LADYMOONWILLOW's SparkPeople Blog LADYMOONWILLOW's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Sorry I don't know what makes people who they are and I do forgive. but I now must leave here and all the security I thought I had. It is so unfair that she followed me here to post what she posted. I DID all I could to help them, gave them gas money, money for cigarettes when they first came here and both were not employed yet. I don't regret any of it, and I do love them both. I just want some peace in my life, and a chance to catch up on things. I can qualify for help when they are gone. ... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 10:56:17 EST Again..... I ended up in the ER thanks to their smoking. I am allergic to the smoke, and the doctor was glad they are leaving. Well, she acts like it won't happen, but it has to. I'm tired of fighting for my life, in my own home. I was told by an officer if their smoking was a hazard to my health we can get them escorted out. They pay nothing, don't help with housework anymore or anything. She has her daughter and daughters boyfriend here, I told her they have to go. <em>253</em> Tue, 10 Sep 2013 20:45:38 EST Things happening.... Trying to evict the people here, they are refusing to leave. I'm working with a social worker, and legal aide should be calling soon. I gave them till Thursday this week, I'm hoping they will be gone soon. My brother in law and my son are my rocks, they support this all the way. I just can't sit here any more and get no help, so they must go. I'm feeling as well as can be expected, will feel better when the cigarettes are no longer here. I'm finally able to be alone, and it doesn't bot... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 13:44:43 EST All is okay!!! I am holding in there, and still trying to get questions answered, but the doc hasn't called me back. I will call again today. Still tire easily, and rest when I need too. Been very sad lately, it is so hard knowing you are dying but not knowing how long you have. I'm beginning to hate my home, want to be near water, someplace where I can watch it, sit near it and read, and just find a little peace in life. My son is still here, I pray she finally tells him to either come home, or say it... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 11:45:19 EST Saw the doctor yesterday, I found out there is a spot on part of my heart. I think they all thought I would break down, kept asking me if I needed a tissue. I won't let this stop me, the doctor is referring me to the gastric bypass center there and if I lose more weight, it could help some, so I hope to have this process touched up. I'm very scared, but I will beat this, somehow. My son has moved in, marriage is over, but better he is here for now. She just keeps hurting him, and he still loves her. Wed, 7 Aug 2013 15:30:32 EST What else can go wrong, Son is moving in with me tonight, I am so sad about them, but, they both know they can talk to me. I don't give this marriage much of a chance, but I will see. I am having neighbor problems again, and I pray every day for a miracle. <BR> I'm doing good, have a doctors appointment next Tuesday, and I am doing well. Thu, 1 Aug 2013 23:23:45 EST So glad to be home, In the hospital a week, I'm not sure how I feel about Congested Heart Failure patient. I had to take some desperate steps when I got home, I posted on Face Book how I was left alone, no food in the house, and no one getting any. I have a restricted salt intake now, and doing well with it. Well, I am now being taken care of, meals cooked for me, and I'm sleeping well, still very weak, but, I'm doing upper body exercises every other day and leg lifts on the other ones. My friend is helping ... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 21:35:58 EST Well, guess where I am????? <img src=""> <BR> Well, Thursday, I got really sick, went to local ER they sent me to Highland in the City. They thought it was a blood clot and congestive heart failure. Not a blood clot, but def. Congestive Heart failure. I may be home tomorrow or rehab for a while. I am doing much better, trying to remove a lot of fluid fro my body. <BR> <BR> <em>285</em> Sun, 21 Jul 2013 13:00:09 EST When it rains, it pours, So sad today, last night my son had a fight with his wife, he admits he has anger problems and is about to start counseling for it. They have been off and on for almost two months. They had a fight last night and his reaction was to leave her a good bye note, called me to say everyone is better off without him and to tell me good bye. Well I went into mom mode and threatened him any way I could, I would hold it against her and take my grandson to raise myself, and to remember I'm old and g... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 20:47:43 EST Another weekend gone, Tomorrow is the day they are supposed to leave, I don't think it will happen, they have said nothing, and I can't believe they are looking. Will I have to call the police and have them escorted out, I hope not, but it will probably have to be done. I have to do this for my future, its time to put me first. <BR> <BR> <em>381</em> <em>253</em> Tue, 16 Jul 2013 00:13:42 EST Survived last night, <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I made it through the first night. Will I miss them, yes, but I refuse to lose my home. Will this work? I don't know. I do know I am finding a new strength I didn't think I had. I just wanted to let you know so far all is well. <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> Sat, 13 Jul 2013 11:53:59 EST I finally did it, Gave them in writing, 3 days to find a place a live, and be out by this Tuesday. I'm a mess, it was so hard to do, but. my son and brother in law were there with me, and that helped. I am now hiding in my room, tho I must go out soon to find dinner. I may take food to my room to live on till this is over. I feel bad about it, but I won't lose my home for anyone. I just wanted you all to know the clock is ticking. I went with three days, it will take something drastic to get them moving.... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 18:50:04 EST I'm finally getting some cahonnies, lol! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well her daughter had two male visitors today, and three small kids, I kicked them all out. My son was proud, but what happens when they all leave and I need something, who will help me get them then, she got my groceries today for me, when she is gone, who will help me then????? <BR> <BR> <em>253</em> Thu, 11 Jul 2013 19:47:21 EST So dissappointed My son and two grandsons came for the day, and as I am about to make dinner, my roommates daughter walks in and starts cooking too. Well, to make it short my son left with the boys, and I am hiding in my room again. I don't mind her doing that, but not when my family is there. I did do a lot of cleaning today and it will be interesting to see if she cleans her mess up. I will eat later when every one is gone. I'm hurt and it is so unfair I have to lose time with my family. This has to e... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 16:53:20 EST Can stress make you ill? Been sick since Monday, slept all day yesterday and last night, I never do this. I think the smoke here is really getting to me, I'm wheezing all the time, I never do this, what is going on with my body, it just isn't the same and it scares me, bad headaches, trouble breathing, pains in my chest. I was taken to the hospital a few months ago and had the same symptoms, and they found nothing. Can the smoke here be doing it, I wish I could just move out till they all leave. Woke up today wit... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 11:20:36 EST Things looking up, <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I'm feeling a bit scared, nervous and frightened. My family is working with me on some problems, will let you know if we succeed. Finally asked for help, not easy for me. I'm mostly scared that I won't survive to see it all happen. I pray God sends my guardian angels to stand by me, along with my human ones I love so much. Still find myself wanting to hide in my room, maybe it's just lack of anti-depress... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 20:25:57 EST Air, wonderful air, It only took two trips of Isaac heating to fix it, but it is fixed. When I moved here I bought a gold package, so it cost me nothing for a new part and a new motor. Feels so good, and man am I sleeping, 10 hours a night, guess I had catching up to do..LOL. <BR> <BR> Things are looking like there will be a lot of changes soon. My fingers and toes and eyes are crossed in hope. <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> <em>211</em> <em>213</em> <em>102</em> <em>244</em> <em>246</em> <em>334... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 22:15:33 EST The heat is killing me, With no air conditioning, I'm pretty much in one room, with ceiling fan and 3 others going ink all the time. Isaac heating is due any minute, I pray he finds the answer and can fix it. <BR> <BR> <em>2</em> Mon, 24 Jun 2013 20:40:47 EST Life is still up and down..... I have been so busy with my son, his wife made him leave and he needed Mom time, we talked, a lot, and spent hours watching that was fun. <BR> Tomorrow is the yard sales here and I am setting almost all of my jewelry out for an end of season sale, I need to sell so I can pay some bills, now the IRS is after me, for the winnings my friend asked me to cash in for her, and now they think it was mine. I will explain to them, but I'm sure they won't care, if my investment would ... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 21:52:33 EST I want this at my new house..... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's a good day to dream, seems my new life may start soon. So much to do when it does. But till then, I'm here and having a good day. Took my daily ride and took pictures of all the geese family down at the pond. The babies are growing and they moved around so fast, I couldn't count them. Must have been at least a dozen grown ups, and that many babies. Such a way to spend a lonely day. Room mate has food st... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 19:36:35 EST HOT!!!!!!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Another day in my room, too fans blowing on me, and still sweating. If it cools down enough early evening, I hope to take my ride. Please stay safe and cool my friends. <BR> <BR> <em>253</em> Fri, 31 May 2013 12:18:09 EST Hi all my friends, <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I need one too.....I guess it's good I have no money. I'm getting along here well, warm without air conditioning and I'm sitting in my rooms with two fans blowing on me. I'm putting off my ride till it cools a bit, had a great one yesterday, met a nice man, we chatted a while and went on our way. Maybe we will meet again today....who knows. Took pictures of several Geese and lots of babies. <BR> <BR> have a ... Thu, 30 May 2013 16:29:54 EST Good weekend,,, Spent part of Sunday with my son and grandson, went for a ride, had a great time, we had breakfast and lunch out...ok, fast food....LOL <BR> <BR> They are finally talking of having to leave and where will they go, I hope my good fortune comes soon, it should and then I am leaving, selling the house to them, they invested too and will be able to afford the place. I don't want to stay any longer than I have too, I realized we will never get the smell of their cheap cigaretts out of here. The... Tue, 28 May 2013 10:08:21 EST Hi All. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am starting a new life very soon, my investment is coming in within the next few days, and money will never be a problem again. I'm told I will have to leave all my sites and get all new computers and have all new adresses for my mail. I know it can be dangerous for families if this information gets out. So to protect my family and especially my grandsons I will disappear under this name. I hope to be back w... Fri, 24 May 2013 16:00:39 EST Sunday, oh Sunny Sunday.... Well, I think I may go insane before they all leave, the granddaughter who is 7 and really bad, loud, and demands things instead of asking. I'm not sure how much of that I can take, and her daughters boyfriend has two small ones, who also are obnoxious, loud and mean. So till they are all gone, I am either on my deck or in my room. I have had to hide my food in the fridge and they still take it out of my drawer. I have bread that is a bit expensive but lasts just me a week, now they could... Sun, 19 May 2013 12:37:11 EST For my friends <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My lilac tree at the end of the deck.....smells soooo good. Sat, 18 May 2013 14:17:08 EST Saturday... I found out yesterday that the office here is having my roommates evicted. I know it has to be done, but it will seem really weird to have my home for me. I'm definitly going to take the man who stole from me to court. I can't let him take all that money from my family. The park is helping me with some repairs since I can't afford to hire someone. Things are starting to fall into place and it scares me. <BR> <BR> Big yard sales here on June 5 and I will be selling my jewelry. I can't ... Sat, 18 May 2013 09:44:20 EST I'M BACK, AGAIN!!!! Been a rough month, couldn't pay my bills, so lost my cable, my phone, and my internet service. I found a cheaper way to have all, and should be able to keep up with this one. I'm still having problems with the male neighbor here, he lies about me to my other neighbor. <BR> <BR> I'm taking daily rides around the park, meeting some really nice people, and I'm out of the house for almost 2 hours every day. I always take my camera and have lots of pictures of flowers and animals here. One... Fri, 17 May 2013 11:29:45 EST Allergy weather sucks, Bad day, nose running and sneezing and eyes itchy, I hate allergies. No money for meds, so Acid Reflux kicking up, but it was sunny and I still took a long ride around the park, in my chair. Talked and waved to a lot of neighbors. Took pics of flowers, and I plan to do it every day it doesn't rain. <BR> <BR> Tue, 23 Apr 2013 18:55:35 EST NOt yet, I hope this happens soon, can't pay bills this month, can't get my meds, and having a few medical problems. I will be fine. I'm writing and talking to a very old friend again, we have known each other almost 20 years, and have never met. I hope to one day meet him finally. Mon, 22 Apr 2013 21:05:06 EST Not yet, but......soon, I can't wait to start my new life and I plan to help as many family and friends as I can. You ask will I have enough, yes, I will. For me the most important thing in life is to help others. I will do it the right way this time, my attorney will have special gifting forms for them to sign. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I love you all... <em>253</em> Sat, 13 Apr 2013 15:36:59 EST Any day now My investment will be in. Soon as it is, I'm going into hiding. I will have my I Pad and lap top with me. I'm leaving my home, it smells so bad here, to be where I can breath. Then I have a lot of work ahead of me, write my Will, find a lawyer, accountant, etc.. <BR> <BR> I will start looking for a house to rent till I can find land to build my new home on. Trust Funds will be. Set up, and other things. I'm writing to a nice man now who has been a friend for almost 20 years. Who kno... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 04:03:05 EST So much rain....;) Well its been raining for over 24 hours here and is supposed to continue, we have storm watch and flood alerts out, but we don't have to shovel rain, so let it rain. Did three loads of laundry today, roommate finally got some Tide and even bought me some dish supplies, I can now clean the kitchen. I was missing the man who left for a while, but now it feels good to have my home back. I don't see the other two more than an hour a day, they sleep till afternoon, she then goes to work, he sle... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 10:32:32 EST Things are better Still quiet, and the other two are still here, I'm still broke, and struggling to buy food, but only for me now. I haven't heard from JOhn, but have heard he is at his sisters, and she is finally helping him, so maybe this was the way it was supposed to be, he's with family now. So today I pay two of my bills, and buy a few groceries, and I am working every day on my jewelry. Life is good, but it will be better. The cigarette smoke is killing me....can't wait till I don't have to smell th... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 09:15:39 EST Friday is finally here. Been very quiet here, everyone is upset I kicked out John, he now has no place to go. I'm not sure where he is, but I still say I did the best thing for him, got him off his lazy A?? and hopefully finally taking care of himself. I'm not his mother and he is not my problem. What my problem is, is I hurt his family doing this, so now I am alone again. Not so bad, I am actually enjoying it, just miss watching Wrestling with him, but maybe one day he will come only to watch then go home. I d... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 10:44:06 EST Things came to a head today, John borrowed my van for an appointment, said he would only be gone 1 hour or so. I didn't panic till he was gone 5 hours, I called 911, he was here finally when the officer was here, I had the officer take him out, I told him, why, and he left. Keeping my van that long shows he doesn't think of anyone but himself and I am so tired of people using me. Wish me luck with the other two, but I definitly took one big step today. <em>28</em> <em>104</em> <em>244</em> <em>250</em> <... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 20:20:02 EST Finally a sunny day.... Well the time is getting shorter and no one talks about anything. I know they will be fine when the time comes, just not sure John realizes he is going too. He has an appointment this afternoon, I don't know where, but maybe he will come back with good news. While he is gone, I will have my house for an hour or so, it will feel so good to get out of the bedroom before 4PM. Yep I stay in here till I know I have to make dinner or get so hungry I have to go out. I have done this on purpose,... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 11:17:33 EST Quiet, its scary.... Well, things are tense here, I don't know what is happening, but, I guess they are looking for a place. They may need to go to social services for help, and may have to stay in a motel for a while. Do I feel bad about it, yes, and no, I want my home back, and I will have a lot of cleaning to do to get it back to the way I want it. To finally have my room back for my jewelry area will be great. It looks like my big thing is coming in finally, then I will never have to worry about money aga... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 23:31:45 EST It's happening, WLell, I told them, not much of a reaction, I spoke to the manager, she said time is up, one month to be out, or I could lose my home. I had company today, my son and little grandson, Connor, had lunch and played with my little guy, had a nice talk with my son, who is as excited by my investment as I am, it's about to come in. Finally I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am selling my jewelry at Catherine's again tomorrow and Saturday, spending Easter with my son. Life is good. <em>2... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 21:25:36 EST Good days ahead, Woke today after a long sleep feeling good, checked my account, and had enough money to buy a few groceries. Things for me to cook and eat, no fast foods, just good ole home cooking. I will make Beef Veggie soup tomorrow an freeze it in dishes. All she drinks is water, and I didn't buy any, I don't drink bottled water. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I purchased some circular silver bracelets at the shop yesterday, they are awesome and silver, I will add a charm to it to sell and offer other ... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 21:33:16 EST I have my van, woo hoo!!!! I don't know what they do with their money, but they say they are broke. I have a little left which has to used for a prescription. We shall see how they like it. There is food in the house, and we only need a couple of things. I will get them, but only them. I feel finally like I may have charge of my life again. Last night they were shooting each other with a gun with sponge thingees, too rough for me. I will be at the store every weekend, she got permission to have a vendor there on... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 11:00:12 EST Changes have started.... I set up my jewelry in a local shop yesterday and made a bit of money. I was gone all day from 8am to 8pm. Such a wonderful day, John took me, then I thought he would never but he finally did. Made some good contacts and got lots of ideas. <BR> <BR> The only bad part was when I got home, due,Ithink to lack of protein that day, I blacked out and fell onto the driveway. John was good to make sure I was ok, but he isn't able to help me up, so he called his son, who picked me ... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 08:45:46 EST Going slow but going. My roommate asked if her daughter and granddaughter could spend two nights a week here over night and she would pay me $200 a month. Finally someone who pays...LOL But yesterday the roommate said something that is weighing on my mind. I asked her and her boyfriend to take over all grocery shopping. She stated why should they, he eats one meal a day. She only eats two dinners a week. Well, I got to thinking on that one, and I am asking her one more time, and if she states that again, I w... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 09:24:56 EST Still here, Things seem so hopeless, I got the news yesterday that I need a new furnace, cost...about $5,000. Now where do I get that money? I pray all the time that this investment comes in soon, but will it be here before the furnace burns my house down. I posted a large post on face book, and my roommate claims they are doing what they can, which is nothing. She claims she buys groceries, she does the shopping, I do the paying and miss going shopping. I will figure out something, and I will be fi... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 11:21:21 EST Finally Monday, Well I made it through the weekend. I got a few groceries yesterday, stuff I eat tho. Told the others to get condiments and meats. Roommate is a selfish bitch, I just realized it yesterday. She eats at work so she doesn't eat here much, why should she buy them. So tonight I will talk to her, and she will have the option of buying groceries or paying half the bills, I'm not doing it anymore. One of the others is her boyfriend of 19 years, the other is her x brother in law, and her son an... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 13:46:29 EST Did you ever have a day........ I guess I am still having that time of month phases, tho I don't really have it. I was up then down then up again all day. Aside from getting the mail most days the only time I leave the house is to sit on the deck. You see my roommate pays nothing either, except a few groceries now and then, promised to have her car on the road this weekend, then I heard her say to her nephew he could borrow it, I spoke up and told her she promised me she would have it on the road by this weekend. I told... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 10:50:48 EST Sorry I'm late, Been a very funny few days, and finally I have accepted that I am a woman with a very big heart. I can't tell anyone to leave, where would they go? So I am just pushing them to at least handle all the groceries, so I can keep up with the bills. They do like to eat. So I am sitting back and seeing what will happen. The other day I was in my chair and headed to the mailboxes,when he came around the corner and I was right there, he almost hit me, but didn't, and I waved but he didn't even l... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 12:01:46 EST FINALLY THINGS ARE ABOUT TO CHANGE, A very big event is about to happen and I can't wait. I will finally be able to pay off all my bills, and move and build the house of my dreams. I am not taking anyone with me, I'm selling this house to my roommate, and I can't begin to thank all my friends here, but when I get my camper/traveling shop up and running, I hope to travel from state to state, selling my jewelry to help allmcauses or organizations where I am needed. I hope to meet all of you. As the song says,... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 15:26:01 EST Finally had enough. My roommate is getting her car on the road this week, so I am going to be out of here and even if it is sitting by the lake, doing nothing, I'm not making meals any more. I pay all the bills, buy most of the food, which I am going to stop, and with my van on the road, I am going to be mobile again, I'm going to enjoy life, and when I leave here, I am going alone. I spoke to my son today and I will be visiting them more, even if I have to sit on the bottom step and scooch my way up to them. ... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 14:25:13 EST A day alone......yippeeeee! > by the time I got up, and out of my room,John was leaving to see his mom, and check his mail. he hasn't been able to pay his bills, since workers comp is having problems. Cathy is at work till 9. so a whole day to do what I wanted to. Cleaned baked a cookie cake for Cathy's boyfriend, he sleeps all day and works nights. Still hasn't left his room, and today is his birthday. She is off tomorrow and is baking him a cake, making a special dinner. So today and tomorrow I'm off. When my... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 19:31:23 EST