LESLEYANNE11's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LESLEYANNE11 LESLEYANNE11's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My beloved Grandma Pearl died May 6 2013.Rest in peace darling. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347734 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l44853474.jpg">This is my beloved Grandma Pearl.She is the mother of my best friend Gail Murray.She died yesterday May 6 2013. <BR> She is pictured here with her great grand daughter Emily Brown. <BR> She will be terribly missed,a true Angel walking among us.A beloved mother,devoted grandmother and just all around beautiful human being. <em>500</em> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1066166450.jpg">Here is Grandma P... Mon, 6 May 2013 18:46:35 EST One hundred days on Sparkpeople. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318877 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l230773593.jpg"> <BR> Today I reached the milestone of 100 days here at Sparkpeople.This is an accomplishment I never believed would come 100 days ago while I was white knuckling my way from breakfast to Lunch and then the painfully long gap between lunch and dinner. <BR> My cravings at times seemed painful but with the love and encouragement I have received from the wonderful fokes here I have made it to this Anniversary. <BR> <em>304</e... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 20:42:53 EST My life is changing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291563 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l970633142.jpg">My life has been so focused on weightloss and getting healthier for as long as I can remember,but lately I realised that this journey has been eclipsed by my new journey with Christ. <BR> My focus is now reading my bible,learning the word of God,and trying to be a better person to my family,friends,and others with prayer. <BR> My life is now calmer and I am more at ease with myself.I am the proud daughter of the Heavenly Fathe... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 20:02:09 EST 5 weeks in and 7 kilos less. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240708 4th january 2013 -7th february 2013 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1168998061.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1378280995.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1623320088.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/5/l454491855.jpg"> <BR> I can see some changes already. <em>244</em> <em>243</em> <em>345</em> Wed, 6 Feb 2013 20:23:22 EST wow what a difference a few days make. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236020 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l841809596.jpg">Over the last few days I have felt like crap. <BR> My legs feel like lead and it was a struggle to walk.I thought what the heck?. <em>40</em> Then I listened to sparkradio and learned I am over exercising. <BR> I do feel tired in the morning but force myself to workout anyway. <em>198</em> <BR> I'm not going to exercise for a few days to allow my body to recover.I don't want to go backwards. <BR> I'll listen to some cool ... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 17:40:41 EST A very successful first month. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227488 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1184458284.jpg"> <em>515</em> Its been a long time since i've had such a big smile on my face. <BR> But i've now completed my first month on sparkpeople and my new life plan.I can report a 4.3 kilo loss. <BR> Its been tough at times but with the continued support of my lovely family and sparkfriends i'm still going strong. <BR> Roll on February. <em>104</em> Mon, 28 Jan 2013 16:49:42 EST My best friend Gail. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222007 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1179025069.jpg"> Today I feel like writing about my dearest friend Gail Murray. <BR> I met Gail when I was only 11. I was a HORRENDOUS child.Repeat HORRENDOUS child. <BR> Left to my own devices I would most certainly have ended up pregnant by 15,as I saw nothing wrong with sex. <BR> I would have had an abortion,as I saw nothing wrong with having one. <BR> I was such an angry,out of control thug I would most certainly have been a bully.(... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 18:09:38 EST wow 2.7 kilos lost this week.i feel amazing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207043 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l504856268.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Last week I had only lost 400 gs. But I knew I was eatting the right food,doing the right exercise;so I kept the faith and this week I lost 2.7 kilos. <em>355</em> <BR> <BR> I will work hard to avoid the customary feeling of let down I get when reaching a goal. Instead just bask in this moment. <em>236</em> Mon, 14 Jan 2013 16:22:29 EST success can deflate me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205411 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l524300235.jpg"> <BR> <BR> i've noticed a strange pattern with my weightloss. <BR> <BR> i feel optimistic,excited,impatient to lose weight or reach a goal. <BR> but as soon as i have theres a feeling of let down. <BR> <BR> This morning i lost another 400 grams. as soon as the moment of yeah me i rock! passed ,there was a feeling of deflation,of sadness almost. now i love how well i'm doing so far this year;but the feeling of having to s... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 18:02:34 EST old diary. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201239 i found a 2004 diary today. <BR> <BR> it was soo sad to read myself planning menus ,exercise and trying to stay motivated way back then. <BR> <BR> 8 yrs later i'm still doing this. GOD why have i not moved on. <BR> <BR> i could see my usual pattern of excitement at starting over,joy at my success,pride with my new measurements,beginning to eat more at every meal,self doubt.i would stop writing my menus,stop exercising,stop dreaming. <BR> <BR> then a re-commitment to the faith,joy at my s... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:46:31 EST 8.4 blood sugar result. yah me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201207 for the first time in months i have gotten a number under 9 for my blood sugars. <BR> <BR> normally its in the 12s or 13s. outstanding result. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> this is a sign i'm eatting correctly and exercising well. this is great incentive to continue <BR> <BR> my plan.yeah baby!. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1219141931.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:28:25 EST i'm sorry lesleyanne jr. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199074 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l35192546.jpg"> <BR> <BR> at the age of four years old i had big dreams,the sky was the limit. <BR> i couldn't have known how my life would turn out. little would this sweet faced child know but at 45 she would be looking after her sick mother weighing more than 145 kgs. <BR> with mild agoraphobia and occasional panic attacks. <BR> <BR> where did it all go wrong for her. when did i stop dreaming,stop wanting,stop asking?. <BR> i honestly d... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 16:02:55 EST what a difference a day makes!. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197164 wow what a difference a day makes. <BR> <BR> yesterday i felt like crap. <BR> <BR> i had cravings around 4pm,and generally sad and listless all day. <BR> <BR> but this morning i have lost 400 grams;i walked 3 miles and i'm feeling much more optimistic about things. <BR> <BR> i feel perky and smiley. <em>30</em> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l393215698.jpg"> me and my sister karen at huka jet rotorua.fun memory. Tue, 8 Jan 2013 15:03:19 EST I'm a quitter. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195536 today i weighed myself and i didn't lose as much as i thought i would; <BR> <BR> and i measured myself and i didn't lose as many centimeters as i thought i would. <BR> <BR> very negative thoughts came pouring in. <BR> <BR> "your a quitter". <BR> "you always fail". <BR> "when have you achieved anything". <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l844767548.jpg"> <BR> <BR> my normal response is to quit and binge. but this time i think i have reached rock bottom as <BR>... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 18:30:26 EST IN NEED OF SOME TIMOTHY. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193652 Boy what a miserable blah day i'm having. <BR> <BR> I can't seem to motivate myself. <BR> <BR> I'm going well but feeling yuk. <BR> <BR> come on lesleyanne pull yourself together. <BR> <BR> What i need is a timothy olyphant fix. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1975910023.jpg"> Sun, 6 Jan 2013 19:07:44 EST WOWWWW MASSIVE CRAVINGS TODAY. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191965 Today I experienced a severe craving before lunch. <BR> <BR> Around 10.30am. I took an L-glutimine capsule and my cravings decreased very quickly. <BR> <BR> This always happens to me at this time of my diet. The first week is HELL. <BR> <BR> I called out to god and he answered me. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l121726558.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Sat, 5 Jan 2013 18:02:01 EST I believe I can do it this time because this time I'm not alone. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186883 <em>390</em> I have always failed in the past to lose and keep off weight. <BR> <BR> This time I'm not alone. <BR> <BR> I reached out to god,jesus and the holy spirit,and invited them in, to open a door into my life and guide and support me. <BR> <BR> An awesome guy is J.John. He gave a brilliant prayer once.I try to say this every day <BR> <BR> Oh holy child of Bethlehem, <BR> de... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 20:03:53 EST