LEIGHWOMAN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LEIGHWOMAN LEIGHWOMAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Still here, just doin' my thing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769322 I'm here. It may seem like I'm MIA because I don't comment much and I like never blog, but I'm here. I only check in during school days cause I am just not at a computer at home. Even my tablet and my phone...not on them much. I'm tracking 5 days a week while I'm here but I don't always track dinner. <BR> <BR> It's time to get real about my goals. My goal this year has been to just love myself. I don't have an overall goal to lose weight but it's always in the back of my mind. It has been in... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 10:49:02 EST Just a quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760181 Well, we are a week into school. 3 student days. So far it's going well. <BR> <BR> I'm liking being back to a routine. It's helping a lot. The past two days I've been totally exhausted when I get home. But I cook anyway. Then I don't know if I'm too tired or just genuinely not hungry, but I eat a few bites and I'm done. And I'm okay with that. My stomach is shrinking. I'm listening to my hunger cues. It helps that food hasn't been that appetizing to me at that time of the evening. Helps in t... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 09:56:56 EST FINALLY got my tablet back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756769 That will make my life so much easier. It came back the first time and worked for 2 days and then the same problem kept happening. It would lose charge very quickly and it wouldn't recharge past 60%. So I sent it in again. I got it back on Thursday and so far things are peachy keen. I hope it's fixed for realsies because using only my phone is a pain in the butt! <BR> <BR> So. Food. It's been okay. I haven't really been tracking consistently. It's been pretty hard with only my work computer ... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 09:00:28 EST I am HERE. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754957 Well. Back at school. Came into a room that was pretty much ransacked. Janitors and electricians didn't have much respect for my room while they were working in it this summer. Everything was just ripped out of the wall and put wherever. Cords in knots. Everything just...everywhere. It was really irritating. Then we had a 3.5 hour meeting yesterday so I had to see that and NOT be able to do anything about it! It was torture. Then after the meeting we had a few minutes before going out to lunc... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 09:11:21 EST updating from my phone so we will see how this goes. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743544 Reason 342,399,478 I hate having to use my pho e to type: just lost a whole entry! <BR> <BR> My tablet has been on the fritz. I sent it in and should get it back later this week. Thank goodness. That's one more piece to the puzzle of my success. Sp is so much easier on my tablet. <BR> <BR> Things are...not great. I am at the point where I am craving the structure of the school year so I can JUST STOP EATING. I am tired because I cant go to the gym every day. I eat to stay awake or to be no... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 15:37:50 EST The plague has hit! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719071 Since coming back from Wisconsin it's gotten steadily worse. Started with a sore throat. Eventually a little tickle in the back of my throat gradually turned into a nasty dry cough. Then my ears started popping randomly which eventually turned into fully fledged sinus congestion. Last night I had some wicked spots on my throat and I finally conceded and went to the doc. <BR> <BR> Good news: it's not strep! <BR> <BR> Bad news: it's viral, so it just has to run it's course. <BR> <BR> It's n... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 11:46:42 EST New keyboard! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717063 So when we decluttered my MIL from her room, we put everything in our sunroom. Yesterday my husband bought some tables to go into the sunroom as gaming tables or whatever, so we needed to start cleaning out that room and going through her stuff. In the process we found this bluetooth keyboard that she got when she got the first generation iPad. She has since forgotten that she got it and also has complained that it's too hard for her to remember how to use (or even TO use it) so I am inheriti... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 08:54:33 EST Ch-ch-changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714306 With the end of school, the beginning of summer, everything changes. Schedules change. Priorities change. Life changes. <BR> <BR> It feels like forever ago that we got home from Wisconsin. It's amazing how different it feels coming home on a Friday. When we got home it's like there was a bug in our house that just hit everyone. Johnny slept all day on Saturday. Like ALL day. I woke up with a sore throat on Saturday and it continued and has now morphed into a nasty dry cough. Milo has had a c... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 15:11:07 EST Back from Wisconsin! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712337 Summer is underway! <BR> <BR> School ended (with students) on May 23rd. Then we had Memorial Day off, and we had 2 work days we had meetings and for cleaning our rooms. I was done by 9:30am on Wednesday. So school has been out since then. That week was then full of appointments (hair, mani/pedi for 195 goal), hair for MIL, bootcamp) and then Sunday morning we headed out to Wisconsin. <BR> <BR> It's usually about a 6.5 hour drive if I drive, 7+ if hubby drives. With 2 kids it's become almost... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 20:27:41 EST The belt. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696250 So. When I had my surgery, I got this belt. It's awesome-tastic. It is a rainbow studded belt with a Kermit belt buckle. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1122625967.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It's a "size 32" belt, which is to say it's 32" to the smallest hole and 41" to the largest. When I first got my band off and put it around me, there was about an 8 inch gap between the buckle and where it needed to be to buckle. This morning, I buckled it. <BR> <BR> This picture loo... Fri, 16 May 2014 09:09:09 EST Fitbit frustration! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5695590 Okay okay okay, I know it's not really the fitbit I should be frustrated at, it's myself for not heeding the warning of the low battery. BUT STILL! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I got the low battery warning for my fitbit but didn't have my charger at work. It was a no-gym day so I ended up with my 10k steps a little after 4pm, as we were getting ready to go to dinner with an old friend of mine. I forgot to plug it in. Then before bed, I thought about it, but since I use it as an alarm clock I didn't ... Thu, 15 May 2014 10:26:53 EST A quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692511 Well, yesterday was the first day since having my fitbit that I did not get 10k steps. It had to happen eventually, it was a pretty good streak; 3 months. I'm okay with it, disappointed, but it is what it is. I will try to go for a longer streak this time. <BR> <BR> The REASON was that we were buying a new car. I forget that that is like a 10 hour ordeal. It was pretty unexpected, though. My Prius, which I LOVE, has been stalling. It just turns off without the Check Engine light going on. I'... Sun, 11 May 2014 09:34:55 EST Hanging in there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684651 Sorry it's been a while since I've posted a blog. Life just kinda gets in the way, yanno? <BR> <BR> The chiropractor helped - not so much the first time I went, as it slid right back out of place, but the second time. After the first time I found out that I was fine as long as I didn't sit down for too long. If I kept moving I was great. I even did yard work that Sunday and raked up 20 bags of leaves from our backyard. I was just fine. <BR> <BR> That Monday I went back and the adjustment st... Thu, 1 May 2014 08:10:22 EST Old injury = no gym today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674112 So yesterday one of my old injuries from college started rearing it's ugly head. In college I worked in a frame shop, and one evening I was moving some mat board - shoving it really - to put it away and after doing that I had this crazy sharp pain between my shoulder blades. I went to the chiropractor a few days later and it turned out that one of my ribs worked itself slightly out of socket - sort of twisted itself up where it meets my spine. He adjusted me and I was okay - he had to adjust ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 07:57:33 EST Feeling stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672616 Got up and went to the gym this morning. I walked faster than I normally do. I have short legs so I definitely work up a sweat walking at a 3-5 incline at 2.5 to 2.7 mph. I was feeling strong this morning so I upped it to 3mph for the majority of my workout. Then up to 4 for the last few minutes and I was jogging. I am not a fast jogger but I am moving. And I am panting and sweating and it feels good. I wasn't gasping for air like I've done in the past - after training for and running my tri ... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 08:16:55 EST The ups and downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669878 It's been a rough week and a good week. <BR> <BR> Sunday, I ended up with over 22k steps. I was happy with that. Exhausted, though. <BR> <BR> Monday, I didn't go to the gym. I don't usually go on Monday because that's BL day at work and I don't want to have to pay in. So Mondays are a free day. I did, however, bring in 13 boxes and a bunch of other random stuff for the school garage sale we're having next week. So I did some lifting and steps there. It was a hungry day, presumably from the ... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 14:28:02 EST Weekly update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665614 This was an okay week. <BR> <BR> Eating was just okay. I felt very hungry this week. It could have been the workouts, it could have been the weather...could have been PMS. Not sure. But I know it was difficult to stay in range a lot of the days. Overall I think I did fine as far as burning more than I ate, but the scale has yet to show that. <BR> <BR> Exercise was pretty good. <BR> <BR> Tuesday was Yoga, and that was really great. She went to some anatomy and physiology workshop the previ... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 11:01:14 EST A new notch, weekly ups and downs, and charity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658648 It's been a week. We are testing this week and next week so our schedules are all messed up. It's stressful to the kids and to us. Today is a normal day. Then back to testing again. So the change in schedule definitely messes up my eating and exercising. <BR> <BR> The good news is that I'm down to 197. Or I was. I haven't weighed the past few days because I feel like I might be up from that. We'll see this weekend. <BR> <BR> More good news, I'm a notch lower on my belt. I haven't hit the 6t... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 12:50:14 EST Feeling successful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655376 FINALLY. Finally finally FINALLYYYYYYYYY. What' I'm doing is paying off. I mean, it was before. I've felt really good throughout this whole thing. I see changes every day and I'm feeling stronger and more focused and I'm really enjoying my body. But this week, after breaking through that stupid plateau, I feel amazing. 3.8 lbs lost this week. I know going back to the gym had a huge part to play in that. It feels good to move again. I've also started doing yoga (starting slowly cause holy crap... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 12:46:54 EST Hoorayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654443 I've broken my plateau!! This morning I weighed at 199.2!! What's uuuuuuuuup!! I am so unbelievably happy! Sun, 23 Mar 2014 09:15:32 EST new toys!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654035 so, I got a new tablet today the Samsung Galaxy Pro 10.1. Its really nice because right now I don't even have to type this entry. I'm actually talking to type. So far it has been 100 percent accurate. My laptop kind of died. Well not really. But it gets up to about 150 degrees when you use it. And the battery life is only about 20 minutes. So for all intents and purposes it is unusable. Now I have this wonderful new tablet. And it's awesome. Still just talking. And it's typing. Awesome. Sat, 22 Mar 2014 16:58:02 EST Aria and plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653837 Husband got me the Aria scale, the fitbit scale that connects directly to fitbit and Sparkpeople. So I don't have to remember to put in my weight after weigh in. So that's nice. It will also keep me from weighing too often because it's going to sync no matter what it is, so I don't want to show a gain for no reason (like weighing after eating or midway through the day or something). <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed at 200.5. Is my plateau busted??? It feels great to see that 200 number...19... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 10:42:12 EST 3 mile walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653141 Last night when I got home from work, I packed the boys, the dog, and my MIL into the car and we went down to Walnut Creek in Papillion. It's a 5k trail around a little lake. Milo was in the stroller, but Max walked THE WHOLE THING. I couldn't believe it. It helped that he got to walk Moxi. And we took some breaks. It took us about 90 min, so we were going pretty slow. But it was nice. <BR> <BR> Afterwards, we got Culvers. Totally worth it. <BR> <BR> 202 this morning. Holding steady. Still... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 10:57:30 EST WHAT IS GOING ONNNNNN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652498 I previously mentioned the plateau I'm battling and have been for weeks. Wisconsin didn't help me, but at least it didn't hurt me. I ate pretty well there, got my 10k steps in daily and came out even. This week, I went back to the gym. I went Mon, Tue and Wed but not today. Since going back I have been STARVING. It's so much harder to stay in my calorie range when I'm working out - at least the first few weeks of working out. I just get very munchy at night. Not to mention the fact that I'm ... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 14:16:33 EST Spring break comes to an end... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649821 It was a good week. A very good week. I'm sad it's over. <BR> <BR> Thursday was kind of a low key day. We went and met a high school friend of mine and her two kids at the play place at the mall. We stayed for about and hour and a half, and then they had to leave so I got some lunch with the boys at the food court. Then we headed home. Max was pretty tuckered. <BR> <BR> My mom took Thursday and Friday off, so when we got home and Max went down for a nap, I thought it would be fun to go see ... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 10:33:25 EST Holding steady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646822 We have had so much fun this week! <BR> <BR> I left off on Monday. Monday we went to go see my mom at her school, and we toured and saw a bunch of people who have seen ME grow up. They of course were thrilled to see the kids. Afterward we stopped at McDonalds for lunch. I got a McWrap, which I THOUGHT was a snack wrap but apparently that's not a thing anymore. So it was huge. It was pretty good, but huge. Too much food, but of course I ate it anyway. I knew we were going to my friend's house... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 09:34:43 EST Wisconsin! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644309 I sure do love being here. I miss home, I miss my husband and the pets and my own bed, but I love visiting. There is always something to do and we have a lot of fun. The boys have been so very well behaved, Max has been pretty close to perfect. Hope that didn't just jinx it! <BR> <BR> When we got here on Saturday I had about 2300 steps. I had 1900ish before leaving from packing up the car and running around making sure we had everything, and we stopped a few times to stretch our legs, gas up... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 10:04:14 EST Quick one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642444 Leaving for Wisco tomorrow. We'll see how it goes. Don't plan on getting my 10k steps tomorrow with 8 of my hours sitting in a car. We'll see how it goes. I'll play it by ear. Fri, 7 Mar 2014 20:46:18 EST Perhaps a plateau? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641320 Well, almost 15 lbs down and that's what always happens - I stall. It's weird though, because I'm stalling on my home scale but I lost 1.8 this week on the work scale when weighing for Biggest Loser. I was up .8 on that scale last week because of sodium (chinese the day before weigh in!) but I've been sitting right between 201-202 on my scale on a daily basis. I really should stop weighing daily. <BR> <BR> I still can't go to the gym to work out. My incision keeps opening and closing and it... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 11:34:54 EST February Wrap-Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637946 I can't believe it's March already. MARCH. We are 1/6 through 2014 already. Can't believe it. <BR> <BR> Overall February wasn't a great month for weight loss. Down a total of 2.4 for the month. Considering I'm not doing a lot of fitness (just my 10k steps til after spring break) I guess that's pretty good. I mean I'm happy with anything, truly. I feel really good about my body and it will only get better with fitness. <BR> <BR> I'm almost 12 weeks post op. Still some small openings that are... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 18:45:34 EST A rough week last week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632484 But what's done is done! <BR> <BR> I'm up .8 this week, BUT I had chinese for dinner last night. So that's kind of bound to happen. And I don't really care. I can say that with 100% honesty at this moment - I do not care. I love seeing my weight go down, but when it doesn't, I finally recognize that it's okay. It's taken me like 13 years of "dieting" to see it, but I finally see it. I don't beat myself up. I'm not going to start depriving myself to make up for it. I wasn't very strict with m... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 12:02:48 EST Black bean brownies? Whaaaaa? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625648 I have a soft spot on my heart (and my stomach. And on my tongue) for brownies. When I lost weight last time, No Pudge Brownies had a staple place in my cupboard (if you don't know what those are, they're genius! It's a mix that you combine with vanilla yogurt and bake. And they are fudgy and delicious and perfect). Unfortunately I have not been able to find No Pudge Brownies in any of my grocery stores since working on myself THIS time, so I've been brownieless. And let me tell you - a brown... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 15:39:06 EST Day two of fitbitting! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5624527 Yesterday went great. I hit my 10,000 steps doing pretty much just my daily activities - I knew I walked a lot at school, and every night between 6:30 and 7 Milo and I have a "dance party" which usually puts him to sleep for about an hour, and we went grocery shopping yesterday which helped, but I ended my day at over 11k steps! I don't feel too guilty about not going to the gym lately anymore, even though its because I'm healing. <BR> <BR> Food wise I did okay. I had a dinner planned, just ... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 07:34:29 EST Initial review of Fitbit Flex http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623784 Okay before I start my review - I just have to say - I'm wearing pants with a waistband for the first time since LAST October - 16 months. Pre-pregnancy. Pretty happy about that. <BR> <BR> Okay, so the Fitbit Flex. I got it in the mail last night and opened the box right when I got home from conferences. I couldn't set it up, it was 8pm and I wanted to spend at least SOME time with the boys before bedtime. I plugged it in to charge and called it done. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up, show... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 09:34:44 EST A breakthrough in loving myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622160 Every year since having Max, for Spring Break, we go to my parents house for the week (just me and the kid(s)) in Wisconsin. Because Spring Break in Wisconsin is nothing like Spring Break in Florida, we always end up going to the Dells and going to an indoor water park. Every year I love the trip but hate putting on a swimsuit. <BR> <BR> This year, I won't. <BR> <BR> I went to Walmart last night, and I got my very first ever two piece swimsuit. And I'm exited to wear it. I don't look half ... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 10:43:28 EST The weird thing about weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5620128 This morning I weighed myself and I was up .4 from last week. No biggie, my TOM is on its way and I had a lot of salt this weekend eating soup to try to get over this cold. Not worried about it. <BR> <BR> I got to work and had to weigh in for the Biggest Loser. I'm wearing the same outfit (roughly) that I wore last week. I weigh with my boots on because it's a pain to get them off. I don't strip down or worry about what I'm wearing for the most part - just the number of layers. From last wee... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 08:27:36 EST Two steps forward... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619500 ...and one step back. <BR> <BR> We had a snow day on Wednesday of last week. Woke up with a sore throat (my son had been out of school the previous two days due to a nasty cold). I got out to shovel (which I actually enjoyed having not been able to do any physical activity for so long) and felt pretty good most of the day. Thursday, woke up with a sore throat and stuffy nose. And it all went downhill from there, respiratory wise. <BR> <BR> Friday I had an appointment with my surgeon. I had ... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 14:07:00 EST A trophy and another week healed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613107 7 1/2 weeks post op. Starting to heal a bit more. The right side looks phenomenal. The left side was opened in a few places. Went to the doctor last Friday and he put me on a 7 day antibiotic just as a prophylactic. That has since finished up and I've started healing a bit more. Getting a little better every day. I go back to the doctor this Friday. <BR> <BR> Things here are going well. Food wise, I had one day this past week (yesterday) I was over my range, but other days have all been good... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 14:34:47 EST A revelation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604362 I had a pretty big revelation this morning while getting ready for work. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself because I'm going to the doctor this afternoon. 204.6. I am very excited by this. But my initial thought, before I even realized that I'm happy with that, was, "I don't even care." <BR> <BR> "I don't even care." That is HUGE for me. At least for today, I looked in the mirror and I LIKED what I saw. I was proud of how I looked. I do not look like I weigh 204 lbs. I look GOOD for 204 lbs. I'm ... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 11:58:20 EST First goal met! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601321 Tomorrow I am 6 weeks post op. I hit my 10 lb mark this weekend. I was pretty happy about that. My first goal reward was to get an SP activity tracker. So I ordered that last night. Hooray! <BR> <BR> Things have been going well. Took some more progress pictures, really starting to see a difference. Still swollen, but it's going down and I see some changes happening. I'm happy with my progress. <BR> <BR> Considering the week I had last week, I did pretty well eating-wise. The worst of the ... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 14:04:11 EST Best laid plans... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593544 ...go awry. <BR> <BR> According to SP I've used that blog title before. Oh well. <BR> <BR> No gym. Last night I had pretty severe pain at my incision on the left (where it was throbbing after walking) and I removed my gauze and found this yellowy greenish pus like substance. Gross, I know. I hope you weren't eating. I called the surgeon to see if they think it's infected. She had me send her a picture. They all voted no. I guess this is a normal thing with healing from a surgery. It's like ... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 12:18:26 EST Back to the gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592339 This morning was my first day back to the gym. I was really sore yesterday. After getting my stitches out there's one spot that kind of opened superficially, he said it's normal but it was really bothering me the last two days. So I hemmed and hawed about whether or not I should go, trying really hard not to overwork myself and this week is my hell week (I'll get to that in a bit). <BR> <BR> But I went. I walked for 40 minutes. Everything felt okay but at the very end my left side was throbb... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 12:14:05 EST One month post op http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591136 Feeling great. Got all but 3 of my stitches out on Friday. That was a little painful because some parts weren't numb anymore. Belly button stitches are out now. I have this cute little belly button that I can barely fit my pinky nail into let alone my index finger up to the 2nd knuckle like before! At the appointment the dr. addressed the little bit of pudge I see at my love handles and the little bit of back fat I have, and he said he lipo'd all of that so it will eventually be gone. He say... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 11:25:36 EST Day 5 of the journey to love myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583378 You know what? I like how I look in the mirror from the side right now. It's still going to get smaller, but I'm starting to like the shape of my butt. My butt hump is getting smaller so the bottom part seems less flat. <BR> <BR> I also like how flat my stomach is. And again, that will get even flatter as the swelling goes down. But I'm starting to like what I see. <BR> <BR> I still have work to do. Even after the swelling goes down, I still have work to do. I'm anxious to get back to exerc... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 19:01:50 EST Day 4 of Journey to love myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582326 So as stated in my previous entry, my new years resolution is to learn to love myself. I have 30 years of hatred in my head that it is going to take a lot to change that habit. <BR> <BR> I want to look in the mirror and see what my husband sees when he looks at me. <BR> <BR> So today, I went and got my hair cut and colored. I hadn't done that since right before school started. I forgot how good it feels and how much a nice haircut and good color job can make a difference in how you see your... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 20:59:29 EST Tube free and feeling good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581202 FINALLY got my tubes out today. Doc said everything looks good. I cannot exercise yet, light walking but he recommended not going to the gym yet. I've got a good 5-6 months of swelling yet. But I cannot tell you how good it feels to be tube free. <BR> <BR> I reset all of my spark goals today. I used my pre-surgery weight. As previously stated, with the swelling, I haven't seen a difference yet. But I will track weekly weight and monthly measurements to see the swelling come down. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 20:37:59 EST Happy New Year and 3 weeks post op http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577604 Well, I STILL have my drains. I am going to call tomorrow morning, though, because at least one should be able to come out. The drainage is mostly very little, except yesterday one of them drained like CRAZZZZY. I don't really know why there was this weird sudden jump, but hopefully it doesn't hinder anything. <BR> <BR> I will not be able to go back to work on tuesday if I still have drains. I can't wear underwear and I can't wear anything but these sweatpants that have no waist band. I have... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 09:48:57 EST Almost 2 weeks post op http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571146 Tomorrow I will be 2 weeks post op, and I STILL have my tubes. We went yesterday but I'm still draining too much to have them taken out. It makes sense. The fluid is created by the living tissue to restore what it thinks is dead tissue. I had so much tissue removed that my healthy tissue is trying to "heal," therefore a lot of fluid is being produced. It sucks, but oh well. What can ya do right? It's better to drain it this way than go in and get it sucked out with a needle every day. <BR> <... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 13:44:51 EST One week post-op http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5567219 Well, it's been a week since my surgery. Let me back up a bit because it is not something I've been very public about. <BR> <BR> Around the time of my birthday, a little bit before actually, in late September, husband brought up a suggestion that I never thought would happen. He thought that, since we are done having kids and I've made it very clear that I hate my post-baby body and am having trouble getting rid of the belly fat, this year for my birthday and Christmas present he'd get me a... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 11:33:21 EST Still pretty motivated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534879 Today is presenting a bit of a challenge, though. Not motivation wise, just situational. <BR> <BR> Today is one of our biggest art days of the year. Tonight we have an event called Arts Cafe, where we have professional artists come and talk about their art, demonstrate, etc (this year we have Jeremy Caniglia, who was the principal artist for World War Z. He's also done book covers for editions of A Christmas Carol, various Stephen King novels, as well as magazines and childrens books). Our d... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 12:12:59 EST