LADYPYE's SparkPeople Blog LADYPYE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Here goes something Morning, <BR> <BR> I am just going to start somewhere and maybe, just maybe I'll get to where I need to be. <BR> <BR> I spent so many years wanting to grow up and be an adult. Frustrated my grandma on numerous occasions. I can still here her voice telling me, "Slow down. You'll be out on your own soon enough. It's rough out there." <BR> <BR> This month on August 14th, my grandma has been gone a year. Some days I am ok because I know she's not hurting anymore. Other days, I just can't seem... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 10:57:22 EST ? Wanted to write a blog. Got here and not sure what to say. <em>39</em> Wed, 7 Aug 2013 00:10:32 EST Changes I am apparently more attached to my kids being little than I thought. Just this past year my oldest turned 20. My second born turned 18. My third turned 14 and is in summer school to do a retest on the CRCT to go to 9th grade. My youngest just turned 13 and is headed to the 8th grade. They have all had so many changes that it saddens me yet also makes me happy. <BR> <BR> I know that children are a blessing from God. He allows us to raise them and guide them as best we can before they journey... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 00:29:53 EST Trying something new I usually don't like new things. I decided that with the healthy living changes that I needed to try new things. <BR> <BR> Now, eating is something I love to do. Looking at some of the healthier recipes include fish. There was only two times in my life that I could eat fish and not get ill...I was pregnant with my daughters. 20 years for the first one and 13 for the second. My boys were a no go on the fish. They are in-between my girls. <BR> <BR> Having mentioned this, I have decided to tr... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 14:32:52 EST Appointment update 2 I went to another two doctors this morning. At least their scales showed a loss. Things were a bit odd today with both of them and I just can't pinpoint it. Maybe they are just having an off day. <BR> <BR> In any case, the first appointment I was told that I needed, once again, to apply for my SSI. That I need to me more assertive to those around me and give ultimatems (?) to those who are not helping my well-being. To keep writing my poetry and maybe a publisher will pick me up soon. (I hav... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 19:02:19 EST Update from Appointments My appointments this week were ok. I don't like their scales. My weight was higher at both offices. <BR> <BR> The appointment on Monday was for a physical. Found out I have a bacterial infection. I was prescibed medicine for it. Then I was informed that I need to get my very first Mammogram. OUCH! I have heard awful stories about that test. Not looking forward to it. Also, the doctor drew blood from me and I got the results on Thursday. My bloodwork is fine. Yeah, no more Vitamin D suppleme... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 11:14:36 EST Weight difference I am doing a monthly weigh in with my doctor. I use their scale as the record of my weight. I decided to do this for three reasons: <BR> <BR> 1) To use only one scale so as not to be discouraged <BR> and <BR> 2) Their numbers is what goes into my chart <BR> and <BR> 3) To not be obsessive about getting on it everyday. <BR> <BR> All of these work, however, I have discovered in looking at my Sparkpage that it looks like I dropped alot of weight fast. I wish this were true but it isn't. :( <B... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 13:07:54 EST Suprised by my Second Fitness Tool My first tool works wonderfully. I figured out why I am so tired during the day...I am not sleeping well at night. The first night was less than 6 hours, the next was 3 and last night was almost 7. Last nights measurement included me sleeping in. <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> My new tool came in today. Actually three days early! I had trouble setting it up but my daughter helped me with it. It's a bit bulkier than I thought it would be but does the job. It has a 24 hour clock on it and a stopwa... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 23:14:24 EST Delayed Battle <img src=""> <BR> <BR> How was everyone's Valentines Day? Hopefully very well. Mine could use a retake and different participants. <BR> <BR> Woke up and everything was fine. My husband's friend came to visit and finally get his christmas present that the kids picked out for him. That part went well. <BR> <BR> The other part I can't go into details but I can say that there was yelling, holding people back, cops called and people leaving... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 16:47:42 EST One of my new tools I just received my BodyMedia Link.. it is charged and all set up. I am doing a trial run by just doing what I usually do to get a base number. Tomorrow starts the actual accountability for exercise. <BR> <BR> Just going to jump in and see where it leads me. It has got to be better than staying where I am at. <BR> <BR> <em>386</em> Wed, 13 Feb 2013 18:57:24 EST Heartbroken Yesterday, I got up and decided I wanted to see my mom. So, I got the kids ready and we made the 1 1/2 hour trip to see her. When we arrived, she met us at the door. It saddedned me to see her though. <BR> <BR> She was a mess. I'm not going to describe it all to you but she's gotten worse since my grandmother died in August 2012. <BR> <BR> Well, we made the trip and inside we went. In talking with her she admitted she lost her phone and some other items. The kids and I helped her find t... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 09:24:07 EST Reality Check I am ashamed of my weight and how it affects my family and my selfesteem. Where do I start? I feel lost and confused as to what to do next. <BR> <BR> Baby steps to start but I want to run and take off. Have a quick fix even though I know it will take time. <BR> <BR> Going to work on the emotions. Maybe that will jumpstart the rest. <BR> <BR> I do appreciate all the motivational blogs, comments and other articles that help keep me afloat. I have found though, I am better helping others th... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 05:11:19 EST My Lighthouse My Best Friend <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> We may not have talked every day but often we did <BR> The conversations never lasted shorter than a NCIS show <BR> She was there when abandoned I was, left without much of a home <BR> She was with me through struggle and strife, she was there when I was deeply down <BR> Enjoying my stories of days gone by, she craved details of life without <BR> Hearing stories of dates gone wrong, listening about those who lifted me up inside <BR> Details about children... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 01:48:04 EST My Foundation <BR> The Rock I Built Upon <BR> <BR> <BR> She was the foundation of all that she wished I would be <BR> I spent a lot of time fighting what I knew was right by her to make decisions on my own <BR> Realizing that all the while, she knew where I would be <BR> Instructing me in the way to be a strong woman and a firm but understanding mother <BR> To love and respect myself enough that no one can tear me down <BR> She always told me that the inner me would become my worst enemy at times <BR> I... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 01:43:17 EST Drained For the last few days I have felt extremely drained. I haven't tracked any of my food. I have however, still managed to drink alot of water. I have a container that holds 18 cups and I have to fill it up at least twice a day...once in the afternoon and again before bed. <BR> <BR> My sleep patterns are strange. I go to bed and when I wake up in the morning, I am ready to tackle my day. As soon as I eat and take my medication, I am ready for bed. Length of time up varies from one to two hours... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 02:40:11 EST A Confession to Myself In my quest for a healthier lifestyle, exercise is a very minimal portion. Yes, I move all day long, but to actually do more is a different story. <BR> <BR> I bike enough to be able to log at least 15 minutes exercise time. Using the exercise ball or pilates ball is done at 10 to 30 minute intervals. When I sit down to watch a tv show, I use the exercise ball as a foot rest and always mindlessly move my legs and feet to move the ball. <BR> <BR> The confession I am making to myself, and post... Wed, 23 May 2012 07:56:15 EST Noticing a trend <em>58</em> I have noticed that in cutting down my salt, I am not eating within a proper calorie intake level. When I eat with the proper range, my sodium seems to skyrocket. <BR> <BR> Time to take another look at what I prepare for my families meals. Good thing is I only bought a few of the culprit items and I'll be able to cut them out. YAY! <BR> <BR> Legs are a bit swollen but that can be remedied by more water intake and exercise and watching salt intake today. Thank you for the nut... Sun, 6 May 2012 13:10:14 EST Mowing and Trimming I just received a new lawn mower yesterday. My oldest daughter and I put the handle and wheels on it. The neighbor next door helped get it to stop scraping the side metal and it's good to go. Well, this morning I decided to mow my front lawn. Yeah, it was a really cool idea. About halfway through I was thinking, What in the world are you doing? You are not supposed to even lift a 4lb bag of sugar! I looked at the part that was done and it looked so much better. Looked at the part I was workin... Wed, 2 May 2012 14:26:35 EST Sparking My Kids While I was on my SparkPeople account, my son starting asking my questions about it. So, I was telling him about it and he made the statement that he wished he could do that too. I showed him SparkTeens and he got really excited. When his sister got home, he proceeded to tell her about it. She wants one too! <BR> <BR> So, tomorrow after school, we'll make them a SparkTeens accounts. See, really a family affair now. <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> Mon, 30 Apr 2012 19:56:55 EST Remembering Everything In my system of change for my my body, I have forgotten one of the most important things that I have to do....Check my blood sugar. When I got up about 45 minutes ago, I was nauseous and lightheaded. I didn't think nothing of it because I have been feeling like that every morning. <BR> <BR> Well, I got dressed (this is my daily pledge to myself to keep myself out of bed) and just had to lay down on the couch. I don't like shoes on the furniture so that didn't last long.For the few minutes I... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 10:33:19 EST Later Today Later today, after the dog gets bathed and taken to the vet, after a trip to the store to get things that I am not sure I really need and lunch with my daughter, I will try a different way to exercise. I have a brace and I am going to see if it helps reduce the pain in my neck and shoulders a bit. Anything is worth a try at this point. If it doesn't work, I am going to have to immobilize my upper body and just work my lower body. <BR> <BR> Here's looking to new opportunities. Thu, 26 Apr 2012 01:20:24 EST Hoping for the best I've decided to not hope for the best but to do my best so that I can achieve my: <BR> Honest <BR> Open <BR> Plan <BR> Everyday <BR> <BR> By doing this my little changes will be rewarding. <BR> <BR> Have a good afternoon All. <em>247</em> Tue, 24 Apr 2012 11:53:21 EST Being Honest Ever have a problem with being honest about yourself? I'm not talking the surface stuff such as your likes and dislikes. I'm talking about the stuff that bothers you. The illnesses that you have because you don't want to be seen as something other than a person. The fact that you hide candy and food around the house and wait until noone is looking and then eat it. You tell yourself that "I've written that down already so I don't have to write it again." <BR> <BR> Well, when I started my page... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 06:03:40 EST Why Diet? I really get tired of hearing the term "diet." To keep myself on goal I am going to use the term like this: <BR> Doing <BR> Incredible <BR> Exciting <BR> Things <BR> <BR> This way my DIET means so much more than just cutting back. If we are to trick our bodies to sustain itself on smaller amounts then our minds have to be tricked too. Failure is not supposed to be an option but your mindset <BR> makes it possible. <BR> <BR> So by Doing Incredible Exciting Things for myself makes it so mu... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 18:52:41 EST