LAURAHNTR6's SparkPeople Blog LAURAHNTR6's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Doing Good! This week has been great! I've upped my water intake from two bottles to 3-4 bottles daily. Haven't had any cheese binges or chips. I've made it a point to eat fruit for my afternoon snack. I feel better - physically, emotionally, mentally. I've exercised every day. <BR> <BR> I had a "bad" moment last night - we went out for pizza. BUT I overcame the guilt and did 60 minutes of cardio to help burn it away. It was a great meal and even better workout. <BR> <BR> I'm holding back from ... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 12:28:28 EST Feeling Much Less Frustrated I am feeling much better today. I realize the only thing I can do is to keep moving forward and not beat myself up. I have tracked my food these past few days and I've exercised every day. I realize results will not be automatic. I realize it's a work in progress. I have a plan - a realistic plan - and I will fit perfectly into my dress on my wedding day!!!!! The time has come for me to STOP sabotaging myself; to STOP listening to the counter-productive voice in my head; to STOP letting... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 20:27:04 EST Beyond Frustrated GAH!!!!!!!! I'm so tired of this; so tired of dieting, binging, exercising only to see the scale 1) not move or 2) move UP instead of down!! I'm sick of it!!! If I didn't have my wedding coming up; if I didn't have to worry about fitting into a dress I stupidly bought 2 years ago; I wouldn't even be worrying about this!!!!!! But no...I bought my dress two years ago (and I love it), when I was 10 lbs lighter and no matter how hard I'm trying, I just can't even lose 5 lbs and keep it off!!!... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 14:37:05 EST Just Say "No" It's harder than it looks; it's harder when it's yourself you're fighting with. <BR> <BR> Excuses...I have to stop using work and "bad days" as an excuse. I have to stop letting work undermine my healthy lifestyle. I use work and "bad days" to as excuses for why it's okay for me not to go to the gym or tell myself it's okay for me to take a day off and indulge. I have been trying to keep up with cardio, but it's not good enough. And I really went off the rails this week, food-wise. <... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 14:10:05 EST Not Eating Chips Seems to be Working WOOT!!!!! <em>104</em> <em>334</em> I have lost 4 lbs this week! Also lost 2 inches. I'm feeling super proud right now! <BR> <BR> I haven't had any chips (or crackers) this week - or any type of "junk" (over-processed) snacks this week. I reached for fruit instead. I've been drinking my water. I have never lost this much in a single week. I have to believe that NOT eating the chips / crackers is a huge part of that. Especially since I only exercised for 30 minutes twice this w... Sun, 12 May 2013 10:02:34 EST 8 out of 8 Goals Met Friday! AND...although I usually do not weigh myself, I got on the scale yesterday. I've been hovering at 150 lbs. for a while, earlier this week, I shot up to 152, but that was because of tom. When I got on the scale yesterday: 148.8 lbs.!!!! <em>334</em> So, depending on how you look at it, I either lost 4 lbs. or 2 lbs. <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> This week at work has been very busy and exhausting and I just haven't been able to drag myself to the gym. But I went Friday! I'm proud I ov... Sat, 11 May 2013 08:24:38 EST Met 7 out of 8 Goals today And I'm feeling pretty good about it! <em>334</em> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> The hardest part is going cheese-free and chips-free; it's so addicting. I just crave the cheesy, salty taste. BUT today I met the goal of cheese-free and chips-free, so tomorrow it should be easier! After a few days, the cravings will lessen. I hope. <BR> <BR> Eating fruit or veggies is another goal I have; it's just such a change to get used to: reaching for fruit or veggies instead of chips. But I lik... Wed, 8 May 2013 20:47:03 EST This Isn't Working... I know what I have to do. I really do. But I don't / won't do it. The last two days, Monday & Tuesday, have been killer at work - and the entire week is going to be like that. I know that getting up, moving, and doing a bit of cardio would make me feel 100% better, but I don't do it. <BR> <BR> WHY??? <BR> <BR> I know the benefits I get when I exercise and I love it; so why don't I push myself to do it on days I really need to? I've have stomach issues the entire past week and I know ... Tue, 7 May 2013 20:06:50 EST New Month, New Goals Okay...I've been doing good with the exercising, but I've got to do better. And I've got to get my eating habits back under control. <BR> <BR> May Goals: <BR> <BR> Cardio 5 x's per week <BR> Strength Training 4 x's per week <BR> Core Training 3 x's per week <BR> <BR> As for eating habits: <BR> <BR> Exercise Portion Control <BR> MORE fruit and veggies <BR> 2 bottles of water daily <BR> Cut out the cheese binging!! <BR> Get back in the habit of keeping a food journal Thu, 2 May 2013 16:27:54 EST Feeling Good! I am still going strong and I am feeling great. I have really been getting back into the swing of going to the gym and doing my cardio, core workouts and strength training. <BR> <BR> Still trying to get on track and eat healthier - it's so hard!!!!!! I tried a "No Chips" rule - didn't work. I just really crave that crunch! I tried healthy crackers - frankly, most tasted like cardboard. Seriously!!! So I have a bag of no added salt chips (Utz brand). Satisfies. Haven't been saying "... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 19:52:35 EST Still Sticking to it! Yesterday was ok - forced myself to do a cardio workout - 30 minutes on the elliptical. Afterwards, so glad I did! <BR> <BR> Today is a rest day - well, a rest from traditional exercise. I clean house on Friday's, so that's my exercise. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Had a really rough night last night. Was sleeping great, then suddenly woke up with stomach cramping. ??? Not sure what caused that. Finally was able to get back to sleep after two hours. <BR> <BR> Will be eating health... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 12:21:29 EST Little Bit Good; Little Bit Bad Yesterday was tough - I didn't eat breakfast, had an Italian sandwich (small) for lunch, had some grapes for a snack and two slices of pizza for dinner. I didn't go a hard cardio workout, but I did go for a walk after dinner. Felt really good to do that. Drank two bottles of water. <BR> <BR> Today...ate breakfast! Oatmeal with blueberries, drank water, but lunch was a disaster! Had a cheeseburger and fries. Didn't eat all my fries though!! Dinner tonight will be a grilled chicken sala... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 15:55:20 EST Working Out; Feeling Good! Doing really well. I can't believe what a difference clear skies and sunshine has on my mood. This week will be my TOM and in the past, I would take a week off, backslide, indulge my cravings, etc. Well, forget that! I've been sticking with my exercise plan and eating healthy. I'm feeling fantastic. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Went for a 30 minute walk at lunch. <BR> Did 30 minutes of strength training - arms <BR> Did 30 minutes of cardio on the elliptical after work. <BR> <BR> Yogurt ... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 19:45:26 EST Feeling GREAT Not sure what happened, but I kicked it into high gear today. It was gorgeous outside - clear skies & sunny and warm! I had no excuses and I didn't have to force myself to get moving - I actually wanted to! <BR> <BR> I went for a nice walk during my lunch break; then after work, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical. I created a plan for the next 3 months, with a different workout each day - some days are easy, some a little tougher. Hopefully I mixed it up enough so I won't get bored. <B... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 19:45:10 EST Accountability - Day 1 No Soda <BR> No Chips <BR> <BR> 1 bottle of water down; 1 to go <BR> <BR> Breakfast: Yogurt <BR> <BR> Lunch: Ham, cheese, salami sandwich with approximately 5 organic crackers (spinach & garlic flavored - not too bad), 1 glass of Iced Tea. <BR> <BR> Dinner: 1 Pork chop, spinach, applesauce. 1/2 glass Iced Tea <BR> <BR> It's been a very busy day. I had my hair done, went to the grocery store, went to Target, went shoe shopping (didn't buy!), cleaned out / organized the household filing... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 18:06:17 EST Reality Check aka, Come to Jesus Meeting. I weighed myself today and as expected, I gained. I am now at my highest weight ever - 150.6 lbs. Whatever inches I lost, I gained back and then some. My stomach and thighs are bigger - it's where I gain. <BR> <BR> I don't understand / know why I let myself get like this. I was doing SO great - I was losing inches, feeling good. Then I just lost it. I got down on myself, I got depressed, I wanted results now (even though I know it takes time) - mostly I jus... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 20:24:38 EST Stop being afraid My motivation seems to come in cycles - I do really really great for while and I start to see results, then my motivation fails. I get down in the dumps, I have no energy - and each day that goes by that I fail to exercise I go more and more into a downward spiral. Depression? Seasonal Disorder? Bored / burned out with my routine? Maybe - but I think it's more than that. <BR> <BR> I think I'm afraid. Afraid to fail. I'm afraid that I'm not going to reach my goal and so I tell myself... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 15:08:53 EST Not Motivated - at all!!! I'm just not motivated anymore. I have plenty to motivate me - wedding coming up, 20 year class reunion after that, healthier lifestyle, but I just can't seem to shake this ... it's winter, it's cold, I don't want to go out (to the gym, but for dinner, okay!). Seasonal depression? Eh, maybe. But it seems to be more than that - I just don't want to! And the sad sad sad thing is, I know this is SO bad for me. I know all the great things exercise does for me - including the fact that a gre... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 13:13:37 EST Falling Well, it's that time of the month for me and I'm falling fast. Motivation is falling, along with energy, willpower and my mood. This happens every month; like clockwork. I know part of it's hormonal, but I just hate that everything just seems to go out the window during these first few days. All that hard work, I've been feeling great, doing good, sticking to my goals and this one week just seems to sabotage me and put me right back at square one. <BR> <BR> I get tired more easily, esp... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 19:00:47 EST Wow - that little ticker sure is a motivator!! I have to say that yesterday was a hard day for me and I don't know why. I have been doing good all week; yesterday was good too. Had a great workout and ate healthy. But as the day went on, I was just feeling more and more blah. Started getting down on myself, started getting negative. Looked in the mirror and all I could see was giant belly fat. <BR> <BR> Sundays are my check-in days. I rely on my measurements now, but I still step on the scale as well. It works for me, since I ca... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 13:24:10 EST Sticking with Goals! Doing good. Getting back on track with exercising. I did okay regarding food (healthy choices and portion control) over the holidays, but I really slacked on the exercise. Getting back into the habit of going to the gym regularly. <BR> <BR> No real "new" New Year's Resolutions. Going to continue with my current goals for food and exercise and stick to my financial budget. Getting married in Sept 2013 - that is PLENTY of time to get into the shape I need to be in in order fit into my dr... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 18:36:52 EST Not as good - or bad - as I could've been Well, back from vacation and enjoying my weekend before getting back to work. Christmas was great - spent quality time with my parents and fiancee. Did not work out at all - unless I count all the shopping / walking I did. As for the food; well, I didn't do as bad or as good as I could have done. Planned to go to the gym today but decided to get a massage instead - and no, I don't feel guilty one bit! Hahahaha. Will hit the gym Sat & Sun and get back into the swing of things. Had a chee... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 21:05:55 EST This Week - UGH! Getting ready to go on vacation and this week I feel as if I have not stuck to anything - even though I have. But I realize that I have not been keeping up with my stretching, drinking water or making healthy choices. I've only hit the gym once this week. I've got to do better. I think I will get my stretching in after I sign off here. <em>30</em> Thu, 20 Dec 2012 19:24:19 EST Weekly Update #3 Little late getting this recorded: <BR> <BR> Daily goals - 100% Success! <BR> No Soda <BR> No Snacking after 7:30p.m. <BR> Food Diary <BR> Relax <BR> Laugh / Smile <BR> Love <BR> <BR> Daily Goals - missed it by one! <BR> No Cheese Binges (cheddar burger for lunch, then grilled cheese sandwiches for dinner) <BR> Drink 2+ bottles of water <BR> Stretch <BR> <BR> Weekly Goals 100% Success <BR> Hit the gym <BR> Core Workout <BR> <BR> Weekly Goals - missed it by one! <BR> Journal <BR> <BR> <... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 19:21:53 EST Doing pretty good Almost the end of the week and I'm doing and feeling pretty good. Work has calmed down a bit, and I don't have to go into the office tomorrow; I can just work from home. <em>224</em> Next week might get a little hectic, but I'm not going to worry about that for right now; I'm just going to get through tomorrow, then Saturday (gotta work - <em>39</em> ). <BR> <BR> I cleaned house tonight instead of going to the gym, but I figure I burned some calories. Ate healthy today - oatmeal f... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 20:14:31 EST Well, I guess today is my "Cheat" day Let the craziness continue. Went into the office today for a mid-morning meeting. Canceled 5 minutes before start time. May be rescheduled for later in the day, so I stick around the office all day. I had planned to be home by lunchtime, but since I stayed at the office - ended up going out to lunch. I could have made a much healthier choice, but I didn't: bacon cheeseburger and fries and 1 glass of iced tea. Kudos to me for not ordering an appetizer or dessert. <em>15</em> So, I... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 19:33:29 EST Weekly Update #2 Daily Goals Met (100%): <BR> <BR> No Soda <BR> No Cheese Binges <BR> No Snacking after 7:30p.m. <BR> Drink 2+ bottles of water <BR> Food Diary <BR> Relax <BR> Laugh / smile <BR> Love <BR> <BR> Daily goals met (almost!): <BR> <BR> Stretch <BR> Make healthy choices <BR> <BR> Weekly Goals - at least 3x's / week: <BR> <BR> Hit the gym (100%) <BR> Core Workout (only 2x's) <BR> Journal (100%) <BR> <BR> Also took some measurements on Sunday - losing a 1/2 inch here, a 1/2 inch there! Feeling ... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 13:08:19 EST What a week! and it's not over yet. <em>46</em> Been crazy busy with meetings, running back & forth to the office (when I normally work from home), special project requests, etc. It's all good, and great for my career, but...I'm tired! <em>102</em> Was in bed reading last night, trying to wind down - it worked! I was asleep by 8:30p.m.! <BR> <BR> I was really concerned that since I've been so busy that I would let everything else - my goals, gym time, me time, etc., fall to the wayside, but... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 20:09:35 EST I looked good today. Yes I did! Had to go into the office (again) today and decided to dress up a bit by wearing a great flattering dress and red high heels. Felt sexy and confident all day! Since I had to go into the office, I planned ahead and had a yogurt for breakfast and a salad for lunch. Had a healthy snack around 4p.m.; forced myself to go to the gym and got in a .... decent workout. Healthy dinner and am now trying to relax. <BR> <BR> I need to relax because I am starting to get stressed out. Work... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 20:39:09 EST Weekly Update #1 I started keeping track of my Daily Goals. My results from last week: <BR> <BR> 100% Success: <BR> <BR> No Soda <BR> No Cheese Binges <BR> Healthy Choices <BR> Food Diary <BR> Take a few minutes for myself <BR> Smile / Laugh <BR> Love <BR> <BR> Close Enough that I'm still counting it a win: <BR> <BR> No Snacking after 7:30p.m. <BR> Drink at least 2 bottles of water <BR> Stretch <BR> <BR> Moderate Success: <BR> <BR> Hit the Gym <BR> Core Workout <BR> Journal <BR> <BR> Feeling pretty ... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 19:59:04 EST Back & Ready I've been away from SP for about two months. Had some really bad moments and got really down on myself. Threw away a lot of hard work; threw away a lot of really good results. Have had the constant support of my fiance and have slowly risen from the depression I was in. Have realized that I cannot weight myself every day or even every week. Will have to rely on how my body feels and how my clothes fit and weigh myself once a month. <BR> <BR> I'm still soda-free. I've had more cheese-... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 18:21:08 EST It was a good day. Can't really say much more than that. Did the 20 Minute Fat Blaster video and a 7 minute video with Coach Nicole (can't remember which one). About 500 steps short of my goal today, but I got out there and walked. Didn't over-snack. It was a good day. <BR> Mon, 1 Oct 2012 19:17:01 EST WOOT! 1 lb. down - finally! YAHOO! I am 1 lb down! I know it might be silly to be so excited, but I don't care! I've been stuck at 145 for two months and it's so awesome to be even just one pound down! <BR> <BR> I am super-psyched and just thrilled to feel like I'm finally on my way. Amazing how just a 1 lb. loss can rev me up and motivate me! <BR> <BR> Went for a great walk today and I'm getting ready to do the 10 minute crunchless video. YAHOO! <BR> <BR> p.s. I think it was the 20 minute fat blaster video ... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 11:54:26 EST Amazing how a new haircut makes you feel! This week has been ... okay. I've been snacking quite a bit more than usual - stress, boredom, etc. It's been healthy snacking, but even healthy snacking can be counter-productive if you snack too much. This past week has just been insane at work - super busy and I'm not feeling in control. Eating, or snacking, makes me feel like I'm in control, and I think that's why I've been snacking so much: I haven't felt in control at work, so I take control by eating. It's something I can control... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 18:27:50 EST Whew! I did it! I did the 10 minute kickboxing routine w/ Coach Nicole and the 20 Minute Cardio Fat Blaster today. Great workouts and can't wait to be able to do them without having to stop to catch my breath! Also got my steps in! WOOT! <em>104</em> Thu, 27 Sep 2012 19:36:55 EST Too little I complain that I'm not losing weight and then I look at what I'm eating and what I'm doing for exercise and I think, "No wonder." It's great that I've given up soda and eating blocks of cheese, and I'm walking almost every day, but all I'm doing with my current habits is maintaining and I don't want to maintain at 145. <BR> <BR> I need to get new workout habits and I KNOW this is what I need to do and I'm frustrated because I have to "take it slow" because of my elbow. But I want to get... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 20:10:30 EST 365 Days til the BIG day! I will be married in 365 days. <em>334</em> We went to the park today where we'll have our ceremony and had a nice time, planning out my walk down the aisle, some nice picture locations, etc. The weather was beautiful (a little too breezy), and if we have weather like today on our big day, I'll be happy. <BR> <BR> So glad I found I SP and have this wonderful support group to cheer me on towards my goals. My elbow is feeling much better, but I'm going to lay off the strength trainin... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 18:47:56 EST Hmm - I feel fat today Not sure what that's about. Every once in a while, I just feel fat, not matter what I eat (or don't eat), no matter how much (or how little) I exercise, no matter what the scale says. Anyone else go through this? <BR> <BR> I ate well today: great salad for lunch, grapes for a snack, and chicken wraps for dinner. <BR> <BR> Met my Steps Goal today: 8,777! WOOT! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend! Sat, 22 Sep 2012 20:18:56 EST Exceeded Steps Goal today! 11,300+ !!! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Ate okay. I skipped breakfast (still having a hard time adjusting to eating breakfast) and had a pretty healthy lunch. I did snack today, chips and salsa, but NO CHEESE. Yah.... And had an awesome steak for dinner, with beans. <BR> <BR> Today was a good day. My elbow and arm are feeling SO much better, but I know I still have to pace myself and not jump back into strength training. <BR> <BR> Not looking forward to tomorrow. Gotta wake up supe... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 20:26:01 EST Back on track! Woot! <em>104</em> I am back on track! Feeling much better today; only had to ice my elbow once today to get a some relief. I did my stretches, hula hooped for 5 minutes and walked today! Met my steps goal too! I walked slowly, but I'm back on track! <BR> <BR> I won't be able to lift for a few more days, but I'll just concentrate on cardio and core. <BR> <BR> I'm super-excited to be back on track! <BR> <BR> Ate sorta healthy today. Had my yogurt, but had a lunch meeting an... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 20:22:05 EST My Mind is Ready, but My Body is Dragging Went to the doctor today and it's not a sprained elbow or pinched nerve; it's a sprained tendon in my elbow. And naturally, it starts feeling much better the second I walk into the doctor's office. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Took the day off so I could stay off the (work) computer <em>20</em> and just rest. The Rx the Doc gave me is a non-steroid anti-inflammatory and seems to be helping, along with the ice packs. <BR> <BR> Right now, the pain isn't so much in my elbow anymore (expect... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 20:18:46 EST Super Motivated, but injured Had a bad weekend; just super exhausted and PO'ed at my new scale (but we're friends again since this morning's weigh-in). Got motivated on Sunday, made my Steps goal, re-worked my exercise plan and was super motivated and ready to go. Then, BAM! Sunday night, I somehow managed to strain my elbow (still hoping it's a sprain and with a couple of days rest, be ready to go, if not, a visit to the doctor will be in order). Woke up this morning and my body was stiff all day. Tried to do some ... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 18:14:44 EST Feeling good! Got a great night's sleep last night and re-worked my exercise schedule. Ate a banana this morning and went for a rejuvenating walk this morning. Planning a nice, relaxing Sunday. <BR> <BR> A lot of bumps along the way to my goal, but if I stick with it, continue with the support of SP and my <em>345</em> SP Friends, and continue to work with what works for me and re-work what doesn't, I can do it! <em>224</em> Sun, 16 Sep 2012 10:16:12 EST Bought a new scale... and it's just as demonic as the old one! <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I'm a little discouraged right now and also just feeling down. Still not recovered from yesterday although I slept for about 10 hours. Which is probably why I'm feeling blah now. Sleeping in that late makes me feel tired for the entire day. <BR> <BR> I'm discouraged cause I bought a new scale, set it all up and ... it tells me I gained 2 lbs. I've been so freakin' GOOD this week: barely any snacking and the snacks I'... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 18:09:55 EST Exhausted I know I will sleep good tonight; today was just a jam packed day spent in the office. Did not get a chance to do any exercising except for walking to and from places and am way too exhausted to even try working out tonight. Ate moderately well today with no snacking. Can barely keep my eyes open. Fri, 14 Sep 2012 19:01:14 EST Irritable Woke up irritable. Didn't even take one step out of bed - I just woke up irritable. I work from home, but every once in a while, I have to go into the office. Usually it's not a big deal and I enjoy seeing all my co-workers; however, today - just wanted to stay home and video conference. No such luck, I had to go in. <BR> <BR> Had to put on work clothes (and even though my pants fit and were even a tiny bit loose, I was still irritable), remember to brush my teeth and put on deodorant - ... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 21:14:58 EST Measuring Success Too often, I measure success in terms of weight loss, or inches lost, or fitting into my "skinny" clothes. I realized today that I have had a lot of success within the past two months. Not in weight-loss terms, but in other ways: <BR> <BR> 1) Realized today that I have kicked a 1-3 soda a day habit that began back in the '90s. <BR> <BR> 2) I've pretty much stopped the habit of snacking after dinner. <BR> <BR> 3) I drink about 2 bottles of water daily (when I used to just drink soda)... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 19:20:10 EST My Cheese Addiction I love cheese. I can eat blocks of cheese: Gouda, Smoked, Cheddar, Colby & Jack. It's my comfort food; when I have just had a frustrating day, I just want to take a block of cheese, chips and salsa, and go to town. <BR> <BR> I believe cheese is addictive. I've been successful in going cheese-free for two weeks straight. I think I went through cheese detox - the first few days were horrible and I was just craving it; but after the 1st week, it got better. Every once in a while, I'd get ... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 18:32:46 EST Day 1 - Demonic Scales and Mood Swings Just joined today and I'm very excited to be here! While I am considered healthy, I've put on weight the past few years. I'm currently at 145 (according to the demonic scale I own) lbs. and my goal is to lose 15 lbs by September 2013. I would really just like to lose 5 lbs. first. I keep yo-yo-ing between 143 and 150 lbs; it's been like this for the past two months. <BR> <BR> I am an every-emotion eater: when I am happy, sad, angry, frustrated, annoyed, overwhelmed, depressed, and/or ... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 21:19:08 EST