LDYSABELLA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LDYSABELLA LDYSABELLA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Looking Forward to Enjoying Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882175 I'm getting the hang of socializing while maintaining my lifestyle changes. My Dear Husband came home from work ready to hit the gym so we went on an active date. <BR> <BR> We rode bikes side by side and I resisted the urge to compete with anyone but myself. He has done the Pan Ohio three years in a row and will be making that 328 mile trip across Ohio in four days again this July. I hope to one day be up to it but for now I'm concentrating on beating my personal best. <BR> <BR> Afterwards... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 23:37:42 EST The Joys of Strength Training http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881339 As I was commenting on a blog today, I noticed my response was quickly growing into a blog post of its own. I really love strength training and I want to tell you why. Although you don't get that sticker shock award for burning huge amounts of cardio calories, it has an appeal all its own. I love the feeling of conquering a weight that started out as difficult. Knowing I've grown stronger and can add new weight is great. I love how it makes me feel powerful. I love counting out the reps and ... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 18:13:59 EST Learning to Live With It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879598 Tonight we had another movie night tonight with special food. Our friend brought a dish made from a Thug Kitchen recipe: Roasted Brussel Sprouts and Quinoa with @$!#/ Cranberries. It was delicious and better for me than the Buffalo Chicken Garbage Bread and Frank's Buffalo Chicken Dip. I'm so great full for our agreement to swap. <BR> <BR> It can be hard to resist temptation. I ended up going a little over my calories to enjoy the new Kentucky Bourbon Barrel Barley Wine. It's my one drink fo... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 20:40:36 EST Making Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879072 I had a great workout while the girls went to their first spinning class. Then I went and locked the only key to the Pacifica in the car. Part of the problem was I had too much to carry and couldn't feel my fingers, even with gloves on. Thank goodness we were already home. I could just kick myself, but I'm not that flexible yet. <BR> <BR> I got 70 minutes of strength training in tonight along with a 23 minute cardio warm up on the elliptical. I'm still just doing core, arms, back and chest. ... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 22:59:25 EST A Weekend of Adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878163 I'm finally getting a chance to sit down and write after a four day weekend with all three kids and their friends at home. Besides the temptation of Valentines Day in general, my husband wanted a party with guests and snacks and party food. The snow actually made it a very small party as well as preventing me from getting away to do my strength training. I survived by making my skinny pizza and lots of veggies with Greek yogurt ranch dip. <BR> <BR> I did get to my strength training Sunday a... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 13:48:25 EST A Different Kind of Workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875338 This will be the first time since I started that I really true meant to go get my cardio in, but didn't. I feel like I have already hit that minus the wonderful feel good endorphins. I'm worn out. I did the shopping for the next two weeks for my family of five today, bringing home lots of high quality protein, fruits and veggies. I hit four different stores, ran to the school campus three times, and did tons of walking, lifting, and stairs. <BR> <BR> My only regret is that I don't have a re... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 21:34:29 EST It's The Simple Things That Make The Struggle Worthwhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874727 This is going to sound strange, but I've found another way to measure my progress. I managed to get two loads of laundry rolled down two flights of stairs and then made several trips carefully wading through the basement to run both of them. I climbed stairs up and down at least ten times today. With my knee that's a major achievement. <BR> <BR> I haven't been able to do my own laundry for about a year now because of my arthritis in my knee. I've been paying my kids to do it for me, but they... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 20:48:46 EST I Had My Date and Got to Eat Too http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874122 I'm going to sleep well tonight! I took Alex Sines and two of her friends with me to the YMCA. We got a great workout in before going out for the night. <BR> <BR> My DH and I love Pasttimes which is a little bar and grill nearby. It has mostly fried foods, great wings, sandwiches or pizza, and the best tater tots ever. This isn't good for me since I'm doing low carbs. I ordered the Greek nachos which is supposed to be gyro meat, black olives, tomatoes, feta, and tzatziki (cucumber sauce) ov... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 21:39:46 EST Persistence Pays Off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873478 I had a strong finish to a blah day. I woke up tired ad drug my butt all day. I did manage to get down into the basement to run laundry, which is a real hard thing for me. It's a regular mine field down there and I can't effectively use my cane. I also got clean clothes back, folded and put away so my workout gear was ready to go. <BR> <BR> I made it back to TOPS finally last night. It was like coming home. I weighed in four pounds lighter than my set weight on Saturday mornings and that was... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 22:21:39 EST Goals In Sight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872371 I've had a very full and wonderful weekend. I got all my errands done and managed to get in my full strength training Saturday and a good cardio workout on the recumbent bike on Sunday. <BR> <BR> I'm improving on stamina, but I really want to get my resistance and RPMs up. I figure it will come with time. At my weight and with my build, it's like I'm pedaling with a toddler strapped to each thigh. <BR> <BR> I also played hard both days. We had guests over to Saturday. I made my super thin ... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 09:22:00 EST Keep at It Because Sometimes It's Just Hard to Get Started http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870959 I didn't sleep very well last night. I never sleep as well after one of my light days. I woke up groggy and achy after a very restless night. I kicked myself in the pants and waited for my girls to get home to make sure I was properly motivated to get to the YMCA. With three teens in tow, we made it there and back in time to enjoy the rest of our evenings. <BR> <BR> I got in a short burst of cardio, 22 minutes walking for weight bearing exercise and 33 min on the seated elliptical, that I di... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 22:48:17 EST Finding Joy in the Job of Getting Fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869715 I got to the YMCA tonight before the snow started. It was great to have my two daughters and adoptive DD with me. They have been incredibly supportive. I'm having a great time. My workouts are less work and more gratification. I love each time I can push a little harder, lift a little more, or go a bit faster and longer. It's an incredible feeling of accomplishment, and makes me believe I can really do this. <BR> <BR> The girls are just as excited and amazed as well. They too are finding wha... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 23:07:37 EST We are Not Alone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868826 February has been great so far. I feel good, and I'm ready to carry on with new and expanded goals. I can't emphasize enough what a treasure the SparkPeople community has been. When you have as much to lose as I do, you get overwhelmed by doubt easily. Negative self talk sneaks back in as you look at that huge number of pounds you have to lose and forget about those small obtainable goals. I sometimes find myself feeling resentment or anger that I can't eat like everyone else or that I have t... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 17:16:53 EST Looking Back and Moving Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866688 I'm finishing up January with a true sense of accomplishment. I rode out my 1 pound gain last week to weigh in with a 3.8 pound loss this week. I got in to our little office gym last night and got to the Y this morning to finish the month on a high note with a rousing Strength Training session. <BR> <BR> I started the month at 363.0 lbs and finish out at 348.8 lbs. I don't ever want to see the other side of 350 again. I met and exceeded my first small obtainable goal to weigh in at 354.6 lbs... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 19:03:55 EST Coping With Stress Without Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866127 It's been a tough week. For a number of different reasons, I didn't get to the Y like I wanted this week. It was good that I took an actual several days break as the pain a clicking in my shoulder is much better now. I meant to make it back last night, but spent it in the ER with my DD until early morning. I'm tired, strung out, and having a hard time controlling what I'm eating today. This is an excellent reminder of just why I need at least 8 hours sleep to function. <BR> <BR> I was respon... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 19:51:55 EST Fitness: From Metamorphosis to a Way of Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863070 Working out has been great for me. I end up sore, but I'm always in pain anyway. Now it's satisfying proof my body is changing, a metamorphosis I'm responsible for. I can already feel the difference. Aside from moving closer to the steering wheel and yanking up my jeans, I feel stronger. I can go down stairs like an adult again, one foot at a time rather than doing the toddler shuffle. I can more easily lift my legs to mount weight and cardio machines. I also feel steadier getting into and ou... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 15:20:20 EST How do You Measure Success? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862500 I don't have much time tonight, but I'm so excited about my progress. I weighed in this morning under almost normal circumstances (different shoes and breakfast). I gained 1 pound. I'm not letting that get me down I've added strength training to my workouts and I can already feel the difference. The biggest indicator for me is my driver's seat believe it or not. I used to have to drive with it all the way back. this week I moved up a couple times. The butt of my jeans are looser and they keep... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 21:15:58 EST I've got to Believe in Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861792 I'm having a hard time today reconciling the need to go work out and not miss a day with the need to let my body recover. I'm trying very hard right now to make a habit out of going to the gym. I need to and I can see the difference after only two weeks. <BR> <BR> The problem is, depending on who you ask, it takes three weeks to 30 days to form a habit. Unlike most habits, workouts aren't something you can push through every day. Sometimes you have to give your body a rest. I'm afraid that i... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 20:02:04 EST Sometimes Later is Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860939 My husband as an IT security specialist taught a seminar in which he pointed out that we all suffer from decision fatigue. The more decisions we have to make in a day the harder it gets to make good ones. I think this is one of the reasons I don't mind exercising in the evenings. I admit I'm a night owl by nature and hit my stride about 7PM. Unfortunately I live in the real world and have to go to bed and rise far earlier than I'd like. <BR> <BR> After I've drug my butt out of bed I actual... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 11:04:29 EST How Did I Get So Lucky? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860616 I'm going with the suggestion to list three things I'm thankful for in my life. <BR> <BR> I'm thankful that my kids are starting to overtly support me in my life style change. They aren't fighting me on dragging them to the Y so much. My daughter saw my son's Burger King lunch bag and quizzed me on what I had for lunch. She congratulated me on eating the fish fillet without the bread or tartar sauce. It was so great that she had my back. <BR> <BR> I'm thankful that my best friend and my hus... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 22:35:32 EST The Cost of Being Healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859388 Today I did a Cost Analysis for a TOPS contest we are running through March. It took a bit of time, but it was a very eye opening and useful exercise for me. I wanted to share it here. I think It would really be beneficial for anyone struggling with these life changing decisions. After all, we have to change our lives because if we don't we won't be able to maintain our health and fitness. Unfortunately, the table format doesn't translate here so I had to get creative. <BR> <BR> Cost Benefi... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 10:00:54 EST Be Your Own Competition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859012 I was really terribly excited about my workout yesterday. I finally broke 12 mph on the stationary bike. I'm sure I looked like a maniac while fist pumping, covered in sweat with my face a alarming shade of puce. I'm very happy with myself. <BR> <BR> My Dear Husband is a cyclist. This will be his fourth year doing the PanOhio Hope Ride: a four day 328 mile ride across the State of Ohio to raise money for the American Cncer Society and the Ohio Hope lodges. It starts at the Hope lodge in Clev... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 20:34:15 EST Am I Willing to Pay the Piper? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857167 I lost 3.2 pounds this week. I'm so proud of myself. This wasn't excess water, it was fat. I can pick up 3 boxes of butter and feel and see the loss. <BR> <BR> I'm sore from my workout yesterday, but it's worth it. It was my first full strength training session. Unfortunately I woke up in pain a few more times than I usually do, but that means I'm changing. I'm making progress. I know I need to take a day off. The big test is whether I can get myself into the gym tomorrow. Missing just one ... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 13:46:41 EST Get Creative and Get Healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855706 I'm very lucky and I know it. Like everyone I know, we've gone through some grim times. My husband finally found a better job and we are fortunate to be able to afford the $90/month YMCA membership for our whole family. Our private training sessions are part of that membership. My mom is getting her individual membership that would be $25 through Medicaid and Silver Sneakers. She also has an aqua aerobics course that they cover too. My daughter also qualifies for a free membership through Med... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 10:46:08 EST There are No "Ladies" at the Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855376 I saw a video today on what women really look like as they workout as compared to what the media projects. We don't glisten, we sweat. We jiggle. We occasional ripple. We smell bad and make unladylike noises too. <BR> <BR> Their are far too many of us that care too much about what is expected of us and how people might think of us. It makes us reluctant or even down right scared of showing our imperfect, very human bodies out in public. We feel like we're on display and open wide to critici... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 22:11:40 EST Eva vs the Treadmill or I'm Entitled to Make a Fool of Myself Once a Day Without Losing Self Esteem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854612 I didn't think I would be back at the YMCA today, so I did my day off 10 minutes walking at Sam's Club. It felt good and I still had lots of energy so I ended up doing another 10 min at the grocery store. I marked it down feeling satisfied with myself. <BR> <BR> Then my husband came home and asked me if we were going to work out tonight. I was so thrilled he wanted to go I got my things together. Our daughter came too. I didn't think I would last long after my other walks. I climbed on one ... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 21:34:41 EST Victory Is Mine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853818 I did it! I managed to drag most of my family with me to our home YMCA tonight. I'm trying very hard to be a positive influence and example to my kids and husband despite my size. I ran out of my protein meal replacement shakes so it's been a strange day for me. I did alright until dinner when I was left with eating homemade pizza with my family. I immediately felt the difference: nauseous, fatigue, and a bit of disorientation. I took all those carbs and went to the gym. <BR> <BR> I did a 15... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 21:01:11 EST Now The Real Work Starts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852818 I weighed in at the YMCA in Powell yesterday. I don't know how far off it is from the scale in my doctor's office. I've decided I don't really care at this point. I'll use this as my starting point and weigh at that Y in the same clothes every Sunday. <BR> <BR> If it's close to my doc's scale, I've lost about 9 pounds. I expected that. I know it's mostly water weight. Now the real work begins. <BR> <BR> I know not to get nuts about this first loss because it isn't really fat. I won't have w... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 15:50:24 EST Sore But Satisfied http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852049 I made it back to the YMCA today. I gave my arms a break because after using the elliptical yesterday my upper body is feeling it. I did stretch them out which seemed to help. I got 30 minutes and 5 miles in on the stationary bicycle. It's no where near what I need to do to keep up with the rest of my family, but it's a start. I'm glad I went back although I'm taking tomorrow off. Sun, 11 Jan 2015 18:32:46 EST Using My Time More WIsely http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851228 It's colder than Mars in my part of the country now. I'm very grateful for my YMCA membership. I had the chance to try out the Y near where my daughter works which is 30 minutes from home so I usually hang at Panera, eat a bagel and get some coffee while I read a wait for her to get done. Instead I packed a couple protein bars and water and went to the Y. It's basically the same as my home base and has all my favorite things (including the seated elliptical) with hot showers being a glaring e... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 18:08:28 EST Tell Them About It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850293 Four days back on my feet, taking control of my life and I'm feeling pretty good. At 800 calories a day I feel pretty good an I'm not starving like usual. My family is still trying to adjust to the change, especially since I'm cooking for them. They are starting to come around. My eleven year old tried to feed me a candy cane. I gently reminded him I couldn't have it and he apologized sweetly saying he forgot. <BR> <BR> I recently wrote that my family and friends often seemed to subconscious... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 12:01:29 EST Getting It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849534 I think that my family is finally starting to “get it”. I served steak, broccoli, and baked steak fries to my family for dinner last night. They asked me if I was eating and I said no. They asked me why. I explained to them that, as they know, I'm signing up for the RounY gastric. That means I'm planning have someone reduce the size of my stomach from the bottomless 2 liter pit to the size of an egg. I told them I wouldn't be able to eat like that again after the surgery so I might as well ge... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 13:29:21 EST Love Myself Now Enough to Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849507 I am trying very hard to be positive and love myself. Now. While I'm fat. While I'm struggling. I have a really bad habit of putting myself last and going without for others. I need to remember that I am beautiful and desirable, and worthy and deserving of love. How can I care for someone else if I can't care for myself properly? How can anyone else love me if I can't love me. So here I am hoping I can give and receive encouragement so that all of us can love ourselves enough right now as we ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 12:49:34 EST Making Better Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848756 So day three of my high protein liquid meal replacement plan, I had my weekly outing with my mom and best girlfriend to a local breakfast joint. I was able to choose the egg white omelet and refused the bread and potatoes on the side although the server didn't make it easy. I took the fruit which I couldn't eat and gave it to my mom. I recorded it all after finding I could indeed fit the SparkPeople app on my poor old iPhone 4. I felt very good about my choices. Then plans went awry. <BR> <B... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 16:02:46 EST Loving Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847938 "you’re beautiful even though you’re fat. <BR> <BR> you’re beautiful and fat. <BR> <BR> stop acting like these are exclusionary words that don’t belong in a sentence together." - Housewifeswag via Tumblr <BR> <BR> I need to hear this every day, maybe several times a day, until I really truly believe it! Tue, 6 Jan 2015 19:06:20 EST Finding the Miraculous in My Life Everyday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5117852 My sister from another mother was in a bad car accident last night. I'd been worried for her because she was running late. She was supposed to have dinner with us before we left for my TOPS group. I decided I would be late and drive to my Mom's where she had left from to see if I could find her. <BR> <BR> She had made it to my apartment complex before things went horribly wrong. It seems as though she blacked out while turning and lost control of her car. She crashed through a small tree and... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 11:39:06 EST I Will Not Treat Myself Like a Garbage Can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5116736 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1805849999.jpg">I was truly inspired by a post on a message board. It was posted on August 14, 2012 by SJKRACH. This entry really made me think and I wanted to share it with my TOPS group as the program for tonight. I had a devil of a time tracking it down because I thought it had been posted as a blog instead of a message board. Here is the post: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> "Garbage Can Body? <BR> <BR> Over the last few days I've realized that ... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 12:24:37 EST What an Amazing Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5114145 Today was a really wonderful day for me. Every year around this time are the school Harvest Parties for my kids. My little guy is the last elementary student we have. I went to his 3rd grade class today. Having been through many of these gatherings over the years (my oldest Dear Daughter is now 16) I noticed some big differences. <BR> <BR> There are only 3 handicap parking places at the school and I had to walk a quarter of a mile from my parking spot. I was able to do this. The pain was the... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 21:45:24 EST Adapt and Overcome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112730 After camping, I had a really hard time getting back into my routine. I got the creeping crud my mom and husband had. By the time I started to feel better I was dealing with lots of stress from the kids' schools. I either got sick again or never managed to completely get over the crud leading up to lots of work for our annual Halloween party. <BR> <BR> It was a fun, successful party that turned out much like the camping trip two weekends before. I ended up supervising teens, running for supp... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 17:16:10 EST The End of an Era? Disenchanting Camping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090349 I had a really rough weekend camping physically, mentally and emotionally. It used to be so much fun. I would look forward to it all year. I usually end up with the lion's share of the work, but I didn't mind so much because the benefits outweighed the draw backs. <BR> <BR> My husband came down with the creeping crud Wednesday and didn't go with us Thursday night when we left. My Mom who is usually also there was getting over the crud she gave to my hubby so she didn't spend much time either... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 18:26:23 EST Walking the Path or Not Letting Camping destroy my Program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5086554 It's been pretty crazy for me juggling four kids and my husband these last couple weeks. I've wanted to sit down and write, but just haven't really had he time. That's a real shame too. I find that journaling is the best way for me to sort out what I'm thinking and how I feel. <BR> <BR> Physically I feel fairly good today. I started my aqua therapy and it felt good until I walked another mile doing laps at the grocery store immediately afterwards. I really had to put my leg up and ice my kne... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 12:11:48 EST Baby Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5073298 I'm preparing for another TOPS meeting. I've got laundry started, a healthy dinner in the crock pot and protein thawing in the refrigerator for tomorrow's dinner. As I wait for time to go I'm sitting here troubled. I visited my Sports Medicine doctor last week. He took a look at my knee which has been constantly swollen and in pain. He said that I'm not ready for surgery yet, but I shouldn't be working with a personal trainer. My knee is too injured for that. I need to get back into Aqua Ther... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 17:21:29 EST Focusing on the Right Things Makes All the Difference http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5064709 I had a good strength training work out with my Personal Trainer yesterday afternoon. I also made it back to TOPS with my BF in tow. I wish we lived closer so she could come with me all the time, but she would be better served finding a local chapter. <BR> <BR> The program was two halves of a whole concept; how our tendency to concentrate on how we didn't meet our goals is discouraging as opposed to how we feel when we make small achievable goals and meet them. I really found it helpful. <... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 10:45:25 EST Moving in the Right Direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063045 I had a good day yesterday. I got the kids to enjoy Honey Bran Muffins with an addition of a handful of chocolate chips. I got to play Guild Wars 2. For dinner I made Buffalo Chicken Pizza with my 33% red wheat herbed pizza crust. These are small triumphs along the way to getting my family to come with me on this. <BR> <BR> I also got to the office, which is a 5 minute walk for me each way, and on the stationary bike for 50 minutes. I feel tired, accomplished and fulfilled. Today I meet with... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 11:14:38 EST From the Inside Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5004229 I went for my second session with my Personal Trainer today. We meet in a workout room at an apartment complex near my Dear Friend's home. I was able to very slowly and carefully get on a tread mill and walk for 7 minutes holding on for dear life the whole time. I also used the "gynecology" machine as that one comedian calls it. As I was opening and closing my legs towards the parking lot, I began to look at myself. <BR> <BR> I tend to think of myself in terms of being trapped in a piece of ... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 22:18:03 EST Silver Linings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4999388 So far so good. It's Friday and I have been back at tracking my nutrition for five days. The only hitch I have is Monday is short an entry for high fiber nutrition cookies I had at my friend's house.As I sit here typing this all in, the survival show my kids are watching has been interrupted for a Lipozene commercial, yet another miracle drug to solve all your problems. As much as I wish these things were true, I know better. There are no shortcuts to getting fit and healthy. <BR> <BR> I fin... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 10:50:00 EST Keeping it Real http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4996123 After my terrific weight loss, I went to a pain doc and started a medication for my arthritis that seems to have increased my appetite severely. It has helped with my arthritis pain, but I've gained back 15 pounds which makes everything worse. I've quit taking it and can already feel a difference in my comfort level and my appetite. I believe being able to have control over what I eat and make better choices will be better for me in the long run than the benefits of the arthritis medication. ... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 10:24:07 EST Black Holes and Revelations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862036 On Optifast I've finally learned something that I've been "not getting" for a long time. I need to treat food like medicine my body needs to be healthy. There is good medicine that builds a stronger healthier me and foods that are to be taken in very limited quantities because too much is detrimental to my health and well being. <BR> <BR> I have used food for everything but what I truly need it for. I eat when I'm not hungry and indulge when I feel like I need comforting. I eat when I'm bore... Tue, 1 May 2012 21:37:34 EST Dilemma for Anniversary Movie Marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4840873 My problem is this, although I'm really truly looking forward to the Marvel Movie Marathon leading up to the release of the new Avengers movie, I've realized I've committed a grave oversight. I forgot that I'll be a the theater over 14 hrs and will need to stick to my diet somehow. <BR> <BR> I'm thinking I want to sneak my hand shaker/blender in so I can use my shakes for the day. The Optifast protein bars are for the 800 calorie program and have twice the carbs that I'm used to. They are al... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 11:32:34 EST Struggling with Sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4840856 I'm having a rougher time this week. I've lost 20 lbs in two weeks but it isn't getting easier. A big part of the problem is my family. My kids aren't using the quick and easy dinners I got for them to prepare and they leave food everywhere. I've finally dug out of the Easter candy I've been surrounded in for almost two weeks. My husband is no better. He's spending so much money eating out for lunch instead of bringing it to work and then bring home crap for him and the kids. <BR> <BR> Sund... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 11:19:55 EST