KT-NICHOLS-13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KT%2DNICHOLS%2D13 KT-NICHOLS-13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dietary freedom is beyond liberating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753837 More good stuff from Sohee Fit: <BR> <BR> "I just got off the phone with Layne Norton and he brought up a point that is so strikingly true that I have to share this with you all: <BR> <BR> Just because you *can* eat ice cream, doesn't mean you have to. Ever. <BR> And just because you eat chicken today doesn't mean you can't eat steak tomorrow. <BR> <BR> The whole point of eating a diet that puts no foods off-limits is not that you *should* eat something just because you *can*; rather, you ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 18:55:07 EST You're the only one who cares http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749642 You step on the scale with trepidation in the morning and you hold your breath as you wait for the blinking digits to appear. <BR> <BR> Will it be a pound up? Two pounds up? The same? <BR> <BR> As far as you're concerned, your mood for the day will depend entirely upon the number that stares back at you. It's been this way for as long as you can remember. <BR> <BR> One second... two seconds... <BR> <BR> ...you're up 0.8lbs. <BR> <BR> You hang your head in disappointment and trudge back t... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 11:58:22 EST January 6, 2014 I started again by stopping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735013 I stopped weighing myself on January 6, 2014. <BR> The scale only measures one thing and it does not define me as a person. <BR> <BR> I stopped stressing about the number on my clothes. <BR> That number doesn't define me. I wear what fits and what makes me feel good. <BR> <BR> I stopped dieting. <BR> Being afraid of food and what to eat or not to eat has controlled and choked my life for too long. I eat to support my goals. I eat my macros. Moderation is key. Nope I'm not perfect but ... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 00:56:19 EST "Normal Eating" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664458 *WAVES* Hi <BR> <BR> “Normal eating is going to the table hungry and eating until you are satisfied. It is being able to choose food you like and eat it and truly get enough of it—not just stop eating because you think you should. Normal eating is being able to give some thought to your food selection so you get nutritious food, but not being so wary and restrictive that you miss out on enjoyable food. Normal eating is giving yourself permission to eat sometimes because you are happy, sad ... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 16:27:10 EST A different way to think about water. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650234 I stopped drinking A LOT of water and other fluids. Why drink when I'm hungry? Why drink because someone else says I MUST drink 8 - 8oz of water a day without an ounce of science to back it up. I'm not dehydrated. I'm not thirsty all the time. I'm so happy not to carry around a water bottle everywhere I go. I drink when I'm thirsty and I eat when I'm hungry. <BR> <BR> If ya want, check out the article. <BR> <BR> <link>www.universityherald.com/articles/81<BR>52/20140315/drink-water-q... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 19:33:12 EST Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630884 I've not weighed myself in over a month. <BR> I've not binged in over a month. <BR> I'm eating to sustain my lifestyle. <BR> I'm learning what it feels like to be done. <BR> Within a month I have progressed in lifting ... <BR> 75 lbs on the bench press <BR> 175 lbs on the leg press <BR> I no longer avoid the weight room. <BR> I'm learning that taking up space is okay. <BR> I've started sleeping better & feeling better. <BR> I've learned that some people should not subscribe to drink more ... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 13:05:07 EST Cardio and Lifting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628609 I went from having no workout partners for years to two and a half. LOL <BR> <BR> I lift weights with one partner. <BR> Cardio is on tap with the other. <BR> My half is the Mr ... we may or may not do something together on the weekends. <BR> <BR> Now that I'm fueling more appropriately my workouts are easier and less devastating to my body. I lift heavy weights and have progressed quickly. The cardio is just fun ... most days. I'm working on body recomp instead of fat loss at the moment... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 19:32:50 EST Slow and Steady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616108 I haven't posted any blogs lately but that doesn't mean I haven't been around. <BR> <BR> I'm slowly trying to reprogram myself ... body and mind. With that and the vast amount of information I've been taking in I certainly don't want to be "that person" ... you know the one who suddenly discovers something new and shinny and thinks everyone should come along and play. HA! <BR> <BR> The short version: <BR> I have bumped up my calorie intake and my binge eating episodes have been reduced. ... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 16:13:36 EST Negative Talk ... It's EXHAUSTING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588123 Yup ... negative talk IS exhausting. And ... dare I say it - frustrating. <BR> <BR> If you talk negatively about yourself to yourself and others ... try to quiet that voice. Be kind. <BR> <BR> I used to call myself fat. I now refer to myself as curvy. <BR> <BR> I used to say I was going to go shopping at the fat woman's store. I now refer to them as ... wait for it ... a store. SHOCKING. Yup, I shop at a store that happens to carry clothes for women that have curves. <BR> <... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 13:17:04 EST Let's Eat & Workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587070 Food: <BR> Yo, it's hard to eat nutrient dense foods at a tune of 2,200 calories a day. <BR> Bumping up my calorie intake by 740 calories a day is SCARY. <BR> What's not scary ... not feeling the need to binge or "hunt" for food. <BR> What's even scarier ... discovering just how unhealthy my relationship is when it comes to food and food intake. <BR> What's amazing ... knowing and attempting to break the cycle. <BR> <BR> Workouts: <BR> I love lifting. Lifting heavy things and putting... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 15:40:32 EST First Consultation Completed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584437 At the end of 2013 I was at a point of desperation so I reached out to someone and asked for help with my binge eating, nutrition and workouts. Today I had my first consultation and it was an eye opener. We covered the basics ... the who, what and where and the down and dirty of my habits in the gym and in the frig. <BR> <BR> Here's the highlights: <BR> <BR> My binge eating is my body reacting to a too restricted diet aka calorie intake. I average about 1,500 calories daily and for a y... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 14:11:53 EST Discovering -binge eating and compulsive overeating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555376 I've been exploring binge eating disorder for sometime now. I've known for years that I have a problem and I've been able to "manage" it over the last few BUT I still need to come to terms with it and likely ask for some professional help. <BR> <BR> As an adult I have flashes of my childhood ... as far back as age five I was binge eating. I remember the shame that would come over me when my mother would confront me about wrappers she would find or foods that were missing. Even to this d... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 20:09:35 EST Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545548 I'm a bit frustrated ... <BR> Okay A LOT frustrated. <BR> <BR> Instead of diving head first into a vat of chocolate and peanut butter or an XL pizza I'll blog it out and then be done. Okay, maybe not done but I'll feel better. <BR> <BR> The gym I workout at allows me to bring a guest everyday, twice a day, once month or once a year ... basically if I'm in the gym my guest can be there too. SOOOO, I offered this to my workout friend that works down the street with me. I never asked her to... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 19:59:27 EST Dirty Girl Mud Run (with Photos) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525570 Before I get into the race details I want to send out a big THANK YOU to my SP friend HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE for responding to my distress call and encouraging me to go to this race. Thank you Holly ... in a moment of insecurity and self doubt you reached out and help me accomplish what I started. <BR> <BR> Race Time! <BR> <BR> I initially thought I'd be doing this race alone ... ends up that my Mr and my workout partner came along. This was the FIRST race the Mr came to witness ... I think i... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 13:16:08 EST Something new http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519556 I've decided to try something new and it's a bit scary. <BR> <BR> Many of my waking hours are spent thinking about food and what I should and shouldn't consume. Admittedly, it gets exhausting. It can also feel very confining. I've been on this journey since 2006 ... yes it's been that long. A lifestyle like so many others, it has comes with pot-holes and rainbows alike. Sometimes I rejoice. Sometimes I kick rocks. It really depends on the day or rather the minute. <BR> <BR> I've not... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 16:26:13 EST wacko-a-doodle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508274 I'm up and down on the scale ... <BR> I'm trying not to get all wacko-a-doodle about it due to knowing I'm doing the best I can at this given point. Admittedly, it's still difficult not to let THAT number define me. <BR> <BR> Taking care of me ... <BR> <BR> I'm back on my Adrenal program and feeling much much better. Adrenals are amazing! <BR> <BR> I switched my thyroid medication from evening to mornings again. I believe my body has now adjusted to the meds so I don't feel like I'm... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 19:47:04 EST Mama needs a soak in a hot Epson salt bath tonight!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5498001 I found my workout bliss ... and it hurts so good. <BR> <BR> After my first circuit class at the gym (Wednesday) I made this note on FB ~ <BR> Dear Trainer Janet: I hate you! My legs hate you! The End. <BR> P.S. See you Tuesday and Wednesday night. *Air Kisses* <BR> <BR> Today (Friday) I made this note ~ <BR> Dear Trainer Janet: My quads and arms are on FIRE! See you for Abs class at noon ... please don't kill me. <BR> <BR> Trainer Janet is amazing. She's not MY personal trainer but mi... Fri, 27 Sep 2013 18:53:13 EST Finding My Way Back One Step at a Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496983 I can report that I'm taking steps to get my giggle back and that some of those steps are exhausting while others are awesomely wonderful. <BR> <BR> My weight is holding steady and I'm okay with that ... for now. I don't have the brain power or energy to get all fussy about a number on the scale as long as it stays within a 3 to 5 lbs range. There's a lesson in this people and I take comfort in it. <BR> <BR> I'm loving the gym and using it to aid in some self indulgent me time. On aver... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 15:17:06 EST Monday blues or something more? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487442 As I sat at my desk this morning I could feel the fatigue move over me like a storm cloud on a soon to be rainy day. It became heavy and troublesome. Motionless and powerless to what was happening I began to reflect ... <BR> <BR> My weekend was calm and relaxed. I did what I wanted ... when I wanted. There was minimal stress and I slept. The fatigue has become apart of my life again and the dark cloud follows me everywhere I go. <BR> <BR> Today a moment of clarity came and I remembere... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 16:22:49 EST ... Request for Information ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481695 Hey everyone ... <BR> <BR> I have two requests: <BR> <BR> First ... <BR> <BR> I was told that my basal metabolic burn rate is 1469 and that I should eat less than 1469 calories in a day to burn fat. What I am wonder is this ... if I workout - ST or Cardio - in a day (let's say 30 minute sessions) should I not consume a few more calories? If yes, how much more? <BR> <BR> Second ... <BR> <BR> I'm looking for a tasty low carb, low sugar, low filler, great tasting high protein powder ... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 13:31:10 EST Breathing again ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5468005 I caved and allowed my best friend to take me out of town this past weekend and can now say it was a blessing. We headed up the coast for a little girl time aka KT needs to get away and talk about "something." I fold within myself and become silent when things in my own world go sideways. My girl had become concerned when this time around seemed to have me in the darkest of places with no hope of return. <BR> <BR> We walked on the beach. <BR> Danced in our hotel room. <BR> Ate like we d... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 15:10:00 EST A different path http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456132 I still have that new gym glow happening, LOL! I don't care if I'm busy or tired ... I go! In the locker room I'm not shoving myself in a corner trying not to be seen either. I have found my people and my new favorite gym. Oh ya, can't forget to mention my love/hate relationship with that Arc Trainer. WOW! I'm working my way up from 30-minutes to 45-minutes ... it's tough at a 6 incline and 30 resistance. With this has come a new outlook and a more positive spin on things which helps ... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 12:19:55 EST The Shifting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447587 As I continue to blog and search within the shift has started. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up to this message: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1830540046.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I scrambled out of bed and packed my gym bag! I'm not waiting ... one more day to signup at the new gym. I'm giving myself an early birthday present TODAY. I have a call in to setup a trainer appointment too. I want to learn the ST training circuit as quickly as possible. <BR> <BR> This won... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 11:43:27 EST Taking Action http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5446638 I woke up this morning and the first thing I read was this ... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1254535081.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The Universe is speaking to me and I MUST listen and take action. Depression is a nasty beast, I've battled it on and off for years. At one point I was medicated for it plus I've sought professional help to discuss it. I know my signs and I know how far I can sink. I'd rather not continue to go down the path of darkness feeling cold and alone... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 15:40:11 EST Still searching http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445582 "Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don't." &#8213; Steve Maraboli <BR> <BR> Say what now? LOL! <BR> <BR> My funk aka depression continues. I fight it every day but chose to live in the darkness of it over the weekend. The only real outing I had on the calendar was lunch with a girlfriend wherein I was going to discuss some of the things going on. She had to cancel lunch at the ... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 18:50:48 EST *I feel beautiful and amazing at 202.6! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442601 Down 2 lbs. *SMILES* which means I'm at 202.6 this week. NICELY DONE! <BR> <BR> I think my body is trying to stabilize at this weight. I've been here for a long, long time. Plus, my latest blood tests show that my thyroid is now in normal ranges so the doctor won't be adjusting the dosage. <BR> <BR> I am also down in inches and it shows, plus I feel it. Sunday night I slid on a pair of jeans that have generally been snug in the past put felt fabulous that night. In addition to that... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 19:19:15 EST Being Mindful & Finding Balance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437726 This past weekend I had a lot going on and I was determined to have fun, stay mindful but not be ridged. Mission accomplished. <BR> <BR> Friday night the Mr and I went to see Justin Timberlake and Jay Z at Candlestick Park. They are truly talented individuals and yes, they actually sound just as good live as they do on an album. YES! This was our first and likely last stadium concert though. We had good seats but the venue was just too big. We got our monies worth and left happy, happ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 19:00:56 EST The Truth Is ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426761 The truth is ... I'm a little bit scared. A little bit angry. A little bit bitter. A little bit tired. <BR> <BR> A person in my life yesterday asked me what keeps me going? Why do I push so hard when things seem so stacked against me. I responded with ... because I don't know any other way. <BR> <BR> Honestly, A little piece of me died yesterday when I weighed in and the scale announced 204. The number isn't real and I know that but fighting so hard for so long only to see the same... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 19:53:45 EST Run or Dye! Ya, I'm Living Life in Color http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415577 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2143530879.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Saturday I was up and out of the house early but not too early for a race day. The Run or Dye 5K peeps were setting up and ready to take us on at 7:30 a.m. for check-ins. That meant I was leaving my place at 7:00 a.m. to head over to Candlestick Park by San Francisco. I'll admit now, it was strange not being up at the crack of dawn only to stumble out of the house to show up at the start line just as the sun de... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 13:21:33 EST Crossing Over to the Other Side (Part 3) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408751 A delayed Part 3 <BR> <BR> My home computer/office used to be in the living room at the old place so I'd come home from work (8 hrs on the computer) and sit at my desk to eat dinner, watch TV, play scrabble and mindlessly surf the internet. Now that I've moved the system into the spare room I rarely use the computer when I return home from work. This is definitely a positive step but I miss some of the connectivity I had - I'll get over it. It's healthier this way. Also, this should als... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 16:03:15 EST Crossing Over to the Other Side (Part 2) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397567 Part 2 <BR> <BR> The day before the movers were to show-up the Mr and his childhood friend from Jamaica headed off on a road trip to South Lake Tahoe. Through a college program in Jamaica she is able to be placed in various places during the summer to work here in the U.S. This trip brought her to our neck of the woods. Yup, worst timing EVER but I was secretly happy she arrived as the Mr was beaming with joy. This was the first visit from anyone back home. <BR> <BR> With the two of t... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 16:35:37 EST Crossing Over to the Other Side (Part 1) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395571 So much has happened in the last few weeks that my head is still spinning. <BR> <BR> After ten and half years in the same apartment - five of which were spent with the Mr living there - it became clear a change needed to happen when I started feeling trapped and like I was suffocating. <BR> <BR> Change may be constant but darn it, it's scary! I'd built a life in my small community and this home was the only one the Mr has known after his immigration to the U.S. Yet, I was determined ... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 20:18:26 EST So it begins ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380560 When faced with life changes I can either bend or break. I can either be overwhelmed or I can learn to deal. Over the past two weeks I've found myself taking a moment or two to take a deep breath and center myself. It's either that or the anxiety will overwhelm me. <BR> <BR> Here's what's been going on: <BR> <BR> Moving. <BR> Yup, we got the apartment we looked at. Packing, purging and general maintenance is happening. Plus, coordinating the installation of new utilities and extras... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 16:51:24 EST The Universe Has Responded http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366018 A week later the universe has responded ... <BR> <BR> I put in the universe that I wanted a safe and affordable two bedroom apartment. On Monday this week as I clicked on line I found just that. I made the appointment for the Mr and I to look at it. Today we received approval and will ink the lease this weekend. First official day in the new place, June 12th. <BR> <BR> The short version is ... I fell in love with it immediately and the Mr hated. Later I found out that he didn't hate ... Thu, 23 May 2013 19:53:46 EST suffocating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356537 I feel like I'm suffocating. Like the plastic bag has been pulled over my head and I'm fighting for air but it doesn't matter how much I fight I can't find relief. <BR> <BR> In general, all is good. In micro bits everything seems to be falling apart or at least cracking. Here's how it unfolds ... <BR> <BR> The Foster Kitties <BR> In general - it's all about the love, safety and health of the furry babies. I'm okay to let them go when foster care is complete. It'd break my heart but I k... Tue, 14 May 2013 16:37:26 EST Reactions to Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5351220 On Tuesday night I blogged about two kittens my Mr found on the roadside in a box. It would have been interesting to see what happened to my cortisol levels at the moment he walked in the door and I heard their little cries. If stress / crisis produces cortisol then my inner bits were drowning in it. <BR> <BR> It is in these situations that I learn A LOT about myself and where I am on my wellness journey. IF any emotion sends me into the depths of my food addiction it would be stress/an... Thu, 9 May 2013 17:13:51 EST A blog about life in the moment and how to deal with it - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349292 We live in a city that has a no kill, no judgment shelter. So why does the Mr find two baby (3 weeks, maybe) kitties in a box on the side of the street? My heart is so heavy and sad. I rushed them down to the Pet Food Express, due our Vet Clinic and Shelter being closed, and those fine folks stepped up and without question donated ALL the supplies necessary to get me & those babies through the night - well over a $100 worth of products. They bottle fed both babies before I left the store too.... Wed, 8 May 2013 00:23:41 EST Walking my path to a new destination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347840 I've been trying to write a blog entry for a week now. I write. I delete. I write again and again I delete. My thoughts seem fragmented. <BR> <BR> What's new: <BR> <BR> I've come to realization that I "want" to run due to having the mentality of I'm "only" walking. In short, after I had this realization I told myself to get over myself. Oh, I also told myself to remove the word ONLY! I walk, on average 6 miles a day now. That's nothing to degrade and that's exactly what I was doing. ... Mon, 6 May 2013 20:22:05 EST Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325536 Awhile back I thought I would try to get up early and have a bit of a workout before going into the office. I even went as far as to pinup a ST band exercise chart to follow. In two words ... EPIC FAIL. I like my sleep and I would rather snuggle down an extra 10 minutes then get up for an ST/cardio session any day, or rather every day. O_O <BR> <BR> Sunday I started working out again. That felt awesome! To tell ya the truth, I was getting a bit worried about that respiratory funk th... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 18:39:28 EST Conflicting Feelings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5321044 I have been fighting off a respiratory funk for about two weeks and can report now that's almost gone. YA! The cough that accompanied it/is brutal. One night I had to exit the commuter bus on my way home due to a coughing fit and go to the drugstore across the street to buy water and then call the Mr to come pick me up. It just wasn't pretty. Boo! The guy staring me down on the bus as tears streaked my face and the cough got worse ... *AWKWARD!* <BR> <BR> Workouts have been put on hold... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 16:11:56 EST It was a good day for working out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303793 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1806086031.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It was nice enough to run outside tonight but my mind told me to head to the gym so I did just that. I jumped on the treadmill and started my second week of training runs. At first I started out at a slooow jog. By the end of the session I was pushing myself faster and longer. <BR> <BR> When I hit a mile I cheered and almost hit the woman next to me so she could see I'd improved my time by one minute. I did... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 23:01:34 EST A picture is worth a thousand words. 5K Race photo's (Then to Now) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296391 As you'll see, there is a marked difference in my body shape and fitness. <BR> <BR> 1st 5K back in 2010 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l948580279.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 2nd 5K also in 2010 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1105211312.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 3rd 5K in 2011 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1080995761.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 1st 10K in 2011 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l100020191.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 4... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 15:43:33 EST 325 to 205!! ... What does Doc have to say?! ... 30 or 50 more?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295342 My weight stalled, again. I've been bouncing around the same five pounds for about three months now. *FRUSTRATING* <BR> <BR> Doc's office pinged me about a month ago to remind me to have my adrenals tested again. I had to wait and save the money for the cost of test and consultation to review the results. These tests aren't cheap kids!! <BR> <BR> Cortisol levels will muck up your weight loss along with other fun stuff on the inside and I've been treating my adrenals for the better part ... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 18:17:42 EST The Biggest Loser 5K - Sacramento, CA http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291496 I climbed out of my comfort zone this past weekend and traveled out of town so I could participate in a race. I NEVER thought I'd do that but now that I've broken that barrier there's no telling what will happen. HA! <BR> <BR> My fitness friend and I left Friday afternoon to travel to Sacramento. We didn't want to leave home at 4:30 a.m. on race day and we wanted to have a bit of girl fun too. <BR> <BR> We found the Fleet Feet Sports with relative ease that afternoon and picked up our ... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 18:55:58 EST Non-Scale Victory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280133 Reading. Coffee. Breakfast. Run. Relax. Now that's a perfect way to start a Saturday morning. <BR> <BR> Today was the day to start running so I strapped on my kicks and grabbed my iPod. I decided to start the C25K program again but this time I would run outside instead of the treadmill. That meant blocking out all the old fears. The first of many NSV today. <BR> <BR> Once outside, totally gorgeous out by the way, I started day one of the program. During the first running interval I came ... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 13:12:51 EST Chasing the sun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276375 For reasons I can't explain I am in love with the idea of running. To be a runner. To run. To strap on my kicks and head outside to run thrills me. <BR> <BR> Yet ... <BR> <BR> I have the heart of Jackrabbit but the ability to run like an elephant. I've said it before, and I'll say it again, I POUND the pavement. I am not, by any means, light on my feet and/or quick. <BR> <BR> Yet ... <BR> <BR> I've completed numerous races, some running some walk/running. I love race day. The st... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 18:59:56 EST When the bottom falls out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272929 When the bottom falls out from under you what do you do? <BR> <BR> a) Hold on for dear life with broken fingers nails and white knuckles <BR> b) Scream <BR> c) Cry <BR> d) Reach deep inside and find strength <BR> e) ALL OF THE ABOVE <BR> <BR> Ya, the answer is (e) all of the above. <BR> <BR> After months of advising the owner of the firm that we were running on empty and new clients needed to be obtained somehow, someway he finally got the message last week. Albeit to late to save us. ... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 15:13:19 EST Coming back around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260336 Food: <BR> I took a break from using my nutritional tracker here at SP. I do that when I get fed up and bitter about tracking everything I put in my mouth. This time around I lost weight and then maintained. When it started to feel like things were going sideways I came back around to the tracker. <BR> <BR> After a few days this is what I've noticed ... <BR> <BR> Lunch is very low in calories <BR> Dinner is higher in calories <BR> <BR> This imbalance can cause at least two things to ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 18:22:50 EST What's working http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252855 Today I feel strong, healthy, beautiful and accomplished. <BR> <BR> I headed for the gym for my usual ST session. I couldn't foresee then that I would have one of the best sessions yet. I've progressed from 5 to 7 to 8 to 10 lbs hand weights. I insisted that we move from 12 reps to 20 too. If we think we can't we must try, that is our motto. If today we couldn't maybe it will be next time. My workout friend is fantastic. We don't compete with each other but push each other to do our... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 17:34:26 EST Challenges. Rewards. Hobbies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227574 I was sucked into the vortex of random acts of eating over the past few weeks. I could feel the pull to the dark side and was able to fight it off & then I let go. Clearly this is something I need to dig deeper into. I need to figure out the pull and the release. I can tell ya, it's not always an emotional reaction to something. THEN, sometimes it is. Funny how life works! <BR> <BR> I crashed & burned the other day after the Mr was physically threatened at work. I ate after the call ca... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 18:13:40 EST