LADILADIDA's SparkPeople Blog LADILADIDA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Making a Fresh Start It's been almost 3 years since my last post. I've been working through life and focusing on other things. That's ok. I needed to focus on marriage and career plus help a friend through cancer. I regret not keeping exercise in the mix for myself. I had spurts in between but not enough to maintain the weight loss (which I did for a while) but eventually I allowed the weight to creep up. I still eat healthily though probably could do with smaller portions, more fruit (which I love) and a few les... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 16:20:10 EST Fresh Start It has been some time since I posted. I hope this blog finds you well or at least on your way to wellness as best you can. Life has been a winding journey. I can't say it's been bad but I can't say I've been living my best life - and that is what bothers me most, because I have the capacity, will and faith to live my best life but have not been doing so. Have I been doing the best I can? Part of me wants to say, yes, given the circumstances I have been doing the best I can. The other pa... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 21:21:03 EST The importance of GAINING perspective I have written about perspective a number of times throughout my weight-loss and here is a link that really shows how our self-perspective is often skewed and how the world sees us is much better than we think. <link><BR>the-same-person-to-a-forensic-artist-a<BR>nd-this-is-what-happene </link> Pictures show this clearly. <BR> <BR> Start with love. Love yourself. When you aren't feeling great about yourself, volunteer and help someone in need. You... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 12:31:11 EST Heavy-hearted in Boston I am heavy-hearted today as many other of my neighbors in Boston are after such a horrific and unimaginable attack on the Boston Marathon. Of all the events in this great city - this one symbolizes all that is good in humanity. Not only from the act of willing oneself to run 26.2 miles of one of the most grueling courses, but many do this in an act to raise awareness towards multiple causes that do good in this world or even to remember a loved one. To have it end in this way or not even t... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 15:10:45 EST Percolating. So, I'm over the shock of re-entry into being back in Boston and not working 60 hours a week in a hole in the wall or traveling so much. I am so thankful for all the responses to my last blog. Thank you to each and every one of you who reads these. And thanks to SparkPeople for always being a safe place to share. Isn't it really wonderful? <BR> <BR> I have been enjoying riding my moped. I took a server position for a friend at two of his restaurants so I have been more active, in genera... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 14:05:48 EST Where to begin... decision to start again, every day, forever. As I read my last blog from September, I feel as though a lifetime has been lived since those days. It has been a whirlwind of changes. I left my job to work at a yoga retreat center in hopes of a stable environment, to eventually make a home in the Berkshires, to have rewarding work and also the opportunity to practice yoga and yogadance to my heart's content. What a dream right? It was the perfect transition position for me on my road to eventually owning my own business as I paid down ... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 09:25:24 EST Dealing with Complainers... So, I wrote this blog on Compassion and recognizing where my complaints come from yesterday and now today in my inbox is this dailyspark about dealing with complainers in our life <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5056080 </link> . <BR> I'm not sure I agree with everything in this article but it is interesting how the universe brings this idea to the forefront just when I am thinking about it. I was writing in my journal this morning how I would lik... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 08:00:01 EST Practicing Compassion Towards Others and Ourselves What is compassion? I prefer this definition I found on the free online dictionary - "the humane quality of understanding the suffering of others and wanting to do something about it". The latin roots of the word are COM, meaning TOGETHER, and PATI, meaning SUFFER - in essence, TOGETHER, WE SUFFER. I like this simple definition because it doesn't require action or the need to "do" something about the suffering we see. Sometimes being witness to it and holding the space for it is enough to ... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 13:08:49 EST SEPTEMBER THEME: NECESSITY BEGETS CREATIVITY SEPTEMBER THEME: NECESSITY BEGETS CREATIVITY <BR> Well, summer didn't turn out as planned but nonetheless some good times were had and some necessary things got done. Rather than spend all my time at the beach, I spent my time doing home projects in hopes to sell my condo next spring. Needless to say it took a lot longer than expected and I spent WAY TOO MUCH MONEY on the project and eating out while it was going on. SO, I'm back on the money diet and recommitted to my healthy living rout... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 14:49:11 EST Summer livin', havin' a blast! I had a lovely vacation. I did so many things including spending a two days by the pool reading. I got back from vacation and started in on painting my living room which has turned into a bigger project than expected especially with the heat we've had in New England recently. Yoga training is still trucking along. On my vacation I went and took a private session with my teacher and we spent an hour on my calves and feet! I learned so much and it is changing everything. One day I might be... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 09:55:12 EST Plan x?$ - SUMMERTIME! I fell off my planning when I got to doing my yard sale - why do house projects just take over life? It's ok - I'm not totally off the wagon of my healthy living lifestyle and I got a work-out going up and down my stairs taking stuff down to the alley to sale, for sure! Then I got a cold which really through me off track... Again, that's ok. <BR> <BR> I leave for vacation tomorrow and I am so looking forward to the Berkshires and chilling with my sister at the resort. YEAH! So, I'm let... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 10:53:34 EST Week 2 PLAN Monday: <BR> DONE - Abhyanga <BR> DONE - Qigong <BR> DONE - Morning Yoga Practice (Tadasana focus) <BR> DONE - Yoga Study <BR> DONE - Healthy Lunch Packed <BR> CARDIO at the gym <BR> Weigh-IN <BR> Put my feet in the sand at beach <BR> Read the Teaching Section of Yoga Manual <BR> DONE Create sign for ALLEY Sale <BR> Draw yoga asana notecards <BR> Tongue Scraper and Oil-swishing <BR> Journal <BR> Meal Plan <BR> TO BED EARLY!!! <BR> <BR> TUESDAY: <BR> Neti-Nasya-Abhyanga-Tongue Scrape <BR> Qi... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 12:25:20 EST Week 1 Update So I made a plan. It was just a plan. <BR> <BR> I knew I put too much into that plan and here in reality is what got done... <BR> <BR> Sunday: All DONE! set up locker at community center, 20 minutes gym cardio (elliptical), steam shower (my treat), weigh-in at gym, continue inventory of closet and tag for yard sale, more tea-less coffee, bonus - walk to and from the Train station, installed cooler on the back of my moped, journal 3 pages, local food dinner/fundraiser - YUMMY, [didn't get ... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 08:41:24 EST Week 1 JUNE Plan: Get in and Get out My theme for this first week of June is to "Get In, and Get Out." It's more important to me this week that I begin to establish a new routine rather than "be good" at anything or "explore all the options". Just get in, get out and get it done. Of course, I can still enjoy the process though! The aspects of my JUNE plan for the month I am more focused on this week are exercise, wealth/home and the preparation for my yoga training this weekend. <BR> <BR> Here is my WEEK 1 JUNE PLAN: Get in... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 11:25:28 EST JUNE theme: Productivity What better month to be productive than June? The most daylight hours than any other month! I realize that this is a lot to list but I'm ready to roll up my sleeves and the support is in place to get these things accomplished. <BR> <BR> By the end of JUNE, I love and am grateful for the fulfillment of the following vision: <BR> <BR> HEALTH: [supports Earth/Spiritual, Benefactors/Travel, Career, Family] <BR> -RESULT - I feel good in my skinnier summer clothes <BR> -MEASURING TOOLS - my ... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 14:24:00 EST June - the Half Way Month I really enjoyed the party and then some down time afterward this week. But June 1st is tomorrow and well, it's time to see where I am and make the plan for JUNE. <BR> <BR> First, June is the 6th month of the year, so I am taking a moment to look at my yearly plan to see where I stand at this time. 10 is doing great and feel fulfilled in this vision so far. 1 - is I feel really bad about how I am doing with this vision. <BR> <BR> YEARLY PLAN <BR> By the end of 2012, I love and am grateful ... Thu, 31 May 2012 12:07:37 EST Finishing up May So, I have been busy these days with completing projects and honoring my commitments. I chose to let some other things "slide" while I completed them. At least it was a conscious choice made prior to the projects and not me sitting here going "oh, why do I do this to myself? and why do let "life" get in the way of my goals..." I think making the choice consciously is a move in a positive direction for me. <BR> <BR> I do miss all my sparkpeeps and hope you are all doing well. <BR> <BR> Th... Thu, 24 May 2012 09:03:40 EST Theme for May: Honor My Commitments Theme for May: Honor My Commitments <BR> <BR> This month of May for me is about honoring my commitments. I have a recital that I scheduled last year but to be honest since I am doing my yoga training it is not exactly my priority at the moment, however, I made this commitment and I am honoring it. The music is chosen and mostly learned. I'll be ready to sing next Tuesday and will enjoy the music I've chosen. It's just not making a big deal out performances these days. That's probably a... Wed, 9 May 2012 12:39:57 EST What is your gift to yourself today? My gift to myself today? It's a bit odd but I took the time this morning to measure myself. I haven't done it in a while and my clothes have been snug lately. I also had an emotional yoga practice yesterday at our training where the demon ego-voices kept bringing up things like "I am fat", "I am injured", "I am too sensitve", "I'm not worthy", "I don't belong", "I'm all alone" and oh my favorite, "I am lazy". We were working on moving from our organs in our yoga training and this can know... Mon, 7 May 2012 12:35:29 EST Support Precedes Action "Support Precedes Action" is a primary movement principle I am learning from my 200-hour yoga certification training with Embodyoga lead by Patty Townsend. Thought of my teacher makes my heart smile and am honored to share this gem with all of my sparkfriends. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> It dawned on me this morning that this principle is applicable everywhere in life not just in a yoga posture, though that's a very good place to begin exploration. If support precedes action, then when I wr... Wed, 2 May 2012 16:08:35 EST ACKNOWLEDGING FEAR rather than HIDING from it I ran across a website and honestly, it is the most succinct answer to dealing with fear that I have ever seen. I wish I had found this when I was desperately searching for answers to fear 4 years ago. <BR> <BR> "When a fear thought comes up, simply say thanks for sharing, thank you for protecting me. Do not give it power. Don't run from it. Whatever comes up, it is very important to acknowledge it, when you hear them you can even write them down... THEN you can turn it around to a positive... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 10:33:39 EST In the moment... "When we get hooked into striving toward where we think we should be and how far we ought to be able to go, in truth we are somewhere else all the time." <BR> <BR> Farhi, Donna (2011-04-01). Yoga Mind, Body & Spirit: A Return to Wholeness (Kindle Locations 522-523). Macmillan. Kindle Edition. <BR> <BR> I just read this quote be Donna Fahri as part of my yoga training reading and it really struck a cord with me. Which is more important at this moment - to be happy OR TO BE??? I am sure I a... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 11:09:56 EST April Goals update! I've updated my progress on my April goals on this thread. If you've got some goals you are working on for April - join us on the thread so we can support each other in getting it done WITH LOVE. <BR> <BR> Here's the link: <BR> <link><BR>sageboard_thread.asp?board=22531x55310<BR>x47494978 </link> <BR> <BR> Happy Spring! Mon, 16 Apr 2012 10:24:54 EST Since there's been talk of fear... A friend wrote this wonderful blog discussing fear and improvisation from an artist's point of view but the theme is applicable to any endeavor, particularly if you view life as one big experiment from a perspective of discovery and inquiry. <BR> <BR> Enjoy. <link><BR>visation-a-farewell-for-now-to-blogging/ </link> <BR> <BR> On another note, today I jump-roped before going to work this morning. I woke up feeling good this morning, looked at the clo... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 10:15:09 EST All we have to fear is... What is it with fear? The fear to start something and not be perfect at the start? The fear to fail at what we say we will do? Fear of not living up to expectations? Fear of not measuring up to our friends? Fears of danger and pain? Fear of the inevitable person jumping out behind a dark corner in a horror film? Thrill-seeking fear? Fear of fear itself? There is so much in FDR's first inaugural speech, so much more than the memorable quote that "All we have to fear, is fear itself". ... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 11:14:38 EST April Theme - Staking a Claim A quarter of the year has already passed and winter is behind us now. Though cold winds still blow in the Northeast there are blossoms and hints of spring. I have finally begun my Yoga Teacher Certification Training. I love the teacher and the group. I am learning so much but this type of learning does require an immense amount of focus. I am acknowledging this need for focus but at the same time allowing room to keep it a soft focus and trust that I am enough rather than overwork from a... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 12:39:48 EST Finding the Sweet Spot As I lay in bed last night, pondering the day, I decided to accept the fact that this phase of life that I am currently in requires patience and love. It occurred to me that I am coming off of a time where I just never allowed myself to rest. Go, Go, Go and when I wasn't going, I was thinking about how I wasn't going. Then, as a result of injury and life contemplation, I realized I needed to learn how to rest. It took at least 6 months to actually rest without thinking about how guilty I ... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 11:43:05 EST March Theme and Challenge... My theme for March is "Let's Get Physical" and here's a challenge for the Month of March. Please, consider leaping forward with me. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Picture taken at Thunder Hole at Acadia National park, ME last LABOR DAY. <BR> <BR> March Forward Challenge <BR> <BR> What is a Challenge? Checking out the Encarta dictionary here are the top four definitions: <BR> 1. Invitation to take part in a contest – an invitation to som... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 10:44:24 EST The Guest House from Rumi I read this in a newsletter this morning and it was just too lovely to keep to myself. Embrace it all. <BR> <BR> The Guest House <BR> <BR> This being human is a guest house. <BR> Every morning a new arrival. <BR> <BR> A joy, a depression, a meanness, <BR> some momentary awareness comes <BR> as an unexpected visitor. <BR> <BR> Welcome and entertain them all! <BR> Even if they're a crowd of sorrows, <BR> who violently sweep your house <BR> empty of its furniture, <B... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 11:39:58 EST What do I want? What do I need? These two questions have come up frequently this past week. They say most of man's troubles are caused by both of these questions. LOL. <BR> <BR> My long weekend last weekend was quite busy. I was almost happy to go to work on Tuesday just so I could sit down. And now, here I sit at work wishing I could be more active during the day. This past week, I have also had a longing for my Bikram Yoga practice that I haven't had in a long time. I miss it mostly because it is a quick fix to so ... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 15:37:28 EST Moving forward and beyond There's a renovation project going on at my work. It's crazy. They moved me back up to my permanent location and I thought they were going to be done but man, I was surrounded by construction this morning. Worse than all the previous times which were bad as it is. Sigh. I have a moment of quiet now. I have a TV now nearby me - which frankly I don't like. Why are there so many TV's everywhere these days? Too much. Overkill, you can't even stand in line at the grocery store without en... Mon, 6 Feb 2012 15:49:26 EST February Plan It took most of this week to recuperate. I really have been going non-stop from one big project to another and this is exacerbated by a renovation project at my work that is finally coming to conclusion. Sigh. I originally had all these plans to go gung-ho for February and just felt I needed to take time out to rest this first week. It took me until last night to really realize that yes, I truly needed this week to recuperate. In the future, I will take into account the fact that I know I... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 09:53:07 EST LOVE to the POWER of 10 I've been working on this for some time and all the pieces of the puzzle have seem to just come together in the past few days. <BR> <BR> I have created a team on SparkPeople which is largely based on what I have learned on this journey. I wanted a team that was first and foremost based on learning SELF-LOVE and also one based on learning how to vision plan and decide on activities or goals that support that plan which all have basis first in loving oneself. It is not limited to weight-lo... Sat, 28 Jan 2012 12:58:04 EST January Wrap-up: Theme Revealed What was my Theme for January? Oh, I didn't blog my theme for January! That's ok, getting it in under the wire. ;) <BR> <BR> Originally my January Theme was going to be "Let's Get Physical" but I am saving that one for February when I don't have so many singing gigs. Looking back on January the theme really became "FEEL GOOD FIRST". This theme has emerged in all aspects of my life, more concretely in my singing but also in general life. <BR> <BR> I've had two huge solo opportunities tha... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 12:51:05 EST January Wrap-up: Theme Revealed "FEEL GOOD FIRST" What was my Theme for January? Oh, I didn't blog my theme for January! That's ok, getting it in under the wire. ;) <BR> <BR> Originally my January Theme was going to be "Let's Get Physical" but I am saving that one for February when I don't have so many singing gigs. Looking back on January the theme really became "FEEL GOOD FIRST". This theme has emerged in all aspects of my life, more concretely in my singing but also in general life. <BR> <BR> I've had two huge solo opportunities tha... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 12:50:35 EST I am human Yes, I am human. Surely I am not alone but I am feeling the sluggish effects of holiday eating and lack of exercise. I don't feel I have been too off track with the eating as I never stray too far from my healthy habits (other than my love of starbucks mochas nonfat, no whip) but some real, heart-pumping, sweat-inducing exercise is much needed. My clothing doesn't fit right or I just don't like any of it anymore leaving my closet uninspiring. bbbbbbbbbb. And I didn't even make my mommy's ... Thu, 29 Dec 2011 09:27:29 EST A Benchmark for the Holidays. As I continue to peel back the layers of who I am, developing authentic goals and the spark to reach them - I've been exploring events organization (along with my husband) and hope one day to combine my love of music, performance, yoga, yogadance and the pursuit of health and wellness into a career of offering events to the community. This week I feel I have reached a benchmark in my development. The event I produced last week in support of our local farmer's market is the first project I h... Fri, 9 Dec 2011 15:48:50 EST 10 Confessions [Confession Number 1] Well, it's the end of October and I didn't realize that I didn't put up an October theme. Whoops. <BR> <BR> [Confession Number 2] I had a lovely vacation this past month. I reconnected with the earth with some hiking, reconnected with yoga and yogadance. My husband and I spent "quality" time together and even did a life-coaching session together. We got massages and ayurvedic treatments. We ate our fill of apple cider donuts [CONFESSION] and also ate healthy food b... Wed, 26 Oct 2011 09:38:32 EST Theme for September: New Beginnings from Better Perspectives with TIME to TRANSITION Fall always brings a sense of new beginnings. The crispness in the air. The memories of the start of school. Having wrung out all the summer fun, the idea of a chance to start with a clean slate always sounds good. Often we are sad for the end of summer but at the same time looking forward to new routines and a change. Sound familiar? <BR> <BR> The seasons are changing and I am aware that it is natural to feel the effects of these changes in the body. Perhaps, a little cold or allergi... Tue, 6 Sep 2011 16:43:20 EST August Theme - Love and Gratitude Blossoms This will be quick as I go on my lunch break in 15 minutes. I love this theme for this month as the word blossoms can be taken as either a verb or a noun which is the result of my love and gratitude that I cultivated breaking the earth and blossoming. <BR> <BR> I just finished reading "The Hidden Messages of Water". If you haven't seen this book, at least flip through it at the library or local bookstore. The pictures tell a thousands words of how important our words, intentions and fee... Wed, 3 Aug 2011 12:53:07 EST Go by two's So, I'm pretty proud of myself for doing the 6 minute hips, glutes, thighs video on sparkpeople last night. I really didn't "feel like it" especially since I had just gotten home from acupuncture AND was starving hungry. But whilst, DH made dinner, I figured I can handle doing a 6 minutes video! And I did! Yeah for me. Today, I finally went swimming on my lunch hour. I've been wanting to do that for a while but just kept procrastinating because it is a lot of running around in 60 minutes... Thu, 14 Jul 2011 16:34:25 EST Looking back at June and keeping it real... So Below were my "goals" for June and below each what happened with each of them. Keepin' it real and using this as a tool to find out discover realistic expectations for myself: <BR> <BR> My theme for JUNE was "Preparations and calculations" <BR> <BR> *HEALTH: SCORECARD - 1.7 out of the 5 activities planned. <BR> <BR> *10-day ayurvedic detox - CANCELLED, 20% - 2 days out of the 10 <BR> I originally wanted to do this to help reduce cravings for pasta but 2 days into I realized it wasn't... Tue, 12 Jul 2011 12:12:16 EST Expect to meet resistance With any goal or statement of starting something new, one should always expect to meet resistance and road blocks. It's like clockwork. So I laid out a plan yesterday to go to Bikram 3 times this week. I planned to go tonight but alas we got an email from some friends who are moving away (far away) asking us if we could get together tonight before they leave. Seeing as there are so many people they need to say goodbye to, it is easier for us to bend our calendar to them. So... no Bikram ... Tue, 12 Jul 2011 08:38:09 EST Walking my talk This past weekend was a glorious weekend of truly following our hearts as a couple. Listening to our instincts and spending time in the Berkshires doing as we please. In that regard, to have had a weekend where nothing was too stringently planned and the word "should" was absolutely never uttered, was an absolute win for me as a human being. YEAH! I celebrate my ability to walk my talk in asking the question what will bring me the most joy in this moment AND in the next. It was a wonderfu... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 16:24:45 EST July Theme: What will bring me the most joy in this moment AND the next? I had probably the best weekend of my life this past long weekend. Trips to the beach, seeing wolves and wolf puppies, dream-building looking at RV's with my husband, singing the national anthem for veterans, viewing fireworks from a kayak and then kayaking back by moonlight, seeing swans on the river (100's of them), IHOP breakfast immediately after celebrating our 15 year wedding anniversary , another beach day by myself this time meditation and playing the guitar, anniversary dinner, red ... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 16:31:56 EST Is weight loss a goal or result? "Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" - Mahatma Gandhi. I fell in love with that quote when I was at Kripalu at the end of May. When I think of the times when I consider that I was truly happy, this rings true. However it is not a very comforting phrase is it? What if you don't know what to think? Don't like what you have to say? And well, don't particularly care for what you do, but hey it's all you know? How daunting it must be to then "be hap... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 16:15:14 EST Theme for June: Preparations and Calculations I had a whole other theme planned for June but realized as we are already eight days into June that so far this month has been about preparations and calculations. I am about to venture into some new directions and, well, right now I am preparing and making calculations so that venture goes smoothly. <BR> <BR> I have invested in some new healthy living appliances - an automatic sprouter and dehydrator to name a few in preparation to experiment with a raw food diet for the summer. I have be... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 12:51:46 EST THEME for MAY: Setting Intentions and Acting on Boundaries I have been hard at work designing, stage directing and performing in a cabaret that finally opens tomorrow. If you are in the Boston, MA area – send me a sparkmail and I will forward you the information. The final result is a visually stunning and entertaining show, however, it has had many obstacles from the first day. We learn from obstacles though, don’t we? In the past two weeks, particularly, I learned that it is not enough to know your boundaries but to act upon them. Without too ... Thu, 5 May 2011 12:28:26 EST April theme: Air out the house Hello, April! Well, mother nature had an April's Fool joke on us in the East Coast with SNOW! But... when the sun has been out so far this month, I can at least tell it's closer to the Earth and ... my heart just sings for summer. <BR> <BR> I had said I would be at my mid-term goal of 154 pounds by April. Symantecs - what does by April mean? The beginning? The end? I'm choosing the end of April. My birthday is on the 29th so it would be nice to get there or close by then. <BR> I'm at ... Thu, 7 Apr 2011 09:45:53 EST Is it mid-march already? Ah, well. Busy, busy, busy. I'm not very internet forward these days for a few reasons, but here are some things I've been thinking about. <BR> <BR> I have been seriously looking at what is next for me as far as a career. I am lucky in that I have a job and am thankful for it, but having done the same thing for the past 5 years and knowing I have more to give, it definitely became apparent that it is time to take action. With that said and without going into too many details (as this is ... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 10:55:36 EST