has no front brakes just worries me to no end (there are a number of other problems as well). As a result I am going to try not to need to drive it. That means asking for help when I need it. It also means planning ahead better. No more running out to get one or two things at the store. I have to get back into the habit of making lists that are complete, rather than outlines. I also have to take a bit... Wed, 26 Jul 2017 19:46:02 EST Crying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6391113 If you read my blog from April 11th you will find a piece my mom wrote on Death and Spirit which talks about Spirit... likening us to butterflies, bursting out of our chrysalis to a new existence as Spirit when we pass from this life. My brother read that piece at the Celebration we held in my Mother's memory yesterday. Today, on his Facebook page, my Dad posted a thank you to all the attendees for their kind words and to his family, and ended with a farewell to Mom... "Fly well, my Beloved... Sun, 23 Jul 2017 18:11:22 EST Life's curveballs... and facing reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6390389 So, someone keyed the rental car between the time we parked it and the time the first rental agency employees arrived the next day. Thank goodness I paid for the insurance coverage... but still... why do people feel the need to damage things? I just don't understand... sigh. Of course the first I knew of this was a registered letter from the rental agency asking for a police report to explain the damage... what? What accident? I had no clue what they were talking about. There was no dam... Fri, 21 Jul 2017 22:15:32 EST Sorry for the silence... family stuff happened http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6389688 So my niece ended up stranded in Toronto (yes, in Canada) without her passport or ANY form of ID, after her purse got lifted this past weekend. After some fussing and finagling, and armed with the police report, and other pertinent information she was able to successfully cross back into the United States on Sunday evening, but she had no money, no ID (including no Driver's License, etc) and no way of safely getting back to Western NY where the majority of the family lives on Thursday to hel... Thu, 20 Jul 2017 06:43:52 EST I had a thin-skinned sort of day today... they happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6387881 Things happened today that were irritating, but normally I could write them off and move on. For some reason today I was having trouble doing that. Well, I know one reason was because I had a migraine this morning... triggered from the copious amounts of cigarette smoke from my next door neighbor's apartment. I took medicine and a nap and the migraine broke this afternoon, but the pain always makes me cranky... and less able to cope as I normally would. (And she opened her door to let me ... Sat, 15 Jul 2017 21:27:45 EST Being organized http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6387526 I continue making strides on overhauling my apartment. I keep finding nooks and crannies that I tucked "stuff" into. Some of it is very useful stuff, or has sentimental value, but I wonder at times why I chose to put "that"... over "there"... I had two friends show up today to relieve me of some of my stuff, and I will take a few things to another friend tomorrow. On Monday, if it isn't raining Dad and I are taking a truck load of donations to the Northern Chautauqua Canine Rescue (which ... Fri, 14 Jul 2017 21:31:55 EST Reminding myself to be grateful for what I CAN do... some firsts I had forgotten http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386821 I mentioned in yesterday's blog that it has been a hard few months for my entire family. Pretty much starting with the sudden death of my Mother on April first, and just rolling onward non-stop since then. There have been joyous moments. Content moments. Loving moments. But they get overshadowed by the dark and foreboding, life-changing events and diagnoses that seem to just keep coming at us. It seems none of us is excluded. Myself included. <BR> <BR> I was finally given a diagnosi... Thu, 13 Jul 2017 07:52:56 EST Accepting my body... becoming more body aware http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386403 When I was a pre-teen and young teenager I was a dancer (ballet, tap, jazz... you name it I at least tried a class), and even joined a competitive troupe for a while. For some reason that changed. Not sure if it was hormones, a growth spurt that altered my body shape, geography, or shifting social groups... but I fell away from that skill and activity, and moved to sports for a while. Both require you to be aware of your body. How you move. How you fuel your muscles. How best to build a... Wed, 12 Jul 2017 08:06:18 EST Enjoying small pleasures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386242 I treated myself to a hair touch up, as my last few weeks have been so crazy. It turned out really pretty. The sun bleached out the purple, so all that was left was the sapphire and teal, and that had faded in places to kind of a silvery sheen (my BFF, Jen, said it was opalescent), so all we did was add back in the purple and it perked everything back up. My roots are coming in my natural dark brunette, so next time I go for color we will have to do something about that. (the stylist and ... Tue, 11 Jul 2017 21:57:53 EST Take a breath... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385801 So, today was my birthday. One member of my family acknowledged it, and I spent a good bit of the afternoon at the vet's office with my dog.Maybe not the best birthday ever, especially since it is the first I am celebrating without my Mother... but for some reason I am not as weepy as usual. Maybe it is due to all the personal reflection I have done lately? Or maybe I am just too tired to be upset. I only usually get weepy on the day of my birthday... and then I am fine. I will see. I D... Mon, 10 Jul 2017 21:06:47 EST Remembering a Sparkstreak... Why is it all worth it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385412 I was reading the email from Sparkguy this evening, and the connected blog, and I was reminded of what kept me motivated and moving with my fitness program in such a consistent and dedicated fashion. It was those "silly" Sparkstreaks. I started with just 10 minutes, three times a week, but increasing steadily... until I could successfully do 120 (or more) of moderate (or at times, more intense) exercise most days of the week. I started doing some sort of exercise for those 2 hours every si... Sun, 9 Jul 2017 23:17:50 EST Almost there... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6384985 I have almost reached the end of what there is to be sort, rearranged, donated, tossed, or otherwise purged in my apartment. I have done a clothes closet purge fairly regularly since I started noticeably losing weight, but I have just absent-mindedly shoving odds and ends in closets since I moved into this apartment about 5 tears ago. (I also seem to have run out of unpacking steam at some point when I moved, because I found several boxes that were obviously from the move shoved in dark cor... Sat, 8 Jul 2017 21:57:48 EST Taking the risk to be vulnerable can be rewarding... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6384227 I took a risk yesterday communicating with my best friend... and it could have gone badly, but the result was beautiful. She understood what I was attempting to say, and acknowledged the care and respect from which it was said, and that I expressed for her. Today when I talked to her she simply said "thank you"... a beautiful and life affirming moment for both of us. But it came about because one of us was willing to be vulnerable to the other, and in response the other was willing to refl... Thu, 6 Jul 2017 22:17:44 EST Finally, my annual wellness exam... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6383795 So, I had my annual doctor exam this morning... the one that was originally scheduled at the beginning of March, but the doctor kept canceling. I had given up on him and scheduled it with the PA. I like her. Of course, since it had been so freaking long since I have been in the office I had to update my family medical history... which meant talking about my Mom dying and everything. And Dad's health scare. And then, we got into everything new with me... oy! I have to say... I drank 3 hu... Wed, 5 Jul 2017 20:29:14 EST