LE7_1234's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LE7%5F1234 LE7_1234's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Forgive and Accept http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712596 In addition to listening to IOWL podcasts (Renee Stephens) on a regular basis, I've been going through her book, Full-Filled, as part of an online class. This week, part of the homework was to listen to a guided journey on forgiveness. Collecting all the things from the past and present that we wish we could have done differently--identifying the positive intention behind those actions--and forgiving ourselves. It doesn't mean "Oh, well, I'll do better tomorrow." By identifying what we were *... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 09:03:23 EST Music Weekend: Just as good as I expected. :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706475 What an amazing weekend that was. Music, music, music.... <BR> <BR> This is my major renewal weekend of the year. Even though I don't sleep enough (and I'm really feeling it now, and it's the next weekend!!!!), it is the time when my current self and my dream self are so close we can touch.... <BR> <BR> I danced when I wanted to dance. I sang in the impromptu jam sessions when I felt like it. I was relaxed about life's little annoyances. I chatted with people I hadn't met--and had a great t... Fri, 30 May 2014 01:46:29 EST Music Weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700486 Off for a weekend of listening, singing, and dancing. <BR> <BR> Renewing. <BR> <BR> I tend to come back feeling more alive... <BR> <BR> Wishing you all a great weekend, too, whenever it starts. :-) <BR> <BR> For that matter, wishing you a great NOW. Thu, 22 May 2014 06:18:25 EST From "Struggling" to "Putting in Effort" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696884 Finally. <BR> <BR> I went through a long stretch of feeling like everything was a struggle. Thinking of food, getting in exercise, taking care of me. <BR> <BR> I didn't stop altogether--but I pulled back, putting in the minimum. <BR> <BR> At first it was unconscious--but towards the end of last year, I decided just to chalk 2013 up to a year of change--and a year of hibernation. I decided to trust to the fact that I've learned enough on this journey to find my way back out. <BR> <BR> An... Sat, 17 May 2014 08:58:45 EST Saying Yes by Saying No http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694275 I need to be in the office tomorrow, after 2 productive days working at home. <BR> <BR> My husband's away, so I have to walk the dogs (and my own Mommy Guilt makes me want to add making sure the 7th grader gets out the door, but she's really pretty independent). I either carpool with neighbors who work in the same area or take the bus. I had an offer for a ride tomorrow... at 6:45 am. I started replying to the message. Had a "yes, thanks" all written out.... and deleted it. <BR> <BR> I do... Tue, 13 May 2014 15:33:32 EST Coincidentally.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693440 Do you ever go through a phase with one coincidence after another? It's happening to me.... <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> A week or two ago, I called my daughter to check up on her. I'm not much of a fan of phones (my husband calls it phone-itis, which is basically an inflammation of the idea of how difficult it is to make a call), so if I don't call as often as I probably should. Even though I know how much she's struggling with her mandatory army service.... <BR> <BR> But I'm trying to be... Mon, 12 May 2014 13:29:01 EST Scenes from the Clothing Exchange http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691153 Twice a year, we have a neighborhood clothing exchange. People brings bags and bags of clothes, set them out on tables more or less according to age, and then take what they want. <BR> <BR> There are some traditional items that seem to turn up at least every other time. This jacket, or that top, that makes its way through the neighborhood until finally, well... <BR> <BR> 'But, Captain Wentworth,' cried Louisa, 'how vexed you must have been when you came to the Asp, to see what an old thin... Fri, 9 May 2014 09:18:17 EST The Right Amount of Hungry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690582 Don't have too much to say today, but I set a blogging goal... :-) <BR> <BR> Did a pretty good job being aware of my hunger today. I was hungrier than usual at my morning snack time... but wasn't ready for lunch until an hour or so later than usual. Now dinner is done, the kitchen is closed... and it's time for the treadmill. <BR> <BR> Just need to string another month or so of days like these together... and it'll be that much easier to string the next month or so together! <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 8 May 2014 13:18:55 EST Well, That's Good To Know... (Activity Tracker) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689080 I still get quite annoyed that the tracker can be off by up to a kilometer when I'm on the treadmill, with the tracker carefully clipped to my shoe (as recommended). I know that the distance is off, so I assume the steps are off. <BR> <BR> Today I did a pretty standard distance, but I forgot to move the tracker. Turns out that it gave me at least 30% more steps, just by wearing it in my bra. <BR> <BR> Must keep that in mind for days when I'm far from my goal. :-p <BR> <BR> No, no! I mean... Tue, 6 May 2014 15:48:00 EST Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687657 I'm not a big fan of New Year's Resolutions. There's a whole negative feel around it--like you have to be very resolved to make it work, and there's something wrong with you that has to be fixed. <BR> <BR> I prefer the concept of a New Year's Evolution. Highlighting the way I want to change or evolve over the next year. <BR> <BR> The best thing about the concept of "Evolution" instead of "Resolution" is that it's much more of an ongoing process, and less of a "get there and stop" sort of t... Mon, 5 May 2014 02:06:22 EST Stormy Weather.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686187 Well. <BR> <BR> April was quite the challenging month. Can't believe I didn't manage even one blog post, considering all the times I started one in my head. <BR> <BR> Or maybe I can... It was one of those months where I could hardly find any time to myself. Between school vacations, a visiting brother-in-law, Passover, work stress... When I finally did get a moment, I was too tired to write. <BR> <BR> And I miss it. There's something about structured writing that helps me structure my tho... Sat, 3 May 2014 03:04:14 EST On the Bright Side... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655813 Well. Yesterday was quite the challenge.... Pretty draining, all in all. <BR> <BR> DH threw out his back, or pulled some muscle, or something... We're not sure of anything besides the fact that he can barely move without pain. Of course this happens on a week when I actually have to be in the office, so I'm not around to help as much. <BR> <BR> But somehow it helped to keep reminding myself that yes, I didn't get a ride with him, so I had my 15-minute walk to the bus stop (plus 10 on the o... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 00:02:12 EST Progress Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654694 I can get so caught up in waiting for the "right" time to compose a perfect blog that sometimes I forget to just use it as a tool to help me keep track of where I am and where I want to be. <BR> <BR> *** <BR> <em>362</em> For a long time, I've been trying to convince myself to do more strength training. I haven't really found a way to get myself into a good lower body routine, but I've been much better with my arms. I usually do this near a mirror (not by design--just happens to be the b... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 16:00:13 EST Activity Tracker: setting a baseline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646649 My husband was in the States last month, so I finally broke down and got the activity tracker. I wanted another way to keep track of what I'm doing, and see what I might do to boost my activity without needing to devote extra hours to the treadmill. <BR> <BR> After almost two weeks, I basically confirmed what I already suspected.... but still had some surprises. <BR> <BR> <em>8</em> I suspected that when I'm at work, I don't move much. Probably a lot less than I should. But I was a bit s... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 02:24:29 EST Thank You!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628846 I really have been over thinking things lately. Developing elaborate stories in my mind of how things might play out, and how I'll feel, and how that one will react, and and and…. <BR> <BR> My temporary freak-out at finally being tracked down by the reunion team is a pretty good example. <BR> <BR> It's not that the feelings weren't real, or that the stories were fiction. <BR> <BR> It's just that they really weren't that important, at the end of the day. <BR> <BR> I got a message, I got... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 01:21:55 EST What I Left There For http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625239 There are days when the Soundtrack to My Life is basically one song that I keep playing over and over. Today: <BR> Indigo Girls, I Don't Wanna Know <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=f7vHVAdVqa8 </link> <BR> <BR> It's always kind of reminded me of the town I lived in while I was in high school. I was in touch with a few people for a few years…. and then basically cut all contact. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up to the dreaded Facebook friend request. <BR> <BR> Strange days we live ... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 02:35:23 EST What's the Point? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5620454 From the "Music as Metaphor" files…. <BR> <BR> Last weekend, we went to the Red Sea Jazz Festival. Just the four of us--foster daughter (who has NOT yet developed an appreciation for jazz, though she can be caught humming Autumn Leaves at times) had a youth group event, so she didn't come. <BR> <BR> It's quite a drive--around 6 hours from our house--more when you throw in stopping to pick the girls up on the way. But it meant we got to spend time with each other. One girl has the beginnings... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 13:23:28 EST Ah, Nothing Like Feeling Like a Fraud... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616476 Well, it's finally happened. After all those years of feeling like a fraud, wondering when people would find out I'm really not good enough, not smart enough, not nice enough, not strong enough…. I can stop wondering. Today's the day!! LOL! <BR> <BR> <link>www.theonion.com/articles/report-tod<BR>ay-the-day-they-find-out-youre-a-fraud<BR>,35133/?ref=auto </link> <BR> <BR> Thanks to The Onion for letting me know. <em>334</em> Thu, 6 Feb 2014 00:25:00 EST Releasing the Old Patterns http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611968 I have now had my bass guitar for a whole month. I'm still in love. Obsessed, even. I think I practiced more last month than in any given year with other instruments I've tried! (Half year, at least!!) <BR> <BR> My first lesson, I was basically scared to touch it. Hardly could get a sound out. I'd played some regular guitar, so I wasn't completely clueless, but I was feeling a bit lost. <BR> <BR> Second lesson, I started playing what I'd been working on. The teacher was quiet for a moment, ... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 10:35:55 EST I'm Thinking... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607800 Lately I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed. Not new for me--I tend to have a lot going on. Not necessarily in the "doing something all hours of the day and night sense." More in the "long-term projects that require lots of planning and thinking." <BR> <BR> So I'm in my head a lot. Most of the time it's a good thing… but sometimes I feel a bit like, well…. <BR> <BR> Hamlet: <BR> What have you, my good friends, deserv'd at the hands of <BR> Fortune, that she sends you to prison hither? <BR> ... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 03:14:38 EST Multifaceted Vs. Well-Rounded Vs. Whole…. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590021 In the quest to develop a non-weight related identity (as in, not "the fat chick", I sometimes toss around other things I am or do. I have a creative side. A musical side. A geeky side. At work I'm sometimes a trainer, sometimes a writer, sometimes a manager (small "m"). <BR> <BR> For a while, the term "multifaceted" seemed like it might work as an identifier, or identity. It seemed to help me grow into each of these roles--accepting them all as part of me. <BR> <BR> But lately it hasn't ... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 09:31:59 EST Leaning In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578913 Hi kids, <BR> <BR> Hope the new year is off to a good start for you! I've already achieved one major goal…. After years of whining that I want to play bass, I finally have my own guitar. Wish I could take full credit for it--but my husband's the one who actually went out and got it. A few months ago, he decided to start taking piano lessons again--and it turns out his teacher also plays bass. So… I'm all set. (And already feel the beginnings of callouses! LOL!) <BR> <BR> That's not really w... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 03:36:16 EST "Fat Letters" for Halloween http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527507 <link>www.cbsnews.com/8301-204_162-5761001<BR>0/n.d-woman-to-hand-out-fat-letters-to<BR>-obese-kids-during-halloween/ </link> <BR> <BR> OK, kids, <BR> <BR> What do you have to say about this? <BR> <BR> My main reaction is to wonder why she needs to single out kids she thinks are moderately obese.... If she cares so much about the issue, why not make a general letter to ALL parents, reminding them about the benefits of learning to enjoy the goodies over time, instead of in a 2- day bing... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 14:25:02 EST Meeting Virtual Friends In Real Life... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521701 It's always an interesting experience to meet people in real life who you met online. What will they be like? Will they look like the pictures? Will their real manner of speaking, expressing, being match their online voice? What will they think of me when making those same calculations?? <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I get a chance to meet some of my virtual friends in real life. Friends who've supported me through thick and thin--literally and figuratively. We started out on another site before SP, go... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 21:08:35 EST Non-Scale Breakthrough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483781 When I started listening to the IOWL podcasts, I had a major breakthrough in one of the early episodes. She described the Disney method of creativity... where the dreamer, the planner, and the critic are all distinct roles, and called upon at the correct time and place. <BR> <BR> I'm still not the world's best dreamer, but I have become MUCH better at calling on the critic at the right time. <BR> <BR> But recently, I've realized that I don't actually have to take on all the roles myself! G... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 14:45:28 EST Our Bodies, Our...Mothers? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476606 OK, for the record, "Our Bodies, Ourselves" really pissed me off. I ended up using it as a stand for my monitor for quite a while, until I realized that what I really wanted was to get it out of my house. But lately, the title has been haunting me. <BR> <BR> Why, you ask? <BR> <BR> Because of something I read in someone else's blog, around 2 weeks ago. <BR> <BR> The author was looking back at "what ifs" in life. The road not taken. The opportunity gained--or lost. It was an interesting l... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 09:55:17 EST When I'm stressed, I.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469050 Moderately stressed, here. <BR> <BR> Looks like they're planning a war just north of me, and I don't know if we're invited. Or when it will start. <BR> <BR> I had a very hard time concentrating today, so instead of working from home, I ended up, well, straightening out the bomb shelter again. Because if it's ready, we might not need it, right? <BR> <BR> I also had a very strong desire to bake. Because when I'm stressed, I... <BR> <BR> Hmm. Caught myself thinking that, and decided I didn... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 15:12:46 EST In Transition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5434180 What an interesting year this is. Not... or not only... in the sense of "May you live in interesting times." <BR> <BR> It is a year of change. Transition. <BR> <BR> Some of the changes I was expecting. Like my daughters graduating and going off to The Next Thing. One is traveling in Europe at the moment with her best friends, before they all go off to do a year of national service. She really won't be living at home for more than a few more days this summer, but still, it feels like a gradu... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 11:26:49 EST From the Shallow End: Sticks and Stones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387585 It's true. Sometimes being a well-informed citizen of the world is just too much to take. So I turn away from articles about devastation in Oklahoma, war in Syria, NSA.... And turn to the entertainment headlines. <BR> <BR> We haven't had a TV for 5-6 years, and we don't see many movies. I'm more aware of local still-have-a-day-job musicians than the current big names. So the entertainment news is just as good as my usual reading fare for escapism (either the classics or sic fi/fantasy... no... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 01:56:12 EST Self Acceptance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348145 Someone on my IOWL team posted the following: <BR> *** <BR> I was looking at Renee's website today and came across the following statement: <BR> <BR> "In order to lose weight and be truly Naturally Slender, you will first have to feel good about yourself in your overweight body and accept yourself unconditionally. Only then will you be able to release the excess weight for good. The good news is that you can start to feel good now. You first change on the inside, and the outside catches up."... Tue, 7 May 2013 01:59:21 EST ...and all she wants to do is dance... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5337182 I've been under the weather all week, so I didn't make it around to post about the amazing time I had last weekend. <BR> <BR> A more or less local band (since it's 7 hours or so from the north end of the country to the south, everything's pretty much local) decided to arrange a 1-day music festival. Seven hours of music, with good performers (some even very good). I'm not sure why they picked that date, since a huge, well-known 3- day festival is happening next week--but since I don't think ... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 10:13:44 EST Conflict Resolution Journey: April 12, 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320760 I've been feeling really slow and sluggish lately... Mentally. As if I'm still on this journey, still moving forward... but I left the emergency brake on, ya know? <BR> <BR> And what is forward, anyway? I think part of my problem is a bit of success amnesia. I haven't taken a breather lately to look at how far I've come. When I look at it that way--I'm still juggling a lot of balls in my every day life, and I haven't dropped one for quite a while. Even though I've got them all up in the air... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 11:39:52 EST I Did It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313700 First Thursday of the month, you know where to find me. There's a folk club in the next town over that's been meeting for years. Sometimes we get up and coming performers before they get to be too good and too well-known for a small group like ours. Sometimes we get the ones who already have music as their day jobs, but they remember their roots. :-) <BR> <BR> And the first Thursday of April is open stage. <BR> <BR> Since I first started going, ~7 years ago, I started thinking I should act... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 14:00:44 EST Moving in the Right Direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310946 I love shifting to DST. I love leaving work when it's still light out--and maybe even having some light by the time I get home. <BR> <BR> I enjoy the early-morning light on the hills on the way in to work. And on the way home, I've been enjoying something else: noticing the shadows. <BR> <BR> On the drive home, the sun is pretty much directly behind us at first. (No, it's not my multiple personality disorder acting up--I either take a bus or ride with a neighbor. So the plural is appropriat... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 03:17:14 EST ...to say nothing of the dog.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5305900 It is looking more and more sure that we'll be doing this fostering (last blog). The girl's social workers were in favor--and suggested a sort of "fast track" approach. We won't go through the official fostering process--we'll arrange power of attorney for things like health care and schooling. One of them said this would be better, since they don't have an official reason to pull her out of her home, "even though it's obvious to everyone she'd be better off. And I'm saying this in front of [... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 01:03:28 EST Ch-ch-ch-changes.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271272 It's hard to believe, but my little babies are 18. They are nearing the end of high school. Nearing the start of Real Life. <BR> <BR> Here in Israel, army service is more or less mandatory. But in our area, a lot of kids put it off a year, going into a service program or an extra year of study before they actually enlist. Looks like I have one of each--one will do her year of service with a program she was active in all through high school. It's a great program--well run, effective, and... b... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 15:03:16 EST Gratitude Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258243 Totally in the weeds these days. Alas, only figuratively for now. <BR> <BR> This week, I'm only working 5 days... Though 2 of them were around 12 hours... The past 2 weeks I worked 6 days. Each. I'm supposed to work 4.... <BR> <BR> It's not just that we have a product release coming up. One of my coworkers went on vacation, fainted, ended up with a major concussion... and we're not sure when he'll be back. His tasks--which are the bottleneck at this stage of the project anyway--ended up o... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 02:12:19 EST Conflict Resolution Journey: February 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252499 I've been a little overwhelmed lately. Work stress, visitors at home, major projects coming to a close for my daughters.... I could feel myself in need for a dose of alignment. So it was time to listen yet again the Renee Stephens's Conflict Resolution Journey. <BR> <BR> In it, you visualize the part of you that wants to be slim, fit, and healthy [or whatever the current struggle is] sitting in part of your torso. When you find it, it moves up to your shoulder then down to sit in the palm of... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 10:45:14 EST Integrity vs. Compromise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218650 I am sooooooo glad that after today, I will no longer be getting recorded messages from politicians, and text messages asking me to respond to polls. The elections will be over this evening. YAY!!! <BR> <BR> I was undecided until I put the slip of paper into the envelope and sealed it. <BR> <BR> Well, I knew several parties I would not be voting for. But there were three serious options for me to choose between. One is the closest match to my values and priorities if you go strictly by pla... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 12:58:25 EST Interesting Article on Growing Up Poor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215743 I read an interesting article today about "The 5 Stupidest Habits You Develop Growing Up Poor". (Mild obscenity alert, so if that kind of thing bugs you, don't read it...) <BR> <BR> <link>www.cracked.com/blog/the-5-stupidest<BR>-habits-you-develop-growing-up-poor/ </link> <BR> <BR> I didn't grow up super poor, but we didn't have much to spare. Once I was out in The Real World, I spent a lot of time at the Just Scraping By level. So I found myself nodding through the whole article--not j... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 15:29:11 EST Towards and Away From Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214427 You know that feeling when ideas are kicking around in your head for days, so you wait to blog until they all gel into a nice, neat, organized essay? But if you wait just a little too long, they don't gel, they congeal, never quite coming to cohesiveness? I have some ideas bouncing around that didn't quite gel yet, but I feel the need to get them out anyway. So pardon the rambling.... <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> In honor of the new year, the Inside Out Weight Loss (IOWL) team has gon... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 14:49:45 EST Pink Elephants http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212467 I was just listening to IOWL Episode #2 again. In it, Renee talks about how our subconscious minds don't process negatives--if you think "don't think of a pink elephant with purple spots on its big, floppy ears," you think of the elephant. <BR> <BR> Since the first time I heard it, over 3 years ago, I worked on a "what do I want instead" principal. OK, don't think of a pink elephant--so I want to think of a blue zebra. Purple spots-->black stripes. <BR> <BR> I've now done this so often, so... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 05:07:42 EST Oops!... I Did It Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203727 I have dozens of blogs dancing in my head on any given day. Not that you'd notice from my spotty blogging record.... <BR> <BR> So what does it take to finally get me to click that link, write those thoughts, expose those feelings?? <BR> <BR> Once again, it's Britney Spears. <BR> <BR> I don't get it, really. I kinda like some of her songs, but I've never been tempted to actually buy her music. And honestly, I was reading up on the Kurdish rebels assassinated in Paris (made all the more in... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 14:24:33 EST My Selfish Genes.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5167920 A million years or so ago, in college, I took a course where we had to compare and contrast James Lovelock's Gaia hypothesis with Richard Dawkins' Selfish Gene theory. In the former, the whole Earth is viewed as a living organism; in the latter, the ruling concept is individual bits of genetic information, vying for the best possible way to reproduce and spread. <BR> <BR> As I so often find, I could agree with much in both of these conflicting theories. But recently I've been reminded--stron... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 09:07:05 EST That Love-Food Connection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5160236 On one of my work-at-home days last week, I decided to bake an extra loaf of bread and double the soup recipe so I could take something to a neighbor who's having terrible back pain. I had been aware she was having problems, but it didn't click how bad it was until the day before. We were supposed to do something together for a committee we're on, but it wasn't getting done. I finally said I heard she was having back problems--and asked if she wanted me to find someone else to do it with. She... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 13:30:51 EST Conflict Resolution Journey (again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5157765 For the most part, my journey seems to be going smoothly lately. I have released a little more weight. I haven't been struggling with food or exercise. But I have been feeling just a little resistance... It's not the tug-of-war feeling, where half of me is moving forward, half is pulling back. An even match--leading to expending a heckuva lot of energy just to stay in one place. <BR> <BR> Instead, I've been feeling like most of me is moving in the same direction, and there's just a small par... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 02:10:39 EST Releasing what's holding me back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5150107 This is something I posted recently on the IOWL Yahoo group. Some of it doesn't apply here--since I have mentioned where I live on various teams and blogs. But some of the other conclusions, about what I'm facing and what I need to release, definitely do apply here. <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> <BR> In the 3+ years since I started listening to IOWL, I've made some amazing progress. I lost the 11-pound re-gain that led me to try IOWL in the first place, quickly and easily. Since then, my w... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 00:49:47 EST It's the Little Things.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5139958 [No political replies, please. ] <BR> <BR> Life has been a little stressful lately. OK, that's putting it mildly. I think it's more truthful to say that all Hell broke loose. That's a pretty good definition of war, don't you think? <BR> <BR> You see, I live in northern Israel. A lot of our relatives live further south--in the middle of The Headlines. I've tried to persuade them to come up to us--at least for a little while. To get away from the noise, if not the fear. The fear never really... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 02:17:25 EST Mother -- Daughter -- Mother http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5113268 It's been a long time since I had a few moments of quiet to sit and write. <BR> <BR> I feel like I have a lot to write about. So much, that I'm not sure I can form a clear structure. But I need to write, now, while I have the time.... The perfectionist in me is going to have to just sit this one out, I think. I'm going for free form, recording the flotsam and jetsam thrown up by the stream of my consciousness.... <BR> <BR> The stream is running through a particular channel, though. The cha... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 06:29:09 EST End of an Era http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049345 My grandmother just died, at the age of 95. (And 3/4.) We've had a certain amount of shock at the suddenness of it--mostly because I think we were all convinced she'd make it to 100. But there's another element as well. <BR> <BR> You see, I was sure I was going to cut all ties with that side of the family as soon as my grandmother was gone. We were always closer to my mom's side. I've been known to say that my mom's side is crazy, but my dad's side is insane. I suppose it's not actually that... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 05:38:24 EST