LACIEKAY's SparkPeople Blog LACIEKAY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community ugh just kill me so I log into SparkPeople after feeling particularly pudgy. and boy was I right. I gained back every single pound plus 1 I don't even know what to do..... Very very emotional right now. Mon, 23 Feb 2015 11:52:36 EST weekends are my downfall. It was my birthday on Friday. I'm officially a quarter of a century old. And I had a moment yesterday where I was sitting at my kitchen table in tears over what I consumed in Saturday. I almost threw in the towel.... this losing weight thing is so hard.... my husband had terrible eating habits so he is still on the eating schedule I had when I was pregnant. I have a gym membership.... but no time to go. I finally packed all the kids and my husband up to go to the local YMCA... and they were c... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 14:10:22 EST we decided to be kitties today I find when I'm not focusing on food.... I'm a much cooler mom <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 16 Jan 2014 14:13:33 EST boo. After eating decent but a half pitcher of raspberry daiquiri... I gained 4 lbs. Just boo. Here's to picking myself up off the floor when all I really wanna do is eat an entire bag of jalapeno pizza rolls. Mon, 21 Oct 2013 13:18:19 EST I am feeling MUCH better about doing this all again. Somehow... I've lost quite a bit of weight in the past few days. I had a C-section on October 4th and since then I've lost more than 20lbs... yay water weight! So I went from my pregnancy weight of 290-295 (I can't remember exactly) down to 285.6 then weighed myself two days ago and was delighted to find I was down to 274.4 and today.... I'm at 268.8 I'm thinking that the past two days of dieting has helped me shed the extra water weight from the IV fluids and just pregnancy in general. And h... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 12:09:52 EST I'm baaaack! ... with a new baby. :) Long time no see, sparkpeoples! I'm back with one more kid than I already had. (and a tubal.. so no more surprise pregnancies.) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Meet Cameron Alexander... our newest and final addition to our family. He's a doll and a great baby... during the day. lol. <BR> So I gained back every bit of weight I lost last year. Sigh.... here we go again! So much for not over indulging in my pregnancy. Cameron is 10 days old and fo... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 19:00:30 EST Big news So.... i was 1.2lbs away from my halfway point. I had almost reached 50lbs lost. Annnnnd I find out I'm pregnant. Wow, what a punch in the gut! Oh well, after much meditation and discussion with my husband... I've decided that I'm not going to over indulge in this pregnancy. I don't want to gain more than is necessary for a healthy baby. When I'm healed from my c-section this fall, I will start again. I'm staying on sparkpeople because I do plan on keeping track of calories. As I understand,... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 13:37:53 EST Just checking in. It's been crazy around here. School and sickness, church and work, kids and relationship issues! I've spent the last week on the phone, on xbox or at school. that's what it feels like! not to mention battling a massive cold. i've really been down and out the past 5 days especially. the good news is, i have 1.2lbs more to lose to hit the -50lbs mark. i am stoked to take progress pictures.. (i take progress pics ever 25lbs lost) <BR> it's been a rough few weeks for dieting.. i gained a pound 2 ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 14:13:50 EST it's been a busy week. thousands of dollars have been spent... i received my student loan and i spent most of it on stuff we've been putting off for awhile. like.. a new laptop. i'm sitting on the floor in front of our tv because the screen of my laptop is cracked.. and we'd rather buy a new laptop than pay the same price for just a new screen. a lot of other stuff was bought as well... bills paid, fines paid, medicine purchased, clothes and shoes. a lot of running around! <BR> good news is i've pretty well jumped ... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 12:39:12 EST what an awful week! i ate too much just about every day this week! i don't know what has gotten into me. oh well.. i'm gonna hold myself responsible for it and attempt to mop up the mess! good news is i finally got my YMCA membership yesterday so while i ate at a buffet and had cookies last night... i did work out yesterday! better than nothing i guess. unfortunately i doubt i will lose the 3.8lbs i needed to reach my next goal this week.. hopefully next week though. Thu, 7 Feb 2013 09:20:55 EST i have to be the most annoying sparkperson ever. i'm just... SO optimistic all the time.. lol. <BR> today i'm going to brag on my husband. it is so nice to have a supportive husband... he didn't start out that way.. but now that i'm close to the -50lbs mark he's came around. i'm super moody because (TMI) my periods are regulating.. i had 2 periods last year. that's that i've lost a good amount of weight they're regulating.. so strange. usually when you lose a LOT of weight they'll disappear.. mine did when i gained a lot. i haven't ... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 12:25:07 EST super quick blog entry. measurements day tomorrow. yayy. Wed, 30 Jan 2013 21:32:19 EST Ahhh... weight loss and bragging rights. I am 44lbs down. <BR> That feels fantastic. I'm still losing and I still have a lot to lose... at least 61lbs still. It's getting close to the 50lbs mark though! <BR> I've been slacking on working out. I've been lazy, I admit. For some reason I'm just soooo blah lately. Probably because I enjoy being lazy and I've been so so busy lately. It feels good to be busy though. Especially after so many months of just parenting and household duties. Yep, it's good to get out of the house. <BR> I'm goi... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 10:07:13 EST Weighing in each week. And practicing writing skills. ((I'm exercising my college level writing skills. If you see grammar or punctuation flaws, please tell me!! We are only doing paragraphs so far so this is not meant to be an essay. My instructor is a real stickler for English and I really want to excel in everything I can this semester. Thanks!)) <BR> I'm an advocate for weighing in each week. Weight really does fluctuate each day, throughout the day. Some days you're heavier than others. I read somewhere that you can hold up to 10 lbs j... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 11:33:38 EST just checking in. i'm gonna keep this short but sweet. i had a woohoo moment today involving the possibility that i may be able to fit on a rollercoaster this summer. i'm stoked. haha. Wed, 23 Jan 2013 11:02:02 EST pretty busy day today. i have lunch with a frew new friends at 11:30.. i'm super excited. i'm very, very suspicious of people and frankly, i've had the same best friend for almost 10 years. i've swapped in a few other friends.. very few... like 3... over those ten years... but i don't really stray too far from the super twosome that is me and my friend. <BR> partially this is because i'm a bit anti social. okay, really anti social.. i prefer total quiet for most of my day. if i want to flap my jaws at somebody, i c... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 10:32:11 EST Good news, bad news. Good news is... i lost another 4lbs! i'm now at the -40lbs mark!! yayyy.. that means i'm just 10lbs and approximately 3 weeks away from my next set of progress pictures.. and approximately 4 weeks away from being HALFWAY DONE! i'm stoked. lol. <BR> now... the bad news. well, hubby has fallen completely off the wagon. he's eating like he normally does.. and i'm not giving up on healthy lunches. he's a grown man and can eat what he wants to.. but if he wants me to pack his lunch, his butt will ... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 22:29:29 EST i gained collarbones. sort of. (pictures) so yesterday was my birthday and i had a chance to hit up one of my former all time favorite places to eat. the all you can eat foodgasm that is the sirloin stockade. and i didn't. instead i had a low calorie day because i had a massive dose of salad the night before.. and not exactly the healthy kind. it was fat free ranch..but it was way too much. and way too much cheese. so it was a guilt make up day yesterday. i didn't really give the trip to the restaurant a third thought.. i'd be lying ... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 12:24:29 EST my experience on phentermine. ((posted this in the phentermine sparkteam)) <BR> i figure i may as well record it considering i was looking for all the information i could before i started.. a lot of people commenting on the first week, not enough check in later on. <BR> i've been on phentermine for... 2 months and 9 days. it is a fantastic tool to kick start weight loss. it really helped me have hope for the 100+ pounds i have to lose. as every one who tries phentermine says... it is NOT a miracle pill. it is only a tool ... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 10:18:06 EST productive day. or rather... week. i went back to school this week! taking 3 classes. Math 118, English 111 and Intro to Microcomputers 101. good stuff, ladies and gents! finally getting back in school after taking last semester and the summer off. stuff got hectic! and at first i was stubborn about going to school THIS semester.. i mean, it seriously cuts into my vegging out and tv time. lol. my, oh my how i've changed in the past 3 months... my mission is to be a better me.. and it's positively impacting m... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:27:58 EST officially 37lbs down. and i'm frustrated. while my tight sweatpants are now loose... my shirts are ALL unflattering on me. i'm now wearing hoodies and baggy tshirts by choice more than i did at 285. <BR> i feel guilty feeling like this.. i'm blessed and i love that i've lost this weight.. but i'm just ready for the weight to come off where i want it to... i don't want to lose inches in my legs and my butt... but that seems to be the only place that's getting smaller.. oh, and my boobs. grr. <BR> this is a struggle... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 12:33:05 EST checking in. haven't been blogging like i should... i figured i'd step in and check in. <BR> i've been eating well.. probably less than i should.. but i haven't noticed any issues with weight loss when i eat less than i should.. so i'm not too worried. i AM feeling a little weak today so i may eat towards the top of my range if not a little more. i hadn't realized i'd eaten so little every day this week. <BR> i worked out yesterday... i finally a yoga video i like. ''yoga for runners'' haha. yes, i'm stil... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 12:56:56 EST Reached another goal! today i weigh 251lbs. That is the weight that i was in 2007 -- when i decided to lose weight the first time! <BR> SO... from this point forward.. it's like a reset button.. lol. and finally! i worked my butt of to get here... thank god i am finally here. next goal is 230. that's what i weighed before i got pregnant. <BR> gotta keep it short today.. just had to share that. ;) good night! Sun, 6 Jan 2013 21:41:39 EST so proud. (a happy rant) i am so.. so proud of my dear husband. he started his journey 2 days ago and has done awesome sticking to his diet plan. he is eating 1500-1800 a day. yesterday he even ate a little under.. i've been giving him pep talks and educating him about why that's not okay to do often. he's really receptive and excited about his lifestyle change. he went to a celebrate recovery meeting in greenfield, in (an hour away) and the rumor was they were going to eat at cracker barrel afterward... so he but hi... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 09:34:24 EST hubby started his diet today! i'm so proud! <em>224</em> <BR> thinking of it is actually giving me motivation to work out right now.. and i wasn't going to! <BR> yup, still slacking a bit.. but at least i'm not over indulging like i was. i'm not back to where i was in early december.. but i'm working on it. working out some and eating better at least... it's hard to climb back on when you fall off.. even if it was just a week ish. <BR> one thing is for sure.. i'm definitely not ready to stop losing weight. onward we g... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 20:48:08 EST by some kinda weight loss miracle i lost 2lbs in the last week and a half. i can't believe that.. with the amount i've been eating. i can't wait for hubs to go back to work so i can get my routine back! my lack of exercise is affecting my eating habits <em>198</em> <BR> enough complaining about that though... i've officially lost 30lbs. which is no feat to ignore. <BR> happy new year's! i'm proud to say i didn't wait for new year's to start this journey.. i did it 2 weeks before thanksgiving! <em>236</em> Mon, 31 Dec 2012 19:06:55 EST after 3 days.. i'm back! i've taken a bit of a break from blogging... but i'm happy to report that i've been on track since my last post! been eating at the low end of my calorie range to hopefully offset the terrible turn of events this christmas holiday. my massive overeating. tomorrow is my mother in law's christmas event.. but i'm pretty sure that i've got my head on straight. i'll be fine. <BR> i haven't been working out like i should.. just kinda squeezing in 10 minutes here and there whenever i can. hubby is a... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 14:16:46 EST whoa. i totally and completely blew my sh*t the past 3 days. and i mean... totally. and i'm not talking ''oh i ate 1800 calories a day''... no.. i mean.. i way, way over indulged. <BR> but it's okay. i'm done. it happens. i fell off.. for a very short period of time.. but i'm back on starting right now. i ate... a lot... candy, cookies, ham, potatoes, mac and cheese, fudge... all of it. yuck. <BR> anyway. i think i got it out of my system.. <BR> hubs got me a pedometer and a heart rate monitor for... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 23:31:19 EST WAY over ate last night! <img src="">but it's all good! my day still came out under 2000 calories.. which is too much to lose weight but not enough to gain. and 1 day isn't going to dramatically impact my weight, anyway! <BR> the plus is... i still didn't touch the candy bar in the cabinet. thank god the ''all or nothing'' thing isn't an option for me anymore. i had an awesome dinner with the hubs... and it was worth it. <BR> bonus. my brother told my husband th... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 15:33:39 EST suck it up, and one day you won't have to suck it in <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Thank God it's Friday. <BR> The hubs is home until January 2nd... that's both good and bad. May the spark stay with me... i tend to eat more when he's around. and exercise MUCH less..... oy. Fri, 21 Dec 2012 10:30:04 EST 28 lbs down. 77 to go! my goodness at the rate my body has been losing.. i'd say it was beyond ready to lose weight! lol. 3.5 lbs lost last week.. and i was terrified the scale wouldn't budge. i'm beginning to think i have perception anxiety... i made that term up. heh. i do the same thing grocery shopping.. skimp on everything on my list because i'm convinced i won't come out on budget at the cash register.. i'm always $10-$20 under. i hope it continues with my weight loss though! <BR> it's getting to be surreal. ... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 11:40:39 EST Happy Wednesday! Tomorrow is weigh in day. and i had to stop myself from grabbing the scale out of anxiety and want to ''just get it over with'' <BR> i succeeded... you never know, i might lose another half an ounce by tomorrow :) <BR> been slacking on my blogs lately, just trying to check in really. been changing my exercise goals every day this week.. still unsure where i'm supposed to be! but whatever, it's worked so far so i'm just gonna keep doing it. i figure any amount of activity i do is better than b... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 14:35:40 EST back on track whew, that was close! i had to drag my butt to work out yesterday morning.. and even had to go back and track some stuff today that i didn't track yesterday.. and boy do they add up. 2 chicken nuggets, 2 bites of cookie dough and a jelly gumdrop <em>198</em> almost 250 calories! kicking myself in the butt for that, but it's okay.. i'm just a little over where i wanted to be anyway. <BR> i went jogging last night.. and overrall felt great about my day. <BR> i signed up for the spring seme... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 11:05:09 EST after an incredibly lazy, nearly gluttonous weekend i worked out, and i feel good about it. i can feel myself slipping a bit.. not quite as enthusiastic about eating well and working out as i was, say, a week ago... but i think it will get better. i tend to be pretty low key on the weekends. <BR> i'm nervous about the next 2 weeks. first, weigh in day on thursday.. i've been slacking the past week and i don't know what the outcome will be. next is the fact that my husband will be home for a week and a half... he eats like a horse and sometimes... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 13:16:42 EST close.. but not quite! i made a mini goal today.. to eat my absolute minimum calories to help bring down my weekly average.. i somewhat failed. but i didn't eat over my calories or even hit my high calorie range.. so not too bad. <BR> another goal i decided... to ride a horse. i've always assumed i was too big to... but now that i've got the motivation up, that's what i want to do. <BR> that's all! been a busy weekend. Sun, 16 Dec 2012 23:18:46 EST almost binged tonight. close... very close... actually, i still count it as a binge, even though i fell within my calorie range. but at least i stopped before i got to the snowballs.. i just ate too much potato soup. i went from ''i'm eating enough to feed my sick body'' to ''f*ck it. i hate my husband tonight. i'm gonna eat 2 bowls of potato soup and then a snowball. i'm putting cream cheese AND shredded cheese in that sh*t too." <BR> so. i'm a little ashamed. wondering what my weigh in result is going to be on th... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 19:14:46 EST just a lil' bit of progress for ya. <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> just a bit.... went from a super belly to just a belly.. lol. little steps, ladies and gents! for the first time.. uh ever.. i think i look better in real life than what shows in these pics! posting some more on my sparkpeople album :) (25lbs down) Fri, 14 Dec 2012 22:09:44 EST still sick. but i have made it to 25 lbs lost! progress pics tomorrow i think... <BR> i attempted a low impact cardio workout today.. it was awful.. but i got through it. better than nothing. <BR> keeping it short today... like i said, progress pics tomorrow. won't be a huge difference but in another 25, there will be! Thu, 13 Dec 2012 21:39:04 EST not feeling too well. so i picked my butt up and went for a jog last night.. it was 20 degrees outside. and now, despite the entire internet telling me that getting sick from cold weather is an old wives tale... <BR> i'm now sick... bleh. hopefully it's just some irritation in my throat causing me to hurt and cough... but i'm definitely dragging my butt to get anything done. and i certainly didn't want to climb out of bed this morning. <BR> consequently.. i've eaten more than usual today. when i get sick i go int... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 14:22:18 EST calling BS on a sparkpeople workout vid. and stocking stuffers. I just did the fat blaster video.... 28 minutes of cardio and strength training. i sweat my figurative balls off. my fitness tracker CLAIMS i burned 139 calories. it must be missing a 0 at the end.. because that was by far the hardest sparkpeople video i've done. they claim you burn 200 calories for a 10 minute kickboxing video.. i mean really. there's just no way... i'm thinking someone needs to do a double check on all that noise... i'm more inclined to believe i burned 139 calories on Tota... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 13:39:53 EST wow. i just have to add that i controlled myself around my Achilles heel. chocolate iced bavarian cream donuts. <BR> wow. <BR> just wow. Mon, 10 Dec 2012 14:43:15 EST i love this website. i really do. i just read someone's blog.. and they listed their goals for the week. i just think that's fan-flippin-tastic... lol. i don't have too much going in my life besides the usual.. kids and husband. diet and exercise. so my stuff is pretty simple.. but i admire people that take it to that level. very inspiring! <BR> so we went to church today.... it was a good time overrall. ember broke my heart over chocolate donuts and her sunday school class. man i wish i could just bottle them up... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 23:25:21 EST puh-lease let this be a good night! after 2 days of very tense moments with my husband.... tonight is date night. i pray it's a good one.. although the outlook isn't very well. <BR> going out to eat again. buffalo chicken sandwich and broccoli with a diet coke............ not so bad... but it's saturday so i cut myself a break on the weekends. as long as i don't surpass my calories for the day, i don't think too much about it. <BR> got lots to do today! clean the house, assemble the new vacuum, give the kids a bath, find a baby... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 12:38:53 EST the most important advice to any one losing weight. one hour at a time. <BR> one day at a time. <BR> one week at a time. <BR> sometime's it's so overwhelming that i still have 80 lbs to lose... holy cow. literally. <BR> however... i have to focus on what i've done so far. 20lbs is pretty damn good no matter how you twist it... and i'm much happier than i was a month ago. <BR> one thing that motivates me most is progress pictures. i love it. i love seeing people living a life they never thought they'd have, or have back. it's so inspiring. <BR>... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 14:38:43 EST 22 mother effing pounds!! excuse the almost bad language. <BR> i can't believe it!! my doctor's scale and my scale are off by a substantial amount... something like 5 lbs. but i'm going by my scale because.. well, that's the one i use weekly. in the end i'll just be aware that it's a 5lb fluctuation at the doctor. <BR> i'm so excited... i've been waiting for the 20lbs mark (unknowingly) and now it feels real! i'm so proud of myself for doing this the right way... and wow. it's working. and i feel fantastic... seriousl... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 09:09:35 EST whew. i'm tired. and still determined.... i don't think i've lost this week though. we will see. i worked myself to death today.. lol. all of my muscles are tired.. tomorrow is definitely a rest day.. <BR> got a good dinner though. probably too good... but what can ya do. i tracked it and i estimated correctly.. if i did then i didn't do too bad. <BR> i thought i'd have more to type today.. hmm... i guess now. i'll cut it short for the day. ta-ta! <em>129</em> Wed, 5 Dec 2012 21:02:55 EST it's official. and yoga. 16lbs lost! <BR> it's doctor official. however i'm a bit disappointed that i haven't lost any weight since last Thursday.... but i'm still going to weigh in this Thursday and record it like normal. i'll also be doing my first measurements... i hope some have changed for the better! <BR> so. i was thinking. i don't get yoga. i tried it. i didn't hate it. but.. i just didn't get much of a workout from it... and sparkpeople seems to agree with me as far as calories burned. i think i'll leave tha... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 17:38:03 EST i needed that. so i had an amazing weekend... possibly the best so far this year. (it's been a bit of a rollercoaster year.) <BR> friday night... as i documented on here already.. i overate.. and it was a bit hairy as far as the kids went. they were ready to go home by the time we got our food. but it was still fun. saturday i had a pretty productive day as far as exercise and cleaning, and saturday night hubs and i went on a dinner-movie style date... and it wasn't planned which made it even better! hubby ... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 11:11:56 EST oh, indigestion. weekends.... will be the death of me. i wayyy overate friday night.. it was supposed to be THE high calorie day of the week. then we went out again last night.. i didn't eat nearly as much.. but i still ate more than i wanted to. AND half a box of cookie dough bites at the movies... resulting in the 2nd morning in a row of indigestion. ugh. <BR> was going to take a break from working out today.... i guess not! oh well.. i'm actually quite enjoying it. i had a fabulous night with my husband la... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 09:35:38 EST one pound of fat. “Hello, do you know me? If you don’t, you should. <BR> I’m a pound of fat. <BR> And I’m the happiest pound of fat that you would ever want to meet. <BR> Want to know why? <BR> It’s because no one ever wants to lose me. <BR> I’m only ONE pound, just a pound! <BR> Everyone wants to lose three pounds, five pounds, or fifteen pounds. <BR> Never only one. <BR> So I just stick around and happily keep you fat. <BR> Then I add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice it. <BR>... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 21:38:05 EST