LBEILMAN's SparkPeople Blog LBEILMAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Has it really been over a year????? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> That's me....the youngest and heaviest sister ( the one on the far left). That picture was taken 2 years ago and I am even heavier now :(. I couldn't find a picture of me currently but I would say I have 10 more pounds on me from that picture. <BR> <BR> So, I am back. I have a new grandson who will make his appearance in late June. My goal is to lose at least 20 lbs by then. That is doable. My friend, St... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 21:15:03 EST Day 27.... A gorgeous day outside too! I have been MIA for a couple of days. I ate healthy until 2 days ago and then BOOM.... I couldn't seem to stop myself! I had nachos, chips, soda....repeat.... The entire time I was binging I was thinking to myself... WHY are you doing this to yourself??? Well I woke up today sore....,my feet are swollen from salt.. .I feel horrible.... it is a GREAT reminder of WHY I need to work hard so back on track I am today! <BR> Yesterday was my niece's baby shower... 2 of my sisters were there.... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 09:43:51 EST Day 22 ~ Dragging! I'm so very tired today. Mondays I work from 7 am to 10:30 pm so they beat me down pretty hard. I do that on Wednesday's too. By the time I catch back up on sleep and things, it's monday all over again! ugh! <BR> Drinking a shake for breakfast. Thought maybe I would try this out this week. Give me energy and it's easy. Hopefully it will help kickstart a loss for me! <BR> Got to get my water in today. 2 glasses down so far already! :) <BR> Hope you all have a fabulous day! <BR> Lucy Tue, 22 Jan 2013 07:45:57 EST Day 21 ~ A day to remember We don't have school today but we do have teacher inservice. I dislike inservice and especially on a day such as this. Martin Luther King should be remembered and it should be a day of reflection, not work. Maybe that is just my thoughts... <BR> A new week. I actually walked for 5 minutes yesterday! I know 5 minutes isn't much but it is if you are my weight and haven 't exercised in years!! Baby steps. <BR> Breakfast in. Inservice lunch today so I will have to really watch what I put i... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 08:09:11 EST Day 20 ~ Scale still not moving I have so much weight to lose, yet the scale is not moving at all! I don't understand!! I have to be doing something wrong but I can't figure it out!! By this time on WW I had lost 20 pounds... I'm still teetering around the 13 I lost... sometimes I'm even up?!? I don't get it. I'm getting upset and discouraged but I REFUSE to give up. <BR> Lucy Sun, 20 Jan 2013 09:50:06 EST Day 17 ~ Follow Through~ I have made the small changes in my life, but I think it's time to add more and DO MORE. I have to get some of this weight off!!! <BR> <BR> One thing I need to add is: <BR> NO MORE POPCORN AT THE BASKETBALL GAMES! oh my! Today I am as big as a blowfish from all of the salt and I don't EVEN want to think about the butter/oil that probably was on it. and yes, I ate the entire box. NOT SMART. SO, no more popcorn even if i do allow for the exta calories. nope., <BR> <BR> more e... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 07:54:18 EST Day 16.....half way through the month! Quick blog.... <BR> <BR> Lots to do today! <BR> 1. Stay on plan! <BR> 2 Drink my water <BR> 3. Stay on plan! <BR> 4. Drink my water! <BR> <BR> I think you can see where I'm going with this today! lol <BR> Have a happy and healthy day everyone!!! <BR> Lucy Wed, 16 Jan 2013 07:43:19 EST Day 15 ~ Flu Bug~ Flu bug got me....again! ugh. so yesterday the eating and drinking came to a screaching halt. I was in bed by 8 with the chills. Woke up this morning a little blah feeling but had to go to work because I had an IEP at 7:45. So off to work I went! By noon I was feeling great!! YIPPY!!! <BR> <BR> I probably overate at lunch because I was hungry. I had a tuna sandwhich (on orawheat bun) , cantelope, and some low fat baked chips. LOTS more than I am used to but man was I HUNGRY! <BR> ... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 18:43:35 EST Day 14, 2013 Monday blues Got up this morning, showered and then went in to turn on my tanning bed so I could warm up and tan......and no tanning bed. I about cried. I forgot my middle daughter "borrowed" it yesterday and it will be at her house until late summer. so sad! :*( <BR> Agenda for today: <BR> <BR> 1. GET MY WATER DRANK TODAY! <BR> 2. Eat right <BR> 3. Go teach :) <BR> 4. Come home, eat a sensible supper <BR> 5. Go to Hays and tan in my tanning bed! haha <BR> 6. Teach my GED class <BR> 7. Get ho... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 08:11:45 EST Day 13 ~ Making a few more changes! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This picture is of my gorgeous daughter, Vanessa, who will be getting married this July 13th. She is yet another reason for my newfound journey to get some of this weight off. Today is my 13th day on my journey. She is getting married on the 13th.... time to make even more changes. <BR> <BR> One thing I love to do is tan. I own my own tanning bed. Well Vanessa asked me if she could take the bed to her hous... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 09:47:38 EST Day 12 BEAUTIFUL day outside....feeling GREAT! I may not have lost last week and in the past, I would have given up and ate whatever I wanted because I would think myself a failure. But a failure I was NOT last week. I may not have seen a loss, but I stayed on plan and THAT is a SUCCESS. I WILL see the loss, I just have to be patient and keep trying! <BR> <BR> I got a surprise last night! My youngest brought her boyfriend over to the house. I have met him before and really like him but she NEVER brings her boyfriends home .... well ... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 10:48:38 EST Day 11.... No loss???? I have been great this week! The only thing I have eaten bad for me was last night at the basketball game....and it was popcorn!!! I know it's not healthy but I'm rather disappointed I saw no loss this week!!! I have so much to lose I was sure I would lose something! SO DISAPPOINTED!!!! I've stayed within my calorie intake..... I just don't get it. but this time is different because this time I'm still NOT GIVING UP! I will trudge forward with a positive attitude and try even harder th... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 07:49:49 EST Day 10... Quick entry today but making one just to keep myself focused! <BR> <BR> Late night with teaching so that means I woke up late.... ate my breakfast... now I need to hop in the shower and get myself to school. Have a good day everyone! <BR> Lucy Thu, 10 Jan 2013 08:08:20 EST Day 9, 2013 Early day...let's get this day started! Wednesdays are my early mornings and late nights... don't really look forward to them! I have to be to school 45 minutes earlier then usual because we have wednesday morning meetings.... and then I teach GED courses for adult education in the evening tonight so that runs until 10pm which makes me getting home around 1030.... yep, don't like wednesdays! haha <BR> <BR> Logged my food already for breakfast and lunch. Check. <BR> Shower taken. Check. <BR> Lunch packed. Check. <BR> Dressed and... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 07:48:11 EST Day 8....and still going. I know they say it takes about 20 days for something to kick I'm getting close to half way there. So far though, I haven't really felt the urge to binge (except for that bread the other night) and that is good. I've driven by fast food restaurants without even a glance their way. I feel good about my decision to become healthy this year! <BR> <BR> Short post today as I overslept...Good breakfast already eaten and a nice hot bath ready to be jumped into! <BR> <BR> Today's plan... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 07:47:42 EST Day 7, 2013 Monday, Here I come! Excited for today! Notre Dame is playing tonight for first so I would like to wish them LUCK tonight! GO IRISH!!! <BR> <BR> Did okay over the weekend. I say okay because I found bread and made toast. AH! Before I even realized what I was doing, I had 3 pieces eaten! 3!!!! Holy moley!!! Well, needless to say there is no more white bread in my house. I just can't be trusted just yet! <BR> <BR> Looking forward to this week. See what all I can do! It's going to be super busy but I ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 07:55:20 EST Day 6, 2013 Lazy Sunday Still feeling good about my decision to make a life change! Usually by now I have snuck food and lied about it! <em>24</em> Not this time! Went out to eat with my sister and Jaci yesterday and did what I was supposed to do! I read an article on here the other day about ordering ala carte instead of just off the menu. DID that! Got some water too. Felt great eating right out in public! I also was mindful to "not be the first one done" which I generally am. That is one hard habit to ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 10:15:50 EST Day 5, 2013 Trying to stay on track during the sleep over with my granddaughter! Jaci got to spend the night with Nana last night! She came over and helped me take tickets at the basketball game....well she stamped hands for me. She was so darn cute and everybody loved her!!! <BR> Although I love basketball does come with it's evils....popcorn, dogs..nachos.... YIKES! <BR> Jaci had to have a hot dog.... looked good but I didn't even take a bite! Then as I was taking tickets, I looked up and my youngest was standing there in line!!! I was sooooo... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 09:33:59 EST Day 4, 2013 First WEIGH IN day Drumroll please.............................. I LOST 5 POUNDS! :) <BR> <BR> I've lost 5 pounds this week! This is a good start! I decided to weigh myself on Fridays and Mondays. (Mondays to keep me from cheating on the weekends! haha) Pretty proud of my loss!!! I already even FEEL better!!! Once this darn snow leaves, I am going to start walking my pugs. They need the exercise as well! I don't really walk out in the snow due to my weak knees. I'm afraid to fall on the ice and la... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 07:44:15 EST Day 3, 2013 Why can't I add a picture to my post???? I have tried 3 different computers and different pictures! Any ideas anyone? <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Today was my first day back to work. I love my job. Teaching special education is about the most rewarding career I could have chosen! LOVE IT!!! <BR> sooo.... I did well except that I didn't get much water drank. I sipped some throughout the day but didn't probably even get 2 glasses in. Need to work on that!! <BR> I did well eating.... ... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 18:18:42 EST Day 2, 2013 Last day of break. In a way, I am a little happy. I do better when I'm not at home with my kitchen so handy... <BR> Lots yet to do today. Today's list: <BR> <BR> 1. Eat breakfast <BR> 2. Tidy up house <BR> 3. Get ready, go to the school, and write that IEP that is due Friday! <BR> 4. Come home, have lunch <BR> 5. Laundry! <BR> 6. Put away the storage tubs I cleaned out yesterday! Yay me! <BR> 7. Work on yearbook <BR> 8. Eat supper <BR> 9. Take a shower <BR> 10. Tan <BR> 11. Rel... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 10:15:25 EST HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2013 is going to be AMAZING!!! A brand new day, a brand new year. A brand new set of goals, hopes, dreams, and resolutions. A brand new outlook on life. A new adventure! Welcome 2013! <BR> I've been so Blessed in my life, yet I somehow forget how Blested I am and give up on myself. I am worth it because I am surrounded by wonderful family and friends. This year I vow to wake up each morning and say something positive about myself or my life and WHY I am worth it! My goals for 2013: <BR> <BR> 1. Be positive. Th... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 10:24:43 EST End of the year thoughts.... I haven't quite decided on my New Years resolutions....instead I am reflecting back on this past year and what went wrong....or right! <BR> <BR> Things that went right..... <BR> <BR> 1. Louden was born. :) He and Jaci make this Nana sooooo happy!!! <BR> 2. Vanessa got engaged and I have a wedding to look forward to. <BR> 3. I love my family. My girls are my life. <BR> 4. I love my job. Teaching is the BEST! <BR> 5. I didn't gain weight. <BR> <BR> Things that didn't go so well...... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 09:29:26 EST Almost the new year.,... Had a wonderful day yesterday with my grandaughter, Jaci. We went to the basketball games to watch my daughter (her aunt) Caroline cheer. Jaci is so proud of her aunt Caroline! Afterwards we all went out to eat... and they chose a buffet. ugh! I chose water to drink and made a big salad consisiting of lettuce, onions, carrots, tomatoes, jalepenos, and some chicken. no dressing (not because I was trying to be good, but because I simply hate dressing! haha) Then I chose a slice of meatl... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 15:06:05 EST Yes, I am back. Please help me! I am back. I failed miserably. I weighed in today at 1 pound less then I did a year ago when I vowed to lose 100 pounds. Somehow the zeros failed to follow my measly "1" pound. I have no one to blame but myself for lack of motivation, excuses, and simply not trying. I am the excuse queen. My knees still ache every morning... when my daughters and I go shopping, I sit with the baby and they shop because it hurts too much to get up and move. I am a shell of the person I want to be. I wan... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 09:35:29 EST My one year journey to lose 100 lbs .. I read a blog about another lady who weighed 253 and made the same goal and ACHIEVED it. So there you have it. One day at a time, One week at a time, One pound at a time. It didn't come on overnight and I need to stop thinking it will come off overnight. <BR> <BR> I had to have my blood drawn for my insurance this week. I got the call from my dr today. I have to go back and have a HA1C drawn. I know what that means. Diabetes. I knew if I didn't change my ways this day would come but ... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 21:31:06 EST Dance Moms... Have any of you watched Dance Moms on TV? Well last week one of the moms finally said something to Abby... They were arguing and one of the moms said.. "I have been here ALL day while YOU were down the road EATING! Abby! STOP EATING! That is why you are FAT!" <BR> <BR> WOW! A lightbulb went off in my head... and I immediately jotted that down on a piece of paper and taped it to my fridge! Maybe it will help?! <BR> <BR> I've often wondered if my friends were embarrassed of my weight ... Sat, 16 Jun 2012 10:43:37 EST 8 lbs down thanks to all the encouragement from you all!!! I am taking to heart everything I hear from each of you. And you are all right! It isn't going to happen overnight and it is NOT a diet but rather a life style change! I've incorporated the things or ideas I get from you all. I love the ones I got on my last blog! I especially like.... even 5 minutes a day exercise will begin to make a difference even if it is in a chair! You see, I was making alllll sorts of excuses as to why I wasn't exercising but now I really have none! Another blo... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 08:43:20 EST How many times am I allowed to start over???? I've not tried. Plain and simple. I need motivation and yesterday I got the motivation I need to get some of this weight off. My daughter got engaged! Yet another reason to lose weight. However, this didn't work in the past! My eldest got married a year ago and I vowed to get the weight off but didn't lose an ounce! I had to resort to wearing a big black tent to her reception and the pictures of me are horrid! I'm so large! PLEASE let me have the courage and strength to do it ths ti... Tue, 29 May 2012 09:37:36 EST Day one complete!!! So I restarted on Mother's day. I figured...hey that is a day for mothers and I am one so I deserve to do something for me! Plus it was the day my daghters inspired me. one is complete and I didnt cheat at all! wanted to...but didn't! oh, i was in Dillons looking at the chips and candy but didn' buy ANY! THAT in itself was huge for me because usually I would buy them and them eat them ALL on my trip home... I guess I figured if they didn't make it INTO my house then it was lik... Tue, 15 May 2012 07:16:59 EST My beautiful daughters inspire me... I joined spark people back in december and since then ... i've lied to myself. oh, i try one day and the next i cheat like crazy. well yesterday all three of my gorgeous daughters were home. One in particular, Mindy, has begun her weight loss journey and she looks amazing! she truly inspires me! For mother's day, instead of candy or something like that, she bought me a george forman, got me a water bottle, and took me to GNC to purchase supplementaryshakes. today i begin. the nic... Mon, 14 May 2012 07:45:10 EST Low Sodium Recipe Ideas??!!?? Hi! I am looking for some great foods or recipes that are low in sodium! Any ideas are welcome!!! and THANKS!!! <BR> Lucy Mon, 7 May 2012 17:14:34 EST HELP! I need motivation! or just words of wisdom. What are some of the rest of you eating and HOW do you START exercising??? I"m so overweight... just walking hurts. I did work at the little kids trackmeet this Friday so a lot of moving there...and yesterday I mowed so that is a start but I could sure use words of wisdom. To anyone who answers, THANK YOU! Sun, 6 May 2012 10:36:15 EST 4-29-2012 FIRST weigh in! 8 pounds gone! I forgot to blog yesterday but let me just say... "WOOOHOOOOOOO!" I can do better. I cheated last week....a lot. Imagine what I coul do if I didn't cheat?!? I'm super psyched and can't wait to see what this week brings! <BR> I hope everyone who may be reading this has a super great week!!! Let's get HEALTHY!!!! <BR> ~Lucy Mon, 30 Apr 2012 07:37:54 EST Friday....2 days until my official FIRST Weigh In... I don't know what to think... I did good...then I did bad... did good, then bad.... sound familiar? Yep, the eating emotional roller coaster. I will say this though... I FEEL better today than I did last Friday so I hope that when I get on that scale that I see a loss! <BR> Today instead of the potato chips, I am munching on some baby carrots. I actually love carrots ..just kind of forgot about them. Today at work we teachers took our Paras out to lunch. Luckily they chose to eat at S... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 17:03:41 EST An ENTIRE bag of Mesquite BBQ chips? Why yes I did... I did sooo well allll day long and then on my way home from teaching at 10 pm last night... I did the ultimate sabatoge... I stopped by the grocery store and bought a bag of mesquite bbq chips... not the individual size but the regular size bag.... and i began eating one at a time on my drive home.... before I knew it the entire bag was gone! 1200 calories in ONE sitting at 10 pm at night! WTH was I thinking! I wasn't thinking... I was doing what I do best.. mindless EATING! I got... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 07:56:10 EST Day 3...tougher then I thought! Day 3... Why is it that I d really well all day long only to come home and sabatoge myself? I think it is because "home" is my safe place. The one place no one judges me because I am the only one home!! Well me and the pugs but I don't think they care how fat I am! <BR> Tonight I have a new strategy... <BR> Come home from school after having done really well all day... then have a nice light snack of veggies or fruit. Then DO SOMETHING... ANYTHING other than sitting in front of the TV... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 07:54:46 EST Day 1: It's story I have been Blessed to have been a mom for 25 years.... I have also been fat for 25 years. My children have never known the real me....the one who loved life and loved "doing" things. I used to be a happy size 3.....then someone told me I was fat so I became bulemic.....and became a happy size 1. My sisters were all fat and I decided early on that was NOT happeneing to me so I dieted "my bulemic diet". I looked pastey, frail, and unhealthy but people still continued to tell me how great I loo... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 18:34:40 EST