LESLIE871948's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LESLIE871948 LESLIE871948's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Something new http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536325 I resist the fact that I have to keep a journal, in order to maintain my weight loss. I accept it, but it is so far from a "perfect" solution that I cannot resist looking for other ways to stay on track. My dream for a really long time has been to find a way to live honoring my body and the real hunger that occurs when I need to feed it. There are so many more inputs from my emotional self that get in the way, that I have only been able to effectively maintain by logging every bite of food in... Sat, 9 Nov 2013 06:13:38 EST Fall, I love fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527290 This time of year the ducks begin to pass through on their way South, and/or make their winter homes here in our friendly climate. We start having some days when it is nice to be outside. Hurricane season may have passed without us getting any significant damage. It is a good time of year. The time when my thin blooded body can be delighted with the weather (before I begin to shiver). I am acclimated to our hot climate. This time of year it is easier to exercise, and easier to keep up with th... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 10:04:58 EST New goals, change it up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515041 There was a picture on facebook of a person who was mentioning needing to change it up, then getting stressed from change? That is so me. I started counting weight watchers points again because I have been stalled at around a pound or two over my goal weight and it seemed that I just could not get the calories down to a level where I could get rid of the extra pounds. I went with a friend to the WW meeting and had to pay because I was 1.4 pounds over my lifetime goal weight. I hate to pay. It... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 10:14:55 EST Spark? how has this made things different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508877 I was reading about a success story here and began thinking about my own experience with SparkPeople. I don't know exactly when I found it, but it was several years ago, and I was so excited to find a place where a person could get help for free. This is so rare in today's world. I joined, and used it for a while then wandered away during a very difficult time in my life when my Mom was dying with Alzheimer's disease, and I had lost my exercise coping technique due to a bad bicycle accident a... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 11:13:50 EST Thoughts about *Wendy* the old WW unofficial plan to vary intake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503208 So this morning I set back up my calories consumed daily, with a weekly average column on my spreadsheet. I had this going from July of 2012 to April of 2013 when I was over a normal BMI and going back to it after some major bumps in my road (bicycle accident, Mom with Alzheimer's dying, bla bla too much to list but I had gained some weight). The record keeping ALWAYS brings me back. I took another little vacation from it when I retired in May, and gained 4 pounds which are nicely leaving now... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 07:39:01 EST Grateful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5497597 Yesterday I momentarily lost the great mood I have been in for September. This has been a difficult week with a lot of little things that needed to be done, and yesterday I woke up low energy and irritated with it all. It just so happened that I got a lot of attention for my blog about keeping my food journal yesterday, and eventually it took a toll on my bad mood so my day ended on a grateful note that is hanging in there this morning. I also realized that I need a little time "off" from my ... Fri, 27 Sep 2013 09:15:46 EST September is the New Year - thank you Spark Friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495621 I always love this time of year, often we get a cool breeze and it takes a little of the humidity out of the morning walk for a few days. My blog earlier this month about making friends with my need to journal my food turned out to be another sea change in my life. My weight average has dropped back to where I can post a 200 pound loss from my highest weight in 1981. I am feeling great again, and not at all resentful any longer about doing what I need to do to maintain my good health. I expec... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 07:57:10 EST Thoughts on Statistics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489997 So they are teaching my granddaughter some statistics at the moment, and as a member of the NWCR and a busy minded old nurse I had to toss out some personal stuff. I am a record keeping fiend, and last year when I decided that I was really *best* at 164 or thereabouts I set up new spreadsheets, got out all my pictures and paperwork, and did a record of my weight over time. The statistics folk like to point to the NWCR for all kinds of things, and they have come up with the notion that after 5... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 09:14:18 EST Dodged a bullet and found a new maintenance tool http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486216 So lately I have been drug down by a case of who cares. With an extra helping of "I don't have to do this any more". I quit logging my food daily *who does that ?* As if. Normal people don't have to do that (resentment). Predictably there has been a gradual gain of about one and one half pounds a month since this trend began in May. I excused it. After all I am lifting weights again. Must be muscle. My measurements are the same. I am not eating that much more, just enough to build some muscle... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 12:54:01 EST July of 2003 was the first time I reached a normal BMI http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412207 So, I should be all perfect right? Well, I guess today I feel as if that is a true statement in part. Of course I still want to grow. That said, I have had 100 pounds of the extra 200 something I once carried on my body in the late 70's early 80's off for a very long time. This past ten years I have had some minor weight gain caused by various life challenges, health and emotional, but I have not seen 200 something on the scale since October of 2002. And I have maintained my normal BMI (barel... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 09:38:38 EST 7 more days of writing down my food makes my 365 day streak http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312452 So last year on April 12 2013 I began a food journal. And set a goal to write what I ate every day for a year. This morning I am 30 pounds lighter than I was last year, have been around that goal weight give or take one or two pounds since November 2012, and if I write down my food for the next 7 days I will have a record of every bite for an entire year. <BR> About a month ago it was my intention to continue that goal for another year. <BR> Today I have set a new goal. To weigh myself each ... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 10:14:07 EST ACHIEVEMENT. n. "The death of endeavor, and the birth of disgust" From the Devils Dictionary by Ambr http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306102 Well here we are, the last day of March, Easter Sunday, and I am posting a slight new low weight. I am "moving in" to this body now. This "old" new body is a delight to me in so many ways. So why does this Bierce quote resonate with me? In 12 more days I will have written down every bite of food I have eaten for 365 days, if I in fact continue that "streak". I am fairly certain that short of a coma I will complete that goal. It did after all, return me to a weight where I can attend Weight Wa... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 09:10:15 EST Mumble Grumble http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280900 Maintenance is not fun. The alternative is scary though. I went to a meeting yesterday where there were some individuals who had some difficulties that made my own recent aggravations seem sort of whiney. And small. For some inexplicable reason I ended up eating my way through the rest of the day, to the reminder point where I was getting uncomfortable physically. Since I have that 11 month long log of everything I have eaten I am aware that yesterday was the most calories eaten in a single d... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 08:34:39 EST I know why no one wants to do this the way I did :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267298 I looked at the history spreadsheet I have this morning, to attempt to get an idea how long I have been on this road to "normal" BMI. My life has been this struggle. This is not to say that I have done nothing else, most people see me as a successful, good person. People who knew me at 365 pounds tell stories about those days, seeing me and my Great Dane crawling into a pup tent at girl scout camp when my daughter was little, things like that. I tell about the child in the grocery store with ... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 13:34:41 EST So THIS is how it happens http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264662 Maintenance is a minefield. I got to the weight where Weight Watchers lets me attend meetings for free late last year. So at that time, I intended to lose another 5 - 10 pounds to move more safely into the normal BMI range for my height. I have kept up with the journal, although sometimes just on paper without calculating the calories, Went down about 2 pounds from that original maintenance goal, then it has been a fight ever since to stay down. I wondered what happened back in 2006 or 7 when... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 12:09:27 EST OH NOOOES Don't tell them it's Okay to be a little fat! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228348 I have been thinking of this for several days since the rash of posts about that article that suggested it is "healthy" for people to be a bit overweight. So most of my friends here know I am a nurse, and that I teach nursing at a local U. I have taught fundamentals of nursing mostly and done clinical rotations for beginning nursing students at local hospitals. <BR> This morning I saw an article about a person who is proposing that "shaming" fat people might be a good way to encourage weight... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 08:30:05 EST Values Conflicts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212590 Okay. Things are going Very Well here, on day 256 of tracking my food and a bunch of other things. This past two days I shifted gears a bit, and started paying attention in a different way to my food. It is not all put into the spark journal because I am beginning a period of asking my body what is enough. There has been this long standing values conflict in my life in regard to food, and obviously now is the time to examine this issue. The slowest loser has a blog post about social conscious... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 08:04:22 EST Wow New Jeans! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197493 I got a gift card for Christmas and went to use it today. I needed a lift in the worst way after a rather rocky day yesterday (WHEN I STILL JOURNALED EVERYTHING I ATE) and it was ugly. The cool thing is that I know one day does nothing (especially when it is only one meal in one day). Even having that experience, I still felt a little down this morning. Then it was raining and that messed up my walking plans. But you know what? My knees really needed a day of rest that fitbit has been pushing... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 18:45:36 EST 256 Days of food journaling even while on vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189643 And I get bugged because I didn't park far from the mall when it was raining and cold? Sometimes I amaze myself. I am nicely in my goal range for a free Weight watchers weigh in tomorrow, after holiday food and travel. I did learn something from all the wonderful people who commented on my blog about not parking far, and was not even BOTHERED yesterday when I slipped up and checked my phone while in the truck. At least I was stopped at a red light, but I went back to my other goals list and u... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 09:03:31 EST I already missed a goal, darn should I delete that one? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187665 To say that I am hard on myself would not be an exaggeration. I have to admit that it has gone so far that if I have a goal that I mess up early, I will often just remove that from the long list so that I stay at 100 percent (or even fudge it a little and check off something I didn't Really do). This has ALREADY happened in 2013. One of my goals is to park far away from wherever I am going. So yesterday was cold and rainy. And I had two pre-teens in the car who feel that coats are not "attrac... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 08:13:08 EST New year officially begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5185624 I have felt new for a while now :). But here we are with January, and there is not going to be anywhere near the amounts of tempting junk all over. Of course the stores will have Valentines out, and Easter candy. But I can stay out of those areas. I am so grateful to be beginning this year as a "free" lifetime member of weight watchers, and an active Spark People member. I need all the support I can get to maintain my healthy weight and lifestyle that I have been gifted with one more time. <... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 08:57:23 EST I won Christmas too http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5176443 So. I have great admiration for the power of a streak that is long enough to be difficult to blow off. This past few days (weeks?) of holiday extras, stresses, events..... truly designed to wear down the best will of a person who is on a path that sometimes looks a little narrow. I know better than to go into this time of year expecting to resist everything that is not a stellar choice for my goals. So I was pretty good about not having anything "extra" that I really love sitting around my ho... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 09:09:12 EST La Ti Da, I won Thanksgiving, and I know why .... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5145689 So I had pie. Just not an extreme amount. I had some of everything. Ok, so I was maintaining my weight this past week, and losing a half pound a week the two weeks before that. I imagine that if I continued to eat an average of 2000 calories daily I probably would maintain right around here but who knows. There are some major factors involved. For the past 20 years at least I have not done anything that brings about *fast* weight loss and I have been careful to maintain my muscle mass, even i... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 07:34:16 EST Eat This instead of THAT :). Day 206 of the journal, and yep Keeping It Today Too http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5143304 So there is all this stuff here in the house for Thanksgiving. There are people here that I love to impress with my cooking skills. I have home made organic pumpkin pie, zucchini bread, all kinds of vegetables, other things. I have been cooking all week. So my normal eating pattern is all strange. The pie is healthy stuff, and smelled marvelous, but has some real butter in the crust. What to do? I had to test one to be sure it came out okay, I have this way of "modifying" recipes and sometime... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 09:22:01 EST Day 210 of keeping the journal, if I made it last week I can make it 365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5140159 I sort of lost my focus last week, and if not for filling out that food journal and committing to weighing in at WW for November, I might have wandered off track. That concept of streaks is a powerful thing. Once the streak gets past a certain point it begins to have a life of it's own. I kind of went nuts on Saturday, but logged it all, and the scale is still happy. <BR> I was just in a bad mood. Seemed like for days. Then I get this little message in an email from fitbit that I have walked... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 09:09:59 EST 0 this is so exciting ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5135041 I got a new scale low this morning. And now I am standing here at a podium at work trying to entertain myself while my students take a math exam. They are all wanting to go to the bathroom, and we cannot let them go because they are on computers and it tracks what they do, besides some of them will use that time to look at notes. Most of them are not like that. Still. <BR> I got some new vibram 5 fingers shoes from Zulily - super good deal half off. I have them on and so i have happy feet. y... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 10:23:17 EST Day 18 in my goal range and Day 202 of my food journal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5131195 I made the right decision to begin a maintenance frame of mind when I did. It looks like my weight loss is slowing down, and the inches continue progress to a smaller sized body. This shift in focus to the goal of sustaining a healthy diet and exercise plan has removed the "hurry" to lose the last 5 or 10 pounds that I imagine will come off. And frankly it is not my business now to decide where my body ends up vs. the scale. I don't know how much the skin that used to cover my 365 pounds weig... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 06:10:37 EST Still on track, Day 201 of food journal - Fitbit is great for maintenance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130386 I got a Fitbit this past Thursday, and am using that instead of my heart rate monitor. I think this is going to be great for maintenance. I have used a Polar heart rate monitor up to now to track my calories burned with exercise, but I knew I was probably losing some of them since I would take it off, and often do a lot of other active things during the day. This Fitbit is my little friend, and it affirmed my activity levels the first day. The day I first wore it was one of my "rest" days and... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 09:39:31 EST Free lifetime at Weight watchers again, this time I keep it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5115330 So my loss last week held up for my meeting on Saturday morning. This morning is day 188 of keeping my food journal and if you are keeping track my commitment is to keep it every day for a full year. Nothing changes today. I plan to keep on going down into the weight watchers healthy weight range for a person my height and age. The people at my meeting gave me two 100 pound loss little round things yesterday, and another charm for reaching goal. And a lot of positive reinforcement. There were... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 07:36:42 EST Day 185 of the food log and I have reached the top of my goal range! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112164 I was struggling to decide where to place my goal range, and at what point I would move myself from "weight loss" mode to "maintenance mode" for tracking my new goal of days, then months, then years in a goal range. On the one hand I know that the weight I am this morning will not be the weight that I maintain. It is, however, a very nice weight. I am healthy, I can run for the first time in my life, my belly is flat (sort of, I have skin, all my skin) I eat to 80% full almost all the time. I... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 08:51:19 EST Day 183, 26 Mondays to go to my new adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109745 Normally I am completely focused on my weight loss and maintenance journey here in this blog, but today my mind is on my work life. I have been teaching nursing to Associate Degree college students for the past 6 years. The University that hired me had a partnership with a community college and I was a part of that program, to seamlessly educate registered nurses for our needy community, starting them as ADN, registered nurses and providing them a path to continue their education to BSN then ... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 10:29:47 EST Day 181, The turtle shell is getting way too big http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5106975 So lately I have noticed that the inches are coming off at an accelerated rate, compared to April - August. For a while on this trip down my scale was showing a very decent pound a week loss, but the measuring tape did not give me much feedback despite being able to wear some of my old clothes. This is a puzzle. I have not changed anything really, my exercise has gotten longer and incrementally harder as my fitness increases, but the total calorie burn has stayed close to the same. (Thank you... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 11:11:14 EST Journal day 176 and why my Spark goals are set where they are http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5100922 This morning my scale shows my usual slight "up" during the mid week. I have to wonder what is up with that. Or maybe it is just because I have more to eat on the weekend usually. <BR> I was thinking of this, because it is so "human" to want to quickly lose the weight. My students have been harassing me because we have outcomes, and goals in the nursing process and they often look similar. So they want to know what is up with that. I don't want to sound like this is "my research" because I a... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 07:39:25 EST 6 months of food sanity. Day 174 of my journal promise to myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5098364 Yesterday was the anniversary of my return to keeping a food journal, and my trip back to good health. I have felt a little lost lately, in the day to day apparent slowness of this journey back to a normal BMI, and a healthy weight. When I began this again I started with Weight Watchers because that was what got me there before. Then somewhere along the road I made a new spark page and began logging here. I need both. I need all the support I can get. <BR> When I began in April of this year,... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 08:51:32 EST 172, and a Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5096513 So there is this wellness coach that comes as a part of a pilot study my insurance is doing, who calls me monthly to see about how my goals are doing. She actually got me to go get a bunch of medical exams that were overdue, but that is another story. She began calling early this year. It is neat the way she reminds me of how far I have gone this year, right about when I have a stall for a week or two. Okay, I am not Completely stalled, my average weight went down about .7 this past two weeks... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 13:18:20 EST Day 171. This is where the road gets bumpy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095427 I can laugh, or I can let it jar my teeth from my head. For some reason my trip back to goal has been uncharacteristically quick until recently. Since the beginning of September my regular pound a week loss has dropped off to something less than that. I go down, then a little up, then down again leaving me close to where I was before. Of course I knew this was going to happen because I am eating the approximate calorie range that will keep me at a normal BMI when I get there. The top of that ... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 15:17:13 EST Day 160, the scale is my friend today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080852 I dropped another pound. Takes me back to where I am averaging a pound a week again with that one. I was surprised, and I don't think it will stick there yet, but it is nice. Today is the day I process the loot from the farmers market, got some neat very long green (purple actually) beans, kale and cabbage greens, okra, some fruit. Nice. Good food helps me stay on track. Sun, 30 Sep 2012 16:51:08 EST Day 159, I am three pounds from 200 pounds less than my highest weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079771 I am getting close to the place where I can Again say that I weigh 200 pounds less than my highest official weigh in. That was a long time ago; 1981 to be exact, and 100 pounds of that has been off for over 30 something years. I feel so close. There was a woman at the weight watchers meeting today who was very upset because they were setting her goal and she felt she would never be able to reach it. I remember that feeling. <BR> I am so grateful that i KNOW I can reach it because I did it be... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 16:51:03 EST Day 158 of my journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078621 Friday is turning out to be my favorite day of the week. I am learning how to not spend the day shopping in my refrigerator when I am not at work or really busy. This is a skill I must develop for the retirement time coming up. Of course I won't stay entirely retired for long, I will find opportunities to do things, but I do plan to spend time in and around my home. So I need to un-attach that to the habit of eating more when home. <BR> Fri, 28 Sep 2012 16:00:35 EST Day 158, Better. Now this is a little easy :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5077304 There is clearly something to be said for 8 hours of sleep. I got them. I feel so much better today than I did yesterday, and my food seems ample and delicious. If I can just remember that the hard days are not constant. When I feel really bad, like yesterday, it is very easy to go from there to thinking this is Impossible. Just too difficult. Not worth the work. After all, I am so much smaller than I was, so much more healthy. <BR> <BR> The thing is, if I stop here, still technically sligh... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 15:32:16 EST Day 157 of food journal, who said this would be Easy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075401 Mumble grumble this is no fun. <BR> I almost could not make it out the door this morning. <BR> I almost gave up before I was done <BR> Almost doesn't count. <BR> So here I still am, today's journal is nearly done, my lunch is packed, breakfast is cooking, dinner is thawed. I think I will make it through today somehow. <BR> I sure don't feel like it. Wed, 26 Sep 2012 08:08:53 EST Day 156 and an atypical response to stress on day 155 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5074413 So I have kept my journal for 156 days now, since it is done for today. Day 155 was a Monday like many other Mondays, full of aggravation and stress. Working hard to do something and getting barriers at every turn. Started out with a real difficult morning exercise wise, my body did not want to go. Got a major win when I not only went, I pushed myself hard and burned over 400 calories. That win behind me, off to the office, where I found several other challenges. Gave an exam, and then had to... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 12:44:34 EST Day 154 of food journal, and on program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5071370 Well I feel like I have been run over by a truck or something today, just super tired. So I took a walk with my dogs, but did not jog at all.. Danced a little but no jogging, no running, no. <BR> I plan to eat well today and rest. <BR> Sun, 23 Sep 2012 11:09:56 EST Day 153 of my Outrageous life (see BETHEFLAME) for details :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5069984 So here I am getting ready to mow the yard then my Saturday renewal starts. I get to go to my weight watchers meeting and I should show a nice loss there, then I get to go to a women's spiritual support group, then we all go out to lunch. Whee. I got my entire house very clean yesterday so Sunday can be a real day of rest. I am loving taking Fridays off. Who knew I could live without going to work that day? Yay flexible professor schedule. <BR> "be" wrote a blog last night about "outrageous"... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 06:54:10 EST Day 152 of the trip back to "normal" - Support is critical http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068876 I have been looking at places where I had pictures taken, and old records that I have here and there of my trials with this life long struggle. It reminds me in a way of how we teach our nursing students that people need to be lifelong learners. I could look over my records and come to the determination that I am a failure, because after gaining the belief from a really fine weight watchers leader, that I Could in fact achieve a "normal" BMi, and attaining that in late 2003, I had a period of... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 09:16:00 EST 151 - We have a beautiful morning - 5 pounds from now = free W.W. meetings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067438 So today when I hit the road with the dogs I noticed immediately that the air was not "thick" and warm. We had a little North breeze that brought the temperature down near 70 at 5 A.M. here at my house. So I sang and danced while I walked and ran. <BR> I used to think I would never be able to run. After all, my right knee is pretty messed up from being kicked by a horse some 50 years ago, and from weighing over 300 pounds for about 10 years of my life. Maybe even from weighing over 200 pound... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 08:06:57 EST 150, that is a milestone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5065941 I like that number. I am so used to journaling my food now that it seems almost natural. I don't have much to say today, other than I am grateful for my 150 days and Boy am I grateful for Spark people. Wed, 19 Sep 2012 08:17:02 EST Day 149 - 32 Mondays until I change my career http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5064509 I was calling it retirement because I intend to begin collecting retirement investments (I am Sorry I put that money IN to the social security, it is NOT an entitlement). Ok, off my political soap box, Anyway I was going to "retire" in August of 2013 and I don't have to go to my office after May 2013. I am absolutely counting the days <BR> That said, I feel that I am embarking on a new life. This morning during my walk/run, I was on a walk cycle and looked up at the starry sky. It is very hum... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 08:24:55 EST Day 148, I am inspired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5062616 So I read PIXIE-Licious' blog this morning, maybe yesterday she reached 200 days. She reminded me of what it is like to experience that other life, the distant one where I cannot reach my feet. She reminded me how much better it feels to be fit. <BR> This morning I am going to do yoga. Tomorrow will be a running day. My food is planned and in my journal. I can reach my toenails! And in bed, my body feels comfortable. No real aches and pains, no problems with getting numb from the pressure of... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 06:15:52 EST Day 147, I am a falling leaf. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061725 I had this thought this morning, because I have been drifting sideways for a few weeks on the scale, just sort of like a leaf in the wind. I knew that I was doing what I do, and eating what I eat, and it will not support more than a normal body weight. So it was apparent that the leaf would again begin to fall. And I no longer know exactly where it will rest when it stops falling. Since I am keeping records (for fun and motivation) I can see that what I eat and what I do is creating weight lo... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 15:06:40 EST