LAURENTAYLOR91's SparkPeople Blog LAURENTAYLOR91's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Start of a new me! So this week was the beginning of my meal plan and it went really well! I am very proud of myself! This weekend I've been a little "lazier" and "relaxed" but that's just to give myself break. I haven't really started working out again...only a few times this week. I really wanted to ease myself into a meal plan and make sure I stick to it! So far, so good! Starting this week I need to start working out more! What I haven't decided is if I want to use my gym facility or do insanity! I also hav... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 20:17:39 EST PREP DAY!! Yesterday we dropped of my sister and father at the airport, they are going to Australia to visit some friends of ours. I am so excited, but I am going to miss them SO MUCH! The rest of us (myself, my mother and three younger brothers) stayed in town by the Airport for the night and just arrived ome about an hour ago. And so the preparation day begins! <BR> <BR> 1) I did accomplish one task already! I sent out support letters for my missions trip to Australia this coming May! (Ironic that my... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 17:53:22 EST CHRISTMAS EVE!!! So today is Christmas Eve and I am feeling a little under the weather. I have a slight cold which is no fun at all! I am also kinda thinking and dreading the whole, "gorge" ourselves with food because it's the holidays mentality! Then there's some of my family that is like, "oh we will just suck on a carrot...we don't need to eat." I keep telling myself, it is Christmas. You're with your family, enjoy what is being served but in portions. Don't over do it. So I decided I am going to just port... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 13:10:46 EST SHOOOOPPING! So I posted earlier today about going shopping and it went really good! I wasn't exactly happy with the sizes I had to buy and all day I kept thinking about my size and all but I reminded myself of what I wrote earlier and the encouragement I received! <BR> <BR> I also realized that I keep talking about making changes and I just need to start! I talked with my mom and next week after the Christmas madness is over, her and I are going to sit down and talk about a meal plan and set one up for... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 22:22:56 EST Just Hanging In There So today my mother wanted to take my sister and I shopping, and for some reason I am insecure today. Normally, I am not. No matter my size! But for whatever reason, I am really insecure today. But I know it's going to be fine! I LOVE fashion, clothes, style and shopping! Just reminding myself that my body doesn't change over night. It takes time, work and a whole lot of sweat!!! Sat, 22 Dec 2012 11:36:09 EST My Journey Tonight, as I was sitting watching Friends I began to feel sorry for myself when I realized...if I am ever going to change my body I need to stop somewhere. I need to make a decision and stick with it. Starting out really small and working my way towards a bigger goal. That every story has to start somewhere and this is the start of my story. Sat, 22 Dec 2012 01:38:40 EST Those Little Things Today I woke up and realized that I completed the first step, I did my first day of getting back on track. But now I have to stick to it. I can talk the talk real good, but now I have to keep up this motivation, keep up the healthy eating, keep up the working out and everything! I also realized I need to start finding joy in my little accomplishments. Saying no that cookie, enjoying fruit instead, drinking water, avoiding extra flavored and sugared coffees and so on. <BR> <BR> Someone poste... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 12:49:55 EST ugh....reality check. Alright... real talk. Hard talk. So...I posted a few months back about wanting to start getting back on track and all that stuff. Well that didn't happen and I weighed myself for the first time in far too long today and I am currently weighing 196 pounds. Major disappointment. I am angry, frustrated, scared and just don't know what to know. What scares me most is that all I want to do right now is curl up with a warm cup of coffee and a christmas cookie. So NOT what I need to do right now! <... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 14:30:43 EST Fa-Fa-Fa-FAAALL BREAK! Yes sir it indeed is FALL BREAK! And I have loved every minute so far! Relaxing, sleeping, watching movies, sleeping, hanging with friends, sleeping...did I mention sleeping? <BR> <BR> What I decided and posted about a few days ago was how I am getting prepared to set up a meal plan and all that! I am definitely nervous about starting to work out again! I find myself "psyching" myself out, but I just remind myself, that everyone has to start somewhere! No one is born incredibly fit, toned a... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 23:01:35 EST Well It's Sure been a while... Man! It's been forever!! And I wish I could say I stuck to my diet and exercise during this time...but I really didn't :( And I am ashamed but also motivated!! I am coming back to the truth in some ways! Now let me explain what I mean! <BR> <BR> I was home for the summer in the midwest and have since moved back to Oregon for school. I moved back really early and went through a really rough time of trying to get a job, trying to stay motivated and literally having no one around to help or be ... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 13:44:47 EST Insanity! Today I completed my 5th day on Insanity!! And I am insanely proud! Today was definitely super hard because it was pure cardio and that is just not my forte! Today was probably my worst day yet because it was a hard work out! I also wasn't completely motivated to do it and I had a fairly bad morning before I started. All of this just motivates me for tomorrows work out! I want to push myself! I want results! Not just physical appearance and weight loss but what I can do! How many push ups I ... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 15:46:07 EST It's been a while! It's been a while since I made once of these! I wish I had better news to report! But I do not have bad news, well really bad news, I should say. Last week went pretty well, I wasn't working out much because I just started my full time babysitting job and it was hard to find time to figure stuff out. (That's the main reason I haven't really logged into sparkpeople for a while!) This week should be better because I have my feet more firmly planted and know what's going on. I ate really well be... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 10:45:23 EST I am feeling that second week lul It's only Tuesday and I already feel overwhelmed!! I want to see bigger numbers! Better results! I want to lose weight!!! But it's hard...and I knew that going in, I just need to stay motivated! I need to remind myself why I am pushing! Why I am forcing my life to change! I am feeling discouraged and want an easy way out, but the best way "out" is to eat right, work out, and drink water! That will change my diet! I want to pull a BIG number this week! That means I need to push! Tue, 29 May 2012 14:48:06 EST My slip up...I knew this day was coming! So I posted earlier about losing two pouns! (Whoop! Still really pumped!) But a little while after I messed up my back doing yard work. I have a bad back from cheerleading in high school, so I have to really monitor it. My mattress at school has not helped any. I am fine for the most part but as soon as I try to bend or anything it cramps up and hurts really bad! I am a little worried it will interfere with working out this week because my goal is to lose around 4 pounds! I really want to pu... Mon, 28 May 2012 19:59:41 EST First Weigh In..and I lost... Today was my first weigh in...I was extremely nervous! As I walked into my parents bathroom where we keep our scale, I pulled it out and placed it exactly where it was when I first weighed myself. "Don't gain weight, don't gain weight!" Is all I kept saying to myself, even though if I had gained weight last week I couldn't change it now! I put in my height, stepped on the scale...and took a deep breath and looked down to see.... 180lbs. I LOST TWO POUNDS!!!! In one week I lost TWO POUNDS!!! I... Mon, 28 May 2012 14:45:06 EST 5K 5K 5K...5K!!! So as I posted earlier this week I did a nice long run! (Well walk run) for about 3 miles! I was very, and am very proud of myself! Tonight I was talking with my sister about our vacation in July and how excited we are! She expressed how excited she was for me because she knows I am working hard to lose the weight! And I am! I am trying but right now I am feeling kind of down because I haven't really worked out in a few days. But I have done excellent on my calorie count! I have so many left ... Fri, 25 May 2012 23:27:26 EST 1,000 Dollar Red Bottom Shoes I love shoes! I love clothes! Oh my gosh I love fashion and style! SO MUCH! It's always been something that I've loved to learn about and know what's in and what's not. Today I started browsing on pinterest clothes and ideas when my mind started to wonder. Before I knew it I was day dreaming about red bottom shoes. Those beautiful and classy red bottom shoes! They are always so elegant, fancy, chic, in style...and EXPENSIVE! I am not talking Macy's 180.00 shoes expensive, I am talking "180.0... Fri, 25 May 2012 12:05:05 EST Sad end to hard day I am sure is the first of MANY hard days to come! I was sore all day from my run last night but also I ate very poorly. I didn't follow my diet plan when it came to snacks and went over my limit once again. But sitting looking at pictures on pinterest motivated me once again to get in gear and focus! Remembering why I wanted to do this in the first place! Why I am pushing so hard right now! I can do this!! Wed, 23 May 2012 22:04:03 EST I know myself too well sometimes On Monday when I was setting up my sparkspage I decided I would leave myself a little note on my nutrition tracker. Just a little motivation as to why I am doing this. To get healthy! As well as to motivate myself to lose weight for California and the beaches! Today I tried to work out this morning and man I was not feeling it. Well actually I was feeling it all to well. I was tired, achey and sore from my run last night. I paused my DVD work out and started my cleaning for the day knowing I ... Wed, 23 May 2012 15:53:27 EST I am definitely feeling it I am feeling sore all over. I am exhausted and achey from my run last night, but I still ran! I ran/walked about 3.03 miles last night! I ran about 1.25 miles straight! I am so proud of myself! Especially because I haven't gone running in months! And to pull out 1.25 miles, man I am one happy camper! But today brings all sorts of new challenges! My biggest struggle the last couple of days has been my calorie intake. I am allowed up to 1550 calories per day, and I keep going over by a couple h... Wed, 23 May 2012 12:32:27 EST Beginning of a long and "Shredded" Summer! (This IS a long blog entry, I apologize, but feel free to skim through!) <BR> <BR> It's the last week of school for my siblings and they are itching to be done! I can understand why! It's beautiful outside, the sun is always shinning and the weather is warming up! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> But my summer started the first week of May. I left my college with my father, who flew out to drive back with me, and took the 33 hour road trip home! It was long and boring at times but I made it! Before... Tue, 22 May 2012 12:20:04 EST Day 1 is almost over! Today has been a great start to a long journey of healthy living and weight loss. But as I near the end I find myself already craving junk food and wanting to cheat! Terrible, I know but I have a massive sweet tooth! I keep reminding myself of the outcome, of the ultimate goal, of the main reason I changed my lifestyle! To lose weight! To change! Heck to feel good in a swimsuit!! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I keep looking in the mirror and thinking, I hate this size, this dress number, all of ... Mon, 21 May 2012 20:01:02 EST Day 1! It's only Day 1! Day 1 what a dreadful phrase. "Day 1" of work, school, training, etc. But with all of these "Day 1's" there is either a clear ending (graduation) or not (working until retirement...whenever that is!). With all of these "Day 1's" you know what to expect I.E. be there by 8AM and break for lunch at noon and go home around 3-4ish. And repeat. <BR> <BR> When it comes to losing weight everyday is different, presenting itself with new and harder challenges then the day before. But besides all of t... Mon, 21 May 2012 16:04:40 EST