LDYSABELLA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LDYSABELLA LDYSABELLA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Breaking Through The Plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949488 We had a good TOPS meeting tonight, short but productive. I weighed in another three pounds down at 296.8 lbs after drinking a ton of water today. I think I've broken May's plateau, and I'm finally moving on. I'm closing in on a major milestone. I haven't weighed under 291 lbs since I got pregnant with my youngest DD who is now 14. Coincidentally 290.4 lbs is also the point when I can say I've lost 20% of my starting body weight. I'm really excited to see 290 lbs. <BR> <BR> I stepped up my ... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 23:49:44 EST Lesson Relearned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940807 We had a wonderful trip yesterday with the kids. I filled up on a turkey wrap and skipped ice cream because they didn't have a flavor of frozen yogurt that appealed to me. Later my DH and I went to look at furniture for the new house. We then went to B Spot. I knew he would love it. I got a burger without bun and split fries with him. I did get a beer and I wish I hadn't. I tried a familiar style, but I didn't really like it that much. I shouldn't have finished it. <BR> <BR> I've got really ... Sat, 6 Jun 2015 17:09:58 EST Roadtrip Immenent, Drink Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939498 It's funny, but I look forward to school getting out almost as much as my kids. We'll be taking a trip to the Old Mill in Utica for Velvet Ice Cream to celebrate. I'll get frozen yogurt and pick up all kinds of wonderful healthy food afterwards at our favorite little Amish grocers and Legend Hills Orchard. <BR> <BR> I've discovered that my Total Soy Meal replacement shakes do help me a lot. I'm sleeping much better now and less hungry and cranky. My favorite thing to do for one of my 5-6 sma... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 08:48:39 EST And She Scores! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939228 I'm so very excited that I actually made my goal of weighing in under 300 lbs at my 6 month check up at the doctor's office. I was so discouraged last year weighing in at my highest ever, 363.0 lbs, on my 45th birthday. It took me until January 7th to bite the bullet and start doing something about it. I was ready to give up and sign up for bariatric surgery. Then I discovered that with my new more generous prescription for pain medication. I could actually exercise long enough to really feel... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 19:09:54 EST Recovering Momentum and NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935631 These last few weeks have been really challenging for me. I've got many more steps in, but I've had less energy for structured exercise. I need to get back into the habit of getting to the YMCA although I have gone to the apartment office gym. This week I tried to start back into longer sessions of cardio on the bike. Unfortunately I've switch to the upright cycles and don't have gel shorts or a seat cover. I had to wait several days afterwards to heal. Over all I've had a reemergence of inso... Thu, 28 May 2015 09:51:27 EST A Mother's Day To Remember http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926017 I had a great Mother's Day. I didn't have to pick up Alex from work so my DH went with me to drop her off, then took our son and I out for lunch. I made healthy choices I felt good about. <BR> <BR> After the food finally settled, I headed into my local YMCA in Gahanna to do upper body ST after a quick elliptical warm up. After I lifted, I went back to do some extended cardio only to stop 5 minutes in for an alarm. I'm usually there earlier in the day on Sundays so I didn't realize it closes ... Sun, 10 May 2015 22:12:23 EST Goals Are What Motivates You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911086 A new subject on one of my new teams, Beast Mode, had me thinking about writing up my goals. It Inspired me to update my page and include them in a post. I like to be able to look back at my blog to get a better picture of how far I've come. It really helps when things get tough. <BR> <BR> My long term goal is to go from my starting 363.0 lbs to 170 lbs. I'd love to be a size 14. <BR> I want to be able to do my own pedicures despite my arthritis. I want to weigh less than my husband and have... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 09:54:45 EST Gearing Up For Greek Easter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909107 I've had a really great week so far. I'm going into Greek Easter in a good place. I hope I can come out of it maintaining for the week. I weigh in on Monday night so I'd be thrilled to keep my 315.0 lbs. <BR> <BR> Greek Easter is so much fun there will be lots of dancing. There will also be lots of alcohol and food, tons of food and wonderful lovely people chasing me down and placing it in my hands. If you've ever seen My Big Fat Greek Wedding you have clue as to how big the party will be. D... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 22:02:11 EST Marching on into April http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904986 March has been full of ups and downs for our family. I was doing really well and totally psyched for the Spring challenge when a family crisis sent me to childrens hospital with our youngest daughter. After she was released, we ended up taking an impromptu vacation to help shore up family bonds. It's been difficult for me to stick to routines when away from home and having to rely on eating out with no access to a gym. I did the best I could with spotty internet and managed to miss only a cou... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 20:51:00 EST I Need Sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891686 I've been tracking a lot of things since I started over again: energy, mood, and self esteem among all the rest. The one thing that is tied to all of these is sleep. <BR> <BR> I've found the biggest indicator of how any given day is going to go for me is how the quantity and quality of sleep I got the night before. It makes a huge difference. I struggle to fall asleep and stay asleep. Although I'm fortunate not to have sleep anpea, I wake up in pain or with restless legs many times a night. ... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 11:00:50 EST Mondays are Underrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890112 It's Monday night which is now my weigh in. I know it's after the weekend and a full day of eating and drinking, but it works for me. It makes me hyper aware that what I do on the weekend will come back to haunt me sooner than later. <BR> <BR> I expected to have a gain or the stay the same because that's what happened when I started strength training. Instead I weighed in with a 3.6 lb. loss. I was surprised. This puts me 2 pounds past a medium term goal for me of losing 10% of my starting b... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 21:06:58 EST What am I Doing Right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889471 What's so different this time around? Why am I maintaining and even gaining momentum? <BR> <BR> I guess the biggest thing is I've learned to love myself enough to fight for me. I'm a caretaker like so many of us are. Someone pointed out that I needed to evaluate my priority list. When I looked hard at mine, I realized that I wasn't even on it. <BR> <BR> So many people were before my own needs: spouse, kids, parents, family, and friends. My needs got taken care of last with the dregs of tim... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 20:49:21 EST It's The Little Things That Make The Change Worth It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888157 I have been doing so much better getting around the last few weeks, Hopefully in a couple more months I'll be able to move around without the cane and handicap placard. I only need the assistance for snow and ice or stairs. <BR> <BR> I have had a very hard time doing regular chores for a while now because of my weight and arthritis. While laundry is still sketchy because of the two flights of stairs between the hamper and the machines I did something amazing today. I spent a couple hours scr... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 13:26:04 EST Upping My Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887677 This morning I was writing an intro for the Neon Ninjas team. When asked what my favorite hobbies were, the first thing that came to mind was going to the gym. I would have never dreamed I would feel that way, but I do now. I really enjoy it. <BR> <BR> My favorite cardio exercises are currently the seated elliptical and biking. I'm still too heavy to sustain body weight exercises with the severe arthritis in my knees. I got on a regular bike today and was kind of surprised. It was easier tha... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 17:55:28 EST What a Day, Times Flies, and All That Jazz http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885903 I had one really busy day today. I got the girls to the hospital to pick up their paperwork for the summer volunteer program. I was able to video chat with my DH in Lyon and look over his pictures of Paris. <BR> <BR> I got to the Y and broke the 14.0 mph barrier on the bike as a warm up, then pumped our my strength training routine. I raised weight on almost all exercises too. I didn't really have two days completely off as I spent yesterday walking around COSI with my kids including some h... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 23:14:18 EST When Short February's Done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885109 Here we are at the beginning of a new month. February was short, but very sweet for me. I started the month at 348.8 lbs. I'm not sure where I ended it it as my weigh in isn't until tomorrow night, but as of last Monday night I was 333.4 lbs. putting me at a 15.4 lbs. loss for the month. My goal for February was to lose 10 lbs. <BR> <BR> Other more important indicators for me are just as telling. My jeans are baggy and I've had to move my car seat up several times. I'm needing less pain medi... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 21:53:38 EST Looking Forward to Enjoying Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882175 I'm getting the hang of socializing while maintaining my lifestyle changes. My Dear Husband came home from work ready to hit the gym so we went on an active date. <BR> <BR> We rode bikes side by side and I resisted the urge to compete with anyone but myself. He has done the Pan Ohio three years in a row and will be making that 328 mile trip across Ohio in four days again this July. I hope to one day be up to it but for now I'm concentrating on beating my personal best. <BR> <BR> Afterwards... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 23:37:42 EST The Joys of Strength Training http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881339 As I was commenting on a blog today, I noticed my response was quickly growing into a blog post of its own. I really love strength training and I want to tell you why. Although you don't get that sticker shock award for burning huge amounts of cardio calories, it has an appeal all its own. I love the feeling of conquering a weight that started out as difficult. Knowing I've grown stronger and can add new weight is great. I love how it makes me feel powerful. I love counting out the reps and ... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 18:13:59 EST Learning to Live With It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879598 Tonight we had another movie night tonight with special food. Our friend brought a dish made from a Thug Kitchen recipe: Roasted Brussel Sprouts and Quinoa with @$!#/ Cranberries. It was delicious and better for me than the Buffalo Chicken Garbage Bread and Frank's Buffalo Chicken Dip. I'm so great full for our agreement to swap. <BR> <BR> It can be hard to resist temptation. I ended up going a little over my calories to enjoy the new Kentucky Bourbon Barrel Barley Wine. It's my one drink fo... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 20:40:36 EST Making Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879072 I had a great workout while the girls went to their first spinning class. Then I went and locked the only key to the Pacifica in the car. Part of the problem was I had too much to carry and couldn't feel my fingers, even with gloves on. Thank goodness we were already home. I could just kick myself, but I'm not that flexible yet. <BR> <BR> I got 70 minutes of strength training in tonight along with a 23 minute cardio warm up on the elliptical. I'm still just doing core, arms, back and chest. ... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 22:59:25 EST A Weekend of Adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878163 I'm finally getting a chance to sit down and write after a four day weekend with all three kids and their friends at home. Besides the temptation of Valentines Day in general, my husband wanted a party with guests and snacks and party food. The snow actually made it a very small party as well as preventing me from getting away to do my strength training. I survived by making my skinny pizza and lots of veggies with Greek yogurt ranch dip. <BR> <BR> I did get to my strength training Sunday a... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 13:48:25 EST A Different Kind of Workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875338 This will be the first time since I started that I really true meant to go get my cardio in, but didn't. I feel like I have already hit that minus the wonderful feel good endorphins. I'm worn out. I did the shopping for the next two weeks for my family of five today, bringing home lots of high quality protein, fruits and veggies. I hit four different stores, ran to the school campus three times, and did tons of walking, lifting, and stairs. <BR> <BR> My only regret is that I don't have a re... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 21:34:29 EST It's The Simple Things That Make The Struggle Worthwhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874727 This is going to sound strange, but I've found another way to measure my progress. I managed to get two loads of laundry rolled down two flights of stairs and then made several trips carefully wading through the basement to run both of them. I climbed stairs up and down at least ten times today. With my knee that's a major achievement. <BR> <BR> I haven't been able to do my own laundry for about a year now because of my arthritis in my knee. I've been paying my kids to do it for me, but they... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 20:48:46 EST I Had My Date and Got to Eat Too http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874122 I'm going to sleep well tonight! I took Alex Sines and two of her friends with me to the YMCA. We got a great workout in before going out for the night. <BR> <BR> My DH and I love Pasttimes which is a little bar and grill nearby. It has mostly fried foods, great wings, sandwiches or pizza, and the best tater tots ever. This isn't good for me since I'm doing low carbs. I ordered the Greek nachos which is supposed to be gyro meat, black olives, tomatoes, feta, and tzatziki (cucumber sauce) ov... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 21:39:46 EST Persistence Pays Off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873478 I had a strong finish to a blah day. I woke up tired ad drug my butt all day. I did manage to get down into the basement to run laundry, which is a real hard thing for me. It's a regular mine field down there and I can't effectively use my cane. I also got clean clothes back, folded and put away so my workout gear was ready to go. <BR> <BR> I made it back to TOPS finally last night. It was like coming home. I weighed in four pounds lighter than my set weight on Saturday mornings and that was... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 22:21:39 EST Goals In Sight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872371 I've had a very full and wonderful weekend. I got all my errands done and managed to get in my full strength training Saturday and a good cardio workout on the recumbent bike on Sunday. <BR> <BR> I'm improving on stamina, but I really want to get my resistance and RPMs up. I figure it will come with time. At my weight and with my build, it's like I'm pedaling with a toddler strapped to each thigh. <BR> <BR> I also played hard both days. We had guests over to Saturday. I made my super thin ... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 09:22:00 EST Keep at It Because Sometimes It's Just Hard to Get Started http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870959 I didn't sleep very well last night. I never sleep as well after one of my light days. I woke up groggy and achy after a very restless night. I kicked myself in the pants and waited for my girls to get home to make sure I was properly motivated to get to the YMCA. With three teens in tow, we made it there and back in time to enjoy the rest of our evenings. <BR> <BR> I got in a short burst of cardio, 22 minutes walking for weight bearing exercise and 33 min on the seated elliptical, that I di... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 22:48:17 EST Finding Joy in the Job of Getting Fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869715 I got to the YMCA tonight before the snow started. It was great to have my two daughters and adoptive DD with me. They have been incredibly supportive. I'm having a great time. My workouts are less work and more gratification. I love each time I can push a little harder, lift a little more, or go a bit faster and longer. It's an incredible feeling of accomplishment, and makes me believe I can really do this. <BR> <BR> The girls are just as excited and amazed as well. They too are finding wha... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 23:07:37 EST We are Not Alone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868826 February has been great so far. I feel good, and I'm ready to carry on with new and expanded goals. I can't emphasize enough what a treasure the SparkPeople community has been. When you have as much to lose as I do, you get overwhelmed by doubt easily. Negative self talk sneaks back in as you look at that huge number of pounds you have to lose and forget about those small obtainable goals. I sometimes find myself feeling resentment or anger that I can't eat like everyone else or that I have t... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 17:16:53 EST Looking Back and Moving Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866688 I'm finishing up January with a true sense of accomplishment. I rode out my 1 pound gain last week to weigh in with a 3.8 pound loss this week. I got in to our little office gym last night and got to the Y this morning to finish the month on a high note with a rousing Strength Training session. <BR> <BR> I started the month at 363.0 lbs and finish out at 348.8 lbs. I don't ever want to see the other side of 350 again. I met and exceeded my first small obtainable goal to weigh in at 354.6 lbs... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 19:03:55 EST Coping With Stress Without Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866127 It's been a tough week. For a number of different reasons, I didn't get to the Y like I wanted this week. It was good that I took an actual several days break as the pain a clicking in my shoulder is much better now. I meant to make it back last night, but spent it in the ER with my DD until early morning. I'm tired, strung out, and having a hard time controlling what I'm eating today. This is an excellent reminder of just why I need at least 8 hours sleep to function. <BR> <BR> I was respon... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 19:51:55 EST Fitness: From Metamorphosis to a Way of Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863070 Working out has been great for me. I end up sore, but I'm always in pain anyway. Now it's satisfying proof my body is changing, a metamorphosis I'm responsible for. I can already feel the difference. Aside from moving closer to the steering wheel and yanking up my jeans, I feel stronger. I can go down stairs like an adult again, one foot at a time rather than doing the toddler shuffle. I can more easily lift my legs to mount weight and cardio machines. I also feel steadier getting into and ou... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 15:20:20 EST How do You Measure Success? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862500 I don't have much time tonight, but I'm so excited about my progress. I weighed in this morning under almost normal circumstances (different shoes and breakfast). I gained 1 pound. I'm not letting that get me down I've added strength training to my workouts and I can already feel the difference. The biggest indicator for me is my driver's seat believe it or not. I used to have to drive with it all the way back. this week I moved up a couple times. The butt of my jeans are looser and they keep... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 21:15:58 EST I've got to Believe in Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861792 I'm having a hard time today reconciling the need to go work out and not miss a day with the need to let my body recover. I'm trying very hard right now to make a habit out of going to the gym. I need to and I can see the difference after only two weeks. <BR> <BR> The problem is, depending on who you ask, it takes three weeks to 30 days to form a habit. Unlike most habits, workouts aren't something you can push through every day. Sometimes you have to give your body a rest. I'm afraid that i... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 20:02:04 EST Sometimes Later is Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860939 My husband as an IT security specialist taught a seminar in which he pointed out that we all suffer from decision fatigue. The more decisions we have to make in a day the harder it gets to make good ones. I think this is one of the reasons I don't mind exercising in the evenings. I admit I'm a night owl by nature and hit my stride about 7PM. Unfortunately I live in the real world and have to go to bed and rise far earlier than I'd like. <BR> <BR> After I've drug my butt out of bed I actual... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 11:04:29 EST How Did I Get So Lucky? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860616 I'm going with the suggestion to list three things I'm thankful for in my life. <BR> <BR> I'm thankful that my kids are starting to overtly support me in my life style change. They aren't fighting me on dragging them to the Y so much. My daughter saw my son's Burger King lunch bag and quizzed me on what I had for lunch. She congratulated me on eating the fish fillet without the bread or tartar sauce. It was so great that she had my back. <BR> <BR> I'm thankful that my best friend and my hus... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 22:35:32 EST The Cost of Being Healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859388 Today I did a Cost Analysis for a TOPS contest we are running through March. It took a bit of time, but it was a very eye opening and useful exercise for me. I wanted to share it here. I think It would really be beneficial for anyone struggling with these life changing decisions. After all, we have to change our lives because if we don't we won't be able to maintain our health and fitness. Unfortunately, the table format doesn't translate here so I had to get creative. <BR> <BR> Cost Benefi... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 10:00:54 EST Be Your Own Competition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859012 I was really terribly excited about my workout yesterday. I finally broke 12 mph on the stationary bike. I'm sure I looked like a maniac while fist pumping, covered in sweat with my face a alarming shade of puce. I'm very happy with myself. <BR> <BR> My Dear Husband is a cyclist. This will be his fourth year doing the PanOhio Hope Ride: a four day 328 mile ride across the State of Ohio to raise money for the American Cncer Society and the Ohio Hope lodges. It starts at the Hope lodge in Clev... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 20:34:15 EST Am I Willing to Pay the Piper? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857167 I lost 3.2 pounds this week. I'm so proud of myself. This wasn't excess water, it was fat. I can pick up 3 boxes of butter and feel and see the loss. <BR> <BR> I'm sore from my workout yesterday, but it's worth it. It was my first full strength training session. Unfortunately I woke up in pain a few more times than I usually do, but that means I'm changing. I'm making progress. I know I need to take a day off. The big test is whether I can get myself into the gym tomorrow. Missing just one ... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 13:46:41 EST Get Creative and Get Healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855706 I'm very lucky and I know it. Like everyone I know, we've gone through some grim times. My husband finally found a better job and we are fortunate to be able to afford the $90/month YMCA membership for our whole family. Our private training sessions are part of that membership. My mom is getting her individual membership that would be $25 through Medicaid and Silver Sneakers. She also has an aqua aerobics course that they cover too. My daughter also qualifies for a free membership through Med... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 10:46:08 EST There are No "Ladies" at the Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855376 I saw a video today on what women really look like as they workout as compared to what the media projects. We don't glisten, we sweat. We jiggle. We occasional ripple. We smell bad and make unladylike noises too. <BR> <BR> Their are far too many of us that care too much about what is expected of us and how people might think of us. It makes us reluctant or even down right scared of showing our imperfect, very human bodies out in public. We feel like we're on display and open wide to critici... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 22:11:40 EST Eva vs the Treadmill or I'm Entitled to Make a Fool of Myself Once a Day Without Losing Self Esteem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854612 I didn't think I would be back at the YMCA today, so I did my day off 10 minutes walking at Sam's Club. It felt good and I still had lots of energy so I ended up doing another 10 min at the grocery store. I marked it down feeling satisfied with myself. <BR> <BR> Then my husband came home and asked me if we were going to work out tonight. I was so thrilled he wanted to go I got my things together. Our daughter came too. I didn't think I would last long after my other walks. I climbed on one ... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 21:34:41 EST Victory Is Mine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853818 I did it! I managed to drag most of my family with me to our home YMCA tonight. I'm trying very hard to be a positive influence and example to my kids and husband despite my size. I ran out of my protein meal replacement shakes so it's been a strange day for me. I did alright until dinner when I was left with eating homemade pizza with my family. I immediately felt the difference: nauseous, fatigue, and a bit of disorientation. I took all those carbs and went to the gym. <BR> <BR> I did a 15... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 21:01:11 EST Now The Real Work Starts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852818 I weighed in at the YMCA in Powell yesterday. I don't know how far off it is from the scale in my doctor's office. I've decided I don't really care at this point. I'll use this as my starting point and weigh at that Y in the same clothes every Sunday. <BR> <BR> If it's close to my doc's scale, I've lost about 9 pounds. I expected that. I know it's mostly water weight. Now the real work begins. <BR> <BR> I know not to get nuts about this first loss because it isn't really fat. I won't have w... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 15:50:24 EST Sore But Satisfied http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852049 I made it back to the YMCA today. I gave my arms a break because after using the elliptical yesterday my upper body is feeling it. I did stretch them out which seemed to help. I got 30 minutes and 5 miles in on the stationary bicycle. It's no where near what I need to do to keep up with the rest of my family, but it's a start. I'm glad I went back although I'm taking tomorrow off. Sun, 11 Jan 2015 18:32:46 EST Using My Time More WIsely http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851228 It's colder than Mars in my part of the country now. I'm very grateful for my YMCA membership. I had the chance to try out the Y near where my daughter works which is 30 minutes from home so I usually hang at Panera, eat a bagel and get some coffee while I read a wait for her to get done. Instead I packed a couple protein bars and water and went to the Y. It's basically the same as my home base and has all my favorite things (including the seated elliptical) with hot showers being a glaring e... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 18:08:28 EST Tell Them About It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850293 Four days back on my feet, taking control of my life and I'm feeling pretty good. At 800 calories a day I feel pretty good an I'm not starving like usual. My family is still trying to adjust to the change, especially since I'm cooking for them. They are starting to come around. My eleven year old tried to feed me a candy cane. I gently reminded him I couldn't have it and he apologized sweetly saying he forgot. <BR> <BR> I recently wrote that my family and friends often seemed to subconscious... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 12:01:29 EST Getting It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849534 I think that my family is finally starting to “get it”. I served steak, broccoli, and baked steak fries to my family for dinner last night. They asked me if I was eating and I said no. They asked me why. I explained to them that, as they know, I'm signing up for the RounY gastric. That means I'm planning have someone reduce the size of my stomach from the bottomless 2 liter pit to the size of an egg. I told them I wouldn't be able to eat like that again after the surgery so I might as well ge... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 13:29:21 EST Love Myself Now Enough to Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849507 I am trying very hard to be positive and love myself. Now. While I'm fat. While I'm struggling. I have a really bad habit of putting myself last and going without for others. I need to remember that I am beautiful and desirable, and worthy and deserving of love. How can I care for someone else if I can't care for myself properly? How can anyone else love me if I can't love me. So here I am hoping I can give and receive encouragement so that all of us can love ourselves enough right now as we ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 12:49:34 EST Making Better Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848756 So day three of my high protein liquid meal replacement plan, I had my weekly outing with my mom and best girlfriend to a local breakfast joint. I was able to choose the egg white omelet and refused the bread and potatoes on the side although the server didn't make it easy. I took the fruit which I couldn't eat and gave it to my mom. I recorded it all after finding I could indeed fit the SparkPeople app on my poor old iPhone 4. I felt very good about my choices. Then plans went awry. <BR> <B... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 16:02:46 EST