LAURA40S's SparkPeople Blog LAURA40S's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I stay away too long!! I need to keep in touch with this site. It works for me when I'm here and use the trackers. Now I've added the sparksave site to keep up with my finances. <BR> <BR> it's all the more important because I just lost my father. He was my rock and all I can see right now is how much I've not lived up to his teachings. <BR> <BR> I want to now to show my kids how wise he was. How good he was. And to somehow try to make his memory proud. Be successful his way. Sat, 28 Dec 2013 21:40:20 EST Running around without a wagon....again Nearly 6 months since my last blog post, perhaps you can guess what's been going on with me. <BR> <BR> Yup. I've been roaming around without a wagon again!. Looking back I can see the frustration that was building with the running and training and the hard time I was documenting with learning to run. <BR> <BR> And looking at now I can see, quite clearly, that a full fledged swan dive off the wagon has meant 15 lbs back on and not a vegetable or fruit in sight in my kitchen. <BR> <BR> And ... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 15:21:27 EST full moon frustration Maybe it's in the air, or the stars, or that wickedly full moon, but yesterday sucked. I had a crappy run yesterday and almost felt like stopping mid course and crying because of it. I was trying my w2d2 c25k run. I had my new shoes and the last couple of runs had gone pretty well. I couldn't flippin breath!! I could barely make 30 seconds on before I looked like a fish out of water!! (gonna check and see if I have exercise induced asthma or reactive airway) <BR> <BR> It was so frustrating!... Sat, 7 Apr 2012 10:42:16 EST 238 calories? for a 3.1 mile effort? doubt it! So I've begun my training for a 5k I've entered. The race is June 9th. I am by no means or stretch of the imagination a runner! I'm over weight, middleage, an ex-smoker and never have been very athletic. But I wanted to give this running business an honest go. <BR> <BR> I'm loosely following the c25k program. by loosely I mean i may have to take it a little slower than recommended. Which may mean I don't quite get all the way to running a full 5k before the race. <BR> <BR> but that's ok ... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 22:31:26 EST commitment or need committed I signed up for my 1st ever 5k. Scary enough for those who have trained but I'm not even a runner! yet anyway. I have, however been working 3 or 4 sometimes 5 days a week since January and I think I'm ready to step the pace up a little bit. <BR> <BR> I've tried c25k before. It was paced a little bit fast for me so I'm not sure how well I'll do, but even if I have to stop and walk during the race (as long as I stay the heck out of the way) at least I have a set goal and something new I'm wor... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 09:47:39 EST I just felt like ruh-nhing. I've always wished I could be a runner. I've always admired runners as I see them go by. They look healthy and lean and fit! They don't looks lumbery and winded and ridiculous! <BR> <BR> And I've tried a couple of times to join the ranks of those who run (/jog), but have never felt I had much success or was too intimidated or (when I tried it on a treadmill) bored. <BR> <BR> I actually have an even longer list of running complaints/excuses: <BR> can't breath - winded very fast <BR> shin ... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 12:01:33 EST accomplishments! I'm really glad I've both stayed with my gym classes and kept coming here to sparkpeople. It was getting frustrating not seeing the scale doing much but right now I seem to be on a steady trend of loosing about 1/2 a pound a week. and you know what? THAT"S GREAT! :) <BR> <BR> But I know I can't really let up and I will need to continue to challenge myself, especially with my workouts so my body doesn't simply assimilate. <BR> <BR> The other thing I need to keep diligently at is finding he... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 10:26:02 EST Dig Dig Dig I still feel like I'm struggling even though I'm 6 weeks into these new habits. I also feel like these new habits have taken over my life. <BR> <BR> I did my first 5:30 a.m. work out today and I'm hoping it makes me feel like I have more free time without making me feel too tired too early in the evening. <BR> <BR> And I'm still frustrated about weight loss but I've made a commitment to follow the advice of our team trainer and step up the cardio to 4-5 times a week and strength train a... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 10:15:20 EST Encouragement and Frustration at the same time So with the program I joined back in January, a local competition akin to biggest loser, I have been diligent about revising my lifestyle to make time for exercise. <BR> <BR> But I've also had to make more time in my life for meal planning, cooking new things, shopping for healthy choices (takes more time than you think!!). <BR> <BR> And I've seen some positive changes, not super fast, but it's not supposed to be. 7 lbs in 6 weeks. <BR> <BR> And that's so very encouraging!! As is the fa... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 08:11:48 EST even tenths of a pound count right! I weigh myself twice a week. I do a midweek weigh in to see if I need to keep it steady as she goes or if I need to step it up. <BR> <BR> This week between my mid-week and my weigh day I dropped .9 of a pound. And I was thrilled! <BR> <BR> Which I hope means that I'm relaxing about weight loss and realize that it's a long-haul activity not a quick fix. <BR> <BR> It still seems daunting to have to work sooooo hard for what comparatively seems like sooo little, but it sure beats having t... Wed, 15 Feb 2012 14:50:26 EST improvise!! I have to tell you about the coolest workout I've had in awhile. My daughter had a rare evening with no extra-curriculars on the calendar so I asked her if she wanted to go to the Y with me for Zumba. She said sure and off we went. We got there a little late for the class (they were only in their first song) but she was too embarrassed to go in, plus it's always a pretty full class. <BR> <BR> Instead we went upstairs to the fitness room and walked around the track warming up discussing what... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 11:25:32 EST its why they call them slip-ups~ So I got lazy on the exercise and I over indulged at Pizza Hut and now I see it. I slipped on my plan and I slipped more than just an ooops. <BR> <BR> And yesterday at the Y I stepped on the scale. And sure enough...the number was 2.5 pounds!! <BR> <BR> NOW I know why they call them slip-ups! If you slip, the scale goes up so beeeee careful :) Wed, 8 Feb 2012 10:03:37 EST wandering off track I'm glad I come to this site where I log the things I know I need to do in order to get healthier. For one thing I can see how often I DON'T do those things!! <BR> <BR> Like eat fresh fruit and vegetables <BR> Or drink my water <BR> or keep track of my eating <BR> or exercise! <BR> <BR> That pretty much sums up my last week or so. I can still see the path, but I've been wandering around in the rough a bit! <BR> <BR> To the Y tonight. and a good supper... once I figure out what to have! Tue, 31 Jan 2012 12:59:20 EST Goal rewards I love reaching goals. It makes me feel like I'm productive and competent! And I've just seen my very first progress towards a goal in a very long time. Which makes me deeply happy inside, however I know it would be kinda fun to have some rewards. <BR> <BR> Cheap rewards. I'm curious how you guys reward yourself. Get some ideas. When I hit one of my major goals I'd like to get a manicure. I've never had one. And I need to use a massage coupon...maybe make that for 5 lbs, make the manicure f... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 09:35:53 EST yay for a weekend kept on track :) I did great this weekend!! I had 2 beers, baked 2 pecan pies and didn't touch either of them, helped clean up from a diner and didn't take ANY leftovers, got fitness minutes in at the YMCA, and made a big healthy pot of white chicken chili using a new recipe that turned out fantastic! <BR> <BR> I think tomorrow is scale day and I hope it reinforces my progress. But even if it hasn't moved yet, I know I'm doing better and in the long long run, being healthy is what will count! <BR> <BR> L Mon, 16 Jan 2012 09:46:14 EST Perpetual yo-yo looking for scissors So here I am again. This time I'm hoping there is strength in numbers. I joined our local shape-up challenge. Our local hosptial in conjunction with our local YMCA are hosting this event for teams. I am on a great team and whle we have no delusions of winning, we do have determination to progress. <BR> <BR> So far Its been 5 days and I'm not doing awful on the calories. <BR> <BR> But here comes the weekend so it'll be my first challenge :) Fri, 13 Jan 2012 11:51:12 EST why is this wagon so slippery!! Ok, so I don't even have any idea why, but I managed to let my program drop again. I'm working to get it back now. To keep analyzing my behavior. <BR> <BR> I have done some exercise, just comparatively little and for no real reason to let it go. <BR> <BR> Just tired I guess. It does take time and concentration on what you are doing. I felt better though while I was doing it and even cooked more. <BR> <BR> So here I am again. To keep going!! And going and going Mon, 22 Mar 2010 16:18:28 EST I'm a mile runner!!!!!! Ok so I totally blew C25K schedule, but I got on the treadmill today and wondered just how far I could run now... it was supposed to be w3d3 and I was totally stressed about moving on to week 4 and I wanted to see if I could get anywhere near 5 minutes of straight running... <BR> <BR> And then the oddest thing happened...I felt a ..a groove, a pace, a stride. And after 5 minutes I realized I could go farther... quite a bit farther! <BR> <BR> I almost blew it cuz I got cocky and upped my sp... Thu, 28 Jan 2010 22:24:51 EST warding off frustration The scale is a stubborn thing. I've cut my caloric intake, I've increased my calories burnt, literally from couch potato to exercising 5 days a week... and still. I'm stuck. <BR> <BR> And people say, "hang in there, you always gain before you lose",and "muscle weighs more than fat" but it is very hard to hang in there when you are working to lose weight and structuring activities specifically to that purpose, modifying behavior, planning meals and menus and grocery shopping trips and yet..... Sat, 23 Jan 2010 07:52:21 EST a pound by any other name Ok so I had a feeling I wasn't going to see much movement on the scale this morning...but not for lack of trying!! Nothing about me felt different and more telling still, nothing fit different. My goal is 2 pounds a week and this week only reaped 1. barely. if I squint right. <BR> <BR> I'd just finished week 2 of reaching my goals for nutrition and fitness...especially fitness so I'm hoping I have the dreaded week 2 muscle response. and next week I'll see a better number posted. <BR> <BR... Mon, 18 Jan 2010 10:11:44 EST heartbreak isn't easier with ice cream! I'm a little old for this, but I've been jilted by someone I dated... i guess it was a case of 'he's just not that into you' but I'm the YOU and it still makes me want to say whhhhhhhhy? or more specifically why not? And then the little voice says, weight loss or no weight loss, he still just didn't like you, you're not young enough, pretty enough, outgoing enough, whatever and so suddenly it seemed like none of it mattered and 1/2 a carton of chocolate ice cream might work. or potato chips. ... Tue, 12 Jan 2010 22:26:39 EST weigh day shows down 2 pounds :) The scale today said I"ve lost another 2 pounds. I was afraid my first loss was a fluke or water weight and part of it may have been, but with my weigh in today showing 2 more pounds gone, I feel safe to say not all of it was water weight. <BR> <BR> It certainly is a boost to motivation to see a positive change, and I don't mean to be a negative nelly, but wow I feel like I had to do a ton of work to get even that much change and it's almost daunting to think I have to work that hard foreve... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 08:17:25 EST oh yeah! Budget planning! now I remember So yeah. I went to the grocery with some ideas of the types of foods I wanted to eat this week and some entrées for supper plus some things my girls like to snack on and I came out of the store with 3 or 4 real meals and about 100 bucks less in my pocket. <BR> <BR> I live in an area where that is a healthy amount for groceries! Especially when I really didn't get that much for actual meals and menus. <BR> <BR> So I think I'll be adding a Day Planner for meals, menus, and snacks. A little e... Fri, 8 Jan 2010 22:44:06 EST Stellar day! I had a very satisfying day! I made my goals and spent time with my kids! <BR> <BR> It started out hectic but after church I came home and rounded up the kids (they usually go with, but this was their only opportunity to sleep in since break started) and got ready to go the 45 miles to the mall so they could spend Christmas money. <BR> <BR> I knew my goals would have to stay a priority. Here's how the day played out <BR> <BR> Before we left - <BR> Bowl of Oatmeal <BR> <BR> At the mall- ... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 21:51:54 EST so many choices! I've been looking at my goals and looking around sp at all the challenges! There are so many cool challenges and it's so hard to decide which one to join! and worse, for me, to keep track of what I'm doing! I have sparkstreaks to track, nutrition goals to track, fitness goals. arghghghg! so much info and such a little space to keep it! (aka my mind) <BR> <BR> Still it is so much fun to see all the different activities out there and the support! good heavens but I love the support! It's one ... Sat, 2 Jan 2010 09:07:31 EST Broken record~ But I'm trying again, or some more. I've managed to keep myself under a certain barrier...the 170 mark...but the way I ate this Chirstmas may have topped that. I want to re-apply myself here and get back to goals and work and striving to make myself healthy! <BR> <BR> So. how to make this try different? How to apply myself and get results? <BR> 1. count calories <BR> 2. exercise up to goal times <BR> 3. re-learn how to eat and how to cook and especially how to snack. <BR> 4. more exercise... Sun, 27 Dec 2009 20:19:55 EST One Goal Achived!! I can check off one of the goals on my goal list. <BR> I have successfully ran 1/4 of a mile without stopping! On my way to the mile. I don't care how long it takes. I want to do this. Having baby steps to a larger goal is key to not getting discouraged for me (and I suspect most people). I can't wait now to get out there and try it again. <BR> <BR> In the meantime I will do the things to support the achievement of my goal, watching what I eat, walking when I cant go run, proper rest. My bi... Tue, 15 Sep 2009 10:00:06 EST ok, again, here I go I feel like the little kid on the edge of the diving board who just bounces but can't quite get the nerve to jump in. 1,2,3..ah no....1,2,3....nope...1,2.3 maybe...yeah no. <BR> <BR> I wrote my last blog about falling off the spark wagon yet never did get back on. So I'm here to try again. Again. <BR> <BR> Still trouble with appetite, still can't get motivated to do cardio, still have the same weight goal, same fitness goal. Run a mile without stopping. <BR> <BR> Hope to make some pro... Mon, 13 Apr 2009 09:44:58 EST Well I, too, fell off the spark wagon Time to get back to work. Over the past few weeks I've totally ignored my plan and my goals. I'm suffereing for it as the poor eating and lack of exercise now makes me feel worse than before. So I'm jumping back on and I'll keep trying until I get it! If I keep trying and missing at least I'm trying!! I'll keep my focus on my target and goals. <BR> <BR> <BR> Aim small miss small Tue, 24 Mar 2009 08:43:58 EST If I know it works, why do I have a hard time doing it? I'm annoyed at myself. I really want to lose weight. I know now that this system will work too because I've lost some already...i watch my calories, eat the right kinds of food, and exercise; strength one day, cardio the next. <BR> <BR> Yet this weekend...even the end of last week...I can't get myself to exercise. :( <BR> And I fell off of eating the right kinds of food.. and getting all my water. <BR> <BR> I will redouble my efforts, but why, when faced with a success, however Mon, 2 Feb 2009 12:05:14 EST The scale moved! It was actually a banner day! For the first time the scale moved more than just my water weight. With this edema its not unusual for it to bounce but this time it bounced lower than ever before...and stayed there for a couple days which indicates to me there's been a change. <BR> <BR> It is a moral booster and makes me more dedicated to following my Sparkpeople program and keeping in touch with others who are working on weight loss. <BR> <BR> Looking ahead I can't wait for my clothes to f... Fri, 30 Jan 2009 10:42:33 EST Mashed Cauliflower in place of pasta or rice So I got whim and followed it. I'm always in a hurry to make supper and spaghetti is on the menu quite often. No one here likes whole wheat or spinach pasta and pasta puts me in a starch coma i'm trying to figure out how I'm going to eat just sauce when it occurs to me <BR> <BR> Cauliflower! you can mash cauliflower! Put the sauce over it. <BR> <BR> So I gave it a shot and was terrific! And the nutrition is so much better than white pasta. <BR> <BR> My brain... Mon, 26 Jan 2009 19:57:06 EST watchin my ticker bounce I've noticed that my weight ticker is going to bounce around some. Like right now it shows I'm down 4 pounds, but I have unexplained Edema and I bounce 6 pounds on a whim, but my weight never really changes (nor does my size). One thing though is that I haven't bounced down into the 150's at all, so if I can do that, then! my ticker will be tracking my weight loss. <BR> <BR> Still having a hard time getting into my suggested calorie range. Sun, 25 Jan 2009 20:32:16 EST Food!!! I started out on Sp just tracking my calories...sort of trying to be careful. and i'm having a devil of a time trying to get down to the calories in my goal. And I'm still hungry! <BR> <BR> I'm finding out I really have to plan meals and snacks, not just tell myself to eat better and buy a head of lettuce <BR> <BR> I haven't tried to manage my nutrition in a long time. I work in livestock nutrition, so it's certainly not like the concepts aren't there for me. I'm just always wanting to sn... Sat, 24 Jan 2009 12:30:51 EST