LENLEN3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LENLEN3 LENLEN3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 44-50: all aboard the Konmari train http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6142691 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cc42bbd6-b345-4521-8399-b9f04aff6b60.jpg"> Life has been crazy busy- we just bought a house (ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!) and, on a whim, I started reading Marie Kondo's "the life changing magic of tidying up". I've talked before about how much better I feel when things are clean and organized- how a messy room reflects a messy state of mind. This book really struck a cord with me. I don't think it's for everyone, but it's what I personally needed to read... Fri, 15 Apr 2016 07:01:03 EST 43. Baby steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6117649 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6a061fe6-15d6-435c-bdb5-69b02a4b5c70.jpg"> I've been logging in during the morning, but finally tracked my meals today. Falling off the bandwagon is excruciating right?? I've done a pretty good job of at least of continuing yoga. That's the one area that hasn't dropped off from trying to form Healthy habits. I go every Saturday and Sunday ( sometimes more). My yoga pose goal for this year is crow pose ( bakasana). Today was my first major pro... Sat, 12 Mar 2016 17:36:32 EST 42. We're still fighting it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6113997 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9c0b2e47-a921-4799-80f7-301ce30139e4.jpg"> So, I'm back !! two trips, some neck and back pain and one illness later.... Here's Lena! Things I have learned - I really need to track my eating ( especially when going out). I make mostly good choices; but occasionally I make bad ones ( as does everyone). When I'm tracking ; those bad choices aren't as bad or as frequent. Once I stop though ,my brain suddenly hits "you've been working so hard....i... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 06:03:35 EST 41. Bad choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6093270 So I was feeling bad.... Really just Awful yesterday. Verge of tears most of the day. Decide to go out with some coworkers for dinner -- and watch some people skii jump off the massive hill by our office . Many mistakes involving copious amounts of pizza were made. Delicious pizza. And some wings! But, I know it was bad- not because I weighed myself ( definitely NOT doing that ) but because my stomach hurts this morning. It's literally making noises at me that I can only assume mean " I'v... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 06:00:21 EST 39/40. Return of the stat check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6092456 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0112612e-84b2-4561-b919-4d48b520d85f.jpg"> Weight: 183 (-13) Resting BPM: 66 (Fitbit) Avg. Sleep weekly: 6hrs 32 min (Fitbit) BMI: 28.66 (Overweight) Watching : Heroic legend of prince Arslan tv Playing: Steins: Gate & DDR MAX 2 still Theme song for the week: "capable of anything" Ben Folds Doing right now: contemplating getting ready for work, but might crawl back into bed a few more minutes....:) enjoy my sweet rolled out of bed style...? ... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 06:32:03 EST 38. More snow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6090505 Augh it's too late to write anything. I'm already behind though, so I figured batter something then nothing? I guess???? There isn't much to talk about though. It's snowing. Again. I marched in place to get my 10k steps? I did my 75 minutes of ashtanga and tried tracking it on my Fitbit, but I think unjust messed up :) I made another nom nom paleo recipe ? over all it was a quiet day. Sun, 7 Feb 2016 23:33:39 EST 37. Worried about hibachi dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6089452 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5b893114-1985-490f-a5e3-5e32fcd88193.jpg"> I liked this quote- something to reflect on :) I had my lovely Saturday morning vinyasa class. Lots of great shoulder and hip openers ( much appreciated by me). It's not so cold today so I followed my fellow sparkers advice and walked outside with Abby (since the gym in our building is closed)...who is now a filthy mess-but I got all my steps in!!!! Tonight we're going for hibachi, and I'm not quite... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 17:33:06 EST 36.tough day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088934 I meant to put roughy but it was tough. Both are apropo . The gym in our building is closed for 2 weeks, so exercise will become a challenge. I'm also feeling bleh lately so keeping myself motivated will be key. Just gotta keep trying my best! Fri, 5 Feb 2016 22:51:09 EST 35. Such exhaustion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087206 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e78b7137-0505-415f-8bdb-526985a01f0f.jpg"> Work was tooooo much today . I just want to sleep . Trying to motivate self to the gym to get my 10k steps....might not happen though. So sleepy though I'm dying to just lay in bed :( ZzzzzzzZzzZZzzzzzz Wed, 3 Feb 2016 22:16:43 EST 34. The heroic legend of prince arslan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6085415 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d5cb4c4f-5c93-4ade-8f15-a0ef4316ca3b.jpg"> So , growing up the heroic legend of prince arslan was one of my favorite anime. The character designs were yoshiitaka amano's work, the story a Japanese novelist's adaptation of the Persian story Amir arsalan. The series involved a movie and a bunch of direct to video releases of varying quality back in the 90's that was never finished. So imagine my surprise that they made a manga adaptation recentl... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 23:54:57 EST 33. It's yoga time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084207 Today i did ashtanga practice from 8:45 - 10:00am, with a quick walking break, and then an arm balance and transition workshop from10:30-12:45. So much yoga! My unicorn pose for this year is crow! I will get those stupid knees backpacked onto my stupid triceps! It's gonna happen!!! Slowly but surely..... Otherwise it was a quiet day, lunch was leftover salsa chicken from earlier in the week, made a Costco run, and I have a pork roast from spark recipes cooking in the slow cooker for dinner( ... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 19:37:57 EST 32. Of managing workload http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6082903 I've been letting myself fall into the work trap lately. Bringing my work home, working late into the night on it, getting up early , working more. Occasionally I'll work through the night on the power of naps and coffee . It is exhausting when it happens and it's not good for me. The problem is that I love to do a good job. That's a pretty mild way of looking at it I guess. It's not a steady thing though, but an ebb and flow. I'll have periods of really high-output followed by exhaustion... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 08:08:52 EST 31. It fits! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6081324 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ae05cc82-5a8b-4723-8cf6-654afe6f5daa.jpg"> One of my favorite dresses fits again ! Yay! :) Thu, 28 Jan 2016 09:16:22 EST 30. Revenge of the stat checkin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6080871 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6b860a76-70c9-4e82-9a44-c89078c7de5b.jpg"> Weight: 186 (-10) Resting BPM: 70 Fitbit) Avg. Sleep weekly: 6hrs 4 min (Fitbit) BMI: 29.13 (Overweight) Watching : Yona of the Dawn Playing: Steins: Gate & DDR MAX 2 still Theme song for the week: "such great heights" the postal service Doing right now: catching up! Wed, 27 Jan 2016 18:43:24 EST 29. Blog Post round 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6079164 So today I'm posting at 8:00 pm , before I go to the gym, instead of after. Basically; so I don't fall asleep mid post like I have for the past like 10 or so I've written. <BR> <BR> That said, there still isn't much to talk about haha. I think wore through my convo topics earlier. I was pretty productive today, got my email count down to 0 unread emails (it was at over 10k for awhile there). Did some laundry, cleaning the apart now and taking care of business. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow will be my ... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 21:25:08 EST 28. Sneaking a post in at work ;) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6078542 Fell asleep before I could post last night so sneaking it. In right now -Oops! I've been doing the zen spark people challenge and today's challenge is to fit in more standing instead of sitting. I have a standing desk ; so today's challenge is in the bag! I noticed that when I view my posts on my phone they look like they're spaced normally; but in the webbrowser it looks like a giant block of unformatted text! Whoops! Sorry to any who read this blog that way!!!! Lots of great stuff happe... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 08:45:53 EST 27. Still battling energy issues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6077439 i've been sleeping since 7:30. why am i so tired? Is this a nutritional thing???? I'm really not sure.... <BR> <BR> I had a good day though- Vinyasa Yoga in the morning, spoke at my old grad school program to a new crop of baby librarians , and was really productive till i hit a wall interns of energy. This is the first day in 27 consecutive days that I will not make my 10k step goal. <BR> <BR> I'm just too tired. :( <BR> <BR> guess I'll need to do 14k tomorrow to maintain my average ... Sat, 23 Jan 2016 22:56:22 EST 26. Sooooooooo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6076710 So tired. In bed . Nothing to say except : <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/fdf9fb62-7863-48d6-8393-87f97184a677.jpg"> Fri, 22 Jan 2016 23:59:14 EST 25. A quarter way through http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6075916 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7dea7c21-b12e-437b-adba-07c914b0cb29.jpg"> 25 days. By posting this entry I'm officially one step further along the path than I was the last time I tried to get on track. Each day from here on in , is movement forward. Each day logged, each 10k steps reached, each wheel spun.... All these things move forward on the path I want to walk. When I tell the story in my head this will be the time when everything fits into place , really. I'm very goo... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 23:51:28 EST 24. Where I last quit & Kimchi Chamchi Jigae http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6075042 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0467562a-fbd6-4f37-9c07-b2b637837929.jpg"> Blog post 24, is where I gave up last time. But I'm still here. 100 days , 100 posts- please believe! Todsy i tried making Kimchi Chamchi Jigae from spark recipes . I took a picture above. https://recipes.sparkpeople.com/re<BR>cipe-detail.asp?recipe=204001 It came out super spicy . There also seemed to be a lot more than 2 servings. I guess whoever wrote it like me big portions. If I make it again ,... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 00:24:56 EST 23. Stilllll tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6074125 But I went to the gym ! Wooooo! Annnnnd end scene :) Tue, 19 Jan 2016 23:21:38 EST 22. Been sleepy (-_-) zzZZzz http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6073386 I was completely exhausted yesterday. I got home from work and slept, and then I woke up, went to the gym, changed , and slept again. That's like 4 or 5 extra hours of sleep. I'm not quite sure why I as so tired. Must be this relentlessly miserable weather we're having. You crank the heat up and still want to stay snuggled under covers. I ate more than planned as well , all the way up to my higher range of 1500 ( been trying to stay right around 1250 ) I was proud though because I could f... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 07:05:39 EST 21. Ate out tonight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6072196 Was trying to make good choices , but the restaurant ( which was incredible)didn't leave many choices. Dinner tracked over 1000 calories really glad I did both cardio and ashtanga today. Not feeling bad about it though- dinner was lovely and the company grand :) just have to be careful this week if I want to continue to losing trend ... Eating out is hard -at least I'm thinking about the things I order now! Sun, 17 Jan 2016 22:10:04 EST 20. Stat check-in strikes back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6071247 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e3239387-0fb4-4e02-915a-9fa1c2161931.jpg"> Weight: 188 (-8) Resting BPM: 68 (Fitbit) Avg. Sleep weekly: 6hrs 21min (Fitbit) BMI: 29.44 (Overweight) Watching : Galavant Playing: Steins: Gate (bought the visual novel) & DDR MAX 2 Theme song for the week: "Under Pressure" Queen x David Bowie Doing right now:to do list writing/ meal planning! Any good recipe recommendations ? Sat, 16 Jan 2016 18:50:01 EST 19. Seen at target http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6070637 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ec3ae558-53b3-4e04-aee2-41d75d2140d7.jpg"> As I passed by , Darth started his heavy breathing and said "Join me, and together we can rule the galaxy" Fri, 15 Jan 2016 23:52:12 EST 18. Trying New Recipes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6069691 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/1e2e21b5-c7c0-411b-b7a6-56f5143ec02a.jpg"> Tried another of nom nom paleo recipes. They are so so yummy. Protein has always been hard for me, so I've been challenging myself to hit that metric ( carbs and fats on the other hand lol) So , per DarkOranges comment on my last post; I've combine two pictures into one with picture collage! Haha! Top is what it looked like pre cooking and bottom is post after eating some of it. It was really good, ... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 21:05:53 EST 17. Your dance is great http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6068851 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cf66d92e-d211-44f4-90f0-4a58657326cb.jpg"> It's like sunshine on a cloudy day. Man I used to love DDR. Once upon a time, when I was 50 lbs lighter and 10 years younger I used to play it all the time. So why am I talking about DDR today? The gym in our building is closed today and I still had 4,000 steps to do - so I pulled out the PS2 and my old mat to give it the old college try. Switch up my cardio and all that ...Everything still worked.... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 21:34:42 EST 16. What I ate today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6068100 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2d81dafe-9859-46c1-939c-b86b32be1ea9.jpg"> I took pictures of all my meals today because it amused me, and i thought "that's a pretty easy blog entry". Alas I can't figure how to add more than 1 picture on the mobile site, so enjoy my glorious breakfast- egg whites made in the microwave with a sprinkling of cheese and siriacha sauce on my "fake" bread . It's pretty delicious imho. I do this or oatmeal basically every morning . So exciting ? ... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 23:56:52 EST 15. Under Pressure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6067269 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c58270ca-6dd7-4255-a66c-14e1160f932b.jpg"> RIP David Bowie :( I liked this picture of him, it was either this or "you remind me of the babe " labyrinth style. I need to stop posting at night.... It's hard to think of anything to say.... Oh well ! Maybe I'll try morning posts ? Tue, 12 Jan 2016 00:15:33 EST 14. Something to post? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066269 Well real talk; I've got nothing . It's been a pretty chill day. Ashtanga, meal planning, groceries, slow cooked some chicken tortilla soup ( still making that spark recipe), did some cleaning and laundry, went to the gym and ran for a bit, and finally followed the evening with some tv watching. Woo. Day complete! Sun, 10 Jan 2016 23:25:06 EST 13. Ramen is delicious http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6065384 Today I basically fasted so I could go out to dinner. It's a little nuts, but I had no idea how many calorie ramen has. Stuff happened . Great day. Too tired to blog, but yeah.... Zzzzxxxx Sun, 10 Jan 2016 00:39:05 EST 12. Fell asleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6064452 Augh! Fell asleep after work!!! Just woke up. Running to the gym now to get my steps in!!! This is not a drill! Fri, 8 Jan 2016 23:14:14 EST 11. Sleepy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6063624 Today has been exhausting. I'm excited for friday to be over and looking forward to sleeping in this weekend. My avg sleep is still in 6 hour range ... So I could use a little extra I've been watching a couple eps of steins; gate every day at the gym while I work out. Today I hit the midpoint of the series and everything went to hell!!!!! I want to see what happens now; but I have to wait till tomorrow's gym time!:( I made tacos for dinner tonight and instead of having a shell loaded with... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 23:27:06 EST 10. Stat check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062565 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/45c2107a-4c26-4f34-b7fb-446b87a0d3c5.jpg"> Weight: 192 (-4) Resting BPM: 72 (Fitbit) Avg. Sleep weekly: 6hrs 36 min (Fitbit) BMI: 30.07 (obese) Watching : stein: gate Playing: radiant historia Theme song for the week: " I wanna get better" bleachers Doing right now: procrastinating . Time to go to the gym Wed, 6 Jan 2016 21:47:35 EST 9. Nerd nerd nerd http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061639 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cd4fe983-5b9f-4414-b11f-66e035bc6005.jpg"> Today was another lousy day. So rather than reflect on that I will talk about my nerd hobbies . I like anime, and gaming so I just started a series called steins;gate(based on a visual novel) the other day. I've been watching episodes while I do my cardio. It's got an interesting time travel premise, that starts slow but is super engaging. I just want to understand what's going on?!?!? When I start... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 23:00:55 EST 8. Pooey to Fitbit aria http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6060634 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3535be88-558d-496c-b78b-dc95cfa16b7e.jpg"> Today was a rotten day. I went in for my annual dentist apt and found out my tooth was cracked on both sides! Nothing like a surprise crown to start your day off right:( So, after work I decided to use my Christmas kohl's gift card to buy a Fitbit aria scale. I've had great experiences with other Fitbit products and have been wanting one, i didn't need any clothes- so yay scale. The dumb thing refuse... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 23:34:40 EST 7. Attend the tale of Galavant! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6059259 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ba182e73-cf39-4269-9b3a-c19b16881b87.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Day 7 ! Today was pretty relaxing. Started off with Ashtanga Primary Series over at my yoga class, did some meal planning, grocery shopping. Threw nomnompaleo's lemongrass and coconut chicken drumsticks in the slow cooker. the chicken cooked well, but did't have a lot of flavor. <BR> <BR> I napped (a lot). <BR> <BR> Caught up on my work email, played some Radiant historia, checked in with ... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 19:56:17 EST 6. Kept going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6058460 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/dadd4741-a03c-4c7d-b941-786c0c6ba817.jpg"> My dog Abby makes the most pathetic faces when she wants my attention. Hi Abby! This morning I was going to go back to bed instead of yoga. I went through tried and tested excuses like " I'm tired" and " I did yoga yesterday". I thought about gratitude. I actually thought " I'm grateful I can wake up and choose to go to yoga". So i did. And it was great. And I even went to the gym on top of yoga... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 22:46:42 EST 5. Gratitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6057566 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/89454f28-4d5b-4636-b954-fd9ee2df40f6.jpg"> Source Artist: Books of Adam by Adam Ellis Who slept through New Years? I totally did !but I did get up for a special yoga class. I love yoga. I'm grateful for every class. I feel reinvigorated afterwards. I usually go Saturday's and Sunday's with a teacher I feel very comfortable with. She suggested a class today that had live music. Before class started I felt intimidated; I was surrounded by cut... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 00:10:04 EST 4. New Year Resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6056291 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4aeaeff8-9d78-4346-bd1c-81876785d655.jpg"> My "har har har" for the day. I hate new year resolutions ; i stink at them. I already feel guilty about things everyday, do I really need a list hanging over my head of extra things. No! I'm too much of a failed perfectionist for something like that...I reject the premise entirely! I'll keep trying my hardest not for any stupid temporary resolution; but because I want to change my life. So pooey on... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 18:25:19 EST 3. Typing this on a bike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6055637 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e913bdd7-c9fa-4926-aa02-b502274520b4.jpg"> Today was busy, busy, busy! I had a rotary meeting this morning , then right to work! I got back 10 to 7, put dinner in the oven And am now warming up alight pedaling on a bike and typing this. Multitasking! I love rotary. My club in Minneapolis is the best. :) I co- chair our community service committee and we do a lot of work with food insecurity in the community, literacy, and assisting the elder... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 20:56:59 EST 2. Starting Stats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6054525 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/04c9a5ca-4152-42d9-8caa-26e346e164b4.jpg"> Well. This is me. Don't have much to say today so posting some Starting day 1; week 1 stats. Height: 5'7 Weight: 196 Resting BPM: 74 (Fitbit) Avg. Sleep weekly: 6hrs 11min (Fitbit) BMI: 30.7 (obese) Day 1 food: 1,536 calories ( Target range: 1,220-1,570) Day 1 exercise: dragged myself to the gym at 8:50 at night; but did 8 minutes progressive warmups, 22 minutes of light cardio, and some of the as... Tue, 29 Dec 2015 08:55:07 EST 1. Thinking it through http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6053780 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4781344a-4a50-4846-b5d2-056bb6beb783.jpg"> My last blog went to a dark place. I thought about deleting it, but I think it'll stay as a reminder. An observation- it takes at minimum 60 days to form a habit. For some people more. Often when I'm working at it. With spark people, it's in fits and spurts. 2 weeks here, a month there. Just enough time that I feel like I've been working hard, but not enough for any major change to take hold. When ... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 06:28:01 EST I don't know what else to do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6048238 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b13a5bd8-9356-41fc-908e-38a3e6c61f89.jpg"> I keep failing. I keep getting nowhere. I'm Hopeless at taking care of myself. Nothing works- I just feel exhausted by everything and guilty. Every time I see this app, it reminds me that I was able to use it to lose 30 lbs, only to gain them back. I haven't been able to find a good mix between my energy level , full time work, and weight loss. I get home and I don't want to do anything. I want to craw... Wed, 16 Dec 2015 05:50:31 EST Woah the app changed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978280 Now I know how to make a post I guess?Too much traveling lately , so much to do! I'm doing my best to take care of myself though. Haven't tracked these last few days but getting back on the wagon. I signed up for the 90 day challenge at lifetime fitness. Let's beeeee accountable! Sat, 15 Aug 2015 08:53:40 EST 24 failure and cake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969425 so remember that cake i wanted to dive into ?? <BR> <BR> it was bought for me, as it's my birthday in two days. It wasn't my fault <BR> <BR> so i ate it <BR> and it was incredible! <BR> <BR> and then i went to happy hour where i didn't eat but i had 3 bootlegs (lemonade and vodka with mint( <BR> <BR> and so today was a no good very bad extra terrible diet day and i'm too buzzed to exercise. Gonna read and pass out <BR> <BR> so. let's try again tomorrow :) Thu, 30 Jul 2015 21:58:55 EST 23 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968900 I have absolutely nothing to share guys. Honestly, I'm writing this blog because I'm still in that habit formation phase and I'm worried if i don't write it I'll end up back down the slippery slope of not tracking, face first into a cheesecake. <BR> <BR> I've been having hardcore sugar cravings lately. I've been eating fruit ,but what I really want is to eat all the bad things. I let myself have a cookie the other day, and all it did was make me crave it harder. <BR> <BR> Now I haven't int... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 22:32:46 EST 22 days of something - Run! Zombies App thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967819 So Run! Zombies 5k and Run! Zombies are two different stories. This made me sad because I thought run! zombies 5k was season 1 of the run!zombies app, but it really is an entirely different thing. The only thing they share is the same beginning...So I guess I'll never know what happened to runner 5 after she drops that package off for Sam. nooooooo ;( <BR> <BR> or maybe it'll be revisited in the full app? you never know <BR> <BR> At any rate, there is A LOT more to do on the full app. You p... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 07:33:17 EST 20/21 missed a blog :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967253 I'm trying to decide if I should restart my count. <BR> <BR> On one hand, I did exercise, track, and log in yesterday. ( I went to yoga after all) <BR> <BR> on the other hand, I didn't blog... But to restart seems like a punishment, and this whole thing was meant to be motivational.it's good to be a little strict, but....maybe I should be a little easier on myself sometimes. <BR> <BR> Ah what the hell. I'm gonna let it slide and say it counts. After all I *did* track my food. Which, btw- W... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 07:31:29 EST 19! 19! 19! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966659 Getting close to a full month! Soooooo close. <BR> <BR> nothing much to talk about tonight. Today was good though: went to yoga, did my 5k, then sauna, shower, a nice long walk, wine on a patio, and then capped off the evening with the aquatennial fireworks :) Sat, 25 Jul 2015 23:47:46 EST