LARRIA's SparkPeople Blog LARRIA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Looking for help..... So today on my Spark Coach it was all about figuring out what you really want in life and then creating your goals to get there. I'm having the hardest time figuring out what I REALLY want in life. <BR> <BR> I mean everyone has better finances, security, a healthy lifestyle, etc. But what are those really? <BR> <BR> What do I really want? What truley motivates me? <BR> <BR> I'm finding that not having these answers for myself is causing actual concern and stress in my life. I'm s... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:35:50 EST Goals I love I can listen to The Spark while going to and from work, while exercising, while eating, while working. I'm on my first full listen all the way through though. <BR> <BR> Just finished a section on short term, medium term, and long term goals. So I figured there was no better place, but here on my blog for all to see to put my goals down in writing. <BR> <BR> Short Term Goals: Drink 8 glasses of water a day for th30 days (this is a huge short term for me since prio... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 22:44:11 EST Stress is my enemy and I will overcome! Super stressed today, between finances, the job, getting home late, the first snow storm here in Phoenix and mad traffic and people just not doing what they are supposed to, I had had it by the end of the day. 7 o'clock and I'm still not home and I called my house, the kids are hungry.,,, I went back to standard habits. I ordered pizza, fried mushrooms and headed home to deal with things there, Got home to a dirty house, one child being punished for misbehavior by spending time in the cor... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 22:22:04 EST Tonight's the night!!! Tonight I'm off to bed to attempt to get some good zzzz's and get started on my new schedule so I can have the kind of life I want to lead. I have a dream of what I want and I'm going to get there. So starting by setting a schedule and sticking to it. <BR> <BR> Funny thing is when I invision myself healthy the one thing I'm really looking forward to is being able to sit in a chair with my two feet in it with me, knees bent.... Not just all the fat that is there now. Sounds crazy I know... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 22:48:07 EST Creating Meals my action task for the day Today was asked to share some of my favorite plate meals on my blog for future reference. <BR> <BR> Breakfast: Oatmeal, Raisins, Nuts, some fresh fruit (or frozen depending on the season) with a glass of milk <BR> <BR> Waffle with fresh fruit instead of syrup, turkey sausage baked not fried, and a glass of milk <BR> <BR> Lunch: Spinach Salad with feta & parmesan cheese, triscuits, tuna or chicken, red rip tomato and russian dressing glass of water - nummy!!! <BR> <BR> Tilapia (grilled... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 15:36:02 EST Food and Your Mood Wow another week gone and I finally ate everything I was supposed to and didn't go over my calories for the day! I'm so proud of myself!!! Woo Hoo me! <BR> <BR> Now on to more important things. I have been eating small amount 6-8 times a day all week. No I didn't make my caloric intake, but I did learn something which means more to me that making my nutrition goal. I found out that when I only do breakfast a small snack lunch and then wait 6 - 8 hours for my next meal I get super crank... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 22:41:15 EST Could have been Miserable Monday - but decided to make it a Merry Monday! Do you ever say or have you heard people say "It's a Monday!" Like Monday's are the worst day and the more they say it the worse the day could be. I started my sparking day off well this morning and then walked into my job where I couldn't even get to my desk before I was bombarded with issues that had to be fixed or dealt with right away. I hadn't even sat down my purse and I had that thought the dreaded thought - "So this is how my day is going to be" with a super heavy internal sigh. I... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 22:54:23 EST Goals.... Now typing this for the second time (horrible when you hit the wrong button on the keyboard and it deletes everything). <BR> <BR> I am a list maker. I have lists for Things To Do, both at home and at work, I have grocery lists, I have lists for what I'm packing when traveling..... I love lists!! <BR> <BR> I joined SparkCoach last week and have been tracking, reading, watching, and moving since. Great job Larria! I usually don't get through, but I spent the money this time and I refu... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 14:39:44 EST And anther day bites the dust Making it through another day. Now just have to come up with some great goals. Yesterday I just told my sellf MODERATION. Instead of two sausage sandwiches just one. Instead of 6 52oz Dr. Peppers during the day just one. Also I drank my first glass of water in a long time yesterday. Bought myself a super cool cup that reminds me I need to drink water and it keeps it nice and cold for me. Have to get back to tracking, but that always causes me anxiety because I have to actually look at ... Tue, 15 May 2012 17:01:04 EST Cruising right along through the thick and thin.... So I've been gone for what seems like forever, then came back for a moment thinking I would be all gung ho and with it, but just slid right down the "this takes to much effort" pole. I'm back again and WOW have the past week been a doozy for me. I pretty much already think I'm insane, but I just about ordered my own custom made straight jacket. Who knew that one lie (doesn't really matter that it was huge) could completely derail my existance. I guess a back story is necessary. When I ... Mon, 14 May 2012 19:40:45 EST October 1, 2011 Here we are again at the beginning. I like to think of it as a beginning and end.... End of the bad stuff and the self-defeating talk and actions and the beginning of the rest of my life. I know, I know.... I've said it before and I keep trying. That's a positive, right? However, this time.... different. I knew exactly when I was going to do then, I had everything planned out and ready. The cupboards cleared, work and home displaying positive reinforcements and I have told EVERYONE ... Sat, 1 Oct 2011 18:33:06 EST I'm still on the right track... Yahoo!!! I haven't had a chance to really track online, but I've been writing everything down. Yeah me! I'm down a few pounds and feeling good all things considered. Kidney infection hit, but I'm getting over that. I hit the allergy head cold today (thank you so much monsoon season), but I'm still doing it right. I've been reading my spark and I figure since I'm moving in the right direction and I'm motivated, I'm going to look at some other goals. Well let's call them the dreams I've had forev... Sat, 27 Aug 2011 00:28:35 EST Another valent beginning.... Who would think that with having the fridge filled with good food and eating right I'd still be in the same boat. My children constantly remind me to move more and do better, but that just feels like your parents telling you not to do something. Every teenage response is REBEL! So that's what I have been doing. How do you turn that same energy into doing the right thing? <BR> <BR> I've been working ghastly hours and trying to help my oldest with school and I'm just not focused on anythin... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 00:58:46 EST Family Support So my husband (amazing man that he is) not only has he put up with my super anger this week and weekend he also cleaned out the fridge for me. I went to the store tonight and bought.... spinach, baby carrots, tomato's, low fat yogurt, chicken and some lean ground beef. The new stocking is going well. Now to see if I can stay away from the fast food restuarants and just enjoy some simple good for me food. I forgot the oats, but already had some brown rice. I think I can come up with som... Mon, 1 Aug 2011 00:45:14 EST Thought I was Lost but alas I'm still found! So I took a few days off.... Felt like weeks, but it apears it was just a few day!! Woo Hoo!!! So I had some major issues with family, work, and life so I took a mental break to try to get myself all put back together again.... So tomorrow night I'm cleaning out the cabinets and the fridge then heading to the grocery store. Chicken, fruits, veggies, whole grains, and nuts to just get our house set up for some healthy living. I've gained now to 279. I refuse to find 300. My skin arou... Thu, 28 Jul 2011 22:46:49 EST Positive Thinking!!! So today my best friend (also my boss) presented blue bracelets (like those you wear for charities and such) to all of us in the office. They are baby blue. Not my favorite color but they could be worse. Written on each of them are two words. POSITIVE THINKING! The goal he has given us is to wear them throughout our lives and when we start to complain we are to move them from one wrist to the other. My question was do thoughts count. I honestly don't think I would get any work done. ... Sat, 16 Jul 2011 00:35:33 EST And a new week begins..... This week has a lot of stuff in it. There is fighting this nasty depression and trying to reach the stars at the same time. Didn't do so hot this week so still fighting to succeed. I guess as long as I haven't given that up I'm doing well. <BR> <BR> This week I am going to meet my goal. There is no excuse why I should be able to lose betwen 1-2 pounds. I'm 270 pounds, it's not like I don't have it to lose... <BR> <BR> So hang on to your hats as this weeks ride begins..... <BR> <... Sun, 10 Jul 2011 23:22:34 EST Okay it's not magic.... So there is no magic pill, or a magic word, or some magic advice will change it all. It's all up to me to figure out what I'm gonna do. So this upcoming week, starting today, I am going to work on focus. Focus on what I am doing not spending all my hours in that whoa is me mode. Some of you will realize what a tough goal this is, but I'm going to take it on. So to start I'm going to focus on reading a book for my bookworm team. I'm actually going to read the book they are discussing ... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 22:34:41 EST Made it through another day! Huge accomplishment! I made it through another day. I tracked my food. Horrible calories 4600 but I still tracked it all. I found a great spark team and I'm hoping there will be some answers there. I have a great spark buddy who is sticking with me through thick and thin. I think I might make it through this. I'm so tired today. I can't focus. I'm eating everything, in fact I think I ate the kitchen sink. Think I'll go try to get more than 4 hours sleep tonight. Maybe a little sl... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 00:07:42 EST Trying to figure it out.... I'll be blogging on and off for a bit..... Going through some heavy stuff and I have to figure it out before I can be a motivator. <BR> <BR> But the good news is I'm working on it. I'm sticking with my tracking. Some days are better than others, but I've come to realize that life is just a giant roller coaster. <BR> <BR> Well off to bed and to try to get some real sleep. <BR> <BR> Thanks to everyone for the goodies, you don't know what kind of important friends you are. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 02:18:41 EST And the week gets better.... Weighed in today. 2.6 pounds down! Woot Woot! I've just finished rereading chapter 1 of The Spark and I'm feeling that spark from the tips of my shape up covered toes to the top of my in a pony tail, sweat covered head. <BR> <BR> I went to a bbq yesterday and didn't feel like I missed anything. <BR> <BR> These small goals are building my confidence and creating an urge for me to do better every day. <BR> <BR> This week I'm working on getting up without hitting the snooze button. ... Sun, 3 Jul 2011 23:21:32 EST And I thought life couldn't get any more insane! So today I got home from a 13 hour work day, and I had mail in the mail box. I was so excited. I had applied for life insurance with Farmers. After my sisters death at the age of 26 earlier this year with no insurance, I decided I wouldn't do that to my family. So off I went did some comparison shopping, made my decision, submitted my paperwork, paid my premium and waited for my policy information. So I got home opened this piece of gold which I had been waiting for. Smiling I sat do... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 02:06:10 EST Is this week over yet??? This week beat almost any other week I've had of just pure stress (not related to a death in the family). I started with a migraine last Friday and wouldn't you know it I still have the tail end of it today. I was hoping things would be get better quicker. It was a total stress headache slightly spiked with new weather. Today it's 109 degrees! It's been like that all week with one day being overcast and humid. That was my worst day. I ended up passing out from the pain that day. Thi... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 22:12:30 EST Day #6 - Migraine Even through a migraine I've had all day. I still managed to track my food. Woo Hoo!!! Still not a great number day, but I'm congratulating myself on making a full 6 days with honestly tracking my food. Anyone ever find yourself lying on your own spark tracking? Why? There's no one out there that is the food police that will come marching to your door to lock you up for that soda you drank or that potato chip you were sneaking out of the pantry. We not only lie on your tracking, but if... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 01:24:44 EST If I were to give up today would be the day, but I'm going to persevere! So I thought I was going to quit drinking soda and found myself at Circle K filling up my 44 oz soda out of habit with the straw in my mouth before I had a clue what I was doing. Didn't realize how automated what I do is. Then today I hit my alltime high for calories consumed 4800+. Can you say "Wow you need some help!" I've taken a couple of great steps. I'm the first person to say I'm addicted! I'm here tracking and making it through this first week with bells on. Even putting in... Fri, 24 Jun 2011 21:41:10 EST Day #4 - Tracking Still Okay so I'm amazing myself. I've tracked four days of food. I so eat horribly, but this week has been about really seeing it. Today I didn't even have a soda (Its been so long since that sugary sweet carmel colored liquid hasn't touched my tongue). I've drank my water yesterday and today. I'm tracking it and really enjoy9ing watching the days go up on the streak! <BR> <BR> So daily or multiple times a week blogging could be bad for people and I'm sorry if I bore anyone, but I'm find... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 23:10:45 EST 2 Little Pounds.... So I went and updated my current weight. Decided to use one of Sparkpeople's calculators on the side. I was amazed <em>40</em> ! If I get on track and can lose 2 little pounds per week I can be at my goal in a little over a year. 2 little pounds! We aren't talking about rocket science here. They aren't saying you need to lose 10 pounds a day or 30 pounds per month. 2 little pounds per week! Wow, I've never looked at it that way. That seems so acheivable. Was that all I needed as a... Wed, 22 Jun 2011 22:38:43 EST Keep on Tracking Baby! Okay so I didn't get right off to the right foot, but who would have guessed my last blog would have created a new friend and an instant way to keep me on track. It's day number two since I found my new spark buddy and I have tracked absolutely everything I have put in my mouth. Wow! Who really knew i ate that much? Not me! I'm coming home every night now with a sense of complete excitement to read what my buddy has to say and then it's an instant way to go right to tracking my food. J... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 22:07:10 EST Here we go again! <em>15</em> This is me now. Saw my last entry was awhile ago. I was getting ahead starting to do the right things and then it all fell apart again. I'm an emotional eater. When I'm super happy, I eat. When I'm stressed, I eat. When I'm sad, I eat. So all those things have happened since my last post and I ate, and ate, and ate. I have now gone through one of the most horrific things in my life. I buried my 26 year old sister. She was 11 years younger than me and I raised her an... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 00:07:26 EST One week.... exhausted but happy This morning I woke up completely exhausted and I still am sitting here typing this. I started thinking about it and I'm exhausted because I'm moving and doing things I'm not used to. I haven't dropped a pound or an inch but I'm moving, eating healthy food that tastes good and best of all I'm smiling. How is this possible I sit here and ask myself? Then something I heard Harry Chapin say that his grandfather said popped into my head <BR> "There are two kinds of tired: there's good-tir... Sat, 6 Nov 2010 11:28:30 EST the wake up call Finally got released from the hospital this evening. Pnemonia (sp) and an urinary tract infection with stress induced anxiety. Stress test was negative and the ticker is healthy and I was able to work out the financial end as well. Thank u all for ur support don't think I would have gone without u!!! <BR> <BR> So now the doc says: watch what ur eating, get some exercise and lower ur stress.... So here I am again coming to my new found spark people friends saying how do I begin. Due... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 00:25:35 EST the emergency room and me Well after much advise from the wonderful members of sparkpeople and my family I am at the emergency room. I look a lot like an alien with all the wires and cables shooting off the bed but they say its to make sure I'm okay. Yes possible heart attack and they r going to keep me to make sure there is nothing worse on the way.... Stress test tomorrow. I'm in the best place possible right now and I have a lot of time to think about what I can do to change to make sure I never have to come... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 15:45:14 EST Scared to death and wndering where to go from here... I've been on vacation for a few days now. Ai was given a total of 7 and let me tell u that's huge where I work. After two days I went in to work to take care of a couple of things as a favor to my friend. I was only there an hour and a half when my chest tightened up and I started getting sweaty and dizzy. I came home and now two days later I am still having chest pains, shortness of breathe and pain in my arm and back but none at the same time. My family history for heart disease sucks!... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 02:30:35 EST Brighter Days begin with U!!! So I woke up this morning and got ready for work. I did a quick sweep of things I did yesterday. I felt absolutely horrible when I thought of all the things I had put in my mouth and I had taken my youngest son out for Ice Cream. What was I thinking? So I jumped on my sparkpage and dumped in all the food off my list. I must be doing something right because I didn't break my 1600 calorie per day goal. I didn't even try. I just did it!!! Then I read yesterdays blog I wrote and thoug... Sun, 5 Sep 2010 12:08:19 EST Update - seems like so long So I haven't been on for a while, but I've made progress.... I few inches and 5 pounds not bad for a couple weeks work. And for once looking back I guess it didn't really feel like work. I've got the food thing under control and even went out to dinner last night and for the first time in my life I couldn't finish my entree and didn't feel bad about pushing it aside and walking away. This has been the best experience for me ever. I have my goals in sight and it's really easy to say no. ... Sat, 4 Sep 2010 15:59:46 EST Come Sick or High Water I'm doing this... I'm not feeling so well today. My nose is running and I just feel tired. I have a feeling that these are the days that are going to be hard. I'm already looking to the refrigerator to make me feel better. Good thing I only brought my pre-portioned meals to work or I'd be hitting up the fridge every couple of seconds. Nice thing about where I work is that you have to drive or walk a mile before you can get any kind of food outside the office and they don't have vending machines in th... Tue, 31 Aug 2010 09:16:55 EST 1 week down a lifetime to go Today was work and housework and try to fit in a work out and try not to look at the sacle and measuring tape!!! The scale keeps telling me to stand on it and I just know at the end of the day if I do that ill be disappointed... So I've moved the scale out of site so I can just focus on being healthy not the numbers... So this first week hasn't been that difficult I've surrounded myself with great support, brought my family into the loop, and I have posted pictures of different rewards that... Sun, 29 Aug 2010 20:49:38 EST Just so everyone knows how this started It's wonderful what one relaxing, happy weekend can do for a person. I spent the last weekend in a WOW kind of state. When I came back I had actually experienced relaxation and happiness for the first time in many many years. So I just wanted to share the pics from that moment. There are pics of the moon, the flowers and trees around, and my best friend. All of these things added up to a change in my attitude towards everything. I now have an "I can and will" attitude. Stick with me... Sat, 28 Aug 2010 12:39:12 EST Day #6 - falling down and getting back up Wow so it took me 5 days to fall off the wagon and when I did I sure did it. I was on schedule to stick to my healthy 1600 calories and then wham.... Family Emergency and I'm in the drive through at McDonald's ordering a quarter pounder, 20 piece chicken mcnugget and a small fry... Amazing how one little thing which causes you an emotional crisis also turns into a food crisis. But it's okay because I got right back on track this morning a little wiser and now figuring out things I can do... Sat, 28 Aug 2010 11:32:18 EST Day #3 Comes and Goes Another fabulous day comes and goes. I stuck to my guns and things seemed to be going well. I hopped on the scale though and it showed a gain of 3 pounds... Please let it be water weight. Hiking is on the schedule for tonight (but it's started to rain) so I'll be readjusting the exercise to something inside. Can't wait!! Goals are in place. Daily motivation is there. Go weight loss!!! Thu, 26 Aug 2010 13:40:56 EST day #1 success on to day #2 Day #1 was a success!!!! Walked 1 mile and ate right... Who would have thought I could actually get through day #1... Now here is day #2 and I'm facing it head on. The sun is shining, the walk of the morning is done and I have my goals at the front of my mind.... I will do this! Healthy is just around the corner. Tue, 24 Aug 2010 11:09:28 EST is this the time? I joined sparkpeople a while ago, well over a year, and I have tried to motivate and move forward but always let my hectic lifestyle. Well I spent the weekend relaxing ad gaining a perspective for what I want in my life. So this time I have set goals found a lifestyle coach and am committed. So I'm gonna post a mow picture and my sizes and current wait and blog my way through this. So is this the time??? Unequivocally YES!!! Mon, 23 Aug 2010 19:44:33 EST