LAURAAT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LAURAAT LAURAAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Oh, lupus. Not today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5342083 I went home last night without going to the gym. I started to beat myself up, when my body reminded me of just why I felt the need to take yesterday off. Everything started to hurt, and it was all I could do to make dinner. While I had planned black bean and roasted squash tacos, I altered that to an easier black bean, rice, and lentil burritorecipe. So easy, and so good. Now I remember why I marked that recipe for days like yesterday - ingredients I always have on hand, and so easy to make! ... Wed, 1 May 2013 14:02:21 EST The secret to feeling good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336345 So, I've re-discovered the secret to feeling good. No, really! These past few days I have been feeling great, emotionally, physically, and even lupus-wise. <BR> The secret? <BR> <BR> Walking. <BR> <em>311</em> <BR> That's it!! <BR> <BR> I made a goal for myself on the Virgin Health Miles Program (through work) to walk 49k steps in 7 days. That means I need an average of 7k steps a day, which doesn't sound too hard, right? Well, think of it this way: in an average work day, where I do no... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 12:05:55 EST Forced into a new gym...eep! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333009 Whoa, has it really been over a month since I've blogged? No wonder my clothes have been so tight...I always do better when I'm active. <BR> Anyway, I started going to the gym a little recently, since it's gotten so hot out lately I can't be outdoors. Boy was I surprised to see how dead it was! I thought maybe those new years's resolutions wearing off, or everyone hitting the beach with the weather. <BR> Then I found out the truth...my gym location is closing! Not the whole chain, just my lo... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 13:25:36 EST One boring salad, and some food pics! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275919 I've been aiming to eat a salad for lunch every day at work, and allow myself one non-salad lunch. I got pretty bored of my epic salad, and decided to try an asian inspired salad. I found this recipe: <BR> <link>www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/ellie-kr<BR>ieger/chinese-chicken-salad-recipe/ind<BR>ex.html </link> <BR> Instead of mandarin oranges, I used the baby corns that have always made me smile. So it ended up a salad with lettuce, cabbage, water chestnuts, baby corn, and the soy sauce bas... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 12:40:42 EST The weightloss snowball http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272861 I'm so excited to report that I've had some serious weight loss. 6 whole pounds gone, baby!! <BR> For someone who had pretty much given up on weight loss, and was instead concentrating on health, this is HUGE! <BR> But best of all, I think I've gotten over the fear-hurdle. I was so afraid of losing weight, of failing, of succeeding, that I know it was really holding me back. Just like a plateua, though, I held strong and busted through! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 14:28:15 EST Belt holes and March goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268740 Hey, my title rhymes! Go me! Haha. <BR> <BR> First, I'm excited to say I've gone down a belt hole. Or loop, whatever you call it. You know what I mean. ;) I'm not exactly comfortable this way, but my pants were falling down on the smaller hole, so I had to do something. <em>9</em> So the slight squeeze I feel is just more motivation to keep going down. I'm not sure if this will reflect on the scale or not, but we'll see come weigh-in on Monday. <BR> <BR> I think I've figured out my March ... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 15:15:16 EST March goals, Part I http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265956 While I had some goals for February, I don't feel like they were structured enough. If that makes sense. I need something a little more strict, to keep me on track with things. January seemed to go much better, with the January Jumpstart Challenge. So, I think I'm going to try something like that for March, again. <BR> I was thinking of doing the 28-day challenge, which looks to be identical to the January Jumpstart challenge. Nothing wrong with that, but I'm afraid it may get a little boring... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 12:18:03 EST My epic salad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258706 I watched another one of those 'get healthy, eat good food, heal yourself' type of documentaries this past weekend. While I don't agree with everything they say, I do find them inspiring and truthful. So, I loaded up on freggies at this weekend's grocery shop, realizing I do not get enough in - especially veggies. I planned a salad for this week's lunches, with either tuna or boiled egg for the protein portion. <BR> <BR> Let me just say, I like a good salad, but I've never really enjoyed th... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 11:51:52 EST Is weight loss DEmotivating me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251500 What a blog title, I know...but here's what's going on. <BR> <BR> I've recently lost about 5 pounds or so. Disclaimer - this is weight I have also sort of recently gained. In fact, I didn't even change my ticker to the higher weight, so when I post, it still says 0 pounds lost. Either way, though, I'm still pretty proud of this loss. <BR> <BR> Proud, yes. <BR> Motivated, no. <BR> <BR> I've blogged before about how I sabatoge myself. At the time, I thought it was more out of fear than anyth... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 11:11:07 EST What a weekend.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246222 After my blog on Friday, I was determined to make it a good weekend. I was! Swear. Then, I got a text from hubby. He was going to be off on Saturday, and did I want to go to the state fair? <BR> Well duh - of course! I've never been, and was super excited to go to my first fair. I was like a little kid, dragging hubby by the hand and ooh'ing and ahh'ing over all the booths, fried foods, games. I wanted to do everything! We walked around for a bit, and checked things out. Rode a ride, checked ... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 10:07:56 EST TGI(Finally)F! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242901 I am so glad it's Friday. It's been a rough week, emotionally, at work, and at home. I am worn out! Only to get here and to find out my work partner is out, and will be out for an undetermined amount of time for grievance. I feel bad for her, but sheesh - that means I have to take her caseload, when I'm already swamped! <BR> I feel like I'm drowning, and I know exercise and eating right are the only things that can keep me going. Unfortunately, fatigue hit me like a ton of bricks this week. ... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 13:24:25 EST Lessons learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228819 <em>149</em> <BR> Seems I've been getting schooled lately. But in a good way, so that's ok. Here are some lessons I've learned recently. <BR> <BR> <em>470</em> I enjoy Fage yogurt. With some mostly-defrosted berries, I don't need honey or any other sweetener like I did Chobani. While I can swallow Chobani, I still feel like some sort of sweetener is missing, so I keep falling back on the with-fruit kind. At a shocking 15+ grams of sugar, I needed to find a better option. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 13:14:21 EST Got me some dinner plans! (Yup. Another one of those blogs.) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227297 I have made it very well known, I hate grocery shopping. Still do. But, it's getting easier. I make a list, stick to it, and I get in and out fairly quickly now. <BR> <BR> This week, I'm making mini meatloaves (the recipe I'm going to follow makes 9 minis, with 1 pound of ground turkey. I may change that a little - don't think hubby will go for THAT small of a meatloaf, though he does like the individual portioned ones.) That will probably be tonight. I'm not sure what I will make with them,... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 14:29:36 EST Not my proudest moment... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223209 <em>437</em> <em>284</em> <em>291</em> <em>267</em> <em>372</em> <em>437</em> <BR> I made something called 'eat the rainbow soup' thursday night. Boy, was that a lot of chopping - whew. That in itslef was almost a workout! It was vegetarian, but hubby still admitted it was the best veggie recipe I had ever made, and went back for a huge second bowl. He even was going to try to remember to bring it to lunch today, which is big for him! <BR> I, on the other hand, did not care ... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 14:36:05 EST Oh, migraines. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217134 I hate migraines. I'm not emotionally ready yet to go into real details, yet, I don't think. I know I haven't even really talked about my surgeries, either. I think that's because here, I can be completely open and honest, and I'm just not there yet. Yes, it's been a year, one week, and one day since the first surgery, but still...just not there yet. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I had three migraines this weekend. Three! That really threw me for a loop. I was not emotionally ready to handle having a mi... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 13:51:59 EST Bah. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206704 I skipped my workout plans yesterday. My body was just not having it, and I spent a lot of the day on the couch/sleeping. Fatigue just took over, and I was powerless against it. Now, I'm paying for it, emotionally. <BR> I'm tearing myself up over the SP challenge here. I realize I feel like I'm failing, and that's when I start to give up, and let go. I won't let that happen this time. I refuse. So, I missed some workouts, and haven't been perfect as I had hoped. That's ok, because here is the... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 12:53:32 EST Bah. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206703 I skipped my workout plans yesterday. My body was just not having it, and I spent a lot of the day on the couch/sleeping. Fatigue just took over, and I was powerless against it. Now, I'm paying for it, emotionally. <BR> I'm tearing myself up over the SP challenge here. I realize I feel like I'm failing, and that's when I start to give up, and let go. I won't let that happen this time. I refuse. So, I missed some workouts, and haven't been perfect as I had hoped. That's ok, because here is the... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 12:53:29 EST Slight anxiety attack. Eek! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200709 Ok, I'm having a slight anxiety attack. But first, I will preface this by saying boys, you may find this TMI. Nothing graphic, but girly. Continue at your own risk. <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> I've always had an irregular period. It's crazy, I can go months skipping, and then have a regular one, or a few regular ones, or an extra long/heavy one, or whatever. It's all over the place, and never the same day. Anyway, since being on depo for a couple of years, I've skipped almost every one of my p... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 14:41:58 EST Determined! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196962 I have to admit, I have no idea where this latest surge of determination has come from. But, I'm loving it! I'm feeling so much better, and more energized. Which is great, because you know what that means - cleaner house, cleaner eating, happier me! Just one big cycle of awesome. <BR> <em>345</em> <BR> I wish I could bottle some of this feeling up and save it for later, but I'll have to settle for blogging about it and re-reading these blogs when I'm feeling down. <BR> <BR> Here are some... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 12:48:39 EST Got me some menu plans! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193110 I didn't do the best with sticking with my menu plans last week. Well, I take that back. I think I only messed up one day. I was home sick, both mentally and physically, and hubby brought home some chick filet. I know, I know. Couldn't I have at least insisted on something healthier? <BR> But anyway. Moving on. I've been feeling so much better, and enjoying a lot more energy, with my workouts lately. Even with just the few days of following SP's January challenge, it's amazing what a differen... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 12:47:10 EST January Challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5190339 I'm on day 3 of SP's official January challenge, and I'm having so much fun! No surprise, I already find it challenging. I have completed the video, now I just have to do my 30 minute workout. I will have to stay indoors, due to rain, and I think I will do 30 minutes of focusing on arms with my Wii fitness coach. <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> I really want to blog about this more, later, when I have more time. But I'm so excited, I wanted to get it all out there! Don't want to forget this feeli... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 16:24:31 EST Nope, no resolutions for me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184418 Nope, no New Year's resolutions for me. <BR> <BR> I know... <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> But it's ok. Hear me out. To me, New Year's resolutions are more something I'm resolving to do for the next year. Whatever those resolutions may be, it feels to me that it's more something I aim to do JUST for the next year. That's not how I want my resolutions to be. I want my reolutions to last a lifetime, not a single year. <BR> <BR> Make sense? <BR> <BR> But - I am working on some goals for the next y... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 17:34:32 EST Stinkin' menu planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180306 I hate menu planning. To those of you that enjoy it in some form or fashion, you all are freaks! <em>246</em> <BR> Haha, just kidding. But it's usually not something I enjoy, especially when I have no ideas to get me started. I do enjoy blogging my plans, though, for some odd reason, so that's what I"m doing today. <BR> <BR> Here are my plans for the next week, keeping in mind hubby will not be home for at least one dinner, possibly two: <BR> <BR> Black bean and sausage soup (hopefully... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 22:09:09 EST Just another good reason http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177429 Last night was a typical night for me. I didn't work out yesterday, ate pretty decently, and went home exhausted. Nothing new there. I puttered around the house for a few minutes, and decided to leave it a mess for another day. Just too tired to deal with it. Took my spot on the couch, pulled out a book, and started to read. <BR> <BR> Honestly, that is a pretty typical day for me lately. Tired, no matter what I do. Unable to get out of bed in the morning, no matter what I do. (In fact, I was... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 08:26:33 EST What kind of CRAP excuse is that?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5165351 I'm going to a movie premiere tonight at midnight. As most of you know, I'm still in a battle with fatigue, steroid-taper (reducing mg's until I'm off) and a constant battle with lupus. <BR> So a midnight premiere is quite a feat for me, especially after working a full day. It's a lot to ask. I'm going to be standing in line for a long time, sitting for a long time...yeah. Remind me again why I agreed to do this? Haha. <BR> Because of all that, I decided to skip working out this morning. I've... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 10:46:00 EST Makin' me some dinner plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163268 I give. I have used every available excuse I can think of to not have dinner ready/planned for a while now, and hubby has had to rescue us countless times with fast-food ickiness. Now that I am out of excuses, I guess it's time to get my act together. <BR> So here goes...my dinner plans for the next few days, at least: <BR> <BR> <em>490</em> Tonight, at least, is already started. I'm making a baked oatmeal, which sits over night and then goes in the oven the next morning (in this case, e... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 13:06:13 EST No gettin me down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5136650 There is no getting me down! I blogged earlier about how tired I am, and how much I'm struggling. I still haven't been able to work out, and that's still bothering me. But... <BR> <BR> I have been doing workouts at work. Wall push ups, lunges, and other things I don't quite remember the name of. ;) <BR> <BR> I have been working on my sleep. I ended up going to bed about an hour, or so early last night. I still had trouble getting up, but it was a little easier. I listened to my body, and re... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 18:20:33 EST Tired, tired, aaaaaand....tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5135188 I am so tired. I am tired of being tired. I am tired of feeling like crap. I am tired of the achiness, even if it does register low on the pain scale. I am tired of feeling like I cannot enjoy the things I want to enjoy. I am tired of feeling too tired to work out, and being physically unable to get up early enough to work out before work. I am tired of trying to get off steroids. I am so tired. <BR> <BR> Tired of hearing how tired I am? Lol. Seems to be a theme in my blogs...they pop up eve... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 12:48:31 EST As promised: banana ice cream http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5129408 I've seen this around SP a lot, and finally decided to give it a try. When I posted a status about it, I got requests for the recipe. I don't really have a recipe, as it's just...well, you'll see. <BR> <BR> Banana ice cream <BR> Step 1 Peel, chop, and freeze ripe banana (even overripe is fine) <BR> Step 2 Dump frozen banana in blender <BR> Step 3 Blend <BR> Step 4 Enjoy <BR> <BR> Per hubby's request, I added 'chocolate' by adding cocoa powder. He loved it, and didn't realize it wasn't 'real... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 10:11:20 EST Who I want to be http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5124781 This goes along with my "why I am here' blog. I'm not just working on making healthy lifestyle changes, I'm working on making all around changes. <BR> Here is who/what I want to be: <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> Confident in my own skin. This is a given. <BR> <em>344</em> Comfortable, and confident in my clothing choices. Finding things other than the typical jeans and t-shirt. More dresses, skirts, shoe variety, and interesting tops. <BR> <em>341</em> Get back into cooking, which ... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 11:27:51 EST Using excuses and blame to my advantage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5118875 I make a lot of excuses, and I blame people and things for my bad choices. I came to the realization last night, I can use these to my advantage! Here are some examples how. <BR> <BR> <em>15</em> Hubs and I have become major couch potatoes, and I believe it's not only hurting our health, but our relationship. I know it certainly is bringing my mood down a lot to have nothing to do every evening but sit in front of the tv, and eat dinner. And then eat snacks. Soooo, I suggested to hubby a ... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 09:41:32 EST Why I am here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109672 Sometimes, I seem to lose sight of the reasons I am here. They fall to back, and don't always stand out in the forefront as they should. These reasons keep me going, keep me motivated, and help to push me. <BR> I will be honest, some of these reasons listed below are 100% health oriented, and some are 100% selfish and petty. The reasons that I focus on change day to day, and I say, whatever works that day, works. No shame here. <BR> <BR> In no particular order, the reasons I want to keep go... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 09:41:43 EST What was that Miz Sara Lee? Surely I misread... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5102832 I hate grocery shopping. I hate it even more when I'm not feeling well, and temptation is way too easy to give in to. At my grocery store, to start, you go to the right which leads you directly into the bakery and deli. How horrible is that?! <BR> As I walked through the bakery, I tried to avoid the smells and sights, but I couldn't. Oh, the temptations. But thankfully, I was at the beginning of the trip, and temptation hadn't quite worn me down yet. Guess putting it at the start worked out, ... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 17:31:21 EST Don't worry. I got this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5101373 Feeling pretty proud of myself today, and the choices I have been making lately. <BR> Now, to keep on keepin' on! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l611030320.jpg"> <BR> <BR> C'mon guys, I know we can all do this! Just as long as we stick together. <BR> <BR> And best of all, <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l242860393.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> Tue, 16 Oct 2012 13:39:41 EST ...but it was good enough. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5099973 I'm reflecting on the weekend I had, and the goals I hit and the goals I missed. Here is a recap: <BR> <BR> Friday, I didn't have the veggies to make stir-fry as I had planned, so we had pasta instead. It was good, and I served it with a side of steamed veggies with olive oil. Hubby helped, since it was the start of what turned out to be a very icky feeling weekend. <BR> <BR> Saturday, hubby took Mr. B to the vet for a checkup on his allergies, and he is doing much better thankfully. While ... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 13:43:58 EST I need to lay out my game plan. Again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095302 Or maybe I just need to revise it a bit. I don't know. Either way, I haven't been sticking to it, although I have been putting effort into most aspects. (Hey, at least I can be honest.) <BR> <BR> So here we go.... <BR> <BR> 3 freggie servings/day <BR> At lesat 1 must be a veggie <BR> <BR> track & drink at least 4 cups of water, daily <BR> <BR> track & exercise 90 minutes/week <BR> This is anything, including walking the dog <BR> <BR> track food at least one weeke... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 13:11:57 EST Tapering is hard to do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092802 I have tapering woes. Why, you ask? Especially when I have been working SO, SO, SOOOO hard to get off of steroids? After all, I have been on them for four years now. <BR> Well, first, the good news. I'm fighting to stay on only 5mg/day now. That's a far cry from the 30& up I have been on in the past. <BR> *pause here for applause. It's ok, go ahead and appluad me. It's awesome and applause is due. For those that don't know how awesome that is, not considering how many times I have tried and ... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 14:27:13 EST My new jeans, and proud of today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090285 I blogged earlier about how I had trashed my Pajama Jeans, thanks to all the support from my sparkbuddies. I finally was able to go to the store, and try on jeans in sizes that made me uncomfortable, and bring home a pair. I got a belt, too! Here is a picture of my new jeans. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l605598192.jpg"> <BR> <BR> They are too long, but I don't mind. For right now, they suit my needs, they fit, and are real jeans. I may get them altered at some poi... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 17:21:33 EST Scheduling again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087602 I seem to do best when I schedule things into my day, very precisely. I know it seems a little extreme, but for me, it works, especially right now. So here is tonight's schedule: <BR> <BR> 5:00 feed birds/fresh water for dogs <BR> let dogs out <BR> change into workout clothes <BR> <BR> 5:20 set up laptop with workout music, and crank it up!! <BR> work out with My Fitness Coach on Wii, focusing on arms. 30 minutes. With weights! <BR> <BR> 5:50 change into comfy clothes, start a load of laun... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 09:14:55 EST Look what I got!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5077164 After some awesome advice and support from the SP Cafe and the team Lupus - Team Butterfly, I finally went to the store yesterday and got a new pair of jeans. <BR> It's so sad, but I had been wearing Pajama Jeans for months now. Nothing else was fitting, and those things stretch like nobody's business! Bad part is, they were starting to get stretched out and were not fitting well. Not that they fit great in the first place. <BR> Anyway, check out what I got! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 13:31:02 EST Updated goals / tip o' the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075898 Sidenote: I had this blog all written out, and the internet didn't like it and lost it. :( So this will probably be shorter, but all well. <BR> <BR> Here are my updated goals/rules: <BR> <BR> <em>140</em> <BR> 3 freggie servings/day - at least 1 veggie <BR> I love fruits, but have a hard time with veggies. So here I'm going to force myself to get some of those, too. <BR> <BR> <em>194</em> <BR> Drink & track 4 cups of water a day. <BR> Hardest part here: tracking. Here we go! <BR> ... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 14:11:11 EST That strictness I was talking about... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5074208 A while back, I blogged about how I wanted to try being a little bit more strict with myself. More rules, goals, and things to follow. I do well with rules, and I think that's what my plan was lacking. Well, of course, I never got around to really setting some more strict guidelines. After all, who would want to? <em>40</em> But I know it's something I need to do, so here's my plan. I have today after work all laid out, since that seems to be my hardest time. <BR> <BR> <em>52</em> Tr... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 10:11:52 EST wowzer. THAT was tough!! but i did it!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5039166 I had a really rough day at work again. I don't want to go into it, as it's the weekend now, but basically, I was doing the job of three people, all the while the phone was ringing off the hook. 1/3 of what I was doing causes me a lot of physical aches by the end of the day if I'm not careful, and of course I wasn't careful. <BR> Needless to say, by the end of the day I knew I would be craving some major comfort food, and started debating whether I really wanted to make those turkey sloppy j... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 18:34:55 EST Update time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037741 I have such a weakness for convenience food! After fasting over lunch for a test today, I was heading home and planned to eat the soup I had made a few nights ago for this week's lunches. Instead, I stopped at a fast food joing. I'm not even sure why, and I'm trying to figure that out now. I was actually looking forward to the soup I had made, nice and comforting, and I still stopped. So weird! <BR> <BR> Otherwise, I've been doing very well this week. Last night, I even snacked on carrots in... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 16:40:01 EST Cancel that drumroll... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029620 Ok, here's the deal. I used to weigh in on Sundays, to keep myself accountable. I just recently changed to Mondays, to go along with the SP weigh-in group. I've also found I kind of like it that day, too. Then I started thinking about maybe doing a 'cheat' weigh-in halfway in the week, just to check in with myself. Daily would have been too much, so I settled on a quick, no stress, not tracked, second weigh in. Which I forgot to do yesterday, and did this morning. <BR> The results? <BR> A los... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 17:15:24 EST Let's get MOTIVATED!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5016977 I'm super frustrated today. Today, like many other days, I start to wonder why I'm here, and if it's worth it. Being on steroids for about 4 years now, I have been unable to get my weight under control in that time. I have done nothing but gain, gain, gain. <BR> So is it worth my time to continue to track, exercise, and put the effort in? YES! Because I'm not just working on my weight, I'm working on my health. That should mean more than any number on the scale. <BR> <BR> So let's get motiv... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 17:39:42 EST Back to 0. Again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013562 My weight ticker is back to 0 pounds lost. <BR> <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I think it was triggered by the donuts (yes, donutS) I ate last week. Not that it ruined my day calorie-wise, but it certainly was a trigger. A trigger for self-sabatoge, that is. <BR> I *think* I learned why I self-sabatoge. It's not about the weight loss itself, which is what I thought it was about. No, it's about the energy and great feeling I keep gaining. Crazy, right? Let me try and explain. I have gotten used to b... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 12:47:32 EST Proud of my stinky sneaks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5008247 <em>331</em> <em>331</em> <em>331</em> <em>331</em> <em>331</em> <BR> <BR> Last night, after I got home, I took off my sneakers and realized they were stinky. So I grabbed the Lysol bottle and sprayed them, thinking I may need to wash them this weekend. When I looked up, I saw hubby looking at me and quickly turn away. Oops! Girls are supposed to be sugar and spice, right?! <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> Then, I realized what having stinky sneaks means. It means I am UP, I am MOVING, I am AC... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 12:42:23 EST Feeling down & out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005051 I hate, hate, hate feeling tired all the time. Walking around like I'm in a fog, yawning all the time, barely able to keep my eyes open. The only time I really seem to perk up is after a meal or a snack, which, obviously, is not a solution. <BR> The problem is, fatigue is a part of my life. No getting around that. It gets worse every time I lower the dose of steroids I'm on - which I did yesterday. I'm so excited to be down to 10mg! On the other hand, I hate the adjustment period. <BR> Yester... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 12:46:07 EST Stress Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4998054 Here's my second stress blog for the stress busting challenge. <BR> <BR> Things that are stressing me: <BR> *Work. I went from not having anything to do, to having too much. It always works that way! <BR> Deep breath. I know I don't have to get everything done today, and there is plenty of time left in the day to do things. If it comes down to it. I will talk to my mentor when we make phone calls this afternoon, and see if things can wait. <BR> *Hubby's bday. It's on Saturday. I have no gif... 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