LASSKERR's SparkPeople Blog LASSKERR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My first 5k... So I have signed up for my first 5k. It is in one month from now. I am going to be doing it with Stacy's 10 year old cousin. He is having a hard time with running at his baseball camp so I told him we would train together for a race and then that would help him think it is easier to run. I know this kid won't let me forget, or slack off, or not train. I will be running a 5k next month because H won't let me do anything else. When you promise that kid something, he holds you to it :). But you ... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 11:01:32 EST Take # 280 I just seem to keep quitting.... <BR> Here we go again. Starting over again. I am determined to make it work this time. I have all the right things in place and even some time off to get the habits down. I actually am working from home for 3 months before starting the new job on May 21st. That should help me learn to eat right and hopefully help with the working out as well. It is such a hard and difficult path but one I am determined to win. <BR> <BR> There is a great motivator this time ... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 11:25:05 EST My arch-nemesis..the stairs So my buddy division and I have decided we are only going to take the stairs from now one.... We are on the 4th floor of the building. Good for our bodies.. I know that but OMG I hate those staircases! I have to run down to the basement maybe twice a day (sometimes more) so at a MINIMUM that is 3 times up and 3 times down. By the time I reach the top flight, I feel like I am going to die! I feel so out of breath. I don't think I ever realized just how out of shape I am until I tried to do t... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 19:01:47 EST Too good not to re-post I have read this article 10 times in the last two days and feel the need to share it with my spark people friends. I hope I am not breaking any rules. The website stated it could be re-posted if you give credit and a link so I am going to do both of those here : <BR> <BR> website:<BR>s <BR> <BR> Identity–Based Habits: How to Actually Stick to Your Goals This Year <BR> by James Clear <BR> <BR> Change is hard. You’ve probably noticed that. <BR> We ... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 10:23:35 EST Small goals to a big change So I found this article yesterday (<BR>ts) as well as a Blog post on Nerd Fitness about goals being too big and I started thinking...I need to start smaller and stop overwhelming here are my goals for the next month and until I get them all right : <BR> <BR> 1) Exercise at least 20 min a day ...even if it is just walking around the building or doing the stairs at work <BR> <BR> 2) Clean at least one thing in the house a day <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 09:16:37 EST I missed Jillian! So we use to watch Biggest Loser all the time and we stopped when our world fell apart. And I forgot how much of an inspiration this show was. I will go to the gym tomorrow...I will work out. I will do this because if they can, I can. And you can too..... More tomorrow. I have to go to bed :P Tue, 8 Jan 2013 23:35:49 EST A new year -some goals Although I don't necessarily believe in new year's resolutions, I do believe in new beginnings and writting things down so that you have a reference point. so by the end of the year, I would like to: <BR> <BR> 1) be able to get up and work out every morning <BR> 2) truly be done with soda! This is my biggest issue...what does one drink when they don't drink soda? <BR> 3) Be able to do the dishes every single night <BR> 4) Be able to keep my house cleaner <BR> 5) Be healthier and happier in ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 14:40:12 EST Took a break I took a small break in December. I focused on being ready for this adventure. We cleaned and re-arranged the house so that we were more comfortable in it. We did all the laundry and re-organized the closets. We have worked on making our enviroment a comfortable and safe one so we can focus on ourselves. That didn't leave much in the way of internet time. It isn't done yet, we still have some rooms to work on but it is well on it's way. I hope you all had a great holiday and will enjoy taking... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 14:29:50 EST NEED MORE SLEEP!!! *operation lil one update at the bottom* Feeling like a zombie today! We were all set to go to bed at 9:30 and then it just didn't happen. I kept thinking of other things that need to be done and those other things took over. Oh well, so be it! I'll get through this day and then be back on board tomorrow. I did remember to pack a lunch at least and am working on getting through things one step at a time so my desk isn't looking quite so busy. <BR> <BR> Operation lil one update: <BR> <BR> We visited the dr and that totally change... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 15:00:07 EST The beginning of a journey (Operation Lil One) Later today (since it is now the 3rd of Dec), Stacy and I are starting a journey. Because we aren't sharing this journey with our friends and family until it gets much further along but I need some place to vent it, you guys get to hear all about it. I will put the tag (Operation Lil One) at the end of the journey blogs so those who don't care don't have to read about it. <BR> <BR> Stacy and I have always talked kids. We knew we wanted to be moms some day but the when, where, why , how a... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 03:37:20 EST Fighting in my sleep I had long fights with my spouse last my dreams. It was the weirdest thing because I woke up so angry at her, but she hadn't done anything. Evidently something frustrated me last night. <BR> <BR> Today is not a good but not a bad day either, it is just a day. We get to go out to dinner tonight which is nice and get to see Stacy's Grandparents too which is always a special time. They are the best people ever! Work is going well but slightly boring. The day is just sort of draggi... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 14:53:07 EST Little bit of stress... Today is a stressful day. I am not sure why, but I am just feeling stressed today. I am glad I planned ahead and brought a gallon of tea to work. It is helping me get through the day for sure!! I am slowly falling more in love with my Keruig and Coffe Mate as well. Less calories and less money than starbucks!! I am also discovering I really don't like egg yokes! <BR> <BR> I had to spend my lunch today playing orchid surgery. Stacy gave me an orchid last year for my birthday and I love it ... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 14:31:34 EST Two Days in Two days in to my new lifestyle and so far so good. my goal for this week is no soda. I do really well and then burn out so I am going to try to do little things at a time. This week, No Soda. So far, so good :) Mind you we are only two days in but still, that is good for someone who would drink 3-5 a day. It is a stressful week too! My boss is back after the death of his son and he is stressed and it is a busy week at work as we are on duty this week so ... Hope you are all having a great d... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 14:47:29 EST Depression Kills me! Depression is the death of me and the death of my weight loss plan. I tend to give up, to move on, to just not care anymore. I let people walk all over me and I let them change my goals and my mind and my plans. I let their actions effect me. I will do that no more. <BR> <BR> We are looking at starting a family. We are going to start that process here really soon and I want to make sure that we are healthy and that I am able to find some time for myself and take care of myself so that I ca... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 15:55:34 EST Weekly Goals- 4/23 - 4/29 EVERY WEEK: <BR> ---------------- <BR> <BR> --Eat in calorie range: <BR> ----M: Didn't monitor <BR> ----T: <BR> ----W: <BR> ----Th: <BR> ----F: <BR> ----S: <BR> ----Su: <BR> --Do cardio at least three day this week <BR> ----1: <BR> ----2: <BR> ----3: <BR> --Do strength training at least three days this week <BR> ----1: <BR> ----2: <BR> ----3: <BR> Drink no soda for the week <BR> ----M: Didn't monitor <BR> ----T: <BR> ----W: <BR> ----Th: <BR> ----F: <BR> ----S: <BR> -... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 14:06:41 EST Lunch time check in - 4-24-2012 Today is stacy's b-day!!! We aren't doing anything fun though and I feel so bad because it is her 30th b-day! It should be a big deal :(! i'm a bad wife :(. <BR> <BR> In other news.... <BR> So far today: <BR> No sodas! <BR> <BR> and that is my one accomplishment :P I am actually taking a short lunch at work so taht I can get home early so I can get the house clean and at least make her a nice dinner for tongiht. We have a friend coming overas well. Veggie lasagna and bread for dinner. And ... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 13:51:27 EST Richard Simmons So I downloaded a lot of Richard Simmons and zumba CDs. I'm attemptingng to find fun ways to exercise and my sister has a point about Richard Simmons it is really easy to not be self concious while watching him :-P. Hopefully it helps! Sat, 21 Apr 2012 22:30:26 EST Need to stay focused... It is so hard to change 28 years of bad habits. If I ever have a kid, I am going to start them on healthy habits that way they don't have this fight. Soda is the worse habit to break....I just can't seem to break that one, especially when I stress out. I know that I need to cut it out so for now I am going to try to cut back to one a day then one every other day then one a week and then none. Stupid Soda....who ever invented it should be shot! Sun, 15 Apr 2012 02:00:18 EST A long day Today was a long day...not good or bad, just long.Teh weather is beautiful and work is going well. I applied for this job that I am really hoping to get so my fingers are crossed on that one. Overall nothing exciting to report :) Oh..I am down to 246.5. I know i was at 247 but ballooned up to 255 for awhile there so I am very excited to be back down. Hope you are all having a great day as well! <BR> <BR> Check in time: <BR> ere are the goals for this month: <BR> The Plan: <BR> For this mont... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 21:00:26 EST New Month, same goals Here are the goals for this month: <BR> The Plan: <BR> For this month I will: <BR> 1) Take a walk every day <BR> 2) Write in the blog every day <BR> 3) Comment on someone else's blog every day <BR> 4) NO SODA! <BR> 5) Cardio 3 times a week <BR> 6) Strength training <BR> 7) Do a little bit of chores each and every day in order to keep the house cleaner <BR> <BR> <BR> Yep, these are the same goals as last month but I think staying with these small things until I master them would be... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 15:10:54 EST Stress Eating So I have had pop and chocolate cake and instead of trying to get a second piece of cake I am writing this instead. I am stressed - a friend is dying from an inoperable tumor and has been rushed to the ER, the kitty isn't doing better and might die as well. I hate death and then Stacy started a new job on top of the play so she is a walking ball of stress as well and I keep wanting to just eat junk food. Going to try checking in here so that maybe I don't keep eating junk. Tue, 3 Apr 2012 23:55:39 EST Bad Spark friend :( I know! I am being a bad spark friend. It has been a busy week. COncert was monday and then tuesday was crazy catch up day. After that we had to run the kitty to the vet again this morning. She really isn't doing well at all. But we may have found a specialist who is willing to try so different things with us to maybe prolong her life and keep her with us which is we will have to wait and see how it goes. Work today was insane as well. I came home and took a nap and am up now and... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 23:16:37 EST Life as a Rock Star :) TSO was in town last night so that means we got to hang with the band, go to the concert, and mainly just enjoy the show!! I love when we get to see the band. <BR> <BR> Some pics? (cause it is easier than explaining :P ) <BR><BR>.562066573168.2041975.124701414&type=1<BR>&l=3fa7e86ff1 <BR> <BR> Check in time: <BR> The Plan: <BR> For this month I will: <BR> 1) Take a walk every day <BR> I took a little walk around the complex with the dogs this morni... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 21:08:29 EST Oh what a beautiful morning, Oh what a beautiful day! I am having a great day today and making some pretty good health decisions too!!! The day started with my 7 am work which believe it or I found very relaxing on Sundays. Sort of a me time. It is the second job and a work at home job but it is very entertaining and challenging. It really is a job I enjoy. Then the puppies and I went for a walk. Logged about 1.5 miles or so. My poor little puppy doesn't know what to think of all this walking. But we rested at one end of the trail so he could ha... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 18:18:16 EST Where did I lose me? I use to have such confidence, would walk up to world leaders and have complete conversations. Was friends with everyone and enjoyed life. Knew that no matter what i id I would succeed and that this world was just my playground. I haven't seen that girl in a really long time and I am not really sure where she went or why she isn't here anymore and the scariest part is....can I get her back? Where did my confidence go? Where did my security and my positiveness and my love of life go? Is it jus... Sat, 24 Mar 2012 16:13:59 EST Finding the time... Where does one find the time to work out? I have a very demanding career and then a second job on top of that and of course a house and a family to maintain, so where does one find the time for them? I feel like anytime I try to start something new, life gets in the way. I have lunches to make in the morning, I work until 11 to be out of the house by 6:30...where does one find the time to get things done? To check out and work out? To go for a walk? Any suggestions? Here is my schedule right... Sat, 24 Mar 2012 15:27:28 EST I'm not crazy... I so should be working but i really don't want to. The first job killed me today and kitty had to go to the vet again...she had 3/4 cups of fluid pulled out of her chest. We are hoping it builds up much slower in the future and we don't have to take her back in to get the fluid drained again. Thu, 22 Mar 2012 21:29:34 EST Hello my spark friends! Hello peeps! Work is stressful, it has been stressful and I find myself slipping so I am here and trying to get the inspiration to keep going. The kitty still isn't doing good and I am worried about her. I hope she pulls through this okay. The meds may take up to two weeks but in the mean time we might have to pull the fluid out of her chest again. I am hoping we don't :(. <BR> <BR> Check in time: <BR> The Plan: <BR> For this month I will: <BR> 1) Take a walk every day <BR> We took a walk t... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 00:09:06 EST Today... Sucked! Plain and simply just sucked!!! Everythign that could go wrong did go wrong.... and we will just leave it at that. <BR> <BR> Check in time: <BR> The Plan: <BR> For this month I will: <BR> 1) Take a walk every day <BR> There was a very small walk this morning before work <BR> 2) Write in the blog every day <BR> Yep :) <BR> 3) Comment on someone else's blog every day <BR> Heading there after this blog <BR> 4) NO SODA! <BR> Nope, no soda today! I did good! Ice tea and some carbinated ... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 23:15:22 EST Uggg... (and weekly progress check in) This week was exhausting! Between kitty being sick, layoffs at both jobs, and just the emotional stress of stacy's first week of work, I am SLEEPY! Today is going to be a good day though. I am working on getting that house cleaned finally and the sun is beautiful outside so overall it isn't a bad day at all. We just have to keep moving forward and keep going. <BR> <BR> Check in: <BR> Check in time: <BR> The Plan: <BR> For this month I will: <BR> 1) Take a walk every day <BR> We did good on ... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 14:37:34 EST Hump day... Seemed like an appropriate name for the day because this has been a roller coaster sort of week. I'm good at bullet points so lets do that <BR> <BR> -Monday: Good day, productive day. Enjoying the BEAUTIFUL weather <BR> -Monday night: Kitty has breathing problems, all night at the emergency vet <BR> -Tuesday: More vets!! and work! <BR> Wednesday: Go into work, whole team was fired (well a lot of them). Kitty is doing better (YAY), all the judges I work with are being rotated out of their... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 21:07:46 EST Not a good day.. We had a kitty medical emergency lat night and our little girl spent the night in an oxygen tank unable to breathe. Turns out she had fluid around her heart and lungs. They drained out the fluid and she has an ultrasound today just to see how she is doing and we will see where it goes. SO I am here trying to get motivation to actually do things today. WE were up SOO late and then I slept in late this morning so I am allowing myself to watch one or two tv shows and then I have to get the house... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 15:44:23 EST This is Me...(Warning: Pictures attached of current body size) This is me...... (This blog will be repeated each month, updating the things below to fit where I am siting that month..) WARNING: PICTURES OF A VERY OVERWEIGHT BODY WITH VERY LITTLE CLOTHES ON BELOW...YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> 250.5 lbs (BTW: Yes I do have underwear on in the first picture) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <im... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 20:08:00 EST A Blog a day... Today is a good day. I feel good, I am enjoying life, and in other news I SCORED MADONNA TICKETS!!! Okay, now that I got that out of my system!! I went for a very nice walk with the dogs this morning and am seriously considering another one this evening although I do have to get the house cleaned before I can do anything. It is driving us all crazy!! <BR> <BR> I hope you all are having a great day as well!!! <BR> <BR> Check in time: <BR> The Plan: <BR> For this month I will: <BR> 1) Take a... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 19:35:48 EST Relief.... Stacy got a job and suddenly I feel some relief. I am not planning on quitting my two jobs but I feel like maybe I can make it,w maybe i can work out and focus on me because maybe just maybe we will be okay. It is so funny how much pressure being the only bread winner was putting on me. I don't think I even realized the amount of pressure it was and how much it made me just paranoid! So, I'm back for now. I am going to slowly work up to maybe making time for me now, because lets face it there... Sun, 11 Mar 2012 14:54:53 EST A grey and dreary day So today I feel defeated and just wanna cry. I might once I getout of work....doesn't do you much good to cry at work. I am so sick of money. I hate money. Why don't we jsut go back to the freaking bartar system and call it good? We owe everyone. I feel like I owe them more than this paper green stuff - I owe them my life. And we don't even have credit cards or a car payment! These are just bills - basic every day bills! And Student loans, god I hate student loans! But you get a Master's degr... Thu, 15 Sep 2011 17:18:14 EST Walk before you run So I joined the virtual 5K in October. I wanna have something to work towards...some goal. And because of joining the 5K...I walked home from work the past two days. My car is dead so Stacy has been dropping me off at work and both times I wanted to go home before she could come get me, so I walked home :) It is about 2 miles and has two uphills and I have to admit that 2 miles is about my max for right now cause I am tired and my feet hurt afterwards but I still did it! And today my time was... Tue, 13 Sep 2011 15:34:07 EST Back and Moved in We are all moved in and have internet!! WOO HOO! I Am so happy with this, you have no idea. Now, time to start unpacking. that counts as exercise right? :0) <BR> <BR> Life is doing okay now. I feel like we are on the cusp of things starting to work out and move smooth. Keep your fingers crossed for me. <BR> <BR> Ooooo! Wanna see something crazy? here is my proposed work schedule from now til Dec. Bowling is the bowling alley job, court is the court house job, and Cit-r-us is a third job. ... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 16:42:51 EST Game Night! Last night I got home and Stacy had her best friend there. My boss didn't get me what I needed to get to work so we called a few more peeps and had a game night! OMG! I missed game night. It has been a VERY long time since we have had one. We use to have them once or twice a week. The feeling afterwards is just amazing. You feel tired because you were up to late and there is a certain amount of lack of productivity when at work, but I think for that feeling of being relaxed, and the amount o... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 14:18:57 EST Defeated Today I am having one of those I want my music with me every second of the day sort of days because music is my savior and my salvation. Unfortunatly, this afternoon I will be in teh courtroom so it isn't really an option. <BR> <BR> I feel defeated today. Stacy yelled at me last night for working too much. She is mad because I work all the time, I'm tired all the time, and that the house is slacking. I didn't have the heart to tell her that I am mad about it too but what other option do we... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 14:18:30 EST Good Morning World! Hello World! I spent the weeked doing nothing, Absolutley nothing and it was god sent. Today, I start my spark people journey again. Today I am going to start working on eating better. I figured that is a good place to start. My slow start goals - Track Food, Write here daily, and go for a walk daily. Small things but a good start i think. I feel good today. I went to bed sort of late but I feel good today. Overall, today is going to be a good day. Now let's keep our fingers crossed I have en... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 11:18:39 EST Sleepy easy friday! I am sleepy today. I woke up feeling like a million bucks but now the only 2 hours of sleep are starting to take it's effect on me. I am sleepy and everything feels weak and heavy. But it is almost lunch time, and I actually have a lunch today so maybe that will help.... If this hearing every ends! The judge is suppose to be leaving early. i hope he does because I want to go home early too. I think today is going to be a take it easy day. I don't think I am going to work tonight. I think I am... Fri, 12 Aug 2011 14:30:24 EST All I want is Milk :'( WARNING THIS IS GOING TO BE A COMPLAINING MESSAGE! <BR> ________________________________________<BR>______________________________________ <BR> Bank account is negative again. We give so much money to Wells Fargo in overdraft fees! But there is no way around it. There isn't enough money to pay everything.I get paid once a month from one job and the other job routinely pays late. I get paid $80.00 a week from the third job but when you get two overdraft fees at $35.00 each then there ya go...... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 17:53:39 EST Overslept and Long Day Usually by the time I get to Thursday, I am so exausted I can't even move any more. This is how I am feeling today and to top things off I overslept this morning so I was running late to work. I was running late to work on Monday too.... <BR> <BR> I don't feel like I can add another thing to my plate right now. I have so much I am balancing in a very delecate dance and now on top of it I have to find the time to move and I am feeling lost, overwhelmed, and basically just stressed. Every mus... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 11:00:08 EST Need my friends - Update on life Hey everyone! I know, I know....I'm horrible. This coming again then leaving again then coming again isn't a good habit to get into. I need you guys though. Please, check in...send me comments, make me come back to this site and keep me focused. <BR> Life is crazy right now. We are heading into our 4th move in one year. Hopefully it is the last one for the year. This new place has a pool and a gym!! I am super excited about those! <BR> <BR> Okay so here is the update on life: <BR> <BR> Jo... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 10:24:52 EST Doing Okay :) I'm down three lbs last week :) i am very proud of myself. My calories are up today though as I have been horribly munchy and have been eating a ton of food. Trying to eat healthy stuff....grapes etc. I have had a horrible craving for milk so that is what has sort of sent me over the top. I may be short on calcium... <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is doing okay as well!! Sorry to be a little distant lately! Life has been a bit crazy! Tue, 12 Apr 2011 20:44:35 EST ZOMBIE!! I feel like a zombie today! I have horrible allergies and this year they are worse then they ever have been before. I feel like I can't my arms weigh a hundred pounds, and all I want to do is sleep!!!! I am going to when I get home from work that is for sure :) <BR> <BR> Question for you all btw: Does anyone have any decent active teams I can join? Looking for a bit of motivation to stay focused :) <BR> <BR> Alright back to work I go! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 17:47:49 EST Spark Lunches and Angry mornings So I have decided to turn my lunch break into a spark people break. This does a few things for me <BR> <BR> 1) Allows me to put in my food from the morning before I forget :) <BR> 2) Reminds me to go do my strenght exercises (which I also usually do during lunch) <BR> 3) Gives me a sure time to check in on friends and on my blog. <BR> <BR> Since I am allowed 1 1/2 hours for lunch and have the permission to browse the web during that time, I figured this work out just about perfect :) <BR> ... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 14:55:39 EST One year In one year I have come so far and grown so much. Although the weight loss journey has not been the greatest (Actually growing in weight) but I have grown in so many other ways. I lost my job last year, moved twice in the last year, and now am working again, back in band again, and have a place to live again. I am ready to start the weight loss journey again. SO lets keep our fingers crossed it works this time :P. The last two years haven't been a good start but maybe it is because i had to ... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 11:36:05 EST Checking in Around and alive! Doing well! Very limited internet til the new place gets set up. Check in l8r :) <BR> <BR> Love, <BR> Sam Fri, 18 Feb 2011 13:49:10 EST