LADYLOBO's SparkPeople Blog LADYLOBO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The scrambled egg victory I made scrambled eggs for the fist time in my life. They were pretty darned good. And I am so so so proud of myself. <BR> <BR> Now I know this wouldn't be a big deal for most people. It's perhaps one of the easiest things in the world to make. It's a staple of the American diet. <BR> <BR> But eggs are one of the many, many foods that I have refused to eat for years. Just two years ago the smell of eggs cooking would literally send me running to the bathroom heaving. My friends mocked me fo... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 07:13:41 EST March Update So this photo was taken a week ago but internet problems prohibited the posting. It doesn't look any different than the January photo so it's not exactly making me happy, but... I guess such is life. And it is a good reality check! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 1 Apr 2012 10:51:01 EST Back on track Wow, this journey is full of ups and downs. I am generally really lucky in my life right now in one sense because I don't have much going on. I work about 80 hours/week and...that's about it. I live in a difficult country right now where a real social life is not an option so I work and I focus on my health. It might not be the most balanced/fun life, but it will work for the one year that I'm committed to being here and it really allows me to be incredibly selfish. I think this process of we... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 04:49:25 EST Tougher times... My vacation from work definitely turned into a vacation from exercising and watching my calorie intake. Ughh. I did 3 lbs worth of damage at the end of the day. I know it could have been worse, but that's not great. <BR> <BR> I'm at a conference now and meeting up with a bunch of old friends I haven't seen for a year and really missed. I'm afraid it's going to be a week of dinners, drinks and no time for the gym. I guess I'm just going to make the smartest choices I can given conference buf... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 13:02:18 EST Little Victory I squeezed my butt into a size 10 pair of jeans. I'm pretty damn proud. I mean, it wasn't pretty and I wouldn't be comfortable wearing them out of the house yet, but it's still pretty exciting for me! It feels like tangible (and visible!) progress and that feels GREAT! <em>104</em> Sun, 12 Feb 2012 07:57:20 EST 40 minutes!! Today was a good reminder of how up and down this journey can be. After having a crappy couple of days, today I got up to 40 minutes straight jogging on the treadmill. It was actually pretty easy! I am so proud! It was also good practice. Normally I'm an elliptical junkie, but I do try to change it up and hit the treadmill every once in a while (which is seriously simplified when, like today, someone else is on the elliptical <em>30</em> ). Next week, however, I'm heading home and won't have ... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 08:07:44 EST Reality Check I was feeling so great about my progress and then got a big slap in the fact. I crunched some numbers and realized that in order to no longer be OBESE as defined by the BMI scale I need to lose 18 pounds. That's a LOT! It feels like it's going to take me forever go get that much weight off. And then, to be HEALTHY I need to lose an ADDITIONAL 24 lbs. <BR> <BR> I guess I'm just having a down few days, but it really feels like that's impossible. <BR> <BR> Ugh. Sat, 4 Feb 2012 10:43:16 EST Success!!!...and a little scared So all in all I lost 4.5 lbs this week. Which is FANTASTIC. And much, much better than I had even allowed myself to hop for. <BR> <BR> But when I figured that out this morning, my first reaction was fear. I'm afraid of that much success. And not in an 'I'm afraid to realize my full potential' made-for-TV movie sort of way. I've been thin and healthy before and I am undoubtedly ready for that again. What I'm afraid of is not having this type of success week after week and then giving up when... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 06:19:21 EST Erased the past year's damage (I like to think) My long history of yo-yo weight loss-weight gain-weight loss-weight gain seems to have been defined by where I am living in the world. When I am living in a location where I am happy and feeling at home with a good balance of work and personal life I tend to be thinner. Conversely, when I am in a particularly tough place or where work is especially difficult over the long term I pack on the pounds. I guess that's not a surprise or a groundbreaking statement given all we know about the link... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 10:33:10 EST My favorite question... So today someone in the office finally asked my favorite question in the world--"have you lost weight?"!! It made me so happy! Of course, she asked it in front of a bunch of people which made me slightly uncomfortable, but still. She noticed the difference when I thought I was the only one who could see changes in my body. <BR> <BR> It's the little things like that that make it so much easier to keep going with this process! Mon, 23 Jan 2012 12:02:17 EST Jan 2012 Progress (?) I promised myself that I would post photos to track my progress and give myself some accountability, which I think has been a serious problem for me in the past. So here goes. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> OK, so there are clearly many, MANY things wrong with this photo. But here we're going to focus on the weight. There's just too much of it. This isn't really the starting point (unfortunately) because it was worse a month ago. But, it's ... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 05:04:51 EST Lazy Saturday I'm having a very lazy Saturday today. Laying around the house and watching TV. But I got up this morning with the alarm clock and did yoga so I have decided to let myself have this one. I'm even choosing to ignore the outlook inbox for the day. <BR> <BR> 9 more months until I get to move home. I am absolutely planning out what I will do when I have my own house in the U.S. It's so exciting, but so overwhelming at the same time to think about. I know I'm just getting ahead of myself, but I ... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 07:25:48 EST Giving this a try I've never really done this blog thing, but I am in a place right now where I don't have a lot of emotional support so I need to try reaching out in new ways. <BR> <BR> I work in international development and have lived outside the U.S. for most of my adult life. Traveling from one developing country to another has really done a number no only on my weight (constant new foods, relying on local ingredients without really understanding what they are, etc) but also on my overall health. I am pl... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 03:55:25 EST