LANCE992's SparkPeople Blog LANCE992's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Missing in action I am sorry that I have not been on in almost in 10 years. I have been busy on this ride called life. I am now at a weight of 156 pounds. Thu, 2 Nov 2017 21:28:03 EST Doctor appointment today... I have been sick for 2 weeks now with a headache and a head cold that is not responding to medicine. I think it could be the change in the season. I love fall. But not when it's all that cold...I don't like the cold and I hate the winter months. I have started to go back to weight watchers for my meetings and weigh ins. I am now at 144 pounds. Down 3 from last week. I thank MASTERCARE for the push I thanks Mary. I feel at peace with God and my life right now. I know thi... Fri, 14 Oct 2016 05:20:09 EST Devastating news... My brother called last night from Indiana. He and I are very close now that my mother (God rest her soul) has been gone 2 and a half years. He said he had not spoken to me in 3 weeks. That was my fault. I know that we both lead busy lives. He with his wife and my young nieces. Me with my 2 jobs and my health issues and appointments. He told me some news. He said he has pneumonia in his lung and has been having seizures since he had a second stroke. He is my much older than me sibling and I... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 04:08:16 EST I'm back... I am back!. This will be my second time doing sparks. I need all the help I can get. I have gained back 30 pounds. Wed, 17 Feb 2016 19:53:35 EST Update... These last few days have been rough on me. I have worked my behind off and have little to show for it other than a bad back and being very tired. <BR> <BR> I also have been trying to eat right on program but am finding it hard to eat 28 points/day now. I mean I wake up at 6am everyday and only have an hour and a half to get ready for my day. <BR> <BR> That includes eating, shaving and getting dressed. Also I only get 300 dollars a month food allowance to split with my roommate. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 06:15:24 EST In search of a name... I have a weight watchers points plus pedometer. I love how it works to keep me active. I especially love having it on while I am at work. I work as a bus boy. I am on my feet and walking for up to 10 to 12 hours a week, and 5 to 7 hours per shift. <BR> <BR> I do not yet have a name for my poor pedometer. I have also been a little bit lax in the exercise part of my days other than maybe a splash around in my neighborhood pool. <BR> <BR> I would love name suggestions for my lonely little ped... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 20:18:03 EST Update... Sorry I have been MIA for a month but I was busy. Today marked 7 father's days I have had without my dads around. <BR> <BR> Today was also busy with work as today was Sunday and sundays at work are super busy and also I had to work 9 hours tonight. <BR> <BR> I am going to be in trouble tomorrow as I got caught with my hand in the cookie jar so to speak on Thursday. My roommate tattled on me. I got caught eating from his ice cream. Sun, 15 Jun 2014 21:55:21 EST Update.... Worked tonight until 8:30. Was busy but steady. Thankful I had help. Tomorrow is going to be very difficult and painful for me as tomorrow is my first mother's day without mom near me and even though I have to work even that will be painful in seeing all the happy families. While I like to think of Michelle Davies (my sister in law)&#65279; as a mother figure to me...I must admit to myself that no one can take mom's place. She will live forever in my heart. It is just so hard for me to see so... Sat, 10 May 2014 22:43:58 EST Started on simple start plan this morning... And need more information on it if you who are my sparkfriends would be so kind?. I am a little clueless. <BR> <BR> This morning's breakfast was a small bowl of cheerios, an apple, fat free milk on cereal, and a hot tea. <BR> <BR> I only used 3 points of my weeklies. <BR> <BR> HAGD all. Fri, 2 May 2014 10:56:23 EST My morning so far... <em>524</em> <BR> <BR> I am up with an earache this morning. I also know it's 5:45am. I have to be up by 6am so I can get ready for my day and take my roommate to work. <BR> <BR> I have finally realized that I cannot go on like this. I am always tired no matter what time of day it is, I am hurting a lot with heartburn and I am blue. <BR> <BR> On the plus side the counseling is working and I fit back into my size 31 jeans. <BR> <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> <BR> <em>386</em> Wed, 16 Apr 2014 05:49:11 EST Update... Physical went fine today with the Dr. He says that my right wrist is inflamed and that is the cause of the pain. He also told me to start on some posture exercises as that is why my back is hurting, as when I use the laptop I am leaning over to use it and should not be. And that when I am at work, I need to lift the bus tubs with my legs and NOT my back. I can now admit that also because of today's rain aggravating my wrist...that I feel old. Having a late dinner of pork barbecue and salad. G... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 20:55:24 EST My day to day struggles... I have regained twenty four pounds from my lowest weight. I have had a lot of problems trying to maintain my healthy lifestyle since I moved in with a roommate who does not eat healthy or exercise. I am also depressed over many things. <BR> <BR> My mother death is still hard to deal with for me. It has now been almost five months since she passed. <BR> <BR> I need help. <BR> <BR> And I am getting it in the form of grief consueling, but the people who work with me want to get rid of my co... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 06:53:12 EST Two week MIA... Sorry I have been MIA for two weeks. I have had back problems lately and have been sidelined by that, plus working has kept me busy as well. <BR> <BR> Well, my weight continues to go in the wrong direction. As of this writing I have regained nineteen pounds back from my lowest weight. <BR> <BR> I have also due to work not been eating much in the afternoons on the days I do work. I need ideas on how to remedy this?. <BR> <BR> Also I have an appointment for my eye doctor next week. <BR> <B... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 20:55:51 EST This blog is in reference to Friday night at work and the importance of eating Just got home early from work. And also had a super scary episode with me tonight at work as well. I do not know what happened tonight. I was standing next to the fireplace and started getting hot. Went to the break-room to sit down and started shaking and getting cold. Ate some soup and crackers before coming home. Had not eaten anything since lunch at 2pm. Also we were super busy at work and I had a backache. Thankful for my fellow co-workers who helped me bus my tables while I was recoveri... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 12:01:08 EST My brother called tonight... And has given me a lot to think about. I am unhappy in my current situation and it has nothing to do with my roommate. He and I are getting along great. <BR> <BR> It has everything to do with the people who work with me to make sure I have everything I need. I got yelled at personally the other day by these people over how the medicine I got from the dentist was being documented after being taken. <BR> <BR> I am my own legal guardian and am more than god damn capable of taking care of mys... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 19:12:57 EST Update... Disappointing day today. But, on a bright side...I actually cooked (OK helped cook) chicken noodle soup, meatball subs, chicken and rice, sloppy joes and a few other meals for the coming weeks with Emma Williams. Going to a fundraiser tomorrow night for Mason Ohio Relay for Life. I need your support in this cause. I have raised sixty dollars of five hundred needed. I have until middle of June to raise the rest. Please go to and look for team name Fields of Dreams and dona... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 20:53:13 EST Update... Just got up to take a pain pill and eat some pudding which is the only thing besides mashed potatoes and (maybe) chicken broth and jello I am allowed to have. In pain on and off, but am doing OK. I am sure mom was watching over me and crying somewhat while I was having this done today as I was hurting while they were pulling my teeth, but, I was surprised at how brave I was. <BR> <BR> My pain level alternates between a three and a five. I have changed the gauze twice since I have been home. ... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 17:58:25 EST Pre surgery update... Today has gone OK. My roommate is out with his friends and then going out with his parents later, so the woman who helps my roommate and I did some grocery shopping for me in preparation for post surgery on Tuesday night. I now have mashed potatoes, jello pudding, soups and some other soft foods. I am set up for recovering for awhile. And although I am petrefied of having the surgery...I know I will be in good hands. And if all goes well, I may be able to see my family for a few days while I ... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 16:15:02 EST My dentist cleaning today... I never am one to whine or complain, but, right now I have every reason to. Today I went to the dentist in Dayton and got a cleaning done and then am scheduled to go back this coming Monday for my new dentures. Spent five hours in the dentist chair. Got my cleaning done...and now am told to not take any pain medicine for two hours and fifteen minutes. I am in pain. I guess ice will have to due. Dinner tonight is soft foods per the orders of the dentist. Now I am really being punished.... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 19:09:31 EST Doctor's appointment today... Doctor's appointment went fine...but, I cannot drink coffee anymore as it causes acid reflux flare-ups. How will I survive without my coffee?. He told me that my acid reflux flare-ups are caused by eating spicy foods. I had chili on Sunday last week at a chili cook-off at the clubhouse. And I have to give up my diet coke habit to one a week, I also have to take my heartburn pill in the morning as usual and take the tums at night and only take one and not two. <BR> <BR> He also said my weig... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 21:05:20 EST Best things to eat when sick... All I want to do is sleep... <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> Been sick since yesterday afternoon with runny nose, sneezing, a nagging cough and overall blah feeling. <BR> <BR> Have not gotten all my points plus this week either and my activity point balance is low as well. <BR> <BR> I do not have much food in apartment until midweek when I can go to store either. <BR> <BR> What should I try to fix to eat?. <BR> <BR> And also today I need to go out for awhile as I have to meet my grief consular... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 05:22:17 EST Delimma on simple start... OK...for the past two days I have been eating fairly well on simple start. I have had a total of 22 filling foods in 2 days. However, I now have only fifteen weekly points left and I have gotten in just four activity points so far for the start of the week. <BR> <BR> What should I do here?. I know I get just seven points plus for indulgences and I am hitting all my good health goals. <BR> <BR> Today's menu is below... <BR> <BR> Breakfast: Corn Chex cereal, apple, fat free milk, grapes <BR>... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 21:50:28 EST First day on simple start and a sparkpeople surprise... was my first day doing simple start and I kind of like it. I have used sixteen of my weekly points today and have had eleven filling foods today. I have not had much water or liquid at all though. I think I may do better on this plan. <BR> <BR> Today's menu on simple start... <BR> <BR> Simple start breakfast...bowl of corn Chex, fat free milk on cereal, apple (a filling food), grapes <BR> <BR> Simple start snack...1/2 cup of fat free ice cream and one tablespoon peanut butter... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 21:11:04 EST Simple Start... Have a few simple start questions as I am going out with a friend for lunch before work today. <BR> <BR> I just woke up and have not had anything touch my lips since around 10PM last night. I am currently 10 pounds OVER my goal weight of 132 pounds and want to give this a try. It sounds a lot like simply filling was in the past. <BR> <BR> But I do not understand only having 7 points a day for indulgences?. How does that work?. <BR> <BR> I understand from the meeting last night that you a... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 08:32:21 EST Trying to rebound and refocus... I just ate this morning a bowl of special K made with skim milk, along with an apple, some grapes and am on my 2nd bottle of pure clean water. <BR> <BR> I have not been feeling well since Saturday and now I know why. I ate pizza at a party and with my acid reflux I cannot have tomato sauce or onions both of which the pizza had. <BR> <BR> Am planning on going back to weight watchers after a 2 month absence. If I call weight watchers and explain about mom's death....will I still have to pay ... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 09:57:38 EST Have regained thirteen pounds...Ughh!.... Have regained thirteen pounds since my lowest weight and since moving in with my roommate I have only had maybe ten healthy meals. The people who stay with us are still not helping us to cook healthy meals. <BR> <BR> I have only just started to cook for us and this weekend we made a pork tenderloin. Last week was a pot roast and potatoes. <BR> <BR> I have a request into UPS for getting the new weight watchers cookbook called "What to cook now". <BR> <BR> Has anyone ever used this cookboo... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 10:15:04 EST Christmas eve...I am so lonely...I just want to be held... and have a good cry. roomate is out on an overnight trip for christmas with his family. <BR> <BR> And while I will be seeing my family tomorrow and staying until thursday morning...I must admit, it will not be the same without my mother there. <BR> <BR> I now have been on my own since february of last year...which was when mom started her chemotherapy...and slowly due to the chemotherapy effects...starting slipping away from me and my family. <BR> <BR> She passed on just abou... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 20:50:38 EST Update on me... Feeling a little selfish and lonely tonight. I got back from being with a friend today and went to the outlet mall with this same friend. I needed a new winter coat and gloves as my leather coat is now too small and my gloves have a hole in one of them. So I went and bought a much needed jacket and new gloves at the columbia store...and with just eight days left until santa comes...I have not started my actual christmas shopping. Also, on a seperate note...This is the time of night that I get... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 21:18:32 EST I did good tonight at a christmas party... Tonight I was invited to a christmas party with a few friends I know. Since I knew my points plus allotment...I knew I could get away with having a sensible meal and also a good time...which I did. Here was how my day went...according to my food choices...I get 27 weight watchers points a day... <BR> <BR> Breakfast--Special K cinnamon pecan cereal, apple, 1% milk <BR> <BR> Lunch: low cal turkey breast, lettuce, tomato on low cal wheat bread <BR> <BR> Evening meal: Grilled chicken breast (3... Sat, 7 Dec 2013 21:36:53 EST December challenge for myself... Starting right now....I am going to do the following things and pray for a good december month. <BR> <BR> Plan and freeze healthy meals <BR> <BR> Drink more water <BR> <BR> Exercise more and get past 10,000 steps <BR> <BR> Learn how to deflect my brother's critisisms <BR> <BR> Lose the last 13 pounds holding me back <BR> <BR> Move past my grief over mom's death <BR> <BR> This list is so hard to get started on as my roomate and I do not cook really all that much right now. <BR> <BR> Dr... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 13:38:40 EST Regained thirteen pounds, need my mojo back... Feeling lonely and scared.three <BR> <BR> I have regained about thirteen pounds since my lowest weight and now my uniform pants will no longer fit. And also my regular jeans no longer fit. <BR> <BR> I realize that my mother's death and also the turmoil of moving away from was expected. <BR> <BR> But I have been away from home in my apartment for three months and have had maybe three to five "healthy" meals in that time. <BR> <BR> I have done around twenty four hundred steps a da... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 22:03:03 EST Update... <em>524</em> <BR> <BR> I know I have not blogged in a week and I want my spark friends to know that I have not given up sparkpeople or for that matter weight watchers. <BR> <BR> My family and friends want me to totally give up weight the last weigh in I had for november put me over my goal of 132 two and I had to pay fourteen dollars, is this normal?. <BR> <BR> This week (today) I stepped on the scale at home and lost two pounds. I was very diligent with what ... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 22:35:17 EST Very emotional three weeks... My mother, my confidante, my everything has passed on as of 5:59PM November 6th, 2013. She was 67 years old. <BR> <BR> She lived a very good life and while her death is a shock to us all who are her family. We knew it was coming...we just did not know it would come this fast or for me especially...I did not know it would hurt this bad. <BR> <BR> I love you mom. Fri, 15 Nov 2013 21:54:46 EST Huge weight has been lifted... Just got off the phone with mom. The lord does indeed look down on us when we are struggling. I believe that. Anyway, mom is doing well. She told me that if I could find her watch and cellular phone she would like to have them. Anway, I am so very happy to hear she is doing better. Even if she is not able to eat much, just to hear her voice. Sat, 26 Oct 2013 16:41:20 EST Update on mom from my brother and an update on me... She seemed to be in very high spirits however there is still a lot of infection in her blood. The Dr.'s want to cure that before anything. Also, we have decided and began the process of changing her nursing facility to the one out by us so we can see her daily. That in itself will lift her spirits tremendously. She has began to start drinking and eating again this morning and wants nothing more than Michelle's fresh corn on the cob and her cornbread. None the less, until they can isolate wher... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 11:08:36 EST weight watchers, my new apartment, etc. My first meal baked in the oven for my roomate Gordon and I...I made baked fish and french fries. And had carrots. Did a good job on the timing of baking the fish. Then we went for a walk after dinner around the lake on the property. A good night. <BR> <BR> Weigh in at home was down one pound to one hundred and twenty three pounds. <BR> <BR> Took a walk around the lake on my apartment property and also did a 20 minute workout in the fitness center. <BR> <BR> Mom update from my brother. <... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 20:40:26 EST Update.... I am writing this update tonight at a member's request as she says she has missed me (Hello, MASTERCARE). <BR> <BR> Anyway as of right now I am settled in to my new apartment and due to that have slowly been rather reluctantly gaining weight back. <BR> <BR> I have re-gained about eleven pounds from my lowest weight of one hundred and fifteen pounds and what I had today for lunch did not help matters any at all... <BR> <BR> I HAD A BAD MEAL AT LUNCH....A WHOLE INDIVIDUAL PIZZA...AND I ATE T... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 21:17:42 EST weight watchers weigh in and general update.. Sorry I have not blogged in almost four weeks, but, between the move out to Indiana, the move back to the new apartment and mom's health I was busy. <BR> <BR> Mom is doing MUCH better since going to the hospital due to her BP dropping last week due to an anxitey attack during therapy. <BR> <BR> Anyway...I am doing fine. Love the new apartment. Walked to the trash compacter today and earned only one point. <BR> <BR> Went to my weigh in and meeting and gained one point six pounds since the t... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 21:50:59 EST Good saturday morning to you... Stepped on scale at home versus weight watchers scale at weigh in yesterday...and lost 2.6 pounds. I think that was either water weight or their scales are off. <BR> <BR> Also talked to my sister in law and she said that yes, I can have some weight watchers stuff in the camper so I have a cooler packed and I may go shopping when I get there. <BR> <BR> Also talked to mom and she is doing OK but has a sore throat. <BR> <BR> And I still have my earache I have had since the 18th. Sat, 24 Aug 2013 11:01:06 EST Weight watchers this morning... Today was weight watchers meeting and weigh in. I did not do so well. <BR> <BR> Gain of almost five pounds in a month. <BR> <BR> The main culprits...lack of exercise, stress over the move, and not having money available for healthy meals. <BR> <BR> Today's class and weekly will help me out over the next month though. As it was what to do when visiting a supermarket. <BR> <BR> I tend to aviod the outer isles of the supermarket and instead go head for the ice cream and also for the prepack... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 12:37:59 EST Now I am more depressed than I was... The man and his wife who own the home have been to the house to show it to the prospective new owners. And he says that the people love it. The lady has a little girl and also one on the way. While they went through the house (I was so embarrassed by how it must have looked, but, I tried really hard to do a good job cleaning)...I stayed across the street at my neighbor's home. <BR> <BR> I now have only three weeks left until the move. <BR> <BR> Also mom sounds like she is doing somewhat bet... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 21:36:05 EST What am I going to do without mom... This song came to mind after reading my brother's latest Facebook status about my mother... <BR> <BR> I pretend that I'm glad you went away <BR> These four walls close in more every day <BR> And I'm dyin' inside <BR> And nobody knows it but me <BR> <BR> Like a clown I put on a show <BR> The pain is real, even if nobody knows <BR> And I'm cryin' inside <BR> And nobody knows it but me <BR> <BR> Why didn't I say <BR> The things I needed to say <BR> How could I let my angel get away <BR> Now m... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 17:48:01 EST My stress level just went through the roof... Today was going to be such a good day until I get this face book message from the wife of the man who owns my home... <BR> <BR> We would like to show the house Tuesday night between 7:30-8. Don't worry about picking up. They understand that you are in the process of getting ready to move. You are welcome to hang out at my parents house during the showing. Thanks, Sonja <BR> <BR> I have called my brother and he is going to call me back. <BR> <BR> The house looks like a tornado hit it and I... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 13:49:16 EST Money worries cropping up again and also... And the money worries continue. COCKROBIN is so right. <BR> <BR> My brother is a control freak. <BR> <BR> Since I got my big social security check at the first of the month I have only spent two hundred and eighty four dollars out of it and that was for food to live on ONLY. <BR> <BR> He and my sister in law are coming to my home on Friday to help clean me out so I can prepare for my move. <BR> <BR> I hate this feeling...he is so much like a dictator to me right now that I am afraid to e... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 09:44:40 EST Update... Just got home from going to see mom after work as my "provider" who works with me through the county took me to see her after I got home. Today was not that great a day for her so far, as she said she got sick during therapy and is not able to eat anything. She did seem glad to see me though. I may go back to see her when my brother and sister in law come to town over the coming weekend if I do not have to work. Overall, things have been good with me and life goes on...will update more when I... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 17:55:44 EST My day today... Busy night at work tonight. With the western and southern tennis thing in Mason for another few days (I think), I look for the workload to only increase. Also spoke to mom after work and she sounds better, and hallelujah...she said she ate some tomato soup. I am glad to hear that. I will be going to see her tomorrow after my shift ends at work at around 3PM as I have not seen her in about 2 weeks. For now...I must say goodnight and sweet dreams all. Off to take a shower... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 20:45:06 EST Update on my mother... Update on my mother... <BR> <BR> Since getting my new phone (Thank you to my brother and sister in law) I have spoken to mom about three different times. And while she does sound more upbeat...some days are better than others. Today was a good day for her. She had therapy today as she does every day and she says that she has not been getting sick lately during her therapy...A good sign!. Anyway, she also said that she has an appointment on Tuesday with her gastroenterologist. She sounded ver... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 21:46:07 EST Feel a lot better about the apartment arrangemets now... Here is what the man who helped me to get the apartment told me today and it makes a heck of a lot more sense now... <BR> <BR> Number 1...OK...On September 10th (Move in day)...My half of the rent will be ONLY 450 dollars. <BR> <BR> Secondly...I will owe on September 10th...a pro-rate fee of 315 dollars, I think that is what he told me. <BR> <BR> According to this man it is ALL to be split 50-50 after that. <BR> <BR> That pro-rate fee is to cover any damages we do to the apartment and als... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 19:35:14 EST Confused and rather angry... Today I had to go and sign the lease for the new apartment, which I did with reluctance. <BR> <BR> I was supposed to have my caseworker there today...he could not come and did not explain why. <BR> <BR> So he had a man who works for him who also works with me call me at 9:00am and ask if I needed to go get my security deposit out of the bank. <BR> <BR> I told him no, I did not as I did not need that large an amount of money. <BR> <BR> I had NO ONE there to represent me today ... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 22:31:11 EST Today has been very depressing... This morning I was awake at 9:00am as I have not been able to sleep lately (Have no idea why) and made breakfast of special K and hot tea. <BR> <BR> Then I did the laundry of mom's clothes for the nursing home and will do the dishes later. <BR> <BR> Very depressing day today. Mom not doing well in nursing home. Neighbor who my mother knew from nursing home passed on today. My brother not wanting me to move in with roommate because it makes him feel old and also because he is afraid to let m... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 17:53:01 EST